80,7kg " + " This time its not so easy for me, because I know its not just stuff in my intestines, but simply fat. I felt it during morning exercise and this time is no excuse possible even for a pro in excuses like I am.
Else I slept moderately and deep, dont remember any dreams again, it seems that sleeping with a woman next to me makes my dreams amplified and come more int on my consciousness. Its interesting phenomena. Anyhow, in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed after long time. Alarm with 10 minutes limit rung at 45th rep and 15 minute at 57th rep. But I must say I felt it better then I though, I felt whole exercise more grounded, stable, conscious, it felt good. And I felt how giving is this exercise too. Its amazing how inconspicuously these feelings leave my life, its just like if I look away for a while and this knowing of how its good and helping me is vanishing... amazing really.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS/core exercise, 33 sit-ups alternating with yoga v-sit, incredibly hard set. Especially when Im not escaping into mind on yoga v-sit its very rich, to feel all those muscle fibers how they flex/stretch/work. It makes all difference really, from just suffering and plain hold it changes into constant work with feeling and controlling my own body. I almost could not to stand up in the end...
Lats part was about dancing for about 20 minutes. Today very simple, I would even say crude dance, with not much imagination, but in some way it was good, because I could somehow get into basics and remember roots of my dancing and experience again how it feels to start dancing from this basic raw form into creativity. I enjoyed dancing today :)
II) Later afternoon I did yoga, about 1 hour set, I feel I have to start again after that experience 2 weeks ago. I did 2 asanas on 1st and 2nd chakra and 1 for other chakras up to Ajna chakra (6th chakra). But it seems its always strong for me. I just can adjust how much I allow to come. So I felt great I did easy set. Just 3 minutes in each asana, no difficult positions. I was in this melted post-yoga state anyway, just I felt I can handle that this time. Question is - is it any good if I CAN handle it? Wouldnt be real breakthrough to get to the point where I CAN NOT handle it? This question makes me crazy.
III) Afternoon I had special client for experiments with rebuilding neuro system in leg and find out how to help this client to walk normally again. Im curious how it will develop. Its possible to be in very good connection with this client so I see big potential to fix this chronical condition. Feels fascinating to have this opportunity to test Shiatsu on serious chronical condition.
IV) In the evening I was dancing for about an hour. I just felt I have to dance out my inability to resist eating sweets. It was not really easy in the beginning, I felt like cowered with spiderweb or something, yak. But it slowly got better and after about 45 minutes I got into nice, mindless state of natural dancing, it was nice. And After that hour I made short meditation to calm down and inspect what this dance made with me. Retrospectively - it moved what those sweets glued, so great :P
Topic of today is fear again, I feel like horrible coward. Im afraid to let go whats sure and safe and jump into unknown. Even I live normally like walking a thin ice this final "jump" is so incredible to do. Even to not backup everytime I get deeper in yoga or relationship. Im so easily make scared. Or it seems to me. But I have no idea how to change it. I hope yoga can show me the way in the way yoga do - in practice, in consious being.
středa 31. července 2013
úterý 30. července 2013
30.8.2013 - Again on the Ways
80kg “ + “ What a
surprise. Though it will be like 83 or something... seems lots of
swimming and water fun along with love making burn a lot.
I slept half night no
good in hot room with lot of stinging animals and half night very
good in cooler animal-free room :) I had some dreams and I even felt
them quite important, but I dont remember anything else then this
feeling of importance. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10
minutes of Sun Salutations, I tried as dynamic as possible and I was
swept so I had to do something good in this way :) I still feel I
have to be very careful but its uncomparably better then 2 or 3 days
ago, and I feel it good, I feel extremely important to be conscious
about my body during exercises and this back injury helped me to
return more into being conscious about what is my body doing.
Next 10 minutes I was
practicing ABS and core by Barstarz setup exercises. It wasnt easy at
all, my ABS condition dropped a lot in those days of healing (and
laziness :P – as my evil part whispers into my ear). But anyway I
felt good progress since yesterday, I felt myself quite motivated
today morning.
3rd block
today I dedicated to riding a stationary bike, second degree already
feels somehow ok and after 9 minutes I switched to 3rd
degree for 1 minute. I feel that good indicator of right intensity
that I swept really good. If I dont, then I need to either ride
faster or rise resistance. Seems to me as natural way to progress on
bike – but I need to be honest to myself and not praise myself if
its going good on high degree but I dont swept myself.
Last I was dancing for
about 13 minutes. Wasnt so easy today, I felt bit more today as
important movement exercise then real fun, somehow I could not jump
on the wave of joyful dancing.
I must say I was very
happy happy about today morning exercise, I hope to keep again on
this wave without dropping all the time off and on. Need to listen and
watch some motivation stuff again :) Maybe I should look on Warrior
again :P
Rest of the day was in the name of traveling and sorting, unpacking and all that. And in the evening I had very nice meeting with person I could talk about my ways and my experiences freely and without need to mask anything into simpler (yet less correct) words. It was very refreshing, I felt like we could talk for hours and hours. But it was also good to stop in right time. Its great to meet like-minded people :)
Wonderful day! Hot, full, intense, rich, another day to be grateful for.
Rest of the day was in the name of traveling and sorting, unpacking and all that. And in the evening I had very nice meeting with person I could talk about my ways and my experiences freely and without need to mask anything into simpler (yet less correct) words. It was very refreshing, I felt like we could talk for hours and hours. But it was also good to stop in right time. Its great to meet like-minded people :)
Wonderful day! Hot, full, intense, rich, another day to be grateful for.
29.7.2013 – Big travel and surviving the warm
?? Weight. Tonight I did
not slept well, it was very hot, but I could manage. Worst was bilion
of mosquitos and other stinging stuff feasting on a poor me, I could
not scratch enough. I had very interesting dream about being part of
something like huge gladiator club in modern times. But it was mostly
abut politics, on the beginning I was just one of gladiators and then
started some changes between others and it somehow happened that I
got supernatural powers and got to leading the club. But it did not
worked out, others not only decided to not follow but I was unable to
find out whats going on. Important bit was, that I felt that I felt
like Im powerful enough to kill them all in any way I would want, I
could rule them by threatening easily, but I did not wanted to, I did
not felt it even as an option. And I was desperate that I cant find
out whats going on and why its club falling apart. Lately I felt that
it was because I could play with them with my powers as I could and
when I found out that I have my powers I even did played with them
like they are but a dolls. I felt like this experience totally stoped
any chance to be on the same wave with others. But I can just guess,
non of them talked to me... I had also some other dream, but I fogot
it already.
In the morning I went for morning exercise, even
there wa again very strong resistance.
I) Starting with 10 minute of old-people-like Sun Salutations... :) I would really like to be able to learn how to not eat stuff what poisons me like this. Nobody forced me to, it was me and me only who do it of course, I want to work on this and learn that really. It was dificult to do those 10 minutes...
I) Starting with 10 minute of old-people-like Sun Salutations... :) I would really like to be able to learn how to not eat stuff what poisons me like this. Nobody forced me to, it was me and me only who do it of course, I want to work on this and learn that really. It was dificult to do those 10 minutes...
Next I was working 10
minutes of my core and ABS, after so many days of lazyness it went
horrible, I felt like I have no power in my ABS, but I did what I
could.. I felt it like 40% of what Im usually able to do. But still
its much more then not to do anything.
Last 20 minutes I was
dancing, first 10 minutes was horrible, I could not move or get on
wave, then Pachelbel's Canon fixed it a bit and I could jump on
dancing wave much better. And also have more energy for and from
dancing. Some music have this power :)
For the rest of the day I
did not much really, we traveled for long time and it as crazy hot so
after sorting all out was just enough time for watching a movie
together (brilliant Ice Age IV) and go to sleep.
28.7.2013 – Lake extravaganza
?? Weight. Tonight I
slept not very good, was waking up whole night and was very hot. Dont
remember any dreams. In the morning I was deciding if to go hike one
mountain or do some morning exercise and in the end I decided for
morning exercise.
But I did just mini
version, I still feel in restart mode from last days. Did 10 minutes
of Sun Salutations, holds and dynamic reps, it as itself not easy...
and then I did just 15 minutes of dancing, at least this I enjoyed
quite a lot and could even be in creative energy, it made me happy :)
Most of the day we spend
on so classic holiday activities that I would not believe it can meet
me as well – we simply spend whole day at lake, alternating between
swimming, resting and sunbathing, eating lunch and icecream... no
matter how mundane it may sound, for me it was first time in my life
since I spend most of the day like this and it was interesting
experience. Mainly because there wasnt really much options what to do
and what to plant my mind on. So I passed time getting brown, having
fun with infloatation matraces in water, watching all forms of human
beings and enjoying this human-antnest happening.
After getting back home
there wasnt much good atmosphere because of argument between 2 people
and I could not really do anything about it so I had to stand aside
and basically just enjoy fact, that we are in nature, which is for
me, city boy, extremely demanding and dificult, for my senses its
happening too much to be easy, its exactly same like when some
end-of-the-world farmer come to city, for his senses its overhelming
to be in city, for me its same to come to nature, all those animals
flying, crawling, jumping, zooming around, siting eveywhere on me and
doing theyr bussiness, everything contstantly moving and smelling by
number of unusual smells, colours changing all the time as sun is
progressing during the day on milions of facets of nature – leafes,
weeds, animals, water surfaces. Simply – I have lots to learn,
there are 2 kids here, I feel mostly as a 3rd one :P
27.7.2013 – River ride and lots of sun
?? Weight. I slept very
good tonight, it was very comfortable sleep we have here. Not luxury,
but comfortable, not too hard, not too soft, simply ideal :) I had
dreams tonight, in first I was on a mission to go through hell and
find Lucifer to delivr some message, I remember having interesting
conversation with very malformed, twisted little daemon, final
feeling was that even this wretched monster had feelings and dreams
and opions and I think meeting this poor creature was most important
part of my path through Hell. In other dream, my beloved was telling
me how some Italien brothers invite her for 3some and how it went...
It was just a dream, I was very curious what this dreám should tell
me :)
I did no morning
exercises today, wont throw excuses, I was simply too lazy, sleepy
and my back still hurting and I did not felt it good like this.
Instead I slept out and enjoyed morning with my love.
I had also client in the morning, cant write much about it, but I felt treatment very nice and nurishing for a client.
I had also client in the morning, cant write much about it, but I felt treatment very nice and nurishing for a client.
Later today we went on
the boat through a river in reed field, it was full of turns and
other ships, but non the less amazig trip, very clean water, nice
surrounding, boat with paddles, good company... sun and holiday
mood... it was very nice. Especially this experience with padling,
because its so complex actgivity, as it seems for me, sometimes it
felt like physics are simply not working! Made me crazy at times :)
Rest of the day went in
familly holiday mood, not so interesting to share, but its for me not
very common and it was quite educative for me with kids and so...
It was pĺeasantly sunny
day and dispite lots of challenges it was very nice day, I was very
tired when we went to sleep.
26.7.2013 – Big travel and water and sun bathing
?? Weight.
I slept
well and dont remember any dreams. I tried to do morning exercise,
but my back dont allowed me to bent forward and when this injury is
not treated with respect its VERY painful and disabling so I did not
pushed it and better gave good rest to it.
Short before noon we went for a holiday, its quite a drive, but th way went smooth and without any delays, lots of work and mid-hard trafic kept us awake enough to be on our toes and safe while driving.
Short before noon we went for a holiday, its quite a drive, but th way went smooth and without any delays, lots of work and mid-hard trafic kept us awake enough to be on our toes and safe while driving.
Afternoon we went
swimming to nearby lake and was practicing for boat trip we want to
make tomorrow. It was lots of fun actually :) We spend there couple
of hours. Nice time.
Evening we spent in family-holiday atmosphere. I was quite tired and went sleep quite early. It was very nice day.
Evening we spent in family-holiday atmosphere. I was quite tired and went sleep quite early. It was very nice day.
čtvrtek 25. července 2013
25.7.2013 love, yoga and bad back
78,3kg " - " lets see in next days if Im starting to be clean a bit or not
I slept very very deep and hard and long tonight, like a log. I even dremt about sleping! And even on very busy street... it was a bit crazy from observer point of view, but in dream it come to me totally natural to sleep on place where is milion people coming by... :) There was also some woman taking care of me and in the end (when place changed into some room) she come to me into "bed", but it did not felt sexualy, more maternally, like caring. Anyway, after several postponed alarms later up for morning exercise.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes, combination of holds and dynamic reps, as body needed and asked for. I was mainly happy to stand up and do it. And hell I did and in full scale, I was happy it worked out really.
Next 10 minutes I was working on my core and ABS, alternating 30x situps and yoga v-sit for extended periods. I can be in yoga vsit for over a minute in stabil position and working now on as straight back as possible during the sit, its amazing exercise. And also its crazy how hard is to do situps after such v-sit for over a minute, its very rich :p
3rd block I was biking on stationary bike, it felt like 3 minutes today for some reason, was fun, I felt like shit is coming out of my body and how Im breathing out sickness and heat which dont belong inside me. I realized this 2 weeks ago on the way from London, I felt like I haev to breath out something and what come out of me felt like wet heat air and I felt that as something as ventilating out this wet heat and that its something what was created in my body because of bad food and life-style and it needs to go away. I felt the same today during biking and I believe my sences and feelings that this warm heat went away. I also feel from what it is - milk products and/or sweets. Another reason to focus on my nutrition closely.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, enjoying creativity and fun very much, it was pure joy today :)
II) Later today I did short yoga, just something over an hour. Without Sun Salutations, Udianabandha and standing poses. I also did only basic asanas, because my back moved and I did not wanted to overdo and risk prolaps. It felt good to do yoga, even this little.
I slept very very deep and hard and long tonight, like a log. I even dremt about sleping! And even on very busy street... it was a bit crazy from observer point of view, but in dream it come to me totally natural to sleep on place where is milion people coming by... :) There was also some woman taking care of me and in the end (when place changed into some room) she come to me into "bed", but it did not felt sexualy, more maternally, like caring. Anyway, after several postponed alarms later up for morning exercise.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes, combination of holds and dynamic reps, as body needed and asked for. I was mainly happy to stand up and do it. And hell I did and in full scale, I was happy it worked out really.
Next 10 minutes I was working on my core and ABS, alternating 30x situps and yoga v-sit for extended periods. I can be in yoga vsit for over a minute in stabil position and working now on as straight back as possible during the sit, its amazing exercise. And also its crazy how hard is to do situps after such v-sit for over a minute, its very rich :p
3rd block I was biking on stationary bike, it felt like 3 minutes today for some reason, was fun, I felt like shit is coming out of my body and how Im breathing out sickness and heat which dont belong inside me. I realized this 2 weeks ago on the way from London, I felt like I haev to breath out something and what come out of me felt like wet heat air and I felt that as something as ventilating out this wet heat and that its something what was created in my body because of bad food and life-style and it needs to go away. I felt the same today during biking and I believe my sences and feelings that this warm heat went away. I also feel from what it is - milk products and/or sweets. Another reason to focus on my nutrition closely.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, enjoying creativity and fun very much, it was pure joy today :)
II) Later today I did short yoga, just something over an hour. Without Sun Salutations, Udianabandha and standing poses. I also did only basic asanas, because my back moved and I did not wanted to overdo and risk prolaps. It felt good to do yoga, even this little.
Today I did nothing
special realy, we enjoyed lots of mutual time with my beloved and
peaceful, easy-going atmophere. I felt so amaying today, I was
thinkin ghow gifted I am, that I can experience day like this –
with person I love most, not doing anything “meaningful” just
resting, having fun, enjoying small things and watch a great movie in
the evening. We need so little to be happy, and we have so much at
hand. I dont understand why there is so much anxieta and suffering in
our society, we have so much more then we need and yet so many people
are chasing something instead of just enjoying our gifts and doing
what makes us happy.
středa 24. července 2013
24.7.2013 - surviving my own excuses
78,9kg " - " no comment
Tonight I slept well and deep and had even a dream! I wrote it before it went out of my head completely. I forgot big part, but it as very interesting dream which left very strange feeling inside me. For totally unknown reason I was puppet of someone who told me what to do, but I was very skilled and international-class multibilionair but still obedient to this other person. In first part of the dream (I forgot completely this part, just remember that it happened) I did something remarkable for this person. In second part I agreed to realize project which felt totally crazy! I had to build icebergs as comercional project and I was negotiating with other people about it. I felt like a slave even I was one of most powerful and rich beings on the planet. Very interesting feeling. I felt totally trapped and I did not even understood and saw the leash which bounded me. I wasnt blackmailed or anything to be obedient, I just did even I felt that something is dying inside me when I let myself to do it. Does it should tell me, that Im slave of old ways even I have all resources to free myself from this slavery? Dosnt we all.... ? What a start of the day.
In the morning I did not made morning exercises, I set everything and started, but I was unable to do it, only excuses, but so strong I could not fight it today. I feel like Im fighting invisible force. I have to keep going to continue my way, I fell today, but I can rise again and I know I will. And I feel that this time it wont take months as before. I feel that it all started at Saturday with yoga and I wont let myself to be controlled by fear again, I will keep going and even if I will be weaker for some time, I will use first opportunity and breeze of power to jump back in and continue on my path. Maybe today, maybe tomorrow, but I will.
I feel that key right now is nutrition, Im stuck on sweets and it kills my taste for healthy food and cooking, I dont eat anything in last days basically, justa bit of vegetables and sweet/salt crap. I wish to break this vicious circle and start eating good again, I need energy from food but what I eat now takes energy from me, my head knows it, but my system is so in panic since Saturday that is making me to do stuff which stops my energy. I know its protection of a system and I cant blame my system for me, it was very scary what was happening in last days, but on other side, this defense is harming me as well.
Need to fix nutrition. Asap.
Rest of the day I was traveling a lot, went to swim to the lake, it was so hot that water almost could not cool me down! Amazing, but great anyway, I did not swam much so far this year so it was nice to swim again and have some fun. Also I relized something what I would not admit in a past - I enjoyed watching other people, it was pleasant to see so many healthy people, where I live I see more beer and fat people, but her was mayority of sportive, fit people and it was joy to see it really, also from esthetic point of view.
Interesting day today, I experieced all the scale of felings from resignation to complete satisfaction with life, beauty, annoyment, joy, fun... and enjoyed sun as well :) Great day in the end.
Tonight I slept well and deep and had even a dream! I wrote it before it went out of my head completely. I forgot big part, but it as very interesting dream which left very strange feeling inside me. For totally unknown reason I was puppet of someone who told me what to do, but I was very skilled and international-class multibilionair but still obedient to this other person. In first part of the dream (I forgot completely this part, just remember that it happened) I did something remarkable for this person. In second part I agreed to realize project which felt totally crazy! I had to build icebergs as comercional project and I was negotiating with other people about it. I felt like a slave even I was one of most powerful and rich beings on the planet. Very interesting feeling. I felt totally trapped and I did not even understood and saw the leash which bounded me. I wasnt blackmailed or anything to be obedient, I just did even I felt that something is dying inside me when I let myself to do it. Does it should tell me, that Im slave of old ways even I have all resources to free myself from this slavery? Dosnt we all.... ? What a start of the day.
In the morning I did not made morning exercises, I set everything and started, but I was unable to do it, only excuses, but so strong I could not fight it today. I feel like Im fighting invisible force. I have to keep going to continue my way, I fell today, but I can rise again and I know I will. And I feel that this time it wont take months as before. I feel that it all started at Saturday with yoga and I wont let myself to be controlled by fear again, I will keep going and even if I will be weaker for some time, I will use first opportunity and breeze of power to jump back in and continue on my path. Maybe today, maybe tomorrow, but I will.
I feel that key right now is nutrition, Im stuck on sweets and it kills my taste for healthy food and cooking, I dont eat anything in last days basically, justa bit of vegetables and sweet/salt crap. I wish to break this vicious circle and start eating good again, I need energy from food but what I eat now takes energy from me, my head knows it, but my system is so in panic since Saturday that is making me to do stuff which stops my energy. I know its protection of a system and I cant blame my system for me, it was very scary what was happening in last days, but on other side, this defense is harming me as well.
Need to fix nutrition. Asap.
Rest of the day I was traveling a lot, went to swim to the lake, it was so hot that water almost could not cool me down! Amazing, but great anyway, I did not swam much so far this year so it was nice to swim again and have some fun. Also I relized something what I would not admit in a past - I enjoyed watching other people, it was pleasant to see so many healthy people, where I live I see more beer and fat people, but her was mayority of sportive, fit people and it was joy to see it really, also from esthetic point of view.
Interesting day today, I experieced all the scale of felings from resignation to complete satisfaction with life, beauty, annoyment, joy, fun... and enjoyed sun as well :) Great day in the end.
úterý 23. července 2013
23.7.2013 - nutrition restart and lovely meetings
79,2kg " + " still gaining even not eating much, I have in last days crazy taste for sweet and think I banrupt because of that... but I cant help it, I have no idea, why my body all the sudden wants me to eat crap.
Else I slept very well and deep tonight, dont remember any dreams again and woke up quite early. And in the morning up for exercises!
I) Starting today with 10x Sun Salutations and Shadowboxing - traditional 5min warm up followed by pyramid from 14, but today I could not make more then to get to 7. I got crisis around 10 and it didnt catch up, but somehow I felt its alright, I did my maximum in this and did not felt like I was week or something, I might overdo warm up - I was quite fast in Shadowboxing. But in fact, I think I have so much shit from sweets in me, that body cant work fluently, or I dont know. Simply it was like this but I felt it ok.
Next 5 minutes I did ABS practices, but it was also crazy, I could not do much even I tried to push really hard and was rough on myself. Simply strange day a bit today in this way. Then I was dancing for about 25 minutes and it was in beginning also very shabby, but with time passing it was better and in the end I enjoyed dancing as usually and very much :)
II) I had very nice meeting during the day, with interesting people and people I didnt knew before, it was very pleasant for me. It was also iconic, that one was man and one woman. And both very productive meetings too.
III) In the evening I had a client, very interesting work on special condition of a client. I could feel all the reasons why I love Shiatsu and this kind of work while working with this client, it was great.
I dont have much to write about in details today, but it was very rich and beautiful day, I hadnt so much nice meetings with so much people for some time, very nice. Even with people in shops and such, lovely :)
Else I slept very well and deep tonight, dont remember any dreams again and woke up quite early. And in the morning up for exercises!
I) Starting today with 10x Sun Salutations and Shadowboxing - traditional 5min warm up followed by pyramid from 14, but today I could not make more then to get to 7. I got crisis around 10 and it didnt catch up, but somehow I felt its alright, I did my maximum in this and did not felt like I was week or something, I might overdo warm up - I was quite fast in Shadowboxing. But in fact, I think I have so much shit from sweets in me, that body cant work fluently, or I dont know. Simply it was like this but I felt it ok.
Next 5 minutes I did ABS practices, but it was also crazy, I could not do much even I tried to push really hard and was rough on myself. Simply strange day a bit today in this way. Then I was dancing for about 25 minutes and it was in beginning also very shabby, but with time passing it was better and in the end I enjoyed dancing as usually and very much :)
II) I had very nice meeting during the day, with interesting people and people I didnt knew before, it was very pleasant for me. It was also iconic, that one was man and one woman. And both very productive meetings too.
III) In the evening I had a client, very interesting work on special condition of a client. I could feel all the reasons why I love Shiatsu and this kind of work while working with this client, it was great.
I dont have much to write about in details today, but it was very rich and beautiful day, I hadnt so much nice meetings with so much people for some time, very nice. Even with people in shops and such, lovely :)
pondělí 22. července 2013
22.7.2013 - Lessons continue, limbo develops
78,7kg " + " even I ate so little yesterday... anyway, I feel like I need much less food than Im eating. Lately I had suspicion that Im getting more energy from prana and earth and dont need so much from food. I have no idea if its right or not, but Im all open to investigate this possibility in practice.
Else I slept long, deep and good today. Dont remember any dreams. I did not morning exercise in the morning, because I woke up too late, so I made breakfast, stuff on computer andI made "morning" exercises later.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes - today some with holdings to stretch and about half of time in dynamic pace. I feel much stronger, sure and flexible in this then anytime before. I have suspicion, that transformation process from last week changed my body again, I actually felt that very strong. It happened before and I feel that it happened now again. I have no idea what exactly starts this change or why Im changing physically (I dont mean change in muscles or flexibility, I mean physical change of assets of limbs and skeleton (Im not sure how to express it in english precisely)).
Next 10 minutes I did ABS and core training. Today I made it again so crazy difficult I had problems since half of time limit. Its great... I feel I have no time to waste on easy exercises lately, dont ask me why. What I did? I did mainly holds and some crazy positions to make holds harder - I included some yoga positions to add some juice and it worked quite well. It was very rich and painful, very effective.
Then I did 5 minutes Burpees, today I made 33 or something. Amazing how good indicator of form is this exercise, every little false in training show up in number of reps Im able to do. Its also very good exercise for conscious power movement, because I feel that to not hurt myself I have to be very conscious and not make it "easier" for me, opposite is true - I have to make it difficult to make big movements to protect my joints.
Next I did 5 minutes of Shadowboxing, today almost 4 minutes just freestyle (its not so long ago whenI could not do more then a minute). I was surprised how fst and strong strikes Im able to produce after previous exercises. Im combining box and kickbox a lot, along with dirty moves and underbelt techniques - Im not practicing for sport, Im practicing for selfdefence and if is somebody going to attack me, I want to make sure he will regret that. A bit overcharged 1st chakra? Maybe, but 1st chakra is basic of everything and to be able to defend myself against physical attack is as important as to be able t odefend agaisnt energetic attacks.
Last about 13 minutes I was dancing, today it was lovely, free dance, I enjoyed it SOOO much today, music leaded me myself, I could almost see hands of music gently guiding my body into dance. Beautiful :)
II) In the evening I had a client, originally I was expecting 3 clients today, but 2 postponed and last one had 5 hrs delay - can you believe it. I was meditating what this should tell me, possibly that I should take time for myself even my services are wanted.
For the rest of the day I did no other exercises, I was working a lot on my page and workshops and in general on internet presentation of my work
It was another rich and full day today, I felt lot of gratefulness in the evening for today.
Else I slept long, deep and good today. Dont remember any dreams. I did not morning exercise in the morning, because I woke up too late, so I made breakfast, stuff on computer andI made "morning" exercises later.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes - today some with holdings to stretch and about half of time in dynamic pace. I feel much stronger, sure and flexible in this then anytime before. I have suspicion, that transformation process from last week changed my body again, I actually felt that very strong. It happened before and I feel that it happened now again. I have no idea what exactly starts this change or why Im changing physically (I dont mean change in muscles or flexibility, I mean physical change of assets of limbs and skeleton (Im not sure how to express it in english precisely)).
Next 10 minutes I did ABS and core training. Today I made it again so crazy difficult I had problems since half of time limit. Its great... I feel I have no time to waste on easy exercises lately, dont ask me why. What I did? I did mainly holds and some crazy positions to make holds harder - I included some yoga positions to add some juice and it worked quite well. It was very rich and painful, very effective.
Then I did 5 minutes Burpees, today I made 33 or something. Amazing how good indicator of form is this exercise, every little false in training show up in number of reps Im able to do. Its also very good exercise for conscious power movement, because I feel that to not hurt myself I have to be very conscious and not make it "easier" for me, opposite is true - I have to make it difficult to make big movements to protect my joints.
Next I did 5 minutes of Shadowboxing, today almost 4 minutes just freestyle (its not so long ago whenI could not do more then a minute). I was surprised how fst and strong strikes Im able to produce after previous exercises. Im combining box and kickbox a lot, along with dirty moves and underbelt techniques - Im not practicing for sport, Im practicing for selfdefence and if is somebody going to attack me, I want to make sure he will regret that. A bit overcharged 1st chakra? Maybe, but 1st chakra is basic of everything and to be able to defend myself against physical attack is as important as to be able t odefend agaisnt energetic attacks.
Last about 13 minutes I was dancing, today it was lovely, free dance, I enjoyed it SOOO much today, music leaded me myself, I could almost see hands of music gently guiding my body into dance. Beautiful :)
II) In the evening I had a client, originally I was expecting 3 clients today, but 2 postponed and last one had 5 hrs delay - can you believe it. I was meditating what this should tell me, possibly that I should take time for myself even my services are wanted.
For the rest of the day I did no other exercises, I was working a lot on my page and workshops and in general on internet presentation of my work
It was another rich and full day today, I felt lot of gratefulness in the evening for today.
neděle 21. července 2013
21.7.2013 - In a grasps of fear and uncertanity
78kg " - " For eating just breakfast and goji plus something sweet, not much drop, but I feel I have to cut sweets so today I try to keep cleaning myself, but no sweets today!
I slept well and dreamless - Im a bit surprised after what happened yesterday, but probably my system needed to get together. I feel much better today, even I still have feelings like my brain is more active then before matura exam. In the morning after some waking up at comp up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up (10x Sun Salutations, Shadowboxing) I did ABS training with gymnastic ball - very rich today, I know I write it every day, but it really is! When I feel my ABS are not used on 100% I made exercise harder, I want to have 6 pack one day and also strong core, I feel like power of a man lies really in this area and without strong core I cant keep going further on my path.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes, enjoying it very, very much, mainly free dance which developed slowly into beautiful dance of creativity and joy. I was drenched, but I even shouted out of joy at some moments, how great it was. I got very nice random set today and Im grateful for it, after yesterday transformation process, or what it was, I felt like I deserve such a joy and I drunk from this chalice as deep as I could.
I wasnt doing anything exercise-wise for the rest of the day, I just visited friends and went to cinema after long time. Oh may, those retards with popcorn in cinema makes me so crazy. I was even loud about it when I saw it "lets go away from those retards with popcorn, its unbelievable". It also reminded me why I stopped coming to cinema - in the moment when I realized, that I have less and less from movie and more and more distractions all the time from popcorn-eaters. Anyway - movie was a bit of disapointment, Lone Ranger was the title. Johny Depp was great and special effects awesome, but they really made it for retarded audience or I dont know, couple of so silly things, that mildly intelligent person must just blink in disbelieve.
Else whole day went in the name of clearly overcharged 3rd chakra - when I encountered some stupidity I could not detach from it and have patience and understanding. I could not control it. I was also very judgemental, not hate or disgust to my targets, just judgement. I also felt like my brain is till working on 200% and not stopping or slowing down, very smoothly, only my head hurts a bit even I drink a lot. I was so afraid to do yoga today, that I simply did not, I was grasped by fear "what could happen". I believe it settles down a bit with time, but right today I feel like I would go simply mad and would spend rest of my life in madhouse.
Anyway - today was very good day, Im happy I can so clearly see my patterns, even I cant control them yet, I was and mainly COULD already practicing to control them and do more what I want. I was also happy to see, that I seem better to let grudge dissolve and leave me. to be honest, mainly because I have so strong grudge towards one guy, that its like rotting apple inside me, Im working with it last couple of days, it showed up first time 2 days ago during yoga when I was doing Praying pose for 4th chakra (heart chakra). I was surprised that this occured and I felt so deep hate to this person. Im exploring what it is, what is evoking this hate. Im oscilating between this feeling and being grateful to this person to show me that this is inside me, That this hate source lives very rich and vital life inside me. I think I feed it somehow but so far I cant find or grasp it. I think Im envy of this guy for his money, that he has all the informations and sources to use them for something meaningful but he waste them just to show up mainly. And at the same time I know that its not true! Its so crazy situation. But its good to write about it, makes my feelings to show up a bit more clear.
Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well and dreamless - Im a bit surprised after what happened yesterday, but probably my system needed to get together. I feel much better today, even I still have feelings like my brain is more active then before matura exam. In the morning after some waking up at comp up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up (10x Sun Salutations, Shadowboxing) I did ABS training with gymnastic ball - very rich today, I know I write it every day, but it really is! When I feel my ABS are not used on 100% I made exercise harder, I want to have 6 pack one day and also strong core, I feel like power of a man lies really in this area and without strong core I cant keep going further on my path.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes, enjoying it very, very much, mainly free dance which developed slowly into beautiful dance of creativity and joy. I was drenched, but I even shouted out of joy at some moments, how great it was. I got very nice random set today and Im grateful for it, after yesterday transformation process, or what it was, I felt like I deserve such a joy and I drunk from this chalice as deep as I could.
I wasnt doing anything exercise-wise for the rest of the day, I just visited friends and went to cinema after long time. Oh may, those retards with popcorn in cinema makes me so crazy. I was even loud about it when I saw it "lets go away from those retards with popcorn, its unbelievable". It also reminded me why I stopped coming to cinema - in the moment when I realized, that I have less and less from movie and more and more distractions all the time from popcorn-eaters. Anyway - movie was a bit of disapointment, Lone Ranger was the title. Johny Depp was great and special effects awesome, but they really made it for retarded audience or I dont know, couple of so silly things, that mildly intelligent person must just blink in disbelieve.
Else whole day went in the name of clearly overcharged 3rd chakra - when I encountered some stupidity I could not detach from it and have patience and understanding. I could not control it. I was also very judgemental, not hate or disgust to my targets, just judgement. I also felt like my brain is till working on 200% and not stopping or slowing down, very smoothly, only my head hurts a bit even I drink a lot. I was so afraid to do yoga today, that I simply did not, I was grasped by fear "what could happen". I believe it settles down a bit with time, but right today I feel like I would go simply mad and would spend rest of my life in madhouse.
Anyway - today was very good day, Im happy I can so clearly see my patterns, even I cant control them yet, I was and mainly COULD already practicing to control them and do more what I want. I was also happy to see, that I seem better to let grudge dissolve and leave me. to be honest, mainly because I have so strong grudge towards one guy, that its like rotting apple inside me, Im working with it last couple of days, it showed up first time 2 days ago during yoga when I was doing Praying pose for 4th chakra (heart chakra). I was surprised that this occured and I felt so deep hate to this person. Im exploring what it is, what is evoking this hate. Im oscilating between this feeling and being grateful to this person to show me that this is inside me, That this hate source lives very rich and vital life inside me. I think I feed it somehow but so far I cant find or grasp it. I think Im envy of this guy for his money, that he has all the informations and sources to use them for something meaningful but he waste them just to show up mainly. And at the same time I know that its not true! Its so crazy situation. But its good to write about it, makes my feelings to show up a bit more clear.
Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 20. července 2013
20.7.2013 - Crazy, Im going freaking crazy...
200th day today - 200 entries and no comment, Im a bit vale about it and I admit it! But, as I write this blog on the internet, I would love to make it good for readers as well, and no responds makes chances for improvements very thin. Well, I believe its getting better anyway, because I change every day, but Im not only person on this planet and I would love to access my views and path to all who thirst to change theyr lives as well. As well as I desire to keep changing and exploring what live offer to me and us. I wouldnt mind to read your experiences, your opinions and read about your paths in life. We can make us all richer and free when we share our gifts.
78,7kg " - " Was expecting more, simply need to cut sweets - AAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHH ._.
I slept well and deep tonight, dont remember any dreams. And in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Today I wanted something in between 5 minutes warm up and Sun Salutations so I made 10 minutes of combination - 5x Sun Salutation, then counting to 30 running with boxing then again 5x SS and then again running and so on till alarm rung. Difficult, this switching modes was very confusing for my body. Im curious what this setup brings in future - if I would feel like repeating it, thats it.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core training, mainly Barstarz exercises. I was very hard on me today, even couple of minutes before limit I felt like I cant do anything anymore, but I kept doing what I could, to stimulate my ABS to limit. It was maybe most demanding set I did so far, good for 200th entry today :)
3rd block was dedicated to Burpees for 5 minutes, I did only 25 of them, but I felt it as pretty good after what I did already, I felt good that I can enter non-comfortable zone and not just be in survival mode, but stay present and work consciously.
4th part today was dedicated to shadowboxing, after previous exercises it was like "oh may, oh may" how whole body protested. But if I would go to fight, I would have to fight and no matter how body feels at that moment so I kept working and practising and focused on precision and speed and presence. Very interesting to not enter "Im tired" mode while being tired, but muster senses and consciousness and stay present. Try it sometimes.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, today I didnt tried to integrate anything but to enjoy and let do myself what I feel like. And it was nice and good and I enjoyed it very much :)
II) Later I did fair 2hrs yoga. I felt lot of resistance at some points, but I always remembered what teacher said in tantra course this week - resistance means, that something is happening... so I went on and did whole set. Actually today with very good focus on asanas, exept savasana where I not only wasnt focused, my mind traveled so far away, that I was disconnected from my body totally at one point. But I dont worry so much about it anymore, because when I return from this disconnected state, I can always feel my body much better then before. What was extraordinary today was Udianabandha - I felt very strong and warm energy flows in my whole body, not just Shushumna channel and ending of set - I had so strong sensations, that I had very hard times to continue doing Vajrasana and then Virasana, also diring Ardha-maciandrasana I had so strong sensations, that I had to ventilate with voice.
After yoga I felt like if I would went through mincer, shaking, feelings like bones are not on right places. Mind disconnected from body... and crazy taste for sweets...
Rest of the day I was unable to do other exercises, I was coming through such a strong processes that I couldnt. Im not sure if it was because I ate one BIG chocolate in my lust for sweets, but I never felt sugar rush for 10 hours. Anyway - I felt like Im loosing my mind, like if Im going regulary crazy and loosing my ability to live with other people. I felt like veil of "reality" is being lifted and I see everything in its pure form.
I was also finishing Cloud Atlas movie today and this powerful story added or multiplied this state of mine. I felt what it is that our society is so disfunctional and what causes all the suffering in the world, all connections and causes and effects, all become transparent as clean water. I felt that if I decide to change something in the world, I will have all tools and wisdom to do so. And with this realization comes fear!
I know this fear - its fear that my god nature is true (as we all are descendants of a god) and abilities and powers of a god himself are at hand. How this would change our world?! Forever and irreversible, imagine world where we all use our true potential to live our lives exactly as we wish. Understanding, that everything is just one energy and this energy is possible to shape however we want. No laws of man or rules can be applied, because no power can enforce them - where nothing is real and object to be changed at any time - or stay like this till the end of time. Crazy thoughts! Imaginations about world where everything is possible.
Im not creating here any new way of Goverment or something, its nothing what I was thinking about. What happened to me today was, that images of such world flashed in my head for several hours, I wasnt trying to figure out how it would work, if it would work and how would society look like, I wasnt THINKING about it. I just felt this possibility to be at hand. maybe in the way like child can have machinegun at its hands. And believe me - I felt like I seriously need help to settle down somehow, nothing pleasant this feeling of loosing mind Im telling you. Fortunately it was already 10pm when worst feelings come and I decided to try to sleep and it worked.
78,7kg " - " Was expecting more, simply need to cut sweets - AAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHH ._.
I slept well and deep tonight, dont remember any dreams. And in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Today I wanted something in between 5 minutes warm up and Sun Salutations so I made 10 minutes of combination - 5x Sun Salutation, then counting to 30 running with boxing then again 5x SS and then again running and so on till alarm rung. Difficult, this switching modes was very confusing for my body. Im curious what this setup brings in future - if I would feel like repeating it, thats it.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core training, mainly Barstarz exercises. I was very hard on me today, even couple of minutes before limit I felt like I cant do anything anymore, but I kept doing what I could, to stimulate my ABS to limit. It was maybe most demanding set I did so far, good for 200th entry today :)
3rd block was dedicated to Burpees for 5 minutes, I did only 25 of them, but I felt it as pretty good after what I did already, I felt good that I can enter non-comfortable zone and not just be in survival mode, but stay present and work consciously.
4th part today was dedicated to shadowboxing, after previous exercises it was like "oh may, oh may" how whole body protested. But if I would go to fight, I would have to fight and no matter how body feels at that moment so I kept working and practising and focused on precision and speed and presence. Very interesting to not enter "Im tired" mode while being tired, but muster senses and consciousness and stay present. Try it sometimes.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, today I didnt tried to integrate anything but to enjoy and let do myself what I feel like. And it was nice and good and I enjoyed it very much :)
II) Later I did fair 2hrs yoga. I felt lot of resistance at some points, but I always remembered what teacher said in tantra course this week - resistance means, that something is happening... so I went on and did whole set. Actually today with very good focus on asanas, exept savasana where I not only wasnt focused, my mind traveled so far away, that I was disconnected from my body totally at one point. But I dont worry so much about it anymore, because when I return from this disconnected state, I can always feel my body much better then before. What was extraordinary today was Udianabandha - I felt very strong and warm energy flows in my whole body, not just Shushumna channel and ending of set - I had so strong sensations, that I had very hard times to continue doing Vajrasana and then Virasana, also diring Ardha-maciandrasana I had so strong sensations, that I had to ventilate with voice.
After yoga I felt like if I would went through mincer, shaking, feelings like bones are not on right places. Mind disconnected from body... and crazy taste for sweets...
Rest of the day I was unable to do other exercises, I was coming through such a strong processes that I couldnt. Im not sure if it was because I ate one BIG chocolate in my lust for sweets, but I never felt sugar rush for 10 hours. Anyway - I felt like Im loosing my mind, like if Im going regulary crazy and loosing my ability to live with other people. I felt like veil of "reality" is being lifted and I see everything in its pure form.
I was also finishing Cloud Atlas movie today and this powerful story added or multiplied this state of mine. I felt what it is that our society is so disfunctional and what causes all the suffering in the world, all connections and causes and effects, all become transparent as clean water. I felt that if I decide to change something in the world, I will have all tools and wisdom to do so. And with this realization comes fear!
I know this fear - its fear that my god nature is true (as we all are descendants of a god) and abilities and powers of a god himself are at hand. How this would change our world?! Forever and irreversible, imagine world where we all use our true potential to live our lives exactly as we wish. Understanding, that everything is just one energy and this energy is possible to shape however we want. No laws of man or rules can be applied, because no power can enforce them - where nothing is real and object to be changed at any time - or stay like this till the end of time. Crazy thoughts! Imaginations about world where everything is possible.
Im not creating here any new way of Goverment or something, its nothing what I was thinking about. What happened to me today was, that images of such world flashed in my head for several hours, I wasnt trying to figure out how it would work, if it would work and how would society look like, I wasnt THINKING about it. I just felt this possibility to be at hand. maybe in the way like child can have machinegun at its hands. And believe me - I felt like I seriously need help to settle down somehow, nothing pleasant this feeling of loosing mind Im telling you. Fortunately it was already 10pm when worst feelings come and I decided to try to sleep and it worked.
pátek 19. července 2013
19.7.2013 - considerations, revelation and... beaty
79,4kg " -=" not much to comment
As mentioned yesterday I did not really slept well and its going for whole night, however I got up before 8 and after some chat with my beloved and internet browsing I went for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, mainly dynamic pace, I felt I have to MOVE somehow :) And it worked well. Then 10 minutes of Kata1 - it went better then I anticipated, I felt this set today very good and helpful and I could very good feel myself and enjoy all aspects of this.
3rd block I did ABS/core set with sit-ups and yoga v-sit, incredibly rich today, I could stand in this crazy yoga v-sit for almost 2 minutes today, thats good and also nice to see how fast ABS muscles adapt on new load, I feel I have to refresh somehow already. And plan how to do it is to play with my lower back to really fix it flat to the ground but keep belly relaxed and feel my ABS. Already working on it and its very rich. I could not get up easily afterwards!
last 15 minutes I was dancing, again a bit of integration of new moves and approaches, but it will take time. I tried to dance in other pace then just free movement however it comes, but also free, creative movement. Why I do it like this? I believe that if I integrate new moves and conscious schematics into my being so deep, that it becomes natural, it make my totally brain-off dancing more enjoyable and rich, because my being will have more "tools" to play with when leading my being into movement commonly called dancing. But dont take me wrong - I still totally enjoy this free, creative dancing with no rules and limitations. And so I did today as well :)
II) afternoon I did fair 2 hrs yoga set, it went better then I though, my mind was not so distracted as I expected. I dont remember some extraordinary sensations during asanas, I just felt my body so great... its been again quite long since I did yoga last time and this part I forgot. I also felt like I miss yoga and how I deliberately gave up gifts of yoga by not practicing it. I realized today that To keep on certain level of energy work its not possible to stop. As Einstain said - its like riding a bike - if you stop moving, you will fall.
To execution - I replaced shoulder practice for new asana Vajrasana (asana for 4 and 6th chakra). Amazing asana, because I have to focus at once on both chakras and this skill of focusing on several things at once without just switching focus between them is very challenging and great practice.
Rest of the day I was resting, working on my workshops and page and wrote blog. And also watched Cloud Atlas and The Master movies.
Im having whole day very unusual feelings, I feel somehow very easily touched by things, even normal SMSes, music, movies, anything. On one side its not a problem, I have free day today, but on other side I dont know what it means and what to do with it. So right now I enjoy this deep, beautiful feeling and Im curious if and how it develop.
It was very nice day today, I felt like I need day like this for loong time, no visitors, just me and my thoughts and all what this mode brings. Im grateful what this day brought to me.
In the night, before falling asleep I was doing Brahmacharia practice and after I finished I had a small revelation... :
I realized that its natural and totally logical, that I feel better then the others, let me explain. If I compare others from my perspective (and there is always only our personal perspective) I compare others on a base of features and skills which are important for me and which I consider as important for me. And logically - if I feel these features and skills important I work on them myself (even unconsciously) and therefore Im good in these things and logically better in these things then others. Because others have very different set of features and skills which are important for them and they work on them so they are good in them and probably better then the others so for them they ARE better then the others, so basically, everybody is better then the others - everyone from his/her own perspective. Isnt it beautiful? Each of us can feel better then the others and be totally right!
As mentioned yesterday I did not really slept well and its going for whole night, however I got up before 8 and after some chat with my beloved and internet browsing I went for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, mainly dynamic pace, I felt I have to MOVE somehow :) And it worked well. Then 10 minutes of Kata1 - it went better then I anticipated, I felt this set today very good and helpful and I could very good feel myself and enjoy all aspects of this.
3rd block I did ABS/core set with sit-ups and yoga v-sit, incredibly rich today, I could stand in this crazy yoga v-sit for almost 2 minutes today, thats good and also nice to see how fast ABS muscles adapt on new load, I feel I have to refresh somehow already. And plan how to do it is to play with my lower back to really fix it flat to the ground but keep belly relaxed and feel my ABS. Already working on it and its very rich. I could not get up easily afterwards!
last 15 minutes I was dancing, again a bit of integration of new moves and approaches, but it will take time. I tried to dance in other pace then just free movement however it comes, but also free, creative movement. Why I do it like this? I believe that if I integrate new moves and conscious schematics into my being so deep, that it becomes natural, it make my totally brain-off dancing more enjoyable and rich, because my being will have more "tools" to play with when leading my being into movement commonly called dancing. But dont take me wrong - I still totally enjoy this free, creative dancing with no rules and limitations. And so I did today as well :)
II) afternoon I did fair 2 hrs yoga set, it went better then I though, my mind was not so distracted as I expected. I dont remember some extraordinary sensations during asanas, I just felt my body so great... its been again quite long since I did yoga last time and this part I forgot. I also felt like I miss yoga and how I deliberately gave up gifts of yoga by not practicing it. I realized today that To keep on certain level of energy work its not possible to stop. As Einstain said - its like riding a bike - if you stop moving, you will fall.
To execution - I replaced shoulder practice for new asana Vajrasana (asana for 4 and 6th chakra). Amazing asana, because I have to focus at once on both chakras and this skill of focusing on several things at once without just switching focus between them is very challenging and great practice.
Rest of the day I was resting, working on my workshops and page and wrote blog. And also watched Cloud Atlas and The Master movies.
Im having whole day very unusual feelings, I feel somehow very easily touched by things, even normal SMSes, music, movies, anything. On one side its not a problem, I have free day today, but on other side I dont know what it means and what to do with it. So right now I enjoy this deep, beautiful feeling and Im curious if and how it develop.
It was very nice day today, I felt like I need day like this for loong time, no visitors, just me and my thoughts and all what this mode brings. Im grateful what this day brought to me.
In the night, before falling asleep I was doing Brahmacharia practice and after I finished I had a small revelation... :
I realized that its natural and totally logical, that I feel better then the others, let me explain. If I compare others from my perspective (and there is always only our personal perspective) I compare others on a base of features and skills which are important for me and which I consider as important for me. And logically - if I feel these features and skills important I work on them myself (even unconsciously) and therefore Im good in these things and logically better in these things then others. Because others have very different set of features and skills which are important for them and they work on them so they are good in them and probably better then the others so for them they ARE better then the others, so basically, everybody is better then the others - everyone from his/her own perspective. Isnt it beautiful? Each of us can feel better then the others and be totally right!
18.7.2013 - On a excuse wave.
?? weight - I had so rush morning that I didnt weighted myself.
I slept very well and deep again, I have mild feeling that I had dreams, but dont remember anything at all.
In the morning I had no time for morning exercise (first excuse today so early) and went to do some official stuff. Actually it took me 4 hours total... and I was gifted by yet another lesson how good is to not "wait for latter" and could finish all I had to much sooner then I would if I would wait. Also could read a lot from Cloud Atlas book, which was very good, its been so long since I read really long in a book. And Cloud Atlas is good to learn too, because English in book is very difficult but also very beautiful.
I) afternoon I did additionally "morning" exercise, starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations to stretch and move myself, I have had couple of clients later today and I felt I have to move my energy and body to be good for it. I have to share one sensation I had during doing dynamic Sun Salutations today, I was quite drenched near the end and I tried to exercise in totally smooth way, not a split second waiting in any position or during changing the way of movement and I could not help myself, but to feel that moving like this is like to have very nice sex with highly aroused and wet woman. When making love, there I have a moments when I feel that connection between me and woman is so natural and not burdened with wanting to have sex or wanting for connection, that lingam enters yoni fluently, naturaly, without trying, like homing missile flawlessly finding its target. I felt it amusing to feel this feeling while doing Sun Salutations, opens heart :)
Then I did ABS and core exercises for 10 minutes, starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO and continuing with various additional exercises. Not much special sensations, I focused a lot on exercises (which is easy during TM core WO, its very demanding exercise) and I could feel my core and ABS very nicely and in the end very rich.
3rd part which lasted 5 minutes was dedicated to various martial arts techniques, mainly kickbox and some wushu kicks, I found myself being quite agile and fast in changing kicks and combining moves. Very surprised how easy vent to create new combinations I never did before and how fast I found good way to execute them. Definitely good to do sometimes exercise like this to develop this aspect of movement as well. I hold no doubts, that lots of dancing of mine and other exercises are guilty in improving indirectly my martial arts skills.
Last 15 minutes I was dancing, dont remember so much anymore, I tried to integrate Zumba moves again and to dance as conscious as possible. It felt like first time in dance class, but its alright, there have been bright moments! Enjoyed it non the less.
II) Later afternoon I had clients, very lovely couple of nice people, its pity I cant share with you my feelings about clients deeper that that because of professional reasons. But what I feel ok to share is that I really love how I attract into my life powerful beings, even practical magicians in true meaning of this word (not a Fair tricks, but true shapers of whats commonly called "reality" and creators of theyr own lives. Very nice. Im very grateful for this. Especially for such a gift to work with such beings in such a deep way as my work provide.
III) In the evening I went to tantra course. Today it was very nice, I could present my workshop and it come by surprise and I found myself unable to really present my workshop in meaningful way. Im not sad about it, it was wonderful lesson for me. We also started ajnachakra, 6th chakra theory and learned new asana for connection of 4th and 6th chakra and I felt this asana very important for my future transformation. All in all very rich course. I was happy to be there.
I come home very late and had lovely chat with my beloved and I tried to go sleep before midnigh and I even did went to futon before midnight. But I could not sleep at all, went back to computer and was watching Descipable me and wasted time on interned. One another participant called a day and I had to cancel workshop for Saturday, in total 7 people canceled... clear enough message, that its good to make this, but time is not good. Trying to process it and not getting into giving up mood.
Anyway.... another very rich and beautiful day! My life is really great atm, hope you guys can enjoy your lives even more!
I slept very well and deep again, I have mild feeling that I had dreams, but dont remember anything at all.
In the morning I had no time for morning exercise (first excuse today so early) and went to do some official stuff. Actually it took me 4 hours total... and I was gifted by yet another lesson how good is to not "wait for latter" and could finish all I had to much sooner then I would if I would wait. Also could read a lot from Cloud Atlas book, which was very good, its been so long since I read really long in a book. And Cloud Atlas is good to learn too, because English in book is very difficult but also very beautiful.
I) afternoon I did additionally "morning" exercise, starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations to stretch and move myself, I have had couple of clients later today and I felt I have to move my energy and body to be good for it. I have to share one sensation I had during doing dynamic Sun Salutations today, I was quite drenched near the end and I tried to exercise in totally smooth way, not a split second waiting in any position or during changing the way of movement and I could not help myself, but to feel that moving like this is like to have very nice sex with highly aroused and wet woman. When making love, there I have a moments when I feel that connection between me and woman is so natural and not burdened with wanting to have sex or wanting for connection, that lingam enters yoni fluently, naturaly, without trying, like homing missile flawlessly finding its target. I felt it amusing to feel this feeling while doing Sun Salutations, opens heart :)
Then I did ABS and core exercises for 10 minutes, starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO and continuing with various additional exercises. Not much special sensations, I focused a lot on exercises (which is easy during TM core WO, its very demanding exercise) and I could feel my core and ABS very nicely and in the end very rich.
3rd part which lasted 5 minutes was dedicated to various martial arts techniques, mainly kickbox and some wushu kicks, I found myself being quite agile and fast in changing kicks and combining moves. Very surprised how easy vent to create new combinations I never did before and how fast I found good way to execute them. Definitely good to do sometimes exercise like this to develop this aspect of movement as well. I hold no doubts, that lots of dancing of mine and other exercises are guilty in improving indirectly my martial arts skills.
Last 15 minutes I was dancing, dont remember so much anymore, I tried to integrate Zumba moves again and to dance as conscious as possible. It felt like first time in dance class, but its alright, there have been bright moments! Enjoyed it non the less.
II) Later afternoon I had clients, very lovely couple of nice people, its pity I cant share with you my feelings about clients deeper that that because of professional reasons. But what I feel ok to share is that I really love how I attract into my life powerful beings, even practical magicians in true meaning of this word (not a Fair tricks, but true shapers of whats commonly called "reality" and creators of theyr own lives. Very nice. Im very grateful for this. Especially for such a gift to work with such beings in such a deep way as my work provide.
III) In the evening I went to tantra course. Today it was very nice, I could present my workshop and it come by surprise and I found myself unable to really present my workshop in meaningful way. Im not sad about it, it was wonderful lesson for me. We also started ajnachakra, 6th chakra theory and learned new asana for connection of 4th and 6th chakra and I felt this asana very important for my future transformation. All in all very rich course. I was happy to be there.
I come home very late and had lovely chat with my beloved and I tried to go sleep before midnigh and I even did went to futon before midnight. But I could not sleep at all, went back to computer and was watching Descipable me and wasted time on interned. One another participant called a day and I had to cancel workshop for Saturday, in total 7 people canceled... clear enough message, that its good to make this, but time is not good. Trying to process it and not getting into giving up mood.
Anyway.... another very rich and beautiful day! My life is really great atm, hope you guys can enjoy your lives even more!
středa 17. července 2013
17.7.2013 Slowly geting back on track...
79,7kg " - " good meal proves it worth in naturally balancing volume of my body
I slept again very deep and well tonight, while falling asleep I felt like my body is burning, its good, body needs heat to burn whats not supposed to be there. I focused a lot on curing myself energetically, its not just mechanical work with bio energy. I believe that to cure yourself I have to understand the cause of disease and accept that fact and invite that fact into my life. And I believe that the cause is to get a bit more quiet, to pay more attention to life and details, to pay attention to every detail and to not rush anywhere. I really try to change that and I already realized that Im really very restless, jumping all the time from one thing to another. I mean - its not like Im not finishing things or something, just that Im too fast for what my system is able to handle atm.
Anyway - in the morning straight for morning exercises!
I) Today starting with 15 minutes of Sun Salutations. No speed pace, just to get back on track and stretch my body properly, I did holds in position from 1-10 seconds increasing by 1 seconds in each consequentive rep and then the rest of time in dynamic pace. Just to let body to adapt again on both dynamic and power movement. Did not wanted to go crazy again too soon, have to give some love to me.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mainly Barstarz exercises combined with random stuff, again, I wanted to keep on edge of whats good and not overdo. And I felt I maybe overdid a bit, but thats life.
Rest about 18 minutes I was dancing. Im playing a lot since Zumba class in London with new moves and approaches in dancing. To find the way how to integrate new moves without mendling mind into it. Its interesting process truth to be said. Anyway I enjoyed dancing a lot.
During the day I was doing some official stuff I had to do and some brainstorming and activity around workshop at Sunday and so on. I should just rest... but its not easy for me atm... I guess thats the reason why my current condition stepped in - to help me rest. One has to be grateful for everything what comes to him.
II) Afternoon I did a bit of yoga, just warm up exercises, Sun Salutations, 10 minutes of Udianabandha and 5 minutes of Badrasana with 10 minutes of Savasana at the end. Interestingly, exept Savasana it was all fight with my mind, I mean, not that I would really fight to not have active mind, more like - I had for whole time bring myself back into exercises and my body. It was more intensive part of this exercise then anything else. I just felt good to do it anyway, even I felt so much resistance.
III) In the evening I had clients. One was very interesting, because for first time in my life I could feel energy on Kundaliny Shakty "in practice" in other person and in this case so strong that there was absolutely no doubt and no way it was just imagination or something. I mean, for me are these energies real for long time, but somehow it felt very good to be able to feel it so undoubtly "physically". Very valuable experience for me!
Great day, full, nice, I taught a lot :)
I slept again very deep and well tonight, while falling asleep I felt like my body is burning, its good, body needs heat to burn whats not supposed to be there. I focused a lot on curing myself energetically, its not just mechanical work with bio energy. I believe that to cure yourself I have to understand the cause of disease and accept that fact and invite that fact into my life. And I believe that the cause is to get a bit more quiet, to pay more attention to life and details, to pay attention to every detail and to not rush anywhere. I really try to change that and I already realized that Im really very restless, jumping all the time from one thing to another. I mean - its not like Im not finishing things or something, just that Im too fast for what my system is able to handle atm.
Anyway - in the morning straight for morning exercises!
I) Today starting with 15 minutes of Sun Salutations. No speed pace, just to get back on track and stretch my body properly, I did holds in position from 1-10 seconds increasing by 1 seconds in each consequentive rep and then the rest of time in dynamic pace. Just to let body to adapt again on both dynamic and power movement. Did not wanted to go crazy again too soon, have to give some love to me.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mainly Barstarz exercises combined with random stuff, again, I wanted to keep on edge of whats good and not overdo. And I felt I maybe overdid a bit, but thats life.
Rest about 18 minutes I was dancing. Im playing a lot since Zumba class in London with new moves and approaches in dancing. To find the way how to integrate new moves without mendling mind into it. Its interesting process truth to be said. Anyway I enjoyed dancing a lot.
During the day I was doing some official stuff I had to do and some brainstorming and activity around workshop at Sunday and so on. I should just rest... but its not easy for me atm... I guess thats the reason why my current condition stepped in - to help me rest. One has to be grateful for everything what comes to him.
II) Afternoon I did a bit of yoga, just warm up exercises, Sun Salutations, 10 minutes of Udianabandha and 5 minutes of Badrasana with 10 minutes of Savasana at the end. Interestingly, exept Savasana it was all fight with my mind, I mean, not that I would really fight to not have active mind, more like - I had for whole time bring myself back into exercises and my body. It was more intensive part of this exercise then anything else. I just felt good to do it anyway, even I felt so much resistance.
III) In the evening I had clients. One was very interesting, because for first time in my life I could feel energy on Kundaliny Shakty "in practice" in other person and in this case so strong that there was absolutely no doubt and no way it was just imagination or something. I mean, for me are these energies real for long time, but somehow it felt very good to be able to feel it so undoubtly "physically". Very valuable experience for me!
Great day, full, nice, I taught a lot :)
16.7.2013 - Work or pleasure?
80,9kg - " ++ " whoa, well, not such a surprise tbh, I ate horribly in London...
I slept very deep and well, I needed very good sleep finally. I think I dremt something, just dont remember anything.
I did no morning exercises today, I felt I need all my strength for today, because I had full day of clients and wanted to spend also as much time with my beloved as possible. I also felt that my condition needs simply rest and not push too hard. It was much MUCH better then yesterday tho.
I spend whole day with clients, doing what I love to do most and what Im best in - my beloved Shiatsu. I had all sorts of clients today, mostly very difficult treatments. With exeption of one client I felt like there is no room to just let clients rest, I felt that its right time for clients to work on serious temathics and I felt we did. I was very exhausted at the end, but also very rich. Its a lot of responsibility to work on this level. I need to give space and rest to myself to protect myself from having too thin borders after days like this.
I slept very deep and well, I needed very good sleep finally. I think I dremt something, just dont remember anything.
I did no morning exercises today, I felt I need all my strength for today, because I had full day of clients and wanted to spend also as much time with my beloved as possible. I also felt that my condition needs simply rest and not push too hard. It was much MUCH better then yesterday tho.
I spend whole day with clients, doing what I love to do most and what Im best in - my beloved Shiatsu. I had all sorts of clients today, mostly very difficult treatments. With exeption of one client I felt like there is no room to just let clients rest, I felt that its right time for clients to work on serious temathics and I felt we did. I was very exhausted at the end, but also very rich. Its a lot of responsibility to work on this level. I need to give space and rest to myself to protect myself from having too thin borders after days like this.
pondělí 15. července 2013
15.7.2013 - Lazy flight
?? Weight
Today we got up very early to go to Stansted and I refused to do morning exercise at 3am. Im also sick today, trying to process it whole day. Its good opportunity to try some energetic work, and there probably wont be "good" time to be sick for me anymore, my life is too full. Maybe thats why I got sick - to slow down a bit? Or to give me time to process a bit whats happening in my life. I feel I have to be gentle on me. Keep my borders and stand after how I am.
It was so great to eat real food again today, if I cant cook for myself and Im forced to eat "normal" food, I feel always as poisoned after couple of days.
I simply could not do much today, this early wake up, lots of traveling and being sick gave me no room to do much so I was mainly resting and enjoying being with my beloved. I think anyway, that my current condition is because I was too restless lately and not gave enough time to myself. Im coming through so much and even I would like to process things faster, I maybe need more time for myself then Im wiling to accept.
Today we got up very early to go to Stansted and I refused to do morning exercise at 3am. Im also sick today, trying to process it whole day. Its good opportunity to try some energetic work, and there probably wont be "good" time to be sick for me anymore, my life is too full. Maybe thats why I got sick - to slow down a bit? Or to give me time to process a bit whats happening in my life. I feel I have to be gentle on me. Keep my borders and stand after how I am.
It was so great to eat real food again today, if I cant cook for myself and Im forced to eat "normal" food, I feel always as poisoned after couple of days.
I simply could not do much today, this early wake up, lots of traveling and being sick gave me no room to do much so I was mainly resting and enjoying being with my beloved. I think anyway, that my current condition is because I was too restless lately and not gave enough time to myself. Im coming through so much and even I would like to process things faster, I maybe need more time for myself then Im wiling to accept.
14.7.2013 Sharks, Seahorses and gifts
?? Weight
Today I slept well as usually, after yesterday walk overhaul it was no surprise and I think I dreamt a lot, but dont remember anything anymore. In the morning however I mustered myself into morning exercise :P
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, very vital today, I did holdings and it felt soooo great after those 2 days of not really doing proper exercises, whole body stretched and revived by this, it was lovely. Then I did 10 minutes ABS training, combination of situps and yoga v-sit, very vital as well... Then I did Burpees, wanted to do 50 and had 10 minutes limit. I made it with 3 minutes to spare. I was very happy about it, I was happy to feel that I can keep exercises going even after being lazy in last days :) For the rest of time, about 15 minutes I was dancing, enjoying it a lot, truth to be said! Was great.
II) After breakfast and such we went to Aquarium - what a place! Its obvious that people who run that place do it with lots of love and dedication. Very nice made and interesting place. Well done from my point of view, I really enjoyed the place. And I could touch star fish! And Seahorses who was sooo funny, its incredible animal :) Just the place around London's eye is so crowded and dirty, that its a shame. But it was just minor inconvinience, the whole trip was very nice and definitely worth to make.
After returning home I just took rest and later on I had some clients. It was great, I love to treat new people and it was very nice experience to treat Londoneers. Gifts of Shiatsu have to spread. It would be shame to not let this beautiful lifegiving energy to get to as much people as possible.
After work we spend easy, ralaxed evening and went sleep relatively early. Was nice and full day today, it was good to enjoy both holiday, family, love and Shiatsu at the same day :)
Today I slept well as usually, after yesterday walk overhaul it was no surprise and I think I dreamt a lot, but dont remember anything anymore. In the morning however I mustered myself into morning exercise :P
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, very vital today, I did holdings and it felt soooo great after those 2 days of not really doing proper exercises, whole body stretched and revived by this, it was lovely. Then I did 10 minutes ABS training, combination of situps and yoga v-sit, very vital as well... Then I did Burpees, wanted to do 50 and had 10 minutes limit. I made it with 3 minutes to spare. I was very happy about it, I was happy to feel that I can keep exercises going even after being lazy in last days :) For the rest of time, about 15 minutes I was dancing, enjoying it a lot, truth to be said! Was great.
II) After breakfast and such we went to Aquarium - what a place! Its obvious that people who run that place do it with lots of love and dedication. Very nice made and interesting place. Well done from my point of view, I really enjoyed the place. And I could touch star fish! And Seahorses who was sooo funny, its incredible animal :) Just the place around London's eye is so crowded and dirty, that its a shame. But it was just minor inconvinience, the whole trip was very nice and definitely worth to make.
After returning home I just took rest and later on I had some clients. It was great, I love to treat new people and it was very nice experience to treat Londoneers. Gifts of Shiatsu have to spread. It would be shame to not let this beautiful lifegiving energy to get to as much people as possible.
After work we spend easy, ralaxed evening and went sleep relatively early. Was nice and full day today, it was good to enjoy both holiday, family, love and Shiatsu at the same day :)
13.7.2013 London walkabouts
?? Weight
Today morning I was very daft and somehow without juice, I did only 10x Sun Salutations as morning exercise. I could not muster anything more.
Today was in the name of tourism, so not much interesting for you guys I guess. We visited St. James park, Cleaopatras needle again and went for some shoping on Regents street. It was definitely very worth and full day with lots of walking and cooking under the sun and in busses and tube.
I dont want to say that today was somehow not important or worth or something, not at all, it was very nice and lovely day with my beloved, just not much to write to fulfil aim of this blog. If something then - its good to hang around in the central London, its nice place with good energy :)
Today morning I was very daft and somehow without juice, I did only 10x Sun Salutations as morning exercise. I could not muster anything more.
Today was in the name of tourism, so not much interesting for you guys I guess. We visited St. James park, Cleaopatras needle again and went for some shoping on Regents street. It was definitely very worth and full day with lots of walking and cooking under the sun and in busses and tube.
I dont want to say that today was somehow not important or worth or something, not at all, it was very nice and lovely day with my beloved, just not much to write to fulfil aim of this blog. If something then - its good to hang around in the central London, its nice place with good energy :)
12.7.2013 Speech day and reunion
?? weight, but probably a lot, I ate so much sweets yesterday it was silly, this addiction is really so hard to overcome.
I slept again very deep and hard, dont remember any dreams again. In the morning up for mini morning exercise.
I) I was again very tired in the morning and felt like I need more sleep so I decided to do just mini morning exercise. That ment I did 10 minutes of Sun Salutations in dynamic way - as much as possible, I could not really move well and then 10 minutes of dancing, where I could also not move so much. I guess what caused it, I got idea that its because of energy here and my inability to not let myself effect by it. It hardest challenge, its even harder then in my parents house, or maybe not, Im always just 1 night when visiting parents so its not so hard to do exercises with this knowing in my head.
Rest of the day I did nothing what could be considered as exercise, we spend most of the morning and noon on Speech Day of one school, which was on other side very interesting. First because headteacher was leaving from that school and she had very touching and emotional speach and obviously she was very liked in that school. She recieved lots of recognitions and gifts from students and guests as well. Also guests were interesting, one MP (member of parlament) and one guy with titul of "President of education", his speaking skills were not so good, but the way he presented his thoughts balanced this fact very well - he held interesting and very clever speach about how is dedication and will more important then best schools, but good school motivates students to grow this dedication and will and so in the end be better students in natural way (I mean, that students wants to study because it makes sense to them, not because someone is pushing them).
Later we went to airport where I reunited with my beloved, it was so heartwarming to meet my love again, she is so beautiful and even London is very hearty place, her heart is even bigger and more bright. Rest of the day we spend resting and being, which is very good way to be on holiday as well! :)
Another rich, wonderful day.
I slept again very deep and hard, dont remember any dreams again. In the morning up for mini morning exercise.
I) I was again very tired in the morning and felt like I need more sleep so I decided to do just mini morning exercise. That ment I did 10 minutes of Sun Salutations in dynamic way - as much as possible, I could not really move well and then 10 minutes of dancing, where I could also not move so much. I guess what caused it, I got idea that its because of energy here and my inability to not let myself effect by it. It hardest challenge, its even harder then in my parents house, or maybe not, Im always just 1 night when visiting parents so its not so hard to do exercises with this knowing in my head.
Rest of the day I did nothing what could be considered as exercise, we spend most of the morning and noon on Speech Day of one school, which was on other side very interesting. First because headteacher was leaving from that school and she had very touching and emotional speach and obviously she was very liked in that school. She recieved lots of recognitions and gifts from students and guests as well. Also guests were interesting, one MP (member of parlament) and one guy with titul of "President of education", his speaking skills were not so good, but the way he presented his thoughts balanced this fact very well - he held interesting and very clever speach about how is dedication and will more important then best schools, but good school motivates students to grow this dedication and will and so in the end be better students in natural way (I mean, that students wants to study because it makes sense to them, not because someone is pushing them).
Later we went to airport where I reunited with my beloved, it was so heartwarming to meet my love again, she is so beautiful and even London is very hearty place, her heart is even bigger and more bright. Rest of the day we spend resting and being, which is very good way to be on holiday as well! :)
Another rich, wonderful day.
11.7.2013 Hindu day!
?? Weight
I slept again very deep and dreamless. And in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) I was crazy sleepy today morning, it took me a lot to do it all, today it was more about dedicating that time to exercises.
First I did Sun Salutation for 10 minutes, it went tough, but it was really good to do it as always. I did both holds in positions and dynamic to simply make my being moving. After that I did 10 minutes Udianabandha, but I could focus only so poorly, that it has no real effect, a bit yes, but not much. At one point I found myself totally out of exercise and had to brought myself back on all levels. Then I did ABS and belly exercises, at least this part I did fully and I felt my muscles in belly very good. For the rest of time (about 15 minutes) I was dancing and I could enjoy this, I always feel how good and healthy it is for me.
II) Then I went on my epic travel to Shri Vallabh Nidhi Temple in Wembley - beautiful temple. Great place, wonderful traditions, true believers all around. I went inside, took my sneakers off, made ritual with pouring milk and water on shiva linga. They had really huge Shiva Linga there, beautiful with lots of decorations, it was so much different from that cold christian tradition in St.Paul's yesterday. It was even quite sexual, not in exitement way, more like, you could feel how is sexuality in this tradition simply natural part of live and having as important role as it has in our life - so quite huge role! Anyhow... then I went inside of the temple and bow to many deities there and then spend lots of time praying in the middle, and percieving atmosphere and energy of the place. It was amazing time. And then true miracle happen.
I went out to make some more photos and one guy in the car waved on me to come to him and he was like "Im here with 3 friends going around the temples, if you want to come with us, we take you". And I was a bit like... you know... to go around london with 3 completely strangers, indians... but i decided to ake a risk, because I felt guy good and they took me to another temple. It was more dedicated to Shiva then to Hare Crishna way as the last one. Again these amazing traditions and you could watch believers there how they behave and act and it was so huge difference from Christians, you could see the true in theyr believes, they wasnt bound to any priest or ceremony, they just prayed because they felt like and in the way they felt like, they brought gifts and good wishes. And even afterwards we went to big room where anyone could come and get free lunch! And what a lunch! Vegetarien, wonderful meal with all what healthy and complete food should have, it was like a miracle to have proper food from total strangers on place where I got just by cooperation of many coincidences. Great company and great event, it made me want to share anything i can with others, just for the sake of giving. But in this tradition on this day (only at thursdays!) you are not allowed to give,m you can just recieve this food, its so wonderful feeling. I felt for the rest of the day, that this changed something in me. I cant say what yet, but it did.
And now, how I got there? First, my brother in law told me about this place on the way from airport, I had no idea about such temples in London, then at wednesday I bough by accident ticket for whole day for thursday, but I did not originally planed to go with tube at thursday so I even asked my sis to change it for other day, but office was close so it wasnt possible to change it so I had to use it at Thursday. Then we found I can come to that temple just by tube and we dont need to go with a car and my Brother in law wasnt so keen to go there so in the end I went by tube there alone. If I would come with my brother in law I would most likely not get into contact with those 3 indians and / or could not go with them with theyr car! Simply - everything since I come to London played that I could meet those 3 kings and go with them to that other temple to witness this amazing tradition and experience something such extraordinary. Fact, that this could also happen just on thursday since it is special day in this tradition is just a cherry on the top. It as very special meeting full of miracles and Im so grateful to life and everything to experience this, very special.
And they even brought me back afterwards so I could make more photos of Shri Vallabh Nidhi and then go home again.
III) In the evening I met one other member of my family who lives in London and we went for a walk and talk so I had a lot of walking today again and lots of wonderful meetings :)
What a day! long, full, exhausting, thrilling, full of meetings and events and places. Im so grateful for today, it felt like week of time happened in just today. Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept again very deep and dreamless. And in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) I was crazy sleepy today morning, it took me a lot to do it all, today it was more about dedicating that time to exercises.
First I did Sun Salutation for 10 minutes, it went tough, but it was really good to do it as always. I did both holds in positions and dynamic to simply make my being moving. After that I did 10 minutes Udianabandha, but I could focus only so poorly, that it has no real effect, a bit yes, but not much. At one point I found myself totally out of exercise and had to brought myself back on all levels. Then I did ABS and belly exercises, at least this part I did fully and I felt my muscles in belly very good. For the rest of time (about 15 minutes) I was dancing and I could enjoy this, I always feel how good and healthy it is for me.
II) Then I went on my epic travel to Shri Vallabh Nidhi Temple in Wembley - beautiful temple. Great place, wonderful traditions, true believers all around. I went inside, took my sneakers off, made ritual with pouring milk and water on shiva linga. They had really huge Shiva Linga there, beautiful with lots of decorations, it was so much different from that cold christian tradition in St.Paul's yesterday. It was even quite sexual, not in exitement way, more like, you could feel how is sexuality in this tradition simply natural part of live and having as important role as it has in our life - so quite huge role! Anyhow... then I went inside of the temple and bow to many deities there and then spend lots of time praying in the middle, and percieving atmosphere and energy of the place. It was amazing time. And then true miracle happen.
I went out to make some more photos and one guy in the car waved on me to come to him and he was like "Im here with 3 friends going around the temples, if you want to come with us, we take you". And I was a bit like... you know... to go around london with 3 completely strangers, indians... but i decided to ake a risk, because I felt guy good and they took me to another temple. It was more dedicated to Shiva then to Hare Crishna way as the last one. Again these amazing traditions and you could watch believers there how they behave and act and it was so huge difference from Christians, you could see the true in theyr believes, they wasnt bound to any priest or ceremony, they just prayed because they felt like and in the way they felt like, they brought gifts and good wishes. And even afterwards we went to big room where anyone could come and get free lunch! And what a lunch! Vegetarien, wonderful meal with all what healthy and complete food should have, it was like a miracle to have proper food from total strangers on place where I got just by cooperation of many coincidences. Great company and great event, it made me want to share anything i can with others, just for the sake of giving. But in this tradition on this day (only at thursdays!) you are not allowed to give,m you can just recieve this food, its so wonderful feeling. I felt for the rest of the day, that this changed something in me. I cant say what yet, but it did.
And now, how I got there? First, my brother in law told me about this place on the way from airport, I had no idea about such temples in London, then at wednesday I bough by accident ticket for whole day for thursday, but I did not originally planed to go with tube at thursday so I even asked my sis to change it for other day, but office was close so it wasnt possible to change it so I had to use it at Thursday. Then we found I can come to that temple just by tube and we dont need to go with a car and my Brother in law wasnt so keen to go there so in the end I went by tube there alone. If I would come with my brother in law I would most likely not get into contact with those 3 indians and / or could not go with them with theyr car! Simply - everything since I come to London played that I could meet those 3 kings and go with them to that other temple to witness this amazing tradition and experience something such extraordinary. Fact, that this could also happen just on thursday since it is special day in this tradition is just a cherry on the top. It as very special meeting full of miracles and Im so grateful to life and everything to experience this, very special.
And they even brought me back afterwards so I could make more photos of Shri Vallabh Nidhi and then go home again.
III) In the evening I met one other member of my family who lives in London and we went for a walk and talk so I had a lot of walking today again and lots of wonderful meetings :)
What a day! long, full, exhausting, thrilling, full of meetings and events and places. Im so grateful for today, it felt like week of time happened in just today. Ohm mani padme hum.
10.7.2013 Music of the spheres and Hyde park excursion
?? Weight
I slept well and deep tonight. Dont remember any dreams. And in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) I have to mention, that it was very hard to exercise today, new place, no music, crazy stiffnes... but I did it anyway.
Starting with Sun Salutations, I wanted dynamic way, but I was so stiff, that it was something between holds and dynamic.... :P It was very good to do it, I was so crazy stiff that I had to move it a bit or I would just suffer whole day.
After that I did 10 minutes of ABS exercise, random mix of exercises, I somehow chose very hard ones and was very happy for alarm, I feel my ABS very good in last days because of these intense exercises, no complaining at all!
Next block I did Burpees, believe or not, I did just about 46 of them in 10 minutes and I felt much more used then normally after 5 minutes. but at the same time I felt I did more work then normally, it felt great, I felt that today I moved somewhere because of this will strengthening to continue even my body was numb and exhausted after first 15 reps.
Last 15 minutes I was dancing - thats right, without music. And you know what? It was great and it worked out beautifully! I played my personal soundtrack in my head and was dancing as I wanted on music I wanted at just that moment and I felt like I could hum music in my head and maybe some composer could write a music piece from it :D Nah, it would be most likely boring composition, but if it would be possible - sure it would :) Anyhow, was great fun and joy, its so great how anything what dont work out in first moment can give so much more then if it would actually work out as I want.
Then I went into city of London to walk a bit, visit parks and went to Hyde park. I wanted to see speakers corner and I found it, but none was speaking there. But I spend there about an hour just like that and it as nice too. From Hyde park I went to Cleopatras needle and it was something really. So powerful artefact, you can still feel the sun which was absorbed by this obelisc for 3000 years under egypt sun. And to see those hyeroglyphs is also something - its no artificial or something, its real actual text and message for those who read it, its amazing feeling to percieve this. but in any case, it was very powerful to sit near and let myself to be effected by this ancient powerful energy of Cleopatras needle, valuable experience indeed.
From Cleopatras needle I went to St. Paul's Cathedral, thats one piece of HUGE structure Im telling you! Monumental gargantual building, very nice as well. Inside it dosnt look so huge, more like lots of bigger churches, classical decoration. I was there at the right moment and could join the service. It was interesting process to join the service, but you know - when else I happen to be in St. Paul's to join the service.... so I did and tried to be as much part of the event as possible. I also tried to relax into it, abandon prejudgices about christian community and mainly try to feel universal energy of religious event. But I did not felt much tbh anyway. I dont know if it was because I could not really allow myself, or if there wasnt really much volume of it. At some points i felt dedication and will of others doing service, but it was not very strong, for such a place and number of people - not much.
And then back home. Tired, feet hurting, but what a day! Everything flew for my best and I could see places I always wanted to see. Im very grateful for today.
I slept well and deep tonight. Dont remember any dreams. And in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) I have to mention, that it was very hard to exercise today, new place, no music, crazy stiffnes... but I did it anyway.
Starting with Sun Salutations, I wanted dynamic way, but I was so stiff, that it was something between holds and dynamic.... :P It was very good to do it, I was so crazy stiff that I had to move it a bit or I would just suffer whole day.
After that I did 10 minutes of ABS exercise, random mix of exercises, I somehow chose very hard ones and was very happy for alarm, I feel my ABS very good in last days because of these intense exercises, no complaining at all!
Next block I did Burpees, believe or not, I did just about 46 of them in 10 minutes and I felt much more used then normally after 5 minutes. but at the same time I felt I did more work then normally, it felt great, I felt that today I moved somewhere because of this will strengthening to continue even my body was numb and exhausted after first 15 reps.
Last 15 minutes I was dancing - thats right, without music. And you know what? It was great and it worked out beautifully! I played my personal soundtrack in my head and was dancing as I wanted on music I wanted at just that moment and I felt like I could hum music in my head and maybe some composer could write a music piece from it :D Nah, it would be most likely boring composition, but if it would be possible - sure it would :) Anyhow, was great fun and joy, its so great how anything what dont work out in first moment can give so much more then if it would actually work out as I want.
Then I went into city of London to walk a bit, visit parks and went to Hyde park. I wanted to see speakers corner and I found it, but none was speaking there. But I spend there about an hour just like that and it as nice too. From Hyde park I went to Cleopatras needle and it was something really. So powerful artefact, you can still feel the sun which was absorbed by this obelisc for 3000 years under egypt sun. And to see those hyeroglyphs is also something - its no artificial or something, its real actual text and message for those who read it, its amazing feeling to percieve this. but in any case, it was very powerful to sit near and let myself to be effected by this ancient powerful energy of Cleopatras needle, valuable experience indeed.
From Cleopatras needle I went to St. Paul's Cathedral, thats one piece of HUGE structure Im telling you! Monumental gargantual building, very nice as well. Inside it dosnt look so huge, more like lots of bigger churches, classical decoration. I was there at the right moment and could join the service. It was interesting process to join the service, but you know - when else I happen to be in St. Paul's to join the service.... so I did and tried to be as much part of the event as possible. I also tried to relax into it, abandon prejudgices about christian community and mainly try to feel universal energy of religious event. But I did not felt much tbh anyway. I dont know if it was because I could not really allow myself, or if there wasnt really much volume of it. At some points i felt dedication and will of others doing service, but it was not very strong, for such a place and number of people - not much.
And then back home. Tired, feet hurting, but what a day! Everything flew for my best and I could see places I always wanted to see. Im very grateful for today.
úterý 9. července 2013
9.7.2013 Airplain Zumba!
78kg " - " nice surprise, I feel more and more that my weight is in fact much more connected to what I keep in my energetic system then so much about food. Of course movement have effect, but movement is life and I wont to be dead so movement is part of my life as breathing is.
I slept very well tonight, again very deep. Dont remember any dreams - seems that diary ready to note them, shoosh all dreams away or something! In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, today whole duration in holding mode, that means with each rep I hold in positions 1 second longer. From 1 to 9 second and alarm rung on 10th rep. Great stretching as always and in longer holdings its very powerful for system, its always very seen (felt) how energy is flowing.
Next I did Kata1 for 10 minutes. It was somehow not easy at all, I started to feel it after 4th rep on each side and I even think I missed one rep how I was distracted... but for sure I made 10 reps on each side and 1 rep on each side with 5 seconds holds in difficult positions. Today I had thoughts about healthiness of this setup, I felt like it might be good to revisit this setup and look what can be done to protect me from injury. Not that I injured something or such, it just felt like in longer run its not so healthy setup. Everything can change.
3rd block was dedicated to my core and ABS, 30 crunches, 1min yoga v-sit, 30 crunches which felt like 300% more difficult then first set..., 40 seconds yoga v-sit, 30 crunches - a bit better then second set, still very slow and rich in feelings, and then some more hold... when alarm rung I could not got up normally. This yoga v-sit is amazing exercise, so much more effective then v-sit I did before and I feel I can adjust with angle of foots and work with shoulder blades and such where it works and in one position I even felt, that whole belly worked. Anyway - extremely rich setup. Im sure it cant be used often, because body would get used to it, but sometimes to do this is VERY vital.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing. Enjoying it again very much, I was on very creative and joyful wave today and I raided this wave with lot of pleasure :)
Im leaving today again for yet another holiday and I have no idea how it will be with internet so if no inputs are coming, you know why. Take care all! Ohm mani padme hum.
In the end I would like to add some new photos, I dont know how to make quality photo just myself, so excuse the quality, please. I add 3 photos to track progress after 3 and 6 months. Its pity about quality because its not so seen that there is lot of difference between april and july, just in details :)
To make it in numbers and "achievements" - in last 6 months I lost 18+ kg of fat and gained some muscles. Stoped smoking, boosted my Shiatsu practice and went much deeper into work with clients. I can shoulder stand and stand on hands. Armstand looks much more promising. my endurance is much better, I can run freely and my speed/strength modus is much better (doing strength exercises in fat pace with same precision as in slow pace). My workshop is very big step for me as well and it looks very promising, I have much to share with people and I want to and there is a demand for it (in spiritual way).
My relationship is deeper and more beautiful then anytime before and lots of my relationships with friends got cleared.
I love my life and Im more happy that I live then I ever was before and Im grateful for it to all my teachers and friends. Ohm mani padme hum <3
II) Later I went to airport and to visit my sister, what a flight! Fantastic weather, I could see miles and miles away and watch how small we really are, so many cities, so many houses, roads, industrial complexes, so many people, so many dreams and ways of life, it makes a head spin! But I enjoyed not only these thoughts but also clouds.... clouds oh clouds, it was like islands of sheepy wool all around, or like a peaks of mountains coming out from mist. It was so beautiful, my neck still hurts from looking out of the window :)
III) After arrival I went directly to Zumba class with my sis. It was great, because I always wanted to try Zumba and I was very happy to experience it. Fast paced, new moves which for sure make my own dancing richer and nice meeting with the leader of the class. It was great, even I was quite tired in the evening after whole day. But that was hardly a surprise :)
Great day today!
I slept very well tonight, again very deep. Dont remember any dreams - seems that diary ready to note them, shoosh all dreams away or something! In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, today whole duration in holding mode, that means with each rep I hold in positions 1 second longer. From 1 to 9 second and alarm rung on 10th rep. Great stretching as always and in longer holdings its very powerful for system, its always very seen (felt) how energy is flowing.
Next I did Kata1 for 10 minutes. It was somehow not easy at all, I started to feel it after 4th rep on each side and I even think I missed one rep how I was distracted... but for sure I made 10 reps on each side and 1 rep on each side with 5 seconds holds in difficult positions. Today I had thoughts about healthiness of this setup, I felt like it might be good to revisit this setup and look what can be done to protect me from injury. Not that I injured something or such, it just felt like in longer run its not so healthy setup. Everything can change.
3rd block was dedicated to my core and ABS, 30 crunches, 1min yoga v-sit, 30 crunches which felt like 300% more difficult then first set..., 40 seconds yoga v-sit, 30 crunches - a bit better then second set, still very slow and rich in feelings, and then some more hold... when alarm rung I could not got up normally. This yoga v-sit is amazing exercise, so much more effective then v-sit I did before and I feel I can adjust with angle of foots and work with shoulder blades and such where it works and in one position I even felt, that whole belly worked. Anyway - extremely rich setup. Im sure it cant be used often, because body would get used to it, but sometimes to do this is VERY vital.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing. Enjoying it again very much, I was on very creative and joyful wave today and I raided this wave with lot of pleasure :)
Im leaving today again for yet another holiday and I have no idea how it will be with internet so if no inputs are coming, you know why. Take care all! Ohm mani padme hum.
In the end I would like to add some new photos, I dont know how to make quality photo just myself, so excuse the quality, please. I add 3 photos to track progress after 3 and 6 months. Its pity about quality because its not so seen that there is lot of difference between april and july, just in details :)
To make it in numbers and "achievements" - in last 6 months I lost 18+ kg of fat and gained some muscles. Stoped smoking, boosted my Shiatsu practice and went much deeper into work with clients. I can shoulder stand and stand on hands. Armstand looks much more promising. my endurance is much better, I can run freely and my speed/strength modus is much better (doing strength exercises in fat pace with same precision as in slow pace). My workshop is very big step for me as well and it looks very promising, I have much to share with people and I want to and there is a demand for it (in spiritual way).
My relationship is deeper and more beautiful then anytime before and lots of my relationships with friends got cleared.
I love my life and Im more happy that I live then I ever was before and Im grateful for it to all my teachers and friends. Ohm mani padme hum <3
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| 5.1.2013 95,6kg |
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| 9.7.2013 78kg |
II) Later I went to airport and to visit my sister, what a flight! Fantastic weather, I could see miles and miles away and watch how small we really are, so many cities, so many houses, roads, industrial complexes, so many people, so many dreams and ways of life, it makes a head spin! But I enjoyed not only these thoughts but also clouds.... clouds oh clouds, it was like islands of sheepy wool all around, or like a peaks of mountains coming out from mist. It was so beautiful, my neck still hurts from looking out of the window :)
III) After arrival I went directly to Zumba class with my sis. It was great, because I always wanted to try Zumba and I was very happy to experience it. Fast paced, new moves which for sure make my own dancing richer and nice meeting with the leader of the class. It was great, even I was quite tired in the evening after whole day. But that was hardly a surprise :)
Great day today!
pondělí 8. července 2013
8.7.2013
78,3kg " - " no comment, no idea, Im happy :)
I slept well tonight, as become a custom in last months, I went to bed totally exhausted, but happy from the day. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Today starting with 5 minutes of 10x SS and shadowboxing, this part went well. Then 10 minutes of core and ABS training, as core training I did 5 rounds of TM core WO, with this new, low-profile, nasty yoga style v-sits, it was very, very rich. Then I continued with couple of side exercises and random stuff and at 10 minutes I could not got up, it was nice today.... :)
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees, today I made 46 reps, it went very nice today and I feel that soon I could do 50, I was happy how it went today really, I felt very good how is my body able to switch power much faster.
Next 5 minutes I did squats combined with jumping lunges, 20 squats / 10 lunges / 20 wide squats /10 lunes / 20 tight squats / 10 lunges and normal squats till alarm. It was nice, I like to exercise legs and I feel I dont give them enough lately.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, very nice, creative, joy session today on random dancing mix, wonderful :)
II) I had today more clients, all very nice meetings and very deep treatments. I was happy to do work I do today really. Love Shiatsu :)
III) Evening I made dancing session, I was dancing in total for about 80 minutes on random mix of songs. It was quite a voyage. I was lately not so happy about my endurance while dancing somewhere so I decided to dance like this when it will be possible to work on my endurance and further deepen my sence for music and dance. After about 45 minutes I got into state where I coudl not really control what I dance, my body was just simply dancing on what was playing and I was like siting in rollercoaster wagon and enjoying the ride. I was very numb in the end and afterwards for couple of hours, but I felt it good, like I melted something rigid inside me. It was great to do it :)
I slept well tonight, as become a custom in last months, I went to bed totally exhausted, but happy from the day. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Today starting with 5 minutes of 10x SS and shadowboxing, this part went well. Then 10 minutes of core and ABS training, as core training I did 5 rounds of TM core WO, with this new, low-profile, nasty yoga style v-sits, it was very, very rich. Then I continued with couple of side exercises and random stuff and at 10 minutes I could not got up, it was nice today.... :)
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees, today I made 46 reps, it went very nice today and I feel that soon I could do 50, I was happy how it went today really, I felt very good how is my body able to switch power much faster.
Next 5 minutes I did squats combined with jumping lunges, 20 squats / 10 lunges / 20 wide squats /10 lunes / 20 tight squats / 10 lunges and normal squats till alarm. It was nice, I like to exercise legs and I feel I dont give them enough lately.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, very nice, creative, joy session today on random dancing mix, wonderful :)
II) I had today more clients, all very nice meetings and very deep treatments. I was happy to do work I do today really. Love Shiatsu :)
III) Evening I made dancing session, I was dancing in total for about 80 minutes on random mix of songs. It was quite a voyage. I was lately not so happy about my endurance while dancing somewhere so I decided to dance like this when it will be possible to work on my endurance and further deepen my sence for music and dance. After about 45 minutes I got into state where I coudl not really control what I dance, my body was just simply dancing on what was playing and I was like siting in rollercoaster wagon and enjoying the ride. I was very numb in the end and afterwards for couple of hours, but I felt it good, like I melted something rigid inside me. It was great to do it :)
neděle 7. července 2013
7.7.2013
79,3kg " - " Wow, even after what all I ate yesterday I have less, seems workshop burn was very solid.
I slept again today very deep and hard and dont remember any dreams. I think it was just simply too rich day that my being needed really just a good rest :) And in the morning after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, today I felt great and flexible and in flow and did 48 reps in first 10 minutes (bell on 49th rep and in total 72 reps or something like that (think bell rung on 73th rep after 15 minutes). I felt it very nice and good to do it today and I enjoyed it very much this fast, flowing yet precise movement. I had great feeling afterwards.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core training, today I chose Barstarz set, it went good and rich especially in combination with yoga version of frozen v-sit - man.. its so difficult and rich, I cant hold longer then 45 seconds in that, but working on it. I feel it as totally worth way to give my core some love. In the rest of time I was doing random exercises and at the end of 10 minutes limit I was unable to get up because of exhaustion of my ABS muscles, felt good... 8)
Rest about 20 minutes I was dancing, enjoying it very much and had lot of fun. I could jump straight into this amazing creative energy and enjoy every song into fullest.
II) Later in the morning I went to one local festival, it was third day of festival and it was besically in last phase, where people started to dismantle things and so on, but it was very nice to be there, I met few friends which I did not saw for years and had nice talk with them. I could also explore my feelings and give to myself a challenge with dancing alone on the dancing place when most other people just rested after yesterday party. I was dancing for about 30 minutes and it was great, DJ played something like red indien rhytm with electronic sound around and it was really amazing. Great "aroundnoon" time :)
Rest of the day I was just resting and integrating workshop from yesterday, also working on propagation of new workshop. But mainly integrating, I had lots to integrate :) Great day.
I slept again today very deep and hard and dont remember any dreams. I think it was just simply too rich day that my being needed really just a good rest :) And in the morning after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, today I felt great and flexible and in flow and did 48 reps in first 10 minutes (bell on 49th rep and in total 72 reps or something like that (think bell rung on 73th rep after 15 minutes). I felt it very nice and good to do it today and I enjoyed it very much this fast, flowing yet precise movement. I had great feeling afterwards.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core training, today I chose Barstarz set, it went good and rich especially in combination with yoga version of frozen v-sit - man.. its so difficult and rich, I cant hold longer then 45 seconds in that, but working on it. I feel it as totally worth way to give my core some love. In the rest of time I was doing random exercises and at the end of 10 minutes limit I was unable to get up because of exhaustion of my ABS muscles, felt good... 8)
Rest about 20 minutes I was dancing, enjoying it very much and had lot of fun. I could jump straight into this amazing creative energy and enjoy every song into fullest.
II) Later in the morning I went to one local festival, it was third day of festival and it was besically in last phase, where people started to dismantle things and so on, but it was very nice to be there, I met few friends which I did not saw for years and had nice talk with them. I could also explore my feelings and give to myself a challenge with dancing alone on the dancing place when most other people just rested after yesterday party. I was dancing for about 30 minutes and it was great, DJ played something like red indien rhytm with electronic sound around and it was really amazing. Great "aroundnoon" time :)
Rest of the day I was just resting and integrating workshop from yesterday, also working on propagation of new workshop. But mainly integrating, I had lots to integrate :) Great day.
6.7.2013
79,6kg " + " yeah, seems all that stress from workshop today made to not let go lots of stuff, its alright.
I slept very deep and well tonight, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning mini-exercise.
I) I had not enough time for whole morning exercise before I had to go (and I did not wanted to wake up earlier then 6am...) so I did 2 10minutes blocks. In first I did Sun Salutations - its hard to start a day without this kind of exercise, its so vital to move the body straight at the morning and stretch whole body as well, SS is just perfect fit for me for this task. great as always.
Second block I was dancing, enjoying life coming into my body. Good preparation for today as well :)
II) Almost whole day took my workshop. It was gargantual step in my life to make this happening, it was year long process to make it happen and Im happy I gave that time to it, it was totally necessary and good, I wasnt waiting for "perfect time" just until it happens naturally without pushing and it did clicket so miracleously that it was unbelievable. So many small miracles happened, all clicked perfectly, some small things even without giving it a single thought. Even mistakes I made played for perfect going of the workshop and for good of participants.
We were dancing a lot, playing with being here and now in different situations and different connections with different partners. Whole workshop was very intensive for body, heart and soul as well, I believe every participant got into space where he or she never been before and it was great to see it.
For me was greatest contact improvisation both to dance and watch.
I had totally great feeling from workshop, that it happened exactly as it have to and that it was totally good thing to do and I definitely want to do it again, not exactly same, but similar.
In the end of the day I was totally fruited out, it was very exhausting to keep all energies during workshop working and in harmony. But definitely one of richest days in my life. I learned so much today. And it was so beautiful! Amazing day, wish you all to have as many days like this as possible. Ohm many padme hum.
I slept very deep and well tonight, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning mini-exercise.
I) I had not enough time for whole morning exercise before I had to go (and I did not wanted to wake up earlier then 6am...) so I did 2 10minutes blocks. In first I did Sun Salutations - its hard to start a day without this kind of exercise, its so vital to move the body straight at the morning and stretch whole body as well, SS is just perfect fit for me for this task. great as always.
Second block I was dancing, enjoying life coming into my body. Good preparation for today as well :)
II) Almost whole day took my workshop. It was gargantual step in my life to make this happening, it was year long process to make it happen and Im happy I gave that time to it, it was totally necessary and good, I wasnt waiting for "perfect time" just until it happens naturally without pushing and it did clicket so miracleously that it was unbelievable. So many small miracles happened, all clicked perfectly, some small things even without giving it a single thought. Even mistakes I made played for perfect going of the workshop and for good of participants.
We were dancing a lot, playing with being here and now in different situations and different connections with different partners. Whole workshop was very intensive for body, heart and soul as well, I believe every participant got into space where he or she never been before and it was great to see it.
For me was greatest contact improvisation both to dance and watch.
I had totally great feeling from workshop, that it happened exactly as it have to and that it was totally good thing to do and I definitely want to do it again, not exactly same, but similar.
In the end of the day I was totally fruited out, it was very exhausting to keep all energies during workshop working and in harmony. But definitely one of richest days in my life. I learned so much today. And it was so beautiful! Amazing day, wish you all to have as many days like this as possible. Ohm many padme hum.
pátek 5. července 2013
5.7.2013 - 78,6kg
78,6kg " = " no comment today
I slept well tonight, I was very tired in the evening and I slept very deep, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercises. Well, originally I planed to make day off, but in the end I did it anyway. I can just guess what it cause that I wake up lately not so good as in last years.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, a bot with holdings and lots of dynamic reps, I felt it important to stretch and move myself after yesterday. I dont like to spend day with stiff body, it was great.
Next 10 minutes I was training my core and ABS, I somehow chose very hard stuff today, it was rich and painful, but I felt I got to some new positions and feelings in my belly muscles, especially I did new version of frozen v-sit, more demanding then version I learned from youtube videos, I could stay in it just for 30 seconds top. But I feel it as simply different exercise then v-sit Im doing regulary, it feels different and I feel also muscles working in different way. But this version I want definitely keep in my setups, its legs just in 30% with the ground and back lifted only that shoulder blades are lifted. Its strong alright. I was grateful for alarm today... :)
Last about 22-25 minutes I was dancing, today I enjoyed it very much, both creative and joyful, very nice session. Even I got quite heavy rock/metal songs today I could free my mind and dance for fun and joy, nice change :)
Rest of the day I was brainstorming about working on my workshop tomorrow, I was also practicing techniques I wanted to use and all together it was quite a process and in the evening I was quite exhausted from all that, but I felt that I did what I should to feel fine before workshop and
I slept well tonight, I was very tired in the evening and I slept very deep, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercises. Well, originally I planed to make day off, but in the end I did it anyway. I can just guess what it cause that I wake up lately not so good as in last years.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, a bot with holdings and lots of dynamic reps, I felt it important to stretch and move myself after yesterday. I dont like to spend day with stiff body, it was great.
Next 10 minutes I was training my core and ABS, I somehow chose very hard stuff today, it was rich and painful, but I felt I got to some new positions and feelings in my belly muscles, especially I did new version of frozen v-sit, more demanding then version I learned from youtube videos, I could stay in it just for 30 seconds top. But I feel it as simply different exercise then v-sit Im doing regulary, it feels different and I feel also muscles working in different way. But this version I want definitely keep in my setups, its legs just in 30% with the ground and back lifted only that shoulder blades are lifted. Its strong alright. I was grateful for alarm today... :)
Last about 22-25 minutes I was dancing, today I enjoyed it very much, both creative and joyful, very nice session. Even I got quite heavy rock/metal songs today I could free my mind and dance for fun and joy, nice change :)
Rest of the day I was brainstorming about working on my workshop tomorrow, I was also practicing techniques I wanted to use and all together it was quite a process and in the evening I was quite exhausted from all that, but I felt that I did what I should to feel fine before workshop and
čtvrtek 4. července 2013
4.7.2013
78,7kg " - " I was too hungry in the evening so I made brilliant, healthy soup, still nice drop.
I slept well and nourishing and I had dreams and I forgot them again even I remembered them in the morning, BUT... for tonight I want to finally take diary and write it down when its till in my head. In the morning after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Today I made completely new setup. Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutations in dynamic way as fast as possible, I made only 15 anyway, but its always good to make Sun Salutations :) After that I did 10 minutes of Shadowboxing and kickbox practices, shadowboxing is nicely developing in both endurance and preciseness way. In practices part I practiced all moves, its great to make this with some level of consciousness and feel body fully, feel what it do, move, feels, autocorections then works very nicely and exercise itself show me what to make different. Definitely good exercise.
Then I was giving love to my core and ABS, first 4 rounds of TM core WO, it was rich, but surprisigly not that hard as expected, I felt it very good, I felt my core very well. And in rest of time I did random exercises as I felt it, I was happy for time limit ring really :)
In the rest of time, I was dancing for about 20 minutes, today it was good fun, I somehow could flow easily into child joy from movement and be creative in very playful, joyful way.
II) Later in the morning I had a client who was on very similar life path as I am and it was very nice to feel his appreciation and this connection between man.
III) Afternoon I did full 2hr yoga set. First after 2 weeks, it was whole time fight with my mind, but I realized good thing finally - best thing to calm my mind is to be as precisely in position as possible, because then pain and tense take focus and instead of listening to mind radio I can be fully in my body. However I experienced something new today, while doing shalabhasana, I realized that I can bend my back in different, more full way then I did, it felt like if I was bending just small part of back and main trunk of body left unattended, but today I felt like Im bending whole back, it was completely new feeling in the body for me and it open something. Also Triconasana felt interesting, I felt like thanks to this asana I can relax parts of my body in positions which I would say you simply cant relax at all. I feel again closer to point where I can hold in position without using strength, but only natural flow of energy and my body itself as support of position.
All in all, it was vital and great to do yoga again and I wish myself and you all to could and be able to do yoga as often as possible.
IV) Afternoon I went to place where my workshop takes place at saturday and was feeling into place and looking whats there and how all works. Then I went to tantra course. Today we was doing yoga a lot, so I did lot of yoga today just alright. And also we did some theory about technique called Laya yoga. Seems interesting, but lets see. At the end we did some meditations about blending into universum... it was quite a ride, we expanded our field over whole universe - well, we had to visualize it. My field started to collapse in moment we had to expand it over whole city, I felt my consciousness is not able to home such feelings yet, but I felt that this is exactly the way how I could expand my mind so I can home all whats coming to me and what I cant allow, because of low capacity. Of course I know I HAVE that capacity, but to let allow myself to use it and access this is other thing. It was good to go there.
What a full and rich day! I was dead tired when going to sleep. Good day today.
I slept well and nourishing and I had dreams and I forgot them again even I remembered them in the morning, BUT... for tonight I want to finally take diary and write it down when its till in my head. In the morning after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Today I made completely new setup. Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutations in dynamic way as fast as possible, I made only 15 anyway, but its always good to make Sun Salutations :) After that I did 10 minutes of Shadowboxing and kickbox practices, shadowboxing is nicely developing in both endurance and preciseness way. In practices part I practiced all moves, its great to make this with some level of consciousness and feel body fully, feel what it do, move, feels, autocorections then works very nicely and exercise itself show me what to make different. Definitely good exercise.
Then I was giving love to my core and ABS, first 4 rounds of TM core WO, it was rich, but surprisigly not that hard as expected, I felt it very good, I felt my core very well. And in rest of time I did random exercises as I felt it, I was happy for time limit ring really :)
In the rest of time, I was dancing for about 20 minutes, today it was good fun, I somehow could flow easily into child joy from movement and be creative in very playful, joyful way.
II) Later in the morning I had a client who was on very similar life path as I am and it was very nice to feel his appreciation and this connection between man.
III) Afternoon I did full 2hr yoga set. First after 2 weeks, it was whole time fight with my mind, but I realized good thing finally - best thing to calm my mind is to be as precisely in position as possible, because then pain and tense take focus and instead of listening to mind radio I can be fully in my body. However I experienced something new today, while doing shalabhasana, I realized that I can bend my back in different, more full way then I did, it felt like if I was bending just small part of back and main trunk of body left unattended, but today I felt like Im bending whole back, it was completely new feeling in the body for me and it open something. Also Triconasana felt interesting, I felt like thanks to this asana I can relax parts of my body in positions which I would say you simply cant relax at all. I feel again closer to point where I can hold in position without using strength, but only natural flow of energy and my body itself as support of position.
All in all, it was vital and great to do yoga again and I wish myself and you all to could and be able to do yoga as often as possible.
IV) Afternoon I went to place where my workshop takes place at saturday and was feeling into place and looking whats there and how all works. Then I went to tantra course. Today we was doing yoga a lot, so I did lot of yoga today just alright. And also we did some theory about technique called Laya yoga. Seems interesting, but lets see. At the end we did some meditations about blending into universum... it was quite a ride, we expanded our field over whole universe - well, we had to visualize it. My field started to collapse in moment we had to expand it over whole city, I felt my consciousness is not able to home such feelings yet, but I felt that this is exactly the way how I could expand my mind so I can home all whats coming to me and what I cant allow, because of low capacity. Of course I know I HAVE that capacity, but to let allow myself to use it and access this is other thing. It was good to go there.
What a full and rich day! I was dead tired when going to sleep. Good day today.
středa 3. července 2013
3.7.2013
79,6kg " + " quite a surprise, I woke up with feeling that I lost again and then on weight this, well, good signal to ground again a bit and work on my sweets addiction.
I slept very well tonight and dont remember any dreams. In the morning after a bit of waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first holdings to stretch from 1 to 8 seconds and then few dynamic reps till the alarm rung.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS training, today set with gym ball. I have mixed feelings from this, on one side I feel its very powerful practice on other I dont feel as "used" afterwards as usually. On other hand, it might be just because I use other parts of muscles which are not used for this way and they need to shape up to allow me to go deep into these exercises. I for sure keep this set and I want to be really focused on the way I exercise this to speed up the learning process. I have some stability issues because of not used muscle groups. This will be corrected with further exercises I believe.
Next block, 5 minutes long, I was doing Burpees, today I wanted to do 40 and I did! Alarm rung at 41th rep, of course its still very slow, I feel so much reserves, but even its faster and faster its, its still not easy to move my body as fast as I would like. Getting better tho!
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, relaxed, nice dancing, I enjoyed it, nothing special to mention.
Rest of the day I did what I had to manage and afternoon I had client for tantra massage, it was great after some time to have regular tantra massage client, I believe in this method very much, because tantric massages changed my life very deeply and I would love to do the same for woman. I believe that it will turn out to have much more clients for tantric massages as well as for Shiatsu. I dont want to do anything else atm.
Great day today, long, full of small things, full of small joys :)
I slept very well tonight and dont remember any dreams. In the morning after a bit of waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first holdings to stretch from 1 to 8 seconds and then few dynamic reps till the alarm rung.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS training, today set with gym ball. I have mixed feelings from this, on one side I feel its very powerful practice on other I dont feel as "used" afterwards as usually. On other hand, it might be just because I use other parts of muscles which are not used for this way and they need to shape up to allow me to go deep into these exercises. I for sure keep this set and I want to be really focused on the way I exercise this to speed up the learning process. I have some stability issues because of not used muscle groups. This will be corrected with further exercises I believe.
Next block, 5 minutes long, I was doing Burpees, today I wanted to do 40 and I did! Alarm rung at 41th rep, of course its still very slow, I feel so much reserves, but even its faster and faster its, its still not easy to move my body as fast as I would like. Getting better tho!
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, relaxed, nice dancing, I enjoyed it, nothing special to mention.
Rest of the day I did what I had to manage and afternoon I had client for tantra massage, it was great after some time to have regular tantra massage client, I believe in this method very much, because tantric massages changed my life very deeply and I would love to do the same for woman. I believe that it will turn out to have much more clients for tantric massages as well as for Shiatsu. I dont want to do anything else atm.
Great day today, long, full of small things, full of small joys :)
úterý 2. července 2013
2.7.2013
78,9kg " + " surprising, but its possibly because system is more easy while Im at home
Tonight I did not slept so well, I had crazy stomach ache with interesting special effects coming from both up and down ventilation points of my body... dont remember any dreams. And in the morning for the morning exercise.
I) Today starting with 5 minutes warm up. Fast 10x SS and then fair share of shadowboxing, its good to be fast with SS - fast, but precise! Then I did pyramid from 14 to 1 and again to 3. I was faster then last time, seems my new strategy to alternate power and explosive strength trainings works somehow. And it also feels better tbh. I dont feel fine with being slow, it feels much better to be able to be precise and fast. Speed without precision have not much meaning for me.
Then I did 5 minutes of ABS strengthening. I made it rich for myself, I basically chose set of hardest exercise I know so those 5 minutes felt long and very rich :)
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. Playing a lot with flow and surrendering into flow. Had very nice random mix for today so I could enjoy all sorts of energies in music and dances. I liked it today very much.
Rest of the day I did no other exercises, I was traveling a lot and doing lot of office stuff for workshop and things I had to do. I was really happy how much I did today. Today was a good day.
Tonight I did not slept so well, I had crazy stomach ache with interesting special effects coming from both up and down ventilation points of my body... dont remember any dreams. And in the morning for the morning exercise.
I) Today starting with 5 minutes warm up. Fast 10x SS and then fair share of shadowboxing, its good to be fast with SS - fast, but precise! Then I did pyramid from 14 to 1 and again to 3. I was faster then last time, seems my new strategy to alternate power and explosive strength trainings works somehow. And it also feels better tbh. I dont feel fine with being slow, it feels much better to be able to be precise and fast. Speed without precision have not much meaning for me.
Then I did 5 minutes of ABS strengthening. I made it rich for myself, I basically chose set of hardest exercise I know so those 5 minutes felt long and very rich :)
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. Playing a lot with flow and surrendering into flow. Had very nice random mix for today so I could enjoy all sorts of energies in music and dances. I liked it today very much.
Rest of the day I did no other exercises, I was traveling a lot and doing lot of office stuff for workshop and things I had to do. I was really happy how much I did today. Today was a good day.
1.7.2013
78,5kg its good considering holiday and mountains of sweets I ate there :)
Tonight I slept quite good and long and deep.
I had a dream and I remember it! No... I dont... damn! Even when I was doing
morning exercise I know everything, but now again just blank space. No other
help then just write it... Anyway, in the morning up for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun
Salutations, partially holds and rest dynamic way, great start of the day as
always. Then 10 minutes of ABS training, combination of holds and random
exercises, frozen v-sit and full leg length movements. It was very rich. I also
used bit of exercises from gym ball
exercise set. I loved the feeling at the end, but it was very difficult.
Then I was biking on second level of this
stationary bike here, in the end I could go even quite fast, seems my body have
so good memory that even its after weeks it still can catch up on last exercise
on this bike. It was great.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, my
body was quite numb and not wiling to do wilder movements at the start, but
thanks to this numbness I could get easily into flow and enjoy dancing very much
:)
For the rest of day I was traveling a lot and at home I had lots of things to do, to sort stuff from holiday and all connected, communication with people, work on workshop and so on. It took me lot sof time and I went to bed at 22 totally exhausted. But it was very nice day in total.
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