? W. I slept v. little today because of this time change, but have to sleep less one day to correct inside this change... dont remember any dreams. And in the morning, even with huge resistance in me, hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 12th pushup day +5 = 23x (did 24x tho...).
I) Starting with Sun Salutations, made holds 5-2 seconds. It was quite a process, but since moment when I decided to spend simply this time with exercises even if I would just stay still it went better. At the end I felt as oiled and stretched as usually.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, did 37 reps, I though I will make more, but I was slow, I felt lot of reserves. Im ok with constant moving without breaks, now I have to work on speed.
3rd thing I did today was ABS and core training. I still felt my ABS since last training... it was week today, even I tried really hard, I wanted to do v-sit and situp alternation, but I could not. So I did what I could, random combinations. It was v.rich (y).
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I was somehow v.bad today, I mean, I could not get into flow or have much joy from it, only at the v.end I could enjoy last song. I think I eat too much crap and Im poisoned from it, have to STAHP THAT! But its crazy, I feel so much things changing in me, I feel I cant discipline myself in all ways I would like to ATM :(
...tbc!
II) Afternoon I had a client, new one. Very hard treatment. I feel big shift in my work in these cases. Its very hard to give treatment to some people, some people are so close and rigid, that its like trying to attack stainless steel fortress with a twig. Its challenge, yeah.
Im not sure if and what I did for the rest of the day. Writing this 1.4. I was again working on vinils a bit, but dont know more. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 30. března 2014
sobota 29. března 2014
29.3.2014 - recuperation
? W. I slept well tonight, wanted to sleep out, but woke up at 6 anyway. With this beautiful sun is not easy to sleep out :) I think I had dreams, but dont remember anything.
Today I took day off. I feel I really need rest. Tomorrow again starting working week and need to ground and get to myself today.
Its not so easy, after last 2 full weeks of meetings and people with whom I share deep love Im alone and no meeting from several I tried to make worked out. Its beautiful day, but I dont see myself going outside either. I was just working a bit on vinils and watched 8 femme movie. Lets see what the rest of the day brings.
...tbc!
Notes: pushups11th day +4 = 22x (but did 23).
I spend whole day more or less doing nothing, but in the evening I had impulse to go to shopping mall, to cruise between goods and such. Im not so happy about that, but I found something comforting in cruising like this, looking what I need at home. I have always something what I want to buy for ages and as usually I found some of these this time as well. I also bought nutela-like jar... for first time in my life. It felt somehow liberating so much, I know its so mundane and simple stuff, but I felt it like if I would do something what I was longing for whole life and now I could do it as I want, as much I want and how I want, nobody telling me how much or when to take.I was so surprised by these feelings, I did not expected it at all, but it felt simply great. I felt something really changed in me, I let myself to BE ALLOWED. And yeah Im feeling more bold in doing what I want, I hear less voices in my head telling me "you cant because...".
I was also today watching new Lars von Tier movie Nymphomaniac (both volumes) and it fitted into this process very very much... amazing, strong, deep movie btw, loved it, whole 3:45 :)
V.interesting day today. My beloved gave me so much support in today processes, Im so incredibly grateful for being close with such amazing woman and human being. Ohm mani padme hum.
Today I took day off. I feel I really need rest. Tomorrow again starting working week and need to ground and get to myself today.
Its not so easy, after last 2 full weeks of meetings and people with whom I share deep love Im alone and no meeting from several I tried to make worked out. Its beautiful day, but I dont see myself going outside either. I was just working a bit on vinils and watched 8 femme movie. Lets see what the rest of the day brings.
...tbc!
Notes: pushups11th day +4 = 22x (but did 23).
I spend whole day more or less doing nothing, but in the evening I had impulse to go to shopping mall, to cruise between goods and such. Im not so happy about that, but I found something comforting in cruising like this, looking what I need at home. I have always something what I want to buy for ages and as usually I found some of these this time as well. I also bought nutela-like jar... for first time in my life. It felt somehow liberating so much, I know its so mundane and simple stuff, but I felt it like if I would do something what I was longing for whole life and now I could do it as I want, as much I want and how I want, nobody telling me how much or when to take.I was so surprised by these feelings, I did not expected it at all, but it felt simply great. I felt something really changed in me, I let myself to BE ALLOWED. And yeah Im feeling more bold in doing what I want, I hear less voices in my head telling me "you cant because...".
I was also today watching new Lars von Tier movie Nymphomaniac (both volumes) and it fitted into this process very very much... amazing, strong, deep movie btw, loved it, whole 3:45 :)
V.interesting day today. My beloved gave me so much support in today processes, Im so incredibly grateful for being close with such amazing woman and human being. Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 28. března 2014
28.3.2014 - last working day in from 6 in a row...
? W. Tonight I slept v.little, I started a movie in the evening Snowpiercer and it kept me up till the end. But even I slept less then 6 hours it was fine. I dont remember dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: pushups 10th day +2 = 20x.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, today made holds 5-2 seconds and made it in a bit more pushy way then normally, to progress a bit in positions. Went well. I continued then with 10 minutes of Shadowboxing, Oh man, it wasnt really smooth, I felt like I cant give a good strike, even kicks felt like if I never did one. I was slow and clumsy. Its crazy how fast I fall back if I stop for couple of days with focused training. But I kept practising with strong focus for whole duration.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I did situps till exhaustion and to my big surprise I could go on for 8 minutes, even I tried to faster it up with punches in up position. Was interesting.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. I was somehow strangely exhausted at this moment, I could not pull a dance somehow. I had fun at times, but I felt it mainly as moving out everything in me.
II) Aftrnoon I had couple of clients. For change both men. I felt it great, both as change of view and also different work is appreciated. At the end of last treatment I felt like I really need a break tho. Great I dont have a client tomorrow and can rest.
Rest of the day I was doing minor stuff, working on Vinils and watching movies. Nothing major. My laziness is a bit better tho... Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups 10th day +2 = 20x.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, today made holds 5-2 seconds and made it in a bit more pushy way then normally, to progress a bit in positions. Went well. I continued then with 10 minutes of Shadowboxing, Oh man, it wasnt really smooth, I felt like I cant give a good strike, even kicks felt like if I never did one. I was slow and clumsy. Its crazy how fast I fall back if I stop for couple of days with focused training. But I kept practising with strong focus for whole duration.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I did situps till exhaustion and to my big surprise I could go on for 8 minutes, even I tried to faster it up with punches in up position. Was interesting.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. I was somehow strangely exhausted at this moment, I could not pull a dance somehow. I had fun at times, but I felt it mainly as moving out everything in me.
II) Aftrnoon I had couple of clients. For change both men. I felt it great, both as change of view and also different work is appreciated. At the end of last treatment I felt like I really need a break tho. Great I dont have a client tomorrow and can rest.
Rest of the day I was doing minor stuff, working on Vinils and watching movies. Nothing major. My laziness is a bit better tho... Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 27. března 2014
27.3.2014 - where is everybody?
? W. I slept v.good tonight, even not long, I woke up shortly before alarm, awake and slept out. I also remember having v.strong dream, interesting one, but dont remember anything, just feeling from it. And in the morning I started the day with joga.
I) I decided to do this week 1 set of yoga to see changes in asanas in a week span. So I did 3x1, 1x2, 1x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7 and armstand practice. I was careful to do armstand practice, but kicked fingers were not a problem, I need mainly palms there. Else I had much better feeling from whole yoga session. Even I saw my mind wandering sooo much, I could feel my body much better and made very naturally correction in poses. Also energy felt flowing a bit better than during last session. I enjoyed it today much more in overall and I could see myself going into some asanas better as well. Its great start of the day in any case. <3 yoga.
...tbc!
II) Later in the morning I had a client. This client is client for a long time and its always v.good treatment, like with all people who work on themselves. Its much easier and more effective work then. Enjoyed visit a lot.
III) In the evening I was dancing for about a hour. It was great, I put all my emotions from today into dance, to process everything. After 45 minutes I was totally exhausted and was just flapping arms and legs around. I had so much joy during this dance, I felt like all shit which wants to get out is coming out and laving me. Great.
Else I did nothing interesting today. I feel a bit strange, I have strong wish to be in contact with people, even just meeting and talking. I contacted many friends around in last days but nobody have time to meet or dont want to meet. And in this one ex-client contacted me for meeting. I was v.surprised, I never had any personal connection to this client, but I will be happy to meet her. Im not sure if I cant be alone and its act of defence or if I just want to do something I never did. Lots of processes about loneliness are going on inside me. Its new for me, Im usually v.ok to be alone for majority of my life.
Anyway. Good day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
I) I decided to do this week 1 set of yoga to see changes in asanas in a week span. So I did 3x1, 1x2, 1x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7 and armstand practice. I was careful to do armstand practice, but kicked fingers were not a problem, I need mainly palms there. Else I had much better feeling from whole yoga session. Even I saw my mind wandering sooo much, I could feel my body much better and made very naturally correction in poses. Also energy felt flowing a bit better than during last session. I enjoyed it today much more in overall and I could see myself going into some asanas better as well. Its great start of the day in any case. <3 yoga.
...tbc!
II) Later in the morning I had a client. This client is client for a long time and its always v.good treatment, like with all people who work on themselves. Its much easier and more effective work then. Enjoyed visit a lot.
III) In the evening I was dancing for about a hour. It was great, I put all my emotions from today into dance, to process everything. After 45 minutes I was totally exhausted and was just flapping arms and legs around. I had so much joy during this dance, I felt like all shit which wants to get out is coming out and laving me. Great.
Else I did nothing interesting today. I feel a bit strange, I have strong wish to be in contact with people, even just meeting and talking. I contacted many friends around in last days but nobody have time to meet or dont want to meet. And in this one ex-client contacted me for meeting. I was v.surprised, I never had any personal connection to this client, but I will be happy to meet her. Im not sure if I cant be alone and its act of defence or if I just want to do something I never did. Lots of processes about loneliness are going on inside me. Its new for me, Im usually v.ok to be alone for majority of my life.
Anyway. Good day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 26. března 2014
26.3.2014 - Shiatsu day - I love my work so much
? W. Today I slept moderately, dont remember any dreams at all... and in the morning v.eager for morning exercise!
Notes: pushups: 7th day = 18x (+3 diamonds).
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations to stretch, warm up and have some fun doing this amazing exercise! Worked well. Then 5 minutes of Burpess, to my delight I could do 37 full and alarm rung at 38th. Its 10 more than last time. Feels good!
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. It also went well. It made me think that its really probably something on not doing this every day. It even felt better in moment where I usually struggle. Else I did mix of exercises, nothing special.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It felt great, and I enjoyed it a lot. enjoyed to feel my body, to move my body and all whats inside.
I must say I really like how I look atm, Im far from thin as half of year ago, but I somehow feel myself having volume and strength.
...tbc!
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients, very different treatments which reminded me how different can Shiatsu be. I felt so happy and grateful that I found this amazing way of living, guiding people, showing other ways and possibilities. Manifesting that there is nothing to be ashamed of, that everything is normal and we are brilliant just as we are.
For rest of the day I did nothing meaningful, I was tired, but pleasantly, not heavily or something. I felt I did good today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 7th day = 18x (+3 diamonds).
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations to stretch, warm up and have some fun doing this amazing exercise! Worked well. Then 5 minutes of Burpess, to my delight I could do 37 full and alarm rung at 38th. Its 10 more than last time. Feels good!
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. It also went well. It made me think that its really probably something on not doing this every day. It even felt better in moment where I usually struggle. Else I did mix of exercises, nothing special.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It felt great, and I enjoyed it a lot. enjoyed to feel my body, to move my body and all whats inside.
I must say I really like how I look atm, Im far from thin as half of year ago, but I somehow feel myself having volume and strength.
...tbc!
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients, very different treatments which reminded me how different can Shiatsu be. I felt so happy and grateful that I found this amazing way of living, guiding people, showing other ways and possibilities. Manifesting that there is nothing to be ashamed of, that everything is normal and we are brilliant just as we are.
For rest of the day I did nothing meaningful, I was tired, but pleasantly, not heavily or something. I felt I did good today. Ohm mani padme hum.
25.3.2014 - a bit like a restart...
? W. Notes: I forgot even to do pushups....
I) Only exercise like thing I did today was Shiatsu treatment I gave to a client. I love this one, I mean profession-like, very interesting case and v.interesting work. Im not stopping to feel gratefulness for this client. Allows me to explore new areas of my work.
Else I did today literally nothing. I felt like I want to catch up with all my bad habbits, so I was watching movies, playing games and resting... bah. But maybe I needed something like this after workshop to switch off for a while.
Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Only exercise like thing I did today was Shiatsu treatment I gave to a client. I love this one, I mean profession-like, very interesting case and v.interesting work. Im not stopping to feel gratefulness for this client. Allows me to explore new areas of my work.
Else I did today literally nothing. I felt like I want to catch up with all my bad habbits, so I was watching movies, playing games and resting... bah. But maybe I needed something like this after workshop to switch off for a while.
Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 24. března 2014
24.3.2014 - work and intimacy
? W. I slept well tonight and dont remember any dreams... morning was much lighter than evening to my big relieve and delight... things moved in me and so I could move myself. In the morning I went for yoga session as morning exercise.
Note: 6th pushup day = 18x.
I) As yoga session I did 3x1,1x2,1x3,1x4,1x5,1x6,1x7 and left armstand practice away because of injured fingers on my hand. Hand is healing good and I really enjoy to observe as well as helping this healing process.
Yoga session itself was great and felt very good and needed to do so. I had no extraordinary experiences. Just felt more convinced to alternate "classic" morning exercise with yoga. Since I dont have time for yoga during the day anymore. I also feel it could be the way to healthy way of exercise. To give more time to my body to recuperate from exercises. And yoga is good start of the day in any case.
II) A bit later in the morning I went to a walk combined with work. It was quite cold, but good walk, loved it to freshen my head.
III) Later I had a client. One which is coming for some time and its so great to see how is this client opening and blooming. Like if a new person would start popping out of cocoon or something. Im grateful to be witness to it.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved, in easy, very intimate mood. Like if we would be exploring our intimacy from beginning. Not really easy, but very interesting and, as it feels, important process. Ohm mani padme hum.
Note: 6th pushup day = 18x.
I) As yoga session I did 3x1,1x2,1x3,1x4,1x5,1x6,1x7 and left armstand practice away because of injured fingers on my hand. Hand is healing good and I really enjoy to observe as well as helping this healing process.
Yoga session itself was great and felt very good and needed to do so. I had no extraordinary experiences. Just felt more convinced to alternate "classic" morning exercise with yoga. Since I dont have time for yoga during the day anymore. I also feel it could be the way to healthy way of exercise. To give more time to my body to recuperate from exercises. And yoga is good start of the day in any case.
II) A bit later in the morning I went to a walk combined with work. It was quite cold, but good walk, loved it to freshen my head.
III) Later I had a client. One which is coming for some time and its so great to see how is this client opening and blooming. Like if a new person would start popping out of cocoon or something. Im grateful to be witness to it.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved, in easy, very intimate mood. Like if we would be exploring our intimacy from beginning. Not really easy, but very interesting and, as it feels, important process. Ohm mani padme hum.
23.3.2014 - slow start
? W. I slept well tonight and I had some strong dream, but dont remember it anymore :( In the morning I went for morning exercise.
Note: 5th pushups day = 17x.
I) Starting with 10 minutes Sun Salutations. Wonderful start as usually, made 5-3 second holds and I enjoyed this stretch and warm up v.much.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, after so long time I did not expected some great performance, but even those 27 reps I made felt good and rich. Im mainly happy I could start again.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and Core practices. Random exercises, it went worse than I thought, but its how it is after workshop... it was as good as I could in any case.
Last 20 minutes of dancing, which was great, I enjoyed it a lot :)
II) Later in the morning I had a client. Strong treatment. Very challenging client where I have to be very sharp on the edge of honesty and touch in order to made the job done. Like challenges like this.
Rest of the day way quite heavy, full of heavy processes and after long time I felt how relaxing can be to spend time just watching movie for 2 hours. Gave me necessary distance to approach myself. And v.evening I spend clearing emotions in all ways it come...
Ohm mani padme hum.
Note: 5th pushups day = 17x.
I) Starting with 10 minutes Sun Salutations. Wonderful start as usually, made 5-3 second holds and I enjoyed this stretch and warm up v.much.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, after so long time I did not expected some great performance, but even those 27 reps I made felt good and rich. Im mainly happy I could start again.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and Core practices. Random exercises, it went worse than I thought, but its how it is after workshop... it was as good as I could in any case.
Last 20 minutes of dancing, which was great, I enjoyed it a lot :)
II) Later in the morning I had a client. Strong treatment. Very challenging client where I have to be very sharp on the edge of honesty and touch in order to made the job done. Like challenges like this.
Rest of the day way quite heavy, full of heavy processes and after long time I felt how relaxing can be to spend time just watching movie for 2 hours. Gave me necessary distance to approach myself. And v.evening I spend clearing emotions in all ways it come...
Ohm mani padme hum.
22.3.2014 - returning slowly
? W. Today I take day off so I slept out. I felt still v. exhausted throughout the day, but I feel it v.natural after such incredibly strong experience as we had on workshop.
Note: 4th pushup day = 17x.
Anyway to joy of my heart, we spend v.beautiful day together with my beloved, both inside, outside, in hug and in love making. Gentleness, joy, fun, rest, love... it was really wonderful...
Ohm mani padme hum.
Note: 4th pushup day = 17x.
Anyway to joy of my heart, we spend v.beautiful day together with my beloved, both inside, outside, in hug and in love making. Gentleness, joy, fun, rest, love... it was really wonderful...
Ohm mani padme hum.
21.3.2014 - last day of workshop and travel
? W. 3rd pushup day = 17x.
I dont know how I slept. It was last day of workshop and as usually there was time to wrap things up, share what need to be shared and then very needed goodbye session.
I had to bid farewell not only to friends but also to woman I fell in love much stronger then I was before workshop and I must say even Im with my beloved still same in love, it was like regular split up. Mainly because its strongly possible I wont see this woman ever again... its strong lesson in letting go really.
Travel back was fine and without problems. We were both crazy tired in the evening. It was strong week really...
Ohm mani padme hum.
I dont know how I slept. It was last day of workshop and as usually there was time to wrap things up, share what need to be shared and then very needed goodbye session.
I had to bid farewell not only to friends but also to woman I fell in love much stronger then I was before workshop and I must say even Im with my beloved still same in love, it was like regular split up. Mainly because its strongly possible I wont see this woman ever again... its strong lesson in letting go really.
Travel back was fine and without problems. We were both crazy tired in the evening. It was strong week really...
Ohm mani padme hum.
20.3.2014 - 6th day of workshop
? W. Pushups: 2nd day = 17x.
I slept well, short, but deep and nourishing and in the morning I did not know if that heavenly night happened... but it really did and it wasnt just a dream.
Today started last full night and in the morning I met sb with whom I had v.different meeting than the others. It started some processes in me... I felt all the sudden as a boy again, not like a man as I feel usually in contact with woman.
In the evening was last session which was again very juicy and beautiful and added some new flavours into already pretty dense cauldron of me.
Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well, short, but deep and nourishing and in the morning I did not know if that heavenly night happened... but it really did and it wasnt just a dream.
Today started last full night and in the morning I met sb with whom I had v.different meeting than the others. It started some processes in me... I felt all the sudden as a boy again, not like a man as I feel usually in contact with woman.
In the evening was last session which was again very juicy and beautiful and added some new flavours into already pretty dense cauldron of me.
Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 20. března 2014
19.3.2014 - 5th day of workshop
?? W. Notes: pushups: 1st day = 17x.
Today continued with sharing and new setup in intimacy sessions. It was again v, strong. Beautiful and also in one case v.deep touching and worked as very big lesson.
I also hurted my hand when I did not dodged accidental kick and Im playing with it whole day. Im again amazed how much these incidents teach me about my body and make me even more being grateful for my fantastic, working body.
But today workshop did not stopped after the last session but continued also in night in great love <3 Ohm mani padme hum.
Today continued with sharing and new setup in intimacy sessions. It was again v, strong. Beautiful and also in one case v.deep touching and worked as very big lesson.
I also hurted my hand when I did not dodged accidental kick and Im playing with it whole day. Im again amazed how much these incidents teach me about my body and make me even more being grateful for my fantastic, working body.
But today workshop did not stopped after the last session but continued also in night in great love <3 Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 19. března 2014
18.3.2014 - 4th day of workshop
?? W.
Today started main sessions of the workshop. Its all about intimacy, exploring its aspects and inner voices and judges. For me its incredible experience. Im learning so much. About myself and my programs, about love and sensuality.... not at all easy, no matter as it may sound. Especially while dealing with jealousy, polyamory and so on. Good school.
Ohm mani padme hum.
Today started main sessions of the workshop. Its all about intimacy, exploring its aspects and inner voices and judges. For me its incredible experience. Im learning so much. About myself and my programs, about love and sensuality.... not at all easy, no matter as it may sound. Especially while dealing with jealousy, polyamory and so on. Good school.
Ohm mani padme hum.
17.3.2014 - 3rd day of workshop
?? Weight.
Its hard to write about workshop without mentioning details. So I keep it short - we did v.beautiful sessions today, all very different and teaching different things, or showing new dynamics. Im experiencing here so much love, its just incredible....
Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 0th day = maximum 28x = same as 2 weeks ago.
Its hard to write about workshop without mentioning details. So I keep it short - we did v.beautiful sessions today, all very different and teaching different things, or showing new dynamics. Im experiencing here so much love, its just incredible....
Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 0th day = maximum 28x = same as 2 weeks ago.
úterý 18. března 2014
16.3.2014 - second day of workshop
?? weight. I slept relatively well tonight and had quite strong and long dream. I had a side job as a manager of small, simple bar near the bus station in my hometown. It felt very strange and line of a dream was like a series of events I experienced during managing this pub. Im guessing about meaning of this dream, but have no clue yet.
Today we did fair morning meditation which includes wild dance and I enjoyed it sooooo much, I felt like I could dance like that for much longer. It was good morning exercise this meditation, but I also did pushup day - 14th day +7 = 25x. And I did also 5-4 second holds of Sun Salutations. Good start. This workshop is quite physically (and also psychically) demanding so I feel it ok to not do full heavy morning exercise.
...tbc!
On a workshop we did preparation rituals. I was very lucky with everything around it, I could explore many states and roles and I felt like I learned a lot. It was v.beautiful day, v.heart opening. Ohm mani padme hum.
Today we did fair morning meditation which includes wild dance and I enjoyed it sooooo much, I felt like I could dance like that for much longer. It was good morning exercise this meditation, but I also did pushup day - 14th day +7 = 25x. And I did also 5-4 second holds of Sun Salutations. Good start. This workshop is quite physically (and also psychically) demanding so I feel it ok to not do full heavy morning exercise.
...tbc!
On a workshop we did preparation rituals. I was very lucky with everything around it, I could explore many states and roles and I felt like I learned a lot. It was v.beautiful day, v.heart opening. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 16. března 2014
15.3.2014 - first day of workshop
?? Weight. I slept well, but mattresses here are not really top class. But its very nice sleeping anyway, its first time I sleep in a room on this training and this time Im happy I could afford it and got a room.
I did no personal exercises today, because its saturday and I slept out today. Fortunately we could, because since more people were tired start of program tomorrow was postponed.
It was very nice day. In the morning we did some man-woman practise and afternoon first round of short intimate servant-served practice. I was served and I had great luck to be with woman I wanted and we had very deep and loving interaction. Even before this event I had v.opened heart and after this event my heart was wide-open. Very beautiful.
Rest of the day was also v.nice and loving as well as we had very nice moments with my beloved <3
Ohm mani padme hum.
I did no personal exercises today, because its saturday and I slept out today. Fortunately we could, because since more people were tired start of program tomorrow was postponed.
It was very nice day. In the morning we did some man-woman practise and afternoon first round of short intimate servant-served practice. I was served and I had great luck to be with woman I wanted and we had very deep and loving interaction. Even before this event I had v.opened heart and after this event my heart was wide-open. Very beautiful.
Rest of the day was also v.nice and loving as well as we had very nice moments with my beloved <3
Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 14. března 2014
14.3.2013 - Preparetions and travel to the workshop.
?? Weight. I slept well tonight. Morning was nice, soft sun and birds chirping... I dont remember any dreams but in the morning hurray for morning exercise!
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, holds 5-3 seconds, I was a bit surprised, because I though Im faster, but here we go. Anyway it was great after JJ training - to stretch all limbs properly and bring some life into body.
Then I did 5 minutes of squats, 50 normal squats and then about 40 half-squats. It was hard! Wow, I felt like I need to focus more on my legs really, they seems to need more love then Im giving them.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, wanted to do alternation of situps and v-sits, but after first round I was unable to do more situps for some time so I did other exercises and returned to situps when it was again possible. I was surprised, but I anyway want to try to not do ABS every day and see if something change and how. It could have other reason why was my ABS so week.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today I had lot of fun and I had also opportunity to realize one thing. And that was how my dancing change when Im being watched, even if its my beloved! I felt so shy! I even felt nervous in my limbs and how breathing changed... so unexpected. But I had lots of fun anyway :)
II) Later I had last client this week, very interesting treatment where I had to be very flexible and instead of following school rules to be creative, because this client was in very special condition. It was very interesting treatment I must say.
III) Most of the rest of the day was in the name of packing last stuff, preparations and travel to the place of workshop which we do together with my beloved. Its better internet here so I hope I could keep writing blog online. Its all starting ATM and I feel nervous and challenged even it dosnt started yet really. Im curious how this week will be.
Day is not over yet tho, so lets see if the day brings some more ...tbc.
WS started in the evening with gentle introduction practice and after that we went to bed. It was nice day and nice start of a WS. Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, holds 5-3 seconds, I was a bit surprised, because I though Im faster, but here we go. Anyway it was great after JJ training - to stretch all limbs properly and bring some life into body.
Then I did 5 minutes of squats, 50 normal squats and then about 40 half-squats. It was hard! Wow, I felt like I need to focus more on my legs really, they seems to need more love then Im giving them.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, wanted to do alternation of situps and v-sits, but after first round I was unable to do more situps for some time so I did other exercises and returned to situps when it was again possible. I was surprised, but I anyway want to try to not do ABS every day and see if something change and how. It could have other reason why was my ABS so week.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today I had lot of fun and I had also opportunity to realize one thing. And that was how my dancing change when Im being watched, even if its my beloved! I felt so shy! I even felt nervous in my limbs and how breathing changed... so unexpected. But I had lots of fun anyway :)
II) Later I had last client this week, very interesting treatment where I had to be very flexible and instead of following school rules to be creative, because this client was in very special condition. It was very interesting treatment I must say.
III) Most of the rest of the day was in the name of packing last stuff, preparations and travel to the place of workshop which we do together with my beloved. Its better internet here so I hope I could keep writing blog online. Its all starting ATM and I feel nervous and challenged even it dosnt started yet really. Im curious how this week will be.
Day is not over yet tho, so lets see if the day brings some more ...tbc.
WS started in the evening with gentle introduction practice and after that we went to bed. It was nice day and nice start of a WS. Ohm mani padme hum.
13.3.2014 - out of my control, weird day
?? Weight. I slept tonight relatively well, but I had very powerful dream at one point and it woke me even up and I could not sleep again simply, it was at 4:30. Dream was very confusing, it was about some lottery or something and I won lot of money. Not like millions, but enough to do almost all I want ATM. And my brain started working so intensively that it was impossible to fall asleep again. So I got up and went to computer. I was tired and I could not sleep nor just take rest because of active mind. And I was also very physically and energetically exhausted during the day so I could not force myself to do morning exercise not later in the morning, not afternoon. I could not force myself to do anything work-alike!
In the end I at least sorted record load from yesterday and putted it on its place and started to input first few records into computer. I also packed stuff for workshop which starts tomorrow. Else I could just rest and be at computer doing nothing really meaningful. I dont know if its because heavy work load in other days or something. I wish that its not so burdening to have so many clients, because I love my work and want to have lot of clients. Its amazingly improving my work.
I) Well, in the evening I had a friend on visit, which was great, because I did not met this friend for a long time and we had lot of things to share, but we was far from finish when I had to leave to Jiu Jitsu.
II) So later in the evening I went to Jiu Jitsu. I was tired and felt done, but I know very well, that no matter how I feel, JJ training always charge me and give energy instead of taking it. And so it was, great training today, we did old-school training setup we was practising years ago and I enjoyed it very very much. I had also good uke to practice with.
After training I met with my beloved and we went home together. Rest of the evening I did not much, because I had enough, but we spend cozy rest of the evening before falling asleep. Ohm mani padme hum.
In the end I at least sorted record load from yesterday and putted it on its place and started to input first few records into computer. I also packed stuff for workshop which starts tomorrow. Else I could just rest and be at computer doing nothing really meaningful. I dont know if its because heavy work load in other days or something. I wish that its not so burdening to have so many clients, because I love my work and want to have lot of clients. Its amazingly improving my work.
I) Well, in the evening I had a friend on visit, which was great, because I did not met this friend for a long time and we had lot of things to share, but we was far from finish when I had to leave to Jiu Jitsu.
II) So later in the evening I went to Jiu Jitsu. I was tired and felt done, but I know very well, that no matter how I feel, JJ training always charge me and give energy instead of taking it. And so it was, great training today, we did old-school training setup we was practising years ago and I enjoyed it very very much. I had also good uke to practice with.
After training I met with my beloved and we went home together. Rest of the evening I did not much, because I had enough, but we spend cozy rest of the evening before falling asleep. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 12. března 2014
12.3.2014 - end of working "week"
?? Weight. I slept v.well tonight again. I dont remember any dreams, but I think I hadnt any. Its great that sun raise up so soon, that it wakes me up. I love it. And in the morning hurray to morning exercise.
Notes: pushups: 11th day +4 = 21x.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds. It felt sooo great today, I totally loved it. Im not sure if its because of sun already shining into my room, but it felt simply awesome. Great warm up and stretch up.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees. I made 36 of them. I felt it good. I had again very good feeling doing it and I even felt its going better and better with more reps. At one point I even felt employment, which surprised me, because it was always tough fight with Burpees so far. It motivated me to push much more next time.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mainly Barstarz set, again felt vey good while doing it. Even it was very rich and in the end I had hard times to stand up I felt my core and ABS good and firm and fine.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Also enjoying it very much. Felt easy to be in creative, joyful weave. Wonderful.
I felt after morning exercises very good, full of energy and had this feeling like being on the good weave. Still feeling it and enjoining it :)
...tbc!
II) During the day I had 2 clients. Again both very strong treatments. Clients with very serious issues. Its great Im able to be more and more in tune with my clients and not give advices, but to be a mirror and give another point of view. I just wish my clients all the best. And I also realized, that I really like them. I think this need to get really deep into theyr processes and understanding of mechanics of theyr patterns inevitably leads to liking uniqueness and this shining, beautiful essence we all have inside and which deserve to be loved and appreciated. Its always great, always precious.
III) After work I went to check a place where I could eventually massage. It was actually nice, quiet place and it would sure work to massage there. Lets see how it develop. I combined this visit with nice walk through city, which I always like, so I made it a nice trip :)
IV) In the evening I was moving 3 meters of records to 3rd floor via stairs and alone. It was great workout I must say. In some crazy, wicked way I enjoyed this half of hour running up and down with full hands of records. I think Im going snap soon :P
Well, what a full day today! I went sleep relatively early and very exhausted, but it felt good today. Work, nice walk, new records to make business with. Met also one good friend in between. Great. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 11th day +4 = 21x.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds. It felt sooo great today, I totally loved it. Im not sure if its because of sun already shining into my room, but it felt simply awesome. Great warm up and stretch up.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees. I made 36 of them. I felt it good. I had again very good feeling doing it and I even felt its going better and better with more reps. At one point I even felt employment, which surprised me, because it was always tough fight with Burpees so far. It motivated me to push much more next time.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mainly Barstarz set, again felt vey good while doing it. Even it was very rich and in the end I had hard times to stand up I felt my core and ABS good and firm and fine.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Also enjoying it very much. Felt easy to be in creative, joyful weave. Wonderful.
I felt after morning exercises very good, full of energy and had this feeling like being on the good weave. Still feeling it and enjoining it :)
...tbc!
II) During the day I had 2 clients. Again both very strong treatments. Clients with very serious issues. Its great Im able to be more and more in tune with my clients and not give advices, but to be a mirror and give another point of view. I just wish my clients all the best. And I also realized, that I really like them. I think this need to get really deep into theyr processes and understanding of mechanics of theyr patterns inevitably leads to liking uniqueness and this shining, beautiful essence we all have inside and which deserve to be loved and appreciated. Its always great, always precious.
III) After work I went to check a place where I could eventually massage. It was actually nice, quiet place and it would sure work to massage there. Lets see how it develop. I combined this visit with nice walk through city, which I always like, so I made it a nice trip :)
IV) In the evening I was moving 3 meters of records to 3rd floor via stairs and alone. It was great workout I must say. In some crazy, wicked way I enjoyed this half of hour running up and down with full hands of records. I think Im going snap soon :P
Well, what a full day today! I went sleep relatively early and very exhausted, but it felt good today. Work, nice walk, new records to make business with. Met also one good friend in between. Great. Ohm mani padme hum.
11.3.2014 - Shiatsu day
?? Weight. I slept very well tonight, my body and system was preparing for yoga in the morning. Its fascinating how we can prepare ourselves for whats ahead of us even in a sleep. Never imagined its possible :) I think I had some dreams, but dont remember any.
I) Today I did change in my morning routine. I decided to alternate physical exercises with yoga and today was yoga day. I did 3 asanas for 1th chakra and then 1 asana for each consequential chakra and in the end headstand and armstand practice. It felt surprisingly difficult at first, but if I take in consideration how long it is since I did yoga last time its not so big surprise really. I did this set for a something over 1 hour. It was strong, very strong, my system was reacting a lot. Im curious how this system work out (alternating physical and yoga days) but right now I feel it good. Strengthen my body in physical day and in other day heal everything in yoga session and also stretch body. Lets see. In any case I ought to change my morning routine, because it got into dead end.
II) During day I had 3 clients. Wasnt so easy, but I enjoyed all of them and I was happy to work with these clients, because with all of them it feels important what they need and what I can guide them through. These intensive treatments are very demanding on my system. I must say I failed to keep discipline and ate lot of sweets. Its probably some false call of some false need, but I felt it important to eat such stuff, Im not sure why tho - to ground myself? Does eating sweets grounds? Maybe because stomach is overhauled and brings energy down then. Interesting though, it come just know when I write this.
I had really no energy in the evening for more meaningful things. Tomorrow is v.full day and I felt I need some space for me and some useless hanging around in the evening to relax after all those intense energies going around while working. Good day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Today I did change in my morning routine. I decided to alternate physical exercises with yoga and today was yoga day. I did 3 asanas for 1th chakra and then 1 asana for each consequential chakra and in the end headstand and armstand practice. It felt surprisingly difficult at first, but if I take in consideration how long it is since I did yoga last time its not so big surprise really. I did this set for a something over 1 hour. It was strong, very strong, my system was reacting a lot. Im curious how this system work out (alternating physical and yoga days) but right now I feel it good. Strengthen my body in physical day and in other day heal everything in yoga session and also stretch body. Lets see. In any case I ought to change my morning routine, because it got into dead end.
II) During day I had 3 clients. Wasnt so easy, but I enjoyed all of them and I was happy to work with these clients, because with all of them it feels important what they need and what I can guide them through. These intensive treatments are very demanding on my system. I must say I failed to keep discipline and ate lot of sweets. Its probably some false call of some false need, but I felt it important to eat such stuff, Im not sure why tho - to ground myself? Does eating sweets grounds? Maybe because stomach is overhauled and brings energy down then. Interesting though, it come just know when I write this.
I had really no energy in the evening for more meaningful things. Tomorrow is v.full day and I felt I need some space for me and some useless hanging around in the evening to relax after all those intense energies going around while working. Good day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 10. března 2014
10.3.2014 - love my job, love Shiatsu
?? Weight. I slept well tonight. Even I woke up early, I enjoyed staying in the bed and watching sun rise slowly... it was nice. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: pushups: 9th day +3 = 19x.
I) I was thinking a lot about my exercises and I decided to change structure a lot. Starting today with excluding ABS exercises. I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, alternating 5sec holds and dynamic reps. Great warm up and it was interesting to observe how is my body shoked from this way of exercise. Thats way to go...
Then 5 minutes of shadowboxing with a bit of running with neck stretches in the beginning. New structure of morning exercise I want to do will include more of these cardio parts. Today I made longer freestyle shadowboxing part. To my delight it wasnt so hard, I just had to do it. And I want to get to the point I can do this for whole time and extend it to 10 minutes of freestyle. Which is crazy hard, whoever know boxing or kickbox know how demanding intervals are. But I need this kind of challenge.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, I dont even know how many I did, something 25-30. Was not much but I could not muster more. I felt it fine, I pushed myself a lot and I felt myself a lot. Even know dont have feeling I was lazying.
I continued with 5 minutes of squats, first 50 deep squats and then same but with legs next to each other. To my delight I found out I can do full deep tight squat and not fall. I did around 20 of those. I felt it great and felt my legs well afterwards.
Last thing I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I felt exhausted but I took it easy and enjoyed this time.
II) Then I had some work with records and couple of clients during a day. Both treatments nice and strong. I felt afterwards so happy I do Shiatsu. It really seems Im getting energetically stronger and clients feel it in the form of intensity of treatment which have that effect, that treatments do more work for clients. Which is great of course.
III) Leaving to Jiu Jitsu practice...
JJ was unusual today. One advanced pupil had a class today and we did interesting training where we practised 1 technique in various applications. We also swapped partners often. It was fine, I have so much I need to practice, that it dosnt matter what we do really. It was surprisingly demanding. I felt it in whole body afterwards.
Full day today, I had to manage not only clients and practices, but also lot of communications and small things and in the end my body pained so much, that I could not fall asleep for long time. Intensive day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 9th day +3 = 19x.
I) I was thinking a lot about my exercises and I decided to change structure a lot. Starting today with excluding ABS exercises. I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, alternating 5sec holds and dynamic reps. Great warm up and it was interesting to observe how is my body shoked from this way of exercise. Thats way to go...
Then 5 minutes of shadowboxing with a bit of running with neck stretches in the beginning. New structure of morning exercise I want to do will include more of these cardio parts. Today I made longer freestyle shadowboxing part. To my delight it wasnt so hard, I just had to do it. And I want to get to the point I can do this for whole time and extend it to 10 minutes of freestyle. Which is crazy hard, whoever know boxing or kickbox know how demanding intervals are. But I need this kind of challenge.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, I dont even know how many I did, something 25-30. Was not much but I could not muster more. I felt it fine, I pushed myself a lot and I felt myself a lot. Even know dont have feeling I was lazying.
I continued with 5 minutes of squats, first 50 deep squats and then same but with legs next to each other. To my delight I found out I can do full deep tight squat and not fall. I did around 20 of those. I felt it great and felt my legs well afterwards.
Last thing I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I felt exhausted but I took it easy and enjoyed this time.
II) Then I had some work with records and couple of clients during a day. Both treatments nice and strong. I felt afterwards so happy I do Shiatsu. It really seems Im getting energetically stronger and clients feel it in the form of intensity of treatment which have that effect, that treatments do more work for clients. Which is great of course.
III) Leaving to Jiu Jitsu practice...
JJ was unusual today. One advanced pupil had a class today and we did interesting training where we practised 1 technique in various applications. We also swapped partners often. It was fine, I have so much I need to practice, that it dosnt matter what we do really. It was surprisingly demanding. I felt it in whole body afterwards.
Full day today, I had to manage not only clients and practices, but also lot of communications and small things and in the end my body pained so much, that I could not fall asleep for long time. Intensive day. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 9. března 2014
9.3.2014 - Enjoying sun and biding goodbyes
?? Weight. I slept v.well tonight, somehow rich and nourishing, felt v.good. I had also lots of dreams, but dont remember any. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise!
Notes: pushups: 8th day +1 = 18x, Headstand: 3:20 had no morale for 10 minutes, simple as that.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, holds 5-3 seconds, reminded me how wonderful exercise this is. Difference between beginning and ending was simply huge, on start I could not almost move, had pain in arms and in the end I could reach much more further and had no pain anymore.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS practices, even I felt myself on top of what I could - I could not do half of what I could week ago. I dont panic because of that or anything, its after 2 days of rest and I also reconsidered my training program and it has big influence on my mind and so on whole performance, I dont want to do ABS every day anymore. But today it felt good and rich and I was happy to do it. I did mix of exercise, had no concrete plan.
Then 10 minutes of biking on stationary bike (0:30-2, 5:00-3, 4:30-4). To my delight I again saw progress and even I biked in hardest combination so far it felt relatively easy and possible to go further. Which was good feeling. Enjoed it.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. I felt my body very much and was stiff for first 5 minutes, but then I could dance it out and enjoy dancing very much. It was nice.
..tbc!
Rest of the day I did not really anything exercise-wise, just experienced amazing sexercises and spend few hours outside on fresh air, enjoying beautiful sun bath. And in the evening travel back to get ready for another full, crazy week. What a beautiful weekend.... my heart still enjoy all what come by. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 8th day +1 = 18x, Headstand: 3:20 had no morale for 10 minutes, simple as that.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, holds 5-3 seconds, reminded me how wonderful exercise this is. Difference between beginning and ending was simply huge, on start I could not almost move, had pain in arms and in the end I could reach much more further and had no pain anymore.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS practices, even I felt myself on top of what I could - I could not do half of what I could week ago. I dont panic because of that or anything, its after 2 days of rest and I also reconsidered my training program and it has big influence on my mind and so on whole performance, I dont want to do ABS every day anymore. But today it felt good and rich and I was happy to do it. I did mix of exercise, had no concrete plan.
Then 10 minutes of biking on stationary bike (0:30-2, 5:00-3, 4:30-4). To my delight I again saw progress and even I biked in hardest combination so far it felt relatively easy and possible to go further. Which was good feeling. Enjoed it.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. I felt my body very much and was stiff for first 5 minutes, but then I could dance it out and enjoy dancing very much. It was nice.
..tbc!
Rest of the day I did not really anything exercise-wise, just experienced amazing sexercises and spend few hours outside on fresh air, enjoying beautiful sun bath. And in the evening travel back to get ready for another full, crazy week. What a beautiful weekend.... my heart still enjoy all what come by. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 8. března 2014
8.3.2014 - second day of healing
82,2kg " -= " again a bit less, must be all that sex... else I slept well and had tons of dreams, like if I would ate some mushrooms or such yesterday... I dreamt about friend shortly before giving birth and shortly after she gave birth, whole thing took place in a flat of my beloved and my beloved was there too. And lot of other dreams which Im too lazy to type.. sorry :3
Notes: pushups: 7th day = 17x.
Else in the morning again some wonderful sexercise which is so great start of the day.. you can imagine. And today I plan to give my body all it needs to recuperate so I can start fresh and new into next step on my path to greater self.
Wonderful day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 7th day = 17x.
Else in the morning again some wonderful sexercise which is so great start of the day.. you can imagine. And today I plan to give my body all it needs to recuperate so I can start fresh and new into next step on my path to greater self.
Wonderful day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
7.3.2014 - like in old days :3
82,5kg " =- " a bit less then week ago, its fine, I gave up on big drops, I more focus on good nutrition and as less crap as HUMANLY possible O:)
Notes: pushups: 6th day = 17x.
Else I slept out today, I have rest day today. But spend basically whole morning with my beloved in very hot and nice sexercise, which felt after those 10 days we was not together really coty, sweet, beautiful and pleasant.
I did no other exercise and felt like I really really need to rest today and tomorrow as well. I feel like my body and system is cracking. Im not happy that I cant stand this work and exercises, but ignoring my needs and warning signals wont help. And Im getting lots of warning signals in last days.
Well, wonderful day today, a bit simple, food, sex and rest, but sometimes... its exactly everything one can need :3 Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 6th day = 17x.
Else I slept out today, I have rest day today. But spend basically whole morning with my beloved in very hot and nice sexercise, which felt after those 10 days we was not together really coty, sweet, beautiful and pleasant.
I did no other exercise and felt like I really really need to rest today and tomorrow as well. I feel like my body and system is cracking. Im not happy that I cant stand this work and exercises, but ignoring my needs and warning signals wont help. And Im getting lots of warning signals in last days.
Well, wonderful day today, a bit simple, food, sex and rest, but sometimes... its exactly everything one can need :3 Ohm mani padme hum.
6.3.2014 - work and travells
?? Weight. I slept v.deep tonight, alarm woke me up which dosnt happen really often in last months. Seems Im close to depletion of my energy resources. I dont remember dreaming. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: pushups: 5th day = 17x, Headstand: 3:20 did not felt good to push it today again.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 10 sun salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. Good warm up as usually. I continued then with ABS and core practices, first 5 rounds of TM core WO and for the rest of the time random exercises, felt very good and rich. I felt very satisfied with how I could push myself.
Last I was dancing for about 30 minutes. It was very great today, enjoyed it a lot and it lasted very fast too. Im happy I can enjoy dancing again so often. Its not only great way to move, but also very fulfilling kind of exercise if it work out to really flow into it. Love it.
II) During the day I had couple of clients again. Again v.strong and interesting treatments. Even in v.different ways.1 client was specially challenging because of very little things she is telling me. But obviously it works for her in some way which is good.
III) After clients I just fetched dinner quickly and then went to travel. All went well and smooth, just those 4 hours are a bit pain in my schedule...
In destination waited for me beautiful welcome from my beloved and rest of the day we spend together. Good, fulfilling day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 5th day = 17x, Headstand: 3:20 did not felt good to push it today again.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 10 sun salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. Good warm up as usually. I continued then with ABS and core practices, first 5 rounds of TM core WO and for the rest of the time random exercises, felt very good and rich. I felt very satisfied with how I could push myself.
Last I was dancing for about 30 minutes. It was very great today, enjoyed it a lot and it lasted very fast too. Im happy I can enjoy dancing again so often. Its not only great way to move, but also very fulfilling kind of exercise if it work out to really flow into it. Love it.
II) During the day I had couple of clients again. Again v.strong and interesting treatments. Even in v.different ways.1 client was specially challenging because of very little things she is telling me. But obviously it works for her in some way which is good.
III) After clients I just fetched dinner quickly and then went to travel. All went well and smooth, just those 4 hours are a bit pain in my schedule...
In destination waited for me beautiful welcome from my beloved and rest of the day we spend together. Good, fulfilling day. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 5. března 2014
5.3.2014 - sometimes unexpected things can be very nice
?? Weight. Tonight I slept well and deep, dont remember any dreams. Its been long time since alarm woke me up. I sure needed this deep sleep, wasnt so easy to get up :P Dont remember any dreams. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
Notes: Pushups: 4th day = 17x, Headstand: 10:00 (7:00 static, 3:00 acrobatic), contrary to my feelings and against lot of resistance. Very valuable practice.
I) Today I did not though about starting with something else then 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. I was CRAZY stiff and my arms and upper part of body felt terribly. I made only 5-4 and one side with 3 second holds. Whole time I was experiencing cracks in joints how limbs, ribs and big joints returned into theyr respective places. At the 3 sec holds it was much better and I started to feel like oiled machine again.
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1, I was thinking if to do this after yesterday, but I felt like... yeah, I have to give signal to my body, that it needs to recuperate fast and dont expect long rests all the time. And to my big delight it worked well! After couple of reps I could go on flawlessly and fast so I did 10 reps on each side and 3 more reps with 5 second holds in hard positions. But what surprised me so much was how good it went, no major pains or stiffness parts. I guess Sun Salutations really works miracles.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, did alternation of v-sits and situps, 30x situp / 1:00 v-sit / 30x situps / 1:30 v-sit / 30x situps / 1:45 v-sit when alarm rung. I hoped to make whole set today, but did nto made it by 15 seconds. Its fine, I put 100% and wasnt holding back anything so I dont regret it. Felt good and rich.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today it was surprisingly very joyful and good, I could flow in music v.well and had lots of fun.
I also have to mention that after pushups and triceps extra exercises I experienced energetic orgasms (orgasm without ejaculation and sometimes, like in this case, without erection) today, absolutely unexpected and v. beautiful and strong. What a beautiful gift! I dont know if its because I work with my sexual energy last week or something else. I must say I dont think about it so much. It lasted for about a minute and what was v.nice was the fact, that I could not think at that time, whenever I tried to use my mind it was like trying to break into high-security facility, simply no chance. Great feeling, very relaxing.
Lets see what else today brings ...tbc!
II) During a day I had couple of clients, both treatments were quite intensive and deep. Im not sure what causes, that I deal with such a serious topics with clients. Its not stuff like small pains or small bothers, its sometimes topics which makes clients lives really miserable or even life threatening in a long run. Maybe it means Im ready for this stuff so its happening.
Thats about exercises and work. I had also very nice visit in the evening when a friend visited me. I enjoyed it very much I must say, since Im working a lot I dont meet friends much and it was worth to meet this friend instead of going to CI class. Demanding, but great day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: Pushups: 4th day = 17x, Headstand: 10:00 (7:00 static, 3:00 acrobatic), contrary to my feelings and against lot of resistance. Very valuable practice.
I) Today I did not though about starting with something else then 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. I was CRAZY stiff and my arms and upper part of body felt terribly. I made only 5-4 and one side with 3 second holds. Whole time I was experiencing cracks in joints how limbs, ribs and big joints returned into theyr respective places. At the 3 sec holds it was much better and I started to feel like oiled machine again.
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1, I was thinking if to do this after yesterday, but I felt like... yeah, I have to give signal to my body, that it needs to recuperate fast and dont expect long rests all the time. And to my big delight it worked well! After couple of reps I could go on flawlessly and fast so I did 10 reps on each side and 3 more reps with 5 second holds in hard positions. But what surprised me so much was how good it went, no major pains or stiffness parts. I guess Sun Salutations really works miracles.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, did alternation of v-sits and situps, 30x situp / 1:00 v-sit / 30x situps / 1:30 v-sit / 30x situps / 1:45 v-sit when alarm rung. I hoped to make whole set today, but did nto made it by 15 seconds. Its fine, I put 100% and wasnt holding back anything so I dont regret it. Felt good and rich.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today it was surprisingly very joyful and good, I could flow in music v.well and had lots of fun.
I also have to mention that after pushups and triceps extra exercises I experienced energetic orgasms (orgasm without ejaculation and sometimes, like in this case, without erection) today, absolutely unexpected and v. beautiful and strong. What a beautiful gift! I dont know if its because I work with my sexual energy last week or something else. I must say I dont think about it so much. It lasted for about a minute and what was v.nice was the fact, that I could not think at that time, whenever I tried to use my mind it was like trying to break into high-security facility, simply no chance. Great feeling, very relaxing.
Lets see what else today brings ...tbc!
II) During a day I had couple of clients, both treatments were quite intensive and deep. Im not sure what causes, that I deal with such a serious topics with clients. Its not stuff like small pains or small bothers, its sometimes topics which makes clients lives really miserable or even life threatening in a long run. Maybe it means Im ready for this stuff so its happening.
Thats about exercises and work. I had also very nice visit in the evening when a friend visited me. I enjoyed it very much I must say, since Im working a lot I dont meet friends much and it was worth to meet this friend instead of going to CI class. Demanding, but great day. Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 4. března 2014
4.3.2014 - Pyramid from 15 in less then 10 minuts: done!
?? Weight. Had again hard times to fall asleep, but slept well. And again HAD to go to WC with return 20 seconds before alarm, I think I have to somehow accept this shit or it will make me crazy. In the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: pushups: 3rd day = 17x, Headstand: did just 3:20 to not get out of practice, but I felt Im on the edge where is not good to push anymore so I gave my neck rest today.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up. 10x Sun Salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. I focused to really warm up as much as possible in this time, it worked out.
Then big challenge again, pyramid from 15 and I did it! And I had even over 30 seconds left. I decided to push it like crazy, no breaks at all, just one streak of pushups, squats and situps. I needed to help myself in 2 reps of pushups, which is even less then I needed last time I tried this, but this time I ended up in time and even made reps with 2 extra, even I literally collapsed afterwards :P In total it was 122 pushups, 122 situps, 122 squats in 10 minutes. Not bad! But I must say, at this moment, performance like this is crazy for whole system, very exhausting.
Anyway, I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mixed exercises. I kept pushing as possible, even it wasnt so easy after previous. It felt great, I was happy I CAN push like this, sweat was running in streams and thats always good feeling :) Even I have suspicion that I sweat because of eating sweets...
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It wasnt so easy, but I got into it, I had moments of dizziness and feeling weak so I was gentle on myself and was just dancing as was fine for me. I must say I enjoyed it from most of part.
...tbc!
II) During the day I had couple of clients, all very strong treatments and strong cases. I was happy that I found courage to dig deep in client's personalities and not to be nice at all costs. I felt its either helping the client or being nice and not helping anything, so I chose to rick loosing client and be straight. And I felt we did progress.
Else I did no other exercises today, did lot of small things and tried to put my thoughts together. It was strong day, pyramid from morning was very intensive and I felt it for the rest of the day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 3rd day = 17x, Headstand: did just 3:20 to not get out of practice, but I felt Im on the edge where is not good to push anymore so I gave my neck rest today.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up. 10x Sun Salutations, running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. I focused to really warm up as much as possible in this time, it worked out.
Then big challenge again, pyramid from 15 and I did it! And I had even over 30 seconds left. I decided to push it like crazy, no breaks at all, just one streak of pushups, squats and situps. I needed to help myself in 2 reps of pushups, which is even less then I needed last time I tried this, but this time I ended up in time and even made reps with 2 extra, even I literally collapsed afterwards :P In total it was 122 pushups, 122 situps, 122 squats in 10 minutes. Not bad! But I must say, at this moment, performance like this is crazy for whole system, very exhausting.
Anyway, I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mixed exercises. I kept pushing as possible, even it wasnt so easy after previous. It felt great, I was happy I CAN push like this, sweat was running in streams and thats always good feeling :) Even I have suspicion that I sweat because of eating sweets...
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It wasnt so easy, but I got into it, I had moments of dizziness and feeling weak so I was gentle on myself and was just dancing as was fine for me. I must say I enjoyed it from most of part.
...tbc!
II) During the day I had couple of clients, all very strong treatments and strong cases. I was happy that I found courage to dig deep in client's personalities and not to be nice at all costs. I felt its either helping the client or being nice and not helping anything, so I chose to rick loosing client and be straight. And I felt we did progress.
Else I did no other exercises today, did lot of small things and tried to put my thoughts together. It was strong day, pyramid from morning was very intensive and I felt it for the rest of the day. Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 3. března 2014
3.3.2014 - new energy floating in
?? Weight. Even I had some difficulties to fall asleep I slept well tonight, which was nice change. Think I dreamt something, but dont remember a thing. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise!
Notes: pushups: 2nd day = 17x, Headstand: 10:00 (7:00 static 3:00 acrobatic), record and reached milestone I wanted, 10 minutes. I dont know if I will try longer in the frame of morning exercises, but I must say at this length Im starting to feel like reaching into places where its not so common to be. Like entering new temple where you dont know the rules and customs :)
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, almost made 5-2 fully. I was quite stiff at start, especially arms need a lot of love lately. Great warm up as ever. Enjoyed it.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, made 36 reps. Dont know why I was so slow, but I was on maximum I could, even now, after several hours I dont feel like not doing my best. Maybe Im so enjoying feeling my body so good during exercise, that I loose time in that.. .:D I dont know. It felt good.
After that 5 minutes of squats. I felt v.strong to do it today. I made 50 normal squats and 35 half squats, which is best I ever made in 5 minutes. I also felt muscles most I ever felt. It was great.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, mixed techniques. Mainly practising to the failure, made 102 situps 2+1+1 today, which is also new record. I made it v.rich, minimum breaks and lot of reps. Felt great too.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. I was v.stiff after previous and it took me almost whole 15 minutes to shake it off. Did not enjoyed it so much, but it sure felt good to do.
II) Then I went on walk, tried new place for bouldering, but it was closed at that time. However it seems as viable option for bouldering. Want to try it out other day. Instead I took as less connections as possible and walked a lot. I need walking and running so why not today.
...tbc!
III) In the evening I went on Jiu Jitsu training. We practised techniques for exams, which was great. We did lot of techniques which I wasnt doing for years and I had "hard" uke so it was quite challenging. But I felt I learned a LOT again, which felt really good. Challenging, difficult training.
Today I had so much fresh energy most of the day, it felt very refreshing after last 2 weeks where I felt out of energy a lot. I think its because I work with my sexual energy more and using it more instead of wasting it. I HOPE its not because I ate lot of sweets in last 2 days. I also wish I dont start sweet streak again and stop it today. I made v.strong wish in the evening to stop eating sweets again from NOW. Good day, I did lot of things I needed and wanted to do. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: pushups: 2nd day = 17x, Headstand: 10:00 (7:00 static 3:00 acrobatic), record and reached milestone I wanted, 10 minutes. I dont know if I will try longer in the frame of morning exercises, but I must say at this length Im starting to feel like reaching into places where its not so common to be. Like entering new temple where you dont know the rules and customs :)
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, almost made 5-2 fully. I was quite stiff at start, especially arms need a lot of love lately. Great warm up as ever. Enjoyed it.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, made 36 reps. Dont know why I was so slow, but I was on maximum I could, even now, after several hours I dont feel like not doing my best. Maybe Im so enjoying feeling my body so good during exercise, that I loose time in that.. .:D I dont know. It felt good.
After that 5 minutes of squats. I felt v.strong to do it today. I made 50 normal squats and 35 half squats, which is best I ever made in 5 minutes. I also felt muscles most I ever felt. It was great.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, mixed techniques. Mainly practising to the failure, made 102 situps 2+1+1 today, which is also new record. I made it v.rich, minimum breaks and lot of reps. Felt great too.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. I was v.stiff after previous and it took me almost whole 15 minutes to shake it off. Did not enjoyed it so much, but it sure felt good to do.
II) Then I went on walk, tried new place for bouldering, but it was closed at that time. However it seems as viable option for bouldering. Want to try it out other day. Instead I took as less connections as possible and walked a lot. I need walking and running so why not today.
...tbc!
III) In the evening I went on Jiu Jitsu training. We practised techniques for exams, which was great. We did lot of techniques which I wasnt doing for years and I had "hard" uke so it was quite challenging. But I felt I learned a LOT again, which felt really good. Challenging, difficult training.
Today I had so much fresh energy most of the day, it felt very refreshing after last 2 weeks where I felt out of energy a lot. I think its because I work with my sexual energy more and using it more instead of wasting it. I HOPE its not because I ate lot of sweets in last 2 days. I also wish I dont start sweet streak again and stop it today. I made v.strong wish in the evening to stop eating sweets again from NOW. Good day, I did lot of things I needed and wanted to do. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 2. března 2014
2.3.2014 - resting
?? Weight. Today I have full resting day so not much to write. I just did 1st pushups day of a new cycle = 17x and afternoon I went for about 1hr long walk. It was so beautiful weather, I just felt I need this fresh air. It was great.
I was also working on my webpage and wrote some new articles for webpage as well. Nice resting day, preparing for another full week! Ohm mani padme hum.
I was also working on my webpage and wrote some new articles for webpage as well. Nice resting day, preparing for another full week! Ohm mani padme hum.
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