31.3.2013 - 81kg border BROKEN!!! 80,5kg
 Im writing a big backwardly, its 1.4. today, but no april jokes.... :) I remeber I dreamt a lot again tonight and at the morning I went for morning exercise.
 I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed, in 10 minutes limit I did 48 repetitions... Im courious how much its possible to do in 10 minutes, there was a times I though 40 is border limit :P It wasnt so totaly smooth, its allways not easiest after rest day, but rest day is very important as well. Even it asnt so easy, I wasnt so dizzy afterwards and could continue next 5 minutes in increasing holding in possitions. I still felt a lot that smoke from a club from friday, it lasts in body for quite some time... :/ But exercise was great!
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscle strenghtening, I made 4 rounds of TM core WO, it was hard, man, but made it all 4 rounds, took me 5 minutes to do it. Rest of the time I did classical mix of random exercises.
 Last 15 minutes I was dancing, today it was very creative as I felt it :)
 II) Afternoon I had a client. I had interesting experience, becaue client was in deep wound and was crying a lot and I felt how its closing my heart, but I wanted to keep my heart open for this client and do best treatment I could, it was like learn to relax into pain, but not into phisical pain, but emotianal (energetical) pain. I was very greatfull for this experience.

30.3.2013 - ?? I wasnt weighting myself today morning
 Tonight I slept quite well and deep and I had this dream - I was youg memebr of a balck-guys gang and my riend were introducing me into the ways of my new gang. He told me who is doing what, how all works and such, it went for realy long time, then I think I colaborated with other gang or just thought about to colaborate with otehr gang, bcause I knew all these things about my new gang. It was strenge, I have no idea why I was in black-guys comunity :)
 Today I decided to make a break from exercises after 8 days. But I had instad very nice timew at the morning with my womanfriend so I dont know exacly if I can say I didnt had morning exercise... naah, it was too beautiful to call it exercise :)

29.3.2013 - 81,2 +=
 Tonight I slept very good, even I went sleep very early. I think I needed to sleep out a bit anyway and I did a lot yesterday so I deserved it 8) At the morning after some very beautiful bed play I went for morning exercise. It wasnt so easy to start today realy.
 I) I started with Sun Salutations, I wanted to do it as dynamic as possible. My back was still a bit painfull. I think I did realy a lot for my back this week so I didnt wanted to overdo it too much, so I was listening to my body as much as possible a was only as fast as felt fine. But at the end I could make it a bit faster.
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercises, started with TM core WO, but made only 2 rounds, on third I could not do 1hand/1leg so I just skiped to long frozen V-sit and then I did classical mix of exercises. I dont know what I did in last days so much, that I felt like I cant do realy much today. But it was good exercise anyway. In some exercies I saw improvement.
 As next thing I wanted to do 60 burpees, but I could not, I tried and on first repetition I knew so clearnly that today is not a day, that I better went dancing. So I was dancing about 20+ minutes. Today enjoying it a lot, both harder and softer songs, it was great as usualy :)
 II) At the evening I went to a club. I wasnt in a club for realy long time so it was interesting experience. For first since Im not smoking anymore I felt quite sensitive for a cigarette smoke. Maybe if I wouldnt be smoking longer it would be more fine, but my body is not by far cleansed from smoking and I think it was a reason I was real suffocating there and after about 3 hours I had to leave. It was however quite good evening. I met few friends there and it was great to both watch dancing and dance with a nice woman.

28.3.2013 - 81,1kg  " - " I want to start to slow down with loosing weight, I dont want to be skinny, I want to have muscle mass and cultivate my body to be able to do Calisthenics and other crazy stuff :) But I still have lots of fat arounc my belly, ass and thights, so its still fine, till 78 its ok.
 I had problems to fall asleep, my mind radio was so fetching stuff with climbing, that it took me quite some time to fell asleep. Then I slept well till 6. And straight for morning exercise!
 I) Starting with 5 minutes of 10x SS and shadowboxing as warm-up and then 10 minutes of Pyramide, today I started from 13 and it went better then I though! I had to help myself only on 9-7 parts and only for couple of pushups. In total it means I did 93 pushup, 93 situps and 93 squats (I did one 2serie extra). It was rich, truth to be said, but Im happy to make it so smooth. I had 1 minute to spare at the end. Im realy courious if its possible to drag it to pyramide from 15 in 10 minute limit. Challenge accepted, but not timely limited :)
 Next 5 minutes I did belly muscles, didnt wanted to overdoit, even then I felt at the end like it was on edge. I did classical mix of what-comes-on-my-mind. Its much more fun to listen to body what to do then go by some routine.
 Last 20 minutes I spend dancing... :3 What can I say, awesome, today it was easy to get into flow and shake my body properly, it was awesome.
 II) After breakfest I was painting a bit... well, no matetr how it sounds, it was about to correct one my painting on the wall, it as painted somehow badly and it falls apart so I have to sometimes corect some parts. Its very interesting to paint, even when only like this, it realy requires tons of practice and skills to paint, its like carving on a match with chainsaw, or thats my first impresion of what it takes to paint :)
 III) Later I was doing some Kumihimo. Its logn time since I did this, its good for fingers and focus and also final jewelry is quite nice and original. Its more then a year since I made something, it was nice to refresh this skill.
 IV) Afternoon I did Hathayoga. Today it was fantastic, I dedicated whole exercise not only to Shiva, but also to relaxing my body and exploring what it takes and gives. I come t oconclusion, that its imposible t odo yoga without relaxing, I know it might sound like "of course its like this, he needs to mention that?" but one thing is to "know" it and second is to realy understand and today I realy understood, its simply too demanding to hold everyhting or go to possition with strength, you would need to have superhuman powers and you would proabdly harm yourself at the end anyway. So I was focusing on relaxing ALL muscles possible, I think I discovered souple of muscles I never know I can feel and I also discovered how much muscles Im using unnecesarilly. I was exepriencing lots of plesant sensations as well today, it come with relaxation too... :) So result is: I want to feel even deeper into my body, take control over all those muscles and relax and shape them into possition I want to make, without strength, just focus and intention.

 I would liek to share one thing. Im doing pushups every day and Im lately geting to state which I was experiencing years ago as well - I feel like Im not using any muscles when doing pushups, I know it may sound weird and I cant explain it, just describe how I feel it. Its like I do all movement but dont activate muscles and in the moment I THINK Im geting tired, I start activate more and more muscles and starting to feel pain in them and then I have to stop. Its very fascinating, its interesting idea, that if I could stay relaxed and not activate mind and muscles how long I could do those pushups :)
 Im experiencing something similar on bike. When Im dificult place, I try to relax totaly legs and jsut do the movement of pedals. I experienced same sensation like with pushups, legs starts to numb and pain when my mind decide, that its about time to feel my legs like that.
 I realy want to explore this! Its of course possible, that reason is very simple and its that Im using my muscle system better so it dosnt feel like activating seperate muscles, but whole system where muscles suport each other in healthy way and when I start thinking this system broke up and stop working in harmony and therafor to pain.

27.3.2013 - 81,4kg - :)
 Tonigh I had quite problem to fell asleep how my body hurted from gym, but once I slept I slept hard. Woke up even after 6 today. And at the morning srtaight for morning exercise! Well... carefully today, no rush, owww...
 I) Starting with Sun Salutations, 5 minutes and I barely made 10 repetitions, my back dosnt hurt like its wounded, its very clear that its muscles which got care yesterday and I dont want to block them or something with fast movement, I like my back too much :)
 Next I did 12 minutes of belly muscles exercise, I tried to do TM core WO, but it didnt worked out, so I did just some hold in plank and then frozen V-sit as long as was possible. Next I did long serie of sit-ups, it wasnt so easy either, its long time since I did those in long serie as well, so no surprise. For the rest I did my usualy random mix of exercise combined with experimenting.
 Afterwards I was dancing 30 minutes (about, it was a bit more). I enjoyed it a lot, whole time, onyl in one moment some shit come to me, that I was in my wories and troubles for a while, before I was able to return to presence. In general I felt it very healing to dance like this today, great :)
 II) Later I ws cleaning/sorting again. I sorted lot sof cloths, it took somethinng around an hour. Sorted loads of cloths I dont want anymore or som ancient ones and made a better order in my clothes. It felt great, even its still not easy to throw stuff away, this atachments are crazy.
 III) Afternoon I did Bikram yoga again. Its realy heavy exercise, truth to be said, I was sweping like crazy at some points, Im sure I will try to stick to it for some time, its definetely great on my back and stabilization system. I cant say I felt something energeticaly, I think it will take some time till I would be able to feel subtle sensations in Bikram, its too phisicaly exhausting right now. But on other side, I cant immagine better school to relax body in unusual possitions, it simply hurts so much when I dont relax, that it makes me to relax :)

26.3.2013 - 82kg border BROKEN!!! 81,7kg   >:3
 Today I slept well, I can say after long time, healthy, natural, peacefull sleep, woke up even before 6 today, refreshed and ready for a day. And after some internet browsing straight for mornign exercise!
 I) I wanted to do dynamicly 10 minutes Sun Salutation, but as I stood and waited for starting alarm, I felt I will do speed session and so I did! It was somehow different then anytime before, I felt more flexible and more agile to make it fast and I did 46 or 47 repetitions (Im not sure becaue lost counting at one point) repetitions AND I wasnt numb and dizzy at all after I stoped, I felt great.
 Next 10 minutes I spend working my belly muscles out, starting with enhanced version of TM come WO, 30 seconds in plank possition with turning head left-right, then 1arm/1leg stretch alternation for 3 seconds hold in a stretch, 10 changes, at the end 30 seconds in frozen V-sit, 2 rounds. Nasty stuff, man, but I feel its important to alternate long holding days with change days, so muscles wont get used either for hlding long or change fast. Rest of time I was playing what I felt is necessary, I found myself, that I dont do any sets or exact exercises anymore, I possition myself into shape my muscles needs to be exercised and its allways different and often totaly new exercise.
 3rd block I did mixed exercises, starting with some leg exercises, followed with shadowboxing and then some long-hold stretches on my legs, somehing like mini-mini yoga session.
 Last 10 and a bit more minutes I was dancing, I enjoyed it imensly today :) Dancing on Breach - man up it was amazing, I went totaly crazy :)
 II) Later at the morning I did Hathayoga, new setup with 3 asanas for 3rd chakra. I cant do properly any of them, its a bit embarasing, but whatever, yoga is not a sport and its just first day of my life :) Else I was more focusing today on focus on right chakras combined with focus on relaxing critical parts of body, its realy not easy to combine these two things. My relationship to yoga realy changed, its much deeper now for me then "just" a tool to experience interesting sensations and pleasure, its for me like study myself on all levels, its infinite playground, universe to explore, its amazing to dive in this exploration and I have feeling that I will never get bored.
 III) At the evening I went to the gym. To my surprise I did whole time only back strengthtup (besides of inictial and final stational bike riding). You know, if I cant come regulary, its better to focus on parts I feel in need to strenght up and its right now my back, both yoga and climbing have big demands on back and I want to give lots of love and care to my back to handle it in healthy, fun state. I did lots of exercises, focusing on Trapezoid, Erector Spinae and lower back (so inner and outter belly muscles on the sides). I hadnt so much fun truth to be said, even it was new in some ways, for example, as my back muscles are a bit stronger then on the begining, I feel them more when exercising and so I can focus more on them to make work right muscles mainly, which is great. I also get corrected on one mundane exercise which is very important and it was also good. It was good to go nontheless - wanted to go climbing today, but my sparingpartner fell off so gym was spare plan :)

 Great day today! Full to the roof, but great :)

25.3.2013 - 82,8kg + I must confess, even I ate only good stuff yesterday, it was a lot, sometimes its Pyrhas wictory to cook something realy delicious, its great and healthy, but you want to eat a lot then :P
 Else I slept fine today, woke up around 6 in good and straight for morning exercise!
 I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with inscreasing holdings in possitions from 1-10seconds in each possition. I was a bit fighting with my mind, I had to make important call but I started before I could make that call and it was not easy to focus on exercise with this call in my system, but it worked out.
 Second block I did Kata1, today I was also rising holdings from start and end up at 8. It was crazy hard, its much harder then on Sun Salutations. At the end I did few Burpees, becuase wasnt enough time to make one more repetition of Kata1.
 Third block I did belly muscles, starting again with 4 rounds of TM core WO, it seems its not geting easier OR Im unconsciously make it harder for me... or even consciously, how mean I am on myself... Im moving head from left to right each "second" on plank possition, on 1leg/1arm changing part Im trying t obe realy stabil and do those movements correctly and under control and on frozen V-sit, Im trying to sit as least as possible on cross bone and hold my balance on bottom of spine AND to push my legs to my head as muc has possible while both back and legs are straight. Its indeed like a yoga again... :)
 Last 10 minutes I was dancing, great as ever.
 II) Second mentionable thing today I did in.... a kitchen! Yes, I spend today 1 and 1/2 hour cooking new stuff and result was AVESOME :D Fried tofu, brocoli, carrots, onion and some spices with fried potatoes - all fried not too much, but exactly to be crispy, but not overfried. I also made apple strudel with cinemon, resins and goji and I was also trying to make it that no part is black and it went perfect and man... I never ate so delicious strudel. Why I mention cooking?! Because food is very important part of our lifes and work on healthy, conscious cooking is as important as body work. Cook own food is 1) healthier 2) cheeper 3) cook with love and you will experience tastes you though that dont exist and your belly and whole being will thank you :)
 III) Third thing is also from otehr batch. Today I sold big part of my collection of PC games, it was very hard for me, in past I was very agitated gamer and to some of those games I have very sentimental connection. But I also felt it was about time to not keep this connection anylonger, because, lets face it, what can be good on to being atached to things? And Im also not playing those anymore, so... no matter how I advocate it with my mind, it was like drowing pussies, crazy feeling. Only thing what comforts me is, that when this unhelthy atachment heals up, I will have more space for something new and healthy :)
 IV) Afternoon I had also clients, what I would like to note here is, that I feel more and more naturaly how much is better to have straight back and even changing possitions to achieve it, custom resist as it can, but this natural feel for better possition is stronger then custom :) Other thing is, that I feel people much better again, I guess its thanks to cleaning Im coming through. Want to make Goji diet again tommorow :)

24.3.2013 - 82,3kg +=
 At the evening when I went sleep I did Brahmacharia for a bit (tantric practice to control sexual potencial) and totaly unexpected, in one moment, I got so strong evergetical orgasm like not for a long time... it was like if I would be all the sudden in the realm of pure pleasure or in a womb... heh, its interesting, being in womb as desription of same feelings like pure pleasure :) I dont know, but I felt like in a womb and experienced wave after wave of pure pleasure in my whole being, it was wonderfull. I fell straight asleep from this state, dont remeber any "falling asleep".
  I woke up at 6 for anothe rsuny day and straight for morning exercise!
 I) Today I wanted to start with Sun Salutations on speed, but something is hapening in my back, on first it felt like when its not good and my back is going to fail me, but this time its different, I feel like possition on bones and stuff in my lower back is different and I feel this pain more like adjustment process of body to new possition, I feel a bit higher as well... :) Anyway, I could not do SS on speed, I didnt wanted to overdo my back so I did just dynamic, precise repetitions and after 10minutes I continued 5 minutes with longer holdings in possitions.
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercise, I feel more and more, that 10 minutes is simply not enough, no matter how hard I try. Have to do it for longer. Started today again with 4 rounds of TM core WO (Tee Major core Workout), made it a bit more stabil then yesterday and I think I do it a bit longer then I should, but dont feel its bad non the less :) Something over 5 minutes those 4 rounds. For the rest of time I did mix of exercises, again a bit experimenting, a bit of mix, Im trying to exercise parts which are feeling ignored :P
 Last 15 minutes I was dancing, great as ever, recomending to everyone realy, I hadnt condition so far for which I could not dance, no matter what hurts or is painfull from other stuff, its allways possible to dance. Love dancing.
 II) Later at the morning I wanted to do yoga, but one is planing and life is changing. I started to sort CDs some more, set timer for 25 minutes and started.... and I was sorting and sorting and sorting and soon an over an hour was gone and too late for yoga, but I felt it fine, as yoga of mind. I was throwing away my old games and sorting those which could be sold in bazar, made whole big bag of CD/DVDs, old sleeves for CDs and sorted all games which can be sold and prepared one big bag to take to bazar, Im courious what I can get for it, maybe enough for gear for climbing... :) :P Anyway, I get rid of games which are realy close to my heart, but which I probadly never play anymore, even Morrowind with all datadiscs and lots of memorable games as well, some of these originals I neevr even played much, like Gears of War and other stuff. Its incredible how strong link is betwean those things and myself. Its good to get rid of that, I believe it will give me lots of energy. Cant wait to get rid of it all :)
 III) Afternoon  Iwent first time in 2 years to climb arteficial wall with a friend. It was better then I though, first of all, Im realy enjoying all that endorfin flowing through my veins, second its so great activiti, I love it so much, especial when I see how much better it can get and I hope to have enough money to afford going at least once a week or each 2 weeks. My friend I was with have plenty of experiences and he shared some tips which helped me so much, that I basicaly started exactly or even a bit better then 2 years ago, I even did walls I did not even dared before. Yes, I fell couple of times, but its just first day of my life so mistakes are expected! And with good backup person its great to be able to risk jumps and crazy moves. In any case.... it was AMAZING!!

23.3.2013 - 82,2kg - new record, but after feast so its not such a surprise, nice anyway :D
 Tonight I slept very hard and not even 6 hours, but I simply could not sleep when sun was so nicely announcing new day with a sunrise light. And after some cruising on internet straight for morning exercise!
 I continued with feast till lunch, so as breakfest only goji. Interesting thing was, that I didnt felt hungry or anything, not even felt that I would not have power for exercises. So now it was about 40 hours feast, want to try over 48 hours only on hanfull of goji/day next time.
 I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, I did dynamic, but not superfast repetitions with focus on precision, it have some magic to explore precision in doing this set, to balance that each side is doing exactly same, possition of arms and legs on gound. By now I can do it realy precisely, but I dont take it as achievement or something, its too fun to call it like somehting you had to "work hard".
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles, starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO, today I as proud on myself, even it wasnt easy at all, I did all 4 nicely. I continued with experimenting and finding new ways to stimulate my beloved stubborn belly muscle.
 3rd 10minute block I did mixed exercises, starting with 20x Berpee, to my surprise I was totaly washed after those 20... next I did mountain climbers, some leg exercises and at the end couple of minutes of shadowboxing. Im much better then 1 or 2 months before in this, its nice to see that my trainig show up in practical way (that I can do better things Im not training directly).
 Last 10 minutes I was dancing... at the end it was 16 minutes, because I could not stop dancing on Ludovico Einaudi - Melodica Africana IV lovely song, beautiful. And it was great :)
 II) Later at the morning I did yoga. Today it was fight with myself, on one side I wanted realy to do it, on second side, after recuperating yesterday my being was lazy for so comlex work as is yoga, but at the end it work out nicely. I updated setup a bit so now doing this: Padahastasana, Andra-chandrasana, Triconasana, Bhadrasana, Shalabhasana, Supta Varjasana , Virasana, Ustrasana (in my schoold its called Dandasana for some strange reason), Sarvangasana, Yoga-mudra, Shawasana. Its interesting this play with setup and chkras involved.
 III) Afternoon and at the evening I did more little things:
 1) Practice on flute for about 3/4 of hour - its good to work on switching of mind more and let unconscious play more, its far from working, especialy when I play longer Im becoming numb and mind is more active, but its simply practice what necessary to make it work.
 2) I did also some tantra practices for about 20 minutes
 3) I wanted also to sort my stuff, wanted to do it for like 20 minutes, but I somehow got into it and it was much much more then 20 minutes :P Its crazy how much stuff I have at home, its just so good hidden, that it dosnt bother me in normal circumstances. This 3rd chakra homowork was gift from heavens.

22.3.2013 - 84,1kg + no idea why, but Im starting to see pattern, that when I have full, hard day I have more weight next day.
 I slept..well, I just fell imidietely to sleep and woke up with the sun, thats it :P
 Today I wont do morning exercise. My body hurts a lot, arms, legs, body, everything. I think its maybe from Bikram, its nasty workout for me realy.
 I decided to make a feast today, only goji as main meals, some days ago I ate some meat and I feel that my system dont like it so much, still feel it inside and I hope to clean a bit today.
 I) Afternoon I played about 45 minutes on flute, today it was different that I for first time felt how is important practice deep in my heart. I felt how is impossible to play from head, mind is simply too slow to play, its unconscious which needs to have control to be fast enough to play more difficult compositions. I understood again a bit more why is playing musical instrument and martial arts working on exact same principles.
 II) I was also meditating today. Which is quite uncomon in fact, its been literaly years since I meditated last time at home. And to my surprise I could meditate 20 minutes siting and then do 10 minutes shawasana. I was quite exited, it wasnt so different from doing asanas, only diference was, that my body could be without any stress or flexed muscles in the body. It COULD, but even I tried whole time, I could not relax my whole body. Think it takes much more time then 1x20min meditation.
 III) Last thing I did today as work on my path - I did cleaning again, I think pure time it was about 40 minutes, I did old CD and DVDs, throw away a lot of them. Very interesting process, its like phisicaly torn these things from my being and throw them away, like to throw away weight. All those "once-maybe-usefull" things, which are in fact totaly useless...

 Great day today indeed!

21.3.2013 - 83,5kg -
 Today I could not fall asleep again, no idea when I finaly fell asleep and after 6 hours I was up again. But its fine, I feel realy fine and looking forward for another wonderfull day. So at the morning straight for morning exercise!
 I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with increasing holding in possitions up to 9 seconds with focus on preccision. Its nice to feel how its easier and even possible to go more and more precisely and deeper into possitions.
 Next 10 minutes I did 60x Burpees, it was crazy, man... I was fuming like a machine, everything hurting after 20 repetitions and it all took 7m30s which was faster then last time, it took me like minute to ecuperate enough to do soemthing else and in the rest of time I tried bridge again and it went much better and painless then last time. Even my system is so not used for upsidedown possition that its very fraightening for me to do it, because of feeling unsafe in that possition.
 3rd 10minutes block I did belly muscles, I could not do TM core WO so I did whole time random exercises, also did no sit-ups, only frozen V-sit. I unleashed my immagination and developed some new exericises and some of them was quite intensive, some I realy loved and I will probadly do them regulary :)
 Last 10 minutes I was dancing and today I enjoyed it very much, at the end random player played this song: Rale - Nelze Vejít and this one totaly disolved me, for first, when it ended I could not stop dancing, second emotional charge of this song is so strong for me right now, that I could not escape that energy in dance/listening. It was very beautiful, I felt happy.
 II) Second thing today happened very unexpectadly when I was making breakfest. My ritual is to do higiene during cooking breakfest, but today I for some reason started to clean in a kitchen in cupboards I didnt touched for years (yeah yeah, shame on me, whatever :P ) and I was sorting and cleaning and on and on and I could not stop! Untill it was done. It looks great now, I throwed away lots of useless crap and it felt so amazing! Especialy that it come like a wave, unexpected... it dont happen to me often. I guess maybe during dancing opened something in me, no idea realy.
 III) Afternoon I did Bikram yoga setup. I did it just once to try out how long it takes to somehow setup timers. Man, thats a piece of hard workout, I tell ya. I believe not for everybody, but for someone with such shortened tights and shulder muscles its sorta hell, but definetely way to go for me.
 IV) Later afternoon I had clients, not much to add, just it was good to have male client afetr a while. Its allways good when energies are changing, its more stimulating.
 V) At the evening I went to tantra course. Today it was good, I enjoed it, we talk about vegetarien diet and did one new asana on 3rd chakra and also we were talking about some aspects of 3rd chakra and it was quite interesting. I think I will keep more asanas for 3rd chakra in my setup, I feel my Manipura needs some tuning.

 It was great day today, I did a lot, lot of interesting things happened and Im tired so crazy that sleep is only solution :)

20.3.2013 - 83,8 huh, dont know if its scale or something, but 1,2 in 24hr is strange O.o
 I slept very well tonight, even I could not sleep so easily, I slept about 6 hrs and felt great at the morning when sun was shining through windows, it was nice morning :) And straight for morning exercise!
 I) Today starting again with 5min heat-up, 10x Sun Salutation and then shadowboxing. Without break starting pyramide from 12. Today it was interesting, I did not felt so strong, but I could do today all repetitions without helping techniques and I even did 12-1 and then 2-5. I had 2 minutes left after 12-1. I will try from 13 next time then :) I somehow want to break this inability to do lots of repetitions, Im not sure how to make it so right now Im trying endurance and Im planing to add 5th day where I add repetition-gaining workouts. I did pyramide for 10 minutes
 After initial 15 minutes I made 5 minutes of belly exercises, started with 2 rounds of TM core WO, could not do 3rd round... and for rest of time I did classical mixed exercises, what was possible after pyramide :P
 Last 15 minutes I was dancing, today I enjoyed it a lot again, doing crazy moves and stuff :) But I also started today something new, I want to exercise everything with strong intention, like for dancing I was trying to dance with intention to have flexible, solid body.
 When I was doing pyramide and had hard times I focused on intention to not give up when muscles hurt and energy is trying to escape body. It works better then energetical drinks. But it also takes energy, because this intensive focus on intention requires lot sof focus, but I believe I could somehow connect my life energy and universal energy to automaticaly support this intention focus.
 II) Afterwards at the morning I did my cleaning duty for supporting 3rd chakra. Since I failed in last week, I did it for 45 minutes. It was great to throw away some pretty old stuff realy. Also another shelf looks more human :P
 III) Afternoon I did yoga, my setup with 3 minutes holdings.Today I dont have much to write to be honest, nothing so special happens. It smore lots of very small nuances in possitioning and I felt that shawasana went pretty good with much less disturbances as usualy.
 IV) Later I had clients and afterwards I went to vernisage of my friend, why mentioning that - it was very intensive meeting! I spend there about 1 and 1/2 hour, but I had intensive talks with friends about whats happening in our lifes and I even got 2 contacts for climbing on arteficial walls, which is 1) great ( :D ) 2) amazing how universe works, I want very much to climb again and I feel very strong emotion about it and voila - 2 contacts, when 1 was from person I never met before AND both of those contacts are from climb hall I like from past. Coincidance, sure :)

19.3.2013 - 82,6kg + its alright, I was realy hungry yesterday and I felt I need to eat something and I avoided unhealthy stuff so its not a problem today.
 Else I slept first half of night well, then I could not sleep because of lots of outter disturbances. But to my own surprise I feel fine and slept out atm. And at the morning right for morning exercise.
 I) Today starting with Sun Salutation, I wanted to do more, but somehow my right side hurts like if I broke my rib or something, dont know what happened or if its from something from Bicram yesterday, but I had to exercise realy carefully even Sun Salutations. In 5 minutes I did only 10 repetitions...
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscle exercise, I tried TM (Tee Major) core WO, but I could not because of pain in the side. I could not do lots pof exercise so I did what I could - mostly holdings, frozen V-sit and similars.
 Next 10mins block I spend on stationary bike, good as ever, starting to like it more and more.
 Last 15 minutes I was dancing, it wasnt easy at all with this pain in back, I hoped to move it so it stops hurting, but it didnt, hope its not crimpled muscle or something.
 II) Rest of the day I did ntohing special, had some traveling and clients. Im in a bit on a downside mood, its a bit fight to keep going. Im learning to separate different parts of my life. I mean... when one part of my life is on downside, I wont let parts of my life on upside to be draged down as well. It usualy work like that, that its eitehr all upside or or downside, but I believe its possible to work with that, I wont let my everyday work suffer because of other, even maybe more important partof my life. I dont know if it can work, but Im taking that challenge.

18.3.2013 - 82,1kg " - "
 Tonight I slept good and hard, dont remeber any dreams. Sleeping in this bed is realy comfortable, its hard to get up, but at the morning straight for morning exercise!
 I) Starting today with 10 minutes on stationary bike, it was nice heat-up, felt it good before next block and it again lasted very fast.
 Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, first 3 I did dynamicaly, next 3 I did by going into lower possition of pushup with kitten back movement and last 4 I did with kittenback AND holding in possition for 5 seconds, it was rich :)
 3rd 10 minutes block I did belly muscles, starting with 4 rounds of Tee Major Core WO, Im starting to enjoy it in some parts, but its still very hard to make it. rest of time (those 4 rounds take me about 5 minutes) I did classical mix of belly exercises.
 Last 10 minute block I spend as usualy with movement of whole body at once in a rhytm, movement comonly known as dancing :)

II) Afternoon I did for first time Bicram Yoga, but only setup of asanas, not in 38°C its usualy exercised. I want to look on it and exercise it, maybe for some time to do it instead of Hathayoga. Bicram yoga setup includes lots of asanas Im doing anyway plus many more, but I have to tune holdings and such and learn sequence, its a lot of asanas...

17.3.2013 - 82.4. = :)
 Today I cant say I slept good or bad, I literaly fell into bed like a trunk and slept immidietely. I was realy tired as hell, but I remeber one dream. I dont know what it was exactly about, but I remeber, that on begining of dream some woman showed me sheet with a tab where was like: for <this> condition work with <this> chakra and there was typicaly 7 "basic" chakras. Then something happen, I dont remeber what and then same woman showed me sheet again and it was completely different. In some cases there were mentioned 11th or 13th chakra and otherwise just 7th cakra and instead of other chakras there was mentioned something like "make sound in hormony with "I"". I felt like the threads of universe changed in that dream. I have no idea if it means something for me or not, It kind of fits into my process atm tho. Anyway, onwards for morning exercise!
 I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations on speed, I made 44 full repetitions in this timespan and bell rung on 45th. I didnt even felt Im somehow super fast, it was good.
 Second block of 10 minutes I did belly muscles, starting with 4 rounds of Tee Major core WO and then just situps. It was crazy , man... was sweping like a stable doors.
 3rd 10 minutes I spend on stationary bike, sweping continued into unexpected levels, but it went quite fast today, it was over sooner then I expected.
II) Afternoon I did yoga. Starting with 10x SS and some heat-up exercise, today I felt for first time importance of these heating up exercises through body, I did not wanted to do them.. or my mind didnt wanted to, but my being wanted to do this preparation and I could just follow (because its me after all :D ).
 Asanas went good, today I did Triconasana finaly again for whole duration. At Badhrasana I had interesting sensation when I could form my crossbone and bottom part of spine into very straight possition and this effected my legs which started to flex and I had to constantly relax them, again and again.... I would love to be able t ocontrol this mechanism, but Im working on it :) On Viraasana I was very happy about my flexibility in this asana, I can work now fully on both sides to have straight back. It brings lot of good feelings, like if you straighten pipes and flow starts to flow smooth and without obstacles, its very nice feeling.
 I felt today yoga as maintenance more then some goal-orientes deed and Im happy I did it :)

16.3.2013 - 83kg border BROKEN!!! 82,4kg - I was realy pleasantly surprised today :)
 I slept ell tonight, woke up short after 6 and after some cudling I went for morning exercise! I felt very enegized today morning truth to be said.
 I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, I did fait possitioning today with increasing holds in possitions 2-9 seconds. With view out from window on begining of beautiful day it was very nice.
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercise, strtaing with 4 rounds of Tee Major core wo, Im starting to get good grip on this, thinking about to make some extra of these 1leg/1arm/alternating plank to be more stable in doing those. Rest of exercises I did typical mix and in hard executions, it was good.
 Other 10 minutes I spend with biking on stationary bike. I was sweping like crazy, felt it good as well. I was thinking why I swept so much while going on this particular bike, but its probadly because of doing exercises before foing on bike. Normaly I start with biking. I dont start with biking on this exercises, becasue sun salutations are great heat up.
 Last 10 minutes I was dancing, nejoyed it as allways :) Especialy Baauer - Harlem Shake :D I simply love that song and especialy dancing on it :3

15.3.2013 - ?? vacation, no weighting today :)
 I did not slept very good, was waking up all the time and I also dreamt whole night.

 I decided to make break in exercises today, my muscles in whole body hurts and I want to make break in morning exercises each 2 weeks. However I couldnt do nothing so:
 I) during the day I was on bike, biking around, it was crazy windy, but what the hell....
II) At the evening I did yoga. I realy wanted to do it. I feel like Im in my own universe while doing yoga, just me and all aspects on me, m mind, body, thoughts, feelings... Enjoyed it very much today. Its interesting how strong effect have in my life when I change setup of asanas. I relized it today. Yesterday in a city I was so unpatiente with everyone, I saw people doing (from my POV) crazy stuff and it was pissing me off. But I know its not true, they are just themselfs, living theyr own lives. I was thinking what makes me to be so egoistic and I think its process of balancing 3rd chakra in me atm. I have to explore this more, because I wont insult people just because Im in labil state. Its realy strong how simple asanas influence real life, yoga is realy powerfull tool, Im having more and more respect for this method.

14.3.2013 - 83,8kg - yeah, dear children, sweets are bad.... :/ They wont go away from body like other unhealthy stuff, they fucking stay there untill you swept every gram of it away.
 Else I could not sleep till like 2:30 am. I also think its because of that mountain of sweets yesterday, crazy stuff man.... and at the morning straight for morning exercise.
 I) Starting with 5 minutes of 10xSS + Shadowboxing (that reminds me, I want to buy small weights for shadowboxing, it adds lots of spices into it). Next 10 minutes I did pyramide from 12, I could not do pushups properly, had to help myself a lot, but no wonder after such a days, Im looking forward for rest tommorow... anyway, I did pyramide whole duration, 12-1-3-1-2-1... as long as I was able to :)
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles, did some core exercises and lots of mixed stuff mainly focusing hldings and movement in possitions. I want to be able to rise both legs while hanging on a bar so Im working on these muscles.
 Last 15 minutes I dedicated for dancing, it was realy hard to make myself move, I was gentle on myself, and at the end I anjoyed it as well :)
 II) A bit later I went on bike for some shoping, it was very cold and windy and very interesting to be on bike in weather like this :) Im a lot out of practice on bike, was fumming like machine in one hill... :)

 For te rest of the day I didnt managed to do any exercises, but not out of lazyness but because of being busy, traveling and doing stuff I needed outisde of flat.

13.3.2013 (nice datum) - 83,4kg - not a clue why more, yesterday I kept my diet strict and had a lot of movement, but I guess its right, my goal is not to have low weight at all costs, but to have strong, flexible body.
 I slept well tonight, whole night and dont even remeber dreaming. At the morning I had slower start because my ole good computer had problems, but after it got solved, straight for morning exercise!
 I) I wanted to do pyramid exercise today, but I simply couldnt, my body gave me so much shouting to do somthing else, that I had to follow. So I started with classic 5 minutes heat-up with 10x Sun Salutations and shadowboxing, then instead of pyramide I did belly muscle exercise, could do only 2 rounds of Tee Major core workout, but I had good feeling from it, I could make it more precise today. Rest of time I did classical mix of belly exercises, Im thinking to make it a bit longer, those 10 minutes dosnt seem to be enough to go through all muscles in all angles properly.
 Rest of time (about 30 minutes) I was dancing, enjoying it a lot as (almost :) ) allways. Today even random songs was more slower or not realy jump-like. It dosnt felt long at all! It seems Im more endure after all already :)
 II) At the evening I went to gym again, today I did chest and biceps stranght up. Starting with 10 minutes on stationary bike, it was nice, I tried to sit with straight balanced back and meditate during biking, to relax legs totaly, just make it runing, but nothing extra. Its surprising how many muscles Im able to flex or activate to go on bike, but just very few of those do the actual work. I know this for very long time from normal bike, but since I feel my body better its even more visible. I also put my hands on shoulders, I dont know why I did that, maybe because my hands was bothering me and I didnt wanted to hold myself on handles on a bike. It was great to grab my shoulders tho! I felt how is my chest being warmed up very nicely and in general how is activity spreading through whole my body, nice feeling. I also felt like I want to burn thaz mountain of sweets I ate today instead of dinner, I had something like sweet fever... ._.
 Well, I did record on chest muscles today, it was funy, I started with fair low weight to not overdo on start and I went for more and more and ended up on record weight, I was like "its not way I lift this up, but here we go anyway" and I could! It was nice feeling :D ITs nice to see that I can do more even thanks to my regular body-weight-only exercises and I can see that on power exercise. I somehow have in my head hardwired, that those 2 ways dont mix, but maybe this hardwiring rust :P
 Biceps training I did fair up to total colaps of muscles, I like isolated exercises with low weights on sight, but if its isolated and in big movement it pumps like crazy.
 At the end I did bit of belly muscles, but they seems to be bit overdone so I could do only very little before it started to be silly to continue and went for bike again.

 Good day today! I feel I learned somehow a lot today, cant say what exactly, but I seem to feel my body a bit more again.

12.3.2013 - 83,2kg - new record, by 0,1kg only, but hey... :)
 I slept well, but my body hurted a lot frmoa  gym, especialy arms and back, which is not surprise. I ahd a dream today, that I have a child with my womanfriend, Im not sure, what new was born in me (as I understand this dream, that something was born in me), but I have a feeling, that my womanfriend could symbolize realy her, because even some day ago I had a feeling, that thanks to her, lots of my parts are opened or brought to to my consciousness, born of something new of kind. Lets see, I love uncertanity in my life, to not know what will come, it gives shivers and adrenaline, dosnt it.
 I) Today I started morning exercise again with 5 minutes composed from 10xSun Salutations and rest of shadowboxing. Next 10 minutes I dedicated to my belly msucles, I decided to not do Tee Major core workout again, I feel that I could fall int oroutine and its nothinng wrong than that, so I did different core exercises and usual random mix of other belly muscle exercises.
 Rest of 25 minutes I spend dancing, its rely great cardio training too! But I enjoyed dancing in general today, I feel like Im starting to realy feel what my body wants and understand moving better. That means Im not falling into my "standard NO#1 dance" so often and can tune on a music more. I mean, some music do this just on its own, but with other music (even with the music I love) its not so easy to switch of mind and jump into the flow of tunes. Anyway, I enjoed it today realy :)
 II) Afternoon I started with yoga. I realy enjoed it today so much, I felt like Im in warm, fluffy blanket on comfortable sofa but this warm, cozy blanket was my own body, it was so great feeling. To feel so comfortable in own body, it was like Im being huged by myself! Else Im thinking about this dandasana we started on course, my knees dont like this very much, I think I enither find the way to do it without pain in knee or not do it at all, its not this kind of pain where you know that its progress and something , its harming pain. I can just guess what I do wrong, sometimes sucks to not have master to ask. I love yoga <3 :)
 III) Later I did my duty in cleaning in my flat uncomon stuff ,like sorting stuff in shelves and stuff, since I did not did nothing yesterday I did today 1 hour, sorting bills and ald entrance tickets I kept for some reason, I throw most of it away, kept just memory tockens for stuff I did for first time, just as sentimental memory. I tended to keep all cinema tickets and stuff, but to be honest... fuck what I was in past, Im starting new lie every day. Nobody is what he was, but what he or she IS. This sorting stuff and throwing old stuff away gives so much energy, more sentimental piece I throw away, more energy it gives me.
 IV) Late afternoon I did flute practice for 1 hour, it was in some way hard, in some way easier, I felt very well how is suffering my play from lack of practice, but its not so much my priority. I want first get my body and mind into fully operational state.
 V) At the evening I did another block of exercises. First I did 20 minutes of various execises, I wanted to do combination of Sun Salutations, Kata 1 and Burpees, but my shulders hurt from yesterday gym and my body refused power exercises so I did simply what comes to my mind... dragon walks, mountain climbers, some leg exercises, frozen V-sit in various ways. I somehow found myselg doing hard power core training, I felt that Its so important to stranghten my midle, core area, that it limits me very much in more advanced exercises.
 Next 20 minutes I was dancing... like crazy :D Starting with Harlme Shake - this music is so great, it dosnt sound like on first touch, but its so great for dancing! I realy let all myself loose and was dancing like crazy orangutan on crack. It was awesome :D

11.3.2013 - 83,3kg - new record :) I was so surprised after visiting my parents, not exercising much and eating meat and not realy fat-free meals. It was great! I think the fact, that I didnt ate anything extra helped, maybe I can digest anything without weight gain in case I keep it in reasonable amount and not as extra food.
 I slept fine today, very hard and I had some interesting dreams, but only I remeber is that they were great, not what they were about :P And at the morning right for morning exercise!
 I) Starting with 5 minutes of 10xSun Salutation and rest of time shadowboxing, followed by 110 minutes of belly muscles exercise, Tee Major core workout worked again, its crazy stuff, but I realy feel like I can do frozen V-sits much better and that my core reacts on this workout, else I did classiccal random mix of belly muscle exercises, I felt them good today :)
 Next 10 minutes I did for first time burpees, it was crazy, man... after first 10 I was fuming like a Machine. I finished 60th on 9min mark and rest I was recuperating from it... I want to do 60 and then do exra stuff, I believe it will be better in time, its just first day of my life!
 Last 15 minutes I spend with dancing, today it was great and I enjoyed it a lot even I was still nto so fine after burpees :)
II) After breakfest I did yoga. New setup with asanas for 3rd chakra. I realized today, that my relationship to yoga changed slightly. I feel it more as a part of my life, my body WANT to exercise this and I feel very good during exercises, even when it hurts. I feel how it helps my body and heals things. Its hard to describe feeling, its not like "oooooh" its soooo greaaattttt, its more deeper and stronger, more jin-quality. Today I enjoed my body a lot during exercise, feeling of my body and at shawasana I could peace my mind more then before.
 Its very interesting to explore what my mind is doing during shawasana and what tricks it use to silently lead me away from my body. Developing amazing stories. Even align those stories with my realy life! Its amazing thing, this mind :D However no story is so great like to consciously relax my body and not let my mind wander so I wont stop discipline my mind to do what I(!!) want :)
III) afternoon I had woman as a model for tantra massage, it was very interesting. I never met her before, she was by some accident my friend on FB. But she have lots fo experience with tantra a inner porcesses so I think she knew what she is going into, it was however great to do tantra massage again after some time. It was plesant to realize, that I didnt lost my ability to tune to client on this intim, deep level. I think this cleaning Im coming throu since a new year helps this massivly. It was also good exercise as well, I tell ya... almost 2 hours cruising around her to massage whole body as it should be.
IV) At the evening I went to a gym, I wanted to do something else, but I ended up doing back and triceps, it was great, I tried to use as much non-mashine exercises as possible and I think I will feel my back good tommorow :) I enjoyed it a lot, I also tried pull-ups on proper stand and so on. Im very happy about my back, that it gets stronger, its my achiles heel, but its geting stronger then ever. And at the begining and at the end I did 10 minutes stationary bike.

 Quite full day today indeed! It was good to have strong, energy day again, I hope that tendency wil be to have them more often. But I have to rest too!

10.3.2013 - ?? no scale here!
 I slept well and long, I felt it good to sleep out a bit today. I woke up refreshed and in good mood. First I though that I skip morning exercise today, but then I was like... second day to write here that I didnt properly morning exercise, its not good. So I started and tryed to do it PROPERLY today morning :)
 I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes with increasing holdings in possitions from 1-10 seconds. Then I did Kata1 but today I tried something new, first 3 I did in standart dynamic way, next 3 I did with more dificult version on pushup, in czech its called kočičáky, translated something like "kitty cat pushup" where you dont go down in Y axe, but in half-circle movement from backwards to forward, in similar way as cats are stretching theyr back. And last 4 repetitions on each side I did same, but in upper position of pushup I did strached my arm for  seconds (so 1 arm and 1leg is in the air). It was quite dificult, but I felt it great :)
 Next 10 minutes I did this Tee Major Fitness core training, again better then before, all 4 rounds, just in 1arm/1leg part I need to work on balance more. Thinking to make 5th day regulary for this kind of stuff or change my trainingn plan to put more acrobatic/stabilization muscles exercises in.
 Last 10 minutes I was dancing, enjoed dancing vey much today, was thinking how great it would be to have a body-height mirror in the room :)
 II) Afternoon I did yoga, I changed setup today, replacing Halaasana with both-sided Triconasana and Yoniasana replaced with some asana which is in my course called Dandasana, but its different one... dont ask me why is my school using different names for asanas, I dont understand it either. Its realy hard one... It was great exercise, my fears while doing Shalabhasana are gone and I can do it much more intensive so enjoy it more :) Doing Tironasana again is harder then I though, or its because I do it after Andrachandrasana, dont know.

 One more thing I did today, I tryed to smoke 1 cigarette with my friend. I wanted to know how I am with smoking atm. It was realy risky, because you can start smoking again easily after 1 cigarette (personal experience), but this immage of "how Im not able to smoke just one and not start again" was quite bothering me. Well,  I tried and it was disgusting. Didnt enjoyed it realy, and that smell from smoke afterwards in my cloths was also disgusting. And I hadnt taste for other one. Later today I was with other old mate waiting for a train (1hour delay ATF?!) and we went for a beer and he was smoking a lot and I didnt asked him for one and I was fine with it, my patern is to smoke when I drink AND when somebody else is smoking but either made me to smoke more, I felt it great :)

9.3.2013 - 84.3kg - this time I didnt ate anything extra, but I had feeling I drink more then normaly yesterday. But I also feel that its fine and necessary.
 I slept very deep tonight and woke up with the sun. I stood a bit in a bed before actualy geting off bed. I started to have feeling, that these slow starts make me to not manage morning exercise so good. I will try to get up when I wake and sun will be already up. Without enjoying sleepy mood.
 I went for morning exrcise and started with Sun Salutations on speed but after 7 repetitions body stoped warking somehow so I had to slow down and then stop totaly. I tried to at least dance, but everyhting inside was crying out loud not to, I guess its this day of bottom of the spiral, Jin-energy day when I should allow my body to recuperate. I will be nice on myself today and eat just very little, I feel my body have eberything it needs.

 Rest of the day I did nothing to mention here, I just traveled a bit, but nothing like a training or something. Im visiting my parents and its allways a bit of challenge with all this older, slow, dump energy in my parents flat. Its allways hard to not eat too much or even healthy. I at least managed to not eat all the time as is my custom, just lunch and dinner, nothing extra. I was proud on myself :)

8.3.2013 - 83,5kg, new lowest weight so far (by 0,1kg, but hey... :) ) !
 Tonight I slept very deep. It was more recuperating then sleep :P I woke up in confuzled, dizzy state, most of body hurting and all. Its interesting, we talk yesterday on a course about rezonating with how you feel and that its our choice how we feel and that we can consciously choose. Well, everything is possible, thats my way so I went for morning exercises... :)
 I) Staring with 15 minutes of Sun Salutations. It was quite hard, I tryed easy, slow precise repetitions and had to take a lot of breaks to regain mental power to continue. Interesting was actualy last repetition, I had only 18 seconds, so I decided to try one fast one and it went smooth to my surprise. I was a bit confuzled but it seems, that I have more to discover my feelings about my body and what they mean again, like a child, because it seems I got something wrong there.
 Next I did 10 minutes of belly muscles, I felt them much better then rest of the body so I took no quarter and did this crazy 4 round with holdings from TeeMajor Fitness (20 mseconds plank, 20 seconds 1leg/1arm straetch in plank, 20 seconds frozen V-sit) and I did all 4 rounds! Not perfectly this arm/leg part, I have far not strong enough stabilization muscles as it seems, but I could actualy do it, which is certainly progress. Rest of the time I did classical mix of exercises how they come.
 Last 15 minutes I spend dancing.. well, it went like on the baal of quadruplegicks. I could not somehow get into it, couldnt move my body enough.
 I was happy to muster my will to spend this time with exercises, with exploring how I realy am atm and to not just call it :)

7.3.2013 - 84,1 =
 Today I slept fine, dont remember anby dreams. At the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 5 minutes heat up consisted from 10 Sun Salutations and shadowboxing and after that pyramide from 12, it went fine, I was so sfraid I wont make it, but in fact it was best set so far, had to help only on 6+ repetitions on 9-6 parts, else I did all fair and square.
 After pyramide followed 25 minutes of dancing, I enjoed it today extremely much, first I started to realy dance and be in flow in Maok - sen then I got totaly crazy on Baauer - Harlem Shake , surprisingly enough its amazing song to dance on, it kept me on my toes whole time and I enjoyed sooo much :) I was alread ypretty high on life but followed  Pachelbel - Cannon in D and it made me spin like crazy. In short, it was one of best dancing sessions I had so far. Mind you, I play music on random to not be atached to certain music/songs. It was simply great :)
II) I had quite fulůl afternoon, starting with yoga session. Today it was somehow different, I cant say it was fascinating or something exiting happen, but it was great exercising, I felt very present and in the body and I enjoyed these feelings. I again felt this unexplainable feeling of danger and fear coming out of nowhere, Im courious if it develops somehow.
III) Afternoon I had new client, very talkative person and it was good treatment again, Im realy enjoing my work lately very much :) I think this one could become long-time client.
IV) Late afternoon I went to tantra course after 3 weeks. It was very good today for me. We did 2 "new" asanas - Trigonasana and Dandaasana. Must adjust my setup but its fine I like change in asanas :) And Dandaasana is realy a challenge, I cant do it right now.
 But what ALSO happen on a course was great, for first time in my life I could do full lotus possition... possition I though I will never make, it was awesome :)
 We was warking with 3rd chakra, my week point, I know I was avoiding course because of facing it, and it was realy good to go even through these feelings. I hate homeworks for 3rd chakra, but I know they can realy help me, especialy in this time of my life. I should do (or not do) something regulary what I dont like, like not eating sweets for some time or not delay doing stuff and so on... I decided to clean a bit of my stuff each day for at least 20 minutes. I want to do it for REALY long time, so lets see.... *sigh*

 Another great day today :)

6.3.2013 - 84,1kg - going down again :)
 Today I slept well, but it took me so long to fall asleep! I felt so happy yesterday and my mind radio was so loud when I went to bed, that it was realy hard to fall asleep. No idea how long it took tho. And at the morning hurray for morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes consisted from 10x Sun Salutation and rest of time shadowboxing, good heatup as ever.
 Next 10 minutes I spend caring of my belly muscles, tried this Tee Major Fitness program with holdings again, its crazy thing, man, but made 1 ful round and failed at Frozen V-sits in second round, where muscles simply switched of :) Continued with more holdings in diferent angles of legs and body and some other random merrytime exercises. I realy love belly muscle exercise more and more. And I also more and more feel how incredibly imporant it is to have strong belly muscles and core.
 3rd block I spend with playing with my body, I tried some new stuff, but it realy didnt work yet, must spend more time with these plays, but I feel my body is still nto strong enough for it, but hey, its just first day of my new life! I want to spend more time in week with trying new stuff. I also did Burpees for like 4 minutes and it was so crazy, I though I will die after just first dozen of them... this block lasted 10 minutes.
 Last 15 minutes I spend with dancing, my legs and middle part was so lazy... so I gently and with compasion moved them, without pushing, just to relax them in movement, to find the way to move without stressing already tired musles even more. And of course it was great to dance as allways :)

 And so photos from this morning to check my progress in New Life Experiment:

5.1. - 95,9kg










6.3. - 84,1kg

5.1. - 95,9kg

6.3. - 84,1kg















II) Else I did today only occasional pullups and at the eveing I went on drum jam session to play a bit. It ended up quite minimalistic (only 3 peopleú, but it was great to play a bit after some time :)

5.3.2013 - 84,4kg - alright, I have 2 theories why I have slightly more weight then yesterday. 1) My muscles went berserk in growing! 2) That mountain of sweets I got from clients and which I ate yesterday evening strikes back... I think its muscle /wise nod . Gaaah..... my bloody addiction on sweets, I just cant not to eat them if I got them. Good lesson.
 Else I slept somehow not so good not so bad, I feel I could use a bit more rest, but on other side I have power. Anyway, straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with increasing holding in possitions from 2-9 seconds, I tryed very precise possitions, for some reason Im somehow stretched on my legs, but I dont believe my minitrip on bike could do that, it was just too short, its weird.
 Second 10minute block I spend doing Kata1, today I made a record and did 14 repetitions on each side with crisis on 11th repetitions, which is quite great considering I had crisis on 3rd repetitions in a past :) On first repetitions I felt realy good how is body working, smooth and strong, very nice feeling.
 Third 10 minutes I did belly muscles, today I decided to not do any sit-ups, just holdings and controled movements. It was crazy... I tried this: killer quickie core workout didnt worked out quite 4times repeat all that, not even once fully! Especialy that middle part is quite intensive, try it yourself :) Anyway, I felt great today after this set, musles pumped and alive, I felt them good :)
 Last 10 minutes I spend with my beloved dancing, only 10 minutes so I focused mainly on move stiff or lazy parts, fun as allways!
II) Later at the morning I did yoga, today it was both, starting already with  Padahastasana I had very strong beautiful feelings of liveness flowing through me, very plesant, even I felt like I dont have enough breath to breath it fully into me, it was very nice.
 It continued nicely to Shalabhasana where I had this new experience: in second half I sudenly got overhelming feeling of fear. I have no idea fear of what or where it come from (well, definetely from second chakra, but true source in this level of me I dont know), I even swept cold and it took some minutes till it settled down.
 On Shawasana it was embarasing.. :) I made whole story with couple of characters and quite interesting plot in my mind during this asana... I realy have to work more on being more conscious about whats going on in my mind.
III) Today I had full day of clients. Even one pregnant woman, short before birth. I was a bit considering if to take her or not, but I have to believe in what I learn to prevent undesirable effects so I took her for a treatment (it wasnt about money, she had very old gift coupon, more then a year old and expired, but she wanted so much massage that I closed both my eyes over it, after all, I do Shiatsu to share all greats gifts of this method and not only to live from it). All treatments today went very nice, all clients felt very happy afterwards, which was great gift for me and it opened my heart realy wide :3

 Im very greatful for this day, its precious jewel to have days like this and I wish everyone to live days like this every single day for the rest of our lifes <3

4.3.2013 - 84,0kg thats nice, especialy considering chocolate yesterday and after 8pm... :P
 Oh btw, its been 1 month off World of Warcraft today. Cant say I dont miss it, its so great escape, cozy, warm, fluffy blanket in cool, sunny day and thats realy great sometimes, I would love to have my addictions sorted in the way to use them only when I realy need them and not use them ANYTIME I can.
 Else I slept great today, sun woke me up on its sunrise, already before 6am, thats great, I love waking up early with the sun. I was fresh and full of energy straight from the morning and so right for morning exercise!
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed, truth to be said, its been some days since I tried this so I was a bit nervous, but body worked like good-oiled machine, I had no respiration problems, no pains, nothing, just close to 10 minutes I started to feel muscle numbness, but nothing serious and considering that I did 45 in 10minutes limit it made me realy happy. I continued to 50 repetitions in fast dynamic way and then I did holdings in possitions for 2 seconds in each possition and did 8 more repetitions, which is record in Sun Salutations for me so far. My play is to achieve 60 repetitions in 15 minutes and then start working on 20 minutes and 80 repetitions. But its more long-time border, just to have something to work on, cant stop on something I already did.
 Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercises, I felt my belly muscles so great, like never before, its realy nice feeling to feel consciously those muscles and flex them on will more then just use them because they are simply in use in certain possitions. Its totaly new feeling for me and I love it :)
 Last 15 minutes I spend dancing, enjoyed it a lot today, Im more and more able to dont mind patterns and do crazy, nonsence movements in a flow of music, it gives me great feeling of freedom.
II) Couple of hours in the morning I spend in a city, I was walking a lot, enjoying sun and spring in the air, I found myself looking for reasons to go somewhere else and then to other place and so on, simply to daly returning home as long as possible :) Realy beautiful morning today.
III) Latsr at the morning I did also Yoga. Today it was a LOT about pleasure, Padahastasana and Andrachandrasana not so much, but since Bhadrasana I felt realy pleasant feelings almost at every asana. Dont take me wrong, it wasnt only sexual pleasure, I felt pleasure of energy flowing through my body, pleasure in feeling my body and bodyparts so deep, pleasure in moving with vertebras one by one consciously. Pleasure to feel the heat coming from gods-know-where... uff, that was realy awesome, love yoga and variability of experiences it gives me. On so many lovels, I feel like I could do just this my setup for years and finding new and new details and sensations as is my system being corrected. Im starting to understand why are basic asanas in desriptions described as "powerfull", they realy are! Its just not possible to see and experience theyr power right from start and Im sure I just licked the surface so far. At Shalabhaasana I got very strong energetical orgasm, it was different then ever before, I felt like its coming in parts, wide, big sensations, very strong, almost felt its too strong for my system, even I know that system wont allow to happen anything what cant handle, I trust my energetical system in this. It was great today to do yoga! :)
IV) Afternoon I went for first time biking for fun this year, I took even too much clothes for weather outside, its realy beatifull outside. I must say, that it was MUCH smoother then last year on first ride, I did much more then last year and I wasnt far that flushed. Think I will start my rounds earlier this year if weather wont drasticaly change again.
V) Later I wrote 3 pages long articel about dancing, unfortunately in czech, I would translate it, but only if some of you readers would want so, its a sum of how I feel dance, music and us connected and how is music and dancing aplicable on theory of 5 elements. It was probadly longest articel I wrote on one tema just like this and it happend itself realy, it was fun :)
VI) I also had client today, nothing so special treatment-wise, but it was realy great visit, very... human meeting with this client, very nice energy, its very precious when I have such human contact with somebody. It happens much less then should be normal, this skin-deep "normal" contact is so boring.

3.3.2013 - 84,4kg again, I love when my theories proove right, chocolate is gone and Im closer to my "real" weight.
 I slept great today, it was very nice feeling to not wake up tired and dizzy. And straight for morning exercise :)
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, today I had again more energy then in last days, I did couple of repetitions to stretch and in dynamic way and then I did increasing holdings in possitions from 2 up to 9 seconds. I felt realy awesome when I ended, very pleasant feeling in whole body I had. Next 10 minutes I did mixed exercises, starting with 5 minutes of pyramid 5-1 and then 2-6 afterwards I did belly muscle exercises. I felt it as a good choice - to harden training but not too much to fall into energy drain again.
 3rd 10 minutes block I spend on stationary bike, I tryed to medidate while biking, it was interesting. When I started I felt like in cocoon of energy which could take my mind away and peace, but then I realized, that Im not grounded and m 1st chakra is closed so I opened my 1st chakra and tryed to bring more earth emergy into system and it was interesting to feel how this cocoon changed, well... it went completely away, I felt immidietely more phisical, grounded, present, not so much pleasant in the "spiritual way" but more plesant in "eart" way. Rest of th time I tryed to keep this state, by constant opening of 1st chakra and not leting my thoughts run too wild around. I was swept like not for a long time at the end :P
 Last 10 minutes I spend with dancing, I realized that my pelvis is totaly stiff so I tryed to move it a bit! It was quite a job for whole duration of this block, I think I housld look more on what parts of my body are stuff while dancing and move them more.

2.3.2013 - 85,3kg - thats a lot more then in past days, but I have a theory on it! I just think, that this weight gain is fake, because I could not shit at the morning, because I ate lot of chocolate yesterday.... alright I ate liek a pig yesterday, but from time to time I fall for that, Im just a human you know... :)
AND... 2 months as non-smoker, today. Its harder and harder to not smoke, last week was reayl difficult and last days are crazy. Even had a dream about starting smoking again, I just took one cigarette from somebody and then I had to buy whole packet and I smoked again normaly. I think its a message, that I cant even try 1 cigarette yet, but wait more.
 Otherwise I slept moderately well tonight, coiuld start morning exercise sooner and I had more energy then yesterday as well.
I) Today I started morning exercise with 5 minutes of Sun Salutations and shadowboxing, it went better today, managed 10 repetitions of SS and then some shadowboxing heatup, I was happy I could do it much smoother then yesterday. Then I had 10 minutes of mixed exercises, pushups/situps/crunches and all that in one-sided versions as well, then some belly muscle exercises. Next 10 minutes I used stationary bike which is here and it was AWESOME, I felt how is everything stating runing in my body and I swept very pleasantly, I think when Im on the place Im now, I will include bike regulary, it felt realy very good. Last 15 minutes I spend dancing, today it was much more fun again and I realy enjoyed it, especialy on Venetian Snares - Gentleman . To my surprise, it was quite cool to dance on breakcore, seems it realy much more music then it seems :) Dont be mistaken, I LOVE Venetian Snares for years, its just that I didnt thogh its dancable... :)
 II) rest of the day I didnt much, just some house-repairs and instalations, and some pair body work :)

1.3.2013 - 84,4kg, yesterday I took big lunch because I knew I will not eat dinner, but it seems, my body cant process so much food at this moment, however .. truth to be said, I felt total fine to not eat anmore after this big lunch. Maybe I could get used my digestion to it, it could speed up my metabolism, maybe its nonsence, I dont know, but worth to try maybe. In past I tried to eat just one big meal a day and it worked quite well, I had free mind out of care about eating and my weight was quite stabil in case when I ate something extra. Its ajurvedic aproach - just one realy big meal a day.
 Else I didnt slept so well tonight and it took me quite a long time to start up and go do morning exercise.
I) I started with Sun Salutations, it was quite an agony, but I simply dont want to not do morning exercise more often then once in 2 weeks, so I did it anyway, I made just 7 in 5 minutes, but definetely better stretching then nothing. Next 10 minutes I did belyl muscles, more sit-ups then anything else today, want to work on speeding up those a bit... Last 25 minutes I was dancing, slowly, move my body, no presure, more to keep moving whole time in as many parts of my body as possible, to pump blood everywhere.
II) Else I was biking in a city today, first time this year, its good to bike again.