79,4kg " = " no comment
Tonight I slept very well and good and I even had a dreams. Erotic dreams actually, but not "wet" dreams. I have sometimes dreams which have erotic atmosphere, but are not really about exitement and sexuality, I feel them more like telling me something, bringing some message, but Im not sure which message. What I think if I look really deep, its telling me, that best is to keep in mind 1 woman. Its possible that its message it wants to bring to me, but I, unable to do it right now. However, its interesting to think and feel this. Anyhow - in the morning up for morning exercises!
I) Starting today with fast Sun Salutations, wanted to make at least 20 in 5 minutes, but did only 18 when alarm rung, interesting. Its interesting how mind setup effect speed and all. But it was great warm up, truth to be said! I had this idea for first time and I think I will keep it for some setups.
After that I did ABS and core exercises for 10 minutes, first 4 rounds of TM core WO, which went good and I felt my core very, very rich. Then I did mix of exercises which I could do and which I felt good to do. I gave lots of love to my ABS today, felt good.
Then 5 minutes of Shadowboxing, first fight and then strike and kick practices, Im very rusty. I feel these exercises so good for me, definitely want to do them more often. It improves my lung capacity, fast power and shows where I need to focus in my exercises. Great combination.
Next block was dedicated to burpees for 5 minutes, I though like - "ok, if I do 1 its fine".. well, in the end alarm rung on 38th rep, which was great :) And I feel that my body adapted to this kind of movement into degree when I can go on even my body feels already exhausted, its nice.
Last block which lasted for about 20 minutes I was dancing. Today I enjoyed dancing as a kid enjoys a play, it was great, especially when I consciously escaped my dancing patterns and played with rhytm and moves, very nice, beautiful :)
For the rest of day I did no other exercises then occasionally pullups and such. But I did a lot of preparation work for workshop and went shopping and replenishing supplies. I also met my family members in a city, which was quite nice. Yeah, good day today.
I have to share one event today. I was in a bus going to my destination and inside was a guy with huge christian cross made of metal and small wooden one. Guy selling this social-people magazine, but rather healthy and good looking one. And in the bus was old lady which spotted this guy. I must confess that my thoughts were "oh gosh, crazy christian fanatic", just judgement like that. Well, this old lady went to the guy to look on that cross and he let her. Then they started to speak, because old lady asked him about his believes and that cross and jadajada. It come out, that guy is ex-junkie who was addicted on lots of heavy drugs and when he was about to die he somehow got to some christian sect (there is so much of them) and he experienced something like breakthrough, understanding, that he simply has to choose to change or die. He choose to live and change and since then hes 9 years clear. I felt a bit ashamed by my fast judgement, because it dosnt matter what religion or believes people have. All believes in core are the same and have same source - universal power which runs this universe. And its even possible that this guy experienced deeper spiritual transformation then I ever did... it was very strong for me.
Well, I feel it as very good lesson for me. I felt that its about time for me to stop judging so hard people for having different paths. And I even thought Im not doing it. Im grateful to see how it is in me and how I feel about it. I felt great compassion to this guy and this lady, they showed me very important things and they taught me a lot in those just a few minutes they crossed my life.
Ways in life are truly fascinating :)
pátek 30. srpna 2013
čtvrtek 29. srpna 2013
29.8.2013 - Shiatsu day
79,5kg " + " aww, even I had no sweets yesterday, I eat so much or something I dont know.
Tonight I slept very well and I had dreams and I remembered them in the morning but I forgot to put diary to bed again! But new thing was, that I felt pissed of about it, thats a good sign to remember to put diary to bed next time :P In the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, I did mix of Camp-style and "normal" ones, those form camp are very difficult, Im not sure what exactly is the problem. I dont feel its in strength or endurance or anything, maybe its more combination of all which makes it so challenging. But what I realized was, that "normal" SS feels much easier then before camp now :D
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1, I made 11 reps on each side and it was limit what I could really, Im more cautious about safety of positions and I changed a bit more careful about positions to not harm myself. I still feel there will be some changes till I will feel that this set is finished. But its getting better, I feel it very strong.
3rd 10minutes block I was doing ABS and core exercises, mainly Barstarz ones, I was in pain a lot and I could not make everything, because I needed rest often. In this set its felt how the break weakened my endurance. Im grateful I can see how important is to keep going n matter where I am.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing. Could not much get on creative way, but enjoyed it a lot even in patterned way :) I felt like "Wth, I will just be silly and stupid and not hitting rhytm all the time and will have just fun." And so I did. I wont do it often, because I honor change over routine, but from time to time its fine for me.
II) rest of the day I was doing Shiatsu. Delivering gifts of this technique to my clients. All treatments today were quite difficult and complex and no mundane topics. It was quite demanding, but I felt also very fulfilling.
I have in these days lots of communication to do with either clients or friends or workshop participants. Never had so much communication in my life.
Yeah, good day today, I did what I love most to do, Im grateful I can do my job. How about you guys?
Tonight I slept very well and I had dreams and I remembered them in the morning but I forgot to put diary to bed again! But new thing was, that I felt pissed of about it, thats a good sign to remember to put diary to bed next time :P In the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, I did mix of Camp-style and "normal" ones, those form camp are very difficult, Im not sure what exactly is the problem. I dont feel its in strength or endurance or anything, maybe its more combination of all which makes it so challenging. But what I realized was, that "normal" SS feels much easier then before camp now :D
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1, I made 11 reps on each side and it was limit what I could really, Im more cautious about safety of positions and I changed a bit more careful about positions to not harm myself. I still feel there will be some changes till I will feel that this set is finished. But its getting better, I feel it very strong.
3rd 10minutes block I was doing ABS and core exercises, mainly Barstarz ones, I was in pain a lot and I could not make everything, because I needed rest often. In this set its felt how the break weakened my endurance. Im grateful I can see how important is to keep going n matter where I am.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing. Could not much get on creative way, but enjoyed it a lot even in patterned way :) I felt like "Wth, I will just be silly and stupid and not hitting rhytm all the time and will have just fun." And so I did. I wont do it often, because I honor change over routine, but from time to time its fine for me.
II) rest of the day I was doing Shiatsu. Delivering gifts of this technique to my clients. All treatments today were quite difficult and complex and no mundane topics. It was quite demanding, but I felt also very fulfilling.
I have in these days lots of communication to do with either clients or friends or workshop participants. Never had so much communication in my life.
Yeah, good day today, I did what I love most to do, Im grateful I can do my job. How about you guys?
středa 28. srpna 2013
28.8.2013 - full day of Dowhatyouwant
79,2kg " + " I need to work more on my diet, I think I eat too less for lunch, Im always so hungry in the evening, its crazy.
Tonight I slept well and deep and had a dream! But I forgot to put diary and pen to my bed! Aww, now I dont remember what it was about, even I tried so hard when I woke up. I know it was something sexual or relationship-wise, I did not felt it so interesting, but I keep working on my dreaming, I believe I can discipline my mind enough for this. Anyhow - in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first 5 faster, then 1 in new, more precise (and more challenging) way with 20 seconds holds in positions and in the rest of time I did 1 rep on each side of Sun Salutation version which I learned on Circle way Camp - its almost same, just some positions are extra, some positions are different and its more precise. I think I will combine both versions to bring a bit of new wind.
Next 10 minutes I was working on my ABS and core, 30 situps (10xCenter, 10xRight, 10xLeft), 1 minute of yoga v-sit, 30 situps, 90s of v-sit, 30 situps, lots of moaning and breathing and couple of seconds in last v-sit. Man, its so good way to do this, its almost impossible to harm belly muscles so Im courageous enough to go into lots of pain and struggle while doing this. Its so fascinating to work with my back being on the floor and with all muscles in this pain and breath into all this and try to relax whole area, fascinating really.
Then I was doing Berupees for 5 minutes. When I started I though I will do like 20 of them, but in the end alarm rung on 32th rep, not so bad after so many days of slacking!
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, trying to get into flow, to move my pelvis and all not-so-relaxed parts. I felt it great and enjoyed dancing very much.
II) Later I did yoga, for about 1 hour. I was proud, because I felt lot of fear from doing so, but I made it anyway, I decided to relax and go straight through it with eyes open and it worked out. I could relax quite good and at supta-vajrasana I could surrender into fear and pain and make it for whole duration. I could even do Vajrasana for full duration, which is great, because its stil lso strong asana that its hard to stay motionless when so much is happening inside. I was happy I did yoga today, it was great.
III) Afternoon I had couple of clients, I was happy to work again in this intensity. Especially with 1 new client again. Its so great to meet new people and work with them, it brings so much to me and I hope I bring as much to them, but Im not the one who can say that I bring as much to them, just my wish.
Full, long, intensive day, I feel I learned a lot and I was totally exhausted in the evening. Ohm mani padme hum.
Tonight I slept well and deep and had a dream! But I forgot to put diary and pen to my bed! Aww, now I dont remember what it was about, even I tried so hard when I woke up. I know it was something sexual or relationship-wise, I did not felt it so interesting, but I keep working on my dreaming, I believe I can discipline my mind enough for this. Anyhow - in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first 5 faster, then 1 in new, more precise (and more challenging) way with 20 seconds holds in positions and in the rest of time I did 1 rep on each side of Sun Salutation version which I learned on Circle way Camp - its almost same, just some positions are extra, some positions are different and its more precise. I think I will combine both versions to bring a bit of new wind.
Next 10 minutes I was working on my ABS and core, 30 situps (10xCenter, 10xRight, 10xLeft), 1 minute of yoga v-sit, 30 situps, 90s of v-sit, 30 situps, lots of moaning and breathing and couple of seconds in last v-sit. Man, its so good way to do this, its almost impossible to harm belly muscles so Im courageous enough to go into lots of pain and struggle while doing this. Its so fascinating to work with my back being on the floor and with all muscles in this pain and breath into all this and try to relax whole area, fascinating really.
Then I was doing Berupees for 5 minutes. When I started I though I will do like 20 of them, but in the end alarm rung on 32th rep, not so bad after so many days of slacking!
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, trying to get into flow, to move my pelvis and all not-so-relaxed parts. I felt it great and enjoyed dancing very much.
II) Later I did yoga, for about 1 hour. I was proud, because I felt lot of fear from doing so, but I made it anyway, I decided to relax and go straight through it with eyes open and it worked out. I could relax quite good and at supta-vajrasana I could surrender into fear and pain and make it for whole duration. I could even do Vajrasana for full duration, which is great, because its stil lso strong asana that its hard to stay motionless when so much is happening inside. I was happy I did yoga today, it was great.
III) Afternoon I had couple of clients, I was happy to work again in this intensity. Especially with 1 new client again. Its so great to meet new people and work with them, it brings so much to me and I hope I bring as much to them, but Im not the one who can say that I bring as much to them, just my wish.
Full, long, intensive day, I feel I learned a lot and I was totally exhausted in the evening. Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 27. srpna 2013
27.8.2013 - settling down and preparation for next steps in life
78,8kg " - " - I slept moderately tonight. I have mild feeling about having dreams, but dont remember anything. You may wonder
why Im writing this about my sleep and dreaming. Well, truth is, I write it for myself, I somehow hope that it helps me to
see better my dreams. In the morning I jumped into morning exercises.
I) Starting with 15 minutes of Sun Salutations. I did not tried fast pace after such a long time, instead I did 20 reps
then 2 with holds in positions for 10 seconds and in spare time a bit more reps. I implemented some upgrades from yoga at
Circle Way Camp to make it again a bit more challenging. And it is more challenging indeed :) I must say I was so surprised
how it went today, I felt stretched good and maybe even more mobile then before, it was very nice. I though maybe because I cleared in the camp. But its just a mind work.
After SS I did ABS and core practices, I did selected mix from all exercises I know. I tried to give care to all parts of belly area and it was so rich, that I had to stop about 30 seconds before limit, because I couldnt do anything anymore. It felt good.
Last part I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Having fun rediscovering old and playing with new and having joy in the way. I wasnt so relaxed into pure flow, but it was good.
II) Later in the morning I had new client, it felt so great to do my work. I felt so good to work yet again with new client. I think for client it must we been interesting experience, because I feel so charged after Kemp, that it has to have impact on clients no matter if I want or not. And my heart is so open in last days... I always loved doing Shiatsu, but since Kemp it feels like my love to Shiatsu strengthened even more.
For the rest of the day I did no other exercises, wanted to make yoga, but friend called, that her ex-husband hited her so hard that shes in hospital with concussion so I went to visit her for friendly visit. I felt it very important, I simply hate violence on woman made by man or oppressors in general. But at the same time I know that they are very unhappy, poor, unloved beings and no matter how much I would love to beat the fuck over and over again, at the same time I feel deep inside, that it wouldnt do ANY good and in general would be more harming then anything else. But this incident made me sure that my work is important, to rise consciousness of people. To rise compassion and feeling for ourselves and the others, to love ourselves, find how loving beings we are and that its not necessary to cry for love by being violent and oppressive. I wish for my work to get to point that I could do my workshops for free juts for voluntary entrance, I feel my work is more important then money. Of course not just mine work, there are so many people doing the same thing, theyr work is as important, but I have to talk and act for myself!
Else I did lot of "office work" on my webpage and lots of other small tasks. Hadnt even time to watch a movie!
Anyhow, good day today, despite of what happened to my friend, valuable day.
why Im writing this about my sleep and dreaming. Well, truth is, I write it for myself, I somehow hope that it helps me to
see better my dreams. In the morning I jumped into morning exercises.
I) Starting with 15 minutes of Sun Salutations. I did not tried fast pace after such a long time, instead I did 20 reps
then 2 with holds in positions for 10 seconds and in spare time a bit more reps. I implemented some upgrades from yoga at
Circle Way Camp to make it again a bit more challenging. And it is more challenging indeed :) I must say I was so surprised
how it went today, I felt stretched good and maybe even more mobile then before, it was very nice. I though maybe because I cleared in the camp. But its just a mind work.
After SS I did ABS and core practices, I did selected mix from all exercises I know. I tried to give care to all parts of belly area and it was so rich, that I had to stop about 30 seconds before limit, because I couldnt do anything anymore. It felt good.
Last part I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Having fun rediscovering old and playing with new and having joy in the way. I wasnt so relaxed into pure flow, but it was good.
II) Later in the morning I had new client, it felt so great to do my work. I felt so good to work yet again with new client. I think for client it must we been interesting experience, because I feel so charged after Kemp, that it has to have impact on clients no matter if I want or not. And my heart is so open in last days... I always loved doing Shiatsu, but since Kemp it feels like my love to Shiatsu strengthened even more.
For the rest of the day I did no other exercises, wanted to make yoga, but friend called, that her ex-husband hited her so hard that shes in hospital with concussion so I went to visit her for friendly visit. I felt it very important, I simply hate violence on woman made by man or oppressors in general. But at the same time I know that they are very unhappy, poor, unloved beings and no matter how much I would love to beat the fuck over and over again, at the same time I feel deep inside, that it wouldnt do ANY good and in general would be more harming then anything else. But this incident made me sure that my work is important, to rise consciousness of people. To rise compassion and feeling for ourselves and the others, to love ourselves, find how loving beings we are and that its not necessary to cry for love by being violent and oppressive. I wish for my work to get to point that I could do my workshops for free juts for voluntary entrance, I feel my work is more important then money. Of course not just mine work, there are so many people doing the same thing, theyr work is as important, but I have to talk and act for myself!
Else I did lot of "office work" on my webpage and lots of other small tasks. Hadnt even time to watch a movie!
Anyhow, good day today, despite of what happened to my friend, valuable day.
26.8.2013 - Communication day and arival home
79,2kg - I slept well tonight, finally on my lovely futon again. Alarm did not woke me up (nah, I just didnt set it...), but fortunately I wasnt too late for office. But I did not had time for morning exercises.
And frankly... I did not made any special session whole day. I had lot of work with mails and messages and also resting,
Im still feeling sick. But its getting better. I tried to find tempo to not slack too much and not work too much. But here and there I poked bar to make some pullups :)
In the evening I went for a massage, I felt it great, because I could experience what my clients experience while coming to me and I also needed massage really, and I still em actually. It was good energetical massage, I had amazing experience when I could feel both spleen meridians on my legs very precisely and very pleasantly too. It was great because I felt like - oh, cool, now I know precisely where spleen meridian is. When I give Shiatsu I feel where meridian is, but I dont see it so precisely like I could now, whole lenght on legs all the way to big toe, beatiful. After Circle way camp it was strong. Im curious what it will do further.
Great day today really, wonderful. I felt so open and at the same time not ungrounded after camp, very nice.
And frankly... I did not made any special session whole day. I had lot of work with mails and messages and also resting,
Im still feeling sick. But its getting better. I tried to find tempo to not slack too much and not work too much. But here and there I poked bar to make some pullups :)
In the evening I went for a massage, I felt it great, because I could experience what my clients experience while coming to me and I also needed massage really, and I still em actually. It was good energetical massage, I had amazing experience when I could feel both spleen meridians on my legs very precisely and very pleasantly too. It was great because I felt like - oh, cool, now I know precisely where spleen meridian is. When I give Shiatsu I feel where meridian is, but I dont see it so precisely like I could now, whole lenght on legs all the way to big toe, beatiful. After Circle way camp it was strong. Im curious what it will do further.
Great day today really, wonderful. I felt so open and at the same time not ungrounded after camp, very nice.
25.8.2013 - big goodbye and lots of travels
Tonight I slept poorly. Even we slept in the room, there was so much mosquitos, that it was hard to sleep :/
But morning was nice, we even did last clan meeting and said goodbyes to each other. Packed last stuff, stuffed all into car and hughug to all we wanted to say goodbye to. With couple of people it was so hearty goodbye, that I was really touched, surprised by depth of goodbye with people I was barely in contact in those 2 weeks, wonderful really.
Else I traveled long way home, and arrived at home short before midnight. Car, bus, train, foot.... somtimes can get traveling crazy.
But it was v.nice day in any case, my heart is v.open after today, its beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
But morning was nice, we even did last clan meeting and said goodbyes to each other. Packed last stuff, stuffed all into car and hughug to all we wanted to say goodbye to. With couple of people it was so hearty goodbye, that I was really touched, surprised by depth of goodbye with people I was barely in contact in those 2 weeks, wonderful really.
Else I traveled long way home, and arrived at home short before midnight. Car, bus, train, foot.... somtimes can get traveling crazy.
But it was v.nice day in any case, my heart is v.open after today, its beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
24.8.2013 - last day in the camp
Today no yoga - our teacher left yesterday because of fear from rain, but no rain come at all, sun returned.
Today was also last full day in the camp, I dont remember really what I did this day, but I remember trying to get Shiatsu, but giving 2 treatments instead. We had also nice times with my beloved.
Today was also day of packing, we packed our stuff and tents and moved them into car. In the evening goodbye party took place. I wasnt there much, because I wanted to make talking stick in the energy of a camp to imbue that piece of wood with this magnificent energy of this place in this time. I was on party just for short time, but it was great, lots of people dancing and I could not to stay away. In this group energy it was easy to jump into creative flow and I enjoyed it immensely. We even danced contact improvisation with my beloved and it was... hmmmm.... very nice :)
Today was also last full day in the camp, I dont remember really what I did this day, but I remember trying to get Shiatsu, but giving 2 treatments instead. We had also nice times with my beloved.
Today was also day of packing, we packed our stuff and tents and moved them into car. In the evening goodbye party took place. I wasnt there much, because I wanted to make talking stick in the energy of a camp to imbue that piece of wood with this magnificent energy of this place in this time. I was on party just for short time, but it was great, lots of people dancing and I could not to stay away. In this group energy it was easy to jump into creative flow and I enjoyed it immensely. We even danced contact improvisation with my beloved and it was... hmmmm.... very nice :)
23.8.2013 - day to appreciate
In the morning I went for yoga again. It was great again. Just body hurted a lot so it was more about presence then pleasure - which is not bad at all!
After breakfast we did clan meeting as every morning, but today we started with appreciation circles. We could not appreciate 2 of us, but I hope we manage till the end of the camp.
Else I treated with Shiatsu one woman from our clan and helped a bit in a kitchen. Now Im writing diary and waiting for a lunch :)
In the rest of the day I gave 2 more shiatsu short-treatments and had nice talks with people, I had no energy for workshops, but I dont feel I just slacked around, it was v.nice day really.
In the evening we spend some time in the clan and finished appreciation circles, it was nice.
After breakfast we did clan meeting as every morning, but today we started with appreciation circles. We could not appreciate 2 of us, but I hope we manage till the end of the camp.
Else I treated with Shiatsu one woman from our clan and helped a bit in a kitchen. Now Im writing diary and waiting for a lunch :)
In the rest of the day I gave 2 more shiatsu short-treatments and had nice talks with people, I had no energy for workshops, but I dont feel I just slacked around, it was v.nice day really.
In the evening we spend some time in the clan and finished appreciation circles, it was nice.
17-22.8. swiming and climbing and diving in the camp
I dont remember anymore correctly what was happening. I could not manage myself into morning exercises. 2 days was raining and was very chilli weather in the morning. 2 days I did no exercises, just program in the camp.I did not even regularly frequented sessions with MT and Elika, but in general I did a lot. Clan duties, help here and there with this and that. I did short treatments to few people, which was really fine.
At 19 MT and Elika left the camp in the evening. They led very nice last session. They are both very much golden people. Especially Elika impressed me very much. Gigantic shining heart she is. But not completely in Love and Light style, shes very nice.
I had interesting contact with one of participants in the camp. Almost deaf, but beautiful, strong woman. It is a big lesson for me, because its very difficult to understand each other and she dont understand English much, shes reading lips mostly. I got few very intense lessons in listening with heart thanks to this woman, Im very grateful for it.
Since 22 is Yoga taking place in the morning, which got me out of latergy exercise-wise. I also started to do more pullups wherever it was possible.
I did also short workshop about looking into eyes of other people. It was very strong. With one participant I had experience, where my kundalini shakti power started up. Normally I would close my eyes and relax into myself, but while Im looking into eyes of sb else I cant close my eyes. So I had great opportunity to try and relax while looking into sb elses eyes and at the same time experience something as powerful as is activated kundaliny shakti. Amazing experience.
I also felt like with every person I was looking into eyes with my heart is opening more and more and its easier and more pleasant to stay in contact.
In the evening of 22 I went to sleep v.early, I was totally exhausted. One couple did interesting theatre workshop which I however more observed then participated in, my whole being was hurting :)
At 19 MT and Elika left the camp in the evening. They led very nice last session. They are both very much golden people. Especially Elika impressed me very much. Gigantic shining heart she is. But not completely in Love and Light style, shes very nice.
I had interesting contact with one of participants in the camp. Almost deaf, but beautiful, strong woman. It is a big lesson for me, because its very difficult to understand each other and she dont understand English much, shes reading lips mostly. I got few very intense lessons in listening with heart thanks to this woman, Im very grateful for it.
Since 22 is Yoga taking place in the morning, which got me out of latergy exercise-wise. I also started to do more pullups wherever it was possible.
I did also short workshop about looking into eyes of other people. It was very strong. With one participant I had experience, where my kundalini shakti power started up. Normally I would close my eyes and relax into myself, but while Im looking into eyes of sb else I cant close my eyes. So I had great opportunity to try and relax while looking into sb elses eyes and at the same time experience something as powerful as is activated kundaliny shakti. Amazing experience.
I also felt like with every person I was looking into eyes with my heart is opening more and more and its easier and more pleasant to stay in contact.
In the evening of 22 I went to sleep v.early, I was totally exhausted. One couple did interesting theatre workshop which I however more observed then participated in, my whole being was hurting :)
17.8.2013 - day, when I dived in
In the morning I went to exercise sooner. First I was jogging a bit, then mix of Shadowboxing, a bit from martial arts, ABS and in the end I was even dancing a bit, which was very nice :)
After morning clan meeting we went to cook as a clan and it was really great, even quite exhausting, I had lot of fun talking with people from our clan and to those amazing 2 beings who cooked and led us in preparation of stuff for cooking.
Afternoon I was instead of time of caring for kids (yes, another escape, very conscious this time, but still escape) resting and Im writing a diary now.
Today I dived in into Circle Way camp and got loose from writing a diary so next entry includes more days at once.
After morning clan meeting we went to cook as a clan and it was really great, even quite exhausting, I had lot of fun talking with people from our clan and to those amazing 2 beings who cooked and led us in preparation of stuff for cooking.
Afternoon I was instead of time of caring for kids (yes, another escape, very conscious this time, but still escape) resting and Im writing a diary now.
Today I dived in into Circle Way camp and got loose from writing a diary so next entry includes more days at once.
16.8.2013 - dish washing day in the camp
Today morning I went to exercise again. I wanted a bit more then I did in the end, but it was simply like this. In fact I did same as yesterday :)
During the day it was similar to yesterday with a difference of cleaning dishes with the clan after lunch, which was quite fun in fact.
Afternoon there was in program 1 hour, where we had to care for kids and talk about our childhood, but I could not attend that. I had strong resistance and I also simply felt I need a shower and rest more then this. In fact, I think I needed more this hour, but my resistance was too strong... Then we received teachings from MT. I was in a couple to demonstrate supportive listening in a couple dynamic. I got a lot of appreciation for that, but tbh, I felt it like no problem at all, it seems that those years of workshops have some impact on me after all :) (of course they have, my life changed to 1000% better then before, who Im kidding here :D ).
In the evening it was strange, we met to present more clan songs and tell stories, but in fact it was juts one big chaos, where nobody paid respect or really gave attention, not even to MT and Elika. Im not sure what happened that this babylon happened, but later on from talk it felt like people needed to discharge this entering to the camp and circle way and all emotions and frustrations and joys and need to talk and it manifested like this. Anyway, I was confused from that and went sleep quite early.
Cooking day today I would say.
During the day it was similar to yesterday with a difference of cleaning dishes with the clan after lunch, which was quite fun in fact.
Afternoon there was in program 1 hour, where we had to care for kids and talk about our childhood, but I could not attend that. I had strong resistance and I also simply felt I need a shower and rest more then this. In fact, I think I needed more this hour, but my resistance was too strong... Then we received teachings from MT. I was in a couple to demonstrate supportive listening in a couple dynamic. I got a lot of appreciation for that, but tbh, I felt it like no problem at all, it seems that those years of workshops have some impact on me after all :) (of course they have, my life changed to 1000% better then before, who Im kidding here :D ).
In the evening it was strange, we met to present more clan songs and tell stories, but in fact it was juts one big chaos, where nobody paid respect or really gave attention, not even to MT and Elika. Im not sure what happened that this babylon happened, but later on from talk it felt like people needed to discharge this entering to the camp and circle way and all emotions and frustrations and joys and need to talk and it manifested like this. Anyway, I was confused from that and went sleep quite early.
Cooking day today I would say.
pondělí 26. srpna 2013
15.8.2013 - first day in the camp
I woke up quite late today, at 7, I needed sleep... But I exercised in the morning, made 20x Sun Salutations and then 2 reps with 10secs holds in each position. Then about 10 minutes of ABS exercises.
Today was 1st day of workshop and 1st teachings from Manitonquat and Elika (MT's wonderful wife).
Task for the evening was to compose clan song and give name to the clan. This happened in quite fun and fresh way and then we sung this song in big circle where all the clans sung theyr clan songs and presented clan names.
Demanding first day.
In the evening there have been lot of drumming and dancing and fun :)
Today was 1st day of workshop and 1st teachings from Manitonquat and Elika (MT's wonderful wife).
Task for the evening was to compose clan song and give name to the clan. This happened in quite fun and fresh way and then we sung this song in big circle where all the clans sung theyr clan songs and presented clan names.
Demanding first day.
In the evening there have been lot of drumming and dancing and fun :)
úterý 13. srpna 2013
14.8.2013 - leaving
78,6kg " =+ " no comment
I slept good tonight, was quite fresh in the morning. I remember having dreams but could not recall anything in the morning.
I did not morning exercise today, I felt like Im going to die today (during the day) and I felt like all I do I do for last time in my life. If so, then be it, and I felt like, I rather spend time with my beloved in those last hours then do morning exercises. Dont ask me why I feel like that, I have no answer on that. So we did last preps for a camp and we leave in some minutes.
Wish you all great days and time and next input after a camp in 2 weeks.. or maybe never :O
Cheerio!
26.8. - rewriting from notes
Arrival to Circle way camp went without any major obstacles. Tents were build and stuff moved in. I even managed to do very short basic joga before main program started.
I was only english-only speaking person in the camp and it was fine for Manitonquat to create English speaking clan. Im in the camp with pleasant people, I feel it great.
I slept good tonight, was quite fresh in the morning. I remember having dreams but could not recall anything in the morning.
I did not morning exercise today, I felt like Im going to die today (during the day) and I felt like all I do I do for last time in my life. If so, then be it, and I felt like, I rather spend time with my beloved in those last hours then do morning exercises. Dont ask me why I feel like that, I have no answer on that. So we did last preps for a camp and we leave in some minutes.
Wish you all great days and time and next input after a camp in 2 weeks.. or maybe never :O
Cheerio!
26.8. - rewriting from notes
Arrival to Circle way camp went without any major obstacles. Tents were build and stuff moved in. I even managed to do very short basic joga before main program started.
I was only english-only speaking person in the camp and it was fine for Manitonquat to create English speaking clan. Im in the camp with pleasant people, I feel it great.
pondělí 12. srpna 2013
13.8.2013 - Love and preparations
78,6kg - " - " thats nice drop, been a while since I had under 79, seems that avoiding sweets may work, even its incredilby hard... I have moments with sweets floating in front of my eyes. But I must say I could see difference in a mirror as well.
Else I slept not so good today, but I had a dream and I remember it! I was going on a motorbike in the city and in one compliecated and huge junction I broke some rule and went dangerously on the very side of a road in oposite direction as other trafic. It was safe, there was no trafic and enough room on the side, but in one moment polie car went towards me and I though like "shit" but ok. Then I come to place I wanted, it was big park with parking places around and middle was lower then the parking places and there was policeman waiting for me. Interesting stuff was, that when I arived to park I hadnt motorbike anymore, but a car. Well, I parked my car and this policeman fined me for quite a lot. I was very broke in that dream (well, not so different as in RL :P ) and this fine totally ruined all my plans so I felt like world ended in that dream. And I wanted to go away again and walk to car, but I could not find it anywhere! It felt like sb stole the car as well! So another strike. And I know in that drem that it was borrowed car. Simply crazy stuff happening. I woke up before I found out if is car really stolen or not, but I think it was. I dont know if dream wanted to tell me that going against rules break me or something, thats feeling I have from it now, but who knows.
Anyhow, in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x Sun Salutations and in rest of time Shadowboxing. Boxing was good, just had no stamina for longer exercise, after 1 minute I was exhausted... but good warm up.
Next 10 minutes I was working on my ABS and core, mixed exercises, holds and dynamic exercises as it come, I tried to use differnt stuff from what I usually use. It was quite rich as usually, I focused on side muscles a bit more then other days, it felt good.
Then I did burpees for 5 minutes. I set a goal to make 40 reps and it worked out! I did 42 reps in total, even those last two were very hard. I felt like my will allowed me to do it, it was very difficult to keep going. I know its not anything near top sport achievement or something, I wrote about it on purely personal level. It as hard and I felt good I could do it. Next time I want to attempt 50 reps.
Next block I did biking on stationary bike for 10 minutes. First on 2nd level and last minute on 3rd level. I was sweaping like crazy. And it felt like ages those 10 minutes, but as always, alarm rung after couple of weeks (as it felt) :) Rich exercises, I would never guess how can be just 10 minutes on stationary bike rich.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, my body wasnt so fresh anymore but surprisingly it did not mattered so much, even when I could not move so much in the start, my being moved just fine and dancing flew good alright for whole time. It was nice experience - that its important how I feel it inside - and then outside follow :)
In the rest of day I did no other exercises. I spend day with preparations for upcoming camp and being with my beloved. I think I never felt so deep love for her as today, or not for a long time. Without any reason or anything. I just felt her so beautiful, attractive, gentle, HERE... wonderful. It was very beautiful day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept not so good today, but I had a dream and I remember it! I was going on a motorbike in the city and in one compliecated and huge junction I broke some rule and went dangerously on the very side of a road in oposite direction as other trafic. It was safe, there was no trafic and enough room on the side, but in one moment polie car went towards me and I though like "shit" but ok. Then I come to place I wanted, it was big park with parking places around and middle was lower then the parking places and there was policeman waiting for me. Interesting stuff was, that when I arived to park I hadnt motorbike anymore, but a car. Well, I parked my car and this policeman fined me for quite a lot. I was very broke in that dream (well, not so different as in RL :P ) and this fine totally ruined all my plans so I felt like world ended in that dream. And I wanted to go away again and walk to car, but I could not find it anywhere! It felt like sb stole the car as well! So another strike. And I know in that drem that it was borrowed car. Simply crazy stuff happening. I woke up before I found out if is car really stolen or not, but I think it was. I dont know if dream wanted to tell me that going against rules break me or something, thats feeling I have from it now, but who knows.
Anyhow, in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x Sun Salutations and in rest of time Shadowboxing. Boxing was good, just had no stamina for longer exercise, after 1 minute I was exhausted... but good warm up.
Next 10 minutes I was working on my ABS and core, mixed exercises, holds and dynamic exercises as it come, I tried to use differnt stuff from what I usually use. It was quite rich as usually, I focused on side muscles a bit more then other days, it felt good.
Then I did burpees for 5 minutes. I set a goal to make 40 reps and it worked out! I did 42 reps in total, even those last two were very hard. I felt like my will allowed me to do it, it was very difficult to keep going. I know its not anything near top sport achievement or something, I wrote about it on purely personal level. It as hard and I felt good I could do it. Next time I want to attempt 50 reps.
Next block I did biking on stationary bike for 10 minutes. First on 2nd level and last minute on 3rd level. I was sweaping like crazy. And it felt like ages those 10 minutes, but as always, alarm rung after couple of weeks (as it felt) :) Rich exercises, I would never guess how can be just 10 minutes on stationary bike rich.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, my body wasnt so fresh anymore but surprisingly it did not mattered so much, even when I could not move so much in the start, my being moved just fine and dancing flew good alright for whole time. It was nice experience - that its important how I feel it inside - and then outside follow :)
In the rest of day I did no other exercises. I spend day with preparations for upcoming camp and being with my beloved. I think I never felt so deep love for her as today, or not for a long time. Without any reason or anything. I just felt her so beautiful, attractive, gentle, HERE... wonderful. It was very beautiful day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
12.8.2013 - Bit of this and bit of that
79,4kg " - " insignificant difference, but I eat much healthier in last days
I could not sleep so good tonight for some reason. And I dont remember any dreams again... in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, in first 10 minutes alarm rung at 48th rep, which I felt quite great and 15minutes alarm rung at 65th rep. It wasnt so smooth, but I felt great that I can be fast even when my body is not totally used to it anymore and its not difficult to overcome small pains and such. Its not easy at all to do Sun Salutation precisely in this pace, Im not saying it to express "how good am I" just to express my good feeling, that even without regular practice in this "discipline" my whole being could work so well that I did so much.
I continued with ABS and core exercises, I did alternation of situps and yoga v-sit, v-sit I did with strong focus on back on the ground as much as possible. This way adds a lot of juice into exercise, I could not hold so long as before, but I feel it important because of my back, to not hurting myself. It was so rich today, I was again wondering whats up that its so difficult those exercises for ABS and core, Im thinking if its becuase of this stronger focus on precisness or something else.
Lat about 20 minutes I was dancing, Today it was fine and nice, still on joyful, creative way, its fine even to dance on songs I dont feel so good for dancing or difficult to find some way to dance on it. Enjoyed it today very much :)
II) Afternoon I did some work in preparation for upcoming camp and some house repairs and also yoga, set in length of something over an hour. For some reason I was so stiff, I could not do almnost any asana half as Im used to lately, I believe it has some reason connected to whats happening inside me, something what wont allow me to relax. But I have no idea, it was very nice day till the evening. I felt better after yoga, but cant say I experienced something worth mentioning. It was mostly this working with stiffness.
As titel says, today was a bit from almost everything, love, anger, work, joy, fun, stillness, sadness, work, cake with all ingredients. I know that it was good and worth day, but I dont feel so happy right now.
I could not sleep so good tonight for some reason. And I dont remember any dreams again... in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, in first 10 minutes alarm rung at 48th rep, which I felt quite great and 15minutes alarm rung at 65th rep. It wasnt so smooth, but I felt great that I can be fast even when my body is not totally used to it anymore and its not difficult to overcome small pains and such. Its not easy at all to do Sun Salutation precisely in this pace, Im not saying it to express "how good am I" just to express my good feeling, that even without regular practice in this "discipline" my whole being could work so well that I did so much.
I continued with ABS and core exercises, I did alternation of situps and yoga v-sit, v-sit I did with strong focus on back on the ground as much as possible. This way adds a lot of juice into exercise, I could not hold so long as before, but I feel it important because of my back, to not hurting myself. It was so rich today, I was again wondering whats up that its so difficult those exercises for ABS and core, Im thinking if its becuase of this stronger focus on precisness or something else.
Lat about 20 minutes I was dancing, Today it was fine and nice, still on joyful, creative way, its fine even to dance on songs I dont feel so good for dancing or difficult to find some way to dance on it. Enjoyed it today very much :)
II) Afternoon I did some work in preparation for upcoming camp and some house repairs and also yoga, set in length of something over an hour. For some reason I was so stiff, I could not do almnost any asana half as Im used to lately, I believe it has some reason connected to whats happening inside me, something what wont allow me to relax. But I have no idea, it was very nice day till the evening. I felt better after yoga, but cant say I experienced something worth mentioning. It was mostly this working with stiffness.
As titel says, today was a bit from almost everything, love, anger, work, joy, fun, stillness, sadness, work, cake with all ingredients. I know that it was good and worth day, but I dont feel so happy right now.
sobota 10. srpna 2013
11.8.2013 - Love and work
79,7 " - " not worth comment
Tonight I slept well, even not so long I felt quite fresh in the morning, dont remember any dreams again and in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first a bit of holds in positions and other half in dynamic way, I felt somehow not well, a bit poisoned again, I suspect that cheese make this, because yesterday I had just small icecream and i felt more poisoned then after lots of sweets. Milk products seems to be real poison for me. Great as always to start day with SS.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, basically only Barstarz set. It was somehow so dificult! I could not do most exercises properly or needed lot sof rest in between and felt it all crazy rich. Its possible that its because I try to mind my back a lot and have lower back on the ground and not to bend. I dont know, but it was crazy today.
3rd block I spend on stationary bike, 10 minutes of intense ride. And in the end I switched to 3rd level for 1 minute. Its good to not stand on same level, body is getting used too quickly.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today it was very nice and I could flow good with music and different styles. I enjoyed it.
II) Later in the morning my beloved claime her bet she won and I had for 2 hours do what she want me to. Cant share really all the details, but it was interesting. For me is not easy at all to just do what sb else want me to, even when its nice. If Im missing feeling of freedom its stoping a lot of energy. But I was thinking that its also maybe just a pattern, because in fact, I wasnt slave, I could say anytime stop and if I enjoy situation or not is always my choice, even when its "orderedů activity, it still can be fuly enjoyable. I can even deny my "suppresor" by denying role of suppresed person and enjoy situation in fully presence. Interesting thoughts and feelings flew up during this practice.
III) Afternoon I had a client, not easy one, but always chalenging one, this time I felt very connected and like I did lot of work with a treatment today.
In general it was very loving and beautiful day today, I felt lot of love throughout a day and, frankly, it dosnt often so much and Im v.gratefu for it and I enjoyed it very much. Ohm mani padme hum.
Tonight I slept well, even not so long I felt quite fresh in the morning, dont remember any dreams again and in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first a bit of holds in positions and other half in dynamic way, I felt somehow not well, a bit poisoned again, I suspect that cheese make this, because yesterday I had just small icecream and i felt more poisoned then after lots of sweets. Milk products seems to be real poison for me. Great as always to start day with SS.
Next I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, basically only Barstarz set. It was somehow so dificult! I could not do most exercises properly or needed lot sof rest in between and felt it all crazy rich. Its possible that its because I try to mind my back a lot and have lower back on the ground and not to bend. I dont know, but it was crazy today.
3rd block I spend on stationary bike, 10 minutes of intense ride. And in the end I switched to 3rd level for 1 minute. Its good to not stand on same level, body is getting used too quickly.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today it was very nice and I could flow good with music and different styles. I enjoyed it.
II) Later in the morning my beloved claime her bet she won and I had for 2 hours do what she want me to. Cant share really all the details, but it was interesting. For me is not easy at all to just do what sb else want me to, even when its nice. If Im missing feeling of freedom its stoping a lot of energy. But I was thinking that its also maybe just a pattern, because in fact, I wasnt slave, I could say anytime stop and if I enjoy situation or not is always my choice, even when its "orderedů activity, it still can be fuly enjoyable. I can even deny my "suppresor" by denying role of suppresed person and enjoy situation in fully presence. Interesting thoughts and feelings flew up during this practice.
III) Afternoon I had a client, not easy one, but always chalenging one, this time I felt very connected and like I did lot of work with a treatment today.
In general it was very loving and beautiful day today, I felt lot of love throughout a day and, frankly, it dosnt often so much and Im v.gratefu for it and I enjoyed it very much. Ohm mani padme hum.
10.8.2013 - Tantra and lots of relax
80kg - " + " could be different scale, anyway, insignificant difference
Tonight I slept moderatelly, was waking up a lot and in the morning I wasnt somehow slept out really. As planed I did not made morning exercises today, wanted to take day off this saturday, just to rise appetite to exercise :)
I) In the morning I did tantric practices. Conscious, sacred way of love making, I felt it v.beatiful, I did today for first time whole ritual and I must say, for me there is lots of treasures hidden in conscious sexuality. It dosnt mean, mental, pogrammed sex, mind you, it means any love making or sex you can immagine, just made consciously, not in animal, instinct energy of 1st chakra, but on higher levels of human beings. I hope to continue in exploring this way o sexuality.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, short something-over-an-hour block, again it was v.intense and strong, specialy Vajrasana is having so strong effect on me, its crazy. This connection of heart and 3rd eye is so powerful, I always feel like my whole system is getting inpulses and is reacting. But whole exercise together put me into v.nice mood for the rest of the day.
Today was roughly in the way of rest and relaxation. Very nice day with my beloved, sometimes its necessary I think to let everything just fit where it belongs and let yourself flow in relaxed way, even if to just realized that its not really good idea to let youself just flow more then in days like this. In the evening we went to cinema again, it was again french movie "And if we all live together", it was strange movie, for me full of patterns which are totally unnecesarry and arteficial and made just to make people misserable. False sympathies and so on.
But its good, its good when buttons are pushed, it shows where I can look inside me.
Good day today, rich and beautiful with lot sof aspects life can bring.
Tonight I slept moderatelly, was waking up a lot and in the morning I wasnt somehow slept out really. As planed I did not made morning exercises today, wanted to take day off this saturday, just to rise appetite to exercise :)
I) In the morning I did tantric practices. Conscious, sacred way of love making, I felt it v.beatiful, I did today for first time whole ritual and I must say, for me there is lots of treasures hidden in conscious sexuality. It dosnt mean, mental, pogrammed sex, mind you, it means any love making or sex you can immagine, just made consciously, not in animal, instinct energy of 1st chakra, but on higher levels of human beings. I hope to continue in exploring this way o sexuality.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, short something-over-an-hour block, again it was v.intense and strong, specialy Vajrasana is having so strong effect on me, its crazy. This connection of heart and 3rd eye is so powerful, I always feel like my whole system is getting inpulses and is reacting. But whole exercise together put me into v.nice mood for the rest of the day.
Today was roughly in the way of rest and relaxation. Very nice day with my beloved, sometimes its necessary I think to let everything just fit where it belongs and let yourself flow in relaxed way, even if to just realized that its not really good idea to let youself just flow more then in days like this. In the evening we went to cinema again, it was again french movie "And if we all live together", it was strange movie, for me full of patterns which are totally unnecesarry and arteficial and made just to make people misserable. False sympathies and so on.
But its good, its good when buttons are pushed, it shows where I can look inside me.
Good day today, rich and beautiful with lot sof aspects life can bring.
pátek 9. srpna 2013
9.8.2013 - Moving around
79,5kg " - " Wow, was most unexpected, I wasnt holding myself in eating at all, but I guess this fighting energy from Jiu jitsu works well in getting rid of stuff out of me department.
It wasnt so easy to fell asleep because of heat and painful body, but once I fell asleep it was fine and I slept well. Dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Originally I wanted something totally else, but I had to adjust exercise to how I actually felt so started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, in longer holds and then switched to more dynamic way. I was very stiff after yesterday in many parts of body and this was good way to move blood and stretch and in general to start up my syste. Sun Salutation is great in this way.
Second part I did ABS and core exercises. Starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO (uff) I think I was not doing this so much lately, its very intense exercise. I feel it very healthy as well - and very difficult. For the rest of time I did various dynamic exercises. I must say it made me happy, because I felt I can do stuff I never could before. But important thing as always in moments like this - it also means, that I must move to next level before I start feeding my ego too much with being happy what I already achieved.
3rd part was 5 minutes of leg exercises, I managed 50 normal squats, then 30 jump lunges (getting better as well, but not as fast as it should be by far) and couple of wide squats. Speed and agility is the key in progress here. Balance, strengthening of those small muscles you dont even know you have them to be able to do precise, fast squats and jump lunges.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It wasnt easy in the way, that I felt I dont really have much more energy anymore, but I just tried to switch off my mind and dance and it somehow worked out quite well. I know, that my feeling of how much energy I have is nowhere near of how much energy I REALLY have. Anyway - enjoyed this acitvity where human being surrender his soul to universe to let that soul be nourished and strengthened in the sound of music. Its also commonly known as dancing.
II) Later in the morning I had client, very intensive treatment. Its so amazing how much can be done and how strong transformation processes can be activated when client allow that to happen. And also reminded me again how great is to do my work :)
Rest of the day I was preparing for big travel and upcoming 2 weeks, it was lots of things to think about and first travel to my beloved was in the name of heat of last days. I did not managed much for the rest of the day, but in the evening we went into cinema, which was interesting for me, because it was in foreign language I dont understand, just a little bit. But I could follow mostly and in the end I think I quite got what was going on, it was not bad movie - Schachspielerin.
Great day! It was even raining in the evening, so it was with biking in the rain as well :) I love my life. Ohm mani padme hum.
It wasnt so easy to fell asleep because of heat and painful body, but once I fell asleep it was fine and I slept well. Dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Originally I wanted something totally else, but I had to adjust exercise to how I actually felt so started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, in longer holds and then switched to more dynamic way. I was very stiff after yesterday in many parts of body and this was good way to move blood and stretch and in general to start up my syste. Sun Salutation is great in this way.
Second part I did ABS and core exercises. Starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO (uff) I think I was not doing this so much lately, its very intense exercise. I feel it very healthy as well - and very difficult. For the rest of time I did various dynamic exercises. I must say it made me happy, because I felt I can do stuff I never could before. But important thing as always in moments like this - it also means, that I must move to next level before I start feeding my ego too much with being happy what I already achieved.
3rd part was 5 minutes of leg exercises, I managed 50 normal squats, then 30 jump lunges (getting better as well, but not as fast as it should be by far) and couple of wide squats. Speed and agility is the key in progress here. Balance, strengthening of those small muscles you dont even know you have them to be able to do precise, fast squats and jump lunges.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It wasnt easy in the way, that I felt I dont really have much more energy anymore, but I just tried to switch off my mind and dance and it somehow worked out quite well. I know, that my feeling of how much energy I have is nowhere near of how much energy I REALLY have. Anyway - enjoyed this acitvity where human being surrender his soul to universe to let that soul be nourished and strengthened in the sound of music. Its also commonly known as dancing.
II) Later in the morning I had client, very intensive treatment. Its so amazing how much can be done and how strong transformation processes can be activated when client allow that to happen. And also reminded me again how great is to do my work :)
Rest of the day I was preparing for big travel and upcoming 2 weeks, it was lots of things to think about and first travel to my beloved was in the name of heat of last days. I did not managed much for the rest of the day, but in the evening we went into cinema, which was interesting for me, because it was in foreign language I dont understand, just a little bit. But I could follow mostly and in the end I think I quite got what was going on, it was not bad movie - Schachspielerin.
Great day! It was even raining in the evening, so it was with biking in the rain as well :) I love my life. Ohm mani padme hum.
8.8.2013 - Busy day.
80,5kg " = " no comment
Again not-so-nice sleep in this heat, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, long holds in positions from 1 to 10 seconds, very needed, It started me like a shot of beverage into engine. Great.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises with gym ball, it felt very good, my body is slowly getting used to these exercises and Im moving from "getting used" to actual progress. And yeah, it felt very good. Its not so obvious on first look or try, but when is this exercised precisely and consciously, its very powerful set: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dF9JzGaFEI4 .
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, even I did 37 reps only it felt good. I was surprised I did so few reps, because I felt like Im quite fast. What felt good was, that I hadnt this feelings of being stuck or in crisis, I could go whole time in a good pace. Just it seems, I should push the gas a bit on this :P
Last 20 minutes I spend dancing, after a bit stiffness in the beginning I could enjoy basically whole set very much, still on creative way, jamming in a flow....
II) Then I had couple of clients, in this heat here its really challenging, I have to adjust everything to could do 100%. But its not a "work" for me, its my life and I really love it, Shiatsu and all around. Both treatments were very nice, opposite to clients during the week, they were much more alive, or theyr energy system.
III) Afternoon I did yoga. It was AWESOME again, slowly, step by step, my mind gets calmer during exercising and/or its much easier to gently bring my mind back when it wanders around. I did a bit more asanas today. It hard to not do more and more, even I know that its important to add stuff very slowly. Its not pleasant to come to excesive point and then return too much backwards.
Anyway, I felt it great, I feel chakras much more and in some asanas I can go much further then when i started doing them, especialy supta-vajrasana makes me happy lately, because its easier to overcome those feelings of panic when Im far in position.
At this point I must say, that lately Im giving to my clients asanas as homework and I feel very good to do those asanas in my set, I feel somehow totally irrationally connected in this with my clients as if we support each other in doing same asanas. I would lie if I would say that I perceive this connection, its just.... I dont know, it feels right.
IV) In the evening I went after more then a year to Hakkoryu Jiu-Jitsu class. It was great, what I enjoyed very much was how hearty they invited me even after such a long time. It was like come to the friends again. No blaming, nothing "Where were you, why you stopped." and such. Just "Hey, nice to see you!". Very nice, it touched me. And besides that, training was mega. I was sweping very much, because it was very warm and humid in the room and we moved a lot as well.. :D I forgot how much FUN it is, I dont understand it so much, but I had such a good mood whole time, even I was uke and I was being pacified in many, nasty and very painful ways, I was laughing how it pains and in what crazy positions Im founding myself! I cant explain, Im probably just twisted, sick bastard... that must be it 8) In any case - it was great and wonderful. I was totally finished in the end, arived home juts on autopilot. But I was inside so energized, that I could not sleep till 23.
Great day! Full of things I love to do and people I like to meet, what more one can wish?! Ohm mani padme hum <3
Again not-so-nice sleep in this heat, dont remember any dreams. In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, long holds in positions from 1 to 10 seconds, very needed, It started me like a shot of beverage into engine. Great.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises with gym ball, it felt very good, my body is slowly getting used to these exercises and Im moving from "getting used" to actual progress. And yeah, it felt very good. Its not so obvious on first look or try, but when is this exercised precisely and consciously, its very powerful set: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dF9JzGaFEI4 .
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, even I did 37 reps only it felt good. I was surprised I did so few reps, because I felt like Im quite fast. What felt good was, that I hadnt this feelings of being stuck or in crisis, I could go whole time in a good pace. Just it seems, I should push the gas a bit on this :P
Last 20 minutes I spend dancing, after a bit stiffness in the beginning I could enjoy basically whole set very much, still on creative way, jamming in a flow....
II) Then I had couple of clients, in this heat here its really challenging, I have to adjust everything to could do 100%. But its not a "work" for me, its my life and I really love it, Shiatsu and all around. Both treatments were very nice, opposite to clients during the week, they were much more alive, or theyr energy system.
III) Afternoon I did yoga. It was AWESOME again, slowly, step by step, my mind gets calmer during exercising and/or its much easier to gently bring my mind back when it wanders around. I did a bit more asanas today. It hard to not do more and more, even I know that its important to add stuff very slowly. Its not pleasant to come to excesive point and then return too much backwards.
Anyway, I felt it great, I feel chakras much more and in some asanas I can go much further then when i started doing them, especialy supta-vajrasana makes me happy lately, because its easier to overcome those feelings of panic when Im far in position.
At this point I must say, that lately Im giving to my clients asanas as homework and I feel very good to do those asanas in my set, I feel somehow totally irrationally connected in this with my clients as if we support each other in doing same asanas. I would lie if I would say that I perceive this connection, its just.... I dont know, it feels right.
IV) In the evening I went after more then a year to Hakkoryu Jiu-Jitsu class. It was great, what I enjoyed very much was how hearty they invited me even after such a long time. It was like come to the friends again. No blaming, nothing "Where were you, why you stopped." and such. Just "Hey, nice to see you!". Very nice, it touched me. And besides that, training was mega. I was sweping very much, because it was very warm and humid in the room and we moved a lot as well.. :D I forgot how much FUN it is, I dont understand it so much, but I had such a good mood whole time, even I was uke and I was being pacified in many, nasty and very painful ways, I was laughing how it pains and in what crazy positions Im founding myself! I cant explain, Im probably just twisted, sick bastard... that must be it 8) In any case - it was great and wonderful. I was totally finished in the end, arived home juts on autopilot. But I was inside so energized, that I could not sleep till 23.
Great day! Full of things I love to do and people I like to meet, what more one can wish?! Ohm mani padme hum <3
středa 7. srpna 2013
7.8.2013 - I FEEL GOOD!
80,5kg " + " of course, my hunger from yesterday took its tall, I ate like for 2 :)
Else I slept well tonight, despite crazy heat, but no dreams as usually.. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x Sun Salutations and then some running and Shadowboxing, maybe a bit too intense for just warm up.. if there is such thing as too intense exercise for short warm up... and after warm up straight to pyramid. After experience in last weeks I started from 10 and did well and had almost 5 minutes left so I started over again and did again 10-6 and 1 extra in remaining time. In all it was 96x pushup, 96x situp, 96x squat. Next time I have to be more bold :) It was nice to see that my exercises have more deep effect and i dont need to backup to total beginning.
After pyramid I did 5 minutes of ABS and core practice, I did mixed set with exercises I felt good to do, mainly dynamic exercises, but found time for yoga v-sit as well, I was exhausted afterwards... was rich.
Then I was dancing for about 25 minutes, for most part it was quite a stiff dance, had hard time to move my body, but after about 15 minutes it loose and I could enjoy dancing for rest 10 minutes very much.
II) Later in the morning I did yoga. A bit different setup again, but again this "short" version (something around 75 minutes). It was strong... wow... for second chakra I did Sukhasana and in the end I experienced very strong sensations - it felt like in my sacrum explode fireworks and fountains of light sprout into whole my body, not going through, but nourishing, energizing... it lasted for about 20 seconds and it was amazing, very strong feeling, wow. But whole set felt very nice and good. Enjoyed it immensely.
Then I did lunch and after finishing it I was walking through flat and I felt so GOOD, strong, powerful, energized, complete... I just had to say loud "I feel gooooOOOOD!" man... what a feeling, amazing to feel like that and without any substances too :D !
III) Afternoon I had couple of clients, not really easy treatments, these warm days makes people very exhausted energetically and its not easy to work in such circumstances. And of course, Im also not as fresh as usually, I have to basically work on myself whole days to keep able to treat on usual quality (best) level. But both treatments felt good in the end.
Great day today! Anger from yesterday is processed. I felt great whole day and everything... I love my life today so much... :) Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well tonight, despite crazy heat, but no dreams as usually.. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x Sun Salutations and then some running and Shadowboxing, maybe a bit too intense for just warm up.. if there is such thing as too intense exercise for short warm up... and after warm up straight to pyramid. After experience in last weeks I started from 10 and did well and had almost 5 minutes left so I started over again and did again 10-6 and 1 extra in remaining time. In all it was 96x pushup, 96x situp, 96x squat. Next time I have to be more bold :) It was nice to see that my exercises have more deep effect and i dont need to backup to total beginning.
After pyramid I did 5 minutes of ABS and core practice, I did mixed set with exercises I felt good to do, mainly dynamic exercises, but found time for yoga v-sit as well, I was exhausted afterwards... was rich.
Then I was dancing for about 25 minutes, for most part it was quite a stiff dance, had hard time to move my body, but after about 15 minutes it loose and I could enjoy dancing for rest 10 minutes very much.
II) Later in the morning I did yoga. A bit different setup again, but again this "short" version (something around 75 minutes). It was strong... wow... for second chakra I did Sukhasana and in the end I experienced very strong sensations - it felt like in my sacrum explode fireworks and fountains of light sprout into whole my body, not going through, but nourishing, energizing... it lasted for about 20 seconds and it was amazing, very strong feeling, wow. But whole set felt very nice and good. Enjoyed it immensely.
Then I did lunch and after finishing it I was walking through flat and I felt so GOOD, strong, powerful, energized, complete... I just had to say loud "I feel gooooOOOOD!" man... what a feeling, amazing to feel like that and without any substances too :D !
III) Afternoon I had couple of clients, not really easy treatments, these warm days makes people very exhausted energetically and its not easy to work in such circumstances. And of course, Im also not as fresh as usually, I have to basically work on myself whole days to keep able to treat on usual quality (best) level. But both treatments felt good in the end.
Great day today! Anger from yesterday is processed. I felt great whole day and everything... I love my life today so much... :) Ohm mani padme hum.
6.8.2013 - Petr's day...
79,3kg ("=-") no comment
Tonight it wasnt so easy to sleep because of heat, but in the end I could sleep somehow, no dreams again. In the morning up for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warn up - 10x Sun Salutation, neck stretching and running and then 10 minutes of Shadowboxing, first some freestyle and then all moves I could remember and manage to exercise in this 10 minute limit. I had serious problems with breathing after a while so I did not lot of moves, had to make small pauses to catch the breath, this fast strong moves are very demanding, its short exhaustion, but very intense. Good practice!
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, today alternating situps and yoga v-sit, today I could handle better this alternation, Im again getting better in overcoming difficulties during exercises and be more comfortable in hard zone. It was very rich.
Then I was dancing for about 20 minutes, it was cool today, I enjoyed to dance very much, great creative energy :)
For the rest of the day I did no exercise, but it was very rich day in other aspects. First I went for a massage, but I was on receiving side this time and it was great. I tried new masseur and it was simply blind try to get to know if shes conscious enough to do the job and she was and massage had great effect on my system. I wasnt sleepy or more active, but something moved for sure. First I had crazy hunger, not so mcuh taste, but real hunger, I could not get satiated, it took 3 rounds of eating to not feel hunger anymore. I was thinking hard what to eat to saturate this hunger. I also felt I have better access to my emotions, I felt great anger in the evening because of one happening in our training group and I quite enjoyed it, it feels so free to throw away politics and what I should or shuldnt and how it may or may not harm my future businesses and just be pissed of, feel it, enjoy it, let it bring energy to me... fuuuf, beautiful! Im not sure if it was because of massage, but I was angry like not for a long time. Very nice.
It was also very important for me to be n a client side after long time and see my work from other side. Very inspirative. Today was a great day!
Tonight it wasnt so easy to sleep because of heat, but in the end I could sleep somehow, no dreams again. In the morning up for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warn up - 10x Sun Salutation, neck stretching and running and then 10 minutes of Shadowboxing, first some freestyle and then all moves I could remember and manage to exercise in this 10 minute limit. I had serious problems with breathing after a while so I did not lot of moves, had to make small pauses to catch the breath, this fast strong moves are very demanding, its short exhaustion, but very intense. Good practice!
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, today alternating situps and yoga v-sit, today I could handle better this alternation, Im again getting better in overcoming difficulties during exercises and be more comfortable in hard zone. It was very rich.
Then I was dancing for about 20 minutes, it was cool today, I enjoyed to dance very much, great creative energy :)
For the rest of the day I did no exercise, but it was very rich day in other aspects. First I went for a massage, but I was on receiving side this time and it was great. I tried new masseur and it was simply blind try to get to know if shes conscious enough to do the job and she was and massage had great effect on my system. I wasnt sleepy or more active, but something moved for sure. First I had crazy hunger, not so mcuh taste, but real hunger, I could not get satiated, it took 3 rounds of eating to not feel hunger anymore. I was thinking hard what to eat to saturate this hunger. I also felt I have better access to my emotions, I felt great anger in the evening because of one happening in our training group and I quite enjoyed it, it feels so free to throw away politics and what I should or shuldnt and how it may or may not harm my future businesses and just be pissed of, feel it, enjoy it, let it bring energy to me... fuuuf, beautiful! Im not sure if it was because of massage, but I was angry like not for a long time. Very nice.
It was also very important for me to be n a client side after long time and see my work from other side. Very inspirative. Today was a great day!
úterý 6. srpna 2013
5.8.2013 - hot, working day
79,4kg " - " its too hot to fabulate over reasons....
I slept well and dont remember any dreams like usually when sleeping at home... in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x Sun Salutations and in rest of time some shadowboxing, it was ok today. Had even lots of time for shadowboxing. Then I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core training. I chose random exercises, just what I felt like good to do and it was again very intense, I felt my ABS very much...
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. I must say it was great, Im happy I can get on this nice, joful creative wave so good. Im experiencing lots of joy during dancing in last days and its also great exercise, lovely combination.
II) Afternoon I did yoga again, this "light" version for something over an hour. I felt it again very strong. I changed setup a bit again, I feel it good to play with setup when I feel I need something a bit different, it brings also more joy for me into yoga :)
III) I had also clients today throughout a day, intresting, special ones, one new, was nice, even in this heat its not so easy.
I must confess Im quite lazy to write a blog in last days, I have lots of things to manage and is incredibely hot so I try to conserve energy as much as possible. But even it may not look like, it was another very nice day today, I had nice talk with my beloved which warmed my heart very much and Im grateful for it <3
I slept well and dont remember any dreams like usually when sleeping at home... in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x Sun Salutations and in rest of time some shadowboxing, it was ok today. Had even lots of time for shadowboxing. Then I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core training. I chose random exercises, just what I felt like good to do and it was again very intense, I felt my ABS very much...
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. I must say it was great, Im happy I can get on this nice, joful creative wave so good. Im experiencing lots of joy during dancing in last days and its also great exercise, lovely combination.
II) Afternoon I did yoga again, this "light" version for something over an hour. I felt it again very strong. I changed setup a bit again, I feel it good to play with setup when I feel I need something a bit different, it brings also more joy for me into yoga :)
III) I had also clients today throughout a day, intresting, special ones, one new, was nice, even in this heat its not so easy.
I must confess Im quite lazy to write a blog in last days, I have lots of things to manage and is incredibely hot so I try to conserve energy as much as possible. But even it may not look like, it was another very nice day today, I had nice talk with my beloved which warmed my heart very much and Im grateful for it <3
neděle 4. srpna 2013
4.8.2013 - Lazy sunday... with a bit of something :)
?? Weight. I got up from futon at 9:30 today... I though it dosnt matter anymore to weight...
I slept quite good, even it was extremely hot night. Dont remember any dreams as usually.
I did only 10 minutes of Sun Salutations today - in hold-in-position way, it was actually quite hard! I needed this very, very much, I was somehow very stiff. Then I was dancing for 10 more minutes to move blood a bit more dynamically.
I) Afternoon I did yoga, shorter version. Im trying to be careful and better do it in the way in which I have joy then push it as I did before. I did padahastasana, badrasana, paschimotasana, sukhasana, joga v-sit (for 3rd chakra, dont know name of this asana), bhujangasana, sarvangasana, vajrasana and shirshasana. Savasana on the end as always. Again I felt very dismantled as always lately, Im not sure if its good or not, I feel it challenging and that I should do it anyway to find whats hidden after those fears it evokes in me. Im slowly getting to decision, that if I get crazy or something... well... I get crazy, its like to die - if it wont happen its fine and if it does, I have no worries anymore anyway. But its not as easy as it may sound, I have to gather all concetration Im able to muster to do it, even it feels quite great during exercise. I really feel good while doing yoga... comedy of life continues...
II) In the evening I did dancing session for 1 hour. It was great, I enjoyed whole time dancing, I was very much in creative energy and I found many new moves. It was very joyful and fun :)
Today was really very lazy strange day, except exercises was so hard to do something useful for workshop or something. Something was happening.
I slept quite good, even it was extremely hot night. Dont remember any dreams as usually.
I did only 10 minutes of Sun Salutations today - in hold-in-position way, it was actually quite hard! I needed this very, very much, I was somehow very stiff. Then I was dancing for 10 more minutes to move blood a bit more dynamically.
I) Afternoon I did yoga, shorter version. Im trying to be careful and better do it in the way in which I have joy then push it as I did before. I did padahastasana, badrasana, paschimotasana, sukhasana, joga v-sit (for 3rd chakra, dont know name of this asana), bhujangasana, sarvangasana, vajrasana and shirshasana. Savasana on the end as always. Again I felt very dismantled as always lately, Im not sure if its good or not, I feel it challenging and that I should do it anyway to find whats hidden after those fears it evokes in me. Im slowly getting to decision, that if I get crazy or something... well... I get crazy, its like to die - if it wont happen its fine and if it does, I have no worries anymore anyway. But its not as easy as it may sound, I have to gather all concetration Im able to muster to do it, even it feels quite great during exercise. I really feel good while doing yoga... comedy of life continues...
II) In the evening I did dancing session for 1 hour. It was great, I enjoyed whole time dancing, I was very much in creative energy and I found many new moves. It was very joyful and fun :)
Today was really very lazy strange day, except exercises was so hard to do something useful for workshop or something. Something was happening.
sobota 3. srpna 2013
3.8.2013 - Meeting people!
80,4kg " + " - no surprise, I expected it, its always when I eat lots of sweets, but yesterday it was last drop I hope, today I start my new life and that new life is not including sweets, rrrrrrr....
Else I slept well and good and nope, no dreams remembered... in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, today I made it to do 10x Sun Salutations and running with head stretches. Then I continued 10 minutes with ABS and core practice. I felt whole area from yesterday very strong and I did random exercises today, what I felt I did not made for long time mostly and some holds in different positions. It felt very rich, could not stand up normally afterwards :P
Next I did 2x 5 minutes sets, first with Burpees, this went better then expected, did 33 of them and felt I could easily make much more... second I did squats, I got nice lesson that I have to care more abot my legs, I made only 50 squats and about 26 jump lunges. Yup, my legs need more attention too.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, I got lots of electronic dance songs today so I wasnt really resting, but it was fine, I felt like - wow, week ago I could not do exercises because of pain in back and today I feel no limitations or pain anymore, after just a week... well, less then a week, i dont feel any problems for 3 days now :) Anyway, it was very nice and joyful.
II) Rest of the day was in the name of traveling and meetings. First I visited battle in Calinesthics in my hometown. It was first event of a kind in my country and I was happy to be there and see guys competing in this beautiful, insanely difficult activity. I saw lots of good performances and some of these guys really deserve respect. One of them was 45y old guy who pulled out amazing set, better then lots of his younger competitors.
Then I went on our family meeting in different city. It was quite worth of the travel in this crazy heat nowdays, I found out that my family have quite deep and intense spiritual tradition, which was quite a surprise for me to find out after 33y. I also understood, that my skills are inherited from my grand, grand dad probably and I heard that he was quite a magician of sorts... well, you dont find out this kind of stuff every day, was quite a process these informations. I want to find out as much as possible from other relatives. I feel important to know background of my family more then anytime before.
And after returning to my hometown I met other friend after very long time who gave me this Vatican bread, some sort of chain mail, but in form of bread, seems interesting. Me baking bread - interesting idea :P
Very full, hot, sauna hot and hot day full of nice, rich meetings. Im very grateful for today, it made me richer again.
Else I slept well and good and nope, no dreams remembered... in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, today I made it to do 10x Sun Salutations and running with head stretches. Then I continued 10 minutes with ABS and core practice. I felt whole area from yesterday very strong and I did random exercises today, what I felt I did not made for long time mostly and some holds in different positions. It felt very rich, could not stand up normally afterwards :P
Next I did 2x 5 minutes sets, first with Burpees, this went better then expected, did 33 of them and felt I could easily make much more... second I did squats, I got nice lesson that I have to care more abot my legs, I made only 50 squats and about 26 jump lunges. Yup, my legs need more attention too.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, I got lots of electronic dance songs today so I wasnt really resting, but it was fine, I felt like - wow, week ago I could not do exercises because of pain in back and today I feel no limitations or pain anymore, after just a week... well, less then a week, i dont feel any problems for 3 days now :) Anyway, it was very nice and joyful.
II) Rest of the day was in the name of traveling and meetings. First I visited battle in Calinesthics in my hometown. It was first event of a kind in my country and I was happy to be there and see guys competing in this beautiful, insanely difficult activity. I saw lots of good performances and some of these guys really deserve respect. One of them was 45y old guy who pulled out amazing set, better then lots of his younger competitors.
Then I went on our family meeting in different city. It was quite worth of the travel in this crazy heat nowdays, I found out that my family have quite deep and intense spiritual tradition, which was quite a surprise for me to find out after 33y. I also understood, that my skills are inherited from my grand, grand dad probably and I heard that he was quite a magician of sorts... well, you dont find out this kind of stuff every day, was quite a process these informations. I want to find out as much as possible from other relatives. I feel important to know background of my family more then anytime before.
And after returning to my hometown I met other friend after very long time who gave me this Vatican bread, some sort of chain mail, but in form of bread, seems interesting. Me baking bread - interesting idea :P
Very full, hot, sauna hot and hot day full of nice, rich meetings. Im very grateful for today, it made me richer again.
pátek 2. srpna 2013
2.8.2013 - Lazy, strange day
79,9kg " - " cant say much, just that yesterday I bravely avoided all sweets, I was proud *making superman pose*
I slept well and dont remember any dreams as usually... *sigh*. In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations in holding style. From 1 to 10 seconds holds in positions. It felt awesome, genuine stretches really, was even thinking to make sometimes extra exercise with long holds in positions and see what happens.
Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, it went quite good today, I felt I have strong day today. Crisis come at 8 rep on each side, which I felt really awesome, I continued till 10 rep on each side and then I did 1 rep on each side with 5 second hold in hard position, it was hard, but I made it, I was happy really.
3rd 10 minute block I spend giving some love to my core and ABS, mainly Barstarz exercises, today I felt my ABS again very nice and good and I felt like - even if its in my mind only, eating no sweets make it much better even for ABS exercises. I felt in general like better "oiled" while doing exercises. But anyway - it was very very rich exercise today, I was almost unable to do anything more good before 10 minutes limit.
Last 15 minutes I was dancing, today it went very nice and well, I mean - I enjoyed dancing very much :)
II) Afternoon client, it was a bit strange, because client come late and had to leave early, but I felt it perfect as exactly showing where client is atm. I hope I could show him a bit how it works against him.
III) Later afternoon I did yoga, Wanted to make something around hour, but I couldnt, I was so horny, that I could not simply focus and relax. But I at least managed to try some sublimation exercise to work with it and savasana (after couple of asanas before).
Very strange day today, I felt immensely lazy today, itching on whole body, not a bit of will to do something useful. But I could observe today how poisonous are sweets and it was very precious gift of today. I feel I will try best to avoid sweets, not because of fighting it, but because it really makes me feel bad and lazy and numb and I dont like it at all!
I slept well and dont remember any dreams as usually... *sigh*. In the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations in holding style. From 1 to 10 seconds holds in positions. It felt awesome, genuine stretches really, was even thinking to make sometimes extra exercise with long holds in positions and see what happens.
Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, it went quite good today, I felt I have strong day today. Crisis come at 8 rep on each side, which I felt really awesome, I continued till 10 rep on each side and then I did 1 rep on each side with 5 second hold in hard position, it was hard, but I made it, I was happy really.
3rd 10 minute block I spend giving some love to my core and ABS, mainly Barstarz exercises, today I felt my ABS again very nice and good and I felt like - even if its in my mind only, eating no sweets make it much better even for ABS exercises. I felt in general like better "oiled" while doing exercises. But anyway - it was very very rich exercise today, I was almost unable to do anything more good before 10 minutes limit.
Last 15 minutes I was dancing, today it went very nice and well, I mean - I enjoyed dancing very much :)
II) Afternoon client, it was a bit strange, because client come late and had to leave early, but I felt it perfect as exactly showing where client is atm. I hope I could show him a bit how it works against him.
III) Later afternoon I did yoga, Wanted to make something around hour, but I couldnt, I was so horny, that I could not simply focus and relax. But I at least managed to try some sublimation exercise to work with it and savasana (after couple of asanas before).
Very strange day today, I felt immensely lazy today, itching on whole body, not a bit of will to do something useful. But I could observe today how poisonous are sweets and it was very precious gift of today. I feel I will try best to avoid sweets, not because of fighting it, but because it really makes me feel bad and lazy and numb and I dont like it at all!
čtvrtek 1. srpna 2013
1.8.2013 - New month, new starts
80,6kg "-=" not worth to mention and nothing to comment
I slept well tonight, not somehow very deep, but had quite refreshing sleep. Dont remember any dreams... In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up... which develops into 10 Sun Salutations and couple of seconds of runing. I could not move almost into SS... felt weird.
I continued with 10 minutes of core and ABS training, starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO. It went surprisingly well, even I felt my core very good and rich, I had no problems to overcome difficulties and make 4 rounds even I felt pain (this pain when you know its not harming, but strengthening). For the rest I did what I could, which wasnt much actually! I could not make sit-ups or holds at first, seems previous stuff worked more then I though, so I did what was possible to keep on the edge of what I could.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees - what a disgrace, I could do only like 14 reps... could you believe... in 5 minutes. I felt somehow unable to gather power and work fluently. I wish to see what it is about, I dont believe that 3 days of rest can impact condition so much that I do 1/3 of what I did week ago. Interesting phenomena. Im sure its in my head, but Im not sure if its really just my image that condition drops so fast which makes my condition drop so fast when Im resting.
4th block I did shadowboxing parody - I did what I could with all resources I could. Tried combinations, even some new ones. I knew I cant be super fast or agile today so I put all my focus in slower, but fluent, precise movements.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Dancing was for a change good today, in some moments I really enjoyed creativity and joy what dancing brings, it was great :)
II) Later in the morning client, very interesting and strong treatment. Cant say more.
III) Afternoon I did again shorter yoga, I tried new approach. Without timers. I just had time limit where I need to end, but between warm up sequence and savasana I did what I could, I made same setup as yesterday with Shirshasana in the end, it was interesting without timer, Im not sure if it was better or worst yet, I think I might try again someday. So far I feel like for something its better for something is worst. Lets see, its new thing, new things need chance to show what treasures are hidden in them :) Anyway it was strong yoga, I felt again dismantled afterwards. but managed to not eat sweets afterwards, small, important victory :)
In the evening I went to meet people from tantra course. For me are meetings like this very challenging, its not easy for me to just be there and watch and listen, it seems to me usually that if I dont do something whole company is just passive. Of course its just an image, I saw it even yesterday, its just some silly program which forces me into activity, but I tried to find a new way and when I did not felt impulses I tried to just be present with people and be present with whats happening. Im not saying that it worked out perfectly, but I felt there is a difference from how I feel usually on meetings like this. Second challenge for me was to stay till the end, I tend to escape from every party or meeting early, on one workshop our teacher told me that its unconscious feeling that its better to leave myself then to be refused by the group later. If it is like this not I cant say, but it was hard to stay till the end and live till then, not just survive it till the end. Non the less, it was very nice evening, time passed by very fast and I could talk with people from course which happen very rarely otherwise. And we had unexpected visitor, some india guy who gave us mini lesson in Gyantri mantra singing, it was nice intermezo :)
Nice day today, full I would say, its good I write this blog because I already cant say what happened in the morning :D Im grateful for today. Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well tonight, not somehow very deep, but had quite refreshing sleep. Dont remember any dreams... In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up... which develops into 10 Sun Salutations and couple of seconds of runing. I could not move almost into SS... felt weird.
I continued with 10 minutes of core and ABS training, starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO. It went surprisingly well, even I felt my core very good and rich, I had no problems to overcome difficulties and make 4 rounds even I felt pain (this pain when you know its not harming, but strengthening). For the rest I did what I could, which wasnt much actually! I could not make sit-ups or holds at first, seems previous stuff worked more then I though, so I did what was possible to keep on the edge of what I could.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees - what a disgrace, I could do only like 14 reps... could you believe... in 5 minutes. I felt somehow unable to gather power and work fluently. I wish to see what it is about, I dont believe that 3 days of rest can impact condition so much that I do 1/3 of what I did week ago. Interesting phenomena. Im sure its in my head, but Im not sure if its really just my image that condition drops so fast which makes my condition drop so fast when Im resting.
4th block I did shadowboxing parody - I did what I could with all resources I could. Tried combinations, even some new ones. I knew I cant be super fast or agile today so I put all my focus in slower, but fluent, precise movements.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Dancing was for a change good today, in some moments I really enjoyed creativity and joy what dancing brings, it was great :)
II) Later in the morning client, very interesting and strong treatment. Cant say more.
III) Afternoon I did again shorter yoga, I tried new approach. Without timers. I just had time limit where I need to end, but between warm up sequence and savasana I did what I could, I made same setup as yesterday with Shirshasana in the end, it was interesting without timer, Im not sure if it was better or worst yet, I think I might try again someday. So far I feel like for something its better for something is worst. Lets see, its new thing, new things need chance to show what treasures are hidden in them :) Anyway it was strong yoga, I felt again dismantled afterwards. but managed to not eat sweets afterwards, small, important victory :)
In the evening I went to meet people from tantra course. For me are meetings like this very challenging, its not easy for me to just be there and watch and listen, it seems to me usually that if I dont do something whole company is just passive. Of course its just an image, I saw it even yesterday, its just some silly program which forces me into activity, but I tried to find a new way and when I did not felt impulses I tried to just be present with people and be present with whats happening. Im not saying that it worked out perfectly, but I felt there is a difference from how I feel usually on meetings like this. Second challenge for me was to stay till the end, I tend to escape from every party or meeting early, on one workshop our teacher told me that its unconscious feeling that its better to leave myself then to be refused by the group later. If it is like this not I cant say, but it was hard to stay till the end and live till then, not just survive it till the end. Non the less, it was very nice evening, time passed by very fast and I could talk with people from course which happen very rarely otherwise. And we had unexpected visitor, some india guy who gave us mini lesson in Gyantri mantra singing, it was nice intermezo :)
Nice day today, full I would say, its good I write this blog because I already cant say what happened in the morning :D Im grateful for today. Ohm mani padme hum.
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