? W. I slept rather well tonight, woke up alright and hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 33x pushups (18+10+5), 3:20 headstand.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed for 10 minutes, did 47 today, not bad at all. Felt good. My knees are not so fine with it tho, Im not sure where is problem, trying to figure this out. Very intense and effective warm up, uff.
I continued then with 10 minutes of alternation of 10xBurpees, 30xMountain climbers and 20xSquats. Made 3 rounds with few seconds overlap. I knew it will not be record today, I must say I felt proud on those 3 rounds, after SS on speed its quite a challenge to do this exercise, sweat was literary streaming from me and it felt good. Its more then 2 weeks since my last casual cigarette and my lungs feels good.
3rd thing I did ABS and core practice for 10 minutes. Today I did situps to failure, I did something around 100. What was great was that I found 2 false barriers today, first was feeling I cant do any more reps, that I broke through, this barrier I know, second was dizziness, I broke through this one today as well. When I got to the point where I really could not do anything anymore, I did not felt dizzy or pain, I just could not continue anymore. Im curious if I also find out that this point is just illusion like those 2 before. Life is so exiting! It was rich btw, very. I did also some more exercises, but not much, first part took lot of time.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I was bit stiff from previous, but nothing major. Enjoyed dancing a lot, I got more chillout songs today, but I guess universe know what I need better then me so it was fine.
II) I went for a trip to my friend. I met her and her son in capital. It was very intense meeting, lot sof walking, running in a rain or on bus, eating, hugging, kissing, cuddling up (like in cinema, or a passage, or anywhere we were going through). Afternoon and evening full of love and fun. Im so grateful for my friends. I went home again in the evening, spend 6 hours on a travel again today. Am I becoming traveloholic?
Very strong day today, starting with morning exercise and ending when going sleep. My heart is so open for my beloved wife and this friend I met today... Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 31. července 2014
pondělí 28. července 2014
29.7.2014 - chilling out, actively
? W. Tonight I slept v.bad. I though Im not sleeping at all, because of how often I was waking up... but in the morning I was ok to start morning exercises.
Notes: 33x pushups (25+8), 3:00 headstand (working on on corrected position better and better).
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations 4x 5s hold and 4x dynamic reps, went v.nice and smooth, made me happy. Intense warm and stretch up.
Then 10 minutes of Burpees, I wanted to make 60 and made 63 while alarm rung during 64th rep. It was v.rich, I was sweating like crazy, but to my delight, my body could follow quite nice even through breathing and ABS struggles.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Alternating of 40 situps and v-sit (made 60 and 90 seconds) alarm rung on 3rd situp block. I was very stubborn today on myself, I left no space for quitting early or changing exercise, I wanted to go through pain and such. Im working on reprogramming my progression blocks and I feel one way is very conscious denial of those blocks with huge attention of safety while doing so. So I push very hard through pain and struggle, but not through warning signals. Trick is to not mistake warning signals from signals which cause weakness which leads to injury. Its very fine inner work. Im curious myself how it will continue, there are no articles about this, or I did not found any. What I want to give to my readers is everything what can help you to overcome your own struggle and to let you know, that you are not alone in it. Its OK to fail and get up again. 7times fell, 8 times got up his feet.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. Today it was really great, I was very in watery-like mood and could enjoy dancing a lot. Especially last song Micropoint - Triceratops, where I went crazy and danced my soul very much. brought back my idea to make dances on all sort of crazy songs to show, that dancing has no limits :)
...tbc!
II) Afternoon I had a client. Very nice treatment, cant write details, but I believe it was v.helpful for a client and that feels very nice.
III) In the evening I went for about half of our outside, just short walk to local Calisthenics park and back. I would like to make habit of this, but its for me not easy to do this in the evening. I feel it would be great tho. Lets see how it will develop if it will.
Good day today, I was a bit off and resting and chilling out, I needed it a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 33x pushups (25+8), 3:00 headstand (working on on corrected position better and better).
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations 4x 5s hold and 4x dynamic reps, went v.nice and smooth, made me happy. Intense warm and stretch up.
Then 10 minutes of Burpees, I wanted to make 60 and made 63 while alarm rung during 64th rep. It was v.rich, I was sweating like crazy, but to my delight, my body could follow quite nice even through breathing and ABS struggles.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Alternating of 40 situps and v-sit (made 60 and 90 seconds) alarm rung on 3rd situp block. I was very stubborn today on myself, I left no space for quitting early or changing exercise, I wanted to go through pain and such. Im working on reprogramming my progression blocks and I feel one way is very conscious denial of those blocks with huge attention of safety while doing so. So I push very hard through pain and struggle, but not through warning signals. Trick is to not mistake warning signals from signals which cause weakness which leads to injury. Its very fine inner work. Im curious myself how it will continue, there are no articles about this, or I did not found any. What I want to give to my readers is everything what can help you to overcome your own struggle and to let you know, that you are not alone in it. Its OK to fail and get up again. 7times fell, 8 times got up his feet.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. Today it was really great, I was very in watery-like mood and could enjoy dancing a lot. Especially last song Micropoint - Triceratops, where I went crazy and danced my soul very much. brought back my idea to make dances on all sort of crazy songs to show, that dancing has no limits :)
...tbc!
II) Afternoon I had a client. Very nice treatment, cant write details, but I believe it was v.helpful for a client and that feels very nice.
III) In the evening I went for about half of our outside, just short walk to local Calisthenics park and back. I would like to make habit of this, but its for me not easy to do this in the evening. I feel it would be great tho. Lets see how it will develop if it will.
Good day today, I was a bit off and resting and chilling out, I needed it a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.
28.7.2014 - Petterns in the way of love
? W. Tonight I slept bit better but it wasnt easy to wake up in the morning anyway. But I did and hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 32x pushups (3 parts), 2:30 headstand. Again continuing work on new position, Im more sure about it after today.
I) Today I went running. During run my cell phone discharged so I dont know how long exactly I run, it was something around 50 minutes. Mainly flat path. These flat runs are for me extremely challenging, Im always totally flushed, lungs and limbs numb and exhausted and I feel morning run whole day. Im curious if it change one day and I will not feel so kicked-into-head for rest of the day. It was very rich, nuf said. Im trying to run on the edge, no dropping into routine. Challenging myself on each run to run faster.
II) Afternoon I went to my hometown again. Normal, nice eventless travel.
Today was v.heavy day for me and my beloved. As I felt it, we both picked deep in our respective wounds and could not overcome these strong inner pains and not attack each other from this point. Even my mind knows that this is exactly point where is chance to change major things in life by doing things differently and not attack but be in heart, but its so damn hard. These patterns I encountered are very at my very core, something what allowed me to survive in my childhood and its very difficult to change them. But on other side in last days Im happy to see these links to these deep-core patterns and I wish to find guts, swallow false pride and at least attempt to do things differently while encountering these.
Heavy, but rich day today. One has to be grateful for hard lessons like today. I wish to take all I can from it and not repeat it exactly same next time. I will never forget what Einstein said about this - Repeating same and expecting different result is madness. This kind of madness I dont want in my life, I decided for it. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (3 parts), 2:30 headstand. Again continuing work on new position, Im more sure about it after today.
I) Today I went running. During run my cell phone discharged so I dont know how long exactly I run, it was something around 50 minutes. Mainly flat path. These flat runs are for me extremely challenging, Im always totally flushed, lungs and limbs numb and exhausted and I feel morning run whole day. Im curious if it change one day and I will not feel so kicked-into-head for rest of the day. It was very rich, nuf said. Im trying to run on the edge, no dropping into routine. Challenging myself on each run to run faster.
II) Afternoon I went to my hometown again. Normal, nice eventless travel.
Today was v.heavy day for me and my beloved. As I felt it, we both picked deep in our respective wounds and could not overcome these strong inner pains and not attack each other from this point. Even my mind knows that this is exactly point where is chance to change major things in life by doing things differently and not attack but be in heart, but its so damn hard. These patterns I encountered are very at my very core, something what allowed me to survive in my childhood and its very difficult to change them. But on other side in last days Im happy to see these links to these deep-core patterns and I wish to find guts, swallow false pride and at least attempt to do things differently while encountering these.
Heavy, but rich day today. One has to be grateful for hard lessons like today. I wish to take all I can from it and not repeat it exactly same next time. I will never forget what Einstein said about this - Repeating same and expecting different result is madness. This kind of madness I dont want in my life, I decided for it. Ohm mani padme hum.
27.7.2014 - Challenging trip
? W. Tonight I slept good. This waking up at 5 a.m. is still not natural for me, but I really wish that it is. I feel it gives me lot of time and space in the day to get up early. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
Notes: 32x pushups, 2:10 headstand. Today headstand was possibly most intensive I ever did, I felt energies flowing so strong as never. It was so intense, that I had to stop so early and breath it out. I feel main cause my realization, that position of my head wasnt right and its correction. I have to learn headstand once again because of that, because its major change in position, but to correct position so its great!
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds. It went good, smooth changes, great warm up and stretch up.
Then traditional "first day" Burpee set, today I did something over 30 reps, I forgot how much exactly, something between 32 and 38. I felt it good, more then last time at this point.
I continued with ABS and core practices, did alternated youtube set, did 18 reps of last bit in 4th round. I know it wont tell you anything, its more note for me. If I find moral one day I will make video of this set how I do it. It was nicely rich and I liked how I did it.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. If you recognized, Im dancing 5 minutes longer then in past. This running for 1 hour made me to push time of power exercises as well, I mean, from feeling in guts I feel I want to do power exercises longer, already dancing longer and want to do 5 minutes power exercises as well.
II) Later in the morning us as family went on a trip to nearby castle ruins. What was special was that my beloved dared to do this trip, despite her health conditions she made it, its quite a steep hill with difficult terrain even for healthy person. I was v.proud of her, I mean, I admired her will to not be held back by her condition once again. For me it was also quite a trip, its peak of summer and Im overheating just being outside, not to mention that hill. And Im training every day, but seeing my beloved managing this dont leave any space to feel compassion to my own difficulties. Shes great inspiration.
Else we spend nice day together, making sweet love from time to time, having fun together and living our lives as we can. Beautiful day, ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups, 2:10 headstand. Today headstand was possibly most intensive I ever did, I felt energies flowing so strong as never. It was so intense, that I had to stop so early and breath it out. I feel main cause my realization, that position of my head wasnt right and its correction. I have to learn headstand once again because of that, because its major change in position, but to correct position so its great!
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds. It went good, smooth changes, great warm up and stretch up.
Then traditional "first day" Burpee set, today I did something over 30 reps, I forgot how much exactly, something between 32 and 38. I felt it good, more then last time at this point.
I continued with ABS and core practices, did alternated youtube set, did 18 reps of last bit in 4th round. I know it wont tell you anything, its more note for me. If I find moral one day I will make video of this set how I do it. It was nicely rich and I liked how I did it.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. If you recognized, Im dancing 5 minutes longer then in past. This running for 1 hour made me to push time of power exercises as well, I mean, from feeling in guts I feel I want to do power exercises longer, already dancing longer and want to do 5 minutes power exercises as well.
II) Later in the morning us as family went on a trip to nearby castle ruins. What was special was that my beloved dared to do this trip, despite her health conditions she made it, its quite a steep hill with difficult terrain even for healthy person. I was v.proud of her, I mean, I admired her will to not be held back by her condition once again. For me it was also quite a trip, its peak of summer and Im overheating just being outside, not to mention that hill. And Im training every day, but seeing my beloved managing this dont leave any space to feel compassion to my own difficulties. Shes great inspiration.
Else we spend nice day together, making sweet love from time to time, having fun together and living our lives as we can. Beautiful day, ohm mani padme hum.
26.7.2014 - rawr :)
? W. Today I slept well. I take rest today. Its been ages since I slept out and I really felt like I
need it today. Whole day went in easy mood, filled with good, quality sex, contact with my beloved, meals and rest.
I) In the morning I also had a client. It was very nice treatment, because this client is working a lot with herself and her system is very active. I felt meridians even only when I put finger or hand on body to support working hand or finger. Fascinating. I also felt I could do a lot for a client in these circumstances.
Else its not much to write, simply very nice, juicy day, wish same or better days to you all. Ohm mani padme hum.
need it today. Whole day went in easy mood, filled with good, quality sex, contact with my beloved, meals and rest.
I) In the morning I also had a client. It was very nice treatment, because this client is working a lot with herself and her system is very active. I felt meridians even only when I put finger or hand on body to support working hand or finger. Fascinating. I also felt I could do a lot for a client in these circumstances.
Else its not much to write, simply very nice, juicy day, wish same or better days to you all. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 26. července 2014
25.7.2014 - Austrian social life is rich
? W. Today I slept good, but not enough, on other side, I want to work on not sleeping that much so it was also fine. And up for morning exercises.
Notes: 32x pushups (32+10), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, to my big joy also with my beloved, she on bike and me running. We went on nice track between villages and it was really great for me. It was much easier for me to run faster and technical as well. I enjoyed it a lot. To my surprise I realized, that I learned to speak a bit while running as well, I mean, to speak shortly without loosing tempo and breath. I must say I did not enjyoed running for some time so much like today with my beloved.
II) Else I was just biking around town a bit with my beloved and we had couple of times very nice sex during the day. I love the way my beloved works on herself, no bullshit, just hard, conscious work.
In the evening we visited local wine celebration event. What was fascinating for me on this event was how huge this event was, hundreds of people even its just local thing. I must say Im fascinated with quality of social life in this area my beloved live in. I know its also about my beloved because she is very social person, but anyway, I feel social life here rich and healthy and it feels very good for me, not such "capitalism individualism" like in the area Im living.
Again nice day today, I felt v.exhausted most of the day, but fortunately I could take rest when I needed and be with my beloved as well in nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (32+10), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, to my big joy also with my beloved, she on bike and me running. We went on nice track between villages and it was really great for me. It was much easier for me to run faster and technical as well. I enjoyed it a lot. To my surprise I realized, that I learned to speak a bit while running as well, I mean, to speak shortly without loosing tempo and breath. I must say I did not enjyoed running for some time so much like today with my beloved.
II) Else I was just biking around town a bit with my beloved and we had couple of times very nice sex during the day. I love the way my beloved works on herself, no bullshit, just hard, conscious work.
In the evening we visited local wine celebration event. What was fascinating for me on this event was how huge this event was, hundreds of people even its just local thing. I must say Im fascinated with quality of social life in this area my beloved live in. I know its also about my beloved because she is very social person, but anyway, I feel social life here rich and healthy and it feels very good for me, not such "capitalism individualism" like in the area Im living.
Again nice day today, I felt v.exhausted most of the day, but fortunately I could take rest when I needed and be with my beloved as well in nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum.
24.7.2014 - full day
? W. Tonight islept poorly because of tons of mosquitos and need of opened doors, was v.annoying and I felt great discomfort.
Notes: 32x pushups (22+10), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I did 48 or something. I felt I could do more, I felt lot of space for more reps, just explosive power missing. Anyway, rich warm up!
I continued then with 10 minutes of Burpees. I wanted to do at least 2x27 = 54, and alarm rung after 58th rep, so it was good. I felt like Im missing exactly this kind of exercise atm - difficult exercise performed for longer time. I believe doing this could help me to gain more explosive power.
Then I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. I remember I felt happy about it, I could do v-sit for 60 and 90 second without break and also could overcome moments of struggle more easily. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Dont remember anymore how it went, I will just add, that I feel I want to dance more. Already dancing 5 minutes more on sets then in past and have wish to find power to dance in the evenings more often.
II) Later in the morning I had a client. Nice treatment, because intention wasnt work but relax, client was working a lot in last days so it was more needed to just receive care and relax. Nice treatment.
III) Afternoon other client. Very different, worth mention is one thing. This client used to come once a month and now is coming more often and its nice to feel how his system and body react much faster and stronger. Im happy, because I believe this more intense treatment regime could give a lot to this client and allow him to do things he cant because of his physical state.
IV) Later I travelled to my beloved, nice, eventless travel and despite a bit heavy atmosphere between me and my beloved, we welcomed each other in very lovely and sweet way. It helped me a lot to open my heart and deal with things between us.
Nice day today, rich and potent. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (22+10), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I did 48 or something. I felt I could do more, I felt lot of space for more reps, just explosive power missing. Anyway, rich warm up!
I continued then with 10 minutes of Burpees. I wanted to do at least 2x27 = 54, and alarm rung after 58th rep, so it was good. I felt like Im missing exactly this kind of exercise atm - difficult exercise performed for longer time. I believe doing this could help me to gain more explosive power.
Then I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. I remember I felt happy about it, I could do v-sit for 60 and 90 second without break and also could overcome moments of struggle more easily. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Dont remember anymore how it went, I will just add, that I feel I want to dance more. Already dancing 5 minutes more on sets then in past and have wish to find power to dance in the evenings more often.
II) Later in the morning I had a client. Nice treatment, because intention wasnt work but relax, client was working a lot in last days so it was more needed to just receive care and relax. Nice treatment.
III) Afternoon other client. Very different, worth mention is one thing. This client used to come once a month and now is coming more often and its nice to feel how his system and body react much faster and stronger. Im happy, because I believe this more intense treatment regime could give a lot to this client and allow him to do things he cant because of his physical state.
IV) Later I travelled to my beloved, nice, eventless travel and despite a bit heavy atmosphere between me and my beloved, we welcomed each other in very lovely and sweet way. It helped me a lot to open my heart and deal with things between us.
Nice day today, rich and potent. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 24. července 2014
23.7.2014 - finishing GoT
?W. I slept well tonight, no dreaming, its been ages I had a dream last time. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 32x pushups (combination), 3:20 (+-10sec) headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-3 seconds. I was slow and it was v.hard to exercise at all, I fought great resistance and I was happy I did not quit. Good warm up non the less.
Then I did 10 minutes ABS and core practices, whole morning exercise I felt lot in resistance and weak. I felt Im more fighting with my inner protestors then muscles and energy. Tough inner fight. Im trying to reprogram my DNA and remove breaks which hold me back. Today I realized v.important thing - that Im suffering injury not at the moment Im pushing too hard, but in the moment I encounter this hard-coded break point. I KNOW its not my border where I can grow and push, I KNOW I can reprogram and remove this break to be able to progress without encountering false warnings and hold-ups. I know I have much MUCH more potential then I have at the point when Im stopped by injury which comes from unconscious programs. I want to do this, to get through this breaking point, remove false believes.
Last I was dancing for about 30 minutes. It was half-half, fun-work. I felt it very necessary for my body and whole system to dance.
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both interesting treatments but from different reasons. First is closer friend and really trust me. My treatments work v.well for her and its great feeling. Second one is new client where I have to first earn trust and there is also strange dynamics between us, I dont really understand it. Its like lcient is very careful to open, but at the same time wants to open. Both interesting treatments.
I also finished GoT 4th season today, its great series. I have problems at points with excessive violence there, sometimes I dont see any reason for it and it seems like its just for a show, but I want to read books and see how it is there. Also Im bit disappointed with devolving of some characters which turns from wise characters into retards or are handling situations all the sudden like kids while they were clever before. But anyway, Im curious about last season very much!
Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (combination), 3:20 (+-10sec) headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-3 seconds. I was slow and it was v.hard to exercise at all, I fought great resistance and I was happy I did not quit. Good warm up non the less.
Then I did 10 minutes ABS and core practices, whole morning exercise I felt lot in resistance and weak. I felt Im more fighting with my inner protestors then muscles and energy. Tough inner fight. Im trying to reprogram my DNA and remove breaks which hold me back. Today I realized v.important thing - that Im suffering injury not at the moment Im pushing too hard, but in the moment I encounter this hard-coded break point. I KNOW its not my border where I can grow and push, I KNOW I can reprogram and remove this break to be able to progress without encountering false warnings and hold-ups. I know I have much MUCH more potential then I have at the point when Im stopped by injury which comes from unconscious programs. I want to do this, to get through this breaking point, remove false believes.
Last I was dancing for about 30 minutes. It was half-half, fun-work. I felt it very necessary for my body and whole system to dance.
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both interesting treatments but from different reasons. First is closer friend and really trust me. My treatments work v.well for her and its great feeling. Second one is new client where I have to first earn trust and there is also strange dynamics between us, I dont really understand it. Its like lcient is very careful to open, but at the same time wants to open. Both interesting treatments.
I also finished GoT 4th season today, its great series. I have problems at points with excessive violence there, sometimes I dont see any reason for it and it seems like its just for a show, but I want to read books and see how it is there. Also Im bit disappointed with devolving of some characters which turns from wise characters into retards or are handling situations all the sudden like kids while they were clever before. But anyway, Im curious about last season very much!
Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 22. července 2014
22.7.2014 - joy from Shiatsu
? W. I slept good tonight, it was finally raining in the night so night was a bit cold. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 5:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. Last time I went running here was like 15 years ago? Well, I run 9,1km in 56:00, 279m elevation. It was very very rich. I though towards the end that my lungs burst open, my limbs fell off and in general I will explode or something. Thats big plus on running, you cant just quit, you have to finish round in order to stop session. Challenging.
...tbc
Just realized, that this day wasnt saved by google, sweet.
I dont remember anymore what I did, I just know I had a client afternoon and when client was leaving we shake hands and in this handshake was so much gratitude, that it touched me really. Its v.shy client.
I really dont know if something interesting happened today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 5:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. Last time I went running here was like 15 years ago? Well, I run 9,1km in 56:00, 279m elevation. It was very very rich. I though towards the end that my lungs burst open, my limbs fell off and in general I will explode or something. Thats big plus on running, you cant just quit, you have to finish round in order to stop session. Challenging.
...tbc
Just realized, that this day wasnt saved by google, sweet.
I dont remember anymore what I did, I just know I had a client afternoon and when client was leaving we shake hands and in this handshake was so much gratitude, that it touched me really. Its v.shy client.
I really dont know if something interesting happened today. Ohm mani padme hum.
21.7.2014 - Game of Thrones day
? W. I slept good today, even not really long and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 32x pushups (24+8), 2:00 headstand
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds. What was interesting was that it felt like I forgot how to do this completely. I forgot positions and some details and I was remembering stuff with every consequential repetition. Felt weird, but it was great warm up non the less.
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, I felt like do 10, but to my delight I ended up with 28. Not record at all, but much more then I expected, I felt it great.
Third I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. Mainly alternated youtube set. It was rich and I felt my muscles very intensive. Good.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It felt much shorter, I had lot of fun doing this.¨
II) During the day I was doing some minor stuff to help my parents with stuff which is ATM too much for them, nothing major. I was mostly evaluating inside and watching GoT, made 7 epizodes today, felt short. Its great show indeed.
Today was nice, relaxed day with some duties, some practices and some thinking, good change to my routine as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (24+8), 2:00 headstand
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds. What was interesting was that it felt like I forgot how to do this completely. I forgot positions and some details and I was remembering stuff with every consequential repetition. Felt weird, but it was great warm up non the less.
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, I felt like do 10, but to my delight I ended up with 28. Not record at all, but much more then I expected, I felt it great.
Third I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. Mainly alternated youtube set. It was rich and I felt my muscles very intensive. Good.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It felt much shorter, I had lot of fun doing this.¨
II) During the day I was doing some minor stuff to help my parents with stuff which is ATM too much for them, nothing major. I was mostly evaluating inside and watching GoT, made 7 epizodes today, felt short. Its great show indeed.
Today was nice, relaxed day with some duties, some practices and some thinking, good change to my routine as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
20.7.2014 - summer hell
? W. Today I took deliberately day off. No excuses. Instead I worked on record order and created great, supersecure package with 20 records. I felt proud. Im starting feeling myself practically oriented as well in creation of stuff because of these packages. I have lot of fun making them and developing better and more effective and faster ways how to make these packages. And Im creating much faster, cheaper and more secure every package.
I was also cleaning today and sorting stuff, taking rest as well, it was crazy hot day today.
I) In the evening I had a client, challenging one, because client was from Japan and I found challenging to find good way to approach this client. Also because of hot, humid weather. In the end I was totally drenched in sweat, crazy.
II) Afterwards I went travelling again. I feel like all the time on the road lately. It was fun for some months, but I feel ATM like not being at home anywhere and not knowing where I want to truly be. I feel it as just period to understand something. My guess is, that place where I live should not be my place where I live anymore and I should move somewhere else. Lets see how it develops.
¨
Rest of the day was quite relaxed and fine. Good day today, not so intensive, but I sure went through lot of processes with my relationships and such. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 19. července 2014
19.7.2014 - sex in the city
? W. Today had really crazy start. After like 2 or 3 hour sleep we got up at 5:30 and had to be really fast to catch the morning bus, that also included no shower and run with full backpack, morning exercise :) ?
It was last morning of this trip with my friend and I we spend it on the travel, but we also found a time to find hidden place and enjoy quickie outside i the middle of the city, I think by-coming trains had nice time watching us. Of course, event like this are more about excitement then about real pleasure and also for me its something unexplored and new, yet attractive so I was very grateful for this experience. Very thrilling and exiting I must say! I would not prioritize it over love making in deep connection with the other and in full attention and focus, but as a game and spice of life its sure working very well.
After bidding goodbye to my friend I travelled back to my hometown. Smooth travel, just today was so hot day, it was crazy. I could not muster myself to even cook, I was just eating fast made crap food. But I felt it strong to eat what I ate today, I mean, I know its not healthy, but its what my system asked for and I believe if its very seldom and with intention to give myself what I need, then its fine. It was very nice and valuable trip, but also exhausting and challenging both emotionally and physically.
For the rest of the day I was just packing big package of records, I made lovely package I was proud of. I believe it can survive safely any rude behaviour of any postage guy :)
Else I was just resting, doing small stuff, catching up communication after a trip and watching GoT... Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
It was last morning of this trip with my friend and I we spend it on the travel, but we also found a time to find hidden place and enjoy quickie outside i the middle of the city, I think by-coming trains had nice time watching us. Of course, event like this are more about excitement then about real pleasure and also for me its something unexplored and new, yet attractive so I was very grateful for this experience. Very thrilling and exiting I must say! I would not prioritize it over love making in deep connection with the other and in full attention and focus, but as a game and spice of life its sure working very well.
After bidding goodbye to my friend I travelled back to my hometown. Smooth travel, just today was so hot day, it was crazy. I could not muster myself to even cook, I was just eating fast made crap food. But I felt it strong to eat what I ate today, I mean, I know its not healthy, but its what my system asked for and I believe if its very seldom and with intention to give myself what I need, then its fine. It was very nice and valuable trip, but also exhausting and challenging both emotionally and physically.
For the rest of the day I was just packing big package of records, I made lovely package I was proud of. I believe it can survive safely any rude behaviour of any postage guy :)
Else I was just resting, doing small stuff, catching up communication after a trip and watching GoT... Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
18.7.2014 - finding the way
? W.
...continue from 17.7.:
Afternoon was quite interesting, my cell phone set itself into radio-off mode and I was in this way cut from receiving calls or SMS and I did not knew. I found out 2 hours later and consequences led me into long walk trip to meet my friend. With this friend its often so unpredictable and I have to really relax into whatever comes to come by. Of course if its about my borders and my time-limits and such its something else, but in case Im free in this, its just a ride in the mystery of life. We spend together nice evening and also connected with my beloved on skype. It was for me new and interesting situation to skype with my wife and girlfriend together and feel no hatred or tension but love and mutual compassion. I felt so much love to my wife and my friend... so much gratitude that such event can be relaxed and in love. I love them both very much and deep so it means a lot to me. I would like to, et again, point out importance of honesty and need to show whats here without hiding potentially painful things. In the end, it makes whole thing much less painful and even uplifting. We went sleep rather early today.
18.7. - After some sleep we spend lots of time together in bed, speaking about things what burden us and interest us and what we dont understand. My friend needed to clear whats this situation all about and wanted to be clear about feelings of mine and my wife about meeting her. We had no sex till very late tonight, it was quite hard for me, because I felt quite horny and felt urge after deeper and closer connection with my friend. But I felt great, that my friend is not submissing to my needs, but honour herself and her feelings and borders. Its very important for me to feel OK in any relationship, that I can trust that the other wont do things he/she dont want to.
We also made some work with dogs of my friend and also went swimming to nearby lake with dogies, it was also quite challenging to bike in, literally, pack consisted from 2 humans on bike and 2 dogs. It was demanding, because of need to be on tip of the toes, alert all the time. Swimming was also great and I really enjoyed swimming naked in such clear water and wash away all sweat and stickiness of hot summer day.
In the evening something changed and we made sweet love together. It felt very different then last time we met. I can not say how still, but it felt somehow more closer, sweeter, more present then last time.
It was very long, rich, challenging, hot and lovely day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
...continue from 17.7.:
Afternoon was quite interesting, my cell phone set itself into radio-off mode and I was in this way cut from receiving calls or SMS and I did not knew. I found out 2 hours later and consequences led me into long walk trip to meet my friend. With this friend its often so unpredictable and I have to really relax into whatever comes to come by. Of course if its about my borders and my time-limits and such its something else, but in case Im free in this, its just a ride in the mystery of life. We spend together nice evening and also connected with my beloved on skype. It was for me new and interesting situation to skype with my wife and girlfriend together and feel no hatred or tension but love and mutual compassion. I felt so much love to my wife and my friend... so much gratitude that such event can be relaxed and in love. I love them both very much and deep so it means a lot to me. I would like to, et again, point out importance of honesty and need to show whats here without hiding potentially painful things. In the end, it makes whole thing much less painful and even uplifting. We went sleep rather early today.
18.7. - After some sleep we spend lots of time together in bed, speaking about things what burden us and interest us and what we dont understand. My friend needed to clear whats this situation all about and wanted to be clear about feelings of mine and my wife about meeting her. We had no sex till very late tonight, it was quite hard for me, because I felt quite horny and felt urge after deeper and closer connection with my friend. But I felt great, that my friend is not submissing to my needs, but honour herself and her feelings and borders. Its very important for me to feel OK in any relationship, that I can trust that the other wont do things he/she dont want to.
We also made some work with dogs of my friend and also went swimming to nearby lake with dogies, it was also quite challenging to bike in, literally, pack consisted from 2 humans on bike and 2 dogs. It was demanding, because of need to be on tip of the toes, alert all the time. Swimming was also great and I really enjoyed swimming naked in such clear water and wash away all sweat and stickiness of hot summer day.
In the evening something changed and we made sweet love together. It felt very different then last time we met. I can not say how still, but it felt somehow more closer, sweeter, more present then last time.
It was very long, rich, challenging, hot and lovely day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 17. července 2014
17.7.2014 - on the way again
? W. Tonight I slept bit longer and better finally, I really needed it. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushup (20+11), 4:30 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I though I have no chance to make 40 but in the end I made 46 (or 48?). It felt great, seems Im in good shape, because I did this with 10kg less and its lot of extra weight. Intense warm up.
I continued then with 10 minutes of kickbox practices, first some running with stretches and shadowboxing followed with punch and some basic movement training. Its been long time again since I did this so it was felt, but I must say that during shadowboxing I felt my hips and legs much better then last time. Seems yoga and running made its share.
3rd block I spend giving love to my ABS and core, Im still more and more confused about my ABS, it feels like if Im not doing ABS every day its not getting anywhere. Even I exercise ABS several times a week, I dont feel clear progress, its just sometimes better, sometimes worst. Im thinking about how to do it.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and it was lot of fun. Enjoyed dancing a lot today.
I have to prepare today for trip to my friend and I wont be more online to write more today so wish you guys great day and see you in few days ;) Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushup (20+11), 4:30 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I though I have no chance to make 40 but in the end I made 46 (or 48?). It felt great, seems Im in good shape, because I did this with 10kg less and its lot of extra weight. Intense warm up.
I continued then with 10 minutes of kickbox practices, first some running with stretches and shadowboxing followed with punch and some basic movement training. Its been long time again since I did this so it was felt, but I must say that during shadowboxing I felt my hips and legs much better then last time. Seems yoga and running made its share.
3rd block I spend giving love to my ABS and core, Im still more and more confused about my ABS, it feels like if Im not doing ABS every day its not getting anywhere. Even I exercise ABS several times a week, I dont feel clear progress, its just sometimes better, sometimes worst. Im thinking about how to do it.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and it was lot of fun. Enjoyed dancing a lot today.
I have to prepare today for trip to my friend and I wont be more online to write more today so wish you guys great day and see you in few days ;) Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 16. července 2014
16.7.2014 - knocked off
? W. Tonight I slept better and I think I dreamt actually a lot, but dont remember anything at all :( Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushup (26+5), no headstand.
I) Today I went running 11,4km 430m elevation 1:16. So far hardest route I run, longest and most difficult. And today was also many paths very muddy so I had to be careful much more then usually. I felt myself v.slow anyway, I feel Im lately slowing down or something, strange. But it was so rich and exhausting.... crazy. I was totally knocked down afterwards, even needed to take extra nap to recuperate a bit. And I still feel even afternoon knocked off. But at the same time I feel this is border I want to push, I wish to run route like this under an hour without being knocked off like this.
I also made very important revelation today while running. I can consciously chose what muscle group on legs to use, if !flat part" muscle group, "uphill" or "downhill" muscle group. I could use this to give muscles rest if its possible on long run. F.ex. if I run flat and my "flat" muscles are exhausted I can give them rest and use "downhill" muscle group and so on. Never thought this is possible. I also found that running relaxed up long hill is much easier then to push too hard. And last thing, hill I felt hellishly brutal just few weeks ago I felt today just brutal ;)
...tbc
II) Afternoon I had a client. It was challenging, because I had hard work to stay focused and alert and keep compassion for a client while being still knocked off from morning run. I made it, but it costed me even more energy. Treatment itself was fine and I felt I can really connect and do whats necessary to do.
Today was strong day, because of emotional tension around open relationship, my wife and my friend. And combined with this heavy run it was very powerful to deal with it all and keep functioning. I feel these events strengthen me if its not too often. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushup (26+5), no headstand.
I) Today I went running 11,4km 430m elevation 1:16. So far hardest route I run, longest and most difficult. And today was also many paths very muddy so I had to be careful much more then usually. I felt myself v.slow anyway, I feel Im lately slowing down or something, strange. But it was so rich and exhausting.... crazy. I was totally knocked down afterwards, even needed to take extra nap to recuperate a bit. And I still feel even afternoon knocked off. But at the same time I feel this is border I want to push, I wish to run route like this under an hour without being knocked off like this.
I also made very important revelation today while running. I can consciously chose what muscle group on legs to use, if !flat part" muscle group, "uphill" or "downhill" muscle group. I could use this to give muscles rest if its possible on long run. F.ex. if I run flat and my "flat" muscles are exhausted I can give them rest and use "downhill" muscle group and so on. Never thought this is possible. I also found that running relaxed up long hill is much easier then to push too hard. And last thing, hill I felt hellishly brutal just few weeks ago I felt today just brutal ;)
...tbc
II) Afternoon I had a client. It was challenging, because I had hard work to stay focused and alert and keep compassion for a client while being still knocked off from morning run. I made it, but it costed me even more energy. Treatment itself was fine and I felt I can really connect and do whats necessary to do.
Today was strong day, because of emotional tension around open relationship, my wife and my friend. And combined with this heavy run it was very powerful to deal with it all and keep functioning. I feel these events strengthen me if its not too often. Ohm mani padme hum.
15.7.2014 - hearty randes-vous
? W. Tonight I slept very short and not really good, but wasnt too tired in the morning so hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushups (24+7), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations, first 4reps with 5 second holds then 6 dynamic reps. Im getting faster in position changing and can do more and more. And its great wake-up, warm-up and stretch in one package!
I continued then with alternation of 10 Burpees, 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats and today I made record, alarm rung after 10 minutes on around 15th squat during 4th round. Never got so far and it took a lot of determination and willpower to get here, I felt proud. And I also see enough room for improvement.
Then 10 minutes of core and ABS. It went very poor, but I was very exhausted after previous so I did not took it as bad sign or something. I was exercising anyway on top of possibilities and it was rich and I it wasnt easy to stand up at the end.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was OK, dont remember any special feelings.
II) I did afterwards lot of small stuff and went to make big shopping and a bit later went on travel again to meet friend of mine in another city. We spend outside about 7 hours, walking, talking, enjoying each other. We love each other and we are looking if there is a way to meet each other in open relationship way. For my friend its very challenging situation and for me its also often heart-breaking. Because make no mistake - in open relationship you have more free hands to experience life fully and more colourful, but as there is more joy and pleasure, there is also more pain. I live with open heart and even Im gifted with fantastic, loving, lovely wife, splitting up with another woman I love is no less painful and for anybody. So I wish deep in my heart we 3 can find the way to live our truth in the way which fits all of us without being hurt constantly.
It was rich trip and sure beautiful and valuable.
After returning home, late in the night I just chilled out and went sleep. Sure rich day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushups (24+7), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations, first 4reps with 5 second holds then 6 dynamic reps. Im getting faster in position changing and can do more and more. And its great wake-up, warm-up and stretch in one package!
I continued then with alternation of 10 Burpees, 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats and today I made record, alarm rung after 10 minutes on around 15th squat during 4th round. Never got so far and it took a lot of determination and willpower to get here, I felt proud. And I also see enough room for improvement.
Then 10 minutes of core and ABS. It went very poor, but I was very exhausted after previous so I did not took it as bad sign or something. I was exercising anyway on top of possibilities and it was rich and I it wasnt easy to stand up at the end.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was OK, dont remember any special feelings.
II) I did afterwards lot of small stuff and went to make big shopping and a bit later went on travel again to meet friend of mine in another city. We spend outside about 7 hours, walking, talking, enjoying each other. We love each other and we are looking if there is a way to meet each other in open relationship way. For my friend its very challenging situation and for me its also often heart-breaking. Because make no mistake - in open relationship you have more free hands to experience life fully and more colourful, but as there is more joy and pleasure, there is also more pain. I live with open heart and even Im gifted with fantastic, loving, lovely wife, splitting up with another woman I love is no less painful and for anybody. So I wish deep in my heart we 3 can find the way to live our truth in the way which fits all of us without being hurt constantly.
It was rich trip and sure beautiful and valuable.
After returning home, late in the night I just chilled out and went sleep. Sure rich day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 13. července 2014
14.7.2014 - end of weekend full of love
89,9kg yay. Tonight I slept good. Could use a bit more, but OK. I dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushup (22+9), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 9.8km flat surface and for 1 hour sharp. I though I was fast after finishing, but now after measure I dont feel it really fast. But on other side, faster than last time. And it was good run as well, I explored some new places.
...tbc!
Well, I did no more trainings today. Today was last day of my visit at my beloveds place and I wanted to enjoy time with my family. We went afternoon also into city and to playground so I had some minor biking and fun share, but nothing major. In the evening I went to my hometown, easy going eventless travel.
Was nice day today. And I felt so much love between me and my beloved, even my step-daughter. It touches me to remember this nice times. Lots of my images about long-time relationships and marriege are crumbling in the light of these experiences. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushup (22+9), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 9.8km flat surface and for 1 hour sharp. I though I was fast after finishing, but now after measure I dont feel it really fast. But on other side, faster than last time. And it was good run as well, I explored some new places.
...tbc!
Well, I did no more trainings today. Today was last day of my visit at my beloveds place and I wanted to enjoy time with my family. We went afternoon also into city and to playground so I had some minor biking and fun share, but nothing major. In the evening I went to my hometown, easy going eventless travel.
Was nice day today. And I felt so much love between me and my beloved, even my step-daughter. It touches me to remember this nice times. Lots of my images about long-time relationships and marriege are crumbling in the light of these experiences. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 12. července 2014
13.7.2014 - brain event
91kg - well, think I overreacted a bit on weight drop and eat too much.... O:) Else I slept good tonight and deep, alarm woke me up. And hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 30x pushups (20+10), 3:40 headstand (I worked with neck position a bit and think it needs a bit more sensitive approach then I gave to it today, I felt afraid that I hurt my neck if I continue longer).
I) Starting with Sun Salutations today, holds 5-2 seconds, I used position changes from dynamic reps and it gave me lots of time to do more reps. Great. And great warm-up too.
Then I wanted to do 5 minutes of Burpees, but my computer with timer died so I just did 44 reps and dont know how much time it took.
Then about 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. To my delight I felt my ABS much more solid again, I mean, I felt how they work and could feel difference between muscles. Its good, its sign of certain level. I think doing yoga helps a lot in progress in my exercises. Else I did mainly adjusted youtube set. It was v.rich.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. I had lots of fun and enjoyed dancing a lot and I was playing with hips and legs a lot. I realized I use my hips very little! Want to focus on it a bit more.
....tbc!
II) After breakfast me and my beloved enjoyed love making, and this time it was so special, that its worth mention. I experienced something I never experienced before. I tried during whole act be very conscious about my sexual energy and not ejaculate, because I should have had client in about ah hour. And it worked out quite well. First I made to sublimate energy upwards and not ejaculate. Second I find out that I can transform energy which is used for ejaculation to expression of pleasure I feel, in other words, more I expressed by touch, movement and voice my pleasure, I could delay ejaculation. Third, I experience new kind of energetic orgasm where lot of energy ascended into my brain and into frontal part. It was quite painful I must say, but not like headache, I felt very precisely that part of brain. It lasted for some minutes and then it fades. Fourth, after we stopped our love making in very loving energy, another energy started to be generated in me and it felt like automatic soft orgasm in whole body, very sweet, soft and nice. I also felt it good to physically connect with my beloved at least with a hand and share this beautiful flow in touch. I felt this beautiful energy for several more hours and it was v.pleasant. Last I did not felt at all I missed ejaculation, it felt totally natural to stop our love making and just enjoy ourselves in embrace and other kinds of contact.
III) Later in the morning I had a client. This time it felt like necessary maintenance, waking up and soothing places where it was needed.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved in easy, loving atmosphere. We shared a lot of our thoughs and cooked great meals and in general enjoyed ourselves. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (20+10), 3:40 headstand (I worked with neck position a bit and think it needs a bit more sensitive approach then I gave to it today, I felt afraid that I hurt my neck if I continue longer).
I) Starting with Sun Salutations today, holds 5-2 seconds, I used position changes from dynamic reps and it gave me lots of time to do more reps. Great. And great warm-up too.
Then I wanted to do 5 minutes of Burpees, but my computer with timer died so I just did 44 reps and dont know how much time it took.
Then about 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. To my delight I felt my ABS much more solid again, I mean, I felt how they work and could feel difference between muscles. Its good, its sign of certain level. I think doing yoga helps a lot in progress in my exercises. Else I did mainly adjusted youtube set. It was v.rich.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. I had lots of fun and enjoyed dancing a lot and I was playing with hips and legs a lot. I realized I use my hips very little! Want to focus on it a bit more.
....tbc!
II) After breakfast me and my beloved enjoyed love making, and this time it was so special, that its worth mention. I experienced something I never experienced before. I tried during whole act be very conscious about my sexual energy and not ejaculate, because I should have had client in about ah hour. And it worked out quite well. First I made to sublimate energy upwards and not ejaculate. Second I find out that I can transform energy which is used for ejaculation to expression of pleasure I feel, in other words, more I expressed by touch, movement and voice my pleasure, I could delay ejaculation. Third, I experience new kind of energetic orgasm where lot of energy ascended into my brain and into frontal part. It was quite painful I must say, but not like headache, I felt very precisely that part of brain. It lasted for some minutes and then it fades. Fourth, after we stopped our love making in very loving energy, another energy started to be generated in me and it felt like automatic soft orgasm in whole body, very sweet, soft and nice. I also felt it good to physically connect with my beloved at least with a hand and share this beautiful flow in touch. I felt this beautiful energy for several more hours and it was v.pleasant. Last I did not felt at all I missed ejaculation, it felt totally natural to stop our love making and just enjoy ourselves in embrace and other kinds of contact.
III) Later in the morning I had a client. This time it felt like necessary maintenance, waking up and soothing places where it was needed.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved in easy, loving atmosphere. We shared a lot of our thoughs and cooked great meals and in general enjoyed ourselves. Ohm mani padme hum.
12.7.2014 - just us together
? W. Tonight I slept well, deep and long. I needed it, its been almost 2 weeks since I slept out and my organism really asked for it. I took day off today, very needed. I would be more happy if I could exercise more days in such intensity, but no point trying to change what is.
But even I took day off, me and my wife spend whole day together making love often and intensive and afternoon we also went swimming for a while, which was v.nice refreshment. My beloved is working very intensively on her healing and it seems to work v.well so we can enjoy ourselves more, its very nice and sweet :)
Great day today. Very loving, friendly, cozy and beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
But even I took day off, me and my wife spend whole day together making love often and intensive and afternoon we also went swimming for a while, which was v.nice refreshment. My beloved is working very intensively on her healing and it seems to work v.well so we can enjoy ourselves more, its very nice and sweet :)
Great day today. Very loving, friendly, cozy and beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 10. července 2014
11.7.2014 - reunion
89,7kg hurray! Finally under 90 again! Made me happy to see some progress, even I dont see it physically yet. Else I slept very deep tonight and dont remember any dreams. In the morning I went for morning exercise...
I) Wanted to start with Sun Salutations on speed, but after 10 reps almost all energy run out of me and I had to stop. I did not wanted to stop totally so I was fighting with it and I continued then as much as was possible, doing slower, dynamic reps with proper breathing. I needed lot breaks. But what was important was that I did not backed off and did what I could. I know I wage heavy fight with myself ATM, balancing act between not harming myself and progress through very strong resistance to my growth. Of course - what I overcome in exercise effect directly other areas in my life, nothing is separated, everything is existing at the same time and same place. Thats why its so hard to go through these struggles, because it dosnt end with exercises, but with my whole life. I wish to make that breakthrough this time and not submit to being small once again. But even if I do submit again, I will rise and try again and again as many times as I can until I die or succeed. As I read yesterday quote from Li Po: "I wasnt born to live between weeds."
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, again I could do much less then usually, but I tried. Did mix of whatever I could do, mainly youtube and Barstarz stuff.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. At least dancing went alright and it was joyful most of the time.
I tried to do pushups and stuff, but my body went into cramps when I tried so I did not fought this. One thing is go through pain and/or exhaustion, but second thing is to go against my whole being with mind, I dont want to cause injury to myself again.
...tbc!
I) I was also travelling to meet with my beloved wife again, nice, eventless travel and heart-warming welcome.
Rest of the day I spend together with my beloved, enjoying each other and spending lot sof time making sweet love. Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Wanted to start with Sun Salutations on speed, but after 10 reps almost all energy run out of me and I had to stop. I did not wanted to stop totally so I was fighting with it and I continued then as much as was possible, doing slower, dynamic reps with proper breathing. I needed lot breaks. But what was important was that I did not backed off and did what I could. I know I wage heavy fight with myself ATM, balancing act between not harming myself and progress through very strong resistance to my growth. Of course - what I overcome in exercise effect directly other areas in my life, nothing is separated, everything is existing at the same time and same place. Thats why its so hard to go through these struggles, because it dosnt end with exercises, but with my whole life. I wish to make that breakthrough this time and not submit to being small once again. But even if I do submit again, I will rise and try again and again as many times as I can until I die or succeed. As I read yesterday quote from Li Po: "I wasnt born to live between weeds."
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, again I could do much less then usually, but I tried. Did mix of whatever I could do, mainly youtube and Barstarz stuff.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. At least dancing went alright and it was joyful most of the time.
I tried to do pushups and stuff, but my body went into cramps when I tried so I did not fought this. One thing is go through pain and/or exhaustion, but second thing is to go against my whole being with mind, I dont want to cause injury to myself again.
...tbc!
I) I was also travelling to meet with my beloved wife again, nice, eventless travel and heart-warming welcome.
Rest of the day I spend together with my beloved, enjoying each other and spending lot sof time making sweet love. Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 9. července 2014
10.7.2014 - Intensive
90kg yupee, finally less. Tonight I slept well and so deep that alarm woke me up and hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 30x pushups (24+6), 5:00 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 10,15km 334m elevation and it took me 1:08 which I did not felt so great, even I chose track with really crazy long and steep hill I would like to make run like this much faster. Good motivation. But I felt my performance good in general, because I felt running on edge of what Im able to. Again had moments that I though I will puke from exhaustion. Running without music is harder and I still not decided if its better or not for me. I got inspiration for next run tho, even more crazy route with running up one insane hill twice during one run, making 8 shape of a route. Will be fun :P
..tbc
II) Later I was practising on flute for some time, about 30 minutes. Getting deeper and deeper. I feel I understand flow and compositions more then when I played last time.
III) I also tried to do yoga and I did, but did only 3x1. I dont want to excuse myself, I simply couldnt muster more. I felt great I did those 3 asanas and ended session with shavasana. I was very distracted and my body felt exhausted. But I felt important to do at least those 3 asanas on first chakra and connect with vitality.
IV) Around noon I also did Brahmacharia, deepening feeling of energies, I realized today, that pleasure dosnt collect in pelvis, but spread into whole body, mainly heart meridian, but other parts as well. What gather in pelvic area and cause cramped lingam and surrounding area is energy which is necessary for ejaculation. And this energy brings no pleasure. Its new for me, because I always thought that those are one energy and just before ejaculation they separate for orgasmic energy and ejaculation. But it seems they are separate since beginning. I felt this "pleasure" part very nicely today and at one point felt very clear this difference between pleasure and "mechanical" part. Im curious if I discover more in this and learn to control those 2 as I please.
V) Afternoon I had 2 clients. I cant write details, but both treatments went very deep and were very strong. Even now (11.7. morning) I feel powerful flows and my heart full of compassion to those 2 clients. I wish to be able to be good guild for them to found right way for them.
And that was it for today, it was again quite full day and I felt expanded in the evening. Was just watching Game of Thrones... :) Well, very strong day today, full of strong emotions, hard work and observations. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (24+6), 5:00 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 10,15km 334m elevation and it took me 1:08 which I did not felt so great, even I chose track with really crazy long and steep hill I would like to make run like this much faster. Good motivation. But I felt my performance good in general, because I felt running on edge of what Im able to. Again had moments that I though I will puke from exhaustion. Running without music is harder and I still not decided if its better or not for me. I got inspiration for next run tho, even more crazy route with running up one insane hill twice during one run, making 8 shape of a route. Will be fun :P
..tbc
II) Later I was practising on flute for some time, about 30 minutes. Getting deeper and deeper. I feel I understand flow and compositions more then when I played last time.
III) I also tried to do yoga and I did, but did only 3x1. I dont want to excuse myself, I simply couldnt muster more. I felt great I did those 3 asanas and ended session with shavasana. I was very distracted and my body felt exhausted. But I felt important to do at least those 3 asanas on first chakra and connect with vitality.
IV) Around noon I also did Brahmacharia, deepening feeling of energies, I realized today, that pleasure dosnt collect in pelvis, but spread into whole body, mainly heart meridian, but other parts as well. What gather in pelvic area and cause cramped lingam and surrounding area is energy which is necessary for ejaculation. And this energy brings no pleasure. Its new for me, because I always thought that those are one energy and just before ejaculation they separate for orgasmic energy and ejaculation. But it seems they are separate since beginning. I felt this "pleasure" part very nicely today and at one point felt very clear this difference between pleasure and "mechanical" part. Im curious if I discover more in this and learn to control those 2 as I please.
V) Afternoon I had 2 clients. I cant write details, but both treatments went very deep and were very strong. Even now (11.7. morning) I feel powerful flows and my heart full of compassion to those 2 clients. I wish to be able to be good guild for them to found right way for them.
And that was it for today, it was again quite full day and I felt expanded in the evening. Was just watching Game of Thrones... :) Well, very strong day today, full of strong emotions, hard work and observations. Ohm mani padme hum.
9.7.2014 - feeling alone
91kg same like yesterday. Just noting. Else I slept well and good tonight. I slept a bit more in the morning, could not get up at 5, but 5:15 worked well. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 30x pushups (27+3), 4:40 headtsand.
I) I started with Sun Salutations, felt quite clear to do 4 reps with 5 second holds and continue with dynamic reps. It was great, good ration between stretching and warm up and I like dynamic reps as well. I can feel that I need more stretching since Im running.
Next I did Burpees for 5 minutes. Today I pushed a bit more and did 43 full reps before alarm rung. I saw lot of space in faster pushups, but it did not stopped good feeling from today performance! It felt great.
I continued then with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, first did 40 situps then yoga v-sit 60 seconds then 40 situps and 1:30 v-sit, then just 6 situps, could not do more simply. So I did what I could in rest of the time. It was very rich, but I felt how much helped me to hear one quote from 4 Mile movie. Nothing new for me, but it was great reminder in very good way - that progress is possible only outside comfortable zone and pain is here to be conquered, not be controlled by it. Those v-sits were very painful , but I did them without breaks, I was fine to ignore pain and make pause only if muscles fail naturally.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It was fun, I enjoyed dancing itself very much.
II) Later I was practising on flute for about 45 minutes. Again more advanced songs and I felt even more then yesterday how deep going are these practises. I felt effect of practices made years ago. But anyway, Im so much looking forward for every next song, swallowing music. I felt today so strong how air is whirling under my fingers tips which are cowering flute holes. I never felt it so strong, it was such fascinating feeling. I felt very in tune with my record today. Im surprised by this, because I must've feel it before as well, but I did only today.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga session. I would like to mention at this point that, I think yesterday, I realized that doing yoga gives me energy to be more active. I always thought, that I have period where Im more active so I do yoga, but it seems that yoga give me energy and willpower to be more active in natural way. Else I did 2x1,2,3 1x4,5,6,7 (Shirshasana). Very strong session, I had moments where I wanted to scream (Manipura) and while doing Cobra pose my heart was so open and so much pain come out that I had to stop. Its second time I felt so much pain in my heart, I need to heal this or it will harm me. Once again, great respect to the gifts of yoga and to the great mystery of universe which yoga is path to unveil.
IV) After lunch I did also half of hour Brahmacharia, today I felt some improvement, I felt I an better control my excitement and I felt slightly difference between ebergies of pleasure and those leading to ejaculation. I believe if I continue exploring this I could control those two and not allow myself to ejaculate but be able to receive all pleasure.
V) Afternoon I had a client. Very strong treatment, client who works consciously on herself. I felt we did lot of work today.
After work I had to deal with heart issues. Being in open relationship is not at all always about pleasure and joy, sometimes its harder then closed relationship, because there is more people for whom heart may pain. Its not theyr fault of course, its always my issues and wounds which pains, but heal it! Its not as easy as said. There is lot we inherit and lot to recognize, understand and respectfully let go.
Very rich day today. Be well all. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (27+3), 4:40 headtsand.
I) I started with Sun Salutations, felt quite clear to do 4 reps with 5 second holds and continue with dynamic reps. It was great, good ration between stretching and warm up and I like dynamic reps as well. I can feel that I need more stretching since Im running.
Next I did Burpees for 5 minutes. Today I pushed a bit more and did 43 full reps before alarm rung. I saw lot of space in faster pushups, but it did not stopped good feeling from today performance! It felt great.
I continued then with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, first did 40 situps then yoga v-sit 60 seconds then 40 situps and 1:30 v-sit, then just 6 situps, could not do more simply. So I did what I could in rest of the time. It was very rich, but I felt how much helped me to hear one quote from 4 Mile movie. Nothing new for me, but it was great reminder in very good way - that progress is possible only outside comfortable zone and pain is here to be conquered, not be controlled by it. Those v-sits were very painful , but I did them without breaks, I was fine to ignore pain and make pause only if muscles fail naturally.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It was fun, I enjoyed dancing itself very much.
II) Later I was practising on flute for about 45 minutes. Again more advanced songs and I felt even more then yesterday how deep going are these practises. I felt effect of practices made years ago. But anyway, Im so much looking forward for every next song, swallowing music. I felt today so strong how air is whirling under my fingers tips which are cowering flute holes. I never felt it so strong, it was such fascinating feeling. I felt very in tune with my record today. Im surprised by this, because I must've feel it before as well, but I did only today.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga session. I would like to mention at this point that, I think yesterday, I realized that doing yoga gives me energy to be more active. I always thought, that I have period where Im more active so I do yoga, but it seems that yoga give me energy and willpower to be more active in natural way. Else I did 2x1,2,3 1x4,5,6,7 (Shirshasana). Very strong session, I had moments where I wanted to scream (Manipura) and while doing Cobra pose my heart was so open and so much pain come out that I had to stop. Its second time I felt so much pain in my heart, I need to heal this or it will harm me. Once again, great respect to the gifts of yoga and to the great mystery of universe which yoga is path to unveil.
IV) After lunch I did also half of hour Brahmacharia, today I felt some improvement, I felt I an better control my excitement and I felt slightly difference between ebergies of pleasure and those leading to ejaculation. I believe if I continue exploring this I could control those two and not allow myself to ejaculate but be able to receive all pleasure.
V) Afternoon I had a client. Very strong treatment, client who works consciously on herself. I felt we did lot of work today.
After work I had to deal with heart issues. Being in open relationship is not at all always about pleasure and joy, sometimes its harder then closed relationship, because there is more people for whom heart may pain. Its not theyr fault of course, its always my issues and wounds which pains, but heal it! Its not as easy as said. There is lot we inherit and lot to recognize, understand and respectfully let go.
Very rich day today. Be well all. Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 7. července 2014
8.7.2014 - temperature rocord, fuf
91kg a bit less finally and I measured after lot of drinking so its probably a bit less as well. Its good, just need to keep eating good and work as hard as possible while not hurting myself. One friend wrote today her experience with some teacher who said, that our cells are programmed to not get more power then we are allowed by those who programmed us. Its something on it, because it corresponds with whats happening with me when Im starting to grow. I always back off. But I work to overcome this conditioning, I feel whats inside me is too valuable to be thrown away and not shown to everybody. But there is bit more work to be done before I manage this breakthrough. Even I feel Im closer every day. Well, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 30x pushups (23+7), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, new way composed with some new, some old paths. It was interesting and demanding run with lot of going up and down, 7,7km and I needed 1hr. I run without music today, I felt it much harder then with music. Im not sure what I will chose, but I wish to explore also running without music and decide whats better later. Both have advantages and disadvantages for me. It was hard run and I wa son the edge really. In one point I though I will vomit. But I feel I need this kind of energy in my life, to be able to breakthrough comfortable zones.
...tbc!
II) I was also practising on the recorder for about half of hour. Starting to be fun again, as Im reaching to the point where I stopped last time. Songs are starting to be challenging and I see how much work I already put into them and it still pays off. Anyway I have quite problems with some. However at some places where I remember having notorious problems its possible to play it more smooth. Its great.
III) Later I went to deal with some official stuff, I took a walk and it was fine, but it was sooo crazy humid, I was drenched in sweat because of that. But nice walk.
IV) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both regular clients and both good treatments. I feel Im more focusing on physical side lately. Im wondering why is that and if its ok like this. I wish to observe this, but Im also open for possibility that its good and Im learning to feel more physical body then I could before.
For the rest of the day I did nothing more, I was quite tired in the evening, it was v.full day and very hot. I had even 32°C in my room today. I had to wash all clothes I used today, totally drenched... But I liked it today, felt great to have 2 clients in one day after some time and all things went good. I forgot that I was also working on records today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (23+7), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, new way composed with some new, some old paths. It was interesting and demanding run with lot of going up and down, 7,7km and I needed 1hr. I run without music today, I felt it much harder then with music. Im not sure what I will chose, but I wish to explore also running without music and decide whats better later. Both have advantages and disadvantages for me. It was hard run and I wa son the edge really. In one point I though I will vomit. But I feel I need this kind of energy in my life, to be able to breakthrough comfortable zones.
...tbc!
II) I was also practising on the recorder for about half of hour. Starting to be fun again, as Im reaching to the point where I stopped last time. Songs are starting to be challenging and I see how much work I already put into them and it still pays off. Anyway I have quite problems with some. However at some places where I remember having notorious problems its possible to play it more smooth. Its great.
III) Later I went to deal with some official stuff, I took a walk and it was fine, but it was sooo crazy humid, I was drenched in sweat because of that. But nice walk.
IV) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both regular clients and both good treatments. I feel Im more focusing on physical side lately. Im wondering why is that and if its ok like this. I wish to observe this, but Im also open for possibility that its good and Im learning to feel more physical body then I could before.
For the rest of the day I did nothing more, I was quite tired in the evening, it was v.full day and very hot. I had even 32°C in my room today. I had to wash all clothes I used today, totally drenched... But I liked it today, felt great to have 2 clients in one day after some time and all things went good. I forgot that I was also working on records today. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 6. července 2014
7.7.2014 - something great something sad
? W. I woke up crazy dizzy and with strange out-of energy and stability feeling. I was thinking why is that, but I dont know. I could not do morning exercises. Maybe later if it improves. Im confused about this. Im thinking if yesterday was more demanding then I though or whats up.
....tbc
I) In the morning I practised on flute for some time (about 30 minutes). I realized that I use flute playing as a big teaching of things. How to handle when things dont go so well, but also dont get over-exited. To stay in the middle, to relax into complicated things (no other way to manage complicated things then to relax and be very flexible or I dont know other way). But also I enjoy playing itself and tunes.
II) Afternoon I had a client, first I did mini workshop of circle way supportive listening for client and then did Shiatsu. It was vital for me, because I could touch how much time it takes to present and show circle way in practice. Treatment was challenging, because there was lot of work and could not use best position, but I did best I could. Client also gave me very nice feedback which touched me really.
Else I did no more exercises today, just working on records a bit and doing small stuff. I was kind of exhausted today a lot. I dont know why, I suspect some process going on in me strongly.
But I felt today very giving as well. My beloved gave me great support once again and talking with her helped me to look on stuff going in me. Ohm mani padme hum.
....tbc
I) In the morning I practised on flute for some time (about 30 minutes). I realized that I use flute playing as a big teaching of things. How to handle when things dont go so well, but also dont get over-exited. To stay in the middle, to relax into complicated things (no other way to manage complicated things then to relax and be very flexible or I dont know other way). But also I enjoy playing itself and tunes.
II) Afternoon I had a client, first I did mini workshop of circle way supportive listening for client and then did Shiatsu. It was vital for me, because I could touch how much time it takes to present and show circle way in practice. Treatment was challenging, because there was lot of work and could not use best position, but I did best I could. Client also gave me very nice feedback which touched me really.
Else I did no more exercises today, just working on records a bit and doing small stuff. I was kind of exhausted today a lot. I dont know why, I suspect some process going on in me strongly.
But I felt today very giving as well. My beloved gave me great support once again and talking with her helped me to look on stuff going in me. Ohm mani padme hum.
6.7.2014 - Magical mountains
? W. I will start with yesterday. Well, quite a travel to these mountains I was heading to, but all went well and event-less. At the destination I met with my friend and we spend rest of the day being together in the mountains, first ride up to the upper parts of those mountains, then very nice walk on mountain paths with vital, interesting talk. In the evening we just rode to place called Adršpach where is amazing place with hundreds of climb-able rocks situated in absolutely magical beautiful nature. However we landed at the shore of lake there and there we spend nice evening. We went sleep there, at the shore of the lake. I was a bit afraid of it since Im such a city boy, but all worked well. Very beautiful day.
In the morning was raining a bit, but nothing major, we just moved a bit more under the trees and slept a bit more. I could not sleep much, because I was in awe from that place, totally clear from human-noise pollution, just birds chirping, ducks "quak"ing rain making circles on lake, all this playing together with all sounds of nature in glorious symphony. I heard music of the spheres once again there when I was listening.
When I and my friend got up we went swimming a bit. It was also great, very clear mountain water with minerals makes very good feel on a skin and it was just pure joy in general. Rest of the morning we spend together walking around this miraculous place. I was told by my friend, that I say "Its unbelievabe, beautiful." way too often, but it simply was like this on every few steps! Such a mazing place.
My heart opened on each of these places a bit more and I spend rest of the day in this special state where I dont want to talk much and cant really think, just enjoy being and living and feel gratitude to witness such magical experience...
Well, then travel back again, but it was fine, even its travel with lot of changes on the way and was quite hot.
I) In the evening I had a client, I was a bit afraid if I will manage after such a trip, but it was totally fine. New client and my first Japanese client. I was so nervous to treat a Japanese person with knowledge of Japanese Shiatsu and Im not sure at all if it worked well for the client. I did my best so I wish it work well.
I did nothing more today, it was very intensive and full day already. Very enrichening day today, very beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
In the morning was raining a bit, but nothing major, we just moved a bit more under the trees and slept a bit more. I could not sleep much, because I was in awe from that place, totally clear from human-noise pollution, just birds chirping, ducks "quak"ing rain making circles on lake, all this playing together with all sounds of nature in glorious symphony. I heard music of the spheres once again there when I was listening.
When I and my friend got up we went swimming a bit. It was also great, very clear mountain water with minerals makes very good feel on a skin and it was just pure joy in general. Rest of the morning we spend together walking around this miraculous place. I was told by my friend, that I say "Its unbelievabe, beautiful." way too often, but it simply was like this on every few steps! Such a mazing place.
My heart opened on each of these places a bit more and I spend rest of the day in this special state where I dont want to talk much and cant really think, just enjoy being and living and feel gratitude to witness such magical experience...
Well, then travel back again, but it was fine, even its travel with lot of changes on the way and was quite hot.
I) In the evening I had a client, I was a bit afraid if I will manage after such a trip, but it was totally fine. New client and my first Japanese client. I was so nervous to treat a Japanese person with knowledge of Japanese Shiatsu and Im not sure at all if it worked well for the client. I did my best so I wish it work well.
I did nothing more today, it was very intensive and full day already. Very enrichening day today, very beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 5. července 2014
5.7.2014 - Going to the mountains
91,2kg - seems my weight is fluctuating a lot. I was thinking yesterday, that its possibly because I changed my nutrition a lot and my body is adapting to it, so I might not drop in weight at all for even couple of weeks till my system gets used to new ways. Patient, I must be (Like Yoda would say) ! Anyway, I slept better tonight and dont remember any dreams. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
Notes: 30x pushup (25+5), 4:00 headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, did 2 reps with 5 second holds and then 6 with 3 second holds. I feel its important to find best ratio in holds/dynamic ratio to find best way to stretch and warm up. This worked out well I would say.
I continued then with 5 minutes of Burpees, did 40 today and just started 41th when alarm rung. It felt good, mainly because I saw gaps where to gain seconds to do more. I had respiration problems, I need to look on my breathing more seriously. I feel Im unconsciously holding breath, because I feel reserves but its like... like if I would for some reason not allowed myself to breath enough. I know I can breath more, but I hold myself back. Need to find out what is this.
Then 5 minutes of squats. I found out that running is not helping much with squats, it wasnt really stellar set, did 50 normal squats and around 30 half-way squats. It was very challenging and I went through lot of struggle, only embarrassment from such performance made me to not stop. But it was great pointer that I need to strengthen my legs! Very good I made this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core fun. I made it today v.challenging, variation on youtube set. I felt strong today on ABS and made it as rich as I could and in the end I almost could not got up. Made almost 4 full rounds.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I wasnt so much in creative way, just a bit, but what I enjoyed today very much was flow I was in, I felt like this 2 weeks of yoga relaxed my hips a lot and I could flow nicely with the music in very enjoyable moves. Beautiful.
Rest of the morning I was preparing for a trip to visit my friend in mountains, long time I saw her and its quite a travel, but totally worth it I can say and Im not even there yet! Will report tomorrow or monday how it went.
Nice weekend to ya all! Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushup (25+5), 4:00 headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, did 2 reps with 5 second holds and then 6 with 3 second holds. I feel its important to find best ratio in holds/dynamic ratio to find best way to stretch and warm up. This worked out well I would say.
I continued then with 5 minutes of Burpees, did 40 today and just started 41th when alarm rung. It felt good, mainly because I saw gaps where to gain seconds to do more. I had respiration problems, I need to look on my breathing more seriously. I feel Im unconsciously holding breath, because I feel reserves but its like... like if I would for some reason not allowed myself to breath enough. I know I can breath more, but I hold myself back. Need to find out what is this.
Then 5 minutes of squats. I found out that running is not helping much with squats, it wasnt really stellar set, did 50 normal squats and around 30 half-way squats. It was very challenging and I went through lot of struggle, only embarrassment from such performance made me to not stop. But it was great pointer that I need to strengthen my legs! Very good I made this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core fun. I made it today v.challenging, variation on youtube set. I felt strong today on ABS and made it as rich as I could and in the end I almost could not got up. Made almost 4 full rounds.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I wasnt so much in creative way, just a bit, but what I enjoyed today very much was flow I was in, I felt like this 2 weeks of yoga relaxed my hips a lot and I could flow nicely with the music in very enjoyable moves. Beautiful.
Rest of the morning I was preparing for a trip to visit my friend in mountains, long time I saw her and its quite a travel, but totally worth it I can say and Im not even there yet! Will report tomorrow or monday how it went.
Nice weekend to ya all! Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 4. července 2014
4.7.2014 - too much exercise taking its toll
92,4kg - dont ask me, today is 3rd day without any sweets, meat or milk products, just vegetables and "good stuff". It seems Im gaining a lot even from vegies, even they arent supposed to really make people fat, or is it? My organism seems to be really amazingly effective and brilliant in nutrition extraction, I just need to find the way how to eat as less as possible to not feel hungry and I believe my body get all it needs anyway. In any case - in the morning...
I tried to do morning exercises, but any attempt to do any exercise ended up in me folded on the ground in crazy strong feelings of exhaustion and something like soft cramps in whole body so I did not exercises. Only thing my system allowed me was dancing for 30 minutes and I felt strong pretests as well.
I spend whole day relaxing, enjoying all I wanted, was working on records, went into city to meet a client for records. Nothing major, just lazy summer day, recuperating, giving my body space to rest and heal.
I) In the evening I tried to make yoga, because ATM I feel how much its healing me and I wanted to at least try. And it worked out. I did whole set 3x1, 2x2, 2x3 and rest chakras 1x. Today I had lot of thoughts in my head, mainly about tomorrow trip (yes, its called "living in a future"), but what felt nice was, that it wasnt usual chaos in mind, but concrete, persistent thoughts which were much easier to gently escort away then usual mind-radio-chaos. And I felt very very good after session. I still feel v.happy I did this set, it was somehow very healing today, even I cant say what or how it healed.
And well, that was today. Very nice day I must say. Enjoyed living a lot, even Im missing my beloved a lot. I mean, when I work with heart and doing Brahmacharia its touching me a lot to visualize my wife in head. Ohm mani padme hum.
I tried to do morning exercises, but any attempt to do any exercise ended up in me folded on the ground in crazy strong feelings of exhaustion and something like soft cramps in whole body so I did not exercises. Only thing my system allowed me was dancing for 30 minutes and I felt strong pretests as well.
I spend whole day relaxing, enjoying all I wanted, was working on records, went into city to meet a client for records. Nothing major, just lazy summer day, recuperating, giving my body space to rest and heal.
I) In the evening I tried to make yoga, because ATM I feel how much its healing me and I wanted to at least try. And it worked out. I did whole set 3x1, 2x2, 2x3 and rest chakras 1x. Today I had lot of thoughts in my head, mainly about tomorrow trip (yes, its called "living in a future"), but what felt nice was, that it wasnt usual chaos in mind, but concrete, persistent thoughts which were much easier to gently escort away then usual mind-radio-chaos. And I felt very very good after session. I still feel v.happy I did this set, it was somehow very healing today, even I cant say what or how it healed.
And well, that was today. Very nice day I must say. Enjoyed living a lot, even Im missing my beloved a lot. I mean, when I work with heart and doing Brahmacharia its touching me a lot to visualize my wife in head. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 3. července 2014
3.7.2014 - spiritual path is a high path
91,1kg - uff, wasnt expecting THAT much, seems cake diet wasnt good move... nah, Im kidding, I was expecting that, I ate so much of sweets in last 2 weeks it would make anybody fat.
Else I slept well and dont remember dreaming. But I have really hard times falling asleep, seems there is no point going to sleep to early, I just wont fall asleep before 23. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 29x pushup (16+10+3), 3:20 headstand.
I) I went running today 10,3km in 1:04 370m elevation. Was basically run to the forest to make circle and run back. But it was v.rich. Even tho I though I will make it faster. But I had breathing problems, I think I need to focus a lot on breathing as effective as possible. But it was nice run, forest was great and since I went out before 6 it was nicely empty around.
II) After breakfast I was playing on a flute for about 30 minutes. Enjoyed it sooo much, just played for fun and sound of it. It would take many weeks to get again where I stopped so I just play for joy.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga 3x1 2x2 2x3 2x4 1x5 1x6 1x7 (Shirshasana). Today it wasnt easy again, till Manipura chakra it was fine, but short before and during Anahata chakra asanas I struggled with lot of resistance. Its interesting. But when I felt into it a bit I realized that I have lot of suppressed pain in my heart chakra. I realized it just few days ago, that Im suppressing lot of pain from not being with those I love. I would love to just enjoy this longing to be with them, enjoy existence of this beautiful feeling and not suffer from not being satisfied (which is not possible in any case). Sometimes I can transform this suffering into bliss, but not always yet. It cant be pushed or forced, it has to come from inside, but this process can be supported by conscious wish to not suffer and to enjoy what is here. Anyway, I did new setup and tried some new asanas with which I will have lot of work and its good.
I also realized how exercising yoga and Brahmacharia changes my daily routine dramatically. Its natural. And I also felt today, that this activity threatens something in my patterns and thats whats kicking me down, want to track this pattern down and find out what is it and whats hidden behind this daemon.
IV) After lunch I did Brahmacharia for something over 30 minutes (yesterday evening too). Its already getting easier and more controlled. Even got short energetic orgasm today. Very nice.
In general I feel strong wish to get together again and wake up more of my potential.
...tbc
V) Afternoon I had a client. On Shiatsu side it wasnt so special, because client needed more physical treatment today, but we had very interesting talk about tantra and spirituality and sociality in general and it was very inspiring talk.
For the rest of the day I was just doing my stuff and resting. Nothing interesting to write about. Demanding day today tho, I felt today on the edge of physical possibilities ATM, but not exhausted or tired, it felt more like warning from my system. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well and dont remember dreaming. But I have really hard times falling asleep, seems there is no point going to sleep to early, I just wont fall asleep before 23. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 29x pushup (16+10+3), 3:20 headstand.
I) I went running today 10,3km in 1:04 370m elevation. Was basically run to the forest to make circle and run back. But it was v.rich. Even tho I though I will make it faster. But I had breathing problems, I think I need to focus a lot on breathing as effective as possible. But it was nice run, forest was great and since I went out before 6 it was nicely empty around.
II) After breakfast I was playing on a flute for about 30 minutes. Enjoyed it sooo much, just played for fun and sound of it. It would take many weeks to get again where I stopped so I just play for joy.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga 3x1 2x2 2x3 2x4 1x5 1x6 1x7 (Shirshasana). Today it wasnt easy again, till Manipura chakra it was fine, but short before and during Anahata chakra asanas I struggled with lot of resistance. Its interesting. But when I felt into it a bit I realized that I have lot of suppressed pain in my heart chakra. I realized it just few days ago, that Im suppressing lot of pain from not being with those I love. I would love to just enjoy this longing to be with them, enjoy existence of this beautiful feeling and not suffer from not being satisfied (which is not possible in any case). Sometimes I can transform this suffering into bliss, but not always yet. It cant be pushed or forced, it has to come from inside, but this process can be supported by conscious wish to not suffer and to enjoy what is here. Anyway, I did new setup and tried some new asanas with which I will have lot of work and its good.
I also realized how exercising yoga and Brahmacharia changes my daily routine dramatically. Its natural. And I also felt today, that this activity threatens something in my patterns and thats whats kicking me down, want to track this pattern down and find out what is it and whats hidden behind this daemon.
IV) After lunch I did Brahmacharia for something over 30 minutes (yesterday evening too). Its already getting easier and more controlled. Even got short energetic orgasm today. Very nice.
In general I feel strong wish to get together again and wake up more of my potential.
...tbc
V) Afternoon I had a client. On Shiatsu side it wasnt so special, because client needed more physical treatment today, but we had very interesting talk about tantra and spirituality and sociality in general and it was very inspiring talk.
For the rest of the day I was just doing my stuff and resting. Nothing interesting to write about. Demanding day today tho, I felt today on the edge of physical possibilities ATM, but not exhausted or tired, it felt more like warning from my system. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 2. července 2014
2.7.2014 - Trying to get up again
? W- Tonight I slept well, even I could not fall asleep for some time. Dont remember any dreams. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 29x pushup (24+5), 3:40 headstand
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. First 4 reps of 5sec holds and then some more dynamic ones. Somehow felt different those dynamic ones today, I think I found something very nice on them. This smooth constant changing of poses without any breaks in between, its like water running between the rocks, not stoping..... there and back.... its beauty in it. Anyway, nice warm and stretching.
I continued then with 10 of alternating 10 Burpees / 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats, made it today to 8th Burpee in 4th round. What I felt somehow great was, that I felt Im not doing well and saw lot of spaces for improvement and still ended up in par with my best go. I like this exercise, very rich, very exhausting and feels v.compact and healthy. It was good intuition to start doing this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core love. Was very rich, I overdid start with 40 situps and yoga v-sit. Sadly my ABS are not so strong like a year ago and I cant do so much. I did then what I could, which wasnt much, but important is, that I could not do more, I did my maximum.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and had lot of fun doing so.
II) Later I went to the city for 1 hour walk around, some work with records, official stuff and shopping. Was very nice walk, even weather was humid a lot.
III) Before dinner I did yoga for something around 1h. 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7. I did changes in asanas to not do still the same. Not because of routine, I can do same asanas for months without feeling bored, but I feel I need other aspects so Im trying to find other asanas to meet my needs. It wasnt easy today, I felt v. distracted and had difficult times to overcome resistance. But I felt so strong that this resistance is from fear of progress that I went on till the end (Shirshasana for 7th chakra). I love yoga <3
IV) Afternoon I had a client. I like this client v.much. V.bright and intelligent young man with incredible potential. I like to be guide for him, he can overgrow me v.easily and hes on his way :) Treatment was great and strong.
V) In the evening some work on records. Its slow work and its frustrating to find out, that record is being sold for approx 1e. But sometimes I fit some rare record for much more more. But I like selling these records, it somehow feels healthy and good for me and its v.good side job as well. And completely under my control and it feels good too.
Full and good day today. Im proud, that I ate no milk products or sweets and LOTS of vegetables. But one day dont change anything, wish I can keep this up for many more days. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 29x pushup (24+5), 3:40 headstand
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. First 4 reps of 5sec holds and then some more dynamic ones. Somehow felt different those dynamic ones today, I think I found something very nice on them. This smooth constant changing of poses without any breaks in between, its like water running between the rocks, not stoping..... there and back.... its beauty in it. Anyway, nice warm and stretching.
I continued then with 10 of alternating 10 Burpees / 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats, made it today to 8th Burpee in 4th round. What I felt somehow great was, that I felt Im not doing well and saw lot of spaces for improvement and still ended up in par with my best go. I like this exercise, very rich, very exhausting and feels v.compact and healthy. It was good intuition to start doing this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core love. Was very rich, I overdid start with 40 situps and yoga v-sit. Sadly my ABS are not so strong like a year ago and I cant do so much. I did then what I could, which wasnt much, but important is, that I could not do more, I did my maximum.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and had lot of fun doing so.
II) Later I went to the city for 1 hour walk around, some work with records, official stuff and shopping. Was very nice walk, even weather was humid a lot.
III) Before dinner I did yoga for something around 1h. 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7. I did changes in asanas to not do still the same. Not because of routine, I can do same asanas for months without feeling bored, but I feel I need other aspects so Im trying to find other asanas to meet my needs. It wasnt easy today, I felt v. distracted and had difficult times to overcome resistance. But I felt so strong that this resistance is from fear of progress that I went on till the end (Shirshasana for 7th chakra). I love yoga <3
IV) Afternoon I had a client. I like this client v.much. V.bright and intelligent young man with incredible potential. I like to be guide for him, he can overgrow me v.easily and hes on his way :) Treatment was great and strong.
V) In the evening some work on records. Its slow work and its frustrating to find out, that record is being sold for approx 1e. But sometimes I fit some rare record for much more more. But I like selling these records, it somehow feels healthy and good for me and its v.good side job as well. And completely under my control and it feels good too.
Full and good day today. Im proud, that I ate no milk products or sweets and LOTS of vegetables. But one day dont change anything, wish I can keep this up for many more days. Ohm mani padme hum.
1.7.2014 - 1 and a half of year of this Blog
? W. Tonight I slept quite well and had a interesting dream with Woody Harelson as main character, we did some movie there, quite interesting movie, but I dont remember what it was about, just how I felt it. What was very strong message from this dream was "look on muslim religion and theyr rituals". Dont ask me why, I dont have any sympathy for any religion, but maybe in theyr rituals is something what can be important for me. Lets see. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 29x pushup (12+11+6), 3:00 headstand.
I) I went running today. Flat route and I run something over 50 minutes. It was quite difficult I must say. I felt that its mainly I use very different muscles then usually and for whole time so it was in some way more exhausting then running up and down, because then are muscle groups changing and when I run up, muscles used for running down are relaxing. That was what come to me. In any case it was nice to run around I must say.
...lets see what day will bring.
Well, it was interesting day. I was travelling back to my hometown around noon, eventless travel, but was very nice weather and I enjoyed it very much.
II) Afternoon I wanted originally do yoga, but I was so hot that I could not focus enough. So I decided to work on my sexual energy somehow, first I did Brahmacharia for 30 minutes, then in this high state went shopping. I was so charged it was crazy, like jumping jackson, very high energy. I was happy to be able consciously not ejaculate and instead work with it. After return I did another 30 minutes of Brahmacharia till the end. I feel I want to last longer when making love and to not need to control all the time and Brahmacharia is exactly one of very effective ways how to do it. But, of course, without yoga and other sublimation techniques it cant work. Also breathing techniques are very important.
Well, I also did tons of small things and tasks, also some work with records and such. I felt today v.productive and rich practices-wise as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 29x pushup (12+11+6), 3:00 headstand.
I) I went running today. Flat route and I run something over 50 minutes. It was quite difficult I must say. I felt that its mainly I use very different muscles then usually and for whole time so it was in some way more exhausting then running up and down, because then are muscle groups changing and when I run up, muscles used for running down are relaxing. That was what come to me. In any case it was nice to run around I must say.
...lets see what day will bring.
Well, it was interesting day. I was travelling back to my hometown around noon, eventless travel, but was very nice weather and I enjoyed it very much.
II) Afternoon I wanted originally do yoga, but I was so hot that I could not focus enough. So I decided to work on my sexual energy somehow, first I did Brahmacharia for 30 minutes, then in this high state went shopping. I was so charged it was crazy, like jumping jackson, very high energy. I was happy to be able consciously not ejaculate and instead work with it. After return I did another 30 minutes of Brahmacharia till the end. I feel I want to last longer when making love and to not need to control all the time and Brahmacharia is exactly one of very effective ways how to do it. But, of course, without yoga and other sublimation techniques it cant work. Also breathing techniques are very important.
Well, I also did tons of small things and tasks, also some work with records and such. I felt today v.productive and rich practices-wise as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
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