? W. Tonight I slept bit better but it wasnt easy to wake up in the morning anyway. But I did and hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 32x pushups (3 parts), 2:30 headstand. Again continuing work on new position, Im more sure about it after today.
I) Today I went running. During run my cell phone discharged so I dont know how long exactly I run, it was something around 50 minutes. Mainly flat path. These flat runs are for me extremely challenging, Im always totally flushed, lungs and limbs numb and exhausted and I feel morning run whole day. Im curious if it change one day and I will not feel so kicked-into-head for rest of the day. It was very rich, nuf said. Im trying to run on the edge, no dropping into routine. Challenging myself on each run to run faster.
II) Afternoon I went to my hometown again. Normal, nice eventless travel.
Today was v.heavy day for me and my beloved. As I felt it, we both picked deep in our respective wounds and could not overcome these strong inner pains and not attack each other from this point. Even my mind knows that this is exactly point where is chance to change major things in life by doing things differently and not attack but be in heart, but its so damn hard. These patterns I encountered are very at my very core, something what allowed me to survive in my childhood and its very difficult to change them. But on other side in last days Im happy to see these links to these deep-core patterns and I wish to find guts, swallow false pride and at least attempt to do things differently while encountering these.
Heavy, but rich day today. One has to be grateful for hard lessons like today. I wish to take all I can from it and not repeat it exactly same next time. I will never forget what Einstein said about this - Repeating same and expecting different result is madness. This kind of madness I dont want in my life, I decided for it. Ohm mani padme hum.
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