82,5kg " + " - so depressive. Why I do all that, 2-4 hours/day of exercise, micromanaged food, discipline in life schedule as much as Im able to and no weight down, even more.... lets see after break tomorrow if there will be change.
Else I slept again well and deep, dont remember any dreams. In the morning up for morning exercises.
Notes: pushups: 1th day = 13x, Headstand: 6:30 (record)
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations with holds 5-3 seconds. It was much needed today, originally I planed to do pyramid, but I felt I need SS so much today and also did not wanted to destroy myself too much because of lots of things I need to do today. It was great warm up and stretch.
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes. Today I felt not so well and did only 25 reps. Even I really tried to kick my butt hard. But I felt its simply like this atm, so be it, important is to be on top I can do.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core training, today I did 30situps / 60secs yoga v-sit / 30 situps / 90 secs v-sit / 30 situps and about 45secs of v-sit. This set I felt really great today, I felt like I really feel my core and I like what I feel - strong, formed, obedient core which work as I want and need better and better, nice feeling. It was very rich, had hard times to stand up afterwards.
last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I was somehow physically unable to do what I wanted, so I just enjoyed what I could do and at one Enter Shikary song it even all flew away and I was dancing wild as youngster, enjoyed that very much. V.good to dance like this, always.
To be continued.... !
II) Later in the morning I gave tantra massage to a friend to return a favour. I must say I quite enjoyed it, she has nice, strong body of high level yoga practitioner and its different quality to those mostly skinny clients. I really hope it gave her as much as her massage gave to me week ago.
III) Afternoon I had a client, it was great to treat a man after some time. Its good to balance male and female energies. I always feel like its balancing myself too. Partly because of deep contact I have during treatment, everything have some effect. So I really appreciate opportunity to treat a man as well.
IV) In the evening I went to contact improvisation jam. to my delight, 2 friends come, which was great both because it was great to see them and because we were more there! Most of people were newbies so it wasnt so flowing and I felt somehow responsible for them that they can join and dance this wonderful dance. It was a bit exhausting to be honest, but there were also some very special and nice moments during the session for which Im grateful.
I returned home very exhausted and went sleep shortly afterwards. Full, nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 30. ledna 2014
30.1.2014 - on the edge of energy
?? Weight. Again boringly deep, dreamless sleep. Alarm woke me up and up and straight for morning exercises.
notes: 0th pushup day: 22 maximum (17 last week) = next 7 days 13 pushups/day, headstand: 6:20 (record)
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up. 10x fast sun salutations, some runnig with neck stretches and shadowboxing. Rich as ever. Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, did not made much more than 5 rounds of Tee Major core Workout, I do alternative versions in 1leg/1arm phase in last weeks, it proves satisfyingly challenging and rich, I do either 2secs holds, fast 20 alternation, 10sec one side or 4x5secs. After those 5 rounds I just made some situps for side muscles so they got also some love. It was whole quite rich, had hard times getting up afterwards.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. I must say these longer dances I enjoy very much, maybe its because I feel I have lots of space to play with everything. To relax into whatever I want and do crazy stuff, which maybe even dosnt look nice from outside, but are fun to do. Yeah, I enjoyed it a lot today.
II) Later in the morning I had a client. It was nice, because lately my clients are sort of not showing what they feel (I feel it anyway from they body, but it costs lot of focus), but this client expressed himself so it was very nice change.
III) Afternoon, after very needed rest I made yoga for something around 1h:20m (1-3, 2-2, 3-2, 4-2, 5-2, 6-2, armstand practice). I must say I did not wanted to do it sooo much today, it just somehow so naturally happen - to start exercises. Im quite tired today, both physically and psychically. I made easier asanas today and afterwards I did not felt really great, but I felt my body very good. Its not easy to explain it for me, simply - even if I dont feel like "wow, it was great exercise" it still is very strongly felt that it was great to do it. I fee like if I would miss this one, I would regret it later and its simply not worth it.
IV) In the evening I went to Jiu-Jitsu training. You know... I can be tired as I want, but JJ is something else then sport or exercise, it charge me most of times instead of making more tired. And today it was like that as well, my skills are slowly floating on the surface again as I continue to remember techniques and principles. Its interesting to observe how memories are floating up from nowhere. We did aikinage and hikinage and I was lucky to be with brown-belt uke (sparing partner). It was great and I felt like I took today from a training a LOT today. And it was sooo fun both with other guys and my uke, I was cackling all the time, but also focused on what I was doing. Mister even showed on my example how looks good attack in one technique, because "Petr is going into it so manly." HAHA, my ego blow up the roof, but its nice from time to time, especially when I have so depressive period right now, its good to see, that at least something in me can be example and inspiration for others, gives hope I need so much lately.
Nice, full day today, challenging again, with lots of pain, but very worth living. Ohm mani padme hum.
notes: 0th pushup day: 22 maximum (17 last week) = next 7 days 13 pushups/day, headstand: 6:20 (record)
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up. 10x fast sun salutations, some runnig with neck stretches and shadowboxing. Rich as ever. Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, did not made much more than 5 rounds of Tee Major core Workout, I do alternative versions in 1leg/1arm phase in last weeks, it proves satisfyingly challenging and rich, I do either 2secs holds, fast 20 alternation, 10sec one side or 4x5secs. After those 5 rounds I just made some situps for side muscles so they got also some love. It was whole quite rich, had hard times getting up afterwards.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. I must say these longer dances I enjoy very much, maybe its because I feel I have lots of space to play with everything. To relax into whatever I want and do crazy stuff, which maybe even dosnt look nice from outside, but are fun to do. Yeah, I enjoyed it a lot today.
II) Later in the morning I had a client. It was nice, because lately my clients are sort of not showing what they feel (I feel it anyway from they body, but it costs lot of focus), but this client expressed himself so it was very nice change.
III) Afternoon, after very needed rest I made yoga for something around 1h:20m (1-3, 2-2, 3-2, 4-2, 5-2, 6-2, armstand practice). I must say I did not wanted to do it sooo much today, it just somehow so naturally happen - to start exercises. Im quite tired today, both physically and psychically. I made easier asanas today and afterwards I did not felt really great, but I felt my body very good. Its not easy to explain it for me, simply - even if I dont feel like "wow, it was great exercise" it still is very strongly felt that it was great to do it. I fee like if I would miss this one, I would regret it later and its simply not worth it.
IV) In the evening I went to Jiu-Jitsu training. You know... I can be tired as I want, but JJ is something else then sport or exercise, it charge me most of times instead of making more tired. And today it was like that as well, my skills are slowly floating on the surface again as I continue to remember techniques and principles. Its interesting to observe how memories are floating up from nowhere. We did aikinage and hikinage and I was lucky to be with brown-belt uke (sparing partner). It was great and I felt like I took today from a training a LOT today. And it was sooo fun both with other guys and my uke, I was cackling all the time, but also focused on what I was doing. Mister even showed on my example how looks good attack in one technique, because "Petr is going into it so manly." HAHA, my ego blow up the roof, but its nice from time to time, especially when I have so depressive period right now, its good to see, that at least something in me can be example and inspiration for others, gives hope I need so much lately.
Nice, full day today, challenging again, with lots of pain, but very worth living. Ohm mani padme hum.
29.1.2014 - active resting and changes in a ways
?? Weight. I slept well and deep, whole night and dont remember any dreams. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting with old way Sun Salutations on speed, in first 10 minutes I did 53 reps and total I think I did 70 in 15 minutes. I felt it so good to make today whole 15 minutes on speed, I feel that it really helps to improve my stamina and endurance. Its very challenging, after first 10 minutes Im very exhausted and continue another five gives me a lot in terms of pushing my limits through pain, breathing problems, dizziness and muscle struggle.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I did mainly Barstarz set. I have mixed feelings from it, on one side I felt like Im doing quite good but then I needed more breaks then I liked. On other side - I know I did on maximum edge, because I exercised to the full - till body failure, through pain. Im always wondering if its good, on one side, exercising only in hard zone dont lead to progress, but every day on max also dosnt seem to create fast progress (according to experiences of other people). But for ABS I still feel is max intensive necessary.
Then I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I dont remember much anymore how it went, but I think it was quite nice and free dancing.
II) Most of morning I was again rotating through city, offices and shopping, preparing for events to come, buying supplies for them.
III) Afternoon I did fairer yoga set (1-3, 2-2, 3-2, 4-2, 5-3, 6-1, wheel, armstand practice). I had again this feeling like going to apotheke. I choose more difficult poses today, well... they are in fact all basic poses, just a bit more difficult. Im working a lot on my back and flexibility of my back so doing lots of back-bent positions and twisting asanas. Also wheel for this matter - most crazy asana for me I can come with, its always big part of work just to made me go do it. But I know with time I could do nice wheel as well and use this flexibility in acrobatic stuff I want to do. Also armstand practices went nice today. I believe if I keep doing this, soon I could get enough stability to start attempting unglue from wall and get up without support. I felt very great after whole set. Its not feeling of pleasure or something (even it can be sometimes as well and not really insignificant) its more this feeling of doing right thing.
IV) In the evening I went to CI class. I was physically very tired, but I see it more as advantage then disadvantage. Tired body is more accessible to go with the flow and learn affective moves. We continued from last class in tuning on each other and bringing consciousness about movement in this connection in series of breathing/moving exercises. It wasnt much fun most of the time, mainly because of need to move or not move dependant on breath, but I know very well, that its effective way how to make movement conscious and know better dancing.
In the evening I just finished great movie Wolf in Wall Street and went to practice very deep sleeping :3 Ohm mani padme hum.
Thought of the day: While doing morning exercise and yoga I do in last days new approach. I just dont change anything if I feel non-harming kind of pain. I let it pain (if I know that Im not harming myself). Its really interesting how it changes things. First of all - it dosnt pain that much anymore. In one case even pain transformed into v.cozy warm feeling in that part. I just felt, motivated from motivation speeches Im listening to, that this pain is really only temporary. Once I stop doing this practice it will be away, or very soon and if I listen to this pain and stop, I will just feel sad, that I did and not progressed forward because of listening to this pain which is only short-term. And I fucking want to finally progress to levels I never been before. You ant imagine how its annoying to be the one who drag myself back everytime I grow "too much".
I) Starting with old way Sun Salutations on speed, in first 10 minutes I did 53 reps and total I think I did 70 in 15 minutes. I felt it so good to make today whole 15 minutes on speed, I feel that it really helps to improve my stamina and endurance. Its very challenging, after first 10 minutes Im very exhausted and continue another five gives me a lot in terms of pushing my limits through pain, breathing problems, dizziness and muscle struggle.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I did mainly Barstarz set. I have mixed feelings from it, on one side I felt like Im doing quite good but then I needed more breaks then I liked. On other side - I know I did on maximum edge, because I exercised to the full - till body failure, through pain. Im always wondering if its good, on one side, exercising only in hard zone dont lead to progress, but every day on max also dosnt seem to create fast progress (according to experiences of other people). But for ABS I still feel is max intensive necessary.
Then I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I dont remember much anymore how it went, but I think it was quite nice and free dancing.
II) Most of morning I was again rotating through city, offices and shopping, preparing for events to come, buying supplies for them.
III) Afternoon I did fairer yoga set (1-3, 2-2, 3-2, 4-2, 5-3, 6-1, wheel, armstand practice). I had again this feeling like going to apotheke. I choose more difficult poses today, well... they are in fact all basic poses, just a bit more difficult. Im working a lot on my back and flexibility of my back so doing lots of back-bent positions and twisting asanas. Also wheel for this matter - most crazy asana for me I can come with, its always big part of work just to made me go do it. But I know with time I could do nice wheel as well and use this flexibility in acrobatic stuff I want to do. Also armstand practices went nice today. I believe if I keep doing this, soon I could get enough stability to start attempting unglue from wall and get up without support. I felt very great after whole set. Its not feeling of pleasure or something (even it can be sometimes as well and not really insignificant) its more this feeling of doing right thing.
IV) In the evening I went to CI class. I was physically very tired, but I see it more as advantage then disadvantage. Tired body is more accessible to go with the flow and learn affective moves. We continued from last class in tuning on each other and bringing consciousness about movement in this connection in series of breathing/moving exercises. It wasnt much fun most of the time, mainly because of need to move or not move dependant on breath, but I know very well, that its effective way how to make movement conscious and know better dancing.
In the evening I just finished great movie Wolf in Wall Street and went to practice very deep sleeping :3 Ohm mani padme hum.
Thought of the day: While doing morning exercise and yoga I do in last days new approach. I just dont change anything if I feel non-harming kind of pain. I let it pain (if I know that Im not harming myself). Its really interesting how it changes things. First of all - it dosnt pain that much anymore. In one case even pain transformed into v.cozy warm feeling in that part. I just felt, motivated from motivation speeches Im listening to, that this pain is really only temporary. Once I stop doing this practice it will be away, or very soon and if I listen to this pain and stop, I will just feel sad, that I did and not progressed forward because of listening to this pain which is only short-term. And I fucking want to finally progress to levels I never been before. You ant imagine how its annoying to be the one who drag myself back everytime I grow "too much".
pondělí 27. ledna 2014
28.1.2014 - travel, healing and work
81,8kg (81,3 on scale) - just out of curiosity because of healing yesterday
I slept well surprisingly, had couple of dreams when in one I split up with my beloved and get immediately together with other, rather horrible woman, which told me that shes pregnant for 1 month... it was not a nice dream at all... I woke up later. Or more precisely - I woke up 5:30 but was working in a bed with that cold of mine. And after hour or so I got up for at least a bit of morning exercise.
notes: 13th day of pushup program +6 = 16 pushups
I) Started with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations. Precise execution with holds 5-3 seconds. Was exactly what I needed, all limbs seemed to be a bit longer afterwards and it was good warm up as well.
Then 10 minutes of dancing, purely to move all what needed to move and to pump blood into veins a bit more. It was fun. Last I did 10 mites on stationary bike (5:00 -2nd; 5:00 - 3rd). I was thinking if Im not overdoing in my condition, but I simply wanted to do at least 30 minutes of physical activity, to keep body working. I felt good to do this and did not felt exhausted afterwards.
II) Then long travel which went smooth and fine.
III) Afternoon and evening I had couple of clients. I enjoyed these in the way that both treatments felt fresh somehow. Im not sure if it was because of me or clients, but I felt nice, fresh playful energy during treatment which I was used to feel years ago while doing Shiatsu. In last couple of years I dont feel it often anymore, so I really enjoyed it now.
Well, that was it for today. It dosnt seems so, but it was quite full day sine very morning till evening. Satisfying day as well, love when in one day I can work, train and have joy. Ohm mani padme hum.
Thought of the day - I was thinking today.... lots of exceptional people was very often sick and ill in childhood. Anginas and in general stuff with high temperatures. I was thinking - yeah... germs and stuff, blabla... but, it just come on my mind, dosnt it mean more that those people come through very fast and strong transformations in childhood? There are "adults" walking around who never got past absolutely skin-deep basic understanding of life (and its crowds of them) and there are people who dived really deep into understanding of life and I feel it could be interesting to make a study how these people were ill in childhood. To be honest, just very little exceptional people I ever heard off were healthy in childhood, they very often grow up from very sick, weak or in other way challenged kids (Mozart, Einstein, Tesla, in martial arts its like every second grandmaster in past). I dont believe in coincidence.
I slept well surprisingly, had couple of dreams when in one I split up with my beloved and get immediately together with other, rather horrible woman, which told me that shes pregnant for 1 month... it was not a nice dream at all... I woke up later. Or more precisely - I woke up 5:30 but was working in a bed with that cold of mine. And after hour or so I got up for at least a bit of morning exercise.
notes: 13th day of pushup program +6 = 16 pushups
I) Started with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations. Precise execution with holds 5-3 seconds. Was exactly what I needed, all limbs seemed to be a bit longer afterwards and it was good warm up as well.
Then 10 minutes of dancing, purely to move all what needed to move and to pump blood into veins a bit more. It was fun. Last I did 10 mites on stationary bike (5:00 -2nd; 5:00 - 3rd). I was thinking if Im not overdoing in my condition, but I simply wanted to do at least 30 minutes of physical activity, to keep body working. I felt good to do this and did not felt exhausted afterwards.
II) Then long travel which went smooth and fine.
III) Afternoon and evening I had couple of clients. I enjoyed these in the way that both treatments felt fresh somehow. Im not sure if it was because of me or clients, but I felt nice, fresh playful energy during treatment which I was used to feel years ago while doing Shiatsu. In last couple of years I dont feel it often anymore, so I really enjoyed it now.
Well, that was it for today. It dosnt seems so, but it was quite full day sine very morning till evening. Satisfying day as well, love when in one day I can work, train and have joy. Ohm mani padme hum.
Thought of the day - I was thinking today.... lots of exceptional people was very often sick and ill in childhood. Anginas and in general stuff with high temperatures. I was thinking - yeah... germs and stuff, blabla... but, it just come on my mind, dosnt it mean more that those people come through very fast and strong transformations in childhood? There are "adults" walking around who never got past absolutely skin-deep basic understanding of life (and its crowds of them) and there are people who dived really deep into understanding of life and I feel it could be interesting to make a study how these people were ill in childhood. To be honest, just very little exceptional people I ever heard off were healthy in childhood, they very often grow up from very sick, weak or in other way challenged kids (Mozart, Einstein, Tesla, in martial arts its like every second grandmaster in past). I dont believe in coincidence.
neděle 26. ledna 2014
27.1.2014 - Cold the Backstabber
?? Weight. I decided to not weight every day anymore. I want to weight on first day of exercise week and on last day of the same week. This gains in between takes too much energy and I think that wish to work on me without whip every morning in the form of weighting can be good. Lets see how I will feel it.
Else i slept good tonight, much less woke-ups. Dont remember any dreams, but have slight feeling that I dreamt quite interesting stuff tonight. And in the morning (5:30 today) up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way Sun Salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. Very rich today. I continued with 5 minutes of acrobatics on the ground, was not much space here but I did what I could. I did not created any form for this exercise yet, it seemed today, that its heading into some kind of extreme aerobics on the ground or breakdance. In any case I feel it as worth acrobatic/strength exercise.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, today I was doing 43th rep when alarm rung. I felt it really great, was not expecting to again rise the bar. What helped me a lot was inner setup, where I felt... "its hurting, but I know it will last when I stop, that its not permanent pain, so what the heck" - it helped me to kick my ass a bit more. I was humming like a machine again, good I stopped smoking last year, else there would be no chance to do this with this form.
4th block was 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, today I chose mostly dynamic exercises. I felt my core very exhausted after yesterday, but I found lot of exercises I could do. I kept pace on the edge and after time limit I had hard times to stand up. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. After shaking off stiffness it was fine and second half I quite enjoyed it.
Lets see what day will bring ....to be continued!
I) Later in the morning I had a client. Interesting treatment, client was reacting quite strong. I wish it worked for him and I believe it did.
I did not more significant exercise, just a bit of biking. Some Cold or Flu jumped on me. I started to work on it since first signs (supporting fever form inside, giving more attention to my needs). In the evening it wasnt nice really, trying this Propolis drops instead of traditional Aspirin. Its funny - I was thinking a while ago that its long time since I had to use any medicaments. Also what gives me some clues - in the morning I told to my beloved that I think I overdid morning exercises... maybe I really did and this is defence reaction. In any way - I took really easy "tea" evening and went sleep early.
Ohm mani padme hum.
Else i slept good tonight, much less woke-ups. Dont remember any dreams, but have slight feeling that I dreamt quite interesting stuff tonight. And in the morning (5:30 today) up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way Sun Salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. Very rich today. I continued with 5 minutes of acrobatics on the ground, was not much space here but I did what I could. I did not created any form for this exercise yet, it seemed today, that its heading into some kind of extreme aerobics on the ground or breakdance. In any case I feel it as worth acrobatic/strength exercise.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, today I was doing 43th rep when alarm rung. I felt it really great, was not expecting to again rise the bar. What helped me a lot was inner setup, where I felt... "its hurting, but I know it will last when I stop, that its not permanent pain, so what the heck" - it helped me to kick my ass a bit more. I was humming like a machine again, good I stopped smoking last year, else there would be no chance to do this with this form.
4th block was 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, today I chose mostly dynamic exercises. I felt my core very exhausted after yesterday, but I found lot of exercises I could do. I kept pace on the edge and after time limit I had hard times to stand up. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. After shaking off stiffness it was fine and second half I quite enjoyed it.
Lets see what day will bring ....to be continued!
I) Later in the morning I had a client. Interesting treatment, client was reacting quite strong. I wish it worked for him and I believe it did.
I did not more significant exercise, just a bit of biking. Some Cold or Flu jumped on me. I started to work on it since first signs (supporting fever form inside, giving more attention to my needs). In the evening it wasnt nice really, trying this Propolis drops instead of traditional Aspirin. Its funny - I was thinking a while ago that its long time since I had to use any medicaments. Also what gives me some clues - in the morning I told to my beloved that I think I overdid morning exercises... maybe I really did and this is defence reaction. In any way - I took really easy "tea" evening and went sleep early.
Ohm mani padme hum.
26.1.2014 - fulfilling familly day
81,8 (81,3 on scale) - " -- " good to see, that my intuition is telling me right when cleaning is happening
Else I slept well, even with many wake-ups. I also dreamt about being in very deep underground of some building. It was very dark and hollow place and I was there with some people, but I dont remember if I knew them. Its great to feel how is my body reacting on what I plan to do, I start new week of exercises today and body react totally perfectly accordingly to that fact, its great to feel it. And its also prove, that its very valid to visualize things to help them attract into life.
And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
notes: 11th day of pushups +4 = 14 pushups, 5:40 headstand
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations, made today 5-3 with bit of 2 sec holds, which I felt great. It was tough start today, my inner parts of legs are still hurting from dancing, and back is also still quite felt, but after couple of painful stretching minutes body relaxed and was moving much smoother and more pleasant.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Today random set, but I tried to choose as hard exercises as possible. To my delight I found out that something changed in my ABS and I can do some exercises better and also its possible to overcome struggle and pain more easily. Its good feeling. Was rich set.
3rd block I was biking on stationary bike (2:30-2nd, 5-3rd, 2:30-4th). Again, I felt my legs quite painful, but I simply tried as much as I could, I though - it dosnt matter how fast I go in case its as fast as I CAN go. It was great.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, after couple of first minutes where I really had to make stiff parts move it was nice. I tried to dance on maximum intensity, so it was quite rich.
Lets see what day will bring, its snowing here today ....to be continued!
II) During the day couple of wonderful love makings, which are always something like general exam to know what I should exercise more... :) Its partially a joke of course, love making is not exercise for me, its just best natural movement and most pleasant there is!
III) In the evening I did yoga, set for something around an hour (3-1, 2-2, 3-1, 4-1, 5-1, wheel and armstand practice) . I chose quite different setup today. I feel a lot lately that I want to work on bending my back backwards, for acrobatic stuff I want to do it seems mandatory. Yeah, its extremely uncomfortable and annoying and painful to do it for me, but I want to do this stuff more than I dont want to take that discomfort. It was great set, I liked how I can do wheel (well, I cant in fact, but its much better then ever) and today first time I stood on my arms during armstand practice. I do it at the wall and I use my head as 3rd point of holding and I think I will do so for some more time until I learn my body to be stable in this position, but I could stand without falling back or to sides and thats big step for me on my path to full armstand, it made me really happy.
I enjoyed this day, because I could enjoy my beloved, but also did some quality practices and still had time for resting and some working as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well, even with many wake-ups. I also dreamt about being in very deep underground of some building. It was very dark and hollow place and I was there with some people, but I dont remember if I knew them. Its great to feel how is my body reacting on what I plan to do, I start new week of exercises today and body react totally perfectly accordingly to that fact, its great to feel it. And its also prove, that its very valid to visualize things to help them attract into life.
And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
notes: 11th day of pushups +4 = 14 pushups, 5:40 headstand
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations, made today 5-3 with bit of 2 sec holds, which I felt great. It was tough start today, my inner parts of legs are still hurting from dancing, and back is also still quite felt, but after couple of painful stretching minutes body relaxed and was moving much smoother and more pleasant.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Today random set, but I tried to choose as hard exercises as possible. To my delight I found out that something changed in my ABS and I can do some exercises better and also its possible to overcome struggle and pain more easily. Its good feeling. Was rich set.
3rd block I was biking on stationary bike (2:30-2nd, 5-3rd, 2:30-4th). Again, I felt my legs quite painful, but I simply tried as much as I could, I though - it dosnt matter how fast I go in case its as fast as I CAN go. It was great.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, after couple of first minutes where I really had to make stiff parts move it was nice. I tried to dance on maximum intensity, so it was quite rich.
Lets see what day will bring, its snowing here today ....to be continued!
II) During the day couple of wonderful love makings, which are always something like general exam to know what I should exercise more... :) Its partially a joke of course, love making is not exercise for me, its just best natural movement and most pleasant there is!
III) In the evening I did yoga, set for something around an hour (3-1, 2-2, 3-1, 4-1, 5-1, wheel and armstand practice) . I chose quite different setup today. I feel a lot lately that I want to work on bending my back backwards, for acrobatic stuff I want to do it seems mandatory. Yeah, its extremely uncomfortable and annoying and painful to do it for me, but I want to do this stuff more than I dont want to take that discomfort. It was great set, I liked how I can do wheel (well, I cant in fact, but its much better then ever) and today first time I stood on my arms during armstand practice. I do it at the wall and I use my head as 3rd point of holding and I think I will do so for some more time until I learn my body to be stable in this position, but I could stand without falling back or to sides and thats big step for me on my path to full armstand, it made me really happy.
I enjoyed this day, because I could enjoy my beloved, but also did some quality practices and still had time for resting and some working as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 25. ledna 2014
25.1.2014 - restart and maintenance
?? Weight.
I slept well and long, have planed rest day today to recuperate from a week. I had a dream about returning to the shop I was working years ago. I just wonder why I have lately dreams about that work...
notes: 10th day of pushups +3 = 13 pushups
I will write more later, have a nice day!!!!
It was very interesting day, seems that my body follows my wishes more than ever. As I took rest day today, my body in one moment afternoon totally switched off, I felt like having a concussion, heavy head, could not almost speak and move and this state lasted like 3 hours. It wasnt easy, but I could not really do much about it, just surrender to it. After that time it stopped and I could function again.
I also experienced today lot of cleaning on both physical and emotional level. So despite not doing any exercises it was not really boring or dull day for me... Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well and long, have planed rest day today to recuperate from a week. I had a dream about returning to the shop I was working years ago. I just wonder why I have lately dreams about that work...
notes: 10th day of pushups +3 = 13 pushups
I will write more later, have a nice day!!!!
It was very interesting day, seems that my body follows my wishes more than ever. As I took rest day today, my body in one moment afternoon totally switched off, I felt like having a concussion, heavy head, could not almost speak and move and this state lasted like 3 hours. It wasnt easy, but I could not really do much about it, just surrender to it. After that time it stopped and I could function again.
I also experienced today lot of cleaning on both physical and emotional level. So despite not doing any exercises it was not really boring or dull day for me... Ohm mani padme hum.
24.1.2014 - Travels and hugs.
hmm, dont remember any more, 82,4 I think
Im writing this 26.1. and I must say I dont remember much any more. I sure slept well, that I know and also that I woke up shortly before alarm rung and went for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10 old way Sun Salutations, running with stretches and shadowboxing. Yeah, it did its job and warmed me up. I continued with 10 minutes of pyramid, I did 13-1 and back to 6 without last 6 squats, so total I did 111 pushups, 111 situps and 105 squats. Not bad numbers in my book, and also I do fair reps, no fake ones to make it easy. I was very happy how it went today, I did not had any major strugles and finished 13-1 with 2 minutes left so next time 14. My goal is to make 15-1 in 10 minutes and then lets see whats humanly possible :)
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I chose random exercises which felt right ATM and made nice, challenging set, swept was pouring like crazy and my core felt good receiving so much love and attention.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, at start I had to dance out stiffness fro previous exercises, but it was fast gone and I could enjoy dancing itself. My body was exhausted so I could not do some major actions, but I had my fun.
notes: 9th day pushups +2 = 12 pushups, 5:30 headstand
II) Rest of the morning and noon I was travelling and resting before evening program.
III) In the evening we went to Birthday party, I mention it, because I made to eat just 1 piece of birthday cake, which I was proud about, only sweets I ate there, rest only healthy stuff. I was also dancing for about a hour on very nice rhythm music. It was good, because I could not find way to integrate into party, partly because of language, partly because of my inner mood. This dancing helped nicely.
Lot of travelling today, about 6 hours just on the way, but also lots of nice meetings and hugs from friends and beloved. Ohm mani padme hum.
Im writing this 26.1. and I must say I dont remember much any more. I sure slept well, that I know and also that I woke up shortly before alarm rung and went for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10 old way Sun Salutations, running with stretches and shadowboxing. Yeah, it did its job and warmed me up. I continued with 10 minutes of pyramid, I did 13-1 and back to 6 without last 6 squats, so total I did 111 pushups, 111 situps and 105 squats. Not bad numbers in my book, and also I do fair reps, no fake ones to make it easy. I was very happy how it went today, I did not had any major strugles and finished 13-1 with 2 minutes left so next time 14. My goal is to make 15-1 in 10 minutes and then lets see whats humanly possible :)
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I chose random exercises which felt right ATM and made nice, challenging set, swept was pouring like crazy and my core felt good receiving so much love and attention.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, at start I had to dance out stiffness fro previous exercises, but it was fast gone and I could enjoy dancing itself. My body was exhausted so I could not do some major actions, but I had my fun.
notes: 9th day pushups +2 = 12 pushups, 5:30 headstand
II) Rest of the morning and noon I was travelling and resting before evening program.
III) In the evening we went to Birthday party, I mention it, because I made to eat just 1 piece of birthday cake, which I was proud about, only sweets I ate there, rest only healthy stuff. I was also dancing for about a hour on very nice rhythm music. It was good, because I could not find way to integrate into party, partly because of language, partly because of my inner mood. This dancing helped nicely.
Lot of travelling today, about 6 hours just on the way, but also lots of nice meetings and hugs from friends and beloved. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 23. ledna 2014
23.1.2014 - Healing and practicing.
82,7kg " + " - Its not a surprise, because It was after half-fast from Tuesday, but anyway I somehow expected to have less, I felt somehow in better shape today morning while dancing, but if is weight going into muscles Im fine with it. Its true, that when Im training properly, I always get to point, where Im not gaining mass any more and thats not what I want.
Else I slept very well tonight. My sleep is somehow correcting to 6 hours more and more, Even when I go sleep earlier, I wake up after something over 6 hours and simply dont need to sleep more. Which is good, because I dont have to go to bed so early, it simply dosnt have a point, because I just wake up earlier then. I know I had a dream tonight and that it was even strong one, but dont remember a thing what it was about. Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way sun salutations, some running with stretches and shadowboxing, it was rough start today, my back and body pain a quite, but thats whats warm up for - to warm up stiff body! Yeah, then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core training, 30 situps, 60 secs yoga v-sit, 30 situps, 90 secs v-sit, 30 situps and then alarm rung. This set is incredibly challenging really, I put all I can into this (as well as I try to put everything into everything...) and its improving a bit, but so slowly... it very rich and there is so many levels v-sit can be done, depends on how high legs are, its very powerful exercise. I felt my core quite good.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. I enjoyed this block a lot, I dance really intensively in this case, try to hold body right and dance with music, not in patterns. Today it worked very nicely and I must admit, I liked what I saw in a window when I looked there. Im very slowly starting to shape better. I wish to not stop again at the point where real changes began like I always did in past. I wish to change this fucking pattern this year. There is no time to waste! There is so much what needs to be learned, achieved and to be done.
notes: 8th day - +1 = 11 pushups, 5:20 headstand
II) Later in the morning friend come for exchange massage, I was receiving. I felt it soooo healsome. Friend hit the right wave of energy and level of care. I was very grateful she agreed to give today, because I felt today morning destroyed from yesterday. It was only first time I could just stay at the place, enjoy massage in the comfort of home and rest. It was truly amazing experience, I slept almost 2 hours in very deep sleep when I felt receiving a lot of healing energy. Very nice.
III) Afternoon I did yoga set, about 1:15, 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 2x4, 2x5, 1x6 and armstand practices. It was great, I felt for a whole time of practice like really being in apothecary. I was thinking, why I actually practice yoga when I do so intense morning exercise and in the evening going on other training. But I really feel yoga like something which heals what needs to be healed from other exercises and stretching to live better and be more flexible in body and life. Like wise yogis say - who dosnt have time for yoga, have time to be ill.... I dont have time to be ill so I enjoy yoga.
And now going to Jiu-Jitsu! Looking forward ....to be continued!
IV) jiu Jitsu was again awesome, we did bit more classic Jiu Jitsu, but fortunately also Hakkoryu (Hakkoryu is like mature martial art in comparison to classic Jiu Jitsu, thats how I feel it after years of doing both). I had lot of attention from master today and I hope I used that opportunity to maximum to learn a lot and correct a lot of mistakes as well. I also found the joy from this fighting spirit again. Its really deep training to do this.
In the evening I did nothing more, it was full, good day and I was happy to go to bed. Ohm mani padme hum.
Though of the day - I have to stop playing computer games, even I play much much less then in past. Today I felt stronger then ever that its escape from life, escaping out of fear. I feel myself in last days so cowardly, so afraid to work to get further. Even in the moment I got nice venues from my side-business and Shiatsu, I had flash in my head like - "yeah, its enough", like - yeah, its enough to survive, but I need to make money to study, to improve my Salon, to expand. Where I got this pattern from? I dont want to just survive, I want to live!
Else I slept very well tonight. My sleep is somehow correcting to 6 hours more and more, Even when I go sleep earlier, I wake up after something over 6 hours and simply dont need to sleep more. Which is good, because I dont have to go to bed so early, it simply dosnt have a point, because I just wake up earlier then. I know I had a dream tonight and that it was even strong one, but dont remember a thing what it was about. Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way sun salutations, some running with stretches and shadowboxing, it was rough start today, my back and body pain a quite, but thats whats warm up for - to warm up stiff body! Yeah, then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core training, 30 situps, 60 secs yoga v-sit, 30 situps, 90 secs v-sit, 30 situps and then alarm rung. This set is incredibly challenging really, I put all I can into this (as well as I try to put everything into everything...) and its improving a bit, but so slowly... it very rich and there is so many levels v-sit can be done, depends on how high legs are, its very powerful exercise. I felt my core quite good.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. I enjoyed this block a lot, I dance really intensively in this case, try to hold body right and dance with music, not in patterns. Today it worked very nicely and I must admit, I liked what I saw in a window when I looked there. Im very slowly starting to shape better. I wish to not stop again at the point where real changes began like I always did in past. I wish to change this fucking pattern this year. There is no time to waste! There is so much what needs to be learned, achieved and to be done.
notes: 8th day - +1 = 11 pushups, 5:20 headstand
II) Later in the morning friend come for exchange massage, I was receiving. I felt it soooo healsome. Friend hit the right wave of energy and level of care. I was very grateful she agreed to give today, because I felt today morning destroyed from yesterday. It was only first time I could just stay at the place, enjoy massage in the comfort of home and rest. It was truly amazing experience, I slept almost 2 hours in very deep sleep when I felt receiving a lot of healing energy. Very nice.
III) Afternoon I did yoga set, about 1:15, 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 2x4, 2x5, 1x6 and armstand practices. It was great, I felt for a whole time of practice like really being in apothecary. I was thinking, why I actually practice yoga when I do so intense morning exercise and in the evening going on other training. But I really feel yoga like something which heals what needs to be healed from other exercises and stretching to live better and be more flexible in body and life. Like wise yogis say - who dosnt have time for yoga, have time to be ill.... I dont have time to be ill so I enjoy yoga.
And now going to Jiu-Jitsu! Looking forward ....to be continued!
IV) jiu Jitsu was again awesome, we did bit more classic Jiu Jitsu, but fortunately also Hakkoryu (Hakkoryu is like mature martial art in comparison to classic Jiu Jitsu, thats how I feel it after years of doing both). I had lot of attention from master today and I hope I used that opportunity to maximum to learn a lot and correct a lot of mistakes as well. I also found the joy from this fighting spirit again. Its really deep training to do this.
In the evening I did nothing more, it was full, good day and I was happy to go to bed. Ohm mani padme hum.
Though of the day - I have to stop playing computer games, even I play much much less then in past. Today I felt stronger then ever that its escape from life, escaping out of fear. I feel myself in last days so cowardly, so afraid to work to get further. Even in the moment I got nice venues from my side-business and Shiatsu, I had flash in my head like - "yeah, its enough", like - yeah, its enough to survive, but I need to make money to study, to improve my Salon, to expand. Where I got this pattern from? I dont want to just survive, I want to live!
úterý 21. ledna 2014
22.1.2014 - back - most important part of my body atm...
82,4 " - " A bit mixed feelings, I had no time to eat supper yesterday so I though I will have much less, but its less anyway. Lets see tomorrow. Proposition: am I eating too much?!
Else I slept well, deep and nourishing tonight, had no dreams and woke up even before alarm. And in the morning straight for morning exercises!
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds, made 5-3 seconds, it went v.slow at start, I was terribly stiff and after yesterday and my back is like from jelly, but painful jelly. I guess lots of things are adjusting/changing in my back. Its even harder and harder to sit in my chair lately, its not comfortable any more - the way Im used to sit. Its like learning to sit again. Anyway, with every rep it was better and at the end I felt ready and warmed up for next.
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1. Today it went much better than last week, made 10 reps on each side and 1 rep on each side with 5 second holds in difficult positions. I feel training paying off slowly, but steady. However... once again, Im not so sure about healthiness of Kata1, I need to discuss it with some physiotherapist or something. Its great workout, but I dont want to do sports, I want to live healthy so I care a lot about exercising in healthy way. But anyway, great exercise!
3rd block I did ABS and core exercises, mainly Barstarz ones... or only Barstarz ones, because I did not even finished set properly. Needed lot of breaks... even when I had very strong motivation input from my morning exercise set on youtube. Its not so easy! It was very rich.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today I tried again to work on straight back, relaxed belly and rectum, good breathing and all this. And also to have fun, because most fun I have when I DONT dance in schematic moves, but freely, wild and wide! Well, working on freeing myself into it at least... :)
notes: 7th day of 10x push-up, headstand 5:10
II) Later in the morning a had a friend to visit me for friendly chitchat and exchange massage. It was nice, I dont have many friends so Im happy to meet those I have. And also exchange massage was good, both the one I got (finally proper massage again) and what I gave, for some reason I was very relaxed and made up couple of new techniques. Great morning.
Lets see what day will bring ...to be continued!
III) Afternoon I made yoga session, just short one, about 45 minutes. And I did just about 5 asanas plus a bit of armstand preparation, but it was great anyway and I felt like - I dont have time, should I just not do it? But even short set is better then nothing... so I did even this. It felt great... Something released in middle flow and that generated extremely pleasant feelings in my pelvis (2nd chakra). It was very yummy :) But, of course, yoga is not about pleasure so much, its just bonus which come sometimes along with many other gifts yoga provide. Remains to add, that savasana was in the name of elaborating my life plans instead of relaxing and feeling my body... well, savasana is the hardest...
IV) In the evening I went to Contact improvisation class. I was physically very exhausted, but I feel it as advantage - tired body cant use so much strength, so higher movement mechanics are more easily taking lead and body movement intelligence more improved this way. Doing everything with strength is not good way to improve in either dancing or martial arts at all. We was there only 2 and instructor. But it was fine, its always good in cases like this if its not all the time - because instructor have more time and space to give more attention to me :) I felt very rich this lesson. I will see how much remain in me, but I felt a lot.
All exercises and even normal everyday stuff today had something in common - my back is definitely not used and formed as is good for life and healthy living. These trainings and exercises I do in last weeks show me that there is lots of work to do to form my back properly.
Anyway. Great day today! Challenging, difficult, but totally worth to live. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well, deep and nourishing tonight, had no dreams and woke up even before alarm. And in the morning straight for morning exercises!
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds, made 5-3 seconds, it went v.slow at start, I was terribly stiff and after yesterday and my back is like from jelly, but painful jelly. I guess lots of things are adjusting/changing in my back. Its even harder and harder to sit in my chair lately, its not comfortable any more - the way Im used to sit. Its like learning to sit again. Anyway, with every rep it was better and at the end I felt ready and warmed up for next.
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1. Today it went much better than last week, made 10 reps on each side and 1 rep on each side with 5 second holds in difficult positions. I feel training paying off slowly, but steady. However... once again, Im not so sure about healthiness of Kata1, I need to discuss it with some physiotherapist or something. Its great workout, but I dont want to do sports, I want to live healthy so I care a lot about exercising in healthy way. But anyway, great exercise!
3rd block I did ABS and core exercises, mainly Barstarz ones... or only Barstarz ones, because I did not even finished set properly. Needed lot of breaks... even when I had very strong motivation input from my morning exercise set on youtube. Its not so easy! It was very rich.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today I tried again to work on straight back, relaxed belly and rectum, good breathing and all this. And also to have fun, because most fun I have when I DONT dance in schematic moves, but freely, wild and wide! Well, working on freeing myself into it at least... :)
notes: 7th day of 10x push-up, headstand 5:10
II) Later in the morning a had a friend to visit me for friendly chitchat and exchange massage. It was nice, I dont have many friends so Im happy to meet those I have. And also exchange massage was good, both the one I got (finally proper massage again) and what I gave, for some reason I was very relaxed and made up couple of new techniques. Great morning.
Lets see what day will bring ...to be continued!
III) Afternoon I made yoga session, just short one, about 45 minutes. And I did just about 5 asanas plus a bit of armstand preparation, but it was great anyway and I felt like - I dont have time, should I just not do it? But even short set is better then nothing... so I did even this. It felt great... Something released in middle flow and that generated extremely pleasant feelings in my pelvis (2nd chakra). It was very yummy :) But, of course, yoga is not about pleasure so much, its just bonus which come sometimes along with many other gifts yoga provide. Remains to add, that savasana was in the name of elaborating my life plans instead of relaxing and feeling my body... well, savasana is the hardest...
IV) In the evening I went to Contact improvisation class. I was physically very exhausted, but I feel it as advantage - tired body cant use so much strength, so higher movement mechanics are more easily taking lead and body movement intelligence more improved this way. Doing everything with strength is not good way to improve in either dancing or martial arts at all. We was there only 2 and instructor. But it was fine, its always good in cases like this if its not all the time - because instructor have more time and space to give more attention to me :) I felt very rich this lesson. I will see how much remain in me, but I felt a lot.
All exercises and even normal everyday stuff today had something in common - my back is definitely not used and formed as is good for life and healthy living. These trainings and exercises I do in last weeks show me that there is lots of work to do to form my back properly.
Anyway. Great day today! Challenging, difficult, but totally worth to live. Ohm mani padme hum.
21.1.2014 - from dawn till dusk
82,8kg " + " - no comment, just fluids I believe, I feel a bit swollen
I slept well tonight, very deep and alarm woke me up. I also dreamt tonight, it was strange dream where I was opting for a job along with friend who looked like Vincent Cassel. It was some position about writing about herbs... my friend got a job and for some reason it wasnt that company who employed him, but government and everybody was so exited about it. Then dream end without anything happening around me, I was just in a role of observer. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises!
I) Starting today with old way Sun Salutations on speed. First 10 minutes basic block where I did 52 reps when alarm rung, which was very nice. Even I was exhausted a LOT I continued, or tried to continue in same speed, but I could not, I had to slow down a lot and make breaks to gather myself in between reps. I dont even remember how much reps I did afterwards, just know it was in total over 60. I felt it very important this exercise today. Demanding, rich, usefull.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS training, 5 rounds of TM core WO. I was wonderfully drenched in swept, but I could do it, which is only thing what really matters. It was very rich. I continued afterwards with situps and did something around 40. Really more a filler to stretch sides.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Again focusing on body positioning and dancing in harmony with music, presently and lively. I know its a bit too much mind-oriented, but right now its a way which helps me to stay connected with dancing and combine dancing and exercising.
II) Rest of the morning I spend running around offices, travelling, walking and all that stuff with my side-work activities. Shopping etc... it took good 3 hours including time I wanted to rest a bit... but what life would be without challenging 1st chakra a bit. I was thinking about it a lot, its true, that people need rest and body need rest to grow after training. But how to activate 1st chakra and have therefore more stamina without years of very focused meditations and yoga? Go hard way and exhaust body so it HAS to learn activate 1st chakra properly and have enough energy.When you check special forces training programs a bit... those people do stuff that "normal" person would die 3 times a day just by trying his/her best and follow those superhumans. And of course they dont achieve this level of endurance from day to day, but also through long, hard training. And only those most dedicated who WANT to fucking do it succeed. Because theyr iron will make body and whole system to adjust this wish and access resources which are closed to "normal" people. Without this decision and iron will to follow this decision - I dont believe it could happen, no matter how tough you are. Body is weak, but mind and willpower has no limits. But body follow this decision and wish to achieve these levels of endurance and skill. Like in everything, mastery is achieved by hours and hours dedicated, present, will-full, mindful work. Not by honing body.
Im not there yet and I often think about this, if I have this power somewhere inside me. If my dedication is strong enough to access these high levels. In other words, if i can give what it takes. I dont know, but I choose to believe its somewhere inside me and only death can prove me wrong.
III) Afternoon I had couple clients, both challenging but in different ways. 1 client had very active young child and keep energy with both of them was almost impossible. Second was very gentle, mindful work with very subtle energies. It was also challenging because I was in one wheel since morning. But I made both with honour, which Im very happy about.
IV) In the late afternoon I went on Yeangar yoga class and it was AWESOME. It was like leader of a class read my system and do everything what I felt already I would need to make. And this teacher is so precise, its amazing, I totally love it. Exactly what I need to improve my exercises - to rise level of preciseness to get to deeper levels of focus and understanding my body. Its pity I cant keep coming regularly. But its simply next to impossible to do some training every evening with my line of work. But Im seriously reconsidering to make this time at Tuesdays, because it gave me very much today. I felt very nice afterwards and my body was for 2 hours afterwards working constantly with many muscles like if it was trying all the new possibilities I learned today :)
Now I finally stopped and have time to write blog - almost 22. What a crazy full day, but GREAT! Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well tonight, very deep and alarm woke me up. I also dreamt tonight, it was strange dream where I was opting for a job along with friend who looked like Vincent Cassel. It was some position about writing about herbs... my friend got a job and for some reason it wasnt that company who employed him, but government and everybody was so exited about it. Then dream end without anything happening around me, I was just in a role of observer. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises!
I) Starting today with old way Sun Salutations on speed. First 10 minutes basic block where I did 52 reps when alarm rung, which was very nice. Even I was exhausted a LOT I continued, or tried to continue in same speed, but I could not, I had to slow down a lot and make breaks to gather myself in between reps. I dont even remember how much reps I did afterwards, just know it was in total over 60. I felt it very important this exercise today. Demanding, rich, usefull.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS training, 5 rounds of TM core WO. I was wonderfully drenched in swept, but I could do it, which is only thing what really matters. It was very rich. I continued afterwards with situps and did something around 40. Really more a filler to stretch sides.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Again focusing on body positioning and dancing in harmony with music, presently and lively. I know its a bit too much mind-oriented, but right now its a way which helps me to stay connected with dancing and combine dancing and exercising.
II) Rest of the morning I spend running around offices, travelling, walking and all that stuff with my side-work activities. Shopping etc... it took good 3 hours including time I wanted to rest a bit... but what life would be without challenging 1st chakra a bit. I was thinking about it a lot, its true, that people need rest and body need rest to grow after training. But how to activate 1st chakra and have therefore more stamina without years of very focused meditations and yoga? Go hard way and exhaust body so it HAS to learn activate 1st chakra properly and have enough energy.When you check special forces training programs a bit... those people do stuff that "normal" person would die 3 times a day just by trying his/her best and follow those superhumans. And of course they dont achieve this level of endurance from day to day, but also through long, hard training. And only those most dedicated who WANT to fucking do it succeed. Because theyr iron will make body and whole system to adjust this wish and access resources which are closed to "normal" people. Without this decision and iron will to follow this decision - I dont believe it could happen, no matter how tough you are. Body is weak, but mind and willpower has no limits. But body follow this decision and wish to achieve these levels of endurance and skill. Like in everything, mastery is achieved by hours and hours dedicated, present, will-full, mindful work. Not by honing body.
Im not there yet and I often think about this, if I have this power somewhere inside me. If my dedication is strong enough to access these high levels. In other words, if i can give what it takes. I dont know, but I choose to believe its somewhere inside me and only death can prove me wrong.
III) Afternoon I had couple clients, both challenging but in different ways. 1 client had very active young child and keep energy with both of them was almost impossible. Second was very gentle, mindful work with very subtle energies. It was also challenging because I was in one wheel since morning. But I made both with honour, which Im very happy about.
IV) In the late afternoon I went on Yeangar yoga class and it was AWESOME. It was like leader of a class read my system and do everything what I felt already I would need to make. And this teacher is so precise, its amazing, I totally love it. Exactly what I need to improve my exercises - to rise level of preciseness to get to deeper levels of focus and understanding my body. Its pity I cant keep coming regularly. But its simply next to impossible to do some training every evening with my line of work. But Im seriously reconsidering to make this time at Tuesdays, because it gave me very much today. I felt very nice afterwards and my body was for 2 hours afterwards working constantly with many muscles like if it was trying all the new possibilities I learned today :)
Now I finally stopped and have time to write blog - almost 22. What a crazy full day, but GREAT! Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 20. ledna 2014
20.1.2014 - making myself busy
82,5kg " - " - what a pleasant morning to see this weight
I slept well and deep tonight, something less than 6 hours. I need more, but one night its fine to sleep a bit less. Also - sometimes less sleep gives more energy then long one, or at least it feels like that sometimes. I dont remember any dreams and in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. I made minor adjustment and added one new pose and that is to stretch leg upwards from underdog pose, it adds another time to total time, but who cares, stretch and warm up is why I do this. I was inspired by video from polish CI festival and I feel this movement good to master and it also helps to shape ass 8) It was great warm up.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees. I tried to really push myself, and alarm rung on 41th rep. Its lot of work before me to achieve 50 reps again, but at least I know its possible from my own experience. Main think I need to work on is endurance and explosive power, Burpees are great exercise for that. I was fuming like a machien at the end...
3rd block was 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mix of exercises, I was focusing a lot to exercises whole area and work on endurance in holds. I made it very rich, I had hard times to get up when time limit expired. It was rich, great.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I was focusing mainly on body position and straight back. Im in general working a lot on straight back lately. Not only to protect myself while doing headstand, but also because I feel it important for everything I do - Shiatsu, Jiu-jitsu, dancing and for simply healthy life. But I also had lot of joy today, still cant get into such creative weaves from last year, but it cant be pushed, I just try to be present and to PLAY :)
II) Whole morning I was cruising city on offices and shops I had to go. I mention it because it was LOT of walking and organization work. Rush morning indeed.
Lets see what the rest of the day will bring ...to be continued!
III) Afternoon a client, new one. It was nice challenge and practice in empathy. I felt it as very helpful treatment for this client. And I loved to do Shiatsu :)
IV) In the evening I went to Jiu-Jitsu. Again amazing class today, we did less exercises, but master and one pupil shared theyr experiences from weekend workshop with Sekiguchi sensei . It was rich really, they shared importance of being presence from both old and some new perspectives (being presence also means to be able to fully absorb what is taught and able to repeat and give to others). I felt is totally valuable part of training and I felt big gratitude for this class. But we also practices basics - te-kagami in both ground and standing position. I was practising with new pupil which was great, because I could remember on most of important things and repeated long dusted skills. Great class!
I was quite tired in the evening, it was quite full day, but great :) Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well and deep tonight, something less than 6 hours. I need more, but one night its fine to sleep a bit less. Also - sometimes less sleep gives more energy then long one, or at least it feels like that sometimes. I dont remember any dreams and in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. I made minor adjustment and added one new pose and that is to stretch leg upwards from underdog pose, it adds another time to total time, but who cares, stretch and warm up is why I do this. I was inspired by video from polish CI festival and I feel this movement good to master and it also helps to shape ass 8) It was great warm up.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees. I tried to really push myself, and alarm rung on 41th rep. Its lot of work before me to achieve 50 reps again, but at least I know its possible from my own experience. Main think I need to work on is endurance and explosive power, Burpees are great exercise for that. I was fuming like a machien at the end...
3rd block was 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mix of exercises, I was focusing a lot to exercises whole area and work on endurance in holds. I made it very rich, I had hard times to get up when time limit expired. It was rich, great.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I was focusing mainly on body position and straight back. Im in general working a lot on straight back lately. Not only to protect myself while doing headstand, but also because I feel it important for everything I do - Shiatsu, Jiu-jitsu, dancing and for simply healthy life. But I also had lot of joy today, still cant get into such creative weaves from last year, but it cant be pushed, I just try to be present and to PLAY :)
II) Whole morning I was cruising city on offices and shops I had to go. I mention it because it was LOT of walking and organization work. Rush morning indeed.
Lets see what the rest of the day will bring ...to be continued!
III) Afternoon a client, new one. It was nice challenge and practice in empathy. I felt it as very helpful treatment for this client. And I loved to do Shiatsu :)
IV) In the evening I went to Jiu-Jitsu. Again amazing class today, we did less exercises, but master and one pupil shared theyr experiences from weekend workshop with Sekiguchi sensei . It was rich really, they shared importance of being presence from both old and some new perspectives (being presence also means to be able to fully absorb what is taught and able to repeat and give to others). I felt is totally valuable part of training and I felt big gratitude for this class. But we also practices basics - te-kagami in both ground and standing position. I was practising with new pupil which was great, because I could remember on most of important things and repeated long dusted skills. Great class!
I was quite tired in the evening, it was quite full day, but great :) Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 19. ledna 2014
19.1.2014 - Rest day, goodbyes and travel
83,4kg (82,9 on scale) " - " - a bit less today, thats nice, wasnt expecting it, it was quite heavy day yesterday, usually I have even more after heavy days, but on other side, dancing is de-watering...
I had rest day today, well deserved and well needed. I slept as long as I needed and spend very cozy and loving morning with my beloved. No rush, no alarms, just letting my body do what it needs in rest mode.
I just did daily pushups 4th day.
I) But I love my work and I had a client later in the morning. I enjoyed treatment, even it was also a bit challenging from reasons I cant mention here. It was good to work.
Big part of the rest of the day I spend today just resting in big style, enjoying company of my beloved and simply giving my body space to heal everything it need. Just in the evening I was travelling for several hours.
Very important day today, very healsome. Ohm mani padme hum.
I had rest day today, well deserved and well needed. I slept as long as I needed and spend very cozy and loving morning with my beloved. No rush, no alarms, just letting my body do what it needs in rest mode.
I just did daily pushups 4th day.
I) But I love my work and I had a client later in the morning. I enjoyed treatment, even it was also a bit challenging from reasons I cant mention here. It was good to work.
Big part of the rest of the day I spend today just resting in big style, enjoying company of my beloved and simply giving my body space to heal everything it need. Just in the evening I was travelling for several hours.
Very important day today, very healsome. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 18. ledna 2014
18.1.2014 - Last workout day (this set) with wonderfull ending.
83,8kg (83,3 on scale) - " + " - yeah, yeah, those sweets from yesterday, it was like goin for death sentence to go on scale today, not worth to eat that crap!
Else I slept well and nice, do you know that kind of sleep, when you feel it snot something you need, but something whats simply great and nice and cozy and you enjoy sleeping :) ? And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way Sun Salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. I will just repeat myself saying how good and exhausting warm up this 5 minutes is.
Then pyramid from 12 to 1 and back to 5 and 6 pushups before alarm rung after 10 minutes. It went very pleasantly well. I mean, yeah, I had problems at 8-6 as usually, but I feel it more just program I implemented into myself. I had 2 minutes to spare after reaching 1 so next time from 13. I felt it great because I felt certain satisfaction about my training, that it show some results. In total I did 98pushups, 92 situps and 92 squats. Its not bad for 10 minutes I would say. And it went so good today, that I even focused on precise execution of situps and squats.
Next block was dedicated to ABS and core practices. I did some exercises on sides and then Barstarz exercises. It was rich after previous stuff and I had hard times to follow, but at the same time it felt good, that I COULD follow Barstarz set after pyramid without some major breaks. So it was good.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was nice, I was focusing on straight back and to work with neck. And I also simply had lots of fun and joy :)
notes: 3rd day of pushup streak, 4:50 headstand.
Lets see what day will bring ...to be continued!
II) Later afternoon I did short yoga. Just 5 asanas, but it was great anyway. I felt I really need to give myself this present and work on my back a neck a bit. I felt it very healsome, even I did only first 2 chakras. Not much to write, it felt simply very good to do it today :)
III) In the evening we went to the city for Contact Improvisation free jam. It was in a Schwelle 7 club, but not BDSM oriented event. Simply Contact Improvisation with no set limits. Every participant had her/his own responsibility to set his or her own borders and so there was very nice, free atmosphere. Very safe space. Its interesting how simple fact, that responsibility is given to everyone can create such free but intimate space so fast and deep. People were playing, dancing, experimenting with movement or mutual interactions... I enjoyed whole event very much. I was also dancing with my beloved and 3 other woman and all encounters were very nice and inspirative. Great evening!
I was very tired when we got home so straight to bed and hello sweet sleep :3 Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well and nice, do you know that kind of sleep, when you feel it snot something you need, but something whats simply great and nice and cozy and you enjoy sleeping :) ? And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way Sun Salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. I will just repeat myself saying how good and exhausting warm up this 5 minutes is.
Then pyramid from 12 to 1 and back to 5 and 6 pushups before alarm rung after 10 minutes. It went very pleasantly well. I mean, yeah, I had problems at 8-6 as usually, but I feel it more just program I implemented into myself. I had 2 minutes to spare after reaching 1 so next time from 13. I felt it great because I felt certain satisfaction about my training, that it show some results. In total I did 98pushups, 92 situps and 92 squats. Its not bad for 10 minutes I would say. And it went so good today, that I even focused on precise execution of situps and squats.
Next block was dedicated to ABS and core practices. I did some exercises on sides and then Barstarz exercises. It was rich after previous stuff and I had hard times to follow, but at the same time it felt good, that I COULD follow Barstarz set after pyramid without some major breaks. So it was good.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was nice, I was focusing on straight back and to work with neck. And I also simply had lots of fun and joy :)
notes: 3rd day of pushup streak, 4:50 headstand.
Lets see what day will bring ...to be continued!
II) Later afternoon I did short yoga. Just 5 asanas, but it was great anyway. I felt I really need to give myself this present and work on my back a neck a bit. I felt it very healsome, even I did only first 2 chakras. Not much to write, it felt simply very good to do it today :)
III) In the evening we went to the city for Contact Improvisation free jam. It was in a Schwelle 7 club, but not BDSM oriented event. Simply Contact Improvisation with no set limits. Every participant had her/his own responsibility to set his or her own borders and so there was very nice, free atmosphere. Very safe space. Its interesting how simple fact, that responsibility is given to everyone can create such free but intimate space so fast and deep. People were playing, dancing, experimenting with movement or mutual interactions... I enjoyed whole event very much. I was also dancing with my beloved and 3 other woman and all encounters were very nice and inspirative. Great evening!
I was very tired when we got home so straight to bed and hello sweet sleep :3 Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 16. ledna 2014
17.1.2014 - lovely maintenance
82,8 (82,3 on scale) " - " It made me really happy today, finally under 83 again, it took very long time. Its not easy to loose weight and not being hungry, its slow, but Im now trying this way. Not eating any crap and as less animal products as possible (eating only eggs and honey atm from animal products, no milk products). Proteins are issue, basically, its lentils, peas, tofu, beans, soya, I add eggs to it, because of versatility, but I would like to cut eggs off too. Honey will stay, first of all, honey is very healthy and second - easting honey supports survival of bees. And I love bees, they are cute and very important.
Else I slept well and deep tonight, dont remember any dreams. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, again made it only till 3 second holds. I though I will make more today really, but seems pain in a body slow me down more then I though. But in any case it was much needed start of the day and felt really good to do it.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I feel somehow my core very burdened or exhausted or something. I could not do much, or much less then I though. But I was thinking - maybe its the phase, where I have to break some border to grow more. So I kept pushing as I could and do exercises what I could. It was rich. Random exercises really today.
3rd block was biking on stationary bike (3:00 -2nd/5:00 -3rd/ 2:00 -4th). It also went a bit worst then I though it will, but in this case I did not cared really, it felt great to do it, really good. I enjoyed this struggle on bike, legs are different. Its said, that when legs are pushed, most testosteron and adrenalin is flowing into blood. Im not sure if Im saying it right, but its simply feels very good to push hard on legs :)
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. There was a lot of distraction in the place, but I tried to filter it out without cutting myself off and enjoy dance. And I think to some extend I succeeded. Yeah, I had fun and joy dancing today.
Today I also did 4:40 headstand by inner counting, my goal is 7 minutes and then start acrobatic stuff. Im curious how long it will take, but its not so long ago where I celebrated 20 seconds long headstand.
And lets see what day will bring! ... to be continued.
II) Later in the morning, after very nice love making I experienced something what was somehow new. In past happened to me sometimes, that me and my beloved fell asleep together and we both felt that state as very healing and nourishing. But today I did not needed to sleep so much, but I felt like 1000 dwarves are working in my body and putting together what needed to be work on. It was so strange feeling, I felt like "sitting in second row" and waiting till this maintenance end and I can function again.
And also rest of the day, even I could function then... :) I felt like lot of healing processes are happening in me. I was thinking why its happening and on ly thing come to me, that its because Im not at home where I always have something to work on or take care, but here I dont. And i think, my very smart system (still much smarter then my conscious : ) ) took this opportunity to fix whatever it can. For myself it felt nice and cozy, no rush, no stress, just being with my beloved.
III) In the evening We went to birthday party of one friend, why Im mentioning it - it was very challenging and good opportunity to see strength of my determination. I could not resist to not eat those so great sweets they had there... even I felt how is my 6-pack going farer when I eat it, even I hated that I cant help myself, I ate it anyway. But as wiser people say - if you loose, dont loose a lesson. And I wont experience it again, so on next party, just healthy stuff, not even try good looking sweets! It might sound like torturing myself, but opposite is a truth. If I dont take sweets on party its y, hard only on the party, but if I take it, it take days to work it away again and its much harder.
Else it was nice party :)
It was really nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well and deep tonight, dont remember any dreams. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, again made it only till 3 second holds. I though I will make more today really, but seems pain in a body slow me down more then I though. But in any case it was much needed start of the day and felt really good to do it.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I feel somehow my core very burdened or exhausted or something. I could not do much, or much less then I though. But I was thinking - maybe its the phase, where I have to break some border to grow more. So I kept pushing as I could and do exercises what I could. It was rich. Random exercises really today.
3rd block was biking on stationary bike (3:00 -2nd/5:00 -3rd/ 2:00 -4th). It also went a bit worst then I though it will, but in this case I did not cared really, it felt great to do it, really good. I enjoyed this struggle on bike, legs are different. Its said, that when legs are pushed, most testosteron and adrenalin is flowing into blood. Im not sure if Im saying it right, but its simply feels very good to push hard on legs :)
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. There was a lot of distraction in the place, but I tried to filter it out without cutting myself off and enjoy dance. And I think to some extend I succeeded. Yeah, I had fun and joy dancing today.
Today I also did 4:40 headstand by inner counting, my goal is 7 minutes and then start acrobatic stuff. Im curious how long it will take, but its not so long ago where I celebrated 20 seconds long headstand.
And lets see what day will bring! ... to be continued.
II) Later in the morning, after very nice love making I experienced something what was somehow new. In past happened to me sometimes, that me and my beloved fell asleep together and we both felt that state as very healing and nourishing. But today I did not needed to sleep so much, but I felt like 1000 dwarves are working in my body and putting together what needed to be work on. It was so strange feeling, I felt like "sitting in second row" and waiting till this maintenance end and I can function again.
And also rest of the day, even I could function then... :) I felt like lot of healing processes are happening in me. I was thinking why its happening and on ly thing come to me, that its because Im not at home where I always have something to work on or take care, but here I dont. And i think, my very smart system (still much smarter then my conscious : ) ) took this opportunity to fix whatever it can. For myself it felt nice and cozy, no rush, no stress, just being with my beloved.
III) In the evening We went to birthday party of one friend, why Im mentioning it - it was very challenging and good opportunity to see strength of my determination. I could not resist to not eat those so great sweets they had there... even I felt how is my 6-pack going farer when I eat it, even I hated that I cant help myself, I ate it anyway. But as wiser people say - if you loose, dont loose a lesson. And I wont experience it again, so on next party, just healthy stuff, not even try good looking sweets! It might sound like torturing myself, but opposite is a truth. If I dont take sweets on party its y, hard only on the party, but if I take it, it take days to work it away again and its much harder.
Else it was nice party :)
It was really nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 15. ledna 2014
16.1.2014 - on the roll
83,2kg " - " not much, but in right direction, that matters.
Else I slept well tonight, from light off till very short before alarm rung (I love to wake up just couple of minutes before alarm, feels somehow really good to not be waken up by alarm, but not wake up too early. And I had a dream tonight! I was soldier on something like US Navy base (I have no idea if base was underground, or on the ship, but I want outside of a base. And it was so real! I mean, I have no idea about US Navy in fact, but in that dream it was like be in the head of a soldier in that base and observe what is he doing. He met some woman which I understood is his lover and he met his friends in dining room. Nothing exiting happen, it was just his arrival to the base and accommodating there. Even more interesting what that dream has to mean. Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations, today I made it 5-1 seconds holds, even I ended about 10 second after alarm. I felt my body painfully, but not crippling pain. I mean - I could change positions fast but had to make short breaks at times. Anyway it was great warm up and "stretch up" :)
I continued with 5 minutes of shadowboxing, it did not went really great, I was terribly slow, but I kept as I could, pain or not and tried my best. I did very little of kickbox practices lately, have focus on other aspects ATM, but even more then it was important to do it and it gave me important messages what to improve and on what to look - resolution: I need to do more yoga, really really.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, first I wanted to make situps-yoga v-sit alternation, but after first round I had to switch to other exercises, I simply could not do more situps. But what I learned today again - its not important, that something cant be done, its important to do what can be done with full focus. And I did, found exercises I could do and made them with full focus. At the end I could not stand up, had to roll on side and get up. It was rich.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today it felt somehow schematic and like routine. There were nice and fluent/creative moments too, but not so much. In last weeks is not so easy to really be THERE with music and flow with this music, but I feel I just need to more focus.
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!
II) Later in the morning I had a client. new one. It was great, mother with a 2y old boy. She come, because she understood, that she will be best mother for her boy when she feels well and good. I so cheer for this, no kid wants sacrificing, moody, tired mother, why would they, anyway, this sick pattern (that mother has to sacrifice for her kid) is so common. Of course, every kid is much more happy and growing healthier if mother is loving, feeling good and relaxed. And in the end boy come to her and gave her so pure, loving hug, it was touching <3
III) Afternoon I had some work to do and packing and preparing for travel and later I travelled to my beloved. this new route is tiresome, more walking and more public transport stuff. A bit annoying, because I come later to my beloved and more tired. But I got so nice welcome and we spend very nice, loving evening together before going to bed.
Great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well tonight, from light off till very short before alarm rung (I love to wake up just couple of minutes before alarm, feels somehow really good to not be waken up by alarm, but not wake up too early. And I had a dream tonight! I was soldier on something like US Navy base (I have no idea if base was underground, or on the ship, but I want outside of a base. And it was so real! I mean, I have no idea about US Navy in fact, but in that dream it was like be in the head of a soldier in that base and observe what is he doing. He met some woman which I understood is his lover and he met his friends in dining room. Nothing exiting happen, it was just his arrival to the base and accommodating there. Even more interesting what that dream has to mean. Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations, today I made it 5-1 seconds holds, even I ended about 10 second after alarm. I felt my body painfully, but not crippling pain. I mean - I could change positions fast but had to make short breaks at times. Anyway it was great warm up and "stretch up" :)
I continued with 5 minutes of shadowboxing, it did not went really great, I was terribly slow, but I kept as I could, pain or not and tried my best. I did very little of kickbox practices lately, have focus on other aspects ATM, but even more then it was important to do it and it gave me important messages what to improve and on what to look - resolution: I need to do more yoga, really really.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, first I wanted to make situps-yoga v-sit alternation, but after first round I had to switch to other exercises, I simply could not do more situps. But what I learned today again - its not important, that something cant be done, its important to do what can be done with full focus. And I did, found exercises I could do and made them with full focus. At the end I could not stand up, had to roll on side and get up. It was rich.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today it felt somehow schematic and like routine. There were nice and fluent/creative moments too, but not so much. In last weeks is not so easy to really be THERE with music and flow with this music, but I feel I just need to more focus.
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!
II) Later in the morning I had a client. new one. It was great, mother with a 2y old boy. She come, because she understood, that she will be best mother for her boy when she feels well and good. I so cheer for this, no kid wants sacrificing, moody, tired mother, why would they, anyway, this sick pattern (that mother has to sacrifice for her kid) is so common. Of course, every kid is much more happy and growing healthier if mother is loving, feeling good and relaxed. And in the end boy come to her and gave her so pure, loving hug, it was touching <3
III) Afternoon I had some work to do and packing and preparing for travel and later I travelled to my beloved. this new route is tiresome, more walking and more public transport stuff. A bit annoying, because I come later to my beloved and more tired. But I got so nice welcome and we spend very nice, loving evening together before going to bed.
Great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
15.1.2014 - full day of living and butt kicking :)
83,5kg " += " no comment, lets see tomorrow
Else I slept again deep, dreamless, well and woke up like 2 minutes before alarm rung (or something). And in the morning up for morning exercises!
I) Well, it took me a lot of butt kicking today! Its like... I did not had pain in certain part, it was more like in whole body a bit and I had this "noooooo, I cant do this today" feeling. Normally, in past, I would skip exercises today, but I decided to go through this pain, it wasnt hurting pain. So I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, it went slow, made it only to 3 second holds and I needed lot of breaks in between reps. I did what I could in given circumstances and Im sure it helped me to start a day and to move stuck parts and also warm up.
Second block I planed, and did, Kata1. I was first like - should I do it when I feel like this, does have it sense? But I decide to do it anyway, it dosnt matter that I does much less then normally. I did only 6 reps on each side and alarm rung on 7th. Important was, that I dedicated that time to this and did what was possible. And my experience from past, when I was frequenting often to gym is - day like this gives more then "strong" days.
3rd block I gave some love to my ABS and core. First I was doing situps till I could not any more, and I did over 120 of them! First I was like... its not much, but then I realized, that not so long ago I had hard times to make over 30, so despite my feelings, it was good. And also - Im doing situps more precisely, which, of course, also add on difficulty. Then I did some mixed exercises and when alarm rung, I had really hard times to get up. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. To my surprise it was nice and smooth today, enjoyed dancing a lot and had lots of joy from it. Was also nicely in creative energy.
II) Rest of the morning I spend working, including quite lot of walking and travelling in city. Also good training, for other things then body, but not any less important, or thats how I feel it.
III) Afternoon I had a client. This client is frequenting for couple of months and we finally get deeper today. Its great to have clients who are open for things which comes from them and not from programs they (and me too!) learned. Great treatment.
IV) And soon leaving to Contact Improvisation class - so lets see!
Today was really cool class, we did rolling exercises in many forms (on ground, on knees etc...) it was sooo fun to make it, to relax and roll, play with hara, balance and relax at the same time. As a peak I felt when we had to lie back to back on other one who was kneeling and then fold like embrio. What is on the ground very easy to make isnot the same when you have to do it on the back of sb else! It was very fun and brought lots of new feelings and I was once again glad Im working with my claustrophobia and panic feelings in certain body positions. But mainly - it was challenge and lots of fun!
I was nicely charged at the end. I feel a bit old there between those people around 20-25, but its part of personal growth - to really understand, that age is just a number - and it is in fact, Im much stronger and flexible and body-conscious then ever in my life. Great day today, full and worth living! Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept again deep, dreamless, well and woke up like 2 minutes before alarm rung (or something). And in the morning up for morning exercises!
I) Well, it took me a lot of butt kicking today! Its like... I did not had pain in certain part, it was more like in whole body a bit and I had this "noooooo, I cant do this today" feeling. Normally, in past, I would skip exercises today, but I decided to go through this pain, it wasnt hurting pain. So I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, it went slow, made it only to 3 second holds and I needed lot of breaks in between reps. I did what I could in given circumstances and Im sure it helped me to start a day and to move stuck parts and also warm up.
Second block I planed, and did, Kata1. I was first like - should I do it when I feel like this, does have it sense? But I decide to do it anyway, it dosnt matter that I does much less then normally. I did only 6 reps on each side and alarm rung on 7th. Important was, that I dedicated that time to this and did what was possible. And my experience from past, when I was frequenting often to gym is - day like this gives more then "strong" days.
3rd block I gave some love to my ABS and core. First I was doing situps till I could not any more, and I did over 120 of them! First I was like... its not much, but then I realized, that not so long ago I had hard times to make over 30, so despite my feelings, it was good. And also - Im doing situps more precisely, which, of course, also add on difficulty. Then I did some mixed exercises and when alarm rung, I had really hard times to get up. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. To my surprise it was nice and smooth today, enjoyed dancing a lot and had lots of joy from it. Was also nicely in creative energy.
II) Rest of the morning I spend working, including quite lot of walking and travelling in city. Also good training, for other things then body, but not any less important, or thats how I feel it.
III) Afternoon I had a client. This client is frequenting for couple of months and we finally get deeper today. Its great to have clients who are open for things which comes from them and not from programs they (and me too!) learned. Great treatment.
IV) And soon leaving to Contact Improvisation class - so lets see!
Today was really cool class, we did rolling exercises in many forms (on ground, on knees etc...) it was sooo fun to make it, to relax and roll, play with hara, balance and relax at the same time. As a peak I felt when we had to lie back to back on other one who was kneeling and then fold like embrio. What is on the ground very easy to make isnot the same when you have to do it on the back of sb else! It was very fun and brought lots of new feelings and I was once again glad Im working with my claustrophobia and panic feelings in certain body positions. But mainly - it was challenge and lots of fun!
I was nicely charged at the end. I feel a bit old there between those people around 20-25, but its part of personal growth - to really understand, that age is just a number - and it is in fact, Im much stronger and flexible and body-conscious then ever in my life. Great day today, full and worth living! Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 14. ledna 2014
14.1.2014 - family is the toughest
83,3kg " - " - oh god, finally it moves bellow 84 again. It made me really happy, though Im stuck on and over 84 4ever.
Else I slept deep and hard tonight, dont remember any dreams. When I sleep this deep after trainings, I usually dont dream. Its not always like this, but often. And in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of sun salutations, holds from 5-3 seconds, did not made more, my body was quite painful from yesterday. Even sides of latisimus dorsi, which usually pain after boxer-like training, makes me really wonder... but anyway, it was very necessary to do and good to make my body work again.
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees. I tried to push and made it to full 40, alarm rung short after finishing 40th rep. Its on a good way. Its great to feel that crisis and struggle comes every day I do Burpees later and later. Next 5 minutes I spend with squats, first 50 normal deep ones and then about 25 half squats with short hold in lowest position. Need to give love to my legs as well, it went a bit worst then I would wish, but... you know... thats why I do it!
4th block was core and ABS training, first 4 rounds of TM core WO.. it was crazy after previous stuff, but I did it well. And I even could do more other exercises, which felt good. Just random mix of what I could and felt important to do, still trying to have strong focus on good back shape and position to not harm myself. It was very rich.
Last block I was dancing fro about 15 minutes. It was great really, had lots of fun with it today.
In extra exercises I could not do much, yesterday somehow destroyed me good, so I started with new way to improve my pushup rate, today did maximum (17 reps) and for next 7 days (even when I will not make morning exercise) will do just 10, for other week then every day 1 more and then again try maximum if it change. maybe it seems slow, but Im stuck in my pushups even in best shape on 30 and its simply not enough for me (think I had record 35 or something once, still nto good enough for me).
II) Then I went to visit my parents. Oh well, I wont write details, but it was very hard test and I failed. And it took only 20 minutes before I just turned back and went back home (its 2hrs travel). Nobody can make me so crazy so fast. I cant handle this. And Im not sure if I want. I really love my parents, but it dosnt mean I let them put me down all the time. I can love them without being in contact with them too. But I would like to not get it so strong under my skin. I would love to learn to just let that shit go through me and not making me crazy.
It was hard for me. I spend then big part of afternoon in pain because of my relationship with parents. Oh god, how I would love to take this easy and just accept it as it is. But I cant. I must look what makes me so crazy, I dont want this shit in my life.
III) In the evening I did 1 hour dancing session. I needed to get tired and to dance all stuck feelings and energy in body. Fortunately random mix gave me 2 songs from Venetian Snares and its really hard to stay in any concepts while dancing on this music :) I love VS so much, not as much as my beloved, but very much :) It was great 1 hour, I could dance quite free and also play with movement and body. Nice.
Crazy day today, finished also work with Vinils and Im grateful to my beloved for big support she gave me today. I know this day is very precious, I realized lots of things today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept deep and hard tonight, dont remember any dreams. When I sleep this deep after trainings, I usually dont dream. Its not always like this, but often. And in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of sun salutations, holds from 5-3 seconds, did not made more, my body was quite painful from yesterday. Even sides of latisimus dorsi, which usually pain after boxer-like training, makes me really wonder... but anyway, it was very necessary to do and good to make my body work again.
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees. I tried to push and made it to full 40, alarm rung short after finishing 40th rep. Its on a good way. Its great to feel that crisis and struggle comes every day I do Burpees later and later. Next 5 minutes I spend with squats, first 50 normal deep ones and then about 25 half squats with short hold in lowest position. Need to give love to my legs as well, it went a bit worst then I would wish, but... you know... thats why I do it!
4th block was core and ABS training, first 4 rounds of TM core WO.. it was crazy after previous stuff, but I did it well. And I even could do more other exercises, which felt good. Just random mix of what I could and felt important to do, still trying to have strong focus on good back shape and position to not harm myself. It was very rich.
Last block I was dancing fro about 15 minutes. It was great really, had lots of fun with it today.
In extra exercises I could not do much, yesterday somehow destroyed me good, so I started with new way to improve my pushup rate, today did maximum (17 reps) and for next 7 days (even when I will not make morning exercise) will do just 10, for other week then every day 1 more and then again try maximum if it change. maybe it seems slow, but Im stuck in my pushups even in best shape on 30 and its simply not enough for me (think I had record 35 or something once, still nto good enough for me).
II) Then I went to visit my parents. Oh well, I wont write details, but it was very hard test and I failed. And it took only 20 minutes before I just turned back and went back home (its 2hrs travel). Nobody can make me so crazy so fast. I cant handle this. And Im not sure if I want. I really love my parents, but it dosnt mean I let them put me down all the time. I can love them without being in contact with them too. But I would like to not get it so strong under my skin. I would love to learn to just let that shit go through me and not making me crazy.
It was hard for me. I spend then big part of afternoon in pain because of my relationship with parents. Oh god, how I would love to take this easy and just accept it as it is. But I cant. I must look what makes me so crazy, I dont want this shit in my life.
III) In the evening I did 1 hour dancing session. I needed to get tired and to dance all stuck feelings and energy in body. Fortunately random mix gave me 2 songs from Venetian Snares and its really hard to stay in any concepts while dancing on this music :) I love VS so much, not as much as my beloved, but very much :) It was great 1 hour, I could dance quite free and also play with movement and body. Nice.
Crazy day today, finished also work with Vinils and Im grateful to my beloved for big support she gave me today. I know this day is very precious, I realized lots of things today. Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 13. ledna 2014
13.1.2014 - training day
83,9kg " - " What a relief, finally drop, and I really think its, at least from a big part, because of too much fluids in me. Yesterday after kettle of great tea I was pissing a lot and today more then 1kg less.
Else I slept well, deep and dreamless today and in the morning straight for morning exercises. Im trying to spend as little time as possible on computer and not play at all in the morning ( I was normally playing for a while in the morning to let wake up body and allow intestines to work and get from body all whats necessary). I have somehow feeling, that I want to start a day with something what really helps me and not with distraction.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of old way Sun Salutations on speed. I did 48reps (alarm rung on 48th) and I must say it wasnt so easy, I was surprised. But anyway, I see really space to do much more and I want to. I was almost on 60 last year. Its great power/preciseness/strength/endurance exercise and, last but not least, good warm up. After those 10 minutes I continued 5 more minutes in which I did 2 reps of new way Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds and few dynamic reps till the alarm. I was very exhausted at the end, good.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mixed exercises, as tough as I could. Mainly Im still working on having spine in good position and use back as less as possible and rather have safe back then do some exercises, which btw means doing very hard exercises on deep stabilization muscles and using really whole core to fixate whole core area and have risen legs (f.ex.). It was v.rich and in the end I could not stand easily.
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, today it was great, I was even a bit in this creative wave I was in a past often and could play very joyfully with movement and music. It was great.
Lets see what day will bring ...to be continued!
II) Then I was working again on one project for couple of hours. Its not really joy, but its good to do something like that I feel it healthy.
III) Afternoon I did yoga. Only padahastasana remain same, else I did other asanas for all chakras. And today I did also 5th and 6th chakra. It took something over 1 hour. I felt again more focused and not so wanting to jump away from practice, but sometimes I caught myself focusing on wrong things and at some asanas my mind was wandering away. I hope it will get better with time. Its not as effective as it can be like this. I felt my beck very much and no, in the evening, I feel like whole back muscles in process. I though I have strong back muscles, but it seems I was very wrong. Anyway its strong how much my flexibility and muscles degraded since injury in November. Good part is, that its getting back rather fast.
It was great to do yoga and I felt very good and "right" afterwards.
IV) In the evening I went to Jiu-Jitsu training again. It was again great, lots of fun, lots of things to learn. It really seems, that I really become less sensitive and too rough at times. Its high time I started with JJ again. I felt for longer time that I miss it in my practice of Shiatsu too and I feel very right to do it. Else we did strangling a lot today and repeating from last class. I was again practising with that girl, even I wanted somebody other, not because I would not like her, but I always felt extremely important to change sparing partners on each training - to not get used to one body, but rather learn principles so it works on anybody. But it was good, because shes good. And in any case it was really great to be there and train.
Great day today! Work, fun, joy, practical, healthy things. I also made one of best meals I ever cook, lentils, vegies and rice sooooo nomnom. Ohm mani padme hum!
Else I slept well, deep and dreamless today and in the morning straight for morning exercises. Im trying to spend as little time as possible on computer and not play at all in the morning ( I was normally playing for a while in the morning to let wake up body and allow intestines to work and get from body all whats necessary). I have somehow feeling, that I want to start a day with something what really helps me and not with distraction.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of old way Sun Salutations on speed. I did 48reps (alarm rung on 48th) and I must say it wasnt so easy, I was surprised. But anyway, I see really space to do much more and I want to. I was almost on 60 last year. Its great power/preciseness/strength/endurance exercise and, last but not least, good warm up. After those 10 minutes I continued 5 more minutes in which I did 2 reps of new way Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds and few dynamic reps till the alarm. I was very exhausted at the end, good.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mixed exercises, as tough as I could. Mainly Im still working on having spine in good position and use back as less as possible and rather have safe back then do some exercises, which btw means doing very hard exercises on deep stabilization muscles and using really whole core to fixate whole core area and have risen legs (f.ex.). It was v.rich and in the end I could not stand easily.
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, today it was great, I was even a bit in this creative wave I was in a past often and could play very joyfully with movement and music. It was great.
Lets see what day will bring ...to be continued!
II) Then I was working again on one project for couple of hours. Its not really joy, but its good to do something like that I feel it healthy.
III) Afternoon I did yoga. Only padahastasana remain same, else I did other asanas for all chakras. And today I did also 5th and 6th chakra. It took something over 1 hour. I felt again more focused and not so wanting to jump away from practice, but sometimes I caught myself focusing on wrong things and at some asanas my mind was wandering away. I hope it will get better with time. Its not as effective as it can be like this. I felt my beck very much and no, in the evening, I feel like whole back muscles in process. I though I have strong back muscles, but it seems I was very wrong. Anyway its strong how much my flexibility and muscles degraded since injury in November. Good part is, that its getting back rather fast.
It was great to do yoga and I felt very good and "right" afterwards.
IV) In the evening I went to Jiu-Jitsu training again. It was again great, lots of fun, lots of things to learn. It really seems, that I really become less sensitive and too rough at times. Its high time I started with JJ again. I felt for longer time that I miss it in my practice of Shiatsu too and I feel very right to do it. Else we did strangling a lot today and repeating from last class. I was again practising with that girl, even I wanted somebody other, not because I would not like her, but I always felt extremely important to change sparing partners on each training - to not get used to one body, but rather learn principles so it works on anybody. But it was good, because shes good. And in any case it was really great to be there and train.
Great day today! Work, fun, joy, practical, healthy things. I also made one of best meals I ever cook, lentils, vegies and rice sooooo nomnom. Ohm mani padme hum!
12.1.2013 - working sunday
85kg " ? " Blow me... what logic have this. I dont understand. Am I collecting too much fluids or something? Why Im gaining weight? Or I become breatharian and eating anything is just gaining up :P ? No, I dont think so, but its weird.
Else I slept well and woke up a bit after 6, wanted at 6, but I set alarm wrong. But it was fine, no problem. I dont remember any dreams, just have this feeling at the back of my head, that I had some. Anyway, in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds, still not fast enough, but getting there, today alarm rung at 1 sec holds. In any case it was great stretch and warm up.
Then 5 minutes of movement/acrobatic training. It did not went so well, but it was first time I did it here so some room adapting had effect. But in any case it was nice and I felt good to practice this breakdance-like moves, great for my dancing and acrobatic skills.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, again a bit better, today alarm rung at 38th rep. Slowly building up explosive power and endurance. I did not went through so much of struggle, just normal exhaustion. I love to kick my ass during Burpees, it feels good for some reason.
4th block I did 10 minutes ABS and core practices. Mix of about everything, I think I quite destroyed myself during those 10 minutes, I felt my core not so strong as in last week, but I tried to really give as much love to my core as possible and not hold back. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I dont remember any more how it went today, but definitely did not harmed me.
II) Afternoon I did some yoga, about 1hr long session and it was wonderful. I could focus much better then last time and its always rewarding when I can focus on what Im doing, especially during yoga, because is so much happening. I did 3 asanas on 1st chakra, 2 on 2nd and 1 on 3th and 4th with a bit of hand stand practice at the end before savasana. But mainly whole exercise was very strong, I felt like after very strong workout session, whole body humming and buzzing and I found myself in this strange state of mind where world seems a bit unrealistic, but not because of flying somewhere in heights, but because world looks more "real". Its complicated feeling :)
III) In the evening I met my old, very good friend so I could spend evening in great company. its one of those meetings where you are grateful to universe for meeting exceptional, great, poeple who brings lot sof positive inspiration into life.
And I was also working couple of hours today on some side-business. Full, great day! Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well and woke up a bit after 6, wanted at 6, but I set alarm wrong. But it was fine, no problem. I dont remember any dreams, just have this feeling at the back of my head, that I had some. Anyway, in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds, still not fast enough, but getting there, today alarm rung at 1 sec holds. In any case it was great stretch and warm up.
Then 5 minutes of movement/acrobatic training. It did not went so well, but it was first time I did it here so some room adapting had effect. But in any case it was nice and I felt good to practice this breakdance-like moves, great for my dancing and acrobatic skills.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, again a bit better, today alarm rung at 38th rep. Slowly building up explosive power and endurance. I did not went through so much of struggle, just normal exhaustion. I love to kick my ass during Burpees, it feels good for some reason.
4th block I did 10 minutes ABS and core practices. Mix of about everything, I think I quite destroyed myself during those 10 minutes, I felt my core not so strong as in last week, but I tried to really give as much love to my core as possible and not hold back. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I dont remember any more how it went today, but definitely did not harmed me.
II) Afternoon I did some yoga, about 1hr long session and it was wonderful. I could focus much better then last time and its always rewarding when I can focus on what Im doing, especially during yoga, because is so much happening. I did 3 asanas on 1st chakra, 2 on 2nd and 1 on 3th and 4th with a bit of hand stand practice at the end before savasana. But mainly whole exercise was very strong, I felt like after very strong workout session, whole body humming and buzzing and I found myself in this strange state of mind where world seems a bit unrealistic, but not because of flying somewhere in heights, but because world looks more "real". Its complicated feeling :)
III) In the evening I met my old, very good friend so I could spend evening in great company. its one of those meetings where you are grateful to universe for meeting exceptional, great, poeple who brings lot sof positive inspiration into life.
And I was also working couple of hours today on some side-business. Full, great day! Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 11. ledna 2014
11.1.2014 - last day of WoW and maintenance day
Im not sure with weight, I saw 85,6kg, but its not possible, I did absolutely no fault in nutrition and had not motion-less day really, lets see tomorrow.
Else I slept very deep and dreamless. I even slept till 7:30 or something, long time did not happened like this.
I did no morning exercises today, I took free day today. After that healing and quite intensive week I feel taking 1 day off is exactly what I need. So I did and I hope my body could recuperate as much as possible to start again working.
I spend whole day in this strange, maintenance mode where I feel that its happening a lot inside me, even I dont know what and why, just know that its fine and I have to let it work. I just did about 1hr long walk with some shopping, it was very nice, sunny morning today. I read in a bus notice, that its warmest January in last 30 years. Which is nice compensation for last, bloody cold winter :P
So, probably nothing more to add for today! Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept very deep and dreamless. I even slept till 7:30 or something, long time did not happened like this.
I did no morning exercises today, I took free day today. After that healing and quite intensive week I feel taking 1 day off is exactly what I need. So I did and I hope my body could recuperate as much as possible to start again working.
I spend whole day in this strange, maintenance mode where I feel that its happening a lot inside me, even I dont know what and why, just know that its fine and I have to let it work. I just did about 1hr long walk with some shopping, it was very nice, sunny morning today. I read in a bus notice, that its warmest January in last 30 years. Which is nice compensation for last, bloody cold winter :P
So, probably nothing more to add for today! Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 10. ledna 2014
10.1.2014 - Personal maintenance, phase1: cleaning works
84,1kg " += " - frustrating really, Im working my butt off, eating just healthy stuff and in healthy way last couple of days and still gaining 0,1/day. I just hope its at least muscles what Im gaining and not fat....
Else I slept well and had very long and strong dream. I know it was somehow influenced by movie Im just watching (Riddick 2013) but just in beginning. It was about 2 groups n some castle or something. There have been some disagreement and other group (where I did not belonged) left. On theyr way out of a castle they went through few tunnels full of people, who for some reason, slept piled in something like mine wagons. I saw how that leaving group is spilling fuel on all those wagons and ground of tunnels and I know they will set it to fire. And I was warning all those people in wagons and around in tunnels and tried to wake them up, but it wasnt working. In the end I had to run back to not get killed myself and I tried still to wake those people up, but nobody listened. And in the end that leaving group fired all that fuel and through those tunnels bursted big fireball, like explosion and fire flew through all those people in tunnels and burned them. But they did not died, they were "just" burned. Rest of the dream was about how those people were crawling out of tunnel in pain and dying and how those who wasnt in tunnels were helping them and so on. After this part we (me and some other people who werent asleep) somehow tried to get to other place through other tunnels to some higher parts of that castle. Somewhere here the dream ended. Very interesting dream. And no, it wasnt nightmare, I never have nightmares, Im always the one who survive or escape in my dreams, never victim or helpless. What is that dream telling me? That its no point to wake people up? They suffer anyway? Lots of topics this brought up.
Anyway, in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first I though I will quit today, short after I started. All pained so much... but I kept going on just how it was possible and did some reps with longer holds and some dynamic reps to make me moving and stretching properly. It was good fire starter.
Then 5 minutes of pushups, it felt not really good, I felt like I cant do much of pushups in this time, it was too difficult to keep counting, I just tried to rest as less as possible and do as much pushups. Cant really say if this session was good for something, it felt strange, when I do pyramid its much easier for some reason...
Then 5 minutes of situps. Front/left/right/front/left/right..... whole 5 minutes. I wasnt counting and more focusing on execution. Also quite rich, this I felt good.
Last 5m-long block were squats, first 50 normal ones, then about 30 half-ones with short hold in "right-angle" phase. Also good.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today I must say I had lots of fun dancing, I enjoyed every song and moving felt awesome. I was happy about it :)
Yeah... and in extra exercises I did 4:05 minutes of headstand (inner counting), so now I headstand over 4 minutes! Nice, really good time to move with armstand ;)
To be continued... !
II) Afternoon I went to my friend which study at Barbra Brennan Healing School for a healing. I cant write much about it, because I tried to not be focused on whats happening in me and just be there. Whats interesting - I THINK I slept a while and dreamt, but Im not sure at all, strange feeling. Its like if I would be in hypnosis or something... But what was around healing was also nice - to get out of flat, visit friend and somehow destroy routine. Very good.
Else I did not much today which is worth to worth mention. But it was nice day for me. In the evening I had crazy taste for something junky, but I ate 3 apples and 2 carrots instead and then it was fine :P Ohm mani padme hum
Else I slept well and had very long and strong dream. I know it was somehow influenced by movie Im just watching (Riddick 2013) but just in beginning. It was about 2 groups n some castle or something. There have been some disagreement and other group (where I did not belonged) left. On theyr way out of a castle they went through few tunnels full of people, who for some reason, slept piled in something like mine wagons. I saw how that leaving group is spilling fuel on all those wagons and ground of tunnels and I know they will set it to fire. And I was warning all those people in wagons and around in tunnels and tried to wake them up, but it wasnt working. In the end I had to run back to not get killed myself and I tried still to wake those people up, but nobody listened. And in the end that leaving group fired all that fuel and through those tunnels bursted big fireball, like explosion and fire flew through all those people in tunnels and burned them. But they did not died, they were "just" burned. Rest of the dream was about how those people were crawling out of tunnel in pain and dying and how those who wasnt in tunnels were helping them and so on. After this part we (me and some other people who werent asleep) somehow tried to get to other place through other tunnels to some higher parts of that castle. Somewhere here the dream ended. Very interesting dream. And no, it wasnt nightmare, I never have nightmares, Im always the one who survive or escape in my dreams, never victim or helpless. What is that dream telling me? That its no point to wake people up? They suffer anyway? Lots of topics this brought up.
Anyway, in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first I though I will quit today, short after I started. All pained so much... but I kept going on just how it was possible and did some reps with longer holds and some dynamic reps to make me moving and stretching properly. It was good fire starter.
Then 5 minutes of pushups, it felt not really good, I felt like I cant do much of pushups in this time, it was too difficult to keep counting, I just tried to rest as less as possible and do as much pushups. Cant really say if this session was good for something, it felt strange, when I do pyramid its much easier for some reason...
Then 5 minutes of situps. Front/left/right/front/left/right..... whole 5 minutes. I wasnt counting and more focusing on execution. Also quite rich, this I felt good.
Last 5m-long block were squats, first 50 normal ones, then about 30 half-ones with short hold in "right-angle" phase. Also good.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today I must say I had lots of fun dancing, I enjoyed every song and moving felt awesome. I was happy about it :)
Yeah... and in extra exercises I did 4:05 minutes of headstand (inner counting), so now I headstand over 4 minutes! Nice, really good time to move with armstand ;)
To be continued... !
II) Afternoon I went to my friend which study at Barbra Brennan Healing School for a healing. I cant write much about it, because I tried to not be focused on whats happening in me and just be there. Whats interesting - I THINK I slept a while and dreamt, but Im not sure at all, strange feeling. Its like if I would be in hypnosis or something... But what was around healing was also nice - to get out of flat, visit friend and somehow destroy routine. Very good.
Else I did not much today which is worth to worth mention. But it was nice day for me. In the evening I had crazy taste for something junky, but I ate 3 apples and 2 carrots instead and then it was fine :P Ohm mani padme hum
čtvrtek 9. ledna 2014
9.1.2014 - Jiu-Jitsu again?
84kg "=+ " - very dissapointing measure today, I did no diet fails and was working really hard yesterday, but I was somehow expecting this, after hard days I have usually a bit more. And I also feel myself having lots of fluids in a body, need to de-fluid somehow.
Else I slept good and well tonight and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations with holds from 5-1 second. My body is buzzing a lot and is not feeling well so I was slower at transitions, but it felt very necessary to do this today.
Then I did Burpees, I was thinking if its smart to do this hard exercise after yesterday, but I simply did it. To my delight, even I went through lot of struggle, alarm rung on 35th rep, only 1 better then last time, but I wasnt expecting being better at all so it was great!
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mainly Barstarz set. It was very difficult today, I need lot of rest and breaks and could not do much without them. I was happy to complete set before alarm with very little extra random exercises. And I could not get up afterwards... very rich. I think CI is very demanding on core, actually Im sure about it :P
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It felt more like a work today, because I had to dance thanks of power of my will. I tried to move all what need to be moved and flow as much as possible with a music. Had not so much fun as usually, but I felt it great to do as always.
Lets see what day brings and if I kick my ass hard enough to go to Jiu-Jitsu today!
II) And I did kicked my butt hard enough! And it was good I did. In the evening I went to Hakkoryu Jiu-Jitsu class. It was great, I got so warm welcome from masters and trainees. Despite I was not there for so long (I think in last year I was there like once. And also it felt so right to do this, I mean, it felt like - this is fucking exactly place where I have to be right now. I had lots of fun as always there. I dont know what causes it, but I feel so alive there, no matter what crazy stuff we do or how tired I am, Im always laughing almost whole class because of something, either how clumsy I am, or what crazy stuff we do or such. And truth to be said, our master is also marry good fellow, he is very skilled, great teacher, great person.
I had to recall lots of things again, but its natural. But I found that I can do stars very smooth and I think most precisely as ever. I was also exercising with "new girl" - well, shes coming there since last february, but I did not met her there yet. Very skilled girl with no fear and good fighting spirit. For her age (I would say 15-18 or something) very good spirit already.
For the rest of the day I took good rest and was watching interesting movies (Blue is warmest colour) and was also doing lot of small, important things. Good, again challenging day, but all for good! All for good. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept good and well tonight and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations with holds from 5-1 second. My body is buzzing a lot and is not feeling well so I was slower at transitions, but it felt very necessary to do this today.
Then I did Burpees, I was thinking if its smart to do this hard exercise after yesterday, but I simply did it. To my delight, even I went through lot of struggle, alarm rung on 35th rep, only 1 better then last time, but I wasnt expecting being better at all so it was great!
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mainly Barstarz set. It was very difficult today, I need lot of rest and breaks and could not do much without them. I was happy to complete set before alarm with very little extra random exercises. And I could not get up afterwards... very rich. I think CI is very demanding on core, actually Im sure about it :P
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It felt more like a work today, because I had to dance thanks of power of my will. I tried to move all what need to be moved and flow as much as possible with a music. Had not so much fun as usually, but I felt it great to do as always.
Lets see what day brings and if I kick my ass hard enough to go to Jiu-Jitsu today!
II) And I did kicked my butt hard enough! And it was good I did. In the evening I went to Hakkoryu Jiu-Jitsu class. It was great, I got so warm welcome from masters and trainees. Despite I was not there for so long (I think in last year I was there like once. And also it felt so right to do this, I mean, it felt like - this is fucking exactly place where I have to be right now. I had lots of fun as always there. I dont know what causes it, but I feel so alive there, no matter what crazy stuff we do or how tired I am, Im always laughing almost whole class because of something, either how clumsy I am, or what crazy stuff we do or such. And truth to be said, our master is also marry good fellow, he is very skilled, great teacher, great person.
I had to recall lots of things again, but its natural. But I found that I can do stars very smooth and I think most precisely as ever. I was also exercising with "new girl" - well, shes coming there since last february, but I did not met her there yet. Very skilled girl with no fear and good fighting spirit. For her age (I would say 15-18 or something) very good spirit already.
For the rest of the day I took good rest and was watching interesting movies (Blue is warmest colour) and was also doing lot of small, important things. Good, again challenging day, but all for good! All for good. Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 7. ledna 2014
8.1.2014 - working again and heavy work!
83,9g " - " - made me happy really, its nice when weight drops
Else I slept very well and even remember a dream. However not much, I just remember I was on some kind of party which went on quite long and I was in some entry room or something, not in other parts of the house where party took place. However I wasnt out of happenings, I met lot of people and some come to me too. I remember we mainly discussed drugs and its effects most of time. I dont even think that something else happened than this. But anyway - in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up. 10x old way Sun Salutations, running with stretches and some shadowboxing, great warm up as ever. Im even not sure if its not too much as warm up, but then Im like - hey, there is not such thing as "too much" in 5 minutes long warm up.
Then I did pyramid from 11-1-5 and 6 pushups so in total: 86 pushups; 80 situps; 80 squats. Getting slowly better. I was struggling a lot and it was hard, but anyway, to my big delight, I did 11-1 under 8 minutes. So next time I will try from 12. Its not easy to run on the edge of possibilities, there is very little of satisfaction feelings when things go great. Because I basically very seldom reach my - always exaggerated - goal. But Im trying this hard way now, no sliding into routine or masturbation how great Im doing stuff for 100th time.
3rd block was ABS and core practices. I did mainly situps and what I could, I choose as well as hard exercises as possible and tried to do them very precisely (to protect my back). And it was very rich... uff... could not stand in the end. Great.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I could somehow muster myself into quite intensive movement (maybe because I enjoyed it a lot :P ) and it was good workout as well, Im happy that dancing gets better again too.
I would like to share at this place one thing which I observed more times in my life, but never shared so Ido now. It seems, that if Im not exercising, I feel my body much better - stronger, better shaped and everything. And if I work hard, I feel fat, not good shaped, bloby and so on. I dont know what it is, do I see myself more realistically when I exercise because Im more conscious about my body and such so mind shape less my view of myself? Its interesting phenomenon for me.
I also went today in exercises through pain a lot, I decided to just do as body allow me pain or not. Im more and more aware of one phenomenon while exercising - its like flow of my intentions/imagination and my will helps to do exercises more then strength of body, it feels like my will support my body, my will allow me to go through pain without harming myself, because my will give protective shell to my whole being. Its very interesting feeling, Im curious if perception of this phenomenon deepens to allow me to explore it more. I think its maybe what Arnold is talking about when he describes how mind is shaping body and is more important than body on higher levels.
II) Short walk up and down big hill for 20 minutes.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Physically challenging again, but I think it has lots to do with fact that I hadnt much clients in last weeks. But it was great to work! I want to work moooooooooore!
IV) In the evening I went to contact improvisation class. I was physically very tired from today, but I did not wanted to miss that. It was very challenging, because I had hard times to relax into paining body and so I was a lot woody today. Good lesson really. I was also sweating like crazy, hope this will not be forever :)
In the evening I had really enough, it was good day. Physically very demanding, but hopefully it was good for something :) Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept very well and even remember a dream. However not much, I just remember I was on some kind of party which went on quite long and I was in some entry room or something, not in other parts of the house where party took place. However I wasnt out of happenings, I met lot of people and some come to me too. I remember we mainly discussed drugs and its effects most of time. I dont even think that something else happened than this. But anyway - in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up. 10x old way Sun Salutations, running with stretches and some shadowboxing, great warm up as ever. Im even not sure if its not too much as warm up, but then Im like - hey, there is not such thing as "too much" in 5 minutes long warm up.
Then I did pyramid from 11-1-5 and 6 pushups so in total: 86 pushups; 80 situps; 80 squats. Getting slowly better. I was struggling a lot and it was hard, but anyway, to my big delight, I did 11-1 under 8 minutes. So next time I will try from 12. Its not easy to run on the edge of possibilities, there is very little of satisfaction feelings when things go great. Because I basically very seldom reach my - always exaggerated - goal. But Im trying this hard way now, no sliding into routine or masturbation how great Im doing stuff for 100th time.
3rd block was ABS and core practices. I did mainly situps and what I could, I choose as well as hard exercises as possible and tried to do them very precisely (to protect my back). And it was very rich... uff... could not stand in the end. Great.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I could somehow muster myself into quite intensive movement (maybe because I enjoyed it a lot :P ) and it was good workout as well, Im happy that dancing gets better again too.
I would like to share at this place one thing which I observed more times in my life, but never shared so Ido now. It seems, that if Im not exercising, I feel my body much better - stronger, better shaped and everything. And if I work hard, I feel fat, not good shaped, bloby and so on. I dont know what it is, do I see myself more realistically when I exercise because Im more conscious about my body and such so mind shape less my view of myself? Its interesting phenomenon for me.
I also went today in exercises through pain a lot, I decided to just do as body allow me pain or not. Im more and more aware of one phenomenon while exercising - its like flow of my intentions/imagination and my will helps to do exercises more then strength of body, it feels like my will support my body, my will allow me to go through pain without harming myself, because my will give protective shell to my whole being. Its very interesting feeling, Im curious if perception of this phenomenon deepens to allow me to explore it more. I think its maybe what Arnold is talking about when he describes how mind is shaping body and is more important than body on higher levels.
II) Short walk up and down big hill for 20 minutes.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Physically challenging again, but I think it has lots to do with fact that I hadnt much clients in last weeks. But it was great to work! I want to work moooooooooore!
IV) In the evening I went to contact improvisation class. I was physically very tired from today, but I did not wanted to miss that. It was very challenging, because I had hard times to relax into paining body and so I was a lot woody today. Good lesson really. I was also sweating like crazy, hope this will not be forever :)
In the evening I had really enough, it was good day. Physically very demanding, but hopefully it was good for something :) Ohm mani padme hum.
7.1.2014 - busy first day after return
84,5kg " + " its more then yesterday, but I think its more about scale here then real gain, lets see tomorrow.
Else I slept good and even overslept because of wrong set alarm... but not so much. I think I had dreams, but dont remember them. and in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. Holds from 5-1 seconds, today I made it to 1 second holds, but still not to dynamic reps. As I assumed - it seems right - its most likely about speed of position changing why Im so "slow". I was more focusing on observing this and I have lots of time wasted in transitions. And I started working on it today :)
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, to my delight I could kick myself a bit harder again and did 34 reps. Far from record, but getting better again. Love this exercise - its really great for explosive power endurance and stamina training.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core: 30 situps / 60sec v-sit / 30 situps / 90sec v-sit / 30 situps and v-sit till the alarm. Crazy rich and hard, but also getting significantly better, I need much less time between exercises and I feel my core much better again.
Last part I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today it was lot of fun I must say, enjoyed it a lot. Same as yesterday - I was focusing on intensity and "crazy" movements - simply to workout during dancing, not just stay in routine.
II) Then I went to city to manage couple of things, lots of walking and doing lots of different actions - very stimulating and also exhausting when done consciously, I feel it as healthy and practical training and physical exercise - to do this "dealing with stuff" things consciously.
To be continued....
III) Afternoon I did a bit of yoga, not big set, just 5 asanas with warm up in the beginning and shavasana in the end. I have focus problems atm, so want to start slowly to not just "do" but be there while doing yoga. 5th asana was practice for handstand. Last year I didnt made it, but this year I want to finally do handstand, while I do headstand regularly.
IV) I was also practising on flute a bit, just like 40 minutes. But it was nice, I enjoyed it a lot.
V) In the late evening I went for a short walk, I stopped by Calisthenics park and did a very little bit of exercises to heat up a bit and went back home, it took something over 30 minutes. I dont know if I will make habit out of this, but it was nice.
Else I did couple of small things I needed at home and had relaxing day. Its good when I can do just what I want. It was good day, also I feel necessary this slowing down after being for long time with my beloved. Good day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept good and even overslept because of wrong set alarm... but not so much. I think I had dreams, but dont remember them. and in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. Holds from 5-1 seconds, today I made it to 1 second holds, but still not to dynamic reps. As I assumed - it seems right - its most likely about speed of position changing why Im so "slow". I was more focusing on observing this and I have lots of time wasted in transitions. And I started working on it today :)
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, to my delight I could kick myself a bit harder again and did 34 reps. Far from record, but getting better again. Love this exercise - its really great for explosive power endurance and stamina training.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core: 30 situps / 60sec v-sit / 30 situps / 90sec v-sit / 30 situps and v-sit till the alarm. Crazy rich and hard, but also getting significantly better, I need much less time between exercises and I feel my core much better again.
Last part I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today it was lot of fun I must say, enjoyed it a lot. Same as yesterday - I was focusing on intensity and "crazy" movements - simply to workout during dancing, not just stay in routine.
II) Then I went to city to manage couple of things, lots of walking and doing lots of different actions - very stimulating and also exhausting when done consciously, I feel it as healthy and practical training and physical exercise - to do this "dealing with stuff" things consciously.
To be continued....
III) Afternoon I did a bit of yoga, not big set, just 5 asanas with warm up in the beginning and shavasana in the end. I have focus problems atm, so want to start slowly to not just "do" but be there while doing yoga. 5th asana was practice for handstand. Last year I didnt made it, but this year I want to finally do handstand, while I do headstand regularly.
IV) I was also practising on flute a bit, just like 40 minutes. But it was nice, I enjoyed it a lot.
V) In the late evening I went for a short walk, I stopped by Calisthenics park and did a very little bit of exercises to heat up a bit and went back home, it took something over 30 minutes. I dont know if I will make habit out of this, but it was nice.
Else I did couple of small things I needed at home and had relaxing day. Its good when I can do just what I want. It was good day, also I feel necessary this slowing down after being for long time with my beloved. Good day. Ohm mani padme hum.
6.1.2014 - Goodbyes and returns
84kg " += " not so much worth to mention something today
I slept well and also had dreams, this morning I remembered them, but I write it next day and its all gone from my memory :( Anyway, in the morning I did morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way Sun Salutation, running with stretches and shadowboxing. It was strong and intensive as usually, very necessary and very good warm up. Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO - today it was very rich and difficult, I went through lot of struggle, but I finished as intended in the end. Then I continued with random exercises, what felt good to do and what I could do. It was rich...
Then 30 minutes or something of dancing. Random mix and lots of fun. I try to really move everything and not just jump into some routine, but really actively dance as intensive as possible. I dont take this dancing just as filler, but also as a dynamic exercise. But its fun as well! :)
Else I did no other exercises today. It was last day with my beloved after 17 days or something. We went though some really hard and heavy processes together this time and also through lots of nice things. Lots of things got cleared and tuned just for our relationship, important things. Hugs and kisses for goodbyes.
I was also travelling back home. All went smooth and my flat welcomed me back. Ohm mani padme hum
I slept well and also had dreams, this morning I remembered them, but I write it next day and its all gone from my memory :( Anyway, in the morning I did morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 10x old way Sun Salutation, running with stretches and shadowboxing. It was strong and intensive as usually, very necessary and very good warm up. Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Starting with 4 rounds of TM core WO - today it was very rich and difficult, I went through lot of struggle, but I finished as intended in the end. Then I continued with random exercises, what felt good to do and what I could do. It was rich...
Then 30 minutes or something of dancing. Random mix and lots of fun. I try to really move everything and not just jump into some routine, but really actively dance as intensive as possible. I dont take this dancing just as filler, but also as a dynamic exercise. But its fun as well! :)
Else I did no other exercises today. It was last day with my beloved after 17 days or something. We went though some really hard and heavy processes together this time and also through lots of nice things. Lots of things got cleared and tuned just for our relationship, important things. Hugs and kisses for goodbyes.
I was also travelling back home. All went smooth and my flat welcomed me back. Ohm mani padme hum
neděle 5. ledna 2014
5.1.2014 - 1 year of my Blog and anyway full day!
83,9kg " - " Moving down again, thats sweet. Was reading my blog from year backwards - I had 95,6kg, not anything to go to TV or something really, but good to see difference, thats one of benefits to write a blog :)
I had also dream today and I remember it! I was in some pub with friends from teenage times and in one moment I started to dance contact improvisation with one friend which I really like and it was great dance, I loved it. And around table appeared also my ex-schoolmates from elementary school and slowly I found out, that there is elementary school reunion in next room! First it was great to meet my old school-mates, they all appeared in my dream as caricatures of theyr former selves. It was partially funny, partially a bit creepy. But slowly I realized, that nobody invited me for our class reunion and it felt strange and was a bit weird. Even I did not really liked our class those 20 years ago it was a bit painful. Interesting dream, maybe it has to tell me, that Im stuck in old relationships models and new ones are much better and more fitting into my life? Anyway, in the morning up for morning exercises!
I) BTW: I found that year ago I did just 35 minutes as morning exercises :)
Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, just 10 minutes, but I did 46 reps (or 48, Im not sure). It was not easy and towards the end I felt quite exhausted, but I kept going till the end as fast as I could no matter how much I was catching for breath. It felt good. Last year I did 23 reps in those 10 minutes as record :)
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, and today alarm rung on 28th rep. Not as good as I wanted, but better then yesterday, which is great. I also felt a bit more conscious and not so taken away by exhaustion.
Next 5 minutes I did squats, first 50 normal ones, then 10 half down and about 10 wide squats when alarm rung. I really want to work on my legs as well and also on my ass, its already better in many ways, but I want to have nice ass, man... so working on it!
4th block I was biking on stationary bike for 10 minutes, (3:30-2lvl; 5-3lvl; 1:30-4level). And who, it was hard, but somehow on this stationary bike its easy to overcome struggle and to go over pain and swept and all that and push hard to the limit. Its probably because legs are strong, big muscle which is improving fast.
Last block I was dancing for about 15 minutes, first it was crazy hard, I could almost not move on my legs, because they were numb and it took almost whole time to dance it out. But I had quite fun dancing and enjoyed it a lot.
Lets see what day will bring... to be continued!
II) We enjoyed a lot ourselves with my beloved during long, nice, hot love makings today. After several heavy, hard days it was very nice to feel our connection on both physical and soul level again. Of course, relationship is not only about sunny days, it would not be viable anyway, but December is always heavy for some reason.
III) In the evening I had a client, quite challenging one, because I could not work in good position and had to both develop instantly new techniques and find a way how to treat client as was necessary. But challenges are good, they help me to develop.
I was also evaluating last year today. Something worked out, I shaped myself a bit, lost some weight, gain some muscles, learned headstand, Im faster, stronger, more flexible. I know more what I want. What did not worked out was that I wanted my 6-pack and my work going bit better then it improved. But to be fair, my business is working better.
Well, today was good day, I felt it somehow solid, its not easy to describe it, but I felt today really good and I went to sleep totally finished. Ohm mani padme hum.
I had also dream today and I remember it! I was in some pub with friends from teenage times and in one moment I started to dance contact improvisation with one friend which I really like and it was great dance, I loved it. And around table appeared also my ex-schoolmates from elementary school and slowly I found out, that there is elementary school reunion in next room! First it was great to meet my old school-mates, they all appeared in my dream as caricatures of theyr former selves. It was partially funny, partially a bit creepy. But slowly I realized, that nobody invited me for our class reunion and it felt strange and was a bit weird. Even I did not really liked our class those 20 years ago it was a bit painful. Interesting dream, maybe it has to tell me, that Im stuck in old relationships models and new ones are much better and more fitting into my life? Anyway, in the morning up for morning exercises!
I) BTW: I found that year ago I did just 35 minutes as morning exercises :)
Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, just 10 minutes, but I did 46 reps (or 48, Im not sure). It was not easy and towards the end I felt quite exhausted, but I kept going till the end as fast as I could no matter how much I was catching for breath. It felt good. Last year I did 23 reps in those 10 minutes as record :)
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, and today alarm rung on 28th rep. Not as good as I wanted, but better then yesterday, which is great. I also felt a bit more conscious and not so taken away by exhaustion.
Next 5 minutes I did squats, first 50 normal ones, then 10 half down and about 10 wide squats when alarm rung. I really want to work on my legs as well and also on my ass, its already better in many ways, but I want to have nice ass, man... so working on it!
4th block I was biking on stationary bike for 10 minutes, (3:30-2lvl; 5-3lvl; 1:30-4level). And who, it was hard, but somehow on this stationary bike its easy to overcome struggle and to go over pain and swept and all that and push hard to the limit. Its probably because legs are strong, big muscle which is improving fast.
Last block I was dancing for about 15 minutes, first it was crazy hard, I could almost not move on my legs, because they were numb and it took almost whole time to dance it out. But I had quite fun dancing and enjoyed it a lot.
Lets see what day will bring... to be continued!
II) We enjoyed a lot ourselves with my beloved during long, nice, hot love makings today. After several heavy, hard days it was very nice to feel our connection on both physical and soul level again. Of course, relationship is not only about sunny days, it would not be viable anyway, but December is always heavy for some reason.
III) In the evening I had a client, quite challenging one, because I could not work in good position and had to both develop instantly new techniques and find a way how to treat client as was necessary. But challenges are good, they help me to develop.
I was also evaluating last year today. Something worked out, I shaped myself a bit, lost some weight, gain some muscles, learned headstand, Im faster, stronger, more flexible. I know more what I want. What did not worked out was that I wanted my 6-pack and my work going bit better then it improved. But to be fair, my business is working better.
Well, today was good day, I felt it somehow solid, its not easy to describe it, but I felt today really good and I went to sleep totally finished. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 4. ledna 2014
4.1.2014 - heavy fogy day with some sugar as well
84,5kg " = " - nothing to comment today
I did not slept so well tonight, was waking up often and could not sleep again even I was just on that border when you fall asleep. But anyway I felt fine in the morning. I also felt v.strong in the morning, thats quite a new feeling like this I must say. I had no idea whats that coming from. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. Decreasing holds from 5-2 seconds, did not made more. Its a bit confusing I must say, I dont feel being slow or something yet Im nowhere near to do it 5-1 second, not to mention 4 extra dynamic reps. Was I skipping reps before, or counting faster? Makes one think really. But meanwhile I want to try to do faster position transitions to try if they take so much time. On other note - I feel much better in positions again and also had good feeling about preciseness of execution. I can even bend backwards quite a lot with hands on ears in standing position.
Then I did something new. For 5 minutes I did dynamic position changing on the ground, random movements, round turning, whatever comes. Its not much space here, but I feel it as more advantage, because I have to be a lot aware what Im doing and my position. With this not easy 5 minute long movement its good combination.
Next 5 minutes I did Burpees. Today alarm rung on 26th rep. I felt it a bit better then last time, its really quite difficult exercise. If it will feel good, I want to repeat it again tomorrow. I felt it great today.
Then I did Abs and core exercises for 10 minutes. Random exercises - dynamic, static, whatever comes and felt possible. I made it quite rich so it was intense, which is necessary for this group of muscles. Im starting to feel muscles again, its great. Its great because if is this group too weak I cant exercise so long that I feel them, they are exhausted too soon.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today I had lots of fun, got nice songs from random choice and it worked great both for moving stiff parts and have fun. Great.
Lets see what day will bring.... to be continued!
Well, day brought one nourishing walk in wet, bit foggy day. Despite the weather, I felt it really nourishing and healing. It was hard morning and afternoon today so it was great.
Else I did no other exercises today, just day with family with visitors, playing and being together. Ohm mani padme hum.
I did not slept so well tonight, was waking up often and could not sleep again even I was just on that border when you fall asleep. But anyway I felt fine in the morning. I also felt v.strong in the morning, thats quite a new feeling like this I must say. I had no idea whats that coming from. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. Decreasing holds from 5-2 seconds, did not made more. Its a bit confusing I must say, I dont feel being slow or something yet Im nowhere near to do it 5-1 second, not to mention 4 extra dynamic reps. Was I skipping reps before, or counting faster? Makes one think really. But meanwhile I want to try to do faster position transitions to try if they take so much time. On other note - I feel much better in positions again and also had good feeling about preciseness of execution. I can even bend backwards quite a lot with hands on ears in standing position.
Then I did something new. For 5 minutes I did dynamic position changing on the ground, random movements, round turning, whatever comes. Its not much space here, but I feel it as more advantage, because I have to be a lot aware what Im doing and my position. With this not easy 5 minute long movement its good combination.
Next 5 minutes I did Burpees. Today alarm rung on 26th rep. I felt it a bit better then last time, its really quite difficult exercise. If it will feel good, I want to repeat it again tomorrow. I felt it great today.
Then I did Abs and core exercises for 10 minutes. Random exercises - dynamic, static, whatever comes and felt possible. I made it quite rich so it was intense, which is necessary for this group of muscles. Im starting to feel muscles again, its great. Its great because if is this group too weak I cant exercise so long that I feel them, they are exhausted too soon.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today I had lots of fun, got nice songs from random choice and it worked great both for moving stiff parts and have fun. Great.
Lets see what day will bring.... to be continued!
Well, day brought one nourishing walk in wet, bit foggy day. Despite the weather, I felt it really nourishing and healing. It was hard morning and afternoon today so it was great.
Else I did no other exercises today, just day with family with visitors, playing and being together. Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 3. ledna 2014
3.1.2014 - Calisthenics strikes back (surprisingly)
84,5kg " - " again a bit less, lets see how long this trend will remain, hopefully long :D
Else I slept very good tonight, deep, nourishing sleep and that even I had a dream - and what dream it was! I wasnt actually sure in the morning if it was dream about actual movie or I dreamt it all up. It was like watching a movie, but like watching it for second time. I knew what will happen, what it is about, but movie went on linearly like normal movie. Daniel Redcliffe was main actor, he was perfect robot who though being a human. Whole story took place in post-apocalyptic world after some war with something like sky-net from Terminator movies. He was only one who knew what to do and he needed to found box of "last safe" to overcome that sky-net-like intelligence. Box was hidden and Daniel had to go through many places to find the "right one". Sky-net (lets call it like this to make it easy for me) made many traps and surprises for him. Daniel had to also deal with few survivals of human race and so on. It was very interesting. Also because Daniel was, in fact, creation of sky-net and sky-net simply had lots of kicks and fun playing with him around, and in the end he even let him "win", or to think him he won victory for human race, but in fact it was just another form of ruling remains of a world by this super-intelligence. I would love to watch that movie in real actually :)
Well, in the morning up for morning exercise!
I) Starting with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations. Today I made holds from 5-2 seconds and I must say I felt my body much more flexible and moving much more smooth, it felt great. And it was also great warm up as usually.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mainly Barstarz exercises. It wasnt how I would love to, but it was much better again. Seems my ABS is waking up to former shape. I needed much less rest and breaks and could do exercises more precisely, everyday work pays off, thats how I feel it.
Then 10 minutes of biking on stationary bike (4m-lvl2/5m-lvl3/1m-lvl4). Slowly adapting to 4th level and constantly working on keeping high intensity and not slide into routine. It was intensive and rich and I loved it. I loved that fight with tired muscles, swept all over and those voices telling me to stop. I loved it today.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, nothing major to write about, I was quite stiff so whole session was mainly to let the blood flow and relax the muscles. But it was nice to dance as always even if just for a dance itself.
Lets see what day will bring.... to be continued.
II) Afternoon we went outside to playground for adults nearby. It was very nice place, quite good set for Calisthenics training and I could not resist to do regular training. Well.... in the amount I could make it. There was lot of good tools there to try things I cant in my hometown and I could not even use those because Im not trained enough! Good motivation to work a bit harder and also its showing nicely where Im stronger and where I need to work more. For example, triceps are quite weak, but shoulder and pushup techniques are going very good.
Rest of the day went easy. My body was quite exhausted so I could not do much. but my mind was somehow fine so I could enjoy company of my beloved. Nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept very good tonight, deep, nourishing sleep and that even I had a dream - and what dream it was! I wasnt actually sure in the morning if it was dream about actual movie or I dreamt it all up. It was like watching a movie, but like watching it for second time. I knew what will happen, what it is about, but movie went on linearly like normal movie. Daniel Redcliffe was main actor, he was perfect robot who though being a human. Whole story took place in post-apocalyptic world after some war with something like sky-net from Terminator movies. He was only one who knew what to do and he needed to found box of "last safe" to overcome that sky-net-like intelligence. Box was hidden and Daniel had to go through many places to find the "right one". Sky-net (lets call it like this to make it easy for me) made many traps and surprises for him. Daniel had to also deal with few survivals of human race and so on. It was very interesting. Also because Daniel was, in fact, creation of sky-net and sky-net simply had lots of kicks and fun playing with him around, and in the end he even let him "win", or to think him he won victory for human race, but in fact it was just another form of ruling remains of a world by this super-intelligence. I would love to watch that movie in real actually :)
Well, in the morning up for morning exercise!
I) Starting with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations. Today I made holds from 5-2 seconds and I must say I felt my body much more flexible and moving much more smooth, it felt great. And it was also great warm up as usually.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mainly Barstarz exercises. It wasnt how I would love to, but it was much better again. Seems my ABS is waking up to former shape. I needed much less rest and breaks and could do exercises more precisely, everyday work pays off, thats how I feel it.
Then 10 minutes of biking on stationary bike (4m-lvl2/5m-lvl3/1m-lvl4). Slowly adapting to 4th level and constantly working on keeping high intensity and not slide into routine. It was intensive and rich and I loved it. I loved that fight with tired muscles, swept all over and those voices telling me to stop. I loved it today.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, nothing major to write about, I was quite stiff so whole session was mainly to let the blood flow and relax the muscles. But it was nice to dance as always even if just for a dance itself.
Lets see what day will bring.... to be continued.
II) Afternoon we went outside to playground for adults nearby. It was very nice place, quite good set for Calisthenics training and I could not resist to do regular training. Well.... in the amount I could make it. There was lot of good tools there to try things I cant in my hometown and I could not even use those because Im not trained enough! Good motivation to work a bit harder and also its showing nicely where Im stronger and where I need to work more. For example, triceps are quite weak, but shoulder and pushup techniques are going very good.
Rest of the day went easy. My body was quite exhausted so I could not do much. but my mind was somehow fine so I could enjoy company of my beloved. Nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 2. ledna 2014
2.1.2014 - a bit from everything
85kg " - " A bit less, nothing major, but its nice anyway.
I had today very nice dream of erotic nature. Not a "wet dream" I felt that there is message for me, but Im afraid I did not made it this time (to understand the message). I was in some workshop place with couple of big, mostly empty, but comfortable equipped rooms. I was there with several woman and we slowly started to be erotic and play with each other. First I was playing with one woman and then with human being which felt to me like man, who was surgically changed to woman. Then come one woman I know from my training and dream somehow dissolved. What remained was very nice, cozy, warm, erotic, but not vulgar feeling without any hard feelings, just playful, joyful, unburdened energy.
Well, else I did not slept so well, but it was fine. I did no morning exercises today, on one side because we plan to go to swimming pool and also because I try 6/1 regime - 6 days of 50 minutes morning exercises and 1 day just stratching or easier exercises (dancing/yoga/walking etc...).
I) Later in the morning we went to swimming pool. It was nice, I like swimming and I felt it for some reason very good to be there, on one side because of swimming itself, which I feel more and more like great movement (its been years since I was swimming regularly). And it was also fun to just play in water too :)
II) In the evening I had a client, it was awesome to work again and it was very interesting treatment. I felt like I can feel client very good and responses from client were corresponding with what I sensed. I felt it also like quite important treatment for client. Im curious how will be
reaction (if any) from client.
Else I was just on bike for some shopping and spend rest of the day in nice, familly atmosphere with my beloved. Great day. Ohm mani padme hum.
I had today very nice dream of erotic nature. Not a "wet dream" I felt that there is message for me, but Im afraid I did not made it this time (to understand the message). I was in some workshop place with couple of big, mostly empty, but comfortable equipped rooms. I was there with several woman and we slowly started to be erotic and play with each other. First I was playing with one woman and then with human being which felt to me like man, who was surgically changed to woman. Then come one woman I know from my training and dream somehow dissolved. What remained was very nice, cozy, warm, erotic, but not vulgar feeling without any hard feelings, just playful, joyful, unburdened energy.
Well, else I did not slept so well, but it was fine. I did no morning exercises today, on one side because we plan to go to swimming pool and also because I try 6/1 regime - 6 days of 50 minutes morning exercises and 1 day just stratching or easier exercises (dancing/yoga/walking etc...).
I) Later in the morning we went to swimming pool. It was nice, I like swimming and I felt it for some reason very good to be there, on one side because of swimming itself, which I feel more and more like great movement (its been years since I was swimming regularly). And it was also fun to just play in water too :)
II) In the evening I had a client, it was awesome to work again and it was very interesting treatment. I felt like I can feel client very good and responses from client were corresponding with what I sensed. I felt it also like quite important treatment for client. Im curious how will be
reaction (if any) from client.
Else I was just on bike for some shopping and spend rest of the day in nice, familly atmosphere with my beloved. Great day. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 1. ledna 2014
1.1.2014 - First day of a new year, first steps into new life
85,3kg " ++ " yeah, Silvester feast is nasty bomb....
Else I slept quite well and woke up just a bit later then usually. I dont remember any dreams today. And in the morning up for morning exercises! I felt it important to start NOW.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations with holds from 5-3 seconds, did not made more, I had to be very careful and slow, my body is still hurting after yesterday pyramid. It was very important stretching session, as I felt it.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, I did only 25 of them, but I knew it will not be about some achievements today, I was happy to do these 25 and I know, I wish be on double soon. Its very intensive exercise.
3rd part was consisted from core and ABS exercises, random mix of what I wanted and felt important to do. I felt its going better slowly again. Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, it went nice, even I had not much energy any more, but anyway towards the end I was dancing quite wild and energetic :) Thinking about it.... yeah, it was actually quite nice today.
Lets see what 1st of January brings.... to be continued.
Today I did no more physical exercises, but I did one maybe even more challenging for me. I have problems with seeing things in shadow and I was travelling with car quite far in night and on complicated, city-highway communications, it was quite challenging exercise for my eyes and brain and I felt how is headstanding helping me with this, because I could manage much better and easier panic feelings when sight started to fail me. I just slowed down, put sight together and continued, Great experience.
Else it was very nice and cozy day today, nice start into new year. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept quite well and woke up just a bit later then usually. I dont remember any dreams today. And in the morning up for morning exercises! I felt it important to start NOW.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of new way Sun Salutations with holds from 5-3 seconds, did not made more, I had to be very careful and slow, my body is still hurting after yesterday pyramid. It was very important stretching session, as I felt it.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, I did only 25 of them, but I knew it will not be about some achievements today, I was happy to do these 25 and I know, I wish be on double soon. Its very intensive exercise.
3rd part was consisted from core and ABS exercises, random mix of what I wanted and felt important to do. I felt its going better slowly again. Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, it went nice, even I had not much energy any more, but anyway towards the end I was dancing quite wild and energetic :) Thinking about it.... yeah, it was actually quite nice today.
Lets see what 1st of January brings.... to be continued.
Today I did no more physical exercises, but I did one maybe even more challenging for me. I have problems with seeing things in shadow and I was travelling with car quite far in night and on complicated, city-highway communications, it was quite challenging exercise for my eyes and brain and I felt how is headstanding helping me with this, because I could manage much better and easier panic feelings when sight started to fail me. I just slowed down, put sight together and continued, Great experience.
Else it was very nice and cozy day today, nice start into new year. Ohm mani padme hum.
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