? W. Tonight I slept not good, took me long time to fell asleep. We are going through very heavy period with my wife and yesterday evening it went even heavier. But in the morning I did morning exercise anyway.
Notes: 18x pushups, 3:00 headstand.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, holds 5-3 seconds. Not much to add, good warm and stretch up as usually. I continued then with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. I was very careful on my back and did most of youtube set. Wasnt so rich, but I dont feel ready to challenge full haul before I feel my back healed enough.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today it was more fun and I enjoyed it.
II) I had again 3 clients today. Somehow it happened, that 1 client is waiting for giving birth any day, second is father from recently born kid and third client recently suffered failed pregnancy. But its just curiosity. It was harder today, I felt that number of clients and situation with my beloved also did not helped to keep my system very strong. But I have no doubt I did 100% for clients, its just that if I would have same tomorrow, it would be very challenging. Its great to have so much clients, Im very happy about it, because I feel how its helping me to develop more in my work.
Rest of the day I did not much, because I needed to rest. Also, 2 clients mentioned Demolition Man movie for some reason so I watched it today and its interesting movie - funny, innovative, good actors, interesting ideas. What was most important for me was moral dilemma between chaos and order and finding the middle way where most people can live as they want. Also was interesting this thing how is life creating extremes in moment where majority is too skin-deep. Interesting in context of today world.
Strong day today, both because of work and personal life. Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 12. srpna 2014
11.8.2014 - Shiatsu day, yay!
? W. Tonigth I slept well, not even mosquitoes woken me up, was great. And in the morning up for morning exercise.
Notes: 16x pushup, 2:00 headstand.
I) I did today shorter version of morning exercise, first I did not wanted to exhaust myself before such full day and second, I dont feel my back 100% healthy yet.
Started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first 2x 5sec holds and then dynamic, precise repetitions till the end. Great stretch up and warm up in the state I am in.
Then I made 10 minutes of combined exercises, 20x Burpees, running with stretches, stretches, squats etc. Was nicely rich and felt complete. Think I will develop some new way of doing morning exercise with these elements somehow combined.
Last I was dancing for about 10 minutes. Felt OK, did not had troubles and my fear from new injury is slowly fading. But I dont want to overreact and be too fast in getting back so taking it easy. Still feeling my lower back fragile.
II) I had full day of clients today. I was v.happy about it, because I was longing to work again more and I enjoyed working today very very much. All 3 treatments felt very effective and seemed it did a lot of service for clients, which was great. In the morning I made conscious wish to be more present during treatment and try to give more love into my hands and intention of work. It seems working very well for clients and this stuff is always both ways. I felt very good after last client left, even physically tired, I felt very grateful and happy about my work.
In the evening I did nothing more, was just resting and relaxing, its very strong and intense thing to have 3 clients in one day. But its always very rich and giving. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 16x pushup, 2:00 headstand.
I) I did today shorter version of morning exercise, first I did not wanted to exhaust myself before such full day and second, I dont feel my back 100% healthy yet.
Started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, first 2x 5sec holds and then dynamic, precise repetitions till the end. Great stretch up and warm up in the state I am in.
Then I made 10 minutes of combined exercises, 20x Burpees, running with stretches, stretches, squats etc. Was nicely rich and felt complete. Think I will develop some new way of doing morning exercise with these elements somehow combined.
Last I was dancing for about 10 minutes. Felt OK, did not had troubles and my fear from new injury is slowly fading. But I dont want to overreact and be too fast in getting back so taking it easy. Still feeling my lower back fragile.
II) I had full day of clients today. I was v.happy about it, because I was longing to work again more and I enjoyed working today very very much. All 3 treatments felt very effective and seemed it did a lot of service for clients, which was great. In the morning I made conscious wish to be more present during treatment and try to give more love into my hands and intention of work. It seems working very well for clients and this stuff is always both ways. I felt very good after last client left, even physically tired, I felt very grateful and happy about my work.
In the evening I did nothing more, was just resting and relaxing, its very strong and intense thing to have 3 clients in one day. But its always very rich and giving. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 10. srpna 2014
10.8.2014 - day for myself
? W. Tonight I did not slept somehow well, but it was alright, lots of mosquitoes, but Im learning to just accept they suck my blood and I think Im making progress in it. All bites disappear rather fast. Anyway, in the morning I did almost full morning exercise.
Notes: 14x pushups, 1:00 headstand - just to test.
I) I dont want to overdo it, so I start slowly. I still felt my back and I also felt that big warning signal to not overdo it. I was very careful and mindful. Started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. Did 4x 5sec hold and 1 or 2 dynamic reps. It was very slow and, as I already said, mindful, so it wasnt somehow super warm-up, but sure good stretch.
I did then 10 minutes of mixed exercise, some stretches and ABS exercises. I felt again my back and that my injury is still v.fragile.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, again carefully observing where I can go and where not and trying to give a lot to it. Cant say I enjoyed it as much as I normally do, but it was fine.
Rest of the day I was watching movies, resting, cleaning, shopping, sorting stuff, washing clothes, simply everyday stuff I needed to do after holiday. I cant get out of head wish to play badminton with somebody. Already making steps to get a sparing partner. I feel this kind of moving could help me a lot. I feel so slow in last weeks, even when Im running. I also spilled my guts into long letter to my beloved, I miss feeling connection with her so I put all my troubles and thoughts and feelings into long letter and I hope we can reconstruct contact between us again.
II) Afternoon I made finally something I want to do for years and repeated bit of Shiatsu theory, it was hard, but I believe if I try to make it habit, it could help me a lot. I also looked for some deutsch courses and make test where I made 18/80, thought I will make more, but I know now I have to try beginner group.
III) In the evening I was dancing for about an hour, it was exhausting, I got lazy on the holiday :) I ended dancing with 10 minutes of meditating and visualizating my goals. I realized, that its not easy to allow myself to not care about anything and visualize what I would like no matter how stupid it may seem.
In the end full day and I must say I feel so much grateful that I could have one day just for myself. It dosnt happen for long time (well, just week ago, but I was in crazy pain from injured back) and Im so much grateful for it! Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 14x pushups, 1:00 headstand - just to test.
I) I dont want to overdo it, so I start slowly. I still felt my back and I also felt that big warning signal to not overdo it. I was very careful and mindful. Started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. Did 4x 5sec hold and 1 or 2 dynamic reps. It was very slow and, as I already said, mindful, so it wasnt somehow super warm-up, but sure good stretch.
I did then 10 minutes of mixed exercise, some stretches and ABS exercises. I felt again my back and that my injury is still v.fragile.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, again carefully observing where I can go and where not and trying to give a lot to it. Cant say I enjoyed it as much as I normally do, but it was fine.
Rest of the day I was watching movies, resting, cleaning, shopping, sorting stuff, washing clothes, simply everyday stuff I needed to do after holiday. I cant get out of head wish to play badminton with somebody. Already making steps to get a sparing partner. I feel this kind of moving could help me a lot. I feel so slow in last weeks, even when Im running. I also spilled my guts into long letter to my beloved, I miss feeling connection with her so I put all my troubles and thoughts and feelings into long letter and I hope we can reconstruct contact between us again.
II) Afternoon I made finally something I want to do for years and repeated bit of Shiatsu theory, it was hard, but I believe if I try to make it habit, it could help me a lot. I also looked for some deutsch courses and make test where I made 18/80, thought I will make more, but I know now I have to try beginner group.
III) In the evening I was dancing for about an hour, it was exhausting, I got lazy on the holiday :) I ended dancing with 10 minutes of meditating and visualizating my goals. I realized, that its not easy to allow myself to not care about anything and visualize what I would like no matter how stupid it may seem.
In the end full day and I must say I feel so much grateful that I could have one day just for myself. It dosnt happen for long time (well, just week ago, but I was in crazy pain from injured back) and Im so much grateful for it! Ohm mani padme hum.
9.8.2014 - leaving back home
? W. Tonight was hard night. Me and my beloved are in very heavy mood with each other. But I went anyway in the morning to do at least bit morning exercise.
I) Nothing major at all, just did 4 reps of Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds, I think 12 pushups, some stretches. It was mainly about doing at least something.
For the rest of morning we just packed rest of stuff, said goodbyes to folks and my beloved took me to the bus and we bid goodbye to each other.
Travel home was eventless, but to me surprise, lasted fast even it was almost 3 hours straight. I think I had so much in my mind that this thinking devoured all time.
Rest of the day I spend just resting, sorting bit of stuff and so on. I was totally exhausted, mainly emotionally.
Was hard day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Nothing major at all, just did 4 reps of Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds, I think 12 pushups, some stretches. It was mainly about doing at least something.
For the rest of morning we just packed rest of stuff, said goodbyes to folks and my beloved took me to the bus and we bid goodbye to each other.
Travel home was eventless, but to me surprise, lasted fast even it was almost 3 hours straight. I think I had so much in my mind that this thinking devoured all time.
Rest of the day I spend just resting, sorting bit of stuff and so on. I was totally exhausted, mainly emotionally.
Was hard day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 2. srpna 2014
2.8.2014 - begining of holiday
? W. Today I slept very hard, because of inability to turn as I need. My legs were hurting like hell from being in same position and in the morning I did not really felt rested and my back pained almost the same. But in fact, it is better, its just all muscles which I used yesterday to function are suffering muscle fever and are swollen. Its different feeling then when its from injury.
Later in the morning I took good rest and when I got up I could even stand straight for a while. Its just muscle sin back and all supportive system is very exhausted so I cant be up for long. I feel I just need to give my body good rest to relax and recuperate.
...tbc!
Later in the morning I took good rest and when I got up I could even stand straight for a while. Its just muscle sin back and all supportive system is very exhausted so I cant be up for long. I feel I just need to give my body good rest to relax and recuperate.
...tbc!
pátek 1. srpna 2014
1.8.2014 - breaking up again
? W. Tonight I slept well and long. I could afford sleeping out today and do morning exercise so I used this opportunity. And so in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Well, it did not worked out quite like expected. First I did Sun Salutations for 10 minutes 5-3+1x2 holds in positions and it was good warm up as I felt it.
Then I wanted to do pyramid from 12 and did 12x and pushups and situps 11x and at squats my back moved wrong and that was over for the day. Its far not as bad as in november last year (last time I had problems with my back), but its still very cripling thing and v.painful if I move wrong. Im working on healing this since then. Stretching, energy work, Shiatsu. I believe in 3 days I would be fit again totally, but I have to go tomorrow for a holiday and I cant carry backpack like this! Well, Im focusing on healing now and lets see.
What Im fuzzed about is, that Im once again crippled and hold back by my own system, which works against me for some reason, I wish to find out why. I wasnt exercising so vigorously, but my healing touch started to work again. Why Im so frightened by escaping this smallness of my life?! Or why I cant bring this breaks which holds me back into consciousness, Im sure I could handle it. I feel its main thing I have to work on right now.
Well, whole day lasted very fast, alternating resting and being at computer, watching movies. I could not do anything else. Tried to go walking a bit, but could not walk down the stairs, but when I tried again in the evening and then I could go even to the shop. I felt very embarrassed, because I was totally vulnerable in my state, anyone could come and do me anything and I could not do more then shout out from pain. And I also looked like cripple which was hard for my pride. Good exercise....
Well, I hope you guys had better day then I did today, but sure worth day. I got again lot of support from my beloved and we also talked about why it happen and it seems its somehow connected to my connection to her and my friend and our boundaries in open relationship. I dont know where is the truth, but its interesting to observe how pain in back changes as Im going through different thematics. Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Well, it did not worked out quite like expected. First I did Sun Salutations for 10 minutes 5-3+1x2 holds in positions and it was good warm up as I felt it.
Then I wanted to do pyramid from 12 and did 12x and pushups and situps 11x and at squats my back moved wrong and that was over for the day. Its far not as bad as in november last year (last time I had problems with my back), but its still very cripling thing and v.painful if I move wrong. Im working on healing this since then. Stretching, energy work, Shiatsu. I believe in 3 days I would be fit again totally, but I have to go tomorrow for a holiday and I cant carry backpack like this! Well, Im focusing on healing now and lets see.
What Im fuzzed about is, that Im once again crippled and hold back by my own system, which works against me for some reason, I wish to find out why. I wasnt exercising so vigorously, but my healing touch started to work again. Why Im so frightened by escaping this smallness of my life?! Or why I cant bring this breaks which holds me back into consciousness, Im sure I could handle it. I feel its main thing I have to work on right now.
Well, whole day lasted very fast, alternating resting and being at computer, watching movies. I could not do anything else. Tried to go walking a bit, but could not walk down the stairs, but when I tried again in the evening and then I could go even to the shop. I felt very embarrassed, because I was totally vulnerable in my state, anyone could come and do me anything and I could not do more then shout out from pain. And I also looked like cripple which was hard for my pride. Good exercise....
Well, I hope you guys had better day then I did today, but sure worth day. I got again lot of support from my beloved and we also talked about why it happen and it seems its somehow connected to my connection to her and my friend and our boundaries in open relationship. I dont know where is the truth, but its interesting to observe how pain in back changes as Im going through different thematics. Ohm mani padme hum.
31.7.2014 - dancing around
? W. I slept well tonight, very deep, but I needed much more then usually. Could not get up at 5, got up at 6:10. I was too numb. But I was so proud on myself to not give up and go for at least some morning exercise.
I) I went for 30 minutes run today. I was happy to even muster to go. But I felt I have to or inner regrets would be too strong. I felt I have to, that its something I have to do right now. I chose new route and went in easy, more jogging-like mood. Anyway it was rich. I used that time to start the blood running in my veins, to start the day, shake off un-easy stuff, to prove myself I have more energy then I think, that I can break this barrier in my head that after day like yesterday I need full rest.
II) Later in the morning I had a client, rather standard treatment, maintenance we all need. I felt myself very tired and I wasnt happy about it. Im sure I did 100% for a client, but it took lot from myself. Im trying to be very careful with balance in my own system to be able to serve clients best and I feel I did not found the right way in this case, but thats only way how to make it better next time - to make mistakes.
III) In the afternoon I had another client, good treatment, working intensively with this client on his topic. Its always also good talk, its gift to be able to talk with clients on topics which are very sensitive and on the edge of social acceptance (or beyond on that matter). Like this client a lot :)
IV) In the evening I had taste to move some more so I went dancing. I was dancing for 1h:10m and I had great fun. Even I have about 10kg more then last time I did this, I enjoyed it much more, had much less physical struggles doing it and much more fun! I even danced all I could for a whole time, but mainly had fun. It charged me a lot.
Good day today, bi lazy, but what the heck, its (hopefully) not last day of my life :) Cheers! Ohm mani padme hum.
I) I went for 30 minutes run today. I was happy to even muster to go. But I felt I have to or inner regrets would be too strong. I felt I have to, that its something I have to do right now. I chose new route and went in easy, more jogging-like mood. Anyway it was rich. I used that time to start the blood running in my veins, to start the day, shake off un-easy stuff, to prove myself I have more energy then I think, that I can break this barrier in my head that after day like yesterday I need full rest.
II) Later in the morning I had a client, rather standard treatment, maintenance we all need. I felt myself very tired and I wasnt happy about it. Im sure I did 100% for a client, but it took lot from myself. Im trying to be very careful with balance in my own system to be able to serve clients best and I feel I did not found the right way in this case, but thats only way how to make it better next time - to make mistakes.
III) In the afternoon I had another client, good treatment, working intensively with this client on his topic. Its always also good talk, its gift to be able to talk with clients on topics which are very sensitive and on the edge of social acceptance (or beyond on that matter). Like this client a lot :)
IV) In the evening I had taste to move some more so I went dancing. I was dancing for 1h:10m and I had great fun. Even I have about 10kg more then last time I did this, I enjoyed it much more, had much less physical struggles doing it and much more fun! I even danced all I could for a whole time, but mainly had fun. It charged me a lot.
Good day today, bi lazy, but what the heck, its (hopefully) not last day of my life :) Cheers! Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 31. července 2014
30.7.2014 - summer in the city
? W. I slept rather well tonight, woke up alright and hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 33x pushups (18+10+5), 3:20 headstand.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed for 10 minutes, did 47 today, not bad at all. Felt good. My knees are not so fine with it tho, Im not sure where is problem, trying to figure this out. Very intense and effective warm up, uff.
I continued then with 10 minutes of alternation of 10xBurpees, 30xMountain climbers and 20xSquats. Made 3 rounds with few seconds overlap. I knew it will not be record today, I must say I felt proud on those 3 rounds, after SS on speed its quite a challenge to do this exercise, sweat was literary streaming from me and it felt good. Its more then 2 weeks since my last casual cigarette and my lungs feels good.
3rd thing I did ABS and core practice for 10 minutes. Today I did situps to failure, I did something around 100. What was great was that I found 2 false barriers today, first was feeling I cant do any more reps, that I broke through, this barrier I know, second was dizziness, I broke through this one today as well. When I got to the point where I really could not do anything anymore, I did not felt dizzy or pain, I just could not continue anymore. Im curious if I also find out that this point is just illusion like those 2 before. Life is so exiting! It was rich btw, very. I did also some more exercises, but not much, first part took lot of time.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I was bit stiff from previous, but nothing major. Enjoyed dancing a lot, I got more chillout songs today, but I guess universe know what I need better then me so it was fine.
II) I went for a trip to my friend. I met her and her son in capital. It was very intense meeting, lot sof walking, running in a rain or on bus, eating, hugging, kissing, cuddling up (like in cinema, or a passage, or anywhere we were going through). Afternoon and evening full of love and fun. Im so grateful for my friends. I went home again in the evening, spend 6 hours on a travel again today. Am I becoming traveloholic?
Very strong day today, starting with morning exercise and ending when going sleep. My heart is so open for my beloved wife and this friend I met today... Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 33x pushups (18+10+5), 3:20 headstand.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations on speed for 10 minutes, did 47 today, not bad at all. Felt good. My knees are not so fine with it tho, Im not sure where is problem, trying to figure this out. Very intense and effective warm up, uff.
I continued then with 10 minutes of alternation of 10xBurpees, 30xMountain climbers and 20xSquats. Made 3 rounds with few seconds overlap. I knew it will not be record today, I must say I felt proud on those 3 rounds, after SS on speed its quite a challenge to do this exercise, sweat was literary streaming from me and it felt good. Its more then 2 weeks since my last casual cigarette and my lungs feels good.
3rd thing I did ABS and core practice for 10 minutes. Today I did situps to failure, I did something around 100. What was great was that I found 2 false barriers today, first was feeling I cant do any more reps, that I broke through, this barrier I know, second was dizziness, I broke through this one today as well. When I got to the point where I really could not do anything anymore, I did not felt dizzy or pain, I just could not continue anymore. Im curious if I also find out that this point is just illusion like those 2 before. Life is so exiting! It was rich btw, very. I did also some more exercises, but not much, first part took lot of time.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I was bit stiff from previous, but nothing major. Enjoyed dancing a lot, I got more chillout songs today, but I guess universe know what I need better then me so it was fine.
II) I went for a trip to my friend. I met her and her son in capital. It was very intense meeting, lot sof walking, running in a rain or on bus, eating, hugging, kissing, cuddling up (like in cinema, or a passage, or anywhere we were going through). Afternoon and evening full of love and fun. Im so grateful for my friends. I went home again in the evening, spend 6 hours on a travel again today. Am I becoming traveloholic?
Very strong day today, starting with morning exercise and ending when going sleep. My heart is so open for my beloved wife and this friend I met today... Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 28. července 2014
29.7.2014 - chilling out, actively
? W. Tonight I slept v.bad. I though Im not sleeping at all, because of how often I was waking up... but in the morning I was ok to start morning exercises.
Notes: 33x pushups (25+8), 3:00 headstand (working on on corrected position better and better).
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations 4x 5s hold and 4x dynamic reps, went v.nice and smooth, made me happy. Intense warm and stretch up.
Then 10 minutes of Burpees, I wanted to make 60 and made 63 while alarm rung during 64th rep. It was v.rich, I was sweating like crazy, but to my delight, my body could follow quite nice even through breathing and ABS struggles.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Alternating of 40 situps and v-sit (made 60 and 90 seconds) alarm rung on 3rd situp block. I was very stubborn today on myself, I left no space for quitting early or changing exercise, I wanted to go through pain and such. Im working on reprogramming my progression blocks and I feel one way is very conscious denial of those blocks with huge attention of safety while doing so. So I push very hard through pain and struggle, but not through warning signals. Trick is to not mistake warning signals from signals which cause weakness which leads to injury. Its very fine inner work. Im curious myself how it will continue, there are no articles about this, or I did not found any. What I want to give to my readers is everything what can help you to overcome your own struggle and to let you know, that you are not alone in it. Its OK to fail and get up again. 7times fell, 8 times got up his feet.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. Today it was really great, I was very in watery-like mood and could enjoy dancing a lot. Especially last song Micropoint - Triceratops, where I went crazy and danced my soul very much. brought back my idea to make dances on all sort of crazy songs to show, that dancing has no limits :)
...tbc!
II) Afternoon I had a client. Very nice treatment, cant write details, but I believe it was v.helpful for a client and that feels very nice.
III) In the evening I went for about half of our outside, just short walk to local Calisthenics park and back. I would like to make habit of this, but its for me not easy to do this in the evening. I feel it would be great tho. Lets see how it will develop if it will.
Good day today, I was a bit off and resting and chilling out, I needed it a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 33x pushups (25+8), 3:00 headstand (working on on corrected position better and better).
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations 4x 5s hold and 4x dynamic reps, went v.nice and smooth, made me happy. Intense warm and stretch up.
Then 10 minutes of Burpees, I wanted to make 60 and made 63 while alarm rung during 64th rep. It was v.rich, I was sweating like crazy, but to my delight, my body could follow quite nice even through breathing and ABS struggles.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Alternating of 40 situps and v-sit (made 60 and 90 seconds) alarm rung on 3rd situp block. I was very stubborn today on myself, I left no space for quitting early or changing exercise, I wanted to go through pain and such. Im working on reprogramming my progression blocks and I feel one way is very conscious denial of those blocks with huge attention of safety while doing so. So I push very hard through pain and struggle, but not through warning signals. Trick is to not mistake warning signals from signals which cause weakness which leads to injury. Its very fine inner work. Im curious myself how it will continue, there are no articles about this, or I did not found any. What I want to give to my readers is everything what can help you to overcome your own struggle and to let you know, that you are not alone in it. Its OK to fail and get up again. 7times fell, 8 times got up his feet.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. Today it was really great, I was very in watery-like mood and could enjoy dancing a lot. Especially last song Micropoint - Triceratops, where I went crazy and danced my soul very much. brought back my idea to make dances on all sort of crazy songs to show, that dancing has no limits :)
...tbc!
II) Afternoon I had a client. Very nice treatment, cant write details, but I believe it was v.helpful for a client and that feels very nice.
III) In the evening I went for about half of our outside, just short walk to local Calisthenics park and back. I would like to make habit of this, but its for me not easy to do this in the evening. I feel it would be great tho. Lets see how it will develop if it will.
Good day today, I was a bit off and resting and chilling out, I needed it a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.
28.7.2014 - Petterns in the way of love
? W. Tonight I slept bit better but it wasnt easy to wake up in the morning anyway. But I did and hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 32x pushups (3 parts), 2:30 headstand. Again continuing work on new position, Im more sure about it after today.
I) Today I went running. During run my cell phone discharged so I dont know how long exactly I run, it was something around 50 minutes. Mainly flat path. These flat runs are for me extremely challenging, Im always totally flushed, lungs and limbs numb and exhausted and I feel morning run whole day. Im curious if it change one day and I will not feel so kicked-into-head for rest of the day. It was very rich, nuf said. Im trying to run on the edge, no dropping into routine. Challenging myself on each run to run faster.
II) Afternoon I went to my hometown again. Normal, nice eventless travel.
Today was v.heavy day for me and my beloved. As I felt it, we both picked deep in our respective wounds and could not overcome these strong inner pains and not attack each other from this point. Even my mind knows that this is exactly point where is chance to change major things in life by doing things differently and not attack but be in heart, but its so damn hard. These patterns I encountered are very at my very core, something what allowed me to survive in my childhood and its very difficult to change them. But on other side in last days Im happy to see these links to these deep-core patterns and I wish to find guts, swallow false pride and at least attempt to do things differently while encountering these.
Heavy, but rich day today. One has to be grateful for hard lessons like today. I wish to take all I can from it and not repeat it exactly same next time. I will never forget what Einstein said about this - Repeating same and expecting different result is madness. This kind of madness I dont want in my life, I decided for it. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (3 parts), 2:30 headstand. Again continuing work on new position, Im more sure about it after today.
I) Today I went running. During run my cell phone discharged so I dont know how long exactly I run, it was something around 50 minutes. Mainly flat path. These flat runs are for me extremely challenging, Im always totally flushed, lungs and limbs numb and exhausted and I feel morning run whole day. Im curious if it change one day and I will not feel so kicked-into-head for rest of the day. It was very rich, nuf said. Im trying to run on the edge, no dropping into routine. Challenging myself on each run to run faster.
II) Afternoon I went to my hometown again. Normal, nice eventless travel.
Today was v.heavy day for me and my beloved. As I felt it, we both picked deep in our respective wounds and could not overcome these strong inner pains and not attack each other from this point. Even my mind knows that this is exactly point where is chance to change major things in life by doing things differently and not attack but be in heart, but its so damn hard. These patterns I encountered are very at my very core, something what allowed me to survive in my childhood and its very difficult to change them. But on other side in last days Im happy to see these links to these deep-core patterns and I wish to find guts, swallow false pride and at least attempt to do things differently while encountering these.
Heavy, but rich day today. One has to be grateful for hard lessons like today. I wish to take all I can from it and not repeat it exactly same next time. I will never forget what Einstein said about this - Repeating same and expecting different result is madness. This kind of madness I dont want in my life, I decided for it. Ohm mani padme hum.
27.7.2014 - Challenging trip
? W. Tonight I slept good. This waking up at 5 a.m. is still not natural for me, but I really wish that it is. I feel it gives me lot of time and space in the day to get up early. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
Notes: 32x pushups, 2:10 headstand. Today headstand was possibly most intensive I ever did, I felt energies flowing so strong as never. It was so intense, that I had to stop so early and breath it out. I feel main cause my realization, that position of my head wasnt right and its correction. I have to learn headstand once again because of that, because its major change in position, but to correct position so its great!
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds. It went good, smooth changes, great warm up and stretch up.
Then traditional "first day" Burpee set, today I did something over 30 reps, I forgot how much exactly, something between 32 and 38. I felt it good, more then last time at this point.
I continued with ABS and core practices, did alternated youtube set, did 18 reps of last bit in 4th round. I know it wont tell you anything, its more note for me. If I find moral one day I will make video of this set how I do it. It was nicely rich and I liked how I did it.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. If you recognized, Im dancing 5 minutes longer then in past. This running for 1 hour made me to push time of power exercises as well, I mean, from feeling in guts I feel I want to do power exercises longer, already dancing longer and want to do 5 minutes power exercises as well.
II) Later in the morning us as family went on a trip to nearby castle ruins. What was special was that my beloved dared to do this trip, despite her health conditions she made it, its quite a steep hill with difficult terrain even for healthy person. I was v.proud of her, I mean, I admired her will to not be held back by her condition once again. For me it was also quite a trip, its peak of summer and Im overheating just being outside, not to mention that hill. And Im training every day, but seeing my beloved managing this dont leave any space to feel compassion to my own difficulties. Shes great inspiration.
Else we spend nice day together, making sweet love from time to time, having fun together and living our lives as we can. Beautiful day, ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups, 2:10 headstand. Today headstand was possibly most intensive I ever did, I felt energies flowing so strong as never. It was so intense, that I had to stop so early and breath it out. I feel main cause my realization, that position of my head wasnt right and its correction. I have to learn headstand once again because of that, because its major change in position, but to correct position so its great!
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-2 seconds. It went good, smooth changes, great warm up and stretch up.
Then traditional "first day" Burpee set, today I did something over 30 reps, I forgot how much exactly, something between 32 and 38. I felt it good, more then last time at this point.
I continued with ABS and core practices, did alternated youtube set, did 18 reps of last bit in 4th round. I know it wont tell you anything, its more note for me. If I find moral one day I will make video of this set how I do it. It was nicely rich and I liked how I did it.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. If you recognized, Im dancing 5 minutes longer then in past. This running for 1 hour made me to push time of power exercises as well, I mean, from feeling in guts I feel I want to do power exercises longer, already dancing longer and want to do 5 minutes power exercises as well.
II) Later in the morning us as family went on a trip to nearby castle ruins. What was special was that my beloved dared to do this trip, despite her health conditions she made it, its quite a steep hill with difficult terrain even for healthy person. I was v.proud of her, I mean, I admired her will to not be held back by her condition once again. For me it was also quite a trip, its peak of summer and Im overheating just being outside, not to mention that hill. And Im training every day, but seeing my beloved managing this dont leave any space to feel compassion to my own difficulties. Shes great inspiration.
Else we spend nice day together, making sweet love from time to time, having fun together and living our lives as we can. Beautiful day, ohm mani padme hum.
26.7.2014 - rawr :)
? W. Today I slept well. I take rest today. Its been ages since I slept out and I really felt like I
need it today. Whole day went in easy mood, filled with good, quality sex, contact with my beloved, meals and rest.
I) In the morning I also had a client. It was very nice treatment, because this client is working a lot with herself and her system is very active. I felt meridians even only when I put finger or hand on body to support working hand or finger. Fascinating. I also felt I could do a lot for a client in these circumstances.
Else its not much to write, simply very nice, juicy day, wish same or better days to you all. Ohm mani padme hum.
need it today. Whole day went in easy mood, filled with good, quality sex, contact with my beloved, meals and rest.
I) In the morning I also had a client. It was very nice treatment, because this client is working a lot with herself and her system is very active. I felt meridians even only when I put finger or hand on body to support working hand or finger. Fascinating. I also felt I could do a lot for a client in these circumstances.
Else its not much to write, simply very nice, juicy day, wish same or better days to you all. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 26. července 2014
25.7.2014 - Austrian social life is rich
? W. Today I slept good, but not enough, on other side, I want to work on not sleeping that much so it was also fine. And up for morning exercises.
Notes: 32x pushups (32+10), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, to my big joy also with my beloved, she on bike and me running. We went on nice track between villages and it was really great for me. It was much easier for me to run faster and technical as well. I enjoyed it a lot. To my surprise I realized, that I learned to speak a bit while running as well, I mean, to speak shortly without loosing tempo and breath. I must say I did not enjyoed running for some time so much like today with my beloved.
II) Else I was just biking around town a bit with my beloved and we had couple of times very nice sex during the day. I love the way my beloved works on herself, no bullshit, just hard, conscious work.
In the evening we visited local wine celebration event. What was fascinating for me on this event was how huge this event was, hundreds of people even its just local thing. I must say Im fascinated with quality of social life in this area my beloved live in. I know its also about my beloved because she is very social person, but anyway, I feel social life here rich and healthy and it feels very good for me, not such "capitalism individualism" like in the area Im living.
Again nice day today, I felt v.exhausted most of the day, but fortunately I could take rest when I needed and be with my beloved as well in nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (32+10), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, to my big joy also with my beloved, she on bike and me running. We went on nice track between villages and it was really great for me. It was much easier for me to run faster and technical as well. I enjoyed it a lot. To my surprise I realized, that I learned to speak a bit while running as well, I mean, to speak shortly without loosing tempo and breath. I must say I did not enjyoed running for some time so much like today with my beloved.
II) Else I was just biking around town a bit with my beloved and we had couple of times very nice sex during the day. I love the way my beloved works on herself, no bullshit, just hard, conscious work.
In the evening we visited local wine celebration event. What was fascinating for me on this event was how huge this event was, hundreds of people even its just local thing. I must say Im fascinated with quality of social life in this area my beloved live in. I know its also about my beloved because she is very social person, but anyway, I feel social life here rich and healthy and it feels very good for me, not such "capitalism individualism" like in the area Im living.
Again nice day today, I felt v.exhausted most of the day, but fortunately I could take rest when I needed and be with my beloved as well in nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum.
24.7.2014 - full day
? W. Tonight islept poorly because of tons of mosquitos and need of opened doors, was v.annoying and I felt great discomfort.
Notes: 32x pushups (22+10), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I did 48 or something. I felt I could do more, I felt lot of space for more reps, just explosive power missing. Anyway, rich warm up!
I continued then with 10 minutes of Burpees. I wanted to do at least 2x27 = 54, and alarm rung after 58th rep, so it was good. I felt like Im missing exactly this kind of exercise atm - difficult exercise performed for longer time. I believe doing this could help me to gain more explosive power.
Then I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. I remember I felt happy about it, I could do v-sit for 60 and 90 second without break and also could overcome moments of struggle more easily. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Dont remember anymore how it went, I will just add, that I feel I want to dance more. Already dancing 5 minutes more on sets then in past and have wish to find power to dance in the evenings more often.
II) Later in the morning I had a client. Nice treatment, because intention wasnt work but relax, client was working a lot in last days so it was more needed to just receive care and relax. Nice treatment.
III) Afternoon other client. Very different, worth mention is one thing. This client used to come once a month and now is coming more often and its nice to feel how his system and body react much faster and stronger. Im happy, because I believe this more intense treatment regime could give a lot to this client and allow him to do things he cant because of his physical state.
IV) Later I travelled to my beloved, nice, eventless travel and despite a bit heavy atmosphere between me and my beloved, we welcomed each other in very lovely and sweet way. It helped me a lot to open my heart and deal with things between us.
Nice day today, rich and potent. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (22+10), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I did 48 or something. I felt I could do more, I felt lot of space for more reps, just explosive power missing. Anyway, rich warm up!
I continued then with 10 minutes of Burpees. I wanted to do at least 2x27 = 54, and alarm rung after 58th rep, so it was good. I felt like Im missing exactly this kind of exercise atm - difficult exercise performed for longer time. I believe doing this could help me to gain more explosive power.
Then I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. I remember I felt happy about it, I could do v-sit for 60 and 90 second without break and also could overcome moments of struggle more easily. It was rich.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Dont remember anymore how it went, I will just add, that I feel I want to dance more. Already dancing 5 minutes more on sets then in past and have wish to find power to dance in the evenings more often.
II) Later in the morning I had a client. Nice treatment, because intention wasnt work but relax, client was working a lot in last days so it was more needed to just receive care and relax. Nice treatment.
III) Afternoon other client. Very different, worth mention is one thing. This client used to come once a month and now is coming more often and its nice to feel how his system and body react much faster and stronger. Im happy, because I believe this more intense treatment regime could give a lot to this client and allow him to do things he cant because of his physical state.
IV) Later I travelled to my beloved, nice, eventless travel and despite a bit heavy atmosphere between me and my beloved, we welcomed each other in very lovely and sweet way. It helped me a lot to open my heart and deal with things between us.
Nice day today, rich and potent. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 24. července 2014
23.7.2014 - finishing GoT
?W. I slept well tonight, no dreaming, its been ages I had a dream last time. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 32x pushups (combination), 3:20 (+-10sec) headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-3 seconds. I was slow and it was v.hard to exercise at all, I fought great resistance and I was happy I did not quit. Good warm up non the less.
Then I did 10 minutes ABS and core practices, whole morning exercise I felt lot in resistance and weak. I felt Im more fighting with my inner protestors then muscles and energy. Tough inner fight. Im trying to reprogram my DNA and remove breaks which hold me back. Today I realized v.important thing - that Im suffering injury not at the moment Im pushing too hard, but in the moment I encounter this hard-coded break point. I KNOW its not my border where I can grow and push, I KNOW I can reprogram and remove this break to be able to progress without encountering false warnings and hold-ups. I know I have much MUCH more potential then I have at the point when Im stopped by injury which comes from unconscious programs. I want to do this, to get through this breaking point, remove false believes.
Last I was dancing for about 30 minutes. It was half-half, fun-work. I felt it very necessary for my body and whole system to dance.
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both interesting treatments but from different reasons. First is closer friend and really trust me. My treatments work v.well for her and its great feeling. Second one is new client where I have to first earn trust and there is also strange dynamics between us, I dont really understand it. Its like lcient is very careful to open, but at the same time wants to open. Both interesting treatments.
I also finished GoT 4th season today, its great series. I have problems at points with excessive violence there, sometimes I dont see any reason for it and it seems like its just for a show, but I want to read books and see how it is there. Also Im bit disappointed with devolving of some characters which turns from wise characters into retards or are handling situations all the sudden like kids while they were clever before. But anyway, Im curious about last season very much!
Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (combination), 3:20 (+-10sec) headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with holds 5-3 seconds. I was slow and it was v.hard to exercise at all, I fought great resistance and I was happy I did not quit. Good warm up non the less.
Then I did 10 minutes ABS and core practices, whole morning exercise I felt lot in resistance and weak. I felt Im more fighting with my inner protestors then muscles and energy. Tough inner fight. Im trying to reprogram my DNA and remove breaks which hold me back. Today I realized v.important thing - that Im suffering injury not at the moment Im pushing too hard, but in the moment I encounter this hard-coded break point. I KNOW its not my border where I can grow and push, I KNOW I can reprogram and remove this break to be able to progress without encountering false warnings and hold-ups. I know I have much MUCH more potential then I have at the point when Im stopped by injury which comes from unconscious programs. I want to do this, to get through this breaking point, remove false believes.
Last I was dancing for about 30 minutes. It was half-half, fun-work. I felt it very necessary for my body and whole system to dance.
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both interesting treatments but from different reasons. First is closer friend and really trust me. My treatments work v.well for her and its great feeling. Second one is new client where I have to first earn trust and there is also strange dynamics between us, I dont really understand it. Its like lcient is very careful to open, but at the same time wants to open. Both interesting treatments.
I also finished GoT 4th season today, its great series. I have problems at points with excessive violence there, sometimes I dont see any reason for it and it seems like its just for a show, but I want to read books and see how it is there. Also Im bit disappointed with devolving of some characters which turns from wise characters into retards or are handling situations all the sudden like kids while they were clever before. But anyway, Im curious about last season very much!
Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 22. července 2014
22.7.2014 - joy from Shiatsu
? W. I slept good tonight, it was finally raining in the night so night was a bit cold. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 5:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. Last time I went running here was like 15 years ago? Well, I run 9,1km in 56:00, 279m elevation. It was very very rich. I though towards the end that my lungs burst open, my limbs fell off and in general I will explode or something. Thats big plus on running, you cant just quit, you have to finish round in order to stop session. Challenging.
...tbc
Just realized, that this day wasnt saved by google, sweet.
I dont remember anymore what I did, I just know I had a client afternoon and when client was leaving we shake hands and in this handshake was so much gratitude, that it touched me really. Its v.shy client.
I really dont know if something interesting happened today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 5:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. Last time I went running here was like 15 years ago? Well, I run 9,1km in 56:00, 279m elevation. It was very very rich. I though towards the end that my lungs burst open, my limbs fell off and in general I will explode or something. Thats big plus on running, you cant just quit, you have to finish round in order to stop session. Challenging.
...tbc
Just realized, that this day wasnt saved by google, sweet.
I dont remember anymore what I did, I just know I had a client afternoon and when client was leaving we shake hands and in this handshake was so much gratitude, that it touched me really. Its v.shy client.
I really dont know if something interesting happened today. Ohm mani padme hum.
21.7.2014 - Game of Thrones day
? W. I slept good today, even not really long and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 32x pushups (24+8), 2:00 headstand
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds. What was interesting was that it felt like I forgot how to do this completely. I forgot positions and some details and I was remembering stuff with every consequential repetition. Felt weird, but it was great warm up non the less.
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, I felt like do 10, but to my delight I ended up with 28. Not record at all, but much more then I expected, I felt it great.
Third I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. Mainly alternated youtube set. It was rich and I felt my muscles very intensive. Good.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It felt much shorter, I had lot of fun doing this.¨
II) During the day I was doing some minor stuff to help my parents with stuff which is ATM too much for them, nothing major. I was mostly evaluating inside and watching GoT, made 7 epizodes today, felt short. Its great show indeed.
Today was nice, relaxed day with some duties, some practices and some thinking, good change to my routine as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 32x pushups (24+8), 2:00 headstand
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations with 5 sec holds. What was interesting was that it felt like I forgot how to do this completely. I forgot positions and some details and I was remembering stuff with every consequential repetition. Felt weird, but it was great warm up non the less.
Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes, I felt like do 10, but to my delight I ended up with 28. Not record at all, but much more then I expected, I felt it great.
Third I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes. Mainly alternated youtube set. It was rich and I felt my muscles very intensive. Good.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It felt much shorter, I had lot of fun doing this.¨
II) During the day I was doing some minor stuff to help my parents with stuff which is ATM too much for them, nothing major. I was mostly evaluating inside and watching GoT, made 7 epizodes today, felt short. Its great show indeed.
Today was nice, relaxed day with some duties, some practices and some thinking, good change to my routine as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
20.7.2014 - summer hell
? W. Today I took deliberately day off. No excuses. Instead I worked on record order and created great, supersecure package with 20 records. I felt proud. Im starting feeling myself practically oriented as well in creation of stuff because of these packages. I have lot of fun making them and developing better and more effective and faster ways how to make these packages. And Im creating much faster, cheaper and more secure every package.
I was also cleaning today and sorting stuff, taking rest as well, it was crazy hot day today.
I) In the evening I had a client, challenging one, because client was from Japan and I found challenging to find good way to approach this client. Also because of hot, humid weather. In the end I was totally drenched in sweat, crazy.
II) Afterwards I went travelling again. I feel like all the time on the road lately. It was fun for some months, but I feel ATM like not being at home anywhere and not knowing where I want to truly be. I feel it as just period to understand something. My guess is, that place where I live should not be my place where I live anymore and I should move somewhere else. Lets see how it develops.
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Rest of the day was quite relaxed and fine. Good day today, not so intensive, but I sure went through lot of processes with my relationships and such. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 19. července 2014
19.7.2014 - sex in the city
? W. Today had really crazy start. After like 2 or 3 hour sleep we got up at 5:30 and had to be really fast to catch the morning bus, that also included no shower and run with full backpack, morning exercise :) ?
It was last morning of this trip with my friend and I we spend it on the travel, but we also found a time to find hidden place and enjoy quickie outside i the middle of the city, I think by-coming trains had nice time watching us. Of course, event like this are more about excitement then about real pleasure and also for me its something unexplored and new, yet attractive so I was very grateful for this experience. Very thrilling and exiting I must say! I would not prioritize it over love making in deep connection with the other and in full attention and focus, but as a game and spice of life its sure working very well.
After bidding goodbye to my friend I travelled back to my hometown. Smooth travel, just today was so hot day, it was crazy. I could not muster myself to even cook, I was just eating fast made crap food. But I felt it strong to eat what I ate today, I mean, I know its not healthy, but its what my system asked for and I believe if its very seldom and with intention to give myself what I need, then its fine. It was very nice and valuable trip, but also exhausting and challenging both emotionally and physically.
For the rest of the day I was just packing big package of records, I made lovely package I was proud of. I believe it can survive safely any rude behaviour of any postage guy :)
Else I was just resting, doing small stuff, catching up communication after a trip and watching GoT... Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
It was last morning of this trip with my friend and I we spend it on the travel, but we also found a time to find hidden place and enjoy quickie outside i the middle of the city, I think by-coming trains had nice time watching us. Of course, event like this are more about excitement then about real pleasure and also for me its something unexplored and new, yet attractive so I was very grateful for this experience. Very thrilling and exiting I must say! I would not prioritize it over love making in deep connection with the other and in full attention and focus, but as a game and spice of life its sure working very well.
After bidding goodbye to my friend I travelled back to my hometown. Smooth travel, just today was so hot day, it was crazy. I could not muster myself to even cook, I was just eating fast made crap food. But I felt it strong to eat what I ate today, I mean, I know its not healthy, but its what my system asked for and I believe if its very seldom and with intention to give myself what I need, then its fine. It was very nice and valuable trip, but also exhausting and challenging both emotionally and physically.
For the rest of the day I was just packing big package of records, I made lovely package I was proud of. I believe it can survive safely any rude behaviour of any postage guy :)
Else I was just resting, doing small stuff, catching up communication after a trip and watching GoT... Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
18.7.2014 - finding the way
? W.
...continue from 17.7.:
Afternoon was quite interesting, my cell phone set itself into radio-off mode and I was in this way cut from receiving calls or SMS and I did not knew. I found out 2 hours later and consequences led me into long walk trip to meet my friend. With this friend its often so unpredictable and I have to really relax into whatever comes to come by. Of course if its about my borders and my time-limits and such its something else, but in case Im free in this, its just a ride in the mystery of life. We spend together nice evening and also connected with my beloved on skype. It was for me new and interesting situation to skype with my wife and girlfriend together and feel no hatred or tension but love and mutual compassion. I felt so much love to my wife and my friend... so much gratitude that such event can be relaxed and in love. I love them both very much and deep so it means a lot to me. I would like to, et again, point out importance of honesty and need to show whats here without hiding potentially painful things. In the end, it makes whole thing much less painful and even uplifting. We went sleep rather early today.
18.7. - After some sleep we spend lots of time together in bed, speaking about things what burden us and interest us and what we dont understand. My friend needed to clear whats this situation all about and wanted to be clear about feelings of mine and my wife about meeting her. We had no sex till very late tonight, it was quite hard for me, because I felt quite horny and felt urge after deeper and closer connection with my friend. But I felt great, that my friend is not submissing to my needs, but honour herself and her feelings and borders. Its very important for me to feel OK in any relationship, that I can trust that the other wont do things he/she dont want to.
We also made some work with dogs of my friend and also went swimming to nearby lake with dogies, it was also quite challenging to bike in, literally, pack consisted from 2 humans on bike and 2 dogs. It was demanding, because of need to be on tip of the toes, alert all the time. Swimming was also great and I really enjoyed swimming naked in such clear water and wash away all sweat and stickiness of hot summer day.
In the evening something changed and we made sweet love together. It felt very different then last time we met. I can not say how still, but it felt somehow more closer, sweeter, more present then last time.
It was very long, rich, challenging, hot and lovely day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
...continue from 17.7.:
Afternoon was quite interesting, my cell phone set itself into radio-off mode and I was in this way cut from receiving calls or SMS and I did not knew. I found out 2 hours later and consequences led me into long walk trip to meet my friend. With this friend its often so unpredictable and I have to really relax into whatever comes to come by. Of course if its about my borders and my time-limits and such its something else, but in case Im free in this, its just a ride in the mystery of life. We spend together nice evening and also connected with my beloved on skype. It was for me new and interesting situation to skype with my wife and girlfriend together and feel no hatred or tension but love and mutual compassion. I felt so much love to my wife and my friend... so much gratitude that such event can be relaxed and in love. I love them both very much and deep so it means a lot to me. I would like to, et again, point out importance of honesty and need to show whats here without hiding potentially painful things. In the end, it makes whole thing much less painful and even uplifting. We went sleep rather early today.
18.7. - After some sleep we spend lots of time together in bed, speaking about things what burden us and interest us and what we dont understand. My friend needed to clear whats this situation all about and wanted to be clear about feelings of mine and my wife about meeting her. We had no sex till very late tonight, it was quite hard for me, because I felt quite horny and felt urge after deeper and closer connection with my friend. But I felt great, that my friend is not submissing to my needs, but honour herself and her feelings and borders. Its very important for me to feel OK in any relationship, that I can trust that the other wont do things he/she dont want to.
We also made some work with dogs of my friend and also went swimming to nearby lake with dogies, it was also quite challenging to bike in, literally, pack consisted from 2 humans on bike and 2 dogs. It was demanding, because of need to be on tip of the toes, alert all the time. Swimming was also great and I really enjoyed swimming naked in such clear water and wash away all sweat and stickiness of hot summer day.
In the evening something changed and we made sweet love together. It felt very different then last time we met. I can not say how still, but it felt somehow more closer, sweeter, more present then last time.
It was very long, rich, challenging, hot and lovely day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 17. července 2014
17.7.2014 - on the way again
? W. Tonight I slept bit longer and better finally, I really needed it. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushup (20+11), 4:30 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I though I have no chance to make 40 but in the end I made 46 (or 48?). It felt great, seems Im in good shape, because I did this with 10kg less and its lot of extra weight. Intense warm up.
I continued then with 10 minutes of kickbox practices, first some running with stretches and shadowboxing followed with punch and some basic movement training. Its been long time again since I did this so it was felt, but I must say that during shadowboxing I felt my hips and legs much better then last time. Seems yoga and running made its share.
3rd block I spend giving love to my ABS and core, Im still more and more confused about my ABS, it feels like if Im not doing ABS every day its not getting anywhere. Even I exercise ABS several times a week, I dont feel clear progress, its just sometimes better, sometimes worst. Im thinking about how to do it.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and it was lot of fun. Enjoyed dancing a lot today.
I have to prepare today for trip to my friend and I wont be more online to write more today so wish you guys great day and see you in few days ;) Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushup (20+11), 4:30 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations on speed, I though I have no chance to make 40 but in the end I made 46 (or 48?). It felt great, seems Im in good shape, because I did this with 10kg less and its lot of extra weight. Intense warm up.
I continued then with 10 minutes of kickbox practices, first some running with stretches and shadowboxing followed with punch and some basic movement training. Its been long time again since I did this so it was felt, but I must say that during shadowboxing I felt my hips and legs much better then last time. Seems yoga and running made its share.
3rd block I spend giving love to my ABS and core, Im still more and more confused about my ABS, it feels like if Im not doing ABS every day its not getting anywhere. Even I exercise ABS several times a week, I dont feel clear progress, its just sometimes better, sometimes worst. Im thinking about how to do it.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and it was lot of fun. Enjoyed dancing a lot today.
I have to prepare today for trip to my friend and I wont be more online to write more today so wish you guys great day and see you in few days ;) Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 16. července 2014
16.7.2014 - knocked off
? W. Tonight I slept better and I think I dreamt actually a lot, but dont remember anything at all :( Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushup (26+5), no headstand.
I) Today I went running 11,4km 430m elevation 1:16. So far hardest route I run, longest and most difficult. And today was also many paths very muddy so I had to be careful much more then usually. I felt myself v.slow anyway, I feel Im lately slowing down or something, strange. But it was so rich and exhausting.... crazy. I was totally knocked down afterwards, even needed to take extra nap to recuperate a bit. And I still feel even afternoon knocked off. But at the same time I feel this is border I want to push, I wish to run route like this under an hour without being knocked off like this.
I also made very important revelation today while running. I can consciously chose what muscle group on legs to use, if !flat part" muscle group, "uphill" or "downhill" muscle group. I could use this to give muscles rest if its possible on long run. F.ex. if I run flat and my "flat" muscles are exhausted I can give them rest and use "downhill" muscle group and so on. Never thought this is possible. I also found that running relaxed up long hill is much easier then to push too hard. And last thing, hill I felt hellishly brutal just few weeks ago I felt today just brutal ;)
...tbc
II) Afternoon I had a client. It was challenging, because I had hard work to stay focused and alert and keep compassion for a client while being still knocked off from morning run. I made it, but it costed me even more energy. Treatment itself was fine and I felt I can really connect and do whats necessary to do.
Today was strong day, because of emotional tension around open relationship, my wife and my friend. And combined with this heavy run it was very powerful to deal with it all and keep functioning. I feel these events strengthen me if its not too often. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushup (26+5), no headstand.
I) Today I went running 11,4km 430m elevation 1:16. So far hardest route I run, longest and most difficult. And today was also many paths very muddy so I had to be careful much more then usually. I felt myself v.slow anyway, I feel Im lately slowing down or something, strange. But it was so rich and exhausting.... crazy. I was totally knocked down afterwards, even needed to take extra nap to recuperate a bit. And I still feel even afternoon knocked off. But at the same time I feel this is border I want to push, I wish to run route like this under an hour without being knocked off like this.
I also made very important revelation today while running. I can consciously chose what muscle group on legs to use, if !flat part" muscle group, "uphill" or "downhill" muscle group. I could use this to give muscles rest if its possible on long run. F.ex. if I run flat and my "flat" muscles are exhausted I can give them rest and use "downhill" muscle group and so on. Never thought this is possible. I also found that running relaxed up long hill is much easier then to push too hard. And last thing, hill I felt hellishly brutal just few weeks ago I felt today just brutal ;)
...tbc
II) Afternoon I had a client. It was challenging, because I had hard work to stay focused and alert and keep compassion for a client while being still knocked off from morning run. I made it, but it costed me even more energy. Treatment itself was fine and I felt I can really connect and do whats necessary to do.
Today was strong day, because of emotional tension around open relationship, my wife and my friend. And combined with this heavy run it was very powerful to deal with it all and keep functioning. I feel these events strengthen me if its not too often. Ohm mani padme hum.
15.7.2014 - hearty randes-vous
? W. Tonight I slept very short and not really good, but wasnt too tired in the morning so hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushups (24+7), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations, first 4reps with 5 second holds then 6 dynamic reps. Im getting faster in position changing and can do more and more. And its great wake-up, warm-up and stretch in one package!
I continued then with alternation of 10 Burpees, 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats and today I made record, alarm rung after 10 minutes on around 15th squat during 4th round. Never got so far and it took a lot of determination and willpower to get here, I felt proud. And I also see enough room for improvement.
Then 10 minutes of core and ABS. It went very poor, but I was very exhausted after previous so I did not took it as bad sign or something. I was exercising anyway on top of possibilities and it was rich and I it wasnt easy to stand up at the end.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was OK, dont remember any special feelings.
II) I did afterwards lot of small stuff and went to make big shopping and a bit later went on travel again to meet friend of mine in another city. We spend outside about 7 hours, walking, talking, enjoying each other. We love each other and we are looking if there is a way to meet each other in open relationship way. For my friend its very challenging situation and for me its also often heart-breaking. Because make no mistake - in open relationship you have more free hands to experience life fully and more colourful, but as there is more joy and pleasure, there is also more pain. I live with open heart and even Im gifted with fantastic, loving, lovely wife, splitting up with another woman I love is no less painful and for anybody. So I wish deep in my heart we 3 can find the way to live our truth in the way which fits all of us without being hurt constantly.
It was rich trip and sure beautiful and valuable.
After returning home, late in the night I just chilled out and went sleep. Sure rich day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushups (24+7), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I started with Sun Salutations, first 4reps with 5 second holds then 6 dynamic reps. Im getting faster in position changing and can do more and more. And its great wake-up, warm-up and stretch in one package!
I continued then with alternation of 10 Burpees, 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats and today I made record, alarm rung after 10 minutes on around 15th squat during 4th round. Never got so far and it took a lot of determination and willpower to get here, I felt proud. And I also see enough room for improvement.
Then 10 minutes of core and ABS. It went very poor, but I was very exhausted after previous so I did not took it as bad sign or something. I was exercising anyway on top of possibilities and it was rich and I it wasnt easy to stand up at the end.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was OK, dont remember any special feelings.
II) I did afterwards lot of small stuff and went to make big shopping and a bit later went on travel again to meet friend of mine in another city. We spend outside about 7 hours, walking, talking, enjoying each other. We love each other and we are looking if there is a way to meet each other in open relationship way. For my friend its very challenging situation and for me its also often heart-breaking. Because make no mistake - in open relationship you have more free hands to experience life fully and more colourful, but as there is more joy and pleasure, there is also more pain. I live with open heart and even Im gifted with fantastic, loving, lovely wife, splitting up with another woman I love is no less painful and for anybody. So I wish deep in my heart we 3 can find the way to live our truth in the way which fits all of us without being hurt constantly.
It was rich trip and sure beautiful and valuable.
After returning home, late in the night I just chilled out and went sleep. Sure rich day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 13. července 2014
14.7.2014 - end of weekend full of love
89,9kg yay. Tonight I slept good. Could use a bit more, but OK. I dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 31x pushup (22+9), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 9.8km flat surface and for 1 hour sharp. I though I was fast after finishing, but now after measure I dont feel it really fast. But on other side, faster than last time. And it was good run as well, I explored some new places.
...tbc!
Well, I did no more trainings today. Today was last day of my visit at my beloveds place and I wanted to enjoy time with my family. We went afternoon also into city and to playground so I had some minor biking and fun share, but nothing major. In the evening I went to my hometown, easy going eventless travel.
Was nice day today. And I felt so much love between me and my beloved, even my step-daughter. It touches me to remember this nice times. Lots of my images about long-time relationships and marriege are crumbling in the light of these experiences. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 31x pushup (22+9), 4:10 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 9.8km flat surface and for 1 hour sharp. I though I was fast after finishing, but now after measure I dont feel it really fast. But on other side, faster than last time. And it was good run as well, I explored some new places.
...tbc!
Well, I did no more trainings today. Today was last day of my visit at my beloveds place and I wanted to enjoy time with my family. We went afternoon also into city and to playground so I had some minor biking and fun share, but nothing major. In the evening I went to my hometown, easy going eventless travel.
Was nice day today. And I felt so much love between me and my beloved, even my step-daughter. It touches me to remember this nice times. Lots of my images about long-time relationships and marriege are crumbling in the light of these experiences. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 12. července 2014
13.7.2014 - brain event
91kg - well, think I overreacted a bit on weight drop and eat too much.... O:) Else I slept good tonight and deep, alarm woke me up. And hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 30x pushups (20+10), 3:40 headstand (I worked with neck position a bit and think it needs a bit more sensitive approach then I gave to it today, I felt afraid that I hurt my neck if I continue longer).
I) Starting with Sun Salutations today, holds 5-2 seconds, I used position changes from dynamic reps and it gave me lots of time to do more reps. Great. And great warm-up too.
Then I wanted to do 5 minutes of Burpees, but my computer with timer died so I just did 44 reps and dont know how much time it took.
Then about 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. To my delight I felt my ABS much more solid again, I mean, I felt how they work and could feel difference between muscles. Its good, its sign of certain level. I think doing yoga helps a lot in progress in my exercises. Else I did mainly adjusted youtube set. It was v.rich.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. I had lots of fun and enjoyed dancing a lot and I was playing with hips and legs a lot. I realized I use my hips very little! Want to focus on it a bit more.
....tbc!
II) After breakfast me and my beloved enjoyed love making, and this time it was so special, that its worth mention. I experienced something I never experienced before. I tried during whole act be very conscious about my sexual energy and not ejaculate, because I should have had client in about ah hour. And it worked out quite well. First I made to sublimate energy upwards and not ejaculate. Second I find out that I can transform energy which is used for ejaculation to expression of pleasure I feel, in other words, more I expressed by touch, movement and voice my pleasure, I could delay ejaculation. Third, I experience new kind of energetic orgasm where lot of energy ascended into my brain and into frontal part. It was quite painful I must say, but not like headache, I felt very precisely that part of brain. It lasted for some minutes and then it fades. Fourth, after we stopped our love making in very loving energy, another energy started to be generated in me and it felt like automatic soft orgasm in whole body, very sweet, soft and nice. I also felt it good to physically connect with my beloved at least with a hand and share this beautiful flow in touch. I felt this beautiful energy for several more hours and it was v.pleasant. Last I did not felt at all I missed ejaculation, it felt totally natural to stop our love making and just enjoy ourselves in embrace and other kinds of contact.
III) Later in the morning I had a client. This time it felt like necessary maintenance, waking up and soothing places where it was needed.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved in easy, loving atmosphere. We shared a lot of our thoughs and cooked great meals and in general enjoyed ourselves. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (20+10), 3:40 headstand (I worked with neck position a bit and think it needs a bit more sensitive approach then I gave to it today, I felt afraid that I hurt my neck if I continue longer).
I) Starting with Sun Salutations today, holds 5-2 seconds, I used position changes from dynamic reps and it gave me lots of time to do more reps. Great. And great warm-up too.
Then I wanted to do 5 minutes of Burpees, but my computer with timer died so I just did 44 reps and dont know how much time it took.
Then about 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. To my delight I felt my ABS much more solid again, I mean, I felt how they work and could feel difference between muscles. Its good, its sign of certain level. I think doing yoga helps a lot in progress in my exercises. Else I did mainly adjusted youtube set. It was v.rich.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. I had lots of fun and enjoyed dancing a lot and I was playing with hips and legs a lot. I realized I use my hips very little! Want to focus on it a bit more.
....tbc!
II) After breakfast me and my beloved enjoyed love making, and this time it was so special, that its worth mention. I experienced something I never experienced before. I tried during whole act be very conscious about my sexual energy and not ejaculate, because I should have had client in about ah hour. And it worked out quite well. First I made to sublimate energy upwards and not ejaculate. Second I find out that I can transform energy which is used for ejaculation to expression of pleasure I feel, in other words, more I expressed by touch, movement and voice my pleasure, I could delay ejaculation. Third, I experience new kind of energetic orgasm where lot of energy ascended into my brain and into frontal part. It was quite painful I must say, but not like headache, I felt very precisely that part of brain. It lasted for some minutes and then it fades. Fourth, after we stopped our love making in very loving energy, another energy started to be generated in me and it felt like automatic soft orgasm in whole body, very sweet, soft and nice. I also felt it good to physically connect with my beloved at least with a hand and share this beautiful flow in touch. I felt this beautiful energy for several more hours and it was v.pleasant. Last I did not felt at all I missed ejaculation, it felt totally natural to stop our love making and just enjoy ourselves in embrace and other kinds of contact.
III) Later in the morning I had a client. This time it felt like necessary maintenance, waking up and soothing places where it was needed.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved in easy, loving atmosphere. We shared a lot of our thoughs and cooked great meals and in general enjoyed ourselves. Ohm mani padme hum.
12.7.2014 - just us together
? W. Tonight I slept well, deep and long. I needed it, its been almost 2 weeks since I slept out and my organism really asked for it. I took day off today, very needed. I would be more happy if I could exercise more days in such intensity, but no point trying to change what is.
But even I took day off, me and my wife spend whole day together making love often and intensive and afternoon we also went swimming for a while, which was v.nice refreshment. My beloved is working very intensively on her healing and it seems to work v.well so we can enjoy ourselves more, its very nice and sweet :)
Great day today. Very loving, friendly, cozy and beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
But even I took day off, me and my wife spend whole day together making love often and intensive and afternoon we also went swimming for a while, which was v.nice refreshment. My beloved is working very intensively on her healing and it seems to work v.well so we can enjoy ourselves more, its very nice and sweet :)
Great day today. Very loving, friendly, cozy and beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 10. července 2014
11.7.2014 - reunion
89,7kg hurray! Finally under 90 again! Made me happy to see some progress, even I dont see it physically yet. Else I slept very deep tonight and dont remember any dreams. In the morning I went for morning exercise...
I) Wanted to start with Sun Salutations on speed, but after 10 reps almost all energy run out of me and I had to stop. I did not wanted to stop totally so I was fighting with it and I continued then as much as was possible, doing slower, dynamic reps with proper breathing. I needed lot breaks. But what was important was that I did not backed off and did what I could. I know I wage heavy fight with myself ATM, balancing act between not harming myself and progress through very strong resistance to my growth. Of course - what I overcome in exercise effect directly other areas in my life, nothing is separated, everything is existing at the same time and same place. Thats why its so hard to go through these struggles, because it dosnt end with exercises, but with my whole life. I wish to make that breakthrough this time and not submit to being small once again. But even if I do submit again, I will rise and try again and again as many times as I can until I die or succeed. As I read yesterday quote from Li Po: "I wasnt born to live between weeds."
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, again I could do much less then usually, but I tried. Did mix of whatever I could do, mainly youtube and Barstarz stuff.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. At least dancing went alright and it was joyful most of the time.
I tried to do pushups and stuff, but my body went into cramps when I tried so I did not fought this. One thing is go through pain and/or exhaustion, but second thing is to go against my whole being with mind, I dont want to cause injury to myself again.
...tbc!
I) I was also travelling to meet with my beloved wife again, nice, eventless travel and heart-warming welcome.
Rest of the day I spend together with my beloved, enjoying each other and spending lot sof time making sweet love. Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Wanted to start with Sun Salutations on speed, but after 10 reps almost all energy run out of me and I had to stop. I did not wanted to stop totally so I was fighting with it and I continued then as much as was possible, doing slower, dynamic reps with proper breathing. I needed lot breaks. But what was important was that I did not backed off and did what I could. I know I wage heavy fight with myself ATM, balancing act between not harming myself and progress through very strong resistance to my growth. Of course - what I overcome in exercise effect directly other areas in my life, nothing is separated, everything is existing at the same time and same place. Thats why its so hard to go through these struggles, because it dosnt end with exercises, but with my whole life. I wish to make that breakthrough this time and not submit to being small once again. But even if I do submit again, I will rise and try again and again as many times as I can until I die or succeed. As I read yesterday quote from Li Po: "I wasnt born to live between weeds."
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, again I could do much less then usually, but I tried. Did mix of whatever I could do, mainly youtube and Barstarz stuff.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. At least dancing went alright and it was joyful most of the time.
I tried to do pushups and stuff, but my body went into cramps when I tried so I did not fought this. One thing is go through pain and/or exhaustion, but second thing is to go against my whole being with mind, I dont want to cause injury to myself again.
...tbc!
I) I was also travelling to meet with my beloved wife again, nice, eventless travel and heart-warming welcome.
Rest of the day I spend together with my beloved, enjoying each other and spending lot sof time making sweet love. Nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 9. července 2014
10.7.2014 - Intensive
90kg yupee, finally less. Tonight I slept well and so deep that alarm woke me up and hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 30x pushups (24+6), 5:00 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 10,15km 334m elevation and it took me 1:08 which I did not felt so great, even I chose track with really crazy long and steep hill I would like to make run like this much faster. Good motivation. But I felt my performance good in general, because I felt running on edge of what Im able to. Again had moments that I though I will puke from exhaustion. Running without music is harder and I still not decided if its better or not for me. I got inspiration for next run tho, even more crazy route with running up one insane hill twice during one run, making 8 shape of a route. Will be fun :P
..tbc
II) Later I was practising on flute for some time, about 30 minutes. Getting deeper and deeper. I feel I understand flow and compositions more then when I played last time.
III) I also tried to do yoga and I did, but did only 3x1. I dont want to excuse myself, I simply couldnt muster more. I felt great I did those 3 asanas and ended session with shavasana. I was very distracted and my body felt exhausted. But I felt important to do at least those 3 asanas on first chakra and connect with vitality.
IV) Around noon I also did Brahmacharia, deepening feeling of energies, I realized today, that pleasure dosnt collect in pelvis, but spread into whole body, mainly heart meridian, but other parts as well. What gather in pelvic area and cause cramped lingam and surrounding area is energy which is necessary for ejaculation. And this energy brings no pleasure. Its new for me, because I always thought that those are one energy and just before ejaculation they separate for orgasmic energy and ejaculation. But it seems they are separate since beginning. I felt this "pleasure" part very nicely today and at one point felt very clear this difference between pleasure and "mechanical" part. Im curious if I discover more in this and learn to control those 2 as I please.
V) Afternoon I had 2 clients. I cant write details, but both treatments went very deep and were very strong. Even now (11.7. morning) I feel powerful flows and my heart full of compassion to those 2 clients. I wish to be able to be good guild for them to found right way for them.
And that was it for today, it was again quite full day and I felt expanded in the evening. Was just watching Game of Thrones... :) Well, very strong day today, full of strong emotions, hard work and observations. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (24+6), 5:00 headstand.
I) Today I went running. 10,15km 334m elevation and it took me 1:08 which I did not felt so great, even I chose track with really crazy long and steep hill I would like to make run like this much faster. Good motivation. But I felt my performance good in general, because I felt running on edge of what Im able to. Again had moments that I though I will puke from exhaustion. Running without music is harder and I still not decided if its better or not for me. I got inspiration for next run tho, even more crazy route with running up one insane hill twice during one run, making 8 shape of a route. Will be fun :P
..tbc
II) Later I was practising on flute for some time, about 30 minutes. Getting deeper and deeper. I feel I understand flow and compositions more then when I played last time.
III) I also tried to do yoga and I did, but did only 3x1. I dont want to excuse myself, I simply couldnt muster more. I felt great I did those 3 asanas and ended session with shavasana. I was very distracted and my body felt exhausted. But I felt important to do at least those 3 asanas on first chakra and connect with vitality.
IV) Around noon I also did Brahmacharia, deepening feeling of energies, I realized today, that pleasure dosnt collect in pelvis, but spread into whole body, mainly heart meridian, but other parts as well. What gather in pelvic area and cause cramped lingam and surrounding area is energy which is necessary for ejaculation. And this energy brings no pleasure. Its new for me, because I always thought that those are one energy and just before ejaculation they separate for orgasmic energy and ejaculation. But it seems they are separate since beginning. I felt this "pleasure" part very nicely today and at one point felt very clear this difference between pleasure and "mechanical" part. Im curious if I discover more in this and learn to control those 2 as I please.
V) Afternoon I had 2 clients. I cant write details, but both treatments went very deep and were very strong. Even now (11.7. morning) I feel powerful flows and my heart full of compassion to those 2 clients. I wish to be able to be good guild for them to found right way for them.
And that was it for today, it was again quite full day and I felt expanded in the evening. Was just watching Game of Thrones... :) Well, very strong day today, full of strong emotions, hard work and observations. Ohm mani padme hum.
9.7.2014 - feeling alone
91kg same like yesterday. Just noting. Else I slept well and good tonight. I slept a bit more in the morning, could not get up at 5, but 5:15 worked well. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 30x pushups (27+3), 4:40 headtsand.
I) I started with Sun Salutations, felt quite clear to do 4 reps with 5 second holds and continue with dynamic reps. It was great, good ration between stretching and warm up and I like dynamic reps as well. I can feel that I need more stretching since Im running.
Next I did Burpees for 5 minutes. Today I pushed a bit more and did 43 full reps before alarm rung. I saw lot of space in faster pushups, but it did not stopped good feeling from today performance! It felt great.
I continued then with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, first did 40 situps then yoga v-sit 60 seconds then 40 situps and 1:30 v-sit, then just 6 situps, could not do more simply. So I did what I could in rest of the time. It was very rich, but I felt how much helped me to hear one quote from 4 Mile movie. Nothing new for me, but it was great reminder in very good way - that progress is possible only outside comfortable zone and pain is here to be conquered, not be controlled by it. Those v-sits were very painful , but I did them without breaks, I was fine to ignore pain and make pause only if muscles fail naturally.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It was fun, I enjoyed dancing itself very much.
II) Later I was practising on flute for about 45 minutes. Again more advanced songs and I felt even more then yesterday how deep going are these practises. I felt effect of practices made years ago. But anyway, Im so much looking forward for every next song, swallowing music. I felt today so strong how air is whirling under my fingers tips which are cowering flute holes. I never felt it so strong, it was such fascinating feeling. I felt very in tune with my record today. Im surprised by this, because I must've feel it before as well, but I did only today.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga session. I would like to mention at this point that, I think yesterday, I realized that doing yoga gives me energy to be more active. I always thought, that I have period where Im more active so I do yoga, but it seems that yoga give me energy and willpower to be more active in natural way. Else I did 2x1,2,3 1x4,5,6,7 (Shirshasana). Very strong session, I had moments where I wanted to scream (Manipura) and while doing Cobra pose my heart was so open and so much pain come out that I had to stop. Its second time I felt so much pain in my heart, I need to heal this or it will harm me. Once again, great respect to the gifts of yoga and to the great mystery of universe which yoga is path to unveil.
IV) After lunch I did also half of hour Brahmacharia, today I felt some improvement, I felt I an better control my excitement and I felt slightly difference between ebergies of pleasure and those leading to ejaculation. I believe if I continue exploring this I could control those two and not allow myself to ejaculate but be able to receive all pleasure.
V) Afternoon I had a client. Very strong treatment, client who works consciously on herself. I felt we did lot of work today.
After work I had to deal with heart issues. Being in open relationship is not at all always about pleasure and joy, sometimes its harder then closed relationship, because there is more people for whom heart may pain. Its not theyr fault of course, its always my issues and wounds which pains, but heal it! Its not as easy as said. There is lot we inherit and lot to recognize, understand and respectfully let go.
Very rich day today. Be well all. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (27+3), 4:40 headtsand.
I) I started with Sun Salutations, felt quite clear to do 4 reps with 5 second holds and continue with dynamic reps. It was great, good ration between stretching and warm up and I like dynamic reps as well. I can feel that I need more stretching since Im running.
Next I did Burpees for 5 minutes. Today I pushed a bit more and did 43 full reps before alarm rung. I saw lot of space in faster pushups, but it did not stopped good feeling from today performance! It felt great.
I continued then with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, first did 40 situps then yoga v-sit 60 seconds then 40 situps and 1:30 v-sit, then just 6 situps, could not do more simply. So I did what I could in rest of the time. It was very rich, but I felt how much helped me to hear one quote from 4 Mile movie. Nothing new for me, but it was great reminder in very good way - that progress is possible only outside comfortable zone and pain is here to be conquered, not be controlled by it. Those v-sits were very painful , but I did them without breaks, I was fine to ignore pain and make pause only if muscles fail naturally.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It was fun, I enjoyed dancing itself very much.
II) Later I was practising on flute for about 45 minutes. Again more advanced songs and I felt even more then yesterday how deep going are these practises. I felt effect of practices made years ago. But anyway, Im so much looking forward for every next song, swallowing music. I felt today so strong how air is whirling under my fingers tips which are cowering flute holes. I never felt it so strong, it was such fascinating feeling. I felt very in tune with my record today. Im surprised by this, because I must've feel it before as well, but I did only today.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga session. I would like to mention at this point that, I think yesterday, I realized that doing yoga gives me energy to be more active. I always thought, that I have period where Im more active so I do yoga, but it seems that yoga give me energy and willpower to be more active in natural way. Else I did 2x1,2,3 1x4,5,6,7 (Shirshasana). Very strong session, I had moments where I wanted to scream (Manipura) and while doing Cobra pose my heart was so open and so much pain come out that I had to stop. Its second time I felt so much pain in my heart, I need to heal this or it will harm me. Once again, great respect to the gifts of yoga and to the great mystery of universe which yoga is path to unveil.
IV) After lunch I did also half of hour Brahmacharia, today I felt some improvement, I felt I an better control my excitement and I felt slightly difference between ebergies of pleasure and those leading to ejaculation. I believe if I continue exploring this I could control those two and not allow myself to ejaculate but be able to receive all pleasure.
V) Afternoon I had a client. Very strong treatment, client who works consciously on herself. I felt we did lot of work today.
After work I had to deal with heart issues. Being in open relationship is not at all always about pleasure and joy, sometimes its harder then closed relationship, because there is more people for whom heart may pain. Its not theyr fault of course, its always my issues and wounds which pains, but heal it! Its not as easy as said. There is lot we inherit and lot to recognize, understand and respectfully let go.
Very rich day today. Be well all. Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 7. července 2014
8.7.2014 - temperature rocord, fuf
91kg a bit less finally and I measured after lot of drinking so its probably a bit less as well. Its good, just need to keep eating good and work as hard as possible while not hurting myself. One friend wrote today her experience with some teacher who said, that our cells are programmed to not get more power then we are allowed by those who programmed us. Its something on it, because it corresponds with whats happening with me when Im starting to grow. I always back off. But I work to overcome this conditioning, I feel whats inside me is too valuable to be thrown away and not shown to everybody. But there is bit more work to be done before I manage this breakthrough. Even I feel Im closer every day. Well, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 30x pushups (23+7), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, new way composed with some new, some old paths. It was interesting and demanding run with lot of going up and down, 7,7km and I needed 1hr. I run without music today, I felt it much harder then with music. Im not sure what I will chose, but I wish to explore also running without music and decide whats better later. Both have advantages and disadvantages for me. It was hard run and I wa son the edge really. In one point I though I will vomit. But I feel I need this kind of energy in my life, to be able to breakthrough comfortable zones.
...tbc!
II) I was also practising on the recorder for about half of hour. Starting to be fun again, as Im reaching to the point where I stopped last time. Songs are starting to be challenging and I see how much work I already put into them and it still pays off. Anyway I have quite problems with some. However at some places where I remember having notorious problems its possible to play it more smooth. Its great.
III) Later I went to deal with some official stuff, I took a walk and it was fine, but it was sooo crazy humid, I was drenched in sweat because of that. But nice walk.
IV) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both regular clients and both good treatments. I feel Im more focusing on physical side lately. Im wondering why is that and if its ok like this. I wish to observe this, but Im also open for possibility that its good and Im learning to feel more physical body then I could before.
For the rest of the day I did nothing more, I was quite tired in the evening, it was v.full day and very hot. I had even 32°C in my room today. I had to wash all clothes I used today, totally drenched... But I liked it today, felt great to have 2 clients in one day after some time and all things went good. I forgot that I was also working on records today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushups (23+7), 4:20 headstand.
I) I went running today, new way composed with some new, some old paths. It was interesting and demanding run with lot of going up and down, 7,7km and I needed 1hr. I run without music today, I felt it much harder then with music. Im not sure what I will chose, but I wish to explore also running without music and decide whats better later. Both have advantages and disadvantages for me. It was hard run and I wa son the edge really. In one point I though I will vomit. But I feel I need this kind of energy in my life, to be able to breakthrough comfortable zones.
...tbc!
II) I was also practising on the recorder for about half of hour. Starting to be fun again, as Im reaching to the point where I stopped last time. Songs are starting to be challenging and I see how much work I already put into them and it still pays off. Anyway I have quite problems with some. However at some places where I remember having notorious problems its possible to play it more smooth. Its great.
III) Later I went to deal with some official stuff, I took a walk and it was fine, but it was sooo crazy humid, I was drenched in sweat because of that. But nice walk.
IV) Afternoon I had couple of clients. Both regular clients and both good treatments. I feel Im more focusing on physical side lately. Im wondering why is that and if its ok like this. I wish to observe this, but Im also open for possibility that its good and Im learning to feel more physical body then I could before.
For the rest of the day I did nothing more, I was quite tired in the evening, it was v.full day and very hot. I had even 32°C in my room today. I had to wash all clothes I used today, totally drenched... But I liked it today, felt great to have 2 clients in one day after some time and all things went good. I forgot that I was also working on records today. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 6. července 2014
7.7.2014 - something great something sad
? W. I woke up crazy dizzy and with strange out-of energy and stability feeling. I was thinking why is that, but I dont know. I could not do morning exercises. Maybe later if it improves. Im confused about this. Im thinking if yesterday was more demanding then I though or whats up.
....tbc
I) In the morning I practised on flute for some time (about 30 minutes). I realized that I use flute playing as a big teaching of things. How to handle when things dont go so well, but also dont get over-exited. To stay in the middle, to relax into complicated things (no other way to manage complicated things then to relax and be very flexible or I dont know other way). But also I enjoy playing itself and tunes.
II) Afternoon I had a client, first I did mini workshop of circle way supportive listening for client and then did Shiatsu. It was vital for me, because I could touch how much time it takes to present and show circle way in practice. Treatment was challenging, because there was lot of work and could not use best position, but I did best I could. Client also gave me very nice feedback which touched me really.
Else I did no more exercises today, just working on records a bit and doing small stuff. I was kind of exhausted today a lot. I dont know why, I suspect some process going on in me strongly.
But I felt today very giving as well. My beloved gave me great support once again and talking with her helped me to look on stuff going in me. Ohm mani padme hum.
....tbc
I) In the morning I practised on flute for some time (about 30 minutes). I realized that I use flute playing as a big teaching of things. How to handle when things dont go so well, but also dont get over-exited. To stay in the middle, to relax into complicated things (no other way to manage complicated things then to relax and be very flexible or I dont know other way). But also I enjoy playing itself and tunes.
II) Afternoon I had a client, first I did mini workshop of circle way supportive listening for client and then did Shiatsu. It was vital for me, because I could touch how much time it takes to present and show circle way in practice. Treatment was challenging, because there was lot of work and could not use best position, but I did best I could. Client also gave me very nice feedback which touched me really.
Else I did no more exercises today, just working on records a bit and doing small stuff. I was kind of exhausted today a lot. I dont know why, I suspect some process going on in me strongly.
But I felt today very giving as well. My beloved gave me great support once again and talking with her helped me to look on stuff going in me. Ohm mani padme hum.
6.7.2014 - Magical mountains
? W. I will start with yesterday. Well, quite a travel to these mountains I was heading to, but all went well and event-less. At the destination I met with my friend and we spend rest of the day being together in the mountains, first ride up to the upper parts of those mountains, then very nice walk on mountain paths with vital, interesting talk. In the evening we just rode to place called Adršpach where is amazing place with hundreds of climb-able rocks situated in absolutely magical beautiful nature. However we landed at the shore of lake there and there we spend nice evening. We went sleep there, at the shore of the lake. I was a bit afraid of it since Im such a city boy, but all worked well. Very beautiful day.
In the morning was raining a bit, but nothing major, we just moved a bit more under the trees and slept a bit more. I could not sleep much, because I was in awe from that place, totally clear from human-noise pollution, just birds chirping, ducks "quak"ing rain making circles on lake, all this playing together with all sounds of nature in glorious symphony. I heard music of the spheres once again there when I was listening.
When I and my friend got up we went swimming a bit. It was also great, very clear mountain water with minerals makes very good feel on a skin and it was just pure joy in general. Rest of the morning we spend together walking around this miraculous place. I was told by my friend, that I say "Its unbelievabe, beautiful." way too often, but it simply was like this on every few steps! Such a mazing place.
My heart opened on each of these places a bit more and I spend rest of the day in this special state where I dont want to talk much and cant really think, just enjoy being and living and feel gratitude to witness such magical experience...
Well, then travel back again, but it was fine, even its travel with lot of changes on the way and was quite hot.
I) In the evening I had a client, I was a bit afraid if I will manage after such a trip, but it was totally fine. New client and my first Japanese client. I was so nervous to treat a Japanese person with knowledge of Japanese Shiatsu and Im not sure at all if it worked well for the client. I did my best so I wish it work well.
I did nothing more today, it was very intensive and full day already. Very enrichening day today, very beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
In the morning was raining a bit, but nothing major, we just moved a bit more under the trees and slept a bit more. I could not sleep much, because I was in awe from that place, totally clear from human-noise pollution, just birds chirping, ducks "quak"ing rain making circles on lake, all this playing together with all sounds of nature in glorious symphony. I heard music of the spheres once again there when I was listening.
When I and my friend got up we went swimming a bit. It was also great, very clear mountain water with minerals makes very good feel on a skin and it was just pure joy in general. Rest of the morning we spend together walking around this miraculous place. I was told by my friend, that I say "Its unbelievabe, beautiful." way too often, but it simply was like this on every few steps! Such a mazing place.
My heart opened on each of these places a bit more and I spend rest of the day in this special state where I dont want to talk much and cant really think, just enjoy being and living and feel gratitude to witness such magical experience...
Well, then travel back again, but it was fine, even its travel with lot of changes on the way and was quite hot.
I) In the evening I had a client, I was a bit afraid if I will manage after such a trip, but it was totally fine. New client and my first Japanese client. I was so nervous to treat a Japanese person with knowledge of Japanese Shiatsu and Im not sure at all if it worked well for the client. I did my best so I wish it work well.
I did nothing more today, it was very intensive and full day already. Very enrichening day today, very beautiful. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 5. července 2014
5.7.2014 - Going to the mountains
91,2kg - seems my weight is fluctuating a lot. I was thinking yesterday, that its possibly because I changed my nutrition a lot and my body is adapting to it, so I might not drop in weight at all for even couple of weeks till my system gets used to new ways. Patient, I must be (Like Yoda would say) ! Anyway, I slept better tonight and dont remember any dreams. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
Notes: 30x pushup (25+5), 4:00 headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, did 2 reps with 5 second holds and then 6 with 3 second holds. I feel its important to find best ratio in holds/dynamic ratio to find best way to stretch and warm up. This worked out well I would say.
I continued then with 5 minutes of Burpees, did 40 today and just started 41th when alarm rung. It felt good, mainly because I saw gaps where to gain seconds to do more. I had respiration problems, I need to look on my breathing more seriously. I feel Im unconsciously holding breath, because I feel reserves but its like... like if I would for some reason not allowed myself to breath enough. I know I can breath more, but I hold myself back. Need to find out what is this.
Then 5 minutes of squats. I found out that running is not helping much with squats, it wasnt really stellar set, did 50 normal squats and around 30 half-way squats. It was very challenging and I went through lot of struggle, only embarrassment from such performance made me to not stop. But it was great pointer that I need to strengthen my legs! Very good I made this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core fun. I made it today v.challenging, variation on youtube set. I felt strong today on ABS and made it as rich as I could and in the end I almost could not got up. Made almost 4 full rounds.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I wasnt so much in creative way, just a bit, but what I enjoyed today very much was flow I was in, I felt like this 2 weeks of yoga relaxed my hips a lot and I could flow nicely with the music in very enjoyable moves. Beautiful.
Rest of the morning I was preparing for a trip to visit my friend in mountains, long time I saw her and its quite a travel, but totally worth it I can say and Im not even there yet! Will report tomorrow or monday how it went.
Nice weekend to ya all! Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 30x pushup (25+5), 4:00 headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, did 2 reps with 5 second holds and then 6 with 3 second holds. I feel its important to find best ratio in holds/dynamic ratio to find best way to stretch and warm up. This worked out well I would say.
I continued then with 5 minutes of Burpees, did 40 today and just started 41th when alarm rung. It felt good, mainly because I saw gaps where to gain seconds to do more. I had respiration problems, I need to look on my breathing more seriously. I feel Im unconsciously holding breath, because I feel reserves but its like... like if I would for some reason not allowed myself to breath enough. I know I can breath more, but I hold myself back. Need to find out what is this.
Then 5 minutes of squats. I found out that running is not helping much with squats, it wasnt really stellar set, did 50 normal squats and around 30 half-way squats. It was very challenging and I went through lot of struggle, only embarrassment from such performance made me to not stop. But it was great pointer that I need to strengthen my legs! Very good I made this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core fun. I made it today v.challenging, variation on youtube set. I felt strong today on ABS and made it as rich as I could and in the end I almost could not got up. Made almost 4 full rounds.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I wasnt so much in creative way, just a bit, but what I enjoyed today very much was flow I was in, I felt like this 2 weeks of yoga relaxed my hips a lot and I could flow nicely with the music in very enjoyable moves. Beautiful.
Rest of the morning I was preparing for a trip to visit my friend in mountains, long time I saw her and its quite a travel, but totally worth it I can say and Im not even there yet! Will report tomorrow or monday how it went.
Nice weekend to ya all! Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 4. července 2014
4.7.2014 - too much exercise taking its toll
92,4kg - dont ask me, today is 3rd day without any sweets, meat or milk products, just vegetables and "good stuff". It seems Im gaining a lot even from vegies, even they arent supposed to really make people fat, or is it? My organism seems to be really amazingly effective and brilliant in nutrition extraction, I just need to find the way how to eat as less as possible to not feel hungry and I believe my body get all it needs anyway. In any case - in the morning...
I tried to do morning exercises, but any attempt to do any exercise ended up in me folded on the ground in crazy strong feelings of exhaustion and something like soft cramps in whole body so I did not exercises. Only thing my system allowed me was dancing for 30 minutes and I felt strong pretests as well.
I spend whole day relaxing, enjoying all I wanted, was working on records, went into city to meet a client for records. Nothing major, just lazy summer day, recuperating, giving my body space to rest and heal.
I) In the evening I tried to make yoga, because ATM I feel how much its healing me and I wanted to at least try. And it worked out. I did whole set 3x1, 2x2, 2x3 and rest chakras 1x. Today I had lot of thoughts in my head, mainly about tomorrow trip (yes, its called "living in a future"), but what felt nice was, that it wasnt usual chaos in mind, but concrete, persistent thoughts which were much easier to gently escort away then usual mind-radio-chaos. And I felt very very good after session. I still feel v.happy I did this set, it was somehow very healing today, even I cant say what or how it healed.
And well, that was today. Very nice day I must say. Enjoyed living a lot, even Im missing my beloved a lot. I mean, when I work with heart and doing Brahmacharia its touching me a lot to visualize my wife in head. Ohm mani padme hum.
I tried to do morning exercises, but any attempt to do any exercise ended up in me folded on the ground in crazy strong feelings of exhaustion and something like soft cramps in whole body so I did not exercises. Only thing my system allowed me was dancing for 30 minutes and I felt strong pretests as well.
I spend whole day relaxing, enjoying all I wanted, was working on records, went into city to meet a client for records. Nothing major, just lazy summer day, recuperating, giving my body space to rest and heal.
I) In the evening I tried to make yoga, because ATM I feel how much its healing me and I wanted to at least try. And it worked out. I did whole set 3x1, 2x2, 2x3 and rest chakras 1x. Today I had lot of thoughts in my head, mainly about tomorrow trip (yes, its called "living in a future"), but what felt nice was, that it wasnt usual chaos in mind, but concrete, persistent thoughts which were much easier to gently escort away then usual mind-radio-chaos. And I felt very very good after session. I still feel v.happy I did this set, it was somehow very healing today, even I cant say what or how it healed.
And well, that was today. Very nice day I must say. Enjoyed living a lot, even Im missing my beloved a lot. I mean, when I work with heart and doing Brahmacharia its touching me a lot to visualize my wife in head. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 3. července 2014
3.7.2014 - spiritual path is a high path
91,1kg - uff, wasnt expecting THAT much, seems cake diet wasnt good move... nah, Im kidding, I was expecting that, I ate so much of sweets in last 2 weeks it would make anybody fat.
Else I slept well and dont remember dreaming. But I have really hard times falling asleep, seems there is no point going to sleep to early, I just wont fall asleep before 23. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 29x pushup (16+10+3), 3:20 headstand.
I) I went running today 10,3km in 1:04 370m elevation. Was basically run to the forest to make circle and run back. But it was v.rich. Even tho I though I will make it faster. But I had breathing problems, I think I need to focus a lot on breathing as effective as possible. But it was nice run, forest was great and since I went out before 6 it was nicely empty around.
II) After breakfast I was playing on a flute for about 30 minutes. Enjoyed it sooo much, just played for fun and sound of it. It would take many weeks to get again where I stopped so I just play for joy.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga 3x1 2x2 2x3 2x4 1x5 1x6 1x7 (Shirshasana). Today it wasnt easy again, till Manipura chakra it was fine, but short before and during Anahata chakra asanas I struggled with lot of resistance. Its interesting. But when I felt into it a bit I realized that I have lot of suppressed pain in my heart chakra. I realized it just few days ago, that Im suppressing lot of pain from not being with those I love. I would love to just enjoy this longing to be with them, enjoy existence of this beautiful feeling and not suffer from not being satisfied (which is not possible in any case). Sometimes I can transform this suffering into bliss, but not always yet. It cant be pushed or forced, it has to come from inside, but this process can be supported by conscious wish to not suffer and to enjoy what is here. Anyway, I did new setup and tried some new asanas with which I will have lot of work and its good.
I also realized how exercising yoga and Brahmacharia changes my daily routine dramatically. Its natural. And I also felt today, that this activity threatens something in my patterns and thats whats kicking me down, want to track this pattern down and find out what is it and whats hidden behind this daemon.
IV) After lunch I did Brahmacharia for something over 30 minutes (yesterday evening too). Its already getting easier and more controlled. Even got short energetic orgasm today. Very nice.
In general I feel strong wish to get together again and wake up more of my potential.
...tbc
V) Afternoon I had a client. On Shiatsu side it wasnt so special, because client needed more physical treatment today, but we had very interesting talk about tantra and spirituality and sociality in general and it was very inspiring talk.
For the rest of the day I was just doing my stuff and resting. Nothing interesting to write about. Demanding day today tho, I felt today on the edge of physical possibilities ATM, but not exhausted or tired, it felt more like warning from my system. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well and dont remember dreaming. But I have really hard times falling asleep, seems there is no point going to sleep to early, I just wont fall asleep before 23. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 29x pushup (16+10+3), 3:20 headstand.
I) I went running today 10,3km in 1:04 370m elevation. Was basically run to the forest to make circle and run back. But it was v.rich. Even tho I though I will make it faster. But I had breathing problems, I think I need to focus a lot on breathing as effective as possible. But it was nice run, forest was great and since I went out before 6 it was nicely empty around.
II) After breakfast I was playing on a flute for about 30 minutes. Enjoyed it sooo much, just played for fun and sound of it. It would take many weeks to get again where I stopped so I just play for joy.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga 3x1 2x2 2x3 2x4 1x5 1x6 1x7 (Shirshasana). Today it wasnt easy again, till Manipura chakra it was fine, but short before and during Anahata chakra asanas I struggled with lot of resistance. Its interesting. But when I felt into it a bit I realized that I have lot of suppressed pain in my heart chakra. I realized it just few days ago, that Im suppressing lot of pain from not being with those I love. I would love to just enjoy this longing to be with them, enjoy existence of this beautiful feeling and not suffer from not being satisfied (which is not possible in any case). Sometimes I can transform this suffering into bliss, but not always yet. It cant be pushed or forced, it has to come from inside, but this process can be supported by conscious wish to not suffer and to enjoy what is here. Anyway, I did new setup and tried some new asanas with which I will have lot of work and its good.
I also realized how exercising yoga and Brahmacharia changes my daily routine dramatically. Its natural. And I also felt today, that this activity threatens something in my patterns and thats whats kicking me down, want to track this pattern down and find out what is it and whats hidden behind this daemon.
IV) After lunch I did Brahmacharia for something over 30 minutes (yesterday evening too). Its already getting easier and more controlled. Even got short energetic orgasm today. Very nice.
In general I feel strong wish to get together again and wake up more of my potential.
...tbc
V) Afternoon I had a client. On Shiatsu side it wasnt so special, because client needed more physical treatment today, but we had very interesting talk about tantra and spirituality and sociality in general and it was very inspiring talk.
For the rest of the day I was just doing my stuff and resting. Nothing interesting to write about. Demanding day today tho, I felt today on the edge of physical possibilities ATM, but not exhausted or tired, it felt more like warning from my system. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 2. července 2014
2.7.2014 - Trying to get up again
? W- Tonight I slept well, even I could not fall asleep for some time. Dont remember any dreams. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 29x pushup (24+5), 3:40 headstand
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. First 4 reps of 5sec holds and then some more dynamic ones. Somehow felt different those dynamic ones today, I think I found something very nice on them. This smooth constant changing of poses without any breaks in between, its like water running between the rocks, not stoping..... there and back.... its beauty in it. Anyway, nice warm and stretching.
I continued then with 10 of alternating 10 Burpees / 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats, made it today to 8th Burpee in 4th round. What I felt somehow great was, that I felt Im not doing well and saw lot of spaces for improvement and still ended up in par with my best go. I like this exercise, very rich, very exhausting and feels v.compact and healthy. It was good intuition to start doing this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core love. Was very rich, I overdid start with 40 situps and yoga v-sit. Sadly my ABS are not so strong like a year ago and I cant do so much. I did then what I could, which wasnt much, but important is, that I could not do more, I did my maximum.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and had lot of fun doing so.
II) Later I went to the city for 1 hour walk around, some work with records, official stuff and shopping. Was very nice walk, even weather was humid a lot.
III) Before dinner I did yoga for something around 1h. 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7. I did changes in asanas to not do still the same. Not because of routine, I can do same asanas for months without feeling bored, but I feel I need other aspects so Im trying to find other asanas to meet my needs. It wasnt easy today, I felt v. distracted and had difficult times to overcome resistance. But I felt so strong that this resistance is from fear of progress that I went on till the end (Shirshasana for 7th chakra). I love yoga <3
IV) Afternoon I had a client. I like this client v.much. V.bright and intelligent young man with incredible potential. I like to be guide for him, he can overgrow me v.easily and hes on his way :) Treatment was great and strong.
V) In the evening some work on records. Its slow work and its frustrating to find out, that record is being sold for approx 1e. But sometimes I fit some rare record for much more more. But I like selling these records, it somehow feels healthy and good for me and its v.good side job as well. And completely under my control and it feels good too.
Full and good day today. Im proud, that I ate no milk products or sweets and LOTS of vegetables. But one day dont change anything, wish I can keep this up for many more days. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 29x pushup (24+5), 3:40 headstand
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. First 4 reps of 5sec holds and then some more dynamic ones. Somehow felt different those dynamic ones today, I think I found something very nice on them. This smooth constant changing of poses without any breaks in between, its like water running between the rocks, not stoping..... there and back.... its beauty in it. Anyway, nice warm and stretching.
I continued then with 10 of alternating 10 Burpees / 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats, made it today to 8th Burpee in 4th round. What I felt somehow great was, that I felt Im not doing well and saw lot of spaces for improvement and still ended up in par with my best go. I like this exercise, very rich, very exhausting and feels v.compact and healthy. It was good intuition to start doing this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core love. Was very rich, I overdid start with 40 situps and yoga v-sit. Sadly my ABS are not so strong like a year ago and I cant do so much. I did then what I could, which wasnt much, but important is, that I could not do more, I did my maximum.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and had lot of fun doing so.
II) Later I went to the city for 1 hour walk around, some work with records, official stuff and shopping. Was very nice walk, even weather was humid a lot.
III) Before dinner I did yoga for something around 1h. 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7. I did changes in asanas to not do still the same. Not because of routine, I can do same asanas for months without feeling bored, but I feel I need other aspects so Im trying to find other asanas to meet my needs. It wasnt easy today, I felt v. distracted and had difficult times to overcome resistance. But I felt so strong that this resistance is from fear of progress that I went on till the end (Shirshasana for 7th chakra). I love yoga <3
IV) Afternoon I had a client. I like this client v.much. V.bright and intelligent young man with incredible potential. I like to be guide for him, he can overgrow me v.easily and hes on his way :) Treatment was great and strong.
V) In the evening some work on records. Its slow work and its frustrating to find out, that record is being sold for approx 1e. But sometimes I fit some rare record for much more more. But I like selling these records, it somehow feels healthy and good for me and its v.good side job as well. And completely under my control and it feels good too.
Full and good day today. Im proud, that I ate no milk products or sweets and LOTS of vegetables. But one day dont change anything, wish I can keep this up for many more days. Ohm mani padme hum.
1.7.2014 - 1 and a half of year of this Blog
? W. Tonight I slept quite well and had a interesting dream with Woody Harelson as main character, we did some movie there, quite interesting movie, but I dont remember what it was about, just how I felt it. What was very strong message from this dream was "look on muslim religion and theyr rituals". Dont ask me why, I dont have any sympathy for any religion, but maybe in theyr rituals is something what can be important for me. Lets see. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 29x pushup (12+11+6), 3:00 headstand.
I) I went running today. Flat route and I run something over 50 minutes. It was quite difficult I must say. I felt that its mainly I use very different muscles then usually and for whole time so it was in some way more exhausting then running up and down, because then are muscle groups changing and when I run up, muscles used for running down are relaxing. That was what come to me. In any case it was nice to run around I must say.
...lets see what day will bring.
Well, it was interesting day. I was travelling back to my hometown around noon, eventless travel, but was very nice weather and I enjoyed it very much.
II) Afternoon I wanted originally do yoga, but I was so hot that I could not focus enough. So I decided to work on my sexual energy somehow, first I did Brahmacharia for 30 minutes, then in this high state went shopping. I was so charged it was crazy, like jumping jackson, very high energy. I was happy to be able consciously not ejaculate and instead work with it. After return I did another 30 minutes of Brahmacharia till the end. I feel I want to last longer when making love and to not need to control all the time and Brahmacharia is exactly one of very effective ways how to do it. But, of course, without yoga and other sublimation techniques it cant work. Also breathing techniques are very important.
Well, I also did tons of small things and tasks, also some work with records and such. I felt today v.productive and rich practices-wise as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 29x pushup (12+11+6), 3:00 headstand.
I) I went running today. Flat route and I run something over 50 minutes. It was quite difficult I must say. I felt that its mainly I use very different muscles then usually and for whole time so it was in some way more exhausting then running up and down, because then are muscle groups changing and when I run up, muscles used for running down are relaxing. That was what come to me. In any case it was nice to run around I must say.
...lets see what day will bring.
Well, it was interesting day. I was travelling back to my hometown around noon, eventless travel, but was very nice weather and I enjoyed it very much.
II) Afternoon I wanted originally do yoga, but I was so hot that I could not focus enough. So I decided to work on my sexual energy somehow, first I did Brahmacharia for 30 minutes, then in this high state went shopping. I was so charged it was crazy, like jumping jackson, very high energy. I was happy to be able consciously not ejaculate and instead work with it. After return I did another 30 minutes of Brahmacharia till the end. I feel I want to last longer when making love and to not need to control all the time and Brahmacharia is exactly one of very effective ways how to do it. But, of course, without yoga and other sublimation techniques it cant work. Also breathing techniques are very important.
Well, I also did tons of small things and tasks, also some work with records and such. I felt today v.productive and rich practices-wise as well. Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 30. června 2014
30.6.2014 - Nice day with family.
? W. I slept well tonight and woke up easy even very early. It was raining quite a lot so I had to change my plans for exercises, but it went fine....
Notes: 29x pushup (3 parts), 3:00 headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, made 48 reps today, felt nice. Also because I saw space for more, thats encouraging always. And it was good warm up as well.
Then I did 10 minutes of shadowboxing session, been a while since I made last one. But felt great sa well, I did extended punch practices and it felt great to do less kinds of exercises but longer and with more focus. Was rich too!
Then 10 minutes on stationary bike, (4m-3rd, 5m-4th, 1m-5th level), this was very very rich, my running practices changed my feelings in legs and against resistance (as I expected) so I could do harder session and it felt very good and rich. Was seating like crazy...
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, I was for a long time not so easy moving after previous, but enjoyed dancing in the ways I could so it was fine.
II) Afternoon I did yoga session, something around 1h (3x1 2x2 and 1x for 3rd-7th). It was great to do it and I enjoyed this session. Also because I could do some asanas bit better and also felt better flow. What was a bit embarrassing was realization, that I cant do 3 asanas properly not because of low flexibility but because of fat belly. I felt it somehow as good motivation...
Rest of the day went very nice with my new family in easy going, loving, joyful atmosphere and I enjoyed today a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 29x pushup (3 parts), 3:00 headstand.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, made 48 reps today, felt nice. Also because I saw space for more, thats encouraging always. And it was good warm up as well.
Then I did 10 minutes of shadowboxing session, been a while since I made last one. But felt great sa well, I did extended punch practices and it felt great to do less kinds of exercises but longer and with more focus. Was rich too!
Then 10 minutes on stationary bike, (4m-3rd, 5m-4th, 1m-5th level), this was very very rich, my running practices changed my feelings in legs and against resistance (as I expected) so I could do harder session and it felt very good and rich. Was seating like crazy...
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes, I was for a long time not so easy moving after previous, but enjoyed dancing in the ways I could so it was fine.
II) Afternoon I did yoga session, something around 1h (3x1 2x2 and 1x for 3rd-7th). It was great to do it and I enjoyed this session. Also because I could do some asanas bit better and also felt better flow. What was a bit embarrassing was realization, that I cant do 3 asanas properly not because of low flexibility but because of fat belly. I felt it somehow as good motivation...
Rest of the day went very nice with my new family in easy going, loving, joyful atmosphere and I enjoyed today a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 28. června 2014
29.6.2014 - rain change plans
? W. Tonight I slept better, but still waking up a lot. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 28x pushups (22+6), 3:00 Headstand.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, holds 5-3 seconds. I felt it today mainly very necessary and healthy to do. I was also working with knees in positions where it was needed. My knees are fine, but I feel in some cases they are not feeling all OK so I want to look if Im harming myself or if I can protect myself form knee injury. Its one of reasons why I want to do regularly yoga. Anyway, great stretch and warm up.
Second thing today I did Burpees for 5 minutes. To my delight, alarm rung during 30th rep. I felt in last days my condition dropped a lot so it was nice to make 12 more reps then last time.
3rd block I was doing ABS and core exercises for 10 minutes. I did adjusted version of youtube set and some extra exercises which I felt good. It was rich, I did some new things I never did before and it felt great.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was nice and I had lot of joy dancing. I was being observed at some point which effected me, but I was happy to notice, that its not so hard to shake this "being observed feeling" off and just enjoy dance.
I did little more else today, plan was to go to swimming place on the river where is even some climbing wall or something, but it started raining just when we arrived to the gates so I did not even saw the place. Then we went to birthday celebration where we ate a lot of stuff... yeah. But at least I had nice talk with one guy there, which felt refreshing and good.
Evening was rather heavy, because of hard topic we opened. Hard, but important to deal with. But rest of the day was in very nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum
Notes: 28x pushups (22+6), 3:00 Headstand.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, holds 5-3 seconds. I felt it today mainly very necessary and healthy to do. I was also working with knees in positions where it was needed. My knees are fine, but I feel in some cases they are not feeling all OK so I want to look if Im harming myself or if I can protect myself form knee injury. Its one of reasons why I want to do regularly yoga. Anyway, great stretch and warm up.
Second thing today I did Burpees for 5 minutes. To my delight, alarm rung during 30th rep. I felt in last days my condition dropped a lot so it was nice to make 12 more reps then last time.
3rd block I was doing ABS and core exercises for 10 minutes. I did adjusted version of youtube set and some extra exercises which I felt good. It was rich, I did some new things I never did before and it felt great.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. It was nice and I had lot of joy dancing. I was being observed at some point which effected me, but I was happy to notice, that its not so hard to shake this "being observed feeling" off and just enjoy dance.
I did little more else today, plan was to go to swimming place on the river where is even some climbing wall or something, but it started raining just when we arrived to the gates so I did not even saw the place. Then we went to birthday celebration where we ate a lot of stuff... yeah. But at least I had nice talk with one guy there, which felt refreshing and good.
Evening was rather heavy, because of hard topic we opened. Hard, but important to deal with. But rest of the day was in very nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum
28.6.2014 - day full of love
? W. I slept well tonight and long. I did not want to do morning exercise today, because it was only morning in 3 weeks where I could sleep out with my beloved and we did and had very nice morning with lot of love and love making and in general being in lot of nice and loving contact.
I) Afternoon I had a client. Unusual treatment with very general wish from a client. Its not bad, sometimes these treatments are very, very interesting. This was quite challenging, because 2 meridians from same element were asking for love and I could make just one. But in the end I felt I chose good.
Rest of the day was quite easy going and in nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum.
I) Afternoon I had a client. Unusual treatment with very general wish from a client. Its not bad, sometimes these treatments are very, very interesting. This was quite challenging, because 2 meridians from same element were asking for love and I could make just one. But in the end I felt I chose good.
Rest of the day was quite easy going and in nice, loving atmosphere. Ohm mani padme hum.
27.6.2014 - Donauinsel festival
? W. Today I slept v.little, could not sleep for long and woke up early for morning exercise. But I could not make it... :( I felt guilty about it whole day, but I simply couldnt, I was so distracted. Wish to cut these distractions by future to minimum really.
But I wasnt lazy whole morning, I did some work with records, washed clothes and did lot of small things and cleaning. And also travelled to my beloved. My wife had a birthday today and I made deal with one of her friends that there was a cake waiting to be picked up by me.
Later afternoon we went to city to visit megafestival which takes place there every year, free entry, crazy overpriced food, shitty music :P But anyway it was nice to be there, observe people, sit at the shore of a river and bath foot in a water... was nice. I was happy to be there with my love. There was also opportunity to do some climbing stuff, rope obstacles in very high grounds and on the wall. It was great, because I could try if my wounded hand, if its possible to climb, but unfortunately it still needs more time. I can climb, but I dont feel safe because of sensations in my hand.
And even I was very tired in the evening we felt very hot for each other and as a nice ending of a day enjoyed great sex together. Ohm mani padme hum.
But I wasnt lazy whole morning, I did some work with records, washed clothes and did lot of small things and cleaning. And also travelled to my beloved. My wife had a birthday today and I made deal with one of her friends that there was a cake waiting to be picked up by me.
Later afternoon we went to city to visit megafestival which takes place there every year, free entry, crazy overpriced food, shitty music :P But anyway it was nice to be there, observe people, sit at the shore of a river and bath foot in a water... was nice. I was happy to be there with my love. There was also opportunity to do some climbing stuff, rope obstacles in very high grounds and on the wall. It was great, because I could try if my wounded hand, if its possible to climb, but unfortunately it still needs more time. I can climb, but I dont feel safe because of sensations in my hand.
And even I was very tired in the evening we felt very hot for each other and as a nice ending of a day enjoyed great sex together. Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 26. června 2014
26.6.2014 - my work dosnt suck
? W. Did not slept so well tonight, somehow dont have easy times to fall asleep. In the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: Pushups 28x (21+7), Headstand: 2:40.
I) I went running today, wanted to make different route then I did in the end. I made 7km run in 55minutes 267m superelevation. I chose new route and took wrong turn ending up running like Avatar up crazy hill steep 45° or more in wet forest. Good experience, I felt my legs really good... yep, was rich run today indeed, everything bad is good for something.
II) Later in the evening I had a client. Interesting treatment, had good feedback form a client which told me more about what may cause certain state of meridian I was working with. I felt it v.enrichening.
III) Afternoon another client, good treatment mainly because it was huge guy so I had to use much stronger techniques and I also had great chat with client. Some clients are really great to talk to :)
IV) In the evening I wanted to do yoga, but I had no energy, but I also had lot of work with records so I did worked on that. Faith no more helped to make it more smooth :)
Great day today, rich and nice. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: Pushups 28x (21+7), Headstand: 2:40.
I) I went running today, wanted to make different route then I did in the end. I made 7km run in 55minutes 267m superelevation. I chose new route and took wrong turn ending up running like Avatar up crazy hill steep 45° or more in wet forest. Good experience, I felt my legs really good... yep, was rich run today indeed, everything bad is good for something.
II) Later in the evening I had a client. Interesting treatment, had good feedback form a client which told me more about what may cause certain state of meridian I was working with. I felt it v.enrichening.
III) Afternoon another client, good treatment mainly because it was huge guy so I had to use much stronger techniques and I also had great chat with client. Some clients are really great to talk to :)
IV) In the evening I wanted to do yoga, but I had no energy, but I also had lot of work with records so I did worked on that. Faith no more helped to make it more smooth :)
Great day today, rich and nice. Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 24. června 2014
25.6.2014 - Fullfilling day
? W- Tonight I slept v.good and deep, was nice. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
Notes: 28x pushup (18+6+4), headstand: 3:30.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations made 5-3 and 1x2sec holds. Felt extremely good today, I had some struggle in some poses, but general feeling was great. I continued then with Burpees, it was crazy bad today, just did 18 reps or something, felt very week. Also next 10 minutes of ABS exercises was very hard and I had to rest a lot. I think its because of very junky nutrition in last days and 4 day long break from exercises. But its nothing tragic, I was counting that wedding pushes me 2-3 months back and I decided to pay this price, because its very special thing to marry!
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, was also a bit lazy, but more joyful and fun then rest of exercises.
...lets see what day brings.
II) Later in the morning I did yoga. Today again with more asanas. Whats great is, that I dont feel like I have to do more asanas or something, its just naturally asking for it and for me its not bigger effort like on first session with half of asanas I did today. Thats one of beauties of yoga - it asks itself, no reason to push. I did 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7. Did Virasana after long time and wow, my pelvis is in very bad shape, great that I did it to see this. If I keep going I will sure do this again. In general it was nice session, nothing special happened, but I know myself that I have path before me before I will be able to focus enough to receive gifts of yoga fully again.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Nice treatment, gal bladder, always very on the edge, because its crazy painful meridian, but sometimes very necessary. Fortunately with this client its possible to work without obstacles.
IV) Later I was practising on flute for about 30 minutes, was more just playing some easy songs to see where I am on flute playing ATM, but it was very beautiful to play again and lets see if I will play more in a future again.
V) In the evening I did 2 reps of Sun Salutations with 30 second holds in each position. Its very demanding exercise on many levels - physical, patience, focus, exhaustion... but its one of things I want to challenge, to do extreme exercises one day. With my fear from being too good its difficult, because every time I get somewhere my system starts to back off. Yes, like is said in famous quote: my fear is not from being inadequate, my fear is from being powerful beyond measure. Well, other japanese proverb says - 7 times fell, 8 times got up. And I believe one day I will cross this mental block and start real work. One of ways is to do extreme long holds in Sun Salutations. 30 second is far from extreme, but its first step.
VI) I was also working on records, need to get it moving, hundereds of records are waiting for being processed and sold!
Nice day today, even it might seen like I did a lot, it was quite relaxed day with fun things, rest, work and joy and even love. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 28x pushup (18+6+4), headstand: 3:30.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations made 5-3 and 1x2sec holds. Felt extremely good today, I had some struggle in some poses, but general feeling was great. I continued then with Burpees, it was crazy bad today, just did 18 reps or something, felt very week. Also next 10 minutes of ABS exercises was very hard and I had to rest a lot. I think its because of very junky nutrition in last days and 4 day long break from exercises. But its nothing tragic, I was counting that wedding pushes me 2-3 months back and I decided to pay this price, because its very special thing to marry!
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, was also a bit lazy, but more joyful and fun then rest of exercises.
...lets see what day brings.
II) Later in the morning I did yoga. Today again with more asanas. Whats great is, that I dont feel like I have to do more asanas or something, its just naturally asking for it and for me its not bigger effort like on first session with half of asanas I did today. Thats one of beauties of yoga - it asks itself, no reason to push. I did 3x1, 2x2, 2x3, 1x4, 1x5, 1x6, 1x7. Did Virasana after long time and wow, my pelvis is in very bad shape, great that I did it to see this. If I keep going I will sure do this again. In general it was nice session, nothing special happened, but I know myself that I have path before me before I will be able to focus enough to receive gifts of yoga fully again.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Nice treatment, gal bladder, always very on the edge, because its crazy painful meridian, but sometimes very necessary. Fortunately with this client its possible to work without obstacles.
IV) Later I was practising on flute for about 30 minutes, was more just playing some easy songs to see where I am on flute playing ATM, but it was very beautiful to play again and lets see if I will play more in a future again.
V) In the evening I did 2 reps of Sun Salutations with 30 second holds in each position. Its very demanding exercise on many levels - physical, patience, focus, exhaustion... but its one of things I want to challenge, to do extreme exercises one day. With my fear from being too good its difficult, because every time I get somewhere my system starts to back off. Yes, like is said in famous quote: my fear is not from being inadequate, my fear is from being powerful beyond measure. Well, other japanese proverb says - 7 times fell, 8 times got up. And I believe one day I will cross this mental block and start real work. One of ways is to do extreme long holds in Sun Salutations. 30 second is far from extreme, but its first step.
VI) I was also working on records, need to get it moving, hundereds of records are waiting for being processed and sold!
Nice day today, even it might seen like I did a lot, it was quite relaxed day with fun things, rest, work and joy and even love. Ohm mani padme hum.
24.6.2014 - all kinds of exercise all very necessary
? W. I slept well tonight, long and deep and in the morning up for morning exercise.
Notes: 27x pushup (maybe 28 O.o), no headstand.
I) I went running today. I did one of routes I did in beginning of running and changed end route to make it a bit longer and I was much faster then 2 months ago (about 5 minutes) even it was slightly longer. Later I measured route and I found it wasnt even 6km... but I had enough really. I could not do headstand at home afterwards, because I was sick from physical exhaustion. But I enjoyed this run in general very much, I could run uphill very nicely.
II) Later in the morning I did yoga. About 1hr long session, made all chakras today 2x1, 2x2 and rest 1 asana per chakra. I felt it very good, nice and great and I think my system is starting respond to yoga again. I also feel very comforting natural longing to do yoga and it feels easy to do it. I think my system feels very precisely how much help it is for me.
III) Afternoon I wanted to go look on some swing event in park, but I mistaken parks and did not found the right one, but sine it was relatively close I took very nice 30 minutes long walk home, was listening to Beastie boys and dancing while walking, was fun. Yes, I felt weird, but who cares, was joyful :)
IV) In the evening I was dancing, wanted for a hour but did just 30 minutes. I think my "nutrition" in last days was too crazy to keep intensive exercises. Too much fat :(
I was also playing with my new tibetian bowls, its very special thing I must say.
Somehow interesting day today, I feel its harder to escape from what I feel right then in last weeks or months, it feels great. I also feel that I see more what makes me joy. Im in very un-joyful mood in last days, its hard to laugh. Inherited patters are bitch.
Anyway, very worth day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 27x pushup (maybe 28 O.o), no headstand.
I) I went running today. I did one of routes I did in beginning of running and changed end route to make it a bit longer and I was much faster then 2 months ago (about 5 minutes) even it was slightly longer. Later I measured route and I found it wasnt even 6km... but I had enough really. I could not do headstand at home afterwards, because I was sick from physical exhaustion. But I enjoyed this run in general very much, I could run uphill very nicely.
II) Later in the morning I did yoga. About 1hr long session, made all chakras today 2x1, 2x2 and rest 1 asana per chakra. I felt it very good, nice and great and I think my system is starting respond to yoga again. I also feel very comforting natural longing to do yoga and it feels easy to do it. I think my system feels very precisely how much help it is for me.
III) Afternoon I wanted to go look on some swing event in park, but I mistaken parks and did not found the right one, but sine it was relatively close I took very nice 30 minutes long walk home, was listening to Beastie boys and dancing while walking, was fun. Yes, I felt weird, but who cares, was joyful :)
IV) In the evening I was dancing, wanted for a hour but did just 30 minutes. I think my "nutrition" in last days was too crazy to keep intensive exercises. Too much fat :(
I was also playing with my new tibetian bowls, its very special thing I must say.
Somehow interesting day today, I feel its harder to escape from what I feel right then in last weeks or months, it feels great. I also feel that I see more what makes me joy. Im in very un-joyful mood in last days, its hard to laugh. Inherited patters are bitch.
Anyway, very worth day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 23. června 2014
23.6.2014 - all those new feelings....
? W. Tonight I slept good and long. I did no morning exercises again... I though I will spend those last few hours rather with my beloved and do something later. We had somehow heavy morning, but one thing I love on our relationship is thing, that we know that even if we maybe momentarily not feel love we know that we love each other very deep and it helps us to shorten disconections.
For me wedding started lot of new processes in me about feeling to my, now, wife and being a husband and also brought some implemented shit patterns inherited from my lineage. I could feel it so strong how they showed up in the moment this fact of being married arrived in my system. I dont want this outdated crap, trying to consciously take these ancient, useless patterns one by one and gently throw them into bin where they belong.
I) I really felt I need to do at least something today so afternoon I did short exercise, just 10 minutes of Sun Salutations - 4 reps with 5 second holds and few dynamic reps and then about 20 minutes of dancing. I felt it v.necessary. And it was nice to move blood a bit. I have whole next month which I want to dedicate to regular exercising, focused and dedicated.
...lets see if I manage something meaningful today
Nope, did nothing meaningful, just was nice on myself. Ohm mani padme hum.
For me wedding started lot of new processes in me about feeling to my, now, wife and being a husband and also brought some implemented shit patterns inherited from my lineage. I could feel it so strong how they showed up in the moment this fact of being married arrived in my system. I dont want this outdated crap, trying to consciously take these ancient, useless patterns one by one and gently throw them into bin where they belong.
I) I really felt I need to do at least something today so afternoon I did short exercise, just 10 minutes of Sun Salutations - 4 reps with 5 second holds and few dynamic reps and then about 20 minutes of dancing. I felt it v.necessary. And it was nice to move blood a bit. I have whole next month which I want to dedicate to regular exercising, focused and dedicated.
...lets see if I manage something meaningful today
Nope, did nothing meaningful, just was nice on myself. Ohm mani padme hum.
22.6.2014 - post wedding duties
? W. I slept very bad tonight, misplaced my pillow and so it was quite unpleasant, but on other side, it could be much worse too. It was more important to be with my beloved.
Today we spend morning in cleaning again, packing all stuff, dealing with food leftovers and all this around. Also saying goodbye to friends who slept on the place and such.
After this we went just home to drop out and sleep properly. We were both done.
Afternoon and evening we spend together with my beloved, going through wishes from our friends. They were also very generous in gifts. We have good friends. Very precious.
More chillout day today really :) Ohm mani padme hum.
Today we spend morning in cleaning again, packing all stuff, dealing with food leftovers and all this around. Also saying goodbye to friends who slept on the place and such.
After this we went just home to drop out and sleep properly. We were both done.
Afternoon and evening we spend together with my beloved, going through wishes from our friends. They were also very generous in gifts. We have good friends. Very precious.
More chillout day today really :) Ohm mani padme hum.
21.6.2014 - Wedding!
? W. Tonight I slept better and long, both me and my beloved really needed good sleep and fortunately we got it. No morning exercise, not on wedding day.
In the morning we went to a place to meet friends who already arrived and welcome new friends. Then we did sharing circle where we introduced ourselves to each other and shared our feelings. It was very, very nice. It helped us to arrive and chillout, also connect together. My sister shared very touching feelings about myself. It was both surprising and beautiful. I have a great sister really.
Afternoon wedding ceremony took place. All worked well and it was very nice and deep ritual of blessing connection between me and my beloved. Nothing like normal wedding, fortunately, this outdated, soulless ceremony of classical wedding gives me just shivers. We made ceremony as me and my beloved wanted to make it. We danced together, sung together, we shared what we appreciate on each other and what means to marry each other. I felt such a deep connection between us like maybe never before. It was very beautiful and touching.
I was also happy that my parents come, they surprised me I must say. We received many special gifts, both physical, financial and in form of wishes and being with us from our guests. Im also happy we made it as we wanted in the way of being on a wedding, that we had time to chill before ceremony and we had plenty of time to spend time with our gusts. Not this retarder rush on classical wedding where guests have no chance to talk and really be and congratulate to groom and bride. Lots of our guests shared that it was v.inspirational for them and beautiful.
After ceremony and some chillout time we spend time with our gusts in chatting, making fun with funny costumes, dancing, playing with kids, playing on instruments and whatever come by. I was also happy that we had no alcohol on a party, very grateful for being strict in this. Alcohol energy would destroy all beautiful what we build during the day all together.
Beautiful wedding which we enjoyed very much and spend in lots of love. Ohm mani padme hum.
In the morning we went to a place to meet friends who already arrived and welcome new friends. Then we did sharing circle where we introduced ourselves to each other and shared our feelings. It was very, very nice. It helped us to arrive and chillout, also connect together. My sister shared very touching feelings about myself. It was both surprising and beautiful. I have a great sister really.
Afternoon wedding ceremony took place. All worked well and it was very nice and deep ritual of blessing connection between me and my beloved. Nothing like normal wedding, fortunately, this outdated, soulless ceremony of classical wedding gives me just shivers. We made ceremony as me and my beloved wanted to make it. We danced together, sung together, we shared what we appreciate on each other and what means to marry each other. I felt such a deep connection between us like maybe never before. It was very beautiful and touching.
I was also happy that my parents come, they surprised me I must say. We received many special gifts, both physical, financial and in form of wishes and being with us from our guests. Im also happy we made it as we wanted in the way of being on a wedding, that we had time to chill before ceremony and we had plenty of time to spend time with our gusts. Not this retarder rush on classical wedding where guests have no chance to talk and really be and congratulate to groom and bride. Lots of our guests shared that it was v.inspirational for them and beautiful.
After ceremony and some chillout time we spend time with our gusts in chatting, making fun with funny costumes, dancing, playing with kids, playing on instruments and whatever come by. I was also happy that we had no alcohol on a party, very grateful for being strict in this. Alcohol energy would destroy all beautiful what we build during the day all together.
Beautiful wedding which we enjoyed very much and spend in lots of love. Ohm mani padme hum.
20.6.2014 - finishing preparations for wedding
? W. Today I slept better but in the morning I decided to not do morning exercises, I felt destroyed physically and did not felt it as good idea. Especially with all work ahead of us today.
In the morning we did some final shopping together with my beloved and after lunch we went on wedding place to start cleaning and preparing the place for tomorrow big day. Afternoon come friends from my beloved and mine and all together we prepared all we wanted and tuned last details of ceremony.
We went back in the night and after ten went to take well deserved sleep.
Intensive, nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
In the morning we did some final shopping together with my beloved and after lunch we went on wedding place to start cleaning and preparing the place for tomorrow big day. Afternoon come friends from my beloved and mine and all together we prepared all we wanted and tuned last details of ceremony.
We went back in the night and after ten went to take well deserved sleep.
Intensive, nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
19.6.2014 - tuning on ourselves
? W. Tonight I did not slept really well, was hot night. And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 26x pushup 18+8, Headstand: 2:40.
I) Today I went running. I wanted to make easier, shorter route to not be too exhausted for today, but made mistake, took other way and in the end it was 1/4 marathon again. Even I chose relatively flat route it was very rich, also because of long part in the sun. But I was quite fast I must say, I tried to be fast. And I enjoyed it even I though I will drop at one point...
II) Afternoon I had a client. I dont remember anymore details, but it was very nice, relaxing and healing treatment.
Else I spend day with my beloved. In easy, mood without rush or too much things around wedding. Mainly tuning and connecting to ourselves. It was nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 26x pushup 18+8, Headstand: 2:40.
I) Today I went running. I wanted to make easier, shorter route to not be too exhausted for today, but made mistake, took other way and in the end it was 1/4 marathon again. Even I chose relatively flat route it was very rich, also because of long part in the sun. But I was quite fast I must say, I tried to be fast. And I enjoyed it even I though I will drop at one point...
II) Afternoon I had a client. I dont remember anymore details, but it was very nice, relaxing and healing treatment.
Else I spend day with my beloved. In easy, mood without rush or too much things around wedding. Mainly tuning and connecting to ourselves. It was nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 18. června 2014
18.6.2014 - arrival
? W. Tonight I slept horrible, was very uneasy in the night. I think yoga started some process or something. Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
Notes: 26x pushups, 3:20 headstand (Im not sure why its so hard ATM to do headstand to not be able to hold longer, but maybe its because I do it every day now again.)
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, made around 47 reps before alarm set on 10m rung. I felt I can do much much better, I mean, I felt I have potential to do this much much faster, I felt I did my max today and was happy about this warm up session.
I continued with 10 minutes of alternating 10 Burpees, 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats, made 3 full rounds and alarm rung at 8th Burpee during 4th round. I felt it awesome. It was very hard and took me lot of buttkicking to get here, but despite streams of sweat and noisy lungs, I pushed a bit my maximum in this exercise.
3rd block I was giving some love for 10m to my ABS and core, did Youtube set . I do slight modification to what you can see on video, but did first 3 rounds and a bit extra before alarm rung. It was very, very rich, but I also felt I could make it better then ever, felt good... but really rich :P
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I enjoyed it a lot and had lot of fun playing with moves and rhythm.
...tbc
Else I did today nothing special, I was cleaning flat and shopping and in general preparing for arrival of my beloved. My beloved come at the evening and we spend few easy hours together before going to sleep.
Notes: 26x pushups, 3:20 headstand (Im not sure why its so hard ATM to do headstand to not be able to hold longer, but maybe its because I do it every day now again.)
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations on speed, made around 47 reps before alarm set on 10m rung. I felt I can do much much better, I mean, I felt I have potential to do this much much faster, I felt I did my max today and was happy about this warm up session.
I continued with 10 minutes of alternating 10 Burpees, 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats, made 3 full rounds and alarm rung at 8th Burpee during 4th round. I felt it awesome. It was very hard and took me lot of buttkicking to get here, but despite streams of sweat and noisy lungs, I pushed a bit my maximum in this exercise.
3rd block I was giving some love for 10m to my ABS and core, did Youtube set . I do slight modification to what you can see on video, but did first 3 rounds and a bit extra before alarm rung. It was very, very rich, but I also felt I could make it better then ever, felt good... but really rich :P
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I enjoyed it a lot and had lot of fun playing with moves and rhythm.
...tbc
Else I did today nothing special, I was cleaning flat and shopping and in general preparing for arrival of my beloved. My beloved come at the evening and we spend few easy hours together before going to sleep.
úterý 17. června 2014
17.6.2014 - like in old good days
? W. I slept again v.deep and good tonight. And felt more fresh in the morning finally. And hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 26x pushups (19+5+2), 2:40 headstand.
I) I went running today, 9km route in the hills. It wasnt so heavy route, but one hill was VERY steep and long and it was crazy to run it whole up. It was new route and partially on paths I wasnt running before. Its great its so much to discover and so many possibilities to run around. I had powers to do short sprint in the end.. I felt like flying, felt amazing.
...TBC
II) Afternoon I had a client. It was very nice, friend who I did not saw for 3 years and it was amazing how she bloom. And also how easy was to read her during treatment, Im wondering if its me (because I feel lately to read clients very easy in general) or if it was because of client's path in life. Anyway, great to work with her and to meet old friend.
III) In the evening I did short yoga session, something around 50 minutes. 2x1, 2x2, and 1x from 3rd, 4th and 5th chakra. Whole session felt much better then last week. I felt much more focused on both position and energy work. Thoughts were flying around a lot again, but less then last time as well and I enjoyed whole session very much. It reminded me how incredibly strong can be yoga, so powerful, crazy.
IV) And I was also working a bit on records in the evening.
Good day today, I was happy to do extra exercise and work on both wedding, myself and business. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 26x pushups (19+5+2), 2:40 headstand.
I) I went running today, 9km route in the hills. It wasnt so heavy route, but one hill was VERY steep and long and it was crazy to run it whole up. It was new route and partially on paths I wasnt running before. Its great its so much to discover and so many possibilities to run around. I had powers to do short sprint in the end.. I felt like flying, felt amazing.
...TBC
II) Afternoon I had a client. It was very nice, friend who I did not saw for 3 years and it was amazing how she bloom. And also how easy was to read her during treatment, Im wondering if its me (because I feel lately to read clients very easy in general) or if it was because of client's path in life. Anyway, great to work with her and to meet old friend.
III) In the evening I did short yoga session, something around 50 minutes. 2x1, 2x2, and 1x from 3rd, 4th and 5th chakra. Whole session felt much better then last week. I felt much more focused on both position and energy work. Thoughts were flying around a lot again, but less then last time as well and I enjoyed whole session very much. It reminded me how incredibly strong can be yoga, so powerful, crazy.
IV) And I was also working a bit on records in the evening.
Good day today, I was happy to do extra exercise and work on both wedding, myself and business. Ohm mani padme hum.
16.6.2014 - wedding preps finishes
? W. I slept well, deep and long tonight. I needed it really. And in the morning up for morning exercise.
Notes: 26x pushups, 2:something headstand, I felt I would harm myself if I would push it longer.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations, first 4 reps with 5 second holds and then few dynamic reps, great stretching and warm up as usually. Then 5 minutes of Burpees, to my delight I made 38 reps and I felt space for more. Felt great. 3rd thing I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mix of exercises with focus on stamina and holds. It was v.rich. Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. In very nice, creative, free energy.
II) I had some walking and shopping for wedding in the morning. Was nice walk.
III) Afternoon I also went for quite long trip to manage things around wedding. It was very tiresome surprisingly. I felt morning exercise a lot whole day.
I was very tired in the evening and went sleep early. But I made a lot of important work today. Ohm mani padme hum.
Notes: 26x pushups, 2:something headstand, I felt I would harm myself if I would push it longer.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations, first 4 reps with 5 second holds and then few dynamic reps, great stretching and warm up as usually. Then 5 minutes of Burpees, to my delight I made 38 reps and I felt space for more. Felt great. 3rd thing I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mix of exercises with focus on stamina and holds. It was v.rich. Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. In very nice, creative, free energy.
II) I had some walking and shopping for wedding in the morning. Was nice walk.
III) Afternoon I also went for quite long trip to manage things around wedding. It was very tiresome surprisingly. I felt morning exercise a lot whole day.
I was very tired in the evening and went sleep early. But I made a lot of important work today. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 14. června 2014
15.6.2014 - yet another recuperation
? W. I slept like 9 hours tonight... and in the morning even I tried to start my system, I was unable to make morning exercise. I realized, that I drank way way too little in last days for my activities. I was dizzy and physically week. Must drink much more today to catch up and get myself together again. I dont feel like having not enough energy spending activities or not enough movement so its fine to take a day off. Sure, what Im doing here is advocating of not doing morning exercise, but I feel important when I trip to know why it happen and that try to stand would harm me more then fall and get up again.
..tbc!
I dont even kow what I did most of the day. I made some calls around wedding and made some minor stuff, but mainly I was resting. I was really dehydrated a lot, I felt during the day how its getting better more Im drinking.
I) In the evening I had a client, new one. Interesting treatment and I hope to meet this client again. It felt like it could be interesting to work with this one.
Today was really recuperation day, basically I prepared whole day for client to be able to make my usual 100%, to be rested and nourished and it worked out, but could not do more. Im happy I listened to my needs and followed what I felt. Ohm mani padme hum.
..tbc!
I dont even kow what I did most of the day. I made some calls around wedding and made some minor stuff, but mainly I was resting. I was really dehydrated a lot, I felt during the day how its getting better more Im drinking.
I) In the evening I had a client, new one. Interesting treatment and I hope to meet this client again. It felt like it could be interesting to work with this one.
Today was really recuperation day, basically I prepared whole day for client to be able to make my usual 100%, to be rested and nourished and it worked out, but could not do more. Im happy I listened to my needs and followed what I felt. Ohm mani padme hum.
14.6.2014 - last day of meeting and long travel home
? W. Tonight I slept much more, but was woke up quite early and I felt I could sleep for days. But after shower it get much much better. I again did no morning exercise, but morning sexercise was again intensive enough I would say. And, to not bullshit anyone, more fun and joy then regular morning exercise too.
Morning went around quite fast and around noon I went back home. Travel was also quite interesting, because connection from friends place is horrible at weekends, but my friend and her son had to travel same way as I did so we could spend some more time all together. Then we said goodbye to each other and I continued to my hometown.
You wouldnt believe it, in a bus to my hometown I met one of my greatest friends by incident (I wanted to go bus earlier and she wanted to go bus later originally) and we spend whole travel in friendly talk and nice energy being together. We were both very happy to meet, because in my hometown we hadnt opportunity to meet for several weeks. It was really nice meeting :) Even we were both crazy tired.
Well, rest of the day I just made e-mail checks and met shortly my beloved on a chat (which was nice really <3 ) and went sleep very early. Ohm mani padme hum.
Morning went around quite fast and around noon I went back home. Travel was also quite interesting, because connection from friends place is horrible at weekends, but my friend and her son had to travel same way as I did so we could spend some more time all together. Then we said goodbye to each other and I continued to my hometown.
You wouldnt believe it, in a bus to my hometown I met one of my greatest friends by incident (I wanted to go bus earlier and she wanted to go bus later originally) and we spend whole travel in friendly talk and nice energy being together. We were both very happy to meet, because in my hometown we hadnt opportunity to meet for several weeks. It was really nice meeting :) Even we were both crazy tired.
Well, rest of the day I just made e-mail checks and met shortly my beloved on a chat (which was nice really <3 ) and went sleep very early. Ohm mani padme hum.
13.6.2014 - friday 13th
? W. I slept like 3 hours or so today.... not sure, but went sleep some time after sun was up and got up at 7 or something. I did no morning exercise, but intense sexercise. I think it was intense enough calories-wise.
I was very sleepy whole day, but it was happening so much new things, that it kept me up. New places, new people, lots of walking through nature. Visiting natural mineral water spring.... was really nice.
I also met son of my friend, great 10y old boy. Spoiled a bit as it happens when kid has too much contact with grandmas... but in core great person, as we all are in the core before we get mutilated, twisted and cripled by society and authorities. I felt very healing for me to be and play with this boy. I have zero experience with kids in this age so it also kept me up, because I had to be totally present with everything happening, because kids naturally play high-level game of borders. Its important to keep my borders, but not take distance and this takes lot of attention. Was amazing experience for me. And big joy to have fun and talk with the boy.
I tried to stay up to be with my friend bit longer today, but I simply couldnt. Was a big challenge for me to not try to be a hero but be true to her and myself and not harm myself in order to make myself something Im not (or what Im not ATM).
Today was again very full day, full of challenging, beautiful and new experiences. And another proof, that friday 13th is just superstition! Ohm mani padme hum.
I was very sleepy whole day, but it was happening so much new things, that it kept me up. New places, new people, lots of walking through nature. Visiting natural mineral water spring.... was really nice.
I also met son of my friend, great 10y old boy. Spoiled a bit as it happens when kid has too much contact with grandmas... but in core great person, as we all are in the core before we get mutilated, twisted and cripled by society and authorities. I felt very healing for me to be and play with this boy. I have zero experience with kids in this age so it also kept me up, because I had to be totally present with everything happening, because kids naturally play high-level game of borders. Its important to keep my borders, but not take distance and this takes lot of attention. Was amazing experience for me. And big joy to have fun and talk with the boy.
I tried to stay up to be with my friend bit longer today, but I simply couldnt. Was a big challenge for me to not try to be a hero but be true to her and myself and not harm myself in order to make myself something Im not (or what Im not ATM).
Today was again very full day, full of challenging, beautiful and new experiences. And another proof, that friday 13th is just superstition! Ohm mani padme hum.
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