22.6.2013 - 77,9kg " - " dancing yesterday took its toll :)
I slept totally deep and dreamless, I was extremely tired when we got home yesterday.
I) I did not classical morning exercises today, because there wasnt time but at least I did 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, bit of dancing and couple of strength bonus exercises. I felt good to stretch beore the travel.
Im leaving today for holiday so I might not be able to make entries in
next days, so if you would wonder - I did not gave up, just out of
internet mothercord :P Enjoy your life!
sobota 22. června 2013
čtvrtek 20. června 2013
21.6.2013 - 78,6kg " + " as I expected because I got wolf hunger yesterday evening and I wanted to feel satiated before going to holiday today.
I slept well tonight, I remember I had a dream again and even I dont remember details, I remember that it was very juicy dream :) In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, at start I though I will do holds to stretch, but it wasnt necessary so I did dynamic reps as fast as felt natural and good. It was great, it started me just great.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS training, first Barstarz set, I did it as hard way as possible and it was very rich really. I also did some random combination of exercises - what come to me that could be good to do. I liked it really today.
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, I wanted to speed up a bit and it worked out - did 45 reps before time limit, its 7 more then last time. I really feel I have to work on my speed, I feel slow lately.
Last I was dancing for about 18-20 minutes, today I enjoyed it a lot again, no strong sensations like yesterday, just pleasant, relaxed, fun dancing :)
II) Then I was traveling a lot and spend time with my beloved and in the evening we went for dancing event, it was crazy hot and dence and I was sweping like maybe never, but it was great fun. I enjoyed it a lot :)
I slept well tonight, I remember I had a dream again and even I dont remember details, I remember that it was very juicy dream :) In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, at start I though I will do holds to stretch, but it wasnt necessary so I did dynamic reps as fast as felt natural and good. It was great, it started me just great.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS training, first Barstarz set, I did it as hard way as possible and it was very rich really. I also did some random combination of exercises - what come to me that could be good to do. I liked it really today.
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, I wanted to speed up a bit and it worked out - did 45 reps before time limit, its 7 more then last time. I really feel I have to work on my speed, I feel slow lately.
Last I was dancing for about 18-20 minutes, today I enjoyed it a lot again, no strong sensations like yesterday, just pleasant, relaxed, fun dancing :)
II) Then I was traveling a lot and spend time with my beloved and in the evening we went for dancing event, it was crazy hot and dence and I was sweping like maybe never, but it was great fun. I enjoyed it a lot :)
20.6.2013 - 78,3kg " + " Since I keep my diet clear (3rd day out of sweets) I believe my body know what its doing with sources I give myself. I feel like eating good atm.
Tonight I know I had a dream, but even I really tried to keep it in mind I do not remember anything now, but Im happy Im getting more conscious about my dreams, its really long process. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 5 minutes of warm up 10x SUn Salutations and in rest of time some neck stretches combined with shadowboxing. Then I did pyramid from 14, I did all precisely, but I was slow, didnt finished it to 1 in 10 minutes, only 14-2 so I did that 1 in pause before next phase.
Next phase was tough 5 minutes of ABS training, I chose holds in many positions today, its always very juicy... for 5 minutes I had really enough.
Rest of the time, about 20-25 minutes I was dancing, today it was great, I even experienced something very special during dancing. I was a bit in pain in my sides from previous exercises, nothing major, but I felt it but I felt it good, not a harming pain or something and I was giving attention to these feelings and was dancing and dancing and all the sudden from this pain come incredibly pleasant feeling, it was like making love with that pain, it still felt pain, but at the same time pleasure, it was very nice and interesting. I have strong connection to pain for some time, but I felt it like I really fell in love with pain today, I felt like pain is my teacher, guide, advisory and, after today experience, even lover... feeling pain gives me energy, juice, motivation (its even preverb - if you cant any further, push the gas), brings life to me. I understood lots of things today thanks to this experience.
I also realized something a bit later - Im normally, during dancing, slapping my ass in order to strengthen skin and to give love and energy to my ass - it was for years part of my body which I didnt loved at all and was very mean in my thoughts so Im corecting this now during dancing. Well, today I felt something coming out from area of my sacrum and ass, energetically. It was very unpleasant when it went out of me, but then it was oposite very nice. I got feeling, that this started my closer connection to experience of pain and its understanding. It also work, as I just realized right now, for my theory, that experience of pain belongs to energetic level of Svaristana chakra together with pleasure, that these two are simply like brother and sister OR lovers, not even 2 sides of same coin.
Today dancing was also rich in one other thing - I was so deep in flow today, my limbs were numb, but my being danced alone, totally surrendered and enjoying whats happening atm, beautiful.
II) I have had clients afternoon, but the called off (2 out of 3) so I did something for me instead and did yoga. Fair 2 hrs one, just I replaced 2 last hand standing practices with Yamishirshasana, I didnt wanted to get totally done before last client today. I dont have much to say today, I feel somehow what happened as my own and that I want to let it work before framing it in words, maybe I will write something later - maybe not. But it was again very strong, very strong, lots of buckets of filth and fears come out today, its incredible how much of this shit can fit in me. So much fears, so much fears inside me....
III) I was happy that those clients could not come today, Im sure I would make it, but even one client was enough really... 31°C in room no matter how I let the air flow through the flat. Intensive for both of us.
Im so grateful for today, I feel like I got so much precious gifts today and Im happy to share them here, it would be shame to not share.
What gifts brought .life to you today?
Tonight I know I had a dream, but even I really tried to keep it in mind I do not remember anything now, but Im happy Im getting more conscious about my dreams, its really long process. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 5 minutes of warm up 10x SUn Salutations and in rest of time some neck stretches combined with shadowboxing. Then I did pyramid from 14, I did all precisely, but I was slow, didnt finished it to 1 in 10 minutes, only 14-2 so I did that 1 in pause before next phase.
Next phase was tough 5 minutes of ABS training, I chose holds in many positions today, its always very juicy... for 5 minutes I had really enough.
Rest of the time, about 20-25 minutes I was dancing, today it was great, I even experienced something very special during dancing. I was a bit in pain in my sides from previous exercises, nothing major, but I felt it but I felt it good, not a harming pain or something and I was giving attention to these feelings and was dancing and dancing and all the sudden from this pain come incredibly pleasant feeling, it was like making love with that pain, it still felt pain, but at the same time pleasure, it was very nice and interesting. I have strong connection to pain for some time, but I felt it like I really fell in love with pain today, I felt like pain is my teacher, guide, advisory and, after today experience, even lover... feeling pain gives me energy, juice, motivation (its even preverb - if you cant any further, push the gas), brings life to me. I understood lots of things today thanks to this experience.
I also realized something a bit later - Im normally, during dancing, slapping my ass in order to strengthen skin and to give love and energy to my ass - it was for years part of my body which I didnt loved at all and was very mean in my thoughts so Im corecting this now during dancing. Well, today I felt something coming out from area of my sacrum and ass, energetically. It was very unpleasant when it went out of me, but then it was oposite very nice. I got feeling, that this started my closer connection to experience of pain and its understanding. It also work, as I just realized right now, for my theory, that experience of pain belongs to energetic level of Svaristana chakra together with pleasure, that these two are simply like brother and sister OR lovers, not even 2 sides of same coin.
Today dancing was also rich in one other thing - I was so deep in flow today, my limbs were numb, but my being danced alone, totally surrendered and enjoying whats happening atm, beautiful.
II) I have had clients afternoon, but the called off (2 out of 3) so I did something for me instead and did yoga. Fair 2 hrs one, just I replaced 2 last hand standing practices with Yamishirshasana, I didnt wanted to get totally done before last client today. I dont have much to say today, I feel somehow what happened as my own and that I want to let it work before framing it in words, maybe I will write something later - maybe not. But it was again very strong, very strong, lots of buckets of filth and fears come out today, its incredible how much of this shit can fit in me. So much fears, so much fears inside me....
III) I was happy that those clients could not come today, Im sure I would make it, but even one client was enough really... 31°C in room no matter how I let the air flow through the flat. Intensive for both of us.
Im so grateful for today, I feel like I got so much precious gifts today and Im happy to share them here, it would be shame to not share.
What gifts brought .life to you today?
středa 19. června 2013
19.6.2013 - 78kg " + " up and down, dont know whats going on, probably its conected to water inside, Im drinking a lot to not dry out in this heat.
Tonight I slept very nice and well and deep, dont remember any dreams, but who knows... :) In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minute warm up, painful 10x Sun Salutations and a bit of shadowboxing in remaining time. I feel my back today a lot, but not in harming way, more in growing way, I think I never felt my lower back so strong as today, but in this healthy way, not like when there is a "problem".
Then 10 minutes of ABS training on gym ball, I did this new exercises I found on youtube, good ones, will take some time to get used to them, so I have a bit of time before looking for new set :P
Last about 30 minutes I was dancing, I felt my lower back a lot and I was playing with what I can do, I had also full head of thoughts, so I must confess I could not relax into it really. At times it was fine tho. I had fun too, it felt good to dance off as much as I could.
II) later in the morning I had a client, it was indeed nice treatment, but why I mention it - it was a woman in cool yellow dress and it was so nice to see it, it was like bringing new life into a day to see that joyful, yellow dress on woman who is obviously enjoying to wear that dress. Woman are awesome :)
III) Afternoon I did fair 2hrs yoga. It was again incredibly powerful, funy part was, that I did not felt loger holds in triconasana and shirshasana, it felt exactly same as before, which made me really curious, because it took me so long to relax into hold in triconasana for 3 minutes and in shirshasana as well. But I dont want to push it so I will not rise it immediately again. I had a bit problems in supta vajrasana, my legs hurted a lot. But anyway, it was so great again today... love yoga.
Another great day today.
Tonight I slept very nice and well and deep, dont remember any dreams, but who knows... :) In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minute warm up, painful 10x Sun Salutations and a bit of shadowboxing in remaining time. I feel my back today a lot, but not in harming way, more in growing way, I think I never felt my lower back so strong as today, but in this healthy way, not like when there is a "problem".
Then 10 minutes of ABS training on gym ball, I did this new exercises I found on youtube, good ones, will take some time to get used to them, so I have a bit of time before looking for new set :P
Last about 30 minutes I was dancing, I felt my lower back a lot and I was playing with what I can do, I had also full head of thoughts, so I must confess I could not relax into it really. At times it was fine tho. I had fun too, it felt good to dance off as much as I could.
II) later in the morning I had a client, it was indeed nice treatment, but why I mention it - it was a woman in cool yellow dress and it was so nice to see it, it was like bringing new life into a day to see that joyful, yellow dress on woman who is obviously enjoying to wear that dress. Woman are awesome :)
III) Afternoon I did fair 2hrs yoga. It was again incredibly powerful, funy part was, that I did not felt loger holds in triconasana and shirshasana, it felt exactly same as before, which made me really curious, because it took me so long to relax into hold in triconasana for 3 minutes and in shirshasana as well. But I dont want to push it so I will not rise it immediately again. I had a bit problems in supta vajrasana, my legs hurted a lot. But anyway, it was so great again today... love yoga.
Another great day today.
úterý 18. června 2013
18.3.2013 - 77,3kg " - " thats a huge drop, seems my boy really needed a lot of resources to do what it needed. Considering that I did almost nothing demanding yesterday.
Else I slept well and nice tonight. I KNOW I had a dreams tonight and I also remember that I wanted to remember them but all is gone. Have to put notebook and pen to my bed really.... In the mornig after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutation in dynamic, precise way, I tried to be as present and conscious as possible, I felt a bit numb, but I really wanted to do proper exercises today so I slowed down when I felt like and sped up when I felt like.
Next 10 minutes I spend with Kata1, very carefully and very consciously exercised, I was in the beginning very not powerful but I slowly found my power and in the end I could exercise Kata1 in more interesting dynamic way. It was actually very interesting, I felt like focus inside me and on my body after each rep helped a lot. I mean - I did it in this way: rep on each side, then stand and felt inside me, looking whats happening, how I really feel and when I felt like I know I did another reps on each side and so on. In the end I could exercise flawless. No pushing involved.
3rd 10 minute block I was taking care of my ABS, today I chose hard way, mix of bit of Brastarz exercises and lot of my exercises, it was very rich, in the end I could not do anything anymore. it felt great :)
Last about 10-12 minutes I was dancing, it wasnt easy at all today. But I could have fun, even my body did not felt so fine. I tried to be careful to myself, but not lazy out :)
I would like to also mention, that today on pushup/chinups I made record and it was 6 pushups/5 full chinups. Its in total 11 reps and my long-time dream milestone. Next one is 20 (10x pushup /10x chinup). Ultimately my dream is to be able to do 50 reps of either.
II) Afternoon I did 2hrs yoga. I felt and still feeling it very special today and I decided to write my setup:
1. 10x Sun Salutations
2. yoga warm up exercises
3. Udianabandha for 10 minutes - was very strong today, Im slowly getting used to this exercise and for couple of seconds I felt today very new space for me, its hard to describe, but it felt like I see universe inside me... dont know what to think about it, if it was just some mental construction or just visualization of my feeling... it was beautiful non the less.
4. Padahastasana - today was very special and nice, I could not go so much into position, but I felt my legs and first chakra so nice, I mean... I felt my legs so present, "real" I felt them so strong as part of me, it felt great.
5. Ardha-chandrasana - still feeling like there is universe to explore with this asana, even its going much better, I value this asana as best spine shaper for me :)
6. Trigonasana - its going very well lately, I can both keep my arm up and wide stand and relax in it, Im even prolonging holds from next exercise, I feel I need to have something to aim for - especialy because its 3rd chakra asana. I feel so mega strong after this one, it really makes Manipura spin.
7. Stitha-prathanasana - today I got into such a beautiful sensation in the end, I felt hard to continue, I believe I got a gift to experience not commonly experienced aspect of Anahata... very nice <3
8. Sethu Bandha Sarvangasana - I feel this asana nicer and nicer, its still hard, but way not so much as in the beginning. I feel soon I could do it for whole duration, I think reason that I cant now is more in my mind then real physical reason - my mind blabering that I cant stay in such a pose for so long time.... pfffr... but I will overcome it I believe, just relax and breath, dont push it anywhere, just enjoy.
9. Badrasana - this asana is my favorite atm, I felt today so strong sensation in the end, in my crutch and legs, I also felt I can relax into this pose very much today and I feel even those 4 minutes are not enough to get into this pose so I prolong it for 5 minutes from next set. Amazing asana.
10. Shalabhasana - another fascinating asana, I feel this asana as one of best indicators of state of my second chakra. Today I felt there is something stuck in there...
11. Supta Vajrasana - still difficult one, but its working much better each attempt, today I felt again a bit better. This asana activates third chakra for me so strong, that its crazy - I found out Im so afraid of this energy... its good to do this asana so my system gets used to this energy.
12. Bhujangasana - today I could do proper position for whole time, even belly was almost on the ground. Love this asana - it teach me so much about my back and heart at the same time. And relax of course. Its one of asanas where I feel extremely strong how important is to relax... in very "practical" obvious way.
13. Ardha Marciandrasana - very rich pose, very strongly activates 5th chakra for me and is golden for my hip joint and all atached tendons and muscles. I can turn more every attempt.
14. Sarvangasana - today it was a bit painful on my back, I even had to stop shortly before 3 minutes limit. But truth is, that Im still correcting this pose and finding way how to position in Sarvangasana, since I know its for 5th chakra it changed the way I feel is important to do this asana.
15. Yoga mudra - still very challenging since I know better how to do it, new way is getting less painful and Im able to feel more 4th chakra and focus on Anahata during exercise and its indeed very powerful asana... its always very strong afterwards.
16. hand stand practice - I do this exercise where I stand only on hands and my legs are on my arms. Its quite interesting to do it, I feel it very yoga-like and I even thing I saw asana similar to what I do, but Im still not able to unglue legs from hands. but I feel much more stable and sure in this position by now.
17. Arm stand practice exercise - I do this exercise to learn full hand stand, crawling on the wall high as much as possible with foots and in lower position (as high as I can manage) to do pushups for shoulders. very demanding exercise, very hard, very effective, very helpful, bringing lot of fears from being upside down on my arms. Big challenge for me.
18. Shavasana - slowly getting better with disciplining my mind, but Vipasana could help me , if I could kick my butt to do it! :)
It was very strong exercise today, I was shaking hours after exercises and I still feel it. Powerful, very powerful. Very helpful, yoga activates for me very strong transformation processes.
I realized today important thing - yoga gives me answers on situations in my life, first I realized this and then I started to think - how can exercise give me answers on questions in my life. And then I understood what happen - I feel like I could live, thanks to yoga, what I read many times in books - that my "reality" is but a reflection of me. Thats why sensations and feelings during asanas can give me answers - because questions and situations in my life are but reflections of my deep states and feelings and, from my point of view, thats what yoga do for me - yoga allows me to feel feelings and emotions and see processes which are else hidden beyond my personality and/or ego or whatever. I again feel a bit closer to realization, that all I need I already have... very rich and fruifull day today :)
Love to you all, guys <3
Else I slept well and nice tonight. I KNOW I had a dreams tonight and I also remember that I wanted to remember them but all is gone. Have to put notebook and pen to my bed really.... In the mornig after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutation in dynamic, precise way, I tried to be as present and conscious as possible, I felt a bit numb, but I really wanted to do proper exercises today so I slowed down when I felt like and sped up when I felt like.
Next 10 minutes I spend with Kata1, very carefully and very consciously exercised, I was in the beginning very not powerful but I slowly found my power and in the end I could exercise Kata1 in more interesting dynamic way. It was actually very interesting, I felt like focus inside me and on my body after each rep helped a lot. I mean - I did it in this way: rep on each side, then stand and felt inside me, looking whats happening, how I really feel and when I felt like I know I did another reps on each side and so on. In the end I could exercise flawless. No pushing involved.
3rd 10 minute block I was taking care of my ABS, today I chose hard way, mix of bit of Brastarz exercises and lot of my exercises, it was very rich, in the end I could not do anything anymore. it felt great :)
Last about 10-12 minutes I was dancing, it wasnt easy at all today. But I could have fun, even my body did not felt so fine. I tried to be careful to myself, but not lazy out :)
I would like to also mention, that today on pushup/chinups I made record and it was 6 pushups/5 full chinups. Its in total 11 reps and my long-time dream milestone. Next one is 20 (10x pushup /10x chinup). Ultimately my dream is to be able to do 50 reps of either.
II) Afternoon I did 2hrs yoga. I felt and still feeling it very special today and I decided to write my setup:
1. 10x Sun Salutations
2. yoga warm up exercises
3. Udianabandha for 10 minutes - was very strong today, Im slowly getting used to this exercise and for couple of seconds I felt today very new space for me, its hard to describe, but it felt like I see universe inside me... dont know what to think about it, if it was just some mental construction or just visualization of my feeling... it was beautiful non the less.
4. Padahastasana - today was very special and nice, I could not go so much into position, but I felt my legs and first chakra so nice, I mean... I felt my legs so present, "real" I felt them so strong as part of me, it felt great.
5. Ardha-chandrasana - still feeling like there is universe to explore with this asana, even its going much better, I value this asana as best spine shaper for me :)
6. Trigonasana - its going very well lately, I can both keep my arm up and wide stand and relax in it, Im even prolonging holds from next exercise, I feel I need to have something to aim for - especialy because its 3rd chakra asana. I feel so mega strong after this one, it really makes Manipura spin.
7. Stitha-prathanasana - today I got into such a beautiful sensation in the end, I felt hard to continue, I believe I got a gift to experience not commonly experienced aspect of Anahata... very nice <3
8. Sethu Bandha Sarvangasana - I feel this asana nicer and nicer, its still hard, but way not so much as in the beginning. I feel soon I could do it for whole duration, I think reason that I cant now is more in my mind then real physical reason - my mind blabering that I cant stay in such a pose for so long time.... pfffr... but I will overcome it I believe, just relax and breath, dont push it anywhere, just enjoy.
9. Badrasana - this asana is my favorite atm, I felt today so strong sensation in the end, in my crutch and legs, I also felt I can relax into this pose very much today and I feel even those 4 minutes are not enough to get into this pose so I prolong it for 5 minutes from next set. Amazing asana.
10. Shalabhasana - another fascinating asana, I feel this asana as one of best indicators of state of my second chakra. Today I felt there is something stuck in there...
11. Supta Vajrasana - still difficult one, but its working much better each attempt, today I felt again a bit better. This asana activates third chakra for me so strong, that its crazy - I found out Im so afraid of this energy... its good to do this asana so my system gets used to this energy.
12. Bhujangasana - today I could do proper position for whole time, even belly was almost on the ground. Love this asana - it teach me so much about my back and heart at the same time. And relax of course. Its one of asanas where I feel extremely strong how important is to relax... in very "practical" obvious way.
13. Ardha Marciandrasana - very rich pose, very strongly activates 5th chakra for me and is golden for my hip joint and all atached tendons and muscles. I can turn more every attempt.
14. Sarvangasana - today it was a bit painful on my back, I even had to stop shortly before 3 minutes limit. But truth is, that Im still correcting this pose and finding way how to position in Sarvangasana, since I know its for 5th chakra it changed the way I feel is important to do this asana.
15. Yoga mudra - still very challenging since I know better how to do it, new way is getting less painful and Im able to feel more 4th chakra and focus on Anahata during exercise and its indeed very powerful asana... its always very strong afterwards.
16. hand stand practice - I do this exercise where I stand only on hands and my legs are on my arms. Its quite interesting to do it, I feel it very yoga-like and I even thing I saw asana similar to what I do, but Im still not able to unglue legs from hands. but I feel much more stable and sure in this position by now.
17. Arm stand practice exercise - I do this exercise to learn full hand stand, crawling on the wall high as much as possible with foots and in lower position (as high as I can manage) to do pushups for shoulders. very demanding exercise, very hard, very effective, very helpful, bringing lot of fears from being upside down on my arms. Big challenge for me.
18. Shavasana - slowly getting better with disciplining my mind, but Vipasana could help me , if I could kick my butt to do it! :)
It was very strong exercise today, I was shaking hours after exercises and I still feel it. Powerful, very powerful. Very helpful, yoga activates for me very strong transformation processes.
I realized today important thing - yoga gives me answers on situations in my life, first I realized this and then I started to think - how can exercise give me answers on questions in my life. And then I understood what happen - I feel like I could live, thanks to yoga, what I read many times in books - that my "reality" is but a reflection of me. Thats why sensations and feelings during asanas can give me answers - because questions and situations in my life are but reflections of my deep states and feelings and, from my point of view, thats what yoga do for me - yoga allows me to feel feelings and emotions and see processes which are else hidden beyond my personality and/or ego or whatever. I again feel a bit closer to realization, that all I need I already have... very rich and fruifull day today :)
Love to you all, guys <3
neděle 16. června 2013
17.3.2013 - 78kg " + " no comment today
I slept well tonight and I actually had a dream, very complicated one, first I was driver of some truck then I had some accident and then I ended up in house owned by vampires and then we were escaping with other "prisoners" and I fell in love with a woman there and it was all very action movie actually :)
I started morning exercises in the morning, bu I simply could not do it today, I tried all I know, but I could not so I returned to the bed to my beloved and slept a bit more together in embrace and I continued having dreams, short, clearing ones and I felt... yes... it was good to listen to myself and do it, I somehow felt this happening more important then force myself into morning exercises.
I had also client today, unexpected one, but great one. Second client I have in this place and I feel it great to have more clients here. I love doing shiatsu and to spread gifts of this method to people.
Rest of the day I was mainly resting and in the evening also traveling a lot. I was whole day very numb and tired. Mind unfocused and in general felt not really strong. I think its either this hot weather all the sudden or some new phase of transformation of myself.
Great day non the less!
I slept well tonight and I actually had a dream, very complicated one, first I was driver of some truck then I had some accident and then I ended up in house owned by vampires and then we were escaping with other "prisoners" and I fell in love with a woman there and it was all very action movie actually :)
I started morning exercises in the morning, bu I simply could not do it today, I tried all I know, but I could not so I returned to the bed to my beloved and slept a bit more together in embrace and I continued having dreams, short, clearing ones and I felt... yes... it was good to listen to myself and do it, I somehow felt this happening more important then force myself into morning exercises.
I had also client today, unexpected one, but great one. Second client I have in this place and I feel it great to have more clients here. I love doing shiatsu and to spread gifts of this method to people.
Rest of the day I was mainly resting and in the evening also traveling a lot. I was whole day very numb and tired. Mind unfocused and in general felt not really strong. I think its either this hot weather all the sudden or some new phase of transformation of myself.
Great day non the less!
sobota 15. června 2013
16.6.2013 - 77,6kg " + " Im right now in state when I dont know if I have overweight or underweight, I feel I could have less and I still feel having lots of fat, but in mirror I look just alright.
I slept quite well and somehow more cozy then usualy. Dont remebr any dreams again, I think I will try to make a wish to remember them before falling asleep. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed - or I wanted to, but it didnt worked out quite well, I fell into crisis quite soon. I mean - I could continue and evrything, but i felt too much pain to make normal number of reps while doing SS on speed, I think I did 45 in total in those 15 minutes. 33 in 10 minute limit. But it was definetelly worth doing it, I felt it very helpfull.
Next I was giving love to my ABS and core. Today I created new set, 30 situps (10xstraight/10xleft/10xright) then 30 seconds frozen V-sit, again 30 situps / 1 minutes V-sit, 30 situps 90 seconds V-Sit, 30 situps... didnt finished last situps. Its just first day, I feel I will work with this set a bit, but I felt I can go in v-sits today more further and longer then anytime before, it felt great. it brings new feelings to get further in positions and I love these new feelings, every new feling like this feel like I got new gift/toy to play with.
Last I did about 17 minutes of dancing, at first I had to dance out stifness a bit, but then I got into it and in the end I was in great creative free energy and was enjoying it a lot :)
In extra exercises I could do handstand prep exercise quite long and I did 10 reps (6x pushup/4x chinup) and half of 5th chinup. Its starting all sorts of new feelings going into this new spaces in exercises, its very interesting. I guess what top-sportsmans experience...
II) Else I was biking, walking, drumming, being with my beloved and in general enjoying life in its finest.
I slept quite well and somehow more cozy then usualy. Dont remebr any dreams again, I think I will try to make a wish to remember them before falling asleep. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed - or I wanted to, but it didnt worked out quite well, I fell into crisis quite soon. I mean - I could continue and evrything, but i felt too much pain to make normal number of reps while doing SS on speed, I think I did 45 in total in those 15 minutes. 33 in 10 minute limit. But it was definetelly worth doing it, I felt it very helpfull.
Next I was giving love to my ABS and core. Today I created new set, 30 situps (10xstraight/10xleft/10xright) then 30 seconds frozen V-sit, again 30 situps / 1 minutes V-sit, 30 situps 90 seconds V-Sit, 30 situps... didnt finished last situps. Its just first day, I feel I will work with this set a bit, but I felt I can go in v-sits today more further and longer then anytime before, it felt great. it brings new feelings to get further in positions and I love these new feelings, every new feling like this feel like I got new gift/toy to play with.
Last I did about 17 minutes of dancing, at first I had to dance out stifness a bit, but then I got into it and in the end I was in great creative free energy and was enjoying it a lot :)
In extra exercises I could do handstand prep exercise quite long and I did 10 reps (6x pushup/4x chinup) and half of 5th chinup. Its starting all sorts of new feelings going into this new spaces in exercises, its very interesting. I guess what top-sportsmans experience...
II) Else I was biking, walking, drumming, being with my beloved and in general enjoying life in its finest.
pátek 14. června 2013
15.6.2013 - 77kg " - " Thats not so good. Or I dont know, I would like to have 78 and keep geting mass, but on other side, I could do on strength side a lot, so maybe its not so bad. I think I will keep not exagerating meals and keep good ration of proteins/vegies/carbohydrates.
I slept beatiful tonight in embrace of my beloved. I think I had some dreams tonight, but could not say, I dont know what to do to remeber them. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutation, first 5 reps with longer holds in positions to stretch a bit and then switching to dynamic way. It was very very neccesarry really, I was very stiff after yesterday.
I continued with ABS training, combination of Barstarz and Pilates exercises, very rich, very painful, very good for my ABS, I felt great. Next 10 minutes I was biking on stationary bike on 2nd level f this bike here, its much harder then 1st level and I tried to go as fast as possible full time, it was also very rich, both for my endurance and my legs.
Last about 13-14 minutes I was dancing, I could not move much first couple of minutes, but once I danced stiffnes out it was fine and I could enjoy dancing, for some reason I could not get into flow much, but I used it to move me out of stiffness a bit more :)
II) Later a bit of bike ride to the shop, nothing major, but have to mention,because it was so beatiful weather, that it recharged me a lot.
III) Afternoon I did 2hrs yoga, that 3 day break was noticable, but on other side I always feel like at least my body could heal a bit what it needed. Else I would mention Badrasana, because I feel like I dscovered new space with this asana to explore. I can relatx my legs much more and Im kind of exploring how to position myself in these new positions. Trigonasana is also going much easier, I no longer need to interupt and I feel I could hold longer. I feel asanas on 3r
d chaka vry important atm. I also did great at half-bridge pose and shalabhasana. I mean - I could relax quite good in them. Shirshasana also went very well today, I even enjoyed it :) And hand stand is also more stabil and Ican relax a bit more in it so m starting slowly to feel more posibilities to do something else then just balance on hands.
Good exercise today indeed, I was again in this chewingum feeling in my spine and shaking a bit. It was great to do fair set today.
Last thing I would like to mention is, that I made today again to do 10 combination of pushups/chinups, it was for me extremely important, because these 10 reps was very hard psychological border for me. And it was very dificult to overcome it. I know it already, but power of mind never stops amazes me, its so powerful... so powerful... my mind limits more then ANYTHING else in my life, nothing and noone is even close.
I slept beatiful tonight in embrace of my beloved. I think I had some dreams tonight, but could not say, I dont know what to do to remeber them. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutation, first 5 reps with longer holds in positions to stretch a bit and then switching to dynamic way. It was very very neccesarry really, I was very stiff after yesterday.
I continued with ABS training, combination of Barstarz and Pilates exercises, very rich, very painful, very good for my ABS, I felt great. Next 10 minutes I was biking on stationary bike on 2nd level f this bike here, its much harder then 1st level and I tried to go as fast as possible full time, it was also very rich, both for my endurance and my legs.
Last about 13-14 minutes I was dancing, I could not move much first couple of minutes, but once I danced stiffnes out it was fine and I could enjoy dancing, for some reason I could not get into flow much, but I used it to move me out of stiffness a bit more :)
II) Later a bit of bike ride to the shop, nothing major, but have to mention,because it was so beatiful weather, that it recharged me a lot.
III) Afternoon I did 2hrs yoga, that 3 day break was noticable, but on other side I always feel like at least my body could heal a bit what it needed. Else I would mention Badrasana, because I feel like I dscovered new space with this asana to explore. I can relatx my legs much more and Im kind of exploring how to position myself in these new positions. Trigonasana is also going much easier, I no longer need to interupt and I feel I could hold longer. I feel asanas on 3r
d chaka vry important atm. I also did great at half-bridge pose and shalabhasana. I mean - I could relax quite good in them. Shirshasana also went very well today, I even enjoyed it :) And hand stand is also more stabil and Ican relax a bit more in it so m starting slowly to feel more posibilities to do something else then just balance on hands.
Good exercise today indeed, I was again in this chewingum feeling in my spine and shaking a bit. It was great to do fair set today.
Last thing I would like to mention is, that I made today again to do 10 combination of pushups/chinups, it was for me extremely important, because these 10 reps was very hard psychological border for me. And it was very dificult to overcome it. I know it already, but power of mind never stops amazes me, its so powerful... so powerful... my mind limits more then ANYTHING else in my life, nothing and noone is even close.
14.6.2013 - 77,5kg " --- " What a drop, almost 2 kilos and I didnt even had full fast yesterday, good I ate dinner and breakfest, wont start loosing mass really.
Else I slept todayr very long (10hrs or something), I slept out for a change and dont remember any dreams again. But Im sure I had some tonight.
Today I did no morning exercise, which I planed - to make this day after 12 days in a row a break. And I felt gratitude of my body really, my being grabed this chance and was recuperating whole day.
I was only on a short walk with my love and did no other exercise. I spend whle day together with my love, having lots of sex and eating wonderful meals, enjoying wonderful weather and wonderful company. Beautiful flawless day :)
Else I slept todayr very long (10hrs or something), I slept out for a change and dont remember any dreams again. But Im sure I had some tonight.
Today I did no morning exercise, which I planed - to make this day after 12 days in a row a break. And I felt gratitude of my body really, my being grabed this chance and was recuperating whole day.
I was only on a short walk with my love and did no other exercise. I spend whle day together with my love, having lots of sex and eating wonderful meals, enjoying wonderful weather and wonderful company. Beautiful flawless day :)
středa 12. června 2013
13.6.2013 - 79,3kg " -- " some clearing already done, today just breakfest and then only goji. I need to clean myself, ate too much crap in last days.
Again slept well and deep tonight, in the morning after some internet acrobatics straight for morning exercises!
I) Starting today with 5 min warm up - 10x SS and Shadowboxing, confirming that I definetely want to make set with block of shadowboxing. Today I was shadowboxing for 2 minutes and I was very exhausted, it has to be improved, explosive power is very important for acrobatics and self-defense.
I continued with pyramid training, starting on set of 14 and going down to set of 1 and then I went back to 4 (set consist of pushups, situps and squats). Today I did all reps without need of break or help in technique, which was great. I feel that my body is able to do more flexible exercises, Im not sure how to explain it - I dont feel stronger so much, but I can muster to do more and its not hard to go over point where I was in past forced to stop.
Then I was doing 5 minutes ABS exercises, mix of Barstarz exercises and what come to me that would be good to do. It was very rich and my ABS let know about themselfs real loud :)
Last about 22-25 miuntes I was dancing, I was a bit stiff from previous exercises, but I could enjoy dancing anyway and it was great :)
II) Else I was today traveling a lot and spend long time making love with my dearest love <3
Very nice day, long, but beatiful weather and beatiful meetings :)
Again slept well and deep tonight, in the morning after some internet acrobatics straight for morning exercises!
I) Starting today with 5 min warm up - 10x SS and Shadowboxing, confirming that I definetely want to make set with block of shadowboxing. Today I was shadowboxing for 2 minutes and I was very exhausted, it has to be improved, explosive power is very important for acrobatics and self-defense.
I continued with pyramid training, starting on set of 14 and going down to set of 1 and then I went back to 4 (set consist of pushups, situps and squats). Today I did all reps without need of break or help in technique, which was great. I feel that my body is able to do more flexible exercises, Im not sure how to explain it - I dont feel stronger so much, but I can muster to do more and its not hard to go over point where I was in past forced to stop.
Then I was doing 5 minutes ABS exercises, mix of Barstarz exercises and what come to me that would be good to do. It was very rich and my ABS let know about themselfs real loud :)
Last about 22-25 miuntes I was dancing, I was a bit stiff from previous exercises, but I could enjoy dancing anyway and it was great :)
II) Else I was today traveling a lot and spend long time making love with my dearest love <3
Very nice day, long, but beatiful weather and beatiful meetings :)
úterý 11. června 2013
12.6.2013 - 80,6kg " ++ " argh, but no wonder I was so hungry yesterday evening... avoided all sweets, but ate what I normally eat for one day in other stuff (mostly carbohydrates and proteins). Well, today after lunch starting fasting. Need to clear the shit out of me to not have testes for stuff I dont need.
I remember that I had dreams, but I have absolutely no clue what it was. Else I slept very deep and well. In the morning after some waking up at computer straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes of warm up, classically consisted from 10x Sun Salutation and Shadowboxing. Then I did 10 minutes ABS training on gym ball, I feel that its going to be very good exercise, its not there yet, but without practice I would never get there - thing is, that doing ABS exercises on gym ball needs also good balance, I feel that my core is working and in combination with ABS exercises is this very vital and rich combination. But it take some practice to strengthen core to keep balance in this way. Anyway I felt it very rich today for my ABS and core.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes, today I enjoyed it whole very much again, enjoying creative energy, joy, fun, movement, music... it was great :)
II) Later this morning I did fair 2 hour yoga again.I dont know what much to say, I felt it more inside today. Some asanas went better (Bhujangasana, Yoga-mudra, Shalabhasana), some I was too pushing and got into resistance (its not possible to push in yoga, its about relax, not pushing, of course I know that in my mind, but sometimes, my programs flow on surface) (Padahastasana, Ardha-vajrasana). I was shaking again a lot after exercising. My mind is still flowing all around, but today I felt I can be a bit more conscious about it. I have resistance to do Vipasana as extra exercise for a day, but I feel it could be a way to easy my mind a bit.
In general it was great to do yoga, I did not doubted it for a second, and I did not felt it as routine at all, it was just today a lot about inner processes - being conscious about relaxing, pushing, feeling...
III) Afternoon I did research on youtube for ABS exercises on gymnastic ball and found great video with nice workout and did that workout as well. Think I will enhance it a bit and use for my sets. Lots of things I can work on, its always great :)
I remember that I had dreams, but I have absolutely no clue what it was. Else I slept very deep and well. In the morning after some waking up at computer straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes of warm up, classically consisted from 10x Sun Salutation and Shadowboxing. Then I did 10 minutes ABS training on gym ball, I feel that its going to be very good exercise, its not there yet, but without practice I would never get there - thing is, that doing ABS exercises on gym ball needs also good balance, I feel that my core is working and in combination with ABS exercises is this very vital and rich combination. But it take some practice to strengthen core to keep balance in this way. Anyway I felt it very rich today for my ABS and core.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes, today I enjoyed it whole very much again, enjoying creative energy, joy, fun, movement, music... it was great :)
II) Later this morning I did fair 2 hour yoga again.I dont know what much to say, I felt it more inside today. Some asanas went better (Bhujangasana, Yoga-mudra, Shalabhasana), some I was too pushing and got into resistance (its not possible to push in yoga, its about relax, not pushing, of course I know that in my mind, but sometimes, my programs flow on surface) (Padahastasana, Ardha-vajrasana). I was shaking again a lot after exercising. My mind is still flowing all around, but today I felt I can be a bit more conscious about it. I have resistance to do Vipasana as extra exercise for a day, but I feel it could be a way to easy my mind a bit.
In general it was great to do yoga, I did not doubted it for a second, and I did not felt it as routine at all, it was just today a lot about inner processes - being conscious about relaxing, pushing, feeling...
III) Afternoon I did research on youtube for ABS exercises on gymnastic ball and found great video with nice workout and did that workout as well. Think I will enhance it a bit and use for my sets. Lots of things I can work on, its always great :)
11.6.2013 - 79,6kg " + " yeah, have to start thinking again about overreacting on weight drop, I feel today extremely fat, even I ate no sweets, I ate a bit of salty goodies, have to stop this crap soon.
I slept well and hard today, again dont remember any dreams. But I remembered one dream from past nights which slipped out of me: I was in some office or something and inhabitant of that office gave me computer with some office software to do something. And I did without problems, even I never saw that software before. She was very surprised and I explained her that I have lots of exp. with office software and this one is user friendly enough so it went naturally easy. She was very happy about it. But I dont remember anything else from that dream. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, first prolonged holds in position from 1 to 6 second in each position and then dynamic reps, I quite enjoyed it to be honest, Im more flexible then ever.
Then 10 minutes of Kata1, also made me very happy today, I tried how much reps on each side I can do in dynamic way and I end up on 14 (maybe 15, I lost count in one point....) and I had no respiration problems or some major week moments, it felt good and it wasnt like easy or something, mind you - I was sweping real good in the end, but point was, that I could function good even it was so hard.
Then 10 minutes of ABS exercises, I did Barstarz set today, it was crazy, I feel like I was too easy on my ABS in last days, or I dont know why it makes me such troubles. I have to focus more on these exarcises, I mean, focus while I exercise them, to be precise, focused, present, make it rich. But today it was indeed rich alright.
Last about 13 minutes I was dancing. Today it was truly awesome, its been some time since I enjoyed dancing so much, in one moment I felt something like energetic orgasm from dancing, it was well... ecstatic indeed, amazing, beautiful, powerful, ufff... great :)
II) Then, after trip to do some official stuff hurray for yoga! I did again today 2 hour setup (its really exactly 2 hours long, but I didnt tried to fit it so exactly :D ). What can i say, for me yoga become something like ritual, very sacred ritual. I dont even know how it happened, nobody ever told me that its sacred or anything, I just have this feeling while doing yoga. From first warm up Sun Salutations to last moments of Shawasana. Every moment is like a pearl on the thread of time and all just for me. I dont want to focus on my body and present moment because "I should" during yoga, I want to do it, because it gives me sooooo much. That feeling of my body, those feeling of energy flows in me. All spectrum of feelings, fears, pleasant moments, answers on my questions in life, all coming from focused execution of yoga. More I relax, more is coming, more I abandon what people say what "I should" in this or that asana, more is coming, more I let myself being led by this sacred energy into poses, more is coming. I feel like my whole being is being disolved and reconstructed while doing yoga.
Today I went very deep into ardha-vajrasana and fears I felt in last time were gone. I went more into Bhujangasana and I could handle that overhelming feeling in my heart and did not need to stop before time limit. I felt completely new feelings during Badrasana, my body formed itself into new position. I feel I need to work more on my second chakra, this level of my being is way out of balance, I feel it very precisely, in thoughts coming, but in my life as well. Just thinking what asana I will use, I was thinking about double-sided Sukhasana .
Today, my process from yesterday continued. I fel deeper into feelings of acceptance and I discovered that for me is acceptance connected to love. I can love somebody in moment I accept all oh him or her, in that moment I dont spend anymore my focus on this sorting/judging nonsence and can just feel that person and feel... love. I feel that this is way to love everybody. Im definitely not there yet I still have lots to precess but my mind is telling me that in the moment I can see and accept everything in myself, I dont anymore need to protect myself by sorting/judging others and all I will see is others in all they are. I think this whats happening to me right now is strongly conencted into this process with fears from last days, because I had lots of fears and desires in me to embrace and accept. I discovered lots of things I wasnt happy about, but what the hell - its me, who else then me should accept myself then me. Im not that nice guy I tried to be in past, Im also hard and non-compromise, selfish, guy with borders and wishes in life. Im everything.
I slept well and hard today, again dont remember any dreams. But I remembered one dream from past nights which slipped out of me: I was in some office or something and inhabitant of that office gave me computer with some office software to do something. And I did without problems, even I never saw that software before. She was very surprised and I explained her that I have lots of exp. with office software and this one is user friendly enough so it went naturally easy. She was very happy about it. But I dont remember anything else from that dream. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, first prolonged holds in position from 1 to 6 second in each position and then dynamic reps, I quite enjoyed it to be honest, Im more flexible then ever.
Then 10 minutes of Kata1, also made me very happy today, I tried how much reps on each side I can do in dynamic way and I end up on 14 (maybe 15, I lost count in one point....) and I had no respiration problems or some major week moments, it felt good and it wasnt like easy or something, mind you - I was sweping real good in the end, but point was, that I could function good even it was so hard.
Then 10 minutes of ABS exercises, I did Barstarz set today, it was crazy, I feel like I was too easy on my ABS in last days, or I dont know why it makes me such troubles. I have to focus more on these exarcises, I mean, focus while I exercise them, to be precise, focused, present, make it rich. But today it was indeed rich alright.
Last about 13 minutes I was dancing. Today it was truly awesome, its been some time since I enjoyed dancing so much, in one moment I felt something like energetic orgasm from dancing, it was well... ecstatic indeed, amazing, beautiful, powerful, ufff... great :)
II) Then, after trip to do some official stuff hurray for yoga! I did again today 2 hour setup (its really exactly 2 hours long, but I didnt tried to fit it so exactly :D ). What can i say, for me yoga become something like ritual, very sacred ritual. I dont even know how it happened, nobody ever told me that its sacred or anything, I just have this feeling while doing yoga. From first warm up Sun Salutations to last moments of Shawasana. Every moment is like a pearl on the thread of time and all just for me. I dont want to focus on my body and present moment because "I should" during yoga, I want to do it, because it gives me sooooo much. That feeling of my body, those feeling of energy flows in me. All spectrum of feelings, fears, pleasant moments, answers on my questions in life, all coming from focused execution of yoga. More I relax, more is coming, more I abandon what people say what "I should" in this or that asana, more is coming, more I let myself being led by this sacred energy into poses, more is coming. I feel like my whole being is being disolved and reconstructed while doing yoga.
Today I went very deep into ardha-vajrasana and fears I felt in last time were gone. I went more into Bhujangasana and I could handle that overhelming feeling in my heart and did not need to stop before time limit. I felt completely new feelings during Badrasana, my body formed itself into new position. I feel I need to work more on my second chakra, this level of my being is way out of balance, I feel it very precisely, in thoughts coming, but in my life as well. Just thinking what asana I will use, I was thinking about double-sided Sukhasana .
Today, my process from yesterday continued. I fel deeper into feelings of acceptance and I discovered that for me is acceptance connected to love. I can love somebody in moment I accept all oh him or her, in that moment I dont spend anymore my focus on this sorting/judging nonsence and can just feel that person and feel... love. I feel that this is way to love everybody. Im definitely not there yet I still have lots to precess but my mind is telling me that in the moment I can see and accept everything in myself, I dont anymore need to protect myself by sorting/judging others and all I will see is others in all they are. I think this whats happening to me right now is strongly conencted into this process with fears from last days, because I had lots of fears and desires in me to embrace and accept. I discovered lots of things I wasnt happy about, but what the hell - its me, who else then me should accept myself then me. Im not that nice guy I tried to be in past, Im also hard and non-compromise, selfish, guy with borders and wishes in life. Im everything.
neděle 9. června 2013
10.6.2013 - 79kg " = " seems 79kg is my weight atm
Same as in last weeks, deep, dreamless sleep... In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed. It went smooth, but from 37th rep or something I started to have problems on endurance department. However I made 49 reps in 10min limit and total 72 in 15 min. limit. Price was lots of swept.
I continued with core exercises, first 4 rounds of TM core WO, continued sweping like doors to the barn, going a lot into non-comfort zone. But Im better in being able to function in this zone by now. After this core exercises I did couple of side-muscles exercises, it was rich, I think I never swept so much as today.
Next, about 18 minutes I spent dancing. After first like 2 minutes where my body was very stiff from previous exercises it started to be good, stiffness was danced away. And then miracle happen, during dancing on Venetian Snares - Epidermis something like cork popped out inside me and from second to second I felt much more free, fears from last days were gone and I could be totally in this creative dancing energy. Venetian snares is amazing therapy really :) I was dancing today like never, amazing.
II) Later in the morning I went on bike to the distant shop, its not so far, but I asnt biking much lately and I was sweping like crazy again... Im lazy on this speed/strength side of exercises :)
III) Afternoon I had clients, nice work with one for long coming client whose process fits a lot into my fear process from last days, she actually started coming again when my fear process started. I really love my life so much, it gives me all I need immediately... amazing.
Today I realized something very important for me. I could completely accept some people and feel them in this acceptance. It happened with one friend and one client. You know - I read many times how its important and had that in mind for long time, but today for first time I could feel what it really means, what it is, how it looks like, but most important - how much it gav me. In the moment I stopped pushing those friends into boxes, judge them or compare them I could feel great relief because I stopped also giving energy into those judgments and analyzes. I could also see them in theyr beauty, how beautiful they were in theyr natural themselfs without that dirty glass of judgments I was putting in front of them... wonderful, heart-warming feeling. I dont know if it stays, because my programs tend to come back after some time, but once I experienced this, I believe I can consciously choose to accept others in all they are again.
Same as in last weeks, deep, dreamless sleep... In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed. It went smooth, but from 37th rep or something I started to have problems on endurance department. However I made 49 reps in 10min limit and total 72 in 15 min. limit. Price was lots of swept.
I continued with core exercises, first 4 rounds of TM core WO, continued sweping like doors to the barn, going a lot into non-comfort zone. But Im better in being able to function in this zone by now. After this core exercises I did couple of side-muscles exercises, it was rich, I think I never swept so much as today.
Next, about 18 minutes I spent dancing. After first like 2 minutes where my body was very stiff from previous exercises it started to be good, stiffness was danced away. And then miracle happen, during dancing on Venetian Snares - Epidermis something like cork popped out inside me and from second to second I felt much more free, fears from last days were gone and I could be totally in this creative dancing energy. Venetian snares is amazing therapy really :) I was dancing today like never, amazing.
II) Later in the morning I went on bike to the distant shop, its not so far, but I asnt biking much lately and I was sweping like crazy again... Im lazy on this speed/strength side of exercises :)
III) Afternoon I had clients, nice work with one for long coming client whose process fits a lot into my fear process from last days, she actually started coming again when my fear process started. I really love my life so much, it gives me all I need immediately... amazing.
Today I realized something very important for me. I could completely accept some people and feel them in this acceptance. It happened with one friend and one client. You know - I read many times how its important and had that in mind for long time, but today for first time I could feel what it really means, what it is, how it looks like, but most important - how much it gav me. In the moment I stopped pushing those friends into boxes, judge them or compare them I could feel great relief because I stopped also giving energy into those judgments and analyzes. I could also see them in theyr beauty, how beautiful they were in theyr natural themselfs without that dirty glass of judgments I was putting in front of them... wonderful, heart-warming feeling. I dont know if it stays, because my programs tend to come back after some time, but once I experienced this, I believe I can consciously choose to accept others in all they are again.
9.6.2013 - 79kg " - " its good, even I had lots of sweets yesterday evening. "Hello, Im Petr and Im addicted to sweets. Im clean first day today." urgh.... its much stronger addiction then for cigarettes, mainly because its EVERYWHERE and cheep and socially accepted.
Else I slept well and deep and dont remember any dreams again. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, classically 10x SS and Shadowboxing, love this warm up, even I feel lately that I have to either push more on intensity or make it longer. Then I did 10 minutes ABS care, today I choose gymnastic ball "version". Its something completely different then on the ground, Im totally going to include gym ball set into my morning exercises. It was rich.
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees, today I did 38 of them in time limit, its again more then last time. Its good to do this, important, I feel Burpees very important for my moving and strength/agility aparatus. Then I did 5 minutes shoulder exercises on the wall, man... I cant even practice it for 5 minutes how is fear from doing this causing me panic and Im loosing strength then. I have to keep doing this consciously, gently, untill my system understand, that is all fine and accept these new feelings.
Rest about 18-20 minutes I was dancing. Today it was fine, it felt somehow natural, nice, not pushed, free, I enjoyed it very much.
II) Later in the morning I went into park and spend there some time, I was drumming, reading i the sun, ate a bit as lunch, had a free time for myself under the sun. I felt it like recharging... it was pure awesomeness. And drumming was also fantastic :)
III) Afternoon I did yoga. New setup again, all from previous, BUT 30 seconds longer breaks for feeling and 2 more 3 minutes parts, one for hand stand and one for shoulder hand stand preparation exercises. I also made Badrasana 1 minute longer. It was aride today, my mind was blabering all the time, but I could focus a bit better on asanas and relax my body into positions and in some (like Ardha-Vajrasana) I could relax more then anytime before. I could almost touch my knees with my forhead during Padahastasana, my conscious in pelvis joint is better then anytime before.
Mentioning Ardha-Vajrasana, today I could very precisely feel, that my fears from last days are coming from this energy level. Only thing I could say is that I will maybe add more Manipura asanas to harmonize this cetrum. Those fears in last days are mine and Im trying to explore them and be freiendly with them, but right now they take a lot of energy from me.
Anyway - awesome exercise, I felt it great :)
Else I slept well and deep and dont remember any dreams again. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, classically 10x SS and Shadowboxing, love this warm up, even I feel lately that I have to either push more on intensity or make it longer. Then I did 10 minutes ABS care, today I choose gymnastic ball "version". Its something completely different then on the ground, Im totally going to include gym ball set into my morning exercises. It was rich.
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees, today I did 38 of them in time limit, its again more then last time. Its good to do this, important, I feel Burpees very important for my moving and strength/agility aparatus. Then I did 5 minutes shoulder exercises on the wall, man... I cant even practice it for 5 minutes how is fear from doing this causing me panic and Im loosing strength then. I have to keep doing this consciously, gently, untill my system understand, that is all fine and accept these new feelings.
Rest about 18-20 minutes I was dancing. Today it was fine, it felt somehow natural, nice, not pushed, free, I enjoyed it very much.
II) Later in the morning I went into park and spend there some time, I was drumming, reading i the sun, ate a bit as lunch, had a free time for myself under the sun. I felt it like recharging... it was pure awesomeness. And drumming was also fantastic :)
III) Afternoon I did yoga. New setup again, all from previous, BUT 30 seconds longer breaks for feeling and 2 more 3 minutes parts, one for hand stand and one for shoulder hand stand preparation exercises. I also made Badrasana 1 minute longer. It was aride today, my mind was blabering all the time, but I could focus a bit better on asanas and relax my body into positions and in some (like Ardha-Vajrasana) I could relax more then anytime before. I could almost touch my knees with my forhead during Padahastasana, my conscious in pelvis joint is better then anytime before.
Mentioning Ardha-Vajrasana, today I could very precisely feel, that my fears from last days are coming from this energy level. Only thing I could say is that I will maybe add more Manipura asanas to harmonize this cetrum. Those fears in last days are mine and Im trying to explore them and be freiendly with them, but right now they take a lot of energy from me.
Anyway - awesome exercise, I felt it great :)
sobota 8. června 2013
8.6.2013 - 78,6kg " - " still going down, but its still fine, at leat I know, that eating bread with something have no sence, it just dwell in body and then go out without bringing useful stuff in. Good lesson.
I slept very good and nice and well and dont remember any dreams, but I was so lazy in the morning. After 2 weeks is today nice weather and this sun behind window and easy breaze in the air... well, I stood in bed longer then usualy and as morning exercise I did only 10 minutes of Sun Salutations in dynamic way.
I feelso lazy right now, but I somehow feel that I wont catch up today, want to go out and drum a bit in park or something :)
I) I had quite full afternoon tho, first I did fair yoga, full setup and then client. Both yoga and client were great.
Another day to be grateful for. Life is just great :)
I slept very good and nice and well and dont remember any dreams, but I was so lazy in the morning. After 2 weeks is today nice weather and this sun behind window and easy breaze in the air... well, I stood in bed longer then usualy and as morning exercise I did only 10 minutes of Sun Salutations in dynamic way.
I feelso lazy right now, but I somehow feel that I wont catch up today, want to go out and drum a bit in park or something :)
I) I had quite full afternoon tho, first I did fair yoga, full setup and then client. Both yoga and client were great.
Another day to be grateful for. Life is just great :)
pátek 7. června 2013
7.6.2013 - 79,1kg " - " going down again, lets see. 2nd day without sweets btw. Smoking is nothing in comparison to quit...
I slept again very hard and well and dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercis.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up (10x SS + Shadowboxing), today it went good, felt fine. Followed by 10 minutes of ABS training, consisted mainly from Barstarz workout, I felt it today very effective, I think I just need to randomly combine different workouts to not let my ABS to get used for certain workout. I felt it rich today.
Next I did 5 minutes of burpees, today I made 33 of them ,which I felt good, wnat to keep working on them. After that I did 5 minutes leg exercises, 20x normal squats, 20x tight squats and 20x wide squats and then 26 Jump Lunges, it felt great :)
Last I did couple of minutes hand stand pre-exercise, felt again better today, my body is getting used for it, I feel soon enugh I could start really stay on hands :) For the rest of time, about 15 minutes I was dancing. Today I was working mainly on relaxing myself into flow and music and dance, Im very stiff in this fear process from yesterday. But I could enjoy it enough :)
II) Later afternoon I did mini joga, consisted from Sun Salutations, yoga warm up, 10 minutes of Uduanabandha and 3 minutes of hand stand practice, 3 minutes of Shiarshasana and 3 minutes shoulder strength exercises. It was rich anyway :)
Rest of the day was also very rich, but more on emotional and energetic level, I was processing lot of fears and self-confidence feelings. Anyway, another wonderful and rich day, Im on the way to be most rich person on the planet earth like this :)
I slept again very hard and well and dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercis.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up (10x SS + Shadowboxing), today it went good, felt fine. Followed by 10 minutes of ABS training, consisted mainly from Barstarz workout, I felt it today very effective, I think I just need to randomly combine different workouts to not let my ABS to get used for certain workout. I felt it rich today.
Next I did 5 minutes of burpees, today I made 33 of them ,which I felt good, wnat to keep working on them. After that I did 5 minutes leg exercises, 20x normal squats, 20x tight squats and 20x wide squats and then 26 Jump Lunges, it felt great :)
Last I did couple of minutes hand stand pre-exercise, felt again better today, my body is getting used for it, I feel soon enugh I could start really stay on hands :) For the rest of time, about 15 minutes I was dancing. Today I was working mainly on relaxing myself into flow and music and dance, Im very stiff in this fear process from yesterday. But I could enjoy it enough :)
II) Later afternoon I did mini joga, consisted from Sun Salutations, yoga warm up, 10 minutes of Uduanabandha and 3 minutes of hand stand practice, 3 minutes of Shiarshasana and 3 minutes shoulder strength exercises. It was rich anyway :)
Rest of the day was also very rich, but more on emotional and energetic level, I was processing lot of fears and self-confidence feelings. Anyway, another wonderful and rich day, Im on the way to be most rich person on the planet earth like this :)
čtvrtek 6. června 2013
6.6.2013 - 79,6kg " ++ " Seems I overreacted a bit on weight loss from yesterday....
I slept very deep tonight, dont remember any dreams again. And in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today carefully, because my body hurted a lot. Doing 10 minutes Sun Salutations, first with increasing holds in positions to stretch a bit and after some time switching into more dynamic way. Good start of the day as always.
Continuing with ABS exercises. First I did 4 rounds of TM core WO, I focused a bit differently today, in 1arm/1 leg today I focused on my core and its fixing to help keep more stable position. It was interesting new feeling. I lately feel like I need to also work with my core in exercises, not only make it stronger and hope for the best that it works as intended. It probably is working as intended, but conscious usage of my core seems the way to progress in exercises as is hand stand, shoulder stand (shirshasana) and others. For the rest of time I did what I felt like, I could not move at the end of time limit, uff.
Next 5 minutes I was doing Burpees, it felt a bit crazy at start to do them in condition I¨m this morning, but I felt... so what, if I do just 10 of them, I do 10 of them, still 10 more then nothing. In the end I did 22 or something, focusing a lot on me not giving up and keep my energy for myself instead of just leting it run out of me.
Last about 18 minutes I was dancing, enjoying movement, non-structural non-planed flow of music and of dance. It was great.
II) Later I had a client, what was interesting on this client was, that he booked just hour before he come and second that his topic was fear. very strong fear from new stuff. I could not help to look on it from my personal perspective, because Im in my life in very similar situation.
III) Afternoon I did fair yoga. It was crazy powerful, I got into such a strong fears, that I felt something like that last time as a child. Its good I could this time breath into it and not run from it or just escape into panic and surviving mode. Its not easy to live with that fear and explore it on the go. Else my mind was full of stuff during the yoga, Im thinking to do some extra Vipasana to easy my mind a bit.
IV) In the evening I went to tantra course. It was very nice today again, we had very interesting theory about intuition and 5th chakra and watching part of very strong movie full of symbols and amazing pictures.
Another amazing day, I was totally exhausted in the evening, but definitely very rich and beautiful day :)
I slept very deep tonight, dont remember any dreams again. And in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today carefully, because my body hurted a lot. Doing 10 minutes Sun Salutations, first with increasing holds in positions to stretch a bit and after some time switching into more dynamic way. Good start of the day as always.
Continuing with ABS exercises. First I did 4 rounds of TM core WO, I focused a bit differently today, in 1arm/1 leg today I focused on my core and its fixing to help keep more stable position. It was interesting new feeling. I lately feel like I need to also work with my core in exercises, not only make it stronger and hope for the best that it works as intended. It probably is working as intended, but conscious usage of my core seems the way to progress in exercises as is hand stand, shoulder stand (shirshasana) and others. For the rest of time I did what I felt like, I could not move at the end of time limit, uff.
Next 5 minutes I was doing Burpees, it felt a bit crazy at start to do them in condition I¨m this morning, but I felt... so what, if I do just 10 of them, I do 10 of them, still 10 more then nothing. In the end I did 22 or something, focusing a lot on me not giving up and keep my energy for myself instead of just leting it run out of me.
Last about 18 minutes I was dancing, enjoying movement, non-structural non-planed flow of music and of dance. It was great.
II) Later I had a client, what was interesting on this client was, that he booked just hour before he come and second that his topic was fear. very strong fear from new stuff. I could not help to look on it from my personal perspective, because Im in my life in very similar situation.
III) Afternoon I did fair yoga. It was crazy powerful, I got into such a strong fears, that I felt something like that last time as a child. Its good I could this time breath into it and not run from it or just escape into panic and surviving mode. Its not easy to live with that fear and explore it on the go. Else my mind was full of stuff during the yoga, Im thinking to do some extra Vipasana to easy my mind a bit.
IV) In the evening I went to tantra course. It was very nice today again, we had very interesting theory about intuition and 5th chakra and watching part of very strong movie full of symbols and amazing pictures.
Another amazing day, I was totally exhausted in the evening, but definitely very rich and beautiful day :)
středa 5. června 2013
5.6.2013 - 78,2kg " - " going down again, wont keep my weight up with sweets, need to eat more protein, but they are so expensive (eggs, tofu, even beans and lentils are expensive for amount I have to eat). Have to somehow focus on bringing more money into my life or I wont keep up my project because of not-sufficient nutrition. OR - learn to gain more from prana.... :P
I slept very deep and well tonight, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today again with classical 5 minute warm up (10x SS, Shadowboxing). Today I did more fight shadowboxing and it felt great, I start to really love how is my body able to follow what I want to do.
Then I did pyramid from 14, today I did last squat at 10 minute alarm, since 10 rep part I had problems in pushup part, 9 and 8 I had to help myself, but since 7 I could muster myself and continue slow, but fair. I felt like yesterday I did something what stimulated my muscles real good, that they are still numb today. Pitty I cant see what it was. But I was happy to finish this pyramid fully.
Then I was giving some love to my ABS for 5 minutes, tried some new things to stimulate better, it felt very rich and good = I felt my ABS have potential to grow.
Last about 22 minutes I was dancing, today enjoying it a LOT, even could be in creative, free, relaxed energy again, it was great.
II) Afternoon I did mini yoga, doing warm up exercises and 10 minutes of Udianabandha, I feel its very important for me to do it. I also did some handstand preparing exercises.
III) In the evening I went to tantra course, we had special class today with man and woman together working on 4th chakra Anahata. It was very nice course, we focused realy on ths nice connective aspect of 4th chakra and it was very gentle and subtle but non the less intensive. I had very open heart afterwards and it was very beautiful and I still feel it.
Another full and great day, I was also working on thins around my workshop. Im starting to have a feeling, that propagation is more then workshop itself... :)
I slept very deep and well tonight, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today again with classical 5 minute warm up (10x SS, Shadowboxing). Today I did more fight shadowboxing and it felt great, I start to really love how is my body able to follow what I want to do.
Then I did pyramid from 14, today I did last squat at 10 minute alarm, since 10 rep part I had problems in pushup part, 9 and 8 I had to help myself, but since 7 I could muster myself and continue slow, but fair. I felt like yesterday I did something what stimulated my muscles real good, that they are still numb today. Pitty I cant see what it was. But I was happy to finish this pyramid fully.
Then I was giving some love to my ABS for 5 minutes, tried some new things to stimulate better, it felt very rich and good = I felt my ABS have potential to grow.
Last about 22 minutes I was dancing, today enjoying it a LOT, even could be in creative, free, relaxed energy again, it was great.
II) Afternoon I did mini yoga, doing warm up exercises and 10 minutes of Udianabandha, I feel its very important for me to do it. I also did some handstand preparing exercises.
III) In the evening I went to tantra course, we had special class today with man and woman together working on 4th chakra Anahata. It was very nice course, we focused realy on ths nice connective aspect of 4th chakra and it was very gentle and subtle but non the less intensive. I had very open heart afterwards and it was very beautiful and I still feel it.
Another full and great day, I was also working on thins around my workshop. Im starting to have a feeling, that propagation is more then workshop itself... :)
úterý 4. června 2013
4.6.2013 - 79kg ( "=-" ) Yeah, my body is definitely going through something, with this burning. Transformation or something.
Else I slept very well tonight, dont remember any dreams again. In the morning after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Today starting with 5 minutes of warm up, classically 10x SS, but it took me so much time, that Shadowboxing was only basic stuff. I continued with 10 minutes of belly muscle care, today I tried gymnastic ball after some time, it was great! Very hard, I felt it as next level, even that Im not able to exercise like this how hard it was, that brought new blood into my veins, want to check internet for more exercises on gymnastic ball.
3rd part I was doing 5 minutes wall crawling as handstand practice. Its interesting this exercise, its fight with my fears in every second, its challenge to feel my fears (from falling, crushing my head, not being able to control if my limbs fail to hold) and still relax in order to move legs higher and climb higher with more weight on my arms and shoulders. Its amazing experience. Yeah, it is adrenaline in some way, not so obvious like when climbing, but if you are as me afraid of loosing control and afraid of heights and falls (I was very fat as a child and teenager so fall was always very painful), its intensive enough. Remains to say that I could climb again higher then before and I feel more sure too. Im exited about this progress.
Last about 20-22 minutes I was dancing, playing with relaxing and enjoying and I sure did enjoyed it today :)
II) Later in the morning I did yoga, I enhanced my setup again by adding 3 more asanas into setup. Added Half Wheel Pose for 5th chakra and again Virasana for 1st chakra.
It was one of strongest exercises of yoga for me today. Since warm up exercises. In many asanas I could get further then anytime before or could stay in pose longer then anytime before (Bhujangasana, Shalabhasana, Supta-Vajrasana , Virasana and maybe I forgot some). At right version of ardha-maziandrasana I had sensation, that I had to make sound else I would probably explode or something.
After exercising I was shaking like crazy, but not in bad way, even it was a bit frightening. Even after coking lunch I kept shaking. It was very powerful.
III) Afternoon I had a client and it was it for a day.
Very full and rich day again, it seems I dont have other days anymore, life is simply beautiful. Love to you all <3
Else I slept very well tonight, dont remember any dreams again. In the morning after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
I) Today starting with 5 minutes of warm up, classically 10x SS, but it took me so much time, that Shadowboxing was only basic stuff. I continued with 10 minutes of belly muscle care, today I tried gymnastic ball after some time, it was great! Very hard, I felt it as next level, even that Im not able to exercise like this how hard it was, that brought new blood into my veins, want to check internet for more exercises on gymnastic ball.
3rd part I was doing 5 minutes wall crawling as handstand practice. Its interesting this exercise, its fight with my fears in every second, its challenge to feel my fears (from falling, crushing my head, not being able to control if my limbs fail to hold) and still relax in order to move legs higher and climb higher with more weight on my arms and shoulders. Its amazing experience. Yeah, it is adrenaline in some way, not so obvious like when climbing, but if you are as me afraid of loosing control and afraid of heights and falls (I was very fat as a child and teenager so fall was always very painful), its intensive enough. Remains to say that I could climb again higher then before and I feel more sure too. Im exited about this progress.
Last about 20-22 minutes I was dancing, playing with relaxing and enjoying and I sure did enjoyed it today :)
II) Later in the morning I did yoga, I enhanced my setup again by adding 3 more asanas into setup. Added Half Wheel Pose for 5th chakra and again Virasana for 1st chakra.
It was one of strongest exercises of yoga for me today. Since warm up exercises. In many asanas I could get further then anytime before or could stay in pose longer then anytime before (Bhujangasana, Shalabhasana, Supta-Vajrasana , Virasana and maybe I forgot some). At right version of ardha-maziandrasana I had sensation, that I had to make sound else I would probably explode or something.
After exercising I was shaking like crazy, but not in bad way, even it was a bit frightening. Even after coking lunch I kept shaking. It was very powerful.
III) Afternoon I had a client and it was it for a day.
Very full and rich day again, it seems I dont have other days anymore, life is simply beautiful. Love to you all <3
3.6.2013 - 79,2kg " = " It must be lot happening in me that I burn all that sweets Im eating in last days without exercising so much.
I slept very hard tonight, dont remember any dreams and in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, for today I chose dynamic, precise way, I did not felt like doing holdings, wanted to heat me up. I felt it great also as preparation for next block which was Kata1. Today I felt Im back on track again, without major problems I could do 10 reps on each side and then with some serious problems, but fully 2 reps in each side with 5 second holds in difficult positions :) It felt good because its almost month since I could do in the manner as today.
3rd block I did ABS exercises, 5 rounds of TM core WO, I was drinking my swept on this, but I have to make up my core somehow, I want to find system to progress with my core, its whats holding me back atm.
Last 10 minutes I was dancing, today it went great, enjoyed it :)
Rest of the day I again spend with my beloved and traveling. In the evening I was crazy tired again. But it was yet another WONDERFUL day today, full of love, joy, people who bring light into my life <3
I slept very hard tonight, dont remember any dreams and in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, for today I chose dynamic, precise way, I did not felt like doing holdings, wanted to heat me up. I felt it great also as preparation for next block which was Kata1. Today I felt Im back on track again, without major problems I could do 10 reps on each side and then with some serious problems, but fully 2 reps in each side with 5 second holds in difficult positions :) It felt good because its almost month since I could do in the manner as today.
3rd block I did ABS exercises, 5 rounds of TM core WO, I was drinking my swept on this, but I have to make up my core somehow, I want to find system to progress with my core, its whats holding me back atm.
Last 10 minutes I was dancing, today it went great, enjoyed it :)
Rest of the day I again spend with my beloved and traveling. In the evening I was crazy tired again. But it was yet another WONDERFUL day today, full of love, joy, people who bring light into my life <3
sobota 1. června 2013
2.6.2013 - 79,2kg " -= " nice surprise, I though I will have more then yesterday.
I slept very well tonight and had nice dream. I was on some workshop or event, but I wasnt participant, I was caretaker or something like that and I was massaging people and I had lots of nice meetings with people there and it felt all cozy. In the end I was with a woman and I started making love with her and once it started, alarm ringed and I woke up so I dont know how it was... pity. So... straight for morning exercise!
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed. It went good today, in first 10 minutes alarm ringed on 49th rep and in next 5 minutes I did 20 more reps so 69 total. Its good, want to be faster, but its not so easy to recuperate fully from overtrained arm.
Next 10 minutes I was exercising ABS, mostly Barstarz set, but also other things, I felt like my ABS is getting too used on Barstarz set and even I feel it rich, it feels more like excuse then progress, its not easy to describe, I feel like it pains and work, but in this pain I feel something like "it pains to have excuse that I did something, but in fact this pain is not pain of progress but pain of excuse". Have to enhance my set to stimulate my ABS.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, it felt good and nice today, enjoyed it.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved. Exercising more my emotional system then body, but I was also walking much more then Im used to and we was traveling a lot. It was very rich, long, demanding, challenging and exhausting day, I went sleep before 22. Another day to be grateful for.
I slept very well tonight and had nice dream. I was on some workshop or event, but I wasnt participant, I was caretaker or something like that and I was massaging people and I had lots of nice meetings with people there and it felt all cozy. In the end I was with a woman and I started making love with her and once it started, alarm ringed and I woke up so I dont know how it was... pity. So... straight for morning exercise!
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed. It went good today, in first 10 minutes alarm ringed on 49th rep and in next 5 minutes I did 20 more reps so 69 total. Its good, want to be faster, but its not so easy to recuperate fully from overtrained arm.
Next 10 minutes I was exercising ABS, mostly Barstarz set, but also other things, I felt like my ABS is getting too used on Barstarz set and even I feel it rich, it feels more like excuse then progress, its not easy to describe, I feel like it pains and work, but in this pain I feel something like "it pains to have excuse that I did something, but in fact this pain is not pain of progress but pain of excuse". Have to enhance my set to stimulate my ABS.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, it felt good and nice today, enjoyed it.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved. Exercising more my emotional system then body, but I was also walking much more then Im used to and we was traveling a lot. It was very rich, long, demanding, challenging and exhausting day, I went sleep before 22. Another day to be grateful for.
1.6.2013 - 79,5kg " + " Its better then I though after that sweet feast yesterday, seems my body was burning like crazy yesterday in this recuperation mode.
I slept well and had very interesting dream tonight. I was watching map of the world with somebody and when we get to Antarctica we started to talk, that there is nothing there and in this way we chat a while and my companion started saying, that its not right, that there is something and then world zoomed into map. All the sudden I saw huge view of under the see, under the iceberg. Iceberg was "roof" and I saw view like 100x100x100 meters of see filled with light coming through iceberg and there was a submarine there and I zoomed into this submarine. Then there was happening something in submarine and I felt it after waking up important, but I forgot it already. I have to not rely with sharing dream with somebody in order to remember it, I have to note it down, here on elsewhere. I feel it as good lesson, because I feel pity I did not noted it, I remember just feeling from events after entering submarine and those are exitement, adrenaline and exploration.
I wasnt doing any exercises today, it was about to take a day off from exercises after almost 2 weeks. I spend whole day with my beloved and it was great day, I needed it a lot. Looking forward to start exercising again :)
I slept well and had very interesting dream tonight. I was watching map of the world with somebody and when we get to Antarctica we started to talk, that there is nothing there and in this way we chat a while and my companion started saying, that its not right, that there is something and then world zoomed into map. All the sudden I saw huge view of under the see, under the iceberg. Iceberg was "roof" and I saw view like 100x100x100 meters of see filled with light coming through iceberg and there was a submarine there and I zoomed into this submarine. Then there was happening something in submarine and I felt it after waking up important, but I forgot it already. I have to not rely with sharing dream with somebody in order to remember it, I have to note it down, here on elsewhere. I feel it as good lesson, because I feel pity I did not noted it, I remember just feeling from events after entering submarine and those are exitement, adrenaline and exploration.
I wasnt doing any exercises today, it was about to take a day off from exercises after almost 2 weeks. I spend whole day with my beloved and it was great day, I needed it a lot. Looking forward to start exercising again :)
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