28.2.2013 - 83,6kg
Night was very refreshing and nourishing, dont even remeber if I dreamt something or not :) And at the morning I had very little time, so straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 5 minutes of 10xSun Salutation and shadowboxing, followed by belly muscle exercises, combination of holdings and sit-ups, 270 situps today, already on 1/3 of what I used to do in deep past :) Last 25 minutes I was dancing, I focused on leting go and just dance wild, in no particular movements, just how the wild me wants. It wasnt easy at all! I was jumping all the time into patterns of dancing. I tried that, because I realized, that if I can go wild into dancing, to totaly fall into movements and music, my stuck emotions in my body can be set free and flow to the surface. Of course some music works better for it then other, but I believe its about me leting go then music itself, music is "just" a tool. I know its so mental construction, but I take it as a first step, I want in following days focus on leting go, to relax my belly and anus, to let energy of earth flow into me, nourish me and not get stuck on mental constructions and PLANS.... my mind is totaly crazy in last days with constructing PLANS all the time. I know its not bad and its creative process, but it makes me even to fall asleep harder, fucking mind radio... :)
II) Later I had exchange massage with a friend, I made for her Shiatsu and she did Biomassage for me, I was quite tired afterwards, but its normal after such massage, it was great to give this care to myself.
III) I had then very sporty travel session, I was pack with bags and notebook bag and heavy chacked and went by tram and after 2 stops I realized, that I dont have my wallet so I had to go back and run quite fast, then run on stairs and run back for tram, man.... I realy need to start runing regulary or sometimes, because its embarasing how much I was done afterwards... could not breath, I felt even my bottom jaw shivering from exhaustion, I was haking as well.... ough, crazy, this cant stay like this! Yeah and I had to run from Tram to bus but it was ok somehow, because I wasnt stressed if I make it or not. And for a record - I made it in last minute :P
IV) At the evening I did yoga, I felt, even very tired after a long day, that I realy need to do it. And it was good, I was mainly enjoying my body, trying to relax. Easy my mind.
There is one more thing I would like to share. When I was in a tram, praying for bus that its still there if I come to busstop. I was trying to play with my wishes, I made wishes and tryed to immagine how is reality changing. I have no idea if it worked or not, but We come just in time and I could make it. I tryed to not immagine (or visualize) bad things happening to stuff of bus company or to bus, just more like theyr company papers dont fits or something missing and waiting for it to come or driver going for toilet or this kind stuff. It was interesting. No matter if it worked or not, I was surprised how strong energy field it created , I could feel bruming like when big machine is huming. It ws more for me interesting experience then realy work or something, could be interesting to experiment with this a little and try if reality can be realy changed by strong wish and believe in this method.
čtvrtek 28. února 2013
středa 27. února 2013
27.2.2013 - 84 border BROKEN!!! 83,8kg today :)
12kg down since a new year.
I slept well tonight, very refreshing sleep indeed. I had very interesting dream tonight, I was in massage studio where was massages more people at once, but not like in factory, it felt very cozy and confortable and was there very friendly atmosphere. Masseurs was mans and I was there as client, at the end of the dream masseurs changed from man I did not knew to one of my good friend (woman) and she was in panties and t-shirt, but alarm woke me up so Im really curious what would be further, I dont think anything sexual, more how the dream would develope :) It wasnt (contrary to how it usually is) sexual dream, more friendly and cozy, relaxing atmosphere, more jin then jang.
Anyway, when I woke up I went for morning exercise :)
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, it was great to feel that my body have power again so I could make it today, I did dynamic, precise repetitions, I could feel my body so well, it was great, I could literally feel exactly how is working every muscle I focused on and if its right position and function. I continued with Kata1, first I did 5 or 6 dynamic versions on each side and then I continued with increasing holdings from 1 to 4 seconds in power positions (balance positions I did dynamically). Its not so interesting, what was interesting is this experience I had:
I did couple of repetitions on each side and then I started feeling how my energy is leaving me, I really could feel how my being is doing escaping tricks from exercising! So I simply not allowed this and stopped this flow away and kept the energy. It had interesting effects, for first, I felt like my powers are not escaping me anymore second I felt that this interruption of some mechanism in my body cause unpleasant feelings, I started to breath more heavy, my chest started to pain a bit. But dizziness which I feel when energy starts to escape me was gone and I could finish exercise. Slowly, carefully, but fully consciously.
Next 10 minutes I spend with belly muscle exercises, I think that focusing a bit more on holdings works good, but not 100% sure yet, have to explore it longer, however Im able to hold almost whole musculi abdominis , I can flex all parts and then hold legs in possition. Also Frozen V-sit proved to be very interesting exercise, for first, it dosnt pain until all active parts are exhausted and second, its like yoga, it has static position, but you have to use dynamically muscles to stay and correct position, so dynamic part is in constant micromovements, very interesting exercise.
Last 10 minutes I was dancing, great as ever :)
II) At the morning I also had early client, very interesting treatment, this client is also energetic healer or something like that and it was good to work like this, would be great to have around someone with very fine ability to feel processes in body to experiment with techniques.
III) Afternoon client was also very interesting, but from completely different reason. This guy had some accident in uturus and his hands never grow up more then like at 5 or less year baby, but guy was strong as bull, strong back, totally clear mind. Im so grateful for handicaped people who prove that handicap is really just in your mind. Very inspiring indeed. And very interesting treatment as well.
IV) Later I did yoga, 3 minutes in asanas and 10x Sun Salutation as heat-up, it was great, since I lost some weight since last time, I could go more into asanas again and enjoy new feelings in new positions, enjoy my body and new areas of body-play. I hope to have more time for yoga again :)
12kg down since a new year.
I slept well tonight, very refreshing sleep indeed. I had very interesting dream tonight, I was in massage studio where was massages more people at once, but not like in factory, it felt very cozy and confortable and was there very friendly atmosphere. Masseurs was mans and I was there as client, at the end of the dream masseurs changed from man I did not knew to one of my good friend (woman) and she was in panties and t-shirt, but alarm woke me up so Im really curious what would be further, I dont think anything sexual, more how the dream would develope :) It wasnt (contrary to how it usually is) sexual dream, more friendly and cozy, relaxing atmosphere, more jin then jang.
Anyway, when I woke up I went for morning exercise :)
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, it was great to feel that my body have power again so I could make it today, I did dynamic, precise repetitions, I could feel my body so well, it was great, I could literally feel exactly how is working every muscle I focused on and if its right position and function. I continued with Kata1, first I did 5 or 6 dynamic versions on each side and then I continued with increasing holdings from 1 to 4 seconds in power positions (balance positions I did dynamically). Its not so interesting, what was interesting is this experience I had:
I did couple of repetitions on each side and then I started feeling how my energy is leaving me, I really could feel how my being is doing escaping tricks from exercising! So I simply not allowed this and stopped this flow away and kept the energy. It had interesting effects, for first, I felt like my powers are not escaping me anymore second I felt that this interruption of some mechanism in my body cause unpleasant feelings, I started to breath more heavy, my chest started to pain a bit. But dizziness which I feel when energy starts to escape me was gone and I could finish exercise. Slowly, carefully, but fully consciously.
Next 10 minutes I spend with belly muscle exercises, I think that focusing a bit more on holdings works good, but not 100% sure yet, have to explore it longer, however Im able to hold almost whole musculi abdominis , I can flex all parts and then hold legs in possition. Also Frozen V-sit proved to be very interesting exercise, for first, it dosnt pain until all active parts are exhausted and second, its like yoga, it has static position, but you have to use dynamically muscles to stay and correct position, so dynamic part is in constant micromovements, very interesting exercise.
Last 10 minutes I was dancing, great as ever :)
II) At the morning I also had early client, very interesting treatment, this client is also energetic healer or something like that and it was good to work like this, would be great to have around someone with very fine ability to feel processes in body to experiment with techniques.
III) Afternoon client was also very interesting, but from completely different reason. This guy had some accident in uturus and his hands never grow up more then like at 5 or less year baby, but guy was strong as bull, strong back, totally clear mind. Im so grateful for handicaped people who prove that handicap is really just in your mind. Very inspiring indeed. And very interesting treatment as well.
IV) Later I did yoga, 3 minutes in asanas and 10x Sun Salutation as heat-up, it was great, since I lost some weight since last time, I could go more into asanas again and enjoy new feelings in new positions, enjoy my body and new areas of body-play. I hope to have more time for yoga again :)
úterý 26. února 2013
26.2.2013 - 84,5kg - holding under 85, thats great
I slept loong today and moderately good, I woke up at 6 and went to do morning exercises, but I could not, I did first Sun Salutation and my body refused to move for more. I tried to feel if its because I feel bored or something, but I didnt felt bored, I was actualy pissed of that I cant do it, but I simply couldnt. So I went to lie down a bit. And I thought about my knowledge of meridians and I felt pissed off that Im not sure about where some meridians on hands are ending so I felt into them one by one (heart, pericard and lungs) and activated them with consciousness and it worked quite well, meridians rised to the surface and showed me where they end, it was nice experience, especialy with lungs, because this meridian didnt wanted to show much, but when I stmulated Lungs1 pressure point it worked out as well. Its good to feel own meridians :)
Else I was puting furniture together for about 4 hours which was also good trainig kindoff :D
Since I did not so much today I would like to write something about what I eat. Better then empty log... and well... food is half of any success!
So, first I have to tell, that my being have weak spleen so my diet is all around this, for anybody else it may or may not been completely different. So Im not booming about whats right, just whats right for me at this point in my life.
As a breakfest I eat Oat Flakes, cooked with Kakao, Kardamon, Cinnamon, apple pieces and water. About 3 minutes till its cooked and then I let it or 10 minutes to "work". Then I add honey and nuts to complete basic nutrition by 5 elements principle.
As lunch and dinner I eat different mixes of Brocoli, Courgette, tofu (natural tofu spiced as I want), lentils, onion, variable spices (Koriander, Oregano, Curry, Sweet Paprika, Majoran, Orange skin powder etc...), sometimes eggs as source of proteins. Also rice, millet, potatoes. You wouldnt believe how much combinations you can do with this and how tasty :)
Since new year I dont have taste for meat, Im even geting to situations when I would even like to eat some, but when it somes to that I simply cant eat it, it smells badly to me atm and I dont like feeling in my body when I eat meat. I believe it can change anytime, its interesting to explore it.
I slept loong today and moderately good, I woke up at 6 and went to do morning exercises, but I could not, I did first Sun Salutation and my body refused to move for more. I tried to feel if its because I feel bored or something, but I didnt felt bored, I was actualy pissed of that I cant do it, but I simply couldnt. So I went to lie down a bit. And I thought about my knowledge of meridians and I felt pissed off that Im not sure about where some meridians on hands are ending so I felt into them one by one (heart, pericard and lungs) and activated them with consciousness and it worked quite well, meridians rised to the surface and showed me where they end, it was nice experience, especialy with lungs, because this meridian didnt wanted to show much, but when I stmulated Lungs1 pressure point it worked out as well. Its good to feel own meridians :)
Else I was puting furniture together for about 4 hours which was also good trainig kindoff :D
Since I did not so much today I would like to write something about what I eat. Better then empty log... and well... food is half of any success!
So, first I have to tell, that my being have weak spleen so my diet is all around this, for anybody else it may or may not been completely different. So Im not booming about whats right, just whats right for me at this point in my life.
As a breakfest I eat Oat Flakes, cooked with Kakao, Kardamon, Cinnamon, apple pieces and water. About 3 minutes till its cooked and then I let it or 10 minutes to "work". Then I add honey and nuts to complete basic nutrition by 5 elements principle.
As lunch and dinner I eat different mixes of Brocoli, Courgette, tofu (natural tofu spiced as I want), lentils, onion, variable spices (Koriander, Oregano, Curry, Sweet Paprika, Majoran, Orange skin powder etc...), sometimes eggs as source of proteins. Also rice, millet, potatoes. You wouldnt believe how much combinations you can do with this and how tasty :)
Since new year I dont have taste for meat, Im even geting to situations when I would even like to eat some, but when it somes to that I simply cant eat it, it smells badly to me atm and I dont like feeling in my body when I eat meat. I believe it can change anytime, its interesting to explore it.
neděle 24. února 2013
25.2.2013 - 84,5kg, thats good, less again :)
I slept well tonight, tight to my love, in bodycontact whole night and tonight it felt somehow so healthy and healing. Cant explain why or something, I just felt it this way. And I could wake up smoothly as well and go for morning exercise.
I) I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, I did version with increasing holdings in possitions and I already at this time felt that my body wont another full-power morning exercise. I took it easy then and after I just tried Kata1 (I didnt wanted to give up, but there was no choice, my body gave me very clear signals to not do it today, also hard to describe, I allways feel like if body disconects veins and tubes which fuel muscles and leave just those for mundane function and when I try power usage of muscles then I feel pain and overhelming exhaustion), but it was clear I cant do it today so I was dancing then for 28 minutes, I feel its good to spend time dedicated for exercises with at least soft dancing then to just stop and I enjoyed playing with movements and expecialy moving my trunk.
II) Later on I had a client, it was realy interesting work, totaly empty liver meridians on both sides, its long time since I had client like this, but it was good to exercise filling up and runing whole meridians and I felt like it worked out, which was good feeling.
III) Rest of the day I did lot of walking and cudling up, Im right now realy exhausted, but it was nice day realy :)
I slept well tonight, tight to my love, in bodycontact whole night and tonight it felt somehow so healthy and healing. Cant explain why or something, I just felt it this way. And I could wake up smoothly as well and go for morning exercise.
I) I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, I did version with increasing holdings in possitions and I already at this time felt that my body wont another full-power morning exercise. I took it easy then and after I just tried Kata1 (I didnt wanted to give up, but there was no choice, my body gave me very clear signals to not do it today, also hard to describe, I allways feel like if body disconects veins and tubes which fuel muscles and leave just those for mundane function and when I try power usage of muscles then I feel pain and overhelming exhaustion), but it was clear I cant do it today so I was dancing then for 28 minutes, I feel its good to spend time dedicated for exercises with at least soft dancing then to just stop and I enjoyed playing with movements and expecialy moving my trunk.
II) Later on I had a client, it was realy interesting work, totaly empty liver meridians on both sides, its long time since I had client like this, but it was good to exercise filling up and runing whole meridians and I felt like it worked out, which was good feeling.
III) Rest of the day I did lot of walking and cudling up, Im right now realy exhausted, but it was nice day realy :)
24.2.2013 - 85kg border BROKEN!! 84,9kg :)
I slept well tonight and woke up refreshed and in easy mood and after some bed play straight for morning exercise!
I) strtaing with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, I tried on speed, but my body refused so I just did as fast as I could to not feint or get dizzy and next 5 minutes I continued in increasing holdins and end up at 7 seconds in each possition. Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercise... these holding techniques are crazy o.O. Last 15 minutes I was dancing, great as allways :) Lets see what other this already beautifull day brings!
II) Afternoon we went sliding with sled and bob, outside fell a lot of new snow, its allways quite a training to pull up stuff up the hill, but its definettely worth a ride :)
III) Later on I spend coupld of hours of completing furniture, I was so greatfull for mine training, I could work in realy crazy possitions to do some stuff, if I wouldnt train I would realy suffer today :P
I slept well tonight and woke up refreshed and in easy mood and after some bed play straight for morning exercise!
I) strtaing with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, I tried on speed, but my body refused so I just did as fast as I could to not feint or get dizzy and next 5 minutes I continued in increasing holdins and end up at 7 seconds in each possition. Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercise... these holding techniques are crazy o.O. Last 15 minutes I was dancing, great as allways :) Lets see what other this already beautifull day brings!
II) Afternoon we went sliding with sled and bob, outside fell a lot of new snow, its allways quite a training to pull up stuff up the hill, but its definettely worth a ride :)
III) Later on I spend coupld of hours of completing furniture, I was so greatfull for mine training, I could work in realy crazy possitions to do some stuff, if I wouldnt train I would realy suffer today :P
sobota 23. února 2013
23.2.2013 - 85,7kg, seems my weight is somehow stabilized, lets see in next days.
I woke up before 8 and we had a lot of sex this morning so I left morning exerciswe for a bit later.
I) I started morning exercise with 10 minutes or relaxing, yet precise Sun Salutations, it was good to stretch the body properly. Next 5 minutes I tried new thing, 5 regular pushups, 5 on left and 5 on right arm only, next 5 situps straight, 5 left, 5 right and last third 5 squats, 5 on left leg and 5 on right leg and then again pushups and so on, I call it "ultra pyramide" :) But it will take some time to learn one-arm pushups and 1-leg squats, its not easy to find right technique without a teacher. Next 10 minutes I did belly muscle exercises and last 15 minutes of dancing, great as allways :)
II) Rest of the day I was just resting and having fun and great times with my womanfriend.
I woke up before 8 and we had a lot of sex this morning so I left morning exerciswe for a bit later.
I) I started morning exercise with 10 minutes or relaxing, yet precise Sun Salutations, it was good to stretch the body properly. Next 5 minutes I tried new thing, 5 regular pushups, 5 on left and 5 on right arm only, next 5 situps straight, 5 left, 5 right and last third 5 squats, 5 on left leg and 5 on right leg and then again pushups and so on, I call it "ultra pyramide" :) But it will take some time to learn one-arm pushups and 1-leg squats, its not easy to find right technique without a teacher. Next 10 minutes I did belly muscle exercises and last 15 minutes of dancing, great as allways :)
II) Rest of the day I was just resting and having fun and great times with my womanfriend.
čtvrtek 21. února 2013
22.2.2013 - 85,8kg - pizza strikes back, I dont know if I have more because I "knew" Im going to have more after pizza or if its natural :P But then.. what is natural.... our universe is build from our thoughts.
I slept well and long, went sleep very early and at the morning straight for morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation (fast 10) and shadowboxing and followed by Pyramid from 12 this time which means 78 pushups 78 situps and 78 crunches in total and as a bonus I tried 2+2+2 so 80 in total. Its realy intensive, I have no idea how far I can go in this pyramide, how fast I can be and from what number I can start to end under 8 minutes. But Im eager to find out :P Last 25 minutes I spend dancing, it wasnt easy after pyramide, but not the less great and helpfull. Oneof songs I listened to was Pachelbel - Canon In D Major amazing song. It realy touched me so deeply, yesterday I saw video form one island deep in the see where are birds dying because of eating of stuff which humans throws into the sea and my faith in humanity droped to very low again, but this song restored it all, if human beings are able to compose, play and share something such beautiful as this song... then humanity still have a chance, even if before last one.
II) Today final exam in the course, I was nervous like a dog, but I did it, sucessfully finished these 3 week marathon of learning and massaging :) It was great, its so long time since I realy finished something and it was realy so important for me because of that. It wasnt realy somehow crazy hard or so crazy important, thats not the point. It was more like - Im able to do lots of stuff good or dedicate a lot, but I have problem to actualy finish something, Im not stoping at 30 or 40% done, I usualy start holding back at 95% or something. Simply near the end I lost interest, because to actualy finish is basicaly same as Im right now. And this aproach I dont feel realy healthy so it was realy important for me to finish this course succesfully to the end with clear mind and knowing that I deserve certificate and all honors. I felt that to finish this sucesfully could open some closed doors in me and it realy did, I feel highly motivated into further studies and not just motivated, |I want to, I want to feel safe to tell people what education I did and what makes me able to work with them. So, long story short, I was realy happy, like - truly, pure happiness, I felt it as a milestone in my life.
III) Rest of the day I just traveled, I need rest, to let my body recuperate from all those massages and stress.
I slept well and long, went sleep very early and at the morning straight for morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation (fast 10) and shadowboxing and followed by Pyramid from 12 this time which means 78 pushups 78 situps and 78 crunches in total and as a bonus I tried 2+2+2 so 80 in total. Its realy intensive, I have no idea how far I can go in this pyramide, how fast I can be and from what number I can start to end under 8 minutes. But Im eager to find out :P Last 25 minutes I spend dancing, it wasnt easy after pyramide, but not the less great and helpfull. Oneof songs I listened to was Pachelbel - Canon In D Major amazing song. It realy touched me so deeply, yesterday I saw video form one island deep in the see where are birds dying because of eating of stuff which humans throws into the sea and my faith in humanity droped to very low again, but this song restored it all, if human beings are able to compose, play and share something such beautiful as this song... then humanity still have a chance, even if before last one.
II) Today final exam in the course, I was nervous like a dog, but I did it, sucessfully finished these 3 week marathon of learning and massaging :) It was great, its so long time since I realy finished something and it was realy so important for me because of that. It wasnt realy somehow crazy hard or so crazy important, thats not the point. It was more like - Im able to do lots of stuff good or dedicate a lot, but I have problem to actualy finish something, Im not stoping at 30 or 40% done, I usualy start holding back at 95% or something. Simply near the end I lost interest, because to actualy finish is basicaly same as Im right now. And this aproach I dont feel realy healthy so it was realy important for me to finish this course succesfully to the end with clear mind and knowing that I deserve certificate and all honors. I felt that to finish this sucesfully could open some closed doors in me and it realy did, I feel highly motivated into further studies and not just motivated, |I want to, I want to feel safe to tell people what education I did and what makes me able to work with them. So, long story short, I was realy happy, like - truly, pure happiness, I felt it as a milestone in my life.
III) Rest of the day I just traveled, I need rest, to let my body recuperate from all those massages and stress.
středa 20. února 2013
21.2.2013 - 85,4kg - finaly change :)
I slept well, but not enough, I could use couple more hours truth to be said! But streight for morning exercise anyway :)
I) Starting with 10 fast Sun Salutations and shadowboxing - good heat up as ever, followed by 10 minutes of belly muscles. I did holdings again on belly and its realy something, feeling like I want to explore this more, how long I can hold it and how long after a while and ho many times I can do it like this and how will my muscles feel afterwards, its interesting :) Last 25 minutes I spent dancing, I enjoed it a lot today, even created some new moves, oh yeah baby 8) :)
Oh yeah.. and I did 24 extra pushups today, which is again new record :P
II) Then I went to last day of massage course, it was easy, repeating day and we end up early which was good, I realy appriciate oportunity to take a rest before tommorow.
And that was it for today, later I met my sister with her 2 boys and it was realy nice meeting, I was surprised how happy it makes me to see them, boys are great, amazing young mans, funy, smart, joyful, kids in theyr best :)
I slept well, but not enough, I could use couple more hours truth to be said! But streight for morning exercise anyway :)
I) Starting with 10 fast Sun Salutations and shadowboxing - good heat up as ever, followed by 10 minutes of belly muscles. I did holdings again on belly and its realy something, feeling like I want to explore this more, how long I can hold it and how long after a while and ho many times I can do it like this and how will my muscles feel afterwards, its interesting :) Last 25 minutes I spent dancing, I enjoed it a lot today, even created some new moves, oh yeah baby 8) :)
Oh yeah.. and I did 24 extra pushups today, which is again new record :P
II) Then I went to last day of massage course, it was easy, repeating day and we end up early which was good, I realy appriciate oportunity to take a rest before tommorow.
And that was it for today, later I met my sister with her 2 boys and it was realy nice meeting, I was surprised how happy it makes me to see them, boys are great, amazing young mans, funy, smart, joyful, kids in theyr best :)
úterý 19. února 2013
20.2.2013 - 85,7kg - 3rd day same weight, I think its good.
I slept very well tonight, very well and woke up fresh and ready and straight for morning exercise :)
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation - I tried to combine dnamic, smooth performance with superprecise possitions, it needs a lot of balancing and stabilizating, but its fun bodyplay. Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, first I did 10 repetitions on each side in dynamic way and then I wanted to do holdings in possitions for 5 sec, but made just 1 repetition on each side like that, its realy rich after dynamic part... and to the end of the limit I did 1 more repetition in dynamic way on each side. 3rd 10 minute block I did belly muscle exercises, today I tried more static possitions, its allways very rich :P And last 10 minutes I was dancing, allways so great after regular exercises... 8) A the end I did bonus pushups and I made 23 today, which is again new record since a new year, I think I did 30 or max top 33 in my best times. I want to excise this a lot... :)
II) Another day in a course, before last one actualy... exept of repetitions we did completely whole body today, it took something around 1 and 1/2 hour, when I recieved, it was a bit more - terribly boring, truth to be said. Very tiresome to do it in this way, just to fullfill what state wants from us to do the course.
III) At the evening I had a client, it was great to do some solid bodywork after day of classical massage, Shiatsu is so great system in comparicon to this swedish massage... of course it might be because I dont know much techniques or because I dont have such practice liek in Shiatsu, but... Shiatsu never gets boring to me.
Good day today! I learned a lot in anatomy and theory of massage and about people and myself as well. I know why Im not so eager to be betwean people, its so much ahppening, that I feel overhelmed soon, but its important to have this border healthy and not escape form people just because I cant hold this border. Life is so great, it puts constantly new and new challenges on different levels of dificulty, instantly after last challenge is completed :P Im only 33 (almost), but I feel like, I never enjoyed life as much as I do now.
I slept very well tonight, very well and woke up fresh and ready and straight for morning exercise :)
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation - I tried to combine dnamic, smooth performance with superprecise possitions, it needs a lot of balancing and stabilizating, but its fun bodyplay. Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, first I did 10 repetitions on each side in dynamic way and then I wanted to do holdings in possitions for 5 sec, but made just 1 repetition on each side like that, its realy rich after dynamic part... and to the end of the limit I did 1 more repetition in dynamic way on each side. 3rd 10 minute block I did belly muscle exercises, today I tried more static possitions, its allways very rich :P And last 10 minutes I was dancing, allways so great after regular exercises... 8) A the end I did bonus pushups and I made 23 today, which is again new record since a new year, I think I did 30 or max top 33 in my best times. I want to excise this a lot... :)
II) Another day in a course, before last one actualy... exept of repetitions we did completely whole body today, it took something around 1 and 1/2 hour, when I recieved, it was a bit more - terribly boring, truth to be said. Very tiresome to do it in this way, just to fullfill what state wants from us to do the course.
III) At the evening I had a client, it was great to do some solid bodywork after day of classical massage, Shiatsu is so great system in comparicon to this swedish massage... of course it might be because I dont know much techniques or because I dont have such practice liek in Shiatsu, but... Shiatsu never gets boring to me.
Good day today! I learned a lot in anatomy and theory of massage and about people and myself as well. I know why Im not so eager to be betwean people, its so much ahppening, that I feel overhelmed soon, but its important to have this border healthy and not escape form people just because I cant hold this border. Life is so great, it puts constantly new and new challenges on different levels of dificulty, instantly after last challenge is completed :P Im only 33 (almost), but I feel like, I never enjoyed life as much as I do now.
pondělí 18. února 2013
19.2.2013 - 85,7kg - same as yesterday
I slept deep and whole night and woke up by a alarm clock a 5:35... its way too early for me!!! And straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes, I felt that I cant rampage today so I took it easy, more focus on precision an holds in possitions, but I felt that something is not right with me. Next 10 minutes I would normaly do Kata1, but I felt that its not possible today so I played with gymnastic ball and various exercises for belly or legs. Rest 20 minutes I was dancing, it was good, I feel like no matter how I feel with energy in body, dancing is allways an option :)
II) Another day in a massage course, starting with extra massage early morning. I needed one more to have enough individual massages (massages which are nto done as a part or regular course time) else we did honey massage, I believe its good method realy, even from theory it seems to be very healthy technique, but not for me in this time of my life... it was sooo unconfortable and strangly painfull for me.. crazy.
III) At the evening I had a client, it was nice, we talk a lot abotui movies and I hope my client went home in much better state then he come (well, Im sure he wasnt such stressed any more at very least :D ).
IV) And after all this some learning of Anatomy for a course! What a joy... nah, its good to elarn it realy, its just so many ways I hae to learn this stuff, if it would be just muscles and bones it would be fine, but to know groups and how they work together - there it starts being a bit complicated. Not a bigie, its just so less time for all this with all stuff I want to do...
Anyway, good day today :)
I slept deep and whole night and woke up by a alarm clock a 5:35... its way too early for me!!! And straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes, I felt that I cant rampage today so I took it easy, more focus on precision an holds in possitions, but I felt that something is not right with me. Next 10 minutes I would normaly do Kata1, but I felt that its not possible today so I played with gymnastic ball and various exercises for belly or legs. Rest 20 minutes I was dancing, it was good, I feel like no matter how I feel with energy in body, dancing is allways an option :)
II) Another day in a massage course, starting with extra massage early morning. I needed one more to have enough individual massages (massages which are nto done as a part or regular course time) else we did honey massage, I believe its good method realy, even from theory it seems to be very healthy technique, but not for me in this time of my life... it was sooo unconfortable and strangly painfull for me.. crazy.
III) At the evening I had a client, it was nice, we talk a lot abotui movies and I hope my client went home in much better state then he come (well, Im sure he wasnt such stressed any more at very least :D ).
IV) And after all this some learning of Anatomy for a course! What a joy... nah, its good to elarn it realy, its just so many ways I hae to learn this stuff, if it would be just muscles and bones it would be fine, but to know groups and how they work together - there it starts being a bit complicated. Not a bigie, its just so less time for all this with all stuff I want to do...
Anyway, good day today :)
neděle 17. února 2013
18.2.2013 - 86kg border BROKEN!!! 85,7kg.
10kg DOWN since new year!!
And still not-smoker :D
I slept well, even I could not fall asleep. I used this state to play with my energy and body, experimented with relaxation of parts, in bringing ying energy to surface to fall asleep, to use meridian points of heart on wrists to calm my shen (spirit). It was really fascinating, at the end I would say I could feel whats exactly going on in me. I tried to direct this reckless energy which wont let me fall asleep to nourish my body, to go instead to the brain into my bones and muscles and after some time I felt like its working and my body is humming with this energy. It started to go into brain again when I lost focus, but at the end it somehow stopped and my jin finally arises to surface, yang energy submerged and I felt asleep :) At the morning right for morning exercise!
I) Starting with Sun Salutation on speed, I did very well today, 43 repetitions in 10 minutes limit, I felt really great, at the end this speed took my breath away a bit, but I hod till 45 repetitions on speed and then did 8 or 9 (I dont even know, because I was really done at that time) of very precious repetitions on dynamic, slow pace. next 10 minutes of belly muscles, I tried some new combination again and it worked well if I may say - I spend like 1/3 of time resting, because my muscles were done :P Last 15 minutes I spend with dancing :) It wasnt easy at all at start, but at the end I could enjoy dancing a lot.
As addition I did push-up serie at the end and I did 22 poush-ups, and it was another record for today for me since I started this training :) I wanted also do udiana-bandha practice, but I was done so I skiped that.
II) Then another day in massage course, today we massage legs and arms, I had luck on a girl with fantastic hands so I could finally even enjoy the massage and we also repeated a lot so I felt a bit more comfortable with exams.
III) Afternoon at home I had a client, I was terribly tired and it took me lots of strength to be present for a client and to treat as was necessary and I think I did well.
It was really exhausting day and I still feel something like shades of burnout for some reason,I must be really nice to myself these days.
10kg DOWN since new year!!
And still not-smoker :D
I slept well, even I could not fall asleep. I used this state to play with my energy and body, experimented with relaxation of parts, in bringing ying energy to surface to fall asleep, to use meridian points of heart on wrists to calm my shen (spirit). It was really fascinating, at the end I would say I could feel whats exactly going on in me. I tried to direct this reckless energy which wont let me fall asleep to nourish my body, to go instead to the brain into my bones and muscles and after some time I felt like its working and my body is humming with this energy. It started to go into brain again when I lost focus, but at the end it somehow stopped and my jin finally arises to surface, yang energy submerged and I felt asleep :) At the morning right for morning exercise!
I) Starting with Sun Salutation on speed, I did very well today, 43 repetitions in 10 minutes limit, I felt really great, at the end this speed took my breath away a bit, but I hod till 45 repetitions on speed and then did 8 or 9 (I dont even know, because I was really done at that time) of very precious repetitions on dynamic, slow pace. next 10 minutes of belly muscles, I tried some new combination again and it worked well if I may say - I spend like 1/3 of time resting, because my muscles were done :P Last 15 minutes I spend with dancing :) It wasnt easy at all at start, but at the end I could enjoy dancing a lot.
As addition I did push-up serie at the end and I did 22 poush-ups, and it was another record for today for me since I started this training :) I wanted also do udiana-bandha practice, but I was done so I skiped that.
II) Then another day in massage course, today we massage legs and arms, I had luck on a girl with fantastic hands so I could finally even enjoy the massage and we also repeated a lot so I felt a bit more comfortable with exams.
III) Afternoon at home I had a client, I was terribly tired and it took me lots of strength to be present for a client and to treat as was necessary and I think I did well.
It was really exhausting day and I still feel something like shades of burnout for some reason,I must be really nice to myself these days.
17.2.2013 - 86,2kg - yuchu, again on this weight :3
I slept realy hard whole night, and I still feel, that it would be great to sleep out, but I cant sadly. Today I didnt made morning exercise like usualy, I decided to take rest today.
I) so I was just dancing for joy for about 30 minutes, to move stiff parts of my body and have some fun as well!
II) Afternoon I gave a massage to a friend, I have almost all I need to complete a course, hopefully I could make it.
I felt totaly overheated for rest of the day, my body gave me clear signal, that I shuld rest and regenerate and I listened to my body. I like my body : )So for rest of the day I was just learning for a course and watching movies.
I slept realy hard whole night, and I still feel, that it would be great to sleep out, but I cant sadly. Today I didnt made morning exercise like usualy, I decided to take rest today.
I) so I was just dancing for joy for about 30 minutes, to move stiff parts of my body and have some fun as well!
II) Afternoon I gave a massage to a friend, I have almost all I need to complete a course, hopefully I could make it.
I felt totaly overheated for rest of the day, my body gave me clear signal, that I shuld rest and regenerate and I listened to my body. I like my body : )So for rest of the day I was just learning for a course and watching movies.
sobota 16. února 2013
16.2.2013 - 86,6kg = same as yesterday
I slept well, Im somehow set up to wake up at 6 already, wasnt so easy to sleep out till 7 :P And straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutations and shadowboxing, Im trying to do it faster, its good cardio like this at the morning, I tell ya. Next 10 minutes I did Pyramide from 11, I did 11-8 fully and rest pretty good in very good time, even went from 1 with increasing again up to 5, so next time I want to start with pyramide from 12. Rest of the time I was dancing, it was so great today, first I got touched again during Bach Air On the G String (Trance Remix)-Reason Trance and then surprised me out of nothing this song ENTER SHIKARI - QUELLE SURPRISE first when singer is singing You are not gonna take away our dreams" I heard "your dreams". I was just in very wild energy at that moment when this started, like... it wasnt realy dance anymore, just simply wild moves without sence, very relaxed, meditative state and into this started this "You are not gona take away your dreams..." it totaly disolved me, something in me moved very strong, something strong, old, long time burried and I was touched very much by this. Its amazing what can happen if you are not in control, everything I would say.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, I have not much to write, I was focusing mainly on my body... or more specidicaly... tried to switch off my fucking mind radio and focus on body, I must confess I took it a bit more in sport-way. Tried to work with micro-movements with my spine and feel whats happening in my body. It was good to do it anyway!
III) Later I had friend for massage practice for the course Im doing, it lasted for about 1hor and 10 minutes and I was totaly done afterwards. Even my body started to give clear signals (specific pains in lower back) that I should stop doing stuff and take a rest.. so I did :)
I slept well, Im somehow set up to wake up at 6 already, wasnt so easy to sleep out till 7 :P And straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutations and shadowboxing, Im trying to do it faster, its good cardio like this at the morning, I tell ya. Next 10 minutes I did Pyramide from 11, I did 11-8 fully and rest pretty good in very good time, even went from 1 with increasing again up to 5, so next time I want to start with pyramide from 12. Rest of the time I was dancing, it was so great today, first I got touched again during Bach Air On the G String (Trance Remix)-Reason Trance and then surprised me out of nothing this song ENTER SHIKARI - QUELLE SURPRISE first when singer is singing You are not gonna take away our dreams" I heard "your dreams". I was just in very wild energy at that moment when this started, like... it wasnt realy dance anymore, just simply wild moves without sence, very relaxed, meditative state and into this started this "You are not gona take away your dreams..." it totaly disolved me, something in me moved very strong, something strong, old, long time burried and I was touched very much by this. Its amazing what can happen if you are not in control, everything I would say.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, I have not much to write, I was focusing mainly on my body... or more specidicaly... tried to switch off my fucking mind radio and focus on body, I must confess I took it a bit more in sport-way. Tried to work with micro-movements with my spine and feel whats happening in my body. It was good to do it anyway!
III) Later I had friend for massage practice for the course Im doing, it lasted for about 1hor and 10 minutes and I was totaly done afterwards. Even my body started to give clear signals (specific pains in lower back) that I should stop doing stuff and take a rest.. so I did :)
čtvrtek 14. února 2013
15.2.2013 - 86,6kg - yeah, yeah, its muscles gain! :D
I slept well and woke up even before alarm clock and felt slept out, for 6 hour sleep its good. I suspect brahmacharia practice I did yesterday helped and maybe udianabandha practice yesterday in a course as well. I feel for longer time that I have acces to realy huge resources of energy, I even feel like it flows through me... but not into me, Im somehow cut from this energy even its right there, and this energy can nourish me more then air or food, its interesting to work with this. Anyway, right to the morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadowboxing, doing those 5xSS faster so I can do more shadowboxing, its realy great warm up in motion. After warm up 10 minutes of belly muscles, I gave to my belly muscles all I could :) Rest of the time, 25 minutes, I was dancing, it wasnt so easy, Im a bit stuck and my weist pained after belly muscle exercise, but after about 15 minutes it was fine and I could enjoy movement a lot. Like yesterday I felt Koan Sound - Blessed as good grounding song, today I felt Jen meets Can7 - Temptation & Seduction as total heart song. Its realy amazing song.
II) then another day on massage course, today we massage a lot, arms and shoulders, who back and lavastone massage of a face - I was realy dizzy from all those massages at the end of the day. I feel I must be realy soft on me at these times.
III) I wanted to exercise more, and do yoga, but when I started with Padahastasana, client come so I had to interupt and I could not continue afterwards, even I realy tried. But I dont think its bad, I realy feel I have to be easy on me.
I bought gymnastic ball today, looking forward for all crazy exercise this amazing thing offers :)
I slept well and woke up even before alarm clock and felt slept out, for 6 hour sleep its good. I suspect brahmacharia practice I did yesterday helped and maybe udianabandha practice yesterday in a course as well. I feel for longer time that I have acces to realy huge resources of energy, I even feel like it flows through me... but not into me, Im somehow cut from this energy even its right there, and this energy can nourish me more then air or food, its interesting to work with this. Anyway, right to the morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadowboxing, doing those 5xSS faster so I can do more shadowboxing, its realy great warm up in motion. After warm up 10 minutes of belly muscles, I gave to my belly muscles all I could :) Rest of the time, 25 minutes, I was dancing, it wasnt so easy, Im a bit stuck and my weist pained after belly muscle exercise, but after about 15 minutes it was fine and I could enjoy movement a lot. Like yesterday I felt Koan Sound - Blessed as good grounding song, today I felt Jen meets Can7 - Temptation & Seduction as total heart song. Its realy amazing song.
II) then another day on massage course, today we massage a lot, arms and shoulders, who back and lavastone massage of a face - I was realy dizzy from all those massages at the end of the day. I feel I must be realy soft on me at these times.
III) I wanted to exercise more, and do yoga, but when I started with Padahastasana, client come so I had to interupt and I could not continue afterwards, even I realy tried. But I dont think its bad, I realy feel I have to be easy on me.
I bought gymnastic ball today, looking forward for all crazy exercise this amazing thing offers :)
středa 13. února 2013
14.2.2013 - 86,2kg - yeah, 0,5 less then yesterday :3
I slept very hard today, alarm clock woke me up, but geting up was easy so straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with Sun Salutations, I did version with longer holdings each repetition, dont know why I did more then usualy, but ended at 10 seconds and did couple of more in dynamic way. Following 10 minutes I did Kata1, today I did 13 repetitions on each side, its realy great exercise, I feel that I use muscles I dont use much normaly, stabilization muscles, ass muscles, unusual angle for push-up, Im allways realy worked out after doing these, feels good :) Next 10 minutes I spend with belly muscles, this new hard version of sit-ups is realy interesting, my muscles feels like runing out from body at the end :D Last 10 minutes I was dancing, last song Koan Sound -Blessed is realy great, right after it started I felt like my 1st chakra starts to be active, realy great song for grounding :)
II) Then I went to massage course, today we did a LOT, including massage of belly, chest and shoulders.
III) At home I did extra exercise, not yoga, because of tantra course today. I did 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, extreme precise repetitions with all focus on precision and only if it was fine also a bit faster. Next 10 minutes I tried some new exercises, something called "Mountain Climbers", "Dragon Walks" - extremely juicy way to move :P and I started to practice to make a bridge, Im not sure if its not too early, if my lower back is strong enough already for this, lets see tommorow what my body tells me. I would want to do these extra exercises, its so great when body works so great, no pains, things which were difficult are pleasant, moving is pleasant... At the end I dance for 10 minutes. It was good exercise :)
IV) At the evening I went to tantra course, new student come, guy Dan on wheelchair, we had to pick his chair with him up the stairs (short stairs), those electric wheelchairs are quite heavy! Course was a bit more fun then usualy, its pitty I cant find some good group in Brno, this one is like heap of shit with a bit of pearls inside which I have to dig to. Im more coming there to actualy leave my flat and go betwean possibly-like-minded people. And today it was realy great in this way, this Dan was awesome, weak, malformed body, couldnt almost move, but man... he had more power then most of people I meet during the day, strong, present voice, great, fiting questions from which I could feel that he is realy selfconscious and want to live good with all cards he have, no selfpitty (as far as I could recognise from this short meeting). I felt realy big symphathies to this guy even I saw him first time - but not pitty because hes disabled. I realy hope he will come more, I feel that this is exactly energy (of him) I miss in a course.
On the way from a course, in a tram, I got suddenly amazingly strong sensation of absolut, total, unconditional happyness, it lasted for about a minute, but it was soooo beatifull, I have no idea from where it came from and I dont care, Im just greatfull for it, I almost forgot how it feels to be just happy without reason, I wish you all could experience it as well.
Great day today!
I slept very hard today, alarm clock woke me up, but geting up was easy so straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with Sun Salutations, I did version with longer holdings each repetition, dont know why I did more then usualy, but ended at 10 seconds and did couple of more in dynamic way. Following 10 minutes I did Kata1, today I did 13 repetitions on each side, its realy great exercise, I feel that I use muscles I dont use much normaly, stabilization muscles, ass muscles, unusual angle for push-up, Im allways realy worked out after doing these, feels good :) Next 10 minutes I spend with belly muscles, this new hard version of sit-ups is realy interesting, my muscles feels like runing out from body at the end :D Last 10 minutes I was dancing, last song Koan Sound -Blessed is realy great, right after it started I felt like my 1st chakra starts to be active, realy great song for grounding :)
II) Then I went to massage course, today we did a LOT, including massage of belly, chest and shoulders.
III) At home I did extra exercise, not yoga, because of tantra course today. I did 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, extreme precise repetitions with all focus on precision and only if it was fine also a bit faster. Next 10 minutes I tried some new exercises, something called "Mountain Climbers", "Dragon Walks" - extremely juicy way to move :P and I started to practice to make a bridge, Im not sure if its not too early, if my lower back is strong enough already for this, lets see tommorow what my body tells me. I would want to do these extra exercises, its so great when body works so great, no pains, things which were difficult are pleasant, moving is pleasant... At the end I dance for 10 minutes. It was good exercise :)
IV) At the evening I went to tantra course, new student come, guy Dan on wheelchair, we had to pick his chair with him up the stairs (short stairs), those electric wheelchairs are quite heavy! Course was a bit more fun then usualy, its pitty I cant find some good group in Brno, this one is like heap of shit with a bit of pearls inside which I have to dig to. Im more coming there to actualy leave my flat and go betwean possibly-like-minded people. And today it was realy great in this way, this Dan was awesome, weak, malformed body, couldnt almost move, but man... he had more power then most of people I meet during the day, strong, present voice, great, fiting questions from which I could feel that he is realy selfconscious and want to live good with all cards he have, no selfpitty (as far as I could recognise from this short meeting). I felt realy big symphathies to this guy even I saw him first time - but not pitty because hes disabled. I realy hope he will come more, I feel that this is exactly energy (of him) I miss in a course.
On the way from a course, in a tram, I got suddenly amazingly strong sensation of absolut, total, unconditional happyness, it lasted for about a minute, but it was soooo beatifull, I have no idea from where it came from and I dont care, Im just greatfull for it, I almost forgot how it feels to be just happy without reason, I wish you all could experience it as well.
Great day today!
úterý 12. února 2013
13.2.2013 86,9kg - 0,2 more then yesterday but its fine, Im so longing for 85,9 that I dont wonder to not get closer, I have to let it go (to reach drop weight of 10kg) and just live happy!
I) I slept very well today, woke up short before alarm rung and sraight for morning exercise! Starting with Sun Salutations on speed, I did 39 and limit of 10min ended during 40th repetition, I think I got delay a bit in focusing on technique, however I realy enjoyed it today, my body worked as good-oiled machine, smooth and pain-less, I did total of 45 repetitions in fast, dynamic pace and other 8 in slower, dynamic pace and I felt great as hell afetrwards, Sun Salutations are amazing realy :) Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercise, tuning new way of doing sit-ups, more dificult, but I feel side muscles and front upper muscles much better and this "new" way need more strenght, I couldnt even exercise fully whole 10 minutes. Its great. Last 15 minutes I was dancing, today I felt great and it was so amazing to dance, I felt free.
II) Today course we did just one massage, but honestly, Im happy about that, I was crazy tired today. However... on the way home I had to go to some other place in a city and spend 35 minutes in a tram and I did breathing exercise with breathing into chakras and aura and some more energetical work and man... Im not sure what caused that, but I was charged like battery, my main energetical circle (energy flowing through rear and front middle meridian). It was realy nice and powerfull, I felt like sparkling :)
III) later I did yoga, I alternated my setup for more grounding and replaced Sukhasana so my current setup is:
Padahastasana
Andrachandrasana
Bhadrasana
Pashcimotasana
Halasana
Shaladhasana
Viraasana Jin/Jang versions
Yoniasana
Sarvangasana
Yoga mudra
I felt, that is important to ground myself more so thats why replacing Sukhasana with Shaladhasna. I feel I could experiement some more with this. I felt very good afterwards anyway and I could go realy a lot into possitions. Im not sure if its result of all exercises I do or this lot of massages Im recieving on the course helped so much :)
IV) Later on I practiced on flute a bit, it was fun, I got very strong impuls to try to make duets with myself, I mean - record each voice seperately and mix them up, its not so easy as it sounds, but I want to try it with some software :)
I had very creative mood at the evening, then I could experience how can simple chat stop this energy flow so fast. Im courious if is possible to work with immunity to that, I mean - if its possible to keep neergy flow I want and not let it stop by outter influence.
I) I slept very well today, woke up short before alarm rung and sraight for morning exercise! Starting with Sun Salutations on speed, I did 39 and limit of 10min ended during 40th repetition, I think I got delay a bit in focusing on technique, however I realy enjoyed it today, my body worked as good-oiled machine, smooth and pain-less, I did total of 45 repetitions in fast, dynamic pace and other 8 in slower, dynamic pace and I felt great as hell afetrwards, Sun Salutations are amazing realy :) Next 10 minutes I did belly muscles exercise, tuning new way of doing sit-ups, more dificult, but I feel side muscles and front upper muscles much better and this "new" way need more strenght, I couldnt even exercise fully whole 10 minutes. Its great. Last 15 minutes I was dancing, today I felt great and it was so amazing to dance, I felt free.
II) Today course we did just one massage, but honestly, Im happy about that, I was crazy tired today. However... on the way home I had to go to some other place in a city and spend 35 minutes in a tram and I did breathing exercise with breathing into chakras and aura and some more energetical work and man... Im not sure what caused that, but I was charged like battery, my main energetical circle (energy flowing through rear and front middle meridian). It was realy nice and powerfull, I felt like sparkling :)
III) later I did yoga, I alternated my setup for more grounding and replaced Sukhasana so my current setup is:
Padahastasana
Andrachandrasana
Bhadrasana
Pashcimotasana
Halasana
Shaladhasana
Viraasana Jin/Jang versions
Yoniasana
Sarvangasana
Yoga mudra
I felt, that is important to ground myself more so thats why replacing Sukhasana with Shaladhasna. I feel I could experiement some more with this. I felt very good afterwards anyway and I could go realy a lot into possitions. Im not sure if its result of all exercises I do or this lot of massages Im recieving on the course helped so much :)
IV) Later on I practiced on flute a bit, it was fun, I got very strong impuls to try to make duets with myself, I mean - record each voice seperately and mix them up, its not so easy as it sounds, but I want to try it with some software :)
I had very creative mood at the evening, then I could experience how can simple chat stop this energy flow so fast. Im courious if is possible to work with immunity to that, I mean - if its possible to keep neergy flow I want and not let it stop by outter influence.
pondělí 11. února 2013
12.2.2013 - 86,7kg - yupee :) :)
Tonight I slept good again, whole night and deep, I think I had some dreams, but dont remeber anything... and at the morning straight to morning exercise. And I survived no sweets yesterday!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadowboxing, today I made whole minute of active shadowboxing, its geting better and better. Next 10 minutes I did pyramide from 11, I made it fast today, but I feel I need more regular exercise for pushups, biceps and triceps and latisimus dorsi are so lazy muscles, you gave them a bit of rest and they weaken already... rest of the time, 25 minutes I was dancing, it wassnt easy because of stiff body, but it was great to move my stiff body... :P Yeah, I enjoyed it too.
12.2.2013 - 86,7kg
5.1.2013 95,6kg
5.1.2013 95,6kg
17.1.2013 91,4kg
12.2.2013 86,7kg
II) Another day on a massage course: Today we did repeated legs and arms, not much more to add realy, just that this my perception of people is probadly changing in general so I realy see people more beautiful. Not just young girls, even man and old people and I dont mean sexualy, or only sexualy, its general perception of beauty. I think my womanfriend opened this in me, this weekend I had feeling like I took of some immaginary glasses which I wore and I saw better. Or it maybe started during my IKEA visit last weekend and this experience cracked something which visit of my womanfrind finished to open. Immposible to say, but result is great, its great to see beautifull people all around, for me it totaly is, its like eye-candy anytime I go betwean other people.
III) At the evening old friend visited me, he was a model for individual massages I have to do for a course, he was good in this, because hes realy big :D
Realy good day today, full, exhausting in some way. I also went to post by foot, shich was nice trip up and down the hill on slipy new snow, good for my legs! :D I love my life today realy :3
Im tired, but naturaly tired. I feel I did realy good today, Im especialy proud, that when I got home with a plan to take a rest before friend come for massage, I rather went to post to pick up my package (I had e note in postbox about package), normaly I would let it on other day, but it was natural today to change this habit and go straight away to the post office for it - to have it done. I feel it energeticaly good. Its funy, I was thinking about it just shortly before I discovered note about package in my postbox. I was thinking, that if I do something without delay, it wont give me more time to rest or anything, it just open space for more stuff to come. Of course it can end up in worholism so even in this is important for me to find healthy middle, but it was interesting though. I feel exiting to play with this stuff, to do something to free space for something else, like: to let go something or someone, to throw away something, to give something to someone, to return loans and borrowed things, or, like today - to not delay doing something you have to do anyway (if you wont suffer consequences of course).
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Tonight I slept good again, whole night and deep, I think I had some dreams, but dont remeber anything... and at the morning straight to morning exercise. And I survived no sweets yesterday!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadowboxing, today I made whole minute of active shadowboxing, its geting better and better. Next 10 minutes I did pyramide from 11, I made it fast today, but I feel I need more regular exercise for pushups, biceps and triceps and latisimus dorsi are so lazy muscles, you gave them a bit of rest and they weaken already... rest of the time, 25 minutes I was dancing, it wassnt easy because of stiff body, but it was great to move my stiff body... :P Yeah, I enjoyed it too.
12.2.2013 - 86,7kg
II) Another day on a massage course: Today we did repeated legs and arms, not much more to add realy, just that this my perception of people is probadly changing in general so I realy see people more beautiful. Not just young girls, even man and old people and I dont mean sexualy, or only sexualy, its general perception of beauty. I think my womanfriend opened this in me, this weekend I had feeling like I took of some immaginary glasses which I wore and I saw better. Or it maybe started during my IKEA visit last weekend and this experience cracked something which visit of my womanfrind finished to open. Immposible to say, but result is great, its great to see beautifull people all around, for me it totaly is, its like eye-candy anytime I go betwean other people.
III) At the evening old friend visited me, he was a model for individual massages I have to do for a course, he was good in this, because hes realy big :D
Realy good day today, full, exhausting in some way. I also went to post by foot, shich was nice trip up and down the hill on slipy new snow, good for my legs! :D I love my life today realy :3
Im tired, but naturaly tired. I feel I did realy good today, Im especialy proud, that when I got home with a plan to take a rest before friend come for massage, I rather went to post to pick up my package (I had e note in postbox about package), normaly I would let it on other day, but it was natural today to change this habit and go straight away to the post office for it - to have it done. I feel it energeticaly good. Its funy, I was thinking about it just shortly before I discovered note about package in my postbox. I was thinking, that if I do something without delay, it wont give me more time to rest or anything, it just open space for more stuff to come. Of course it can end up in worholism so even in this is important for me to find healthy middle, but it was interesting though. I feel exiting to play with this stuff, to do something to free space for something else, like: to let go something or someone, to throw away something, to give something to someone, to return loans and borrowed things, or, like today - to not delay doing something you have to do anyway (if you wont suffer consequences of course).
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neděle 10. února 2013
11.2.2013 - 87,3kg yoohoo :)
I slept well today and woke up refreshed, that was great. And atright to morning exercise!
I) Today I did 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadowboxing + 10 minutes of belly muscles, rich today, nuf said. Last 25 minutes I spend with dancing :3
II) Today starting second week of the course, we did back and arms massage today, arms have so much steps, its crazy and we even didnt made shoulders. Else its realy nice course, people there are more seen now after a week and some of them are realy beautiful! I dont know where exactl yis this hatchery of stuningly beautiful woman in Brno, or its just because they are not just beatiful, but also actualy smart and nice persons. Or I just see the better in people more and more... who knows :)
III) At home I did yoga finaly again, it was realy good to do it, I felt great, objectively is my belly smaller and is not so much obstacle anymore so I can play a bit more with my body, Im however focusing more on exploring my mind during yoga, exploring what comes when, why those useless thoughts pop up and what happen if I can unbind from those thoughts. And its allways so great if I make to unbind! I also had this feeling today, that yoga is welcoming me back, it was so nice feeling, no shortened muscles, no pains, just warm welcome :)
IV) I also did one trial by fire today - I had crazy taste for sweets today after a course, I didnt bought any because I feel that its pitty to use money for sweets when i can use them for education, you know, its great to eat sweets, but after that, there is only useless shit, but nothing (but maybe Alzehaimer....) can take education from me. I felt like I will die if I dont buy and eat sweets.. and right now I still feel like that..,. so.... Im doing experiment... if you read new post tommorow... I survived, if not.... I died from lack of sweets, peacefully in the sleep...
V) I also practiced flute plying today, only for about 30 minutes, but it was nice anyway :)
Good night!
I slept well today and woke up refreshed, that was great. And atright to morning exercise!
I) Today I did 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadowboxing + 10 minutes of belly muscles, rich today, nuf said. Last 25 minutes I spend with dancing :3
II) Today starting second week of the course, we did back and arms massage today, arms have so much steps, its crazy and we even didnt made shoulders. Else its realy nice course, people there are more seen now after a week and some of them are realy beautiful! I dont know where exactl yis this hatchery of stuningly beautiful woman in Brno, or its just because they are not just beatiful, but also actualy smart and nice persons. Or I just see the better in people more and more... who knows :)
III) At home I did yoga finaly again, it was realy good to do it, I felt great, objectively is my belly smaller and is not so much obstacle anymore so I can play a bit more with my body, Im however focusing more on exploring my mind during yoga, exploring what comes when, why those useless thoughts pop up and what happen if I can unbind from those thoughts. And its allways so great if I make to unbind! I also had this feeling today, that yoga is welcoming me back, it was so nice feeling, no shortened muscles, no pains, just warm welcome :)
IV) I also did one trial by fire today - I had crazy taste for sweets today after a course, I didnt bought any because I feel that its pitty to use money for sweets when i can use them for education, you know, its great to eat sweets, but after that, there is only useless shit, but nothing (but maybe Alzehaimer....) can take education from me. I felt like I will die if I dont buy and eat sweets.. and right now I still feel like that..,. so.... Im doing experiment... if you read new post tommorow... I survived, if not.... I died from lack of sweets, peacefully in the sleep...
V) I also practiced flute plying today, only for about 30 minutes, but it was nice anyway :)
Good night!
10.2.2013 - 87,8kg = same as yesterday
I slept good today, dont remeber even any dreams, when we woke up, we had sex and after we got up I did morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, not on speed or holdings but on dynamic movement, smoothness and endurance in constant movement. Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, I made it in same way as Sun Salutation, dynamic and tryed to made it smooth, I did 12 repetitions on each side in time a bit over 10 minutes. I continued with 10 minutes of belly muscles and last 10 minutes I was dancing, dostn work so well, bcause I kicked my knee yesterday, so I had to be carefull, but this movement while dancing is allways good, even when it cant be wilde.
Later this day we just had lot of sex, no other exercises, was nice day, with ups and downs, full scale of life :)
I slept good today, dont remeber even any dreams, when we woke up, we had sex and after we got up I did morning exercise.
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, not on speed or holdings but on dynamic movement, smoothness and endurance in constant movement. Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, I made it in same way as Sun Salutation, dynamic and tryed to made it smooth, I did 12 repetitions on each side in time a bit over 10 minutes. I continued with 10 minutes of belly muscles and last 10 minutes I was dancing, dostn work so well, bcause I kicked my knee yesterday, so I had to be carefull, but this movement while dancing is allways good, even when it cant be wilde.
Later this day we just had lot of sex, no other exercises, was nice day, with ups and downs, full scale of life :)
sobota 9. února 2013
9.2.2013 - 87.8kg, 0,5 more then yesterday again, maybe another 0,5kg of muscles :P
At the morning we had long, amazing sex, it was nice morning exercise and energies of lvoe were floating realy strong and beautiful... :3
But anyway, I did a bit later on regular morning exercise, if only to catch up yesterday :) I started with 15 minutes of Sun Salutation, 10 minutes I focused on dynamic, smooth movement, to do it like one long movement without breaks, other 5 minutes I did a bit holdings in possitions to stimulate muscles. Next I did 10 minutes of belly musles, I used some tips from massage course I got from one phisiotherapist, it was strong :P And... last 15 minutes of dancing, I enjoyed it very much, it was great :)
Then we did some love-making couple of times.
At the evening I had a client and that was my day today, nice and easy, good change after this week.
At the morning we had long, amazing sex, it was nice morning exercise and energies of lvoe were floating realy strong and beautiful... :3
But anyway, I did a bit later on regular morning exercise, if only to catch up yesterday :) I started with 15 minutes of Sun Salutation, 10 minutes I focused on dynamic, smooth movement, to do it like one long movement without breaks, other 5 minutes I did a bit holdings in possitions to stimulate muscles. Next I did 10 minutes of belly musles, I used some tips from massage course I got from one phisiotherapist, it was strong :P And... last 15 minutes of dancing, I enjoyed it very much, it was great :)
Then we did some love-making couple of times.
At the evening I had a client and that was my day today, nice and easy, good change after this week.
čtvrtek 7. února 2013
8.2.2013 - 87.3kg
Seems I got 0,5kg of muscles yesterday, according to my theory abot my weight.... or liquids wont leave me again :P
I slept like a trunk and I could not wake up, did just very light morning exercise, parody on Sun Salutation and shadowboxing and then a bit of dancing, total for 10 minutes. I feel like half-dead - sleepy O.o
Course was demanding, because I felt dizzy and tired. But I made it... it was good anyway :)
At the evening I had nice, soft sex, loving end of this day :)
Seems I got 0,5kg of muscles yesterday, according to my theory abot my weight.... or liquids wont leave me again :P
I slept like a trunk and I could not wake up, did just very light morning exercise, parody on Sun Salutation and shadowboxing and then a bit of dancing, total for 10 minutes. I feel like half-dead - sleepy O.o
Course was demanding, because I felt dizzy and tired. But I made it... it was good anyway :)
At the evening I had nice, soft sex, loving end of this day :)
středa 6. února 2013
7.2.2013 - 87kg border BROKEN!! :) 86,8kg
I slept well tonight again, no wonder after all I have to do during the day :P And straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadow boxing. Followed by pyramide from 11, it went very nice, 11, 10 and 9 I did flawlessly, further on I needed a bit of cheeting for pushups, but not much, in overal I was realy happy how it went today, I also had lots of time to spare so I did a bit of side belly muscles exercise. Last 25 minutes I was dancing, I was lot stiff and after pyramide its allways harder, but it was fun, I felt relaxed from dance and I felt that its realy good to not let my body stiff.
I feel great :)
II) 4th day of a course, we did 2 massages today, legs from rear and front side, I felt good whole day realy.
III) At the evening I went to Tantra course, we did more exercise today then usualy, which was good, I have no time for yoga these days. I was so tired when I got home tho...
I slept well tonight again, no wonder after all I have to do during the day :P And straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutation and shadow boxing. Followed by pyramide from 11, it went very nice, 11, 10 and 9 I did flawlessly, further on I needed a bit of cheeting for pushups, but not much, in overal I was realy happy how it went today, I also had lots of time to spare so I did a bit of side belly muscles exercise. Last 25 minutes I was dancing, I was lot stiff and after pyramide its allways harder, but it was fun, I felt relaxed from dance and I felt that its realy good to not let my body stiff.
I feel great :)
II) 4th day of a course, we did 2 massages today, legs from rear and front side, I felt good whole day realy.
III) At the evening I went to Tantra course, we did more exercise today then usualy, which was good, I have no time for yoga these days. I was so tired when I got home tho...
úterý 5. února 2013
6.2.2013 - 87,8kg - under 88 again!
I woke up like 3 minutes before alarm clock... but I slept good, even I feel like I could use a couple of more hours of sleep. And straight to morning exercise.
I) As starter I did 5 minutes of Sun Salutations and shadow boxing, I was so lazy... :D But I wont torture myself, so I let myself to be a bit lazy today in heating up. Next I did 10 minutes of belly muscle boost and afterwards 25 minutes of dancing. I enjoed dancing a lot today again, right now I feel my body happy, stretched everywhere and blood flowing, its great feeling :)
II) Another day on a course, today 2 massages and a short 3rd one, Im starting to be pretty much "used". But I feel more and more how good is to do this. Very inspirative. Our lector is realy great, Im happy we have her.
III) At the evening clients, today more energetical work with chakras and flows, grounding and therapeutic work. No idea if it was like this because of course or soemthing, but I felt it totaly fiting to what was necessary to do today.
Good day today! Cant even write what all I learned today :) At very least I learned lot of new techniques and details from practice from the course.
I woke up like 3 minutes before alarm clock... but I slept good, even I feel like I could use a couple of more hours of sleep. And straight to morning exercise.
I) As starter I did 5 minutes of Sun Salutations and shadow boxing, I was so lazy... :D But I wont torture myself, so I let myself to be a bit lazy today in heating up. Next I did 10 minutes of belly muscle boost and afterwards 25 minutes of dancing. I enjoed dancing a lot today again, right now I feel my body happy, stretched everywhere and blood flowing, its great feeling :)
II) Another day on a course, today 2 massages and a short 3rd one, Im starting to be pretty much "used". But I feel more and more how good is to do this. Very inspirative. Our lector is realy great, Im happy we have her.
III) At the evening clients, today more energetical work with chakras and flows, grounding and therapeutic work. No idea if it was like this because of course or soemthing, but I felt it totaly fiting to what was necessary to do today.
Good day today! Cant even write what all I learned today :) At very least I learned lot of new techniques and details from practice from the course.
pondělí 4. února 2013
5.2.2013 - 88,1kg = almost 2kg less then yesterday, it seems my theory, that I have too much water in my body was right, yesterday I was like 10 times on the toilet and today this weight loss. Or its nerves :P
I slept well today. Woke up like 30 seconds before alarm started ringing na dstraight to morning exercise!
I) Started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, I choosed today to do it dynamic, but not like when doing on speed, more focused on being precise and onsmooth movement, it was great to start my being :) Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, today I made 12 repetitions on each side without major crisis, it was grat, Im allways afraid before doing Kata1 that I will not be ableto do it, its hard set. 3rd 10 minute part I did belly muscles, tody I felt that I feel my belly muscles much better and I can feel variable muscles more separately, not completely yet, but hey... its just first day of my new life! Last 10 minutes I spend with dancing, I could not somehow flow into it today, it might be music which was randomly chosen, but anyway it wasnt so easy.
II) Massage course during the day, 2 massages, I feel like my system is starting to overheat, like pre-process state, I donbt feel like I want to be in process right now... but often I cant choose this of course :D Feel course better and better tho.
III) At the evening clients, good work I would say, clients seems to be very relieve and felt great, that allways warms my heart :)
I slept well today. Woke up like 30 seconds before alarm started ringing na dstraight to morning exercise!
I) Started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, I choosed today to do it dynamic, but not like when doing on speed, more focused on being precise and onsmooth movement, it was great to start my being :) Next 10 minutes I did Kata1, today I made 12 repetitions on each side without major crisis, it was grat, Im allways afraid before doing Kata1 that I will not be ableto do it, its hard set. 3rd 10 minute part I did belly muscles, tody I felt that I feel my belly muscles much better and I can feel variable muscles more separately, not completely yet, but hey... its just first day of my new life! Last 10 minutes I spend with dancing, I could not somehow flow into it today, it might be music which was randomly chosen, but anyway it wasnt so easy.
II) Massage course during the day, 2 massages, I feel like my system is starting to overheat, like pre-process state, I donbt feel like I want to be in process right now... but often I cant choose this of course :D Feel course better and better tho.
III) At the evening clients, good work I would say, clients seems to be very relieve and felt great, that allways warms my heart :)
4.2.2013 - First day of masage course
89,9kg again :P
Today was realy crazy day, got to write my blog at 21:15... I woke up at 6am and started with morning exercises.
I) I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation starting with holding with 2 seconds in each possition and aising 1 sec each repetition, ending up at 10 seconds in every possition in 10 minutes limit. Next 10 minutes I was dancing, sadly, today I hadnt time for more.
II) Today I started my 3week long massage course, its good, just my time is very limited right now and recondition/sports massages are realy so narrow that it makes me wory if I will be able to follow these guildlines at exams, I hope I will be able to cut Shiatsu for this case... however our lector is realy great and my co-students are all young so its fresh atmosphere there :)
III) At the evening Ihad a client, I can take just one these days with course and all... it went good, I already felt like doing this course refresh many forgoten things from my first studies :)
89,9kg again :P
Today was realy crazy day, got to write my blog at 21:15... I woke up at 6am and started with morning exercises.
I) I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation starting with holding with 2 seconds in each possition and aising 1 sec each repetition, ending up at 10 seconds in every possition in 10 minutes limit. Next 10 minutes I was dancing, sadly, today I hadnt time for more.
II) Today I started my 3week long massage course, its good, just my time is very limited right now and recondition/sports massages are realy so narrow that it makes me wory if I will be able to follow these guildlines at exams, I hope I will be able to cut Shiatsu for this case... however our lector is realy great and my co-students are all young so its fresh atmosphere there :)
III) At the evening Ihad a client, I can take just one these days with course and all... it went good, I already felt like doing this course refresh many forgoten things from my first studies :)
neděle 3. února 2013
3.2.2013 - 89,9kg = same as yesterday
I slept well and felt ready to exercise almost instantly so without wasting too much time, right for the show!
I) I started with Sun Salutations on time and I made today 40 repetitions under 10 minutes, in fact I did 41 whole and bell ringed on 42th :) I continued till 45 on speed and then I did 6 more relaxed ones on holding till the 15 minutes bell. Next 10 minutes I dedicated to my beloved belly muscles and last 15 minutes to my even more beloved dancing :3 Great morning :) :)
II) Later at the mornig I did also yoga, again 3 minutes for each asana and it was very interesting today indeed. First asanas went good and at sukhasana I felt very strong cleaning, lot of sadness flowing away from my second chakra...
On Badhrasana I experienced very interesting sensation, short after I began, I started to feel very phisicaly like a woman is siting on me, I felt heat from her tights and her breasts on my chest, you must to understand, these feelings included these subtle details which man can feel when yabyum with a woman, mainly that heat and softness and feeling of weght was present, very clearly and very real. I even started having erection and I didnt focused on anything erotic, just on my first chakra. I have no idea what exactly happen, but agaist evrything what my mind is telling me (that its nonsence and it could not happen), it was simply there...
Yoniasana is giving me a lot of troubles, its so painfull, Im trying to embrace and welcome this pain, but its so strong, I want to work with that more.
I felt very well after yoga, it was realy great to do it today :)
III) At noon I went to IKEA and I experienced one thing I would love to share with you: short after entering I realized, that so many people (especialy woman) are very shining and present. In first moment I was surprised but I though... "alright, Im simply not allways awake to see people like this". But later on I understood - people were shining much more, because they were in this creative energy, thinking about what to put where, how to make it, how to fit it here and there, this strong, creative energy made them to be present and therafore to shine in theyr being, in theyr endless beauty. Or at least I felt it like this :) Yo... and walking almost 3 hours in IKEA is realy good exercise, I felt like after a hour of very intnse phisical exercise :P
I slept well and felt ready to exercise almost instantly so without wasting too much time, right for the show!
I) I started with Sun Salutations on time and I made today 40 repetitions under 10 minutes, in fact I did 41 whole and bell ringed on 42th :) I continued till 45 on speed and then I did 6 more relaxed ones on holding till the 15 minutes bell. Next 10 minutes I dedicated to my beloved belly muscles and last 15 minutes to my even more beloved dancing :3 Great morning :) :)
II) Later at the mornig I did also yoga, again 3 minutes for each asana and it was very interesting today indeed. First asanas went good and at sukhasana I felt very strong cleaning, lot of sadness flowing away from my second chakra...
On Badhrasana I experienced very interesting sensation, short after I began, I started to feel very phisicaly like a woman is siting on me, I felt heat from her tights and her breasts on my chest, you must to understand, these feelings included these subtle details which man can feel when yabyum with a woman, mainly that heat and softness and feeling of weght was present, very clearly and very real. I even started having erection and I didnt focused on anything erotic, just on my first chakra. I have no idea what exactly happen, but agaist evrything what my mind is telling me (that its nonsence and it could not happen), it was simply there...
Yoniasana is giving me a lot of troubles, its so painfull, Im trying to embrace and welcome this pain, but its so strong, I want to work with that more.
I felt very well after yoga, it was realy great to do it today :)
III) At noon I went to IKEA and I experienced one thing I would love to share with you: short after entering I realized, that so many people (especialy woman) are very shining and present. In first moment I was surprised but I though... "alright, Im simply not allways awake to see people like this". But later on I understood - people were shining much more, because they were in this creative energy, thinking about what to put where, how to make it, how to fit it here and there, this strong, creative energy made them to be present and therafore to shine in theyr being, in theyr endless beauty. Or at least I felt it like this :) Yo... and walking almost 3 hours in IKEA is realy good exercise, I felt like after a hour of very intnse phisical exercise :P
sobota 2. února 2013
2.2.2013 - wow, its already one month since this project started, time is runing like crazy!
1 month in non-smoker crowd :)
Today 89,9kg... BUT I found this trick, In immage of my goal Im very nicely musculatured and these muscles needs mass so Im not loosing weight, but my fat is transforming into muscles! So Im calm now 8)
Else I slept good and whole night, dont remeber any dreams. And after woke up straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutations and shadowboxing - my stamina for shadowboxing is slowly better, thats good. Then I did Pyramide from 11, that means 11x push-up, 11x belly flex, 11x Squat then in second repetition 10x push-up, 10x belly flex, 10x Squat and so on to 1x1x1 in last repetition. Where are times I did this from 15 in full range with no problems! It was in my past life... :)
Last 25 minutes I spend in dancing, today I choose realy good songs, starting with Rale - Abych Věděl this already touched me (I know its in czech, we have also few very deep songs :D ) and later on Bach - Air on G string it was so strong today, I could totaly let myself into flow of this great great music and it touched me so deep that when the song ended, my heart open wide and I started crying from that deep feeling, it was so beautiful, so beautiful... Bach was truly genius, Im so greatfull to not be deaf and to be able to enjoy this amazing music. I was so in a flow that I even danced couple of minutes longer ten 25 minutes :) Dancing is blessing.
II) Just did yoga, I decided to go back to the basics and did 3 minutes in each asana. It was good decision, I felt much more calmer and could feel deeper. I have to learn to not push realy. I realy enjoyed exercising yoga and on sukhasana I sudenly felt so sad, like if something realy sad flow on a surface from my second chakra. I felt realy touched of what was hapening in me, tho I cant say to what it was connected. Later I decided to do Joniasana before Sarvangasana.
On Joniasana I got strong, intensive energetical orgasm, very nice, my spine was weaving in the flows of energies from my pelvis up to my head, very unexpected and very nice. I think I understood connection betwean pain and pleasure, yes, I know in my mind that its just 2 sides of same coin, but since joniasana is very painfull for me yet it was surprising what sensations were showing up :)
And on Sarvangasana I felt like I dont want to support my back with hands, I felt like my body is doing what it wants to possition and I think I never was in possition such as now, I even had to pull my lower leg backwards to keep balance how much was rest of my body upwards, it felt all very natural, no pains, very relaxed, amazing afterwards when I lied down for shawasana.
On Shavasana I tried today to work with my sexual energy, to not escape from my desires and fantasies, but just to relax in them, it was very interesting, I let these hot immages come, but consciously I tried to relax, to melt into ground, breath calmly and consciously... It didnt work all so well as I write it, but hey, its just first day of my life and it went much better then expected, after 10 minutes I was calm and felt relaxed and free, not supresing myself, my desires....
And now I feel so great :3 <3 yoga :)
1 month in non-smoker crowd :)
Today 89,9kg... BUT I found this trick, In immage of my goal Im very nicely musculatured and these muscles needs mass so Im not loosing weight, but my fat is transforming into muscles! So Im calm now 8)
Else I slept good and whole night, dont remeber any dreams. And after woke up straight to morning exercise!
I) Starting with 5 minutes of Sun Salutations and shadowboxing - my stamina for shadowboxing is slowly better, thats good. Then I did Pyramide from 11, that means 11x push-up, 11x belly flex, 11x Squat then in second repetition 10x push-up, 10x belly flex, 10x Squat and so on to 1x1x1 in last repetition. Where are times I did this from 15 in full range with no problems! It was in my past life... :)
Last 25 minutes I spend in dancing, today I choose realy good songs, starting with Rale - Abych Věděl this already touched me (I know its in czech, we have also few very deep songs :D ) and later on Bach - Air on G string it was so strong today, I could totaly let myself into flow of this great great music and it touched me so deep that when the song ended, my heart open wide and I started crying from that deep feeling, it was so beautiful, so beautiful... Bach was truly genius, Im so greatfull to not be deaf and to be able to enjoy this amazing music. I was so in a flow that I even danced couple of minutes longer ten 25 minutes :) Dancing is blessing.
II) Just did yoga, I decided to go back to the basics and did 3 minutes in each asana. It was good decision, I felt much more calmer and could feel deeper. I have to learn to not push realy. I realy enjoyed exercising yoga and on sukhasana I sudenly felt so sad, like if something realy sad flow on a surface from my second chakra. I felt realy touched of what was hapening in me, tho I cant say to what it was connected. Later I decided to do Joniasana before Sarvangasana.
On Joniasana I got strong, intensive energetical orgasm, very nice, my spine was weaving in the flows of energies from my pelvis up to my head, very unexpected and very nice. I think I understood connection betwean pain and pleasure, yes, I know in my mind that its just 2 sides of same coin, but since joniasana is very painfull for me yet it was surprising what sensations were showing up :)
And on Sarvangasana I felt like I dont want to support my back with hands, I felt like my body is doing what it wants to possition and I think I never was in possition such as now, I even had to pull my lower leg backwards to keep balance how much was rest of my body upwards, it felt all very natural, no pains, very relaxed, amazing afterwards when I lied down for shawasana.
On Shavasana I tried today to work with my sexual energy, to not escape from my desires and fantasies, but just to relax in them, it was very interesting, I let these hot immages come, but consciously I tried to relax, to melt into ground, breath calmly and consciously... It didnt work all so well as I write it, but hey, its just first day of my life and it went much better then expected, after 10 minutes I was calm and felt relaxed and free, not supresing myself, my desires....
And now I feel so great :3 <3 yoga :)
pátek 1. února 2013
1.2.2013 - 89kg
Today I slept again very good and deep, I think my body realy needed rest after yesteday :) And right to morning exercise!
I) First I did 5 minutes of Sun Salutations (it was like zombie slowly remebering how to move) and then some shadowboxing, realy good starter, it made my blood flow as it shuld. Then I took 10 minutes of belly muscles exercise, again completely diferent setup, I think I wont mention it anymore that setup is different every day :P I could not make it for whole 10 minutes - but its just my first day after all... :D Next 25 minutes I spend dancing, I love dancing, did I told you that already? If not... I LOVE DANCING :)
II) Later I had clients, new ones, one amazing guy, its good to know mans who support idea, that not all mans are assholes.
III) At the evning I tried to do yoga, but I couldnt, Im in some strange process and could not push myself. Im not sure what it is about.
Out of record, saw Hobbit today. Realy good movie I would say, oposite to LotR which I dont like at all. Hobbit feels very fresh, like a true fairytale, dwarfs are tough and looks awesome, story is going on in relaxed tempo, no stress like in LotR, Goblin King was AWESOME and Galadriel as Kate Blanchet is probadly most sexy person on planet earth atm. So beautiful, so strong and so unreachable :) 10/10 for me.
Today I slept again very good and deep, I think my body realy needed rest after yesteday :) And right to morning exercise!
I) First I did 5 minutes of Sun Salutations (it was like zombie slowly remebering how to move) and then some shadowboxing, realy good starter, it made my blood flow as it shuld. Then I took 10 minutes of belly muscles exercise, again completely diferent setup, I think I wont mention it anymore that setup is different every day :P I could not make it for whole 10 minutes - but its just my first day after all... :D Next 25 minutes I spend dancing, I love dancing, did I told you that already? If not... I LOVE DANCING :)
II) Later I had clients, new ones, one amazing guy, its good to know mans who support idea, that not all mans are assholes.
III) At the evning I tried to do yoga, but I couldnt, Im in some strange process and could not push myself. Im not sure what it is about.
Out of record, saw Hobbit today. Realy good movie I would say, oposite to LotR which I dont like at all. Hobbit feels very fresh, like a true fairytale, dwarfs are tough and looks awesome, story is going on in relaxed tempo, no stress like in LotR, Goblin King was AWESOME and Galadriel as Kate Blanchet is probadly most sexy person on planet earth atm. So beautiful, so strong and so unreachable :) 10/10 for me.
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