28.2.2013 - 83,6kg
 Night was very refreshing and nourishing, dont even remeber if I dreamt something or not :) And at the morning I had very little time, so straight for morning exercise.
 I) Starting with 5 minutes of 10xSun Salutation and shadowboxing, followed by belly muscle exercises, combination of holdings and sit-ups, 270 situps today, already on 1/3 of what I used to do in deep past :) Last 25 minutes I was dancing, I focused on leting go and just dance wild, in no particular movements, just how the wild me wants. It wasnt easy at all! I was jumping all the time into patterns of dancing. I tried that, because I realized, that if I can go wild into dancing, to totaly fall into movements and music, my stuck emotions in my body can be set free and flow to the surface. Of course some music works better for it then other, but I believe its about me leting go then music itself, music is "just" a tool. I know its so mental construction, but I take it as a first step, I want in following days focus on leting go, to relax my belly and anus, to let energy of earth flow into me, nourish me and not get stuck on mental constructions and PLANS.... my mind is totaly crazy in last days with constructing PLANS all the time. I know its not bad and its creative process, but it makes me even to fall asleep harder, fucking mind radio... :)
 II) Later I had exchange massage with a friend, I made for her Shiatsu and she did Biomassage for me, I was quite tired afterwards, but its normal after such massage, it was great to give this care to myself.
 III) I had then very sporty travel session, I was pack with bags and notebook bag and heavy chacked and went by tram and after 2 stops I realized, that I dont have my wallet so I had to go back and run quite fast, then run on stairs and run back for tram, man.... I realy need to start runing regulary or sometimes, because its embarasing how much I was done afterwards... could not breath, I felt even my bottom jaw shivering from exhaustion, I was haking as well.... ough, crazy, this cant stay like this! Yeah and I had to run from Tram to bus but it was ok somehow, because I wasnt stressed if I make it or not. And for a record - I made it in last minute :P
 IV) At the evening I did yoga, I felt, even very tired after a long day, that I realy need to do it. And it was good, I was mainly enjoying my body, trying to relax. Easy my mind.


 There is one more thing I would like to share. When I was in a tram, praying for bus that its still there if I come to busstop. I was trying to play with my wishes, I made wishes and tryed to immagine how is reality changing. I have no idea if it worked or not, but We come just in time and I could make it. I tryed to not immagine (or visualize) bad things happening to stuff of bus company or to bus, just more like theyr company papers dont fits or something missing and waiting for it to come or driver going for toilet or this kind stuff. It was interesting. No matter if it worked or not, I was surprised how strong energy field it created , I could feel bruming like when big machine is huming. It ws more for me interesting experience then realy work or something, could be interesting to experiment with this a little and try if reality can be realy changed by strong wish and believe in this method.