83,9kg " ++ " What a unpleasant surprise today morning. No idea why so much more. But its often after hard, physical day, that I have more, maybe its this case.
Else I slept well and short again. And dont remember any dreams - its been long time since I remember any :( And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Starting with SS on speed which failed, because I cant be so fast yet, but its not connected to injury, but to week of laziness. I had no pains, just body is still a bit stiff. Well, I started with old way, but when I realized there is no point to chase 40reps/10 minutes I switched to dynamic new ones. Good choice, and new way Sun Salutations are tough ones to do in dynamic way for about 10 minutes. Dynanic way means not necessarily fast, but without any breaks of holds, simply one long fluent move. I love it, its like structured dance. I did in total 15 minutes of this.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core exercise. I did 5 rounds of TM core WO. I realized today how good is this set made - you dont even realize that the round is over and starting new one, but one round is about 1m20sec! Anyway, it was pleasantly rich. After that I continued with various dynamic exercises, mainly for side muscles, but I could not do much, basically only situps and some little more, I had enough at the end of those 10 minutes.
Last part I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Cant write much more than it was really great today, very easy going and fluent, enjoying in craziness of random, but universe-led movements. Very joyful :)
II) Later today I had a client, it was a bit challenging because I had to leave soon after client left, but I did all to not effect treatment by this and I think it was very good treatment for client.
III) Later I was travelling quite and met with my beloved and that was beautiful ending of this day, good day :) Ohm mani padme hum.
čtvrtek 28. listopadu 2013
středa 27. listopadu 2013
27.11.2013 - work day
82,9kg " + " Today I dared to weight myself, yeah. Its not so bad, as all fears, its never as bad as one imagine.
I slept very good and short and in the morning I did morning exercises today.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes, traditionally (I just love it) downward sequence with holds from 5 - 1 second. Its amazing how its stretching whole body so good, difference between first and last rep is simply incomparable, like completely different body.
Then I continued with 5 minutes of Burpees, it went slightly betetr then last time and I did 37 reps. Im heavier and out of condition, so no surprise. Maybe would not be bad to do 10 minutes of Burpees again for change :)
3rd part I did ABS and core practice, mix of dynamic exercises, really on edge of what I could do, my ABS got lazy in that week of no exercises, but it feels great to harden a bit again.
Last I was dancing for 20 minutes. It was great today, very flowing and creative, joyful movement on all energies and moods what music brought. Brilliant.
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients. New and old one, it was nice to have opportunity to observe difference between those 2. Old client system was working much better and faster, but new one needed it very much as well and I was v.happy to serve both.
Rest of the day I was doing my stuff and relaxing, did not wanted to push it when I had more clients in one day. But I must say I felt sooo great after morning exercise, it was v.pleasant feeling.
Food log (read only on your own responsibility!):
8:00: BF : Oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
11:30 LU: Petr's soup
14:00 apple and large package of sweets
19:00 DI: Petr's soup, cheese-salad with toast bread, apple
19-21:30 couple of toast bread slices
I slept very good and short and in the morning I did morning exercises today.
I) Starting with Sun Salutations for 10 minutes, traditionally (I just love it) downward sequence with holds from 5 - 1 second. Its amazing how its stretching whole body so good, difference between first and last rep is simply incomparable, like completely different body.
Then I continued with 5 minutes of Burpees, it went slightly betetr then last time and I did 37 reps. Im heavier and out of condition, so no surprise. Maybe would not be bad to do 10 minutes of Burpees again for change :)
3rd part I did ABS and core practice, mix of dynamic exercises, really on edge of what I could do, my ABS got lazy in that week of no exercises, but it feels great to harden a bit again.
Last I was dancing for 20 minutes. It was great today, very flowing and creative, joyful movement on all energies and moods what music brought. Brilliant.
II) Afternoon I had couple of clients. New and old one, it was nice to have opportunity to observe difference between those 2. Old client system was working much better and faster, but new one needed it very much as well and I was v.happy to serve both.
Rest of the day I was doing my stuff and relaxing, did not wanted to push it when I had more clients in one day. But I must say I felt sooo great after morning exercise, it was v.pleasant feeling.
Food log (read only on your own responsibility!):
8:00: BF : Oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
11:30 LU: Petr's soup
14:00 apple and large package of sweets
19:00 DI: Petr's soup, cheese-salad with toast bread, apple
19-21:30 couple of toast bread slices
úterý 26. listopadu 2013
26.11.2013 - stop pushing, will I
?? Weight. I slept well tonight, but no dreams again.
Even yesterday evening I felt like I overdid a bit, my back was hurting, but not from injury, but overload. And in the morning I felt like it gives me more to rest then do exercises. I think its awesome what all and how I could do yesterday, but its no point to overload my back again and be incured.
I want to share something what troubles me for long time. I often feel like not doing enough for me, to be too lazy, not doing right thing. But when I decide to change it and do what I feel right, which is usually more then I have energy for, I start getting pains, crazy tiredness and so on. And it makes it next to impossible to really be so active. And in those moments what I feel most is - rest, take space for you. But from survival point of view this is not sustainable. Or am I doing stuff which is against my heart? I dont know, it troubles me quite.
I) Afternoon I had a client. Nothing I can share, but I found out some new moves and was working on better connection with client, its too new to share any results, but its very big theme - connection with client while keeping healthy borders and professionalism.
For rest of the day I was just resting, I really felt v.strong that I need to give me easy times. I think I overdid it yesterday. Not into injury, but a bit over for state I was in.
Good day, no matter how dull or common day it may sound. I feel like I did everything right, Interesting feeling I must say. Ohm mani padme hum.
Food log (ignore if you dont want bad examples!):
8:30 BF: oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
12:00 LU: package of snacks, package of nuts, 3 slices of bread with butter and cheese
15:00 apple
18:30 Petr's soup, large package of sweets
21:00 apple
Even yesterday evening I felt like I overdid a bit, my back was hurting, but not from injury, but overload. And in the morning I felt like it gives me more to rest then do exercises. I think its awesome what all and how I could do yesterday, but its no point to overload my back again and be incured.
I want to share something what troubles me for long time. I often feel like not doing enough for me, to be too lazy, not doing right thing. But when I decide to change it and do what I feel right, which is usually more then I have energy for, I start getting pains, crazy tiredness and so on. And it makes it next to impossible to really be so active. And in those moments what I feel most is - rest, take space for you. But from survival point of view this is not sustainable. Or am I doing stuff which is against my heart? I dont know, it troubles me quite.
I) Afternoon I had a client. Nothing I can share, but I found out some new moves and was working on better connection with client, its too new to share any results, but its very big theme - connection with client while keeping healthy borders and professionalism.
For rest of the day I was just resting, I really felt v.strong that I need to give me easy times. I think I overdid it yesterday. Not into injury, but a bit over for state I was in.
Good day, no matter how dull or common day it may sound. I feel like I did everything right, Interesting feeling I must say. Ohm mani padme hum.
Food log (ignore if you dont want bad examples!):
8:30 BF: oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
12:00 LU: package of snacks, package of nuts, 3 slices of bread with butter and cheese
15:00 apple
18:30 Petr's soup, large package of sweets
21:00 apple
pondělí 25. listopadu 2013
25.11.2013 - new week, back on track, well... mostly
?? Weight, still too afraid to step on scale.
I slept oh so well tonight, almost 8 hours, didnt happen for a long time. And dont remember any dreams.
I woke up so late, that I did not morning exercises. But I want to make them later, lets see.
I) So, to my delight I made morning exercises still in the morning (I mean, I kicked my but hard enough to make it). Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, to my even bigger delight I did whole set down to dynamic reps. From decreasing holds in positions in each consequential pair of reps from 5 to 1 sec. I felt so strong how helpful it is, being more flexible in each rep, while doing Cobra part, I experienced few cracks in my spine how it was being corrected and I can band backwards almost as before accident now.
At this point I would like to mention to potential readers: Im working for years on consciousness in my body and I can feel whats happening in my body quite good, Im able to see, unattached, whats happening and whats good or not. Im not as good in this as master yogis or other disciples of ancient arts, not by far, but good enough to heal myself (and others) (higher levels are practices through body when you f.ex. produce excessive heat, not breathing for long minutes, striking through thick wood block and so on). If you are not so conscious about your body, dont push anything while recuperating from injuries, all I did in last week was done with extreme caution and literally millimeter by millimeter with full focus on each of them. If you cant keep this focus (which I achieved through exercises and my work), dont do it and use help of professionals.
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees, I though like - if I do 10 of them, fine, but in the end, even struggling, I did 32 of them! I felt it v.good especially after week of healing. Im still underestimating my amazing body. And finally I start to swept again while exercising :P
3rd part took core and ABS, alternating situps and yoga v-sit. I cant do fully yoga v-sits yet, because my lower back part is not 100% ok (99%...). BUT it also taught me something - it taught me, that I have to not flex just ABS muscles, but also back muscles to harden my core and keep back on the ground and use belly muscles much more, today I was playing with it a lot and I felt like are muscles activating depending on height of legs and my focus on them. Try it sometimes - to do strength exercises with muscles you want, you would be surprised how you can use your muscles as you please. Which is handy, because you can use other muscles in case the right muscle group is incapacitated and, of course, it learns consciousness about your body as well.
Last part I was dancing for about 20 minutes, god... it was so fun today, I let go all forms and I was dancing like crazy kid, in one moment I even started to shout, because... it just happened! And it was so great, felt no difficulties from injury anymore.
II) Afternoon I had a client. What I can share is, that it was GREAT to work again, to massage and work with other human being and talk about stuff with open-minded person, just great. And I think it was v.healing for a client too.
III) In the evening I did yoga again. Final setup with 2 more asanas than yesterday again. Final setup for today was:
Warm up, Padahastasana, Badrasana, Pashimotasana, Virasana (bi), Trigonasana (bi), Bhujangasana, Sarvangasana, one asana I dont know name for 6th chakra (...), Shirshasana, Shawasana.
My back is alright, but I dont push it and still feel a bit of pain (but not this "bad" pain, just simply pain from just-healed-incured place) so I was careful and so some asanas went not so good, Im also much more stiff then when I stopped practicing yoga. But it dosnt matter so much, its just mind fuck, I felt it great and v.healing to do it and before I started I was like "oooh, yoga again, yummy" :)
Great day today, I was working, exercising and relaxing, what more I could want?! Ohm mani padme hum.
Food notes (its challenging to share this stuff you know):
8:45: BF: oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
12:00: LU: 3slices of bread with butter and smoked cheese
15:00: apple
18:00 DI: 3slices of bread with butter and honey
21:00 apple
I slept oh so well tonight, almost 8 hours, didnt happen for a long time. And dont remember any dreams.
I woke up so late, that I did not morning exercises. But I want to make them later, lets see.
I) So, to my delight I made morning exercises still in the morning (I mean, I kicked my but hard enough to make it). Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation, to my even bigger delight I did whole set down to dynamic reps. From decreasing holds in positions in each consequential pair of reps from 5 to 1 sec. I felt so strong how helpful it is, being more flexible in each rep, while doing Cobra part, I experienced few cracks in my spine how it was being corrected and I can band backwards almost as before accident now.
At this point I would like to mention to potential readers: Im working for years on consciousness in my body and I can feel whats happening in my body quite good, Im able to see, unattached, whats happening and whats good or not. Im not as good in this as master yogis or other disciples of ancient arts, not by far, but good enough to heal myself (and others) (higher levels are practices through body when you f.ex. produce excessive heat, not breathing for long minutes, striking through thick wood block and so on). If you are not so conscious about your body, dont push anything while recuperating from injuries, all I did in last week was done with extreme caution and literally millimeter by millimeter with full focus on each of them. If you cant keep this focus (which I achieved through exercises and my work), dont do it and use help of professionals.
Then I did 5 minutes of Burpees, I though like - if I do 10 of them, fine, but in the end, even struggling, I did 32 of them! I felt it v.good especially after week of healing. Im still underestimating my amazing body. And finally I start to swept again while exercising :P
3rd part took core and ABS, alternating situps and yoga v-sit. I cant do fully yoga v-sits yet, because my lower back part is not 100% ok (99%...). BUT it also taught me something - it taught me, that I have to not flex just ABS muscles, but also back muscles to harden my core and keep back on the ground and use belly muscles much more, today I was playing with it a lot and I felt like are muscles activating depending on height of legs and my focus on them. Try it sometimes - to do strength exercises with muscles you want, you would be surprised how you can use your muscles as you please. Which is handy, because you can use other muscles in case the right muscle group is incapacitated and, of course, it learns consciousness about your body as well.
Last part I was dancing for about 20 minutes, god... it was so fun today, I let go all forms and I was dancing like crazy kid, in one moment I even started to shout, because... it just happened! And it was so great, felt no difficulties from injury anymore.
II) Afternoon I had a client. What I can share is, that it was GREAT to work again, to massage and work with other human being and talk about stuff with open-minded person, just great. And I think it was v.healing for a client too.
III) In the evening I did yoga again. Final setup with 2 more asanas than yesterday again. Final setup for today was:
Warm up, Padahastasana, Badrasana, Pashimotasana, Virasana (bi), Trigonasana (bi), Bhujangasana, Sarvangasana, one asana I dont know name for 6th chakra (...), Shirshasana, Shawasana.
My back is alright, but I dont push it and still feel a bit of pain (but not this "bad" pain, just simply pain from just-healed-incured place) so I was careful and so some asanas went not so good, Im also much more stiff then when I stopped practicing yoga. But it dosnt matter so much, its just mind fuck, I felt it great and v.healing to do it and before I started I was like "oooh, yoga again, yummy" :)
Great day today, I was working, exercising and relaxing, what more I could want?! Ohm mani padme hum.
Food notes (its challenging to share this stuff you know):
8:45: BF: oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
12:00: LU: 3slices of bread with butter and smoked cheese
15:00: apple
18:00 DI: 3slices of bread with butter and honey
21:00 apple
neděle 24. listopadu 2013
24.11.2013 - just a bit to normal state
?? weight.
I slept well and v.short. Dont remember any dreams. but in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. It went again much better, did same as yesterday plus couple of more reps. I did not need to be so careful like yesterday. But I still felt in some positions my wound. Anyway I felt it as much needed to do this.
Then I was giving love to my ABS and core for 10 minutes. Mainly Barastarz exercises. As expected it wasnt so stellar, but since Im not 100% alright I had to be careful to not overdo and was also focusing a lot on whole core. Since this accident I learned so much better how to work with my body, work with musles to support spine in certain movements. To better control of muscles in a trunk in general.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. It felt great, because I could move freely and I had to try to find moves where I still felt my injury. Anyway it felt like anytime I felt pain in some move it meant, that I oucld move a bit more in that way. It made me to welcome these short bursts of pain, because they felt like healing a little piece every time.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, a bit more again by 2 more asanas, finishing in this way whole chakra system and ending with Shirshasana. Yup, already could make head stand. Made it at the wall this time, to be sure, but it was totally fine and painless.
I must say, I felt after these exercises today, that my back is not just healed /almost, but its even better then before accident. I feel more flexible in some movements, in others I feel stronger in that part and even when I lie I feel easier to touch ground with whole back if I want. Interesting.
Well, other that that I was just resting. Im missing communication with people and giving Shiatsu. So much looking forward tomorrow for a client :)
I also realized one thing around this incident. I felt like I have deep inside one part of me, which dont want to be healed, which enjoy this state of not being able to work, exercise and so on. I had to, really consciously, disobey and overcome this part and work on healing myself. Its probably my lazy part :P Strong one, I love that part, or I try to, because thanks to this part I can enjoy fold into blankets in the night and throw myself into nourishing sleep or really enjoy short naps. But I cant give this part to go rampage!
Anyway, great day again, I was v.grateful for today when falling asleep. Ohm many padme hum.
Food notes DONT READ ITS JUST FOR ME KK :)
8:30 BF: oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
12:00 LU: 3 slices of bread with butter and cheese
15:00 apple
19:00 DI: 3 slices of bread with butter and honey, small package of chips
21:00 package of princess-like snacks
apple
I slept well and v.short. Dont remember any dreams. but in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. It went again much better, did same as yesterday plus couple of more reps. I did not need to be so careful like yesterday. But I still felt in some positions my wound. Anyway I felt it as much needed to do this.
Then I was giving love to my ABS and core for 10 minutes. Mainly Barastarz exercises. As expected it wasnt so stellar, but since Im not 100% alright I had to be careful to not overdo and was also focusing a lot on whole core. Since this accident I learned so much better how to work with my body, work with musles to support spine in certain movements. To better control of muscles in a trunk in general.
Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. It felt great, because I could move freely and I had to try to find moves where I still felt my injury. Anyway it felt like anytime I felt pain in some move it meant, that I oucld move a bit more in that way. It made me to welcome these short bursts of pain, because they felt like healing a little piece every time.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, a bit more again by 2 more asanas, finishing in this way whole chakra system and ending with Shirshasana. Yup, already could make head stand. Made it at the wall this time, to be sure, but it was totally fine and painless.
I must say, I felt after these exercises today, that my back is not just healed /almost, but its even better then before accident. I feel more flexible in some movements, in others I feel stronger in that part and even when I lie I feel easier to touch ground with whole back if I want. Interesting.
Well, other that that I was just resting. Im missing communication with people and giving Shiatsu. So much looking forward tomorrow for a client :)
I also realized one thing around this incident. I felt like I have deep inside one part of me, which dont want to be healed, which enjoy this state of not being able to work, exercise and so on. I had to, really consciously, disobey and overcome this part and work on healing myself. Its probably my lazy part :P Strong one, I love that part, or I try to, because thanks to this part I can enjoy fold into blankets in the night and throw myself into nourishing sleep or really enjoy short naps. But I cant give this part to go rampage!
Anyway, great day again, I was v.grateful for today when falling asleep. Ohm many padme hum.
Food notes DONT READ ITS JUST FOR ME KK :)
8:30 BF: oathflakes with sunflower seeds and honey
12:00 LU: 3 slices of bread with butter and cheese
15:00 apple
19:00 DI: 3 slices of bread with butter and honey, small package of chips
21:00 package of princess-like snacks
apple
sobota 23. listopadu 2013
23.11.2013 - almost there
?? weight - Im not weighting, because Im afraid to, simple as that.
I slept v. well tonight, went sleep quite early too. Dont remember any dreams tho.
I) In the morning I tried morning exercises again. Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. It was 10 minutes very careful and slow Sun Salutations. Did 4 reps with 5 seconds holds and then 2 faster, first 2 reps took me long time before I moved stiff parts. But I could do it, which I could not yesterday, and that was GREAT.
Then I was dancing for 10 minutes, I felt its not smart to do longer, because I started to feel my hurted back again ,but I could move much more and faster again and I also had fun :)
II) Afternoon I did yoga again. I did more asanas and enjoyed it much more, very much I must say, I felt simply great afterwards and I could do asanas much better. I feel yoga in this case as extremely healing. I also discovered, that in asanas I have very little pain then in "normal" moving, which is also great, because it shows how smart are those positions designed (were given by higher power in past to masters). And last thing which I realized was - all asanas on 3rd chakra are extremely difficult for me and painful. Im sure its big gift for me which is showing me something v.clear, but I dont see what yet, exploring it tho.
Other than that I was doing strengthening exercises during the day here and there, pushups, pullups and so. Else I was resting. Even its almost as normal, Im careful to not rush it and heal properly. its mirracle how fast I healed, I feel it as amazing thing, because it was very serious back injury, I was screaming from pain and I felt how my vertebras are damaged, but now? Its almost as normal and I can do 100% every day.
Great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
Food log:
BF 8:00 : oathflakes with sunflower seeds
LU: 12:00 : 3 slices of bread with butter and cheese, big package of sweets (aww)
apple
DI: 6:30 : 3 slices of bread with butter and honey
apple
22 : another slice of bread with butter and honey
I slept v. well tonight, went sleep quite early too. Dont remember any dreams tho.
I) In the morning I tried morning exercises again. Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations. It was 10 minutes very careful and slow Sun Salutations. Did 4 reps with 5 seconds holds and then 2 faster, first 2 reps took me long time before I moved stiff parts. But I could do it, which I could not yesterday, and that was GREAT.
Then I was dancing for 10 minutes, I felt its not smart to do longer, because I started to feel my hurted back again ,but I could move much more and faster again and I also had fun :)
II) Afternoon I did yoga again. I did more asanas and enjoyed it much more, very much I must say, I felt simply great afterwards and I could do asanas much better. I feel yoga in this case as extremely healing. I also discovered, that in asanas I have very little pain then in "normal" moving, which is also great, because it shows how smart are those positions designed (were given by higher power in past to masters). And last thing which I realized was - all asanas on 3rd chakra are extremely difficult for me and painful. Im sure its big gift for me which is showing me something v.clear, but I dont see what yet, exploring it tho.
Other than that I was doing strengthening exercises during the day here and there, pushups, pullups and so. Else I was resting. Even its almost as normal, Im careful to not rush it and heal properly. its mirracle how fast I healed, I feel it as amazing thing, because it was very serious back injury, I was screaming from pain and I felt how my vertebras are damaged, but now? Its almost as normal and I can do 100% every day.
Great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
Food log:
BF 8:00 : oathflakes with sunflower seeds
LU: 12:00 : 3 slices of bread with butter and cheese, big package of sweets (aww)
apple
DI: 6:30 : 3 slices of bread with butter and honey
apple
22 : another slice of bread with butter and honey
čtvrtek 21. listopadu 2013
22.11.2013 - slowly returning
?? Weight - I could not do it today, would be too painful to see 1kg more again or something
I slept good and well tonight, my back is paining only v. little now. And in the morning I tried morning exercises today.
I) Well, I could not do SS yet, but I tried at least. But I was dancing, to my delight I found I can dance quite, just did not wanted to push it so I was dancing only for like 8 minutes or something. I felt it great tho to start again exercising.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, nothing big, just warm up, 4 asanas and shawasana. I felt great to even do it. It went poor, yet it was very expect able, my back is not 100% healed and its been ages since I did yoga last time. But I felt how its healing me so much. I also felt how energies are flowing so differently then usually, I think, if I would not be in this state I could not feel it so strong, because difference between normal state and this would not be so strong.
I also found out today, that I can do pushups so I did during day pullups, latups and pushups whenever I felt like. I feel its helping me a lot. Both physically and psychically to recuperate. Otherwise I was just resting and healing.
Great day again :) Ohm mani padme hum.
Food notes:
oath flakes with sunflower seeds and apples
Petr's soup
cheese with garlic salad and bread
lots of sweets
bread with butter
2 apples
I slept good and well tonight, my back is paining only v. little now. And in the morning I tried morning exercises today.
I) Well, I could not do SS yet, but I tried at least. But I was dancing, to my delight I found I can dance quite, just did not wanted to push it so I was dancing only for like 8 minutes or something. I felt it great tho to start again exercising.
II) Afternoon I did yoga, nothing big, just warm up, 4 asanas and shawasana. I felt great to even do it. It went poor, yet it was very expect able, my back is not 100% healed and its been ages since I did yoga last time. But I felt how its healing me so much. I also felt how energies are flowing so differently then usually, I think, if I would not be in this state I could not feel it so strong, because difference between normal state and this would not be so strong.
I also found out today, that I can do pushups so I did during day pullups, latups and pushups whenever I felt like. I feel its helping me a lot. Both physically and psychically to recuperate. Otherwise I was just resting and healing.
Great day again :) Ohm mani padme hum.
Food notes:
oath flakes with sunflower seeds and apples
Petr's soup
cheese with garlic salad and bread
lots of sweets
bread with butter
2 apples
21.11.2013 - power of joga and exercise
82,5kg " + " again 1kg more :(
I slept a bit better tonight and in the morning back was a bit better. I did no morning exercises, it just wasnt possible yet.
I had whole day rest and heal, except stuff like minor shopping and cooking. But afternoon I tried pullups on a bar just for kicks and miracle happen. My back loosed and I could move like 100% better and in positions I had pain I just felt oh so pleasant normal feeling. I continued doing this during the day and it helped every time. Of course I had to be very careful, slow and feel into every correction of position and movement, but it worked out like miracle.
I) In the evening I went to tantra course. We basically exercised whole time so I did what I could and surprisingly it wasnt so little. I had to be, again, very careful, but it was very good. After 1 and half hour of yoga and meditation I felt MUCH better again. Power of yoga is incredible. And also showed me what I should do in next days at home - heal by yoga.
Good day really, it returned me faith that I can move again normally and work with clients next week. I would also like to share some feeling about this back injury.
I) Im happy I avoided doctors, I would maybe know what exactly happen, but I want to feel myself so good to know without doctors and RTG and stuff. And I think I felt myself good enough to know that I need to stretch back and did and it helped.
II) I was so disgusted how much power this injury gave me. Manipulation power. Yes, I wasnt playing anything and I was and still am in pain (even MUCH easier pain atm), but if I could I could use this situation to lazy much more and use people to do stuff for me. And I felt how easy it would be. And it was, I just asked and things happened as I wanted. But as I said - I did not abused my state at all, I asked only when I really could not do it other way - it was disgusting feeling how easy and tempting it is. I think this aspect had most effect on my healing, I feel very uncomfortable in this need and in feeling this tempting to make myself poor and abuse this power, this victim role gave me. So good lesson
III) I could feel my body so much more then usually. I was thinking if this did not happened to ground me again a bit, let me feel my body more. It also learned me lots of new moves, because I did not surrendered to pain and was actively trying to find way how to do things and found new moves for me. And I also found how are muscle groups burdened because I could feel them very good when they hurted.
IV) Im also afraid that this comes maybe because I did not allowed myself to take time for me I wanted. These days of healing and rest gave me so much space for me and I realized how much I needed that space.
Great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
food notes:
oath flakes with sunflower seeds and apples
Petr's soup x 2
3 handfulls of raisins
3 slices of bread with butter and cheese
2 apples
I slept a bit better tonight and in the morning back was a bit better. I did no morning exercises, it just wasnt possible yet.
I had whole day rest and heal, except stuff like minor shopping and cooking. But afternoon I tried pullups on a bar just for kicks and miracle happen. My back loosed and I could move like 100% better and in positions I had pain I just felt oh so pleasant normal feeling. I continued doing this during the day and it helped every time. Of course I had to be very careful, slow and feel into every correction of position and movement, but it worked out like miracle.
I) In the evening I went to tantra course. We basically exercised whole time so I did what I could and surprisingly it wasnt so little. I had to be, again, very careful, but it was very good. After 1 and half hour of yoga and meditation I felt MUCH better again. Power of yoga is incredible. And also showed me what I should do in next days at home - heal by yoga.
Good day really, it returned me faith that I can move again normally and work with clients next week. I would also like to share some feeling about this back injury.
I) Im happy I avoided doctors, I would maybe know what exactly happen, but I want to feel myself so good to know without doctors and RTG and stuff. And I think I felt myself good enough to know that I need to stretch back and did and it helped.
II) I was so disgusted how much power this injury gave me. Manipulation power. Yes, I wasnt playing anything and I was and still am in pain (even MUCH easier pain atm), but if I could I could use this situation to lazy much more and use people to do stuff for me. And I felt how easy it would be. And it was, I just asked and things happened as I wanted. But as I said - I did not abused my state at all, I asked only when I really could not do it other way - it was disgusting feeling how easy and tempting it is. I think this aspect had most effect on my healing, I feel very uncomfortable in this need and in feeling this tempting to make myself poor and abuse this power, this victim role gave me. So good lesson
III) I could feel my body so much more then usually. I was thinking if this did not happened to ground me again a bit, let me feel my body more. It also learned me lots of new moves, because I did not surrendered to pain and was actively trying to find way how to do things and found new moves for me. And I also found how are muscle groups burdened because I could feel them very good when they hurted.
IV) Im also afraid that this comes maybe because I did not allowed myself to take time for me I wanted. These days of healing and rest gave me so much space for me and I realized how much I needed that space.
Great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
food notes:
oath flakes with sunflower seeds and apples
Petr's soup x 2
3 handfulls of raisins
3 slices of bread with butter and cheese
2 apples
20.11.2013 - healing day 2
81,5kg " + " yeah, no physical activity
I slept again just few hours, but because Im not exercising or something I feel it normal.
I did no morning exercise today and only exercise I did was travel to city to ask in one salon about possibilities to work there. It was very painful, I though after yesterday evening when I could move quite good, it will be better. But I made it and I think it was good to move as well. Just cold dont make it good for my back.
Im sorry to not have much to report, but I just need rest and heal atm.
I hope I did all I could from today anyway. Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept again just few hours, but because Im not exercising or something I feel it normal.
I did no morning exercise today and only exercise I did was travel to city to ask in one salon about possibilities to work there. It was very painful, I though after yesterday evening when I could move quite good, it will be better. But I made it and I think it was good to move as well. Just cold dont make it good for my back.
Im sorry to not have much to report, but I just need rest and heal atm.
I hope I did all I could from today anyway. Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 19. listopadu 2013
19.11.2013 - healing day
?? Weight. I dont want to see scale tomorrow...
I slept again not much, it was painful to sleep on futon, to my surprise, it was too hard for my condition. It got no better during the night. And, of course, I did no morning exercises.
In the morning I went to office, it was alright, on the way back I took long way up the hill to the shop and home to walk it a bit. It was a challenge I must say, especially with heavy bag on the way back, I had to swallow pride and walk like old man with bad back... I also had to cancel workshop at the weekend and 2 clients.. fortunately they were ok to postpone treatments for next week. Else I was sorting lots of mails and massages today with friends, clients and around workshop and just healing and resting. Its not much more to do.
I found most difficult to just lie down and rest. its most challenging thing and I know it VERY important. But its soooo hard. I feel like pushed to activity.... but I need to give it time to recuperate and heal.
But anyway, in the evening Im moving quite good, lots of moves I could not do are possible again and I feel much much better. My body is just amazing. I have to reward myself and do yoga again, big thanks to my body.
I slept again not much, it was painful to sleep on futon, to my surprise, it was too hard for my condition. It got no better during the night. And, of course, I did no morning exercises.
In the morning I went to office, it was alright, on the way back I took long way up the hill to the shop and home to walk it a bit. It was a challenge I must say, especially with heavy bag on the way back, I had to swallow pride and walk like old man with bad back... I also had to cancel workshop at the weekend and 2 clients.. fortunately they were ok to postpone treatments for next week. Else I was sorting lots of mails and massages today with friends, clients and around workshop and just healing and resting. Its not much more to do.
I found most difficult to just lie down and rest. its most challenging thing and I know it VERY important. But its soooo hard. I feel like pushed to activity.... but I need to give it time to recuperate and heal.
But anyway, in the evening Im moving quite good, lots of moves I could not do are possible again and I feel much much better. My body is just amazing. I have to reward myself and do yoga again, big thanks to my body.
18.11.2013 - recuperation, goodbyes and travelling
?? Weight.
I did not slept well, because its hard to change position with pain in lower back as I have now and so I slept just like 6 hours or so.
I did no morning exercises of course, I can barely walk and tight laces on shoes only with extreme precaution. But I went shopping to walk it out a bit. What a great idea, when I was returning I was walking almost as normally. But it was just temporary and expected. It needs more to heal.
I spend most of the day resting and healing, just afternoon we got nice visit and then I was traveling back home. It was hard with all the bags but I made it. I had to be extra very careful and I think I learn so much on this way. How to control my body and new moves.
In general I feel I learned very much from this accident, not just to warm up first before such activity and how to drop from the wall, but this pain taught me new moves, allowed be to understand more my core and such. I even found that if I roll on bed totally relaxed it never hurts no matter how I want to move. But in the moment I activate muscles, it starts to move. I found that fascinating.
Very demanding day, but also very loving and rich. I was happy I could make love in this condition and that it did not made it any worst. Also understanding, help and adaptation of my beloved on my condition helped a lot. But it also brought some special thoughts like.... how easy it is to be in such condition, everybody helps, there is no problem to keep place anywhere and so on... its dangerous trap, I dont want this.
Ohm mani padme hum.
I did not slept well, because its hard to change position with pain in lower back as I have now and so I slept just like 6 hours or so.
I did no morning exercises of course, I can barely walk and tight laces on shoes only with extreme precaution. But I went shopping to walk it out a bit. What a great idea, when I was returning I was walking almost as normally. But it was just temporary and expected. It needs more to heal.
I spend most of the day resting and healing, just afternoon we got nice visit and then I was traveling back home. It was hard with all the bags but I made it. I had to be extra very careful and I think I learn so much on this way. How to control my body and new moves.
In general I feel I learned very much from this accident, not just to warm up first before such activity and how to drop from the wall, but this pain taught me new moves, allowed be to understand more my core and such. I even found that if I roll on bed totally relaxed it never hurts no matter how I want to move. But in the moment I activate muscles, it starts to move. I found that fascinating.
Very demanding day, but also very loving and rich. I was happy I could make love in this condition and that it did not made it any worst. Also understanding, help and adaptation of my beloved on my condition helped a lot. But it also brought some special thoughts like.... how easy it is to be in such condition, everybody helps, there is no problem to keep place anywhere and so on... its dangerous trap, I dont want this.
Ohm mani padme hum.
17.11.2013 - how can things change in a second...
80,1kg " == " not expected really, but ok, lets see in next days
Else I did not slept so well tonight, could not sleep part of night, but I felt in the morning fit enough for morning exercises. I was happy about it really, I know Im in last weeks very lousy on exercises so every finished morning exercise is for me very precious.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds decreasing from 5-1 seconds in each consequential couple of reps. In the start I had crazy difficulties to keep right order of positions, it surprised me really O.o But it was great.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mostly Barstarz exercises. It went good in some way. As I do these exercises for some time Im more and more precise and it makes it harder of course. And today, after some days of laziness it was harder. But its normal, I went, as usual, on the edge between pain and possibility of exercising.
3rd block I was biking for 10 minutes on stationary bike. 6:30 I was biking on easier level and rest 3:30 on more difficult level. I think it was most challenging biking I ever did, but I went on biking till the end of a time limit.
Last part I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today it was very nice, I could dance very smooth and creative and at the same time I enjoyed it v.much.
II) Afternoon we went to boulder together. At first I had lot of fun and tried to jump from bigger heights then usuall. But after mere 25 minutes it happened, I jumped down but formed my body wrong and my spine got harmed in lower back. I know his feelings and believe me.. its crazy painful. But not just painful, its nearly impossible to move without even more pain, I could not stand nor sit, I could only walk. This feeling of desperation of what I cant do was far worst....I could not even sit into car, I could just walk... so I walked home, took some painkiller and muscle relaxant from my beloved and was resting for the rest of the day.
But it was great day anyway, I felt so much love to my beloved and we spend very beautiful day, I wont let, even serious, injury to ruin otherwise great day. Yeah, I felt lot of pain, but if one can feel so much love as we can, pain is not so bad. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I did not slept so well tonight, could not sleep part of night, but I felt in the morning fit enough for morning exercises. I was happy about it really, I know Im in last weeks very lousy on exercises so every finished morning exercise is for me very precious.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds decreasing from 5-1 seconds in each consequential couple of reps. In the start I had crazy difficulties to keep right order of positions, it surprised me really O.o But it was great.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mostly Barstarz exercises. It went good in some way. As I do these exercises for some time Im more and more precise and it makes it harder of course. And today, after some days of laziness it was harder. But its normal, I went, as usual, on the edge between pain and possibility of exercising.
3rd block I was biking for 10 minutes on stationary bike. 6:30 I was biking on easier level and rest 3:30 on more difficult level. I think it was most challenging biking I ever did, but I went on biking till the end of a time limit.
Last part I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Today it was very nice, I could dance very smooth and creative and at the same time I enjoyed it v.much.
II) Afternoon we went to boulder together. At first I had lot of fun and tried to jump from bigger heights then usuall. But after mere 25 minutes it happened, I jumped down but formed my body wrong and my spine got harmed in lower back. I know his feelings and believe me.. its crazy painful. But not just painful, its nearly impossible to move without even more pain, I could not stand nor sit, I could only walk. This feeling of desperation of what I cant do was far worst....I could not even sit into car, I could just walk... so I walked home, took some painkiller and muscle relaxant from my beloved and was resting for the rest of the day.
But it was great day anyway, I felt so much love to my beloved and we spend very beautiful day, I wont let, even serious, injury to ruin otherwise great day. Yeah, I felt lot of pain, but if one can feel so much love as we can, pain is not so bad. Ohm mani padme hum.
neděle 17. listopadu 2013
16.11.2013 - intim, loving day - with wonderful Cosima in the end
80,1kg " - " nice surprise, but I see that its v.often after arriving to my beloved - must be because of lots of movement....
Else I slept good and dont remember any dreams. I did no morning exercises again this morning, ot at least not my typical ones. But I must say these mornings with my beloved, when we dont hurry anywhere and can sleep and cuddle up together as much as we want are so rare, that its worth to skip. Its nourishing me in other way.
I) In the morning I had a client, very nice treatment, challenging as almost always with this client, but it worked out v.well.
II) In the evening I went on a concert of Cosima, local band of something between jazz/blues this kind of music. Amazing concert, mazing musicians and singer, perfectly playing with each other, theyr music touched my soul and put me into v.nice mood. It was also very nice to be there with my beloved and feel our connection during concert.
Rest of day went in v.nice, relaxed atmosphere. I think I never felt such close connection between me and my beloved as today, or maybe I forgot it, but it was v.intensive today. Very nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept good and dont remember any dreams. I did no morning exercises again this morning, ot at least not my typical ones. But I must say these mornings with my beloved, when we dont hurry anywhere and can sleep and cuddle up together as much as we want are so rare, that its worth to skip. Its nourishing me in other way.
I) In the morning I had a client, very nice treatment, challenging as almost always with this client, but it worked out v.well.
II) In the evening I went on a concert of Cosima, local band of something between jazz/blues this kind of music. Amazing concert, mazing musicians and singer, perfectly playing with each other, theyr music touched my soul and put me into v.nice mood. It was also very nice to be there with my beloved and feel our connection during concert.
Rest of day went in v.nice, relaxed atmosphere. I think I never felt such close connection between me and my beloved as today, or maybe I forgot it, but it was v.intensive today. Very nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 15. listopadu 2013
15.11.2013 - travelling and resting in love
?? Weight.
Today I slept like only 3 hours before going to travel... so no I did no morning exercises. I feel today crazy... body is hurting a lot and Im tired. Im grateful, that for my beloved its fine that I need also rest and some cuddling up to recuperate. We experienced beautiful lovemaking in deep connection and lot of pleasure after my arrival... and it was beautiful to rest together, and v.healing for me.
In this way is going whole day, it feels a bit strange to wasnt one day in this mode, but this combination of tiredness and painful body is quite crippling. Hope this rest will help me to enjoy more being with my beloved again in next days.
Oh ya, and in the evening I got massage from my beloved which ended up v.beautifuly :3
Ohm mani padme hum.
Today I slept like only 3 hours before going to travel... so no I did no morning exercises. I feel today crazy... body is hurting a lot and Im tired. Im grateful, that for my beloved its fine that I need also rest and some cuddling up to recuperate. We experienced beautiful lovemaking in deep connection and lot of pleasure after my arrival... and it was beautiful to rest together, and v.healing for me.
In this way is going whole day, it feels a bit strange to wasnt one day in this mode, but this combination of tiredness and painful body is quite crippling. Hope this rest will help me to enjoy more being with my beloved again in next days.
Oh ya, and in the evening I got massage from my beloved which ended up v.beautifuly :3
Ohm mani padme hum.
14.11.2014 - many aspects
80,8kg " -= " Finally some change, of course, difference is insignifcant, but at least its not exactly same... for some reason I feel it good.
Else I slept good and well and not v.long and in the morning, even I had quite a resistance, because I had to leave soon, I did morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 6x Sun Salutation, running with stretches and shadowboxing. Today I made it quite intense and as warm up it was pretty good I must say, rich. Then I continued with 10 minutes of pyramid from 14, it went not so smooth, had quite a struggle at times, but made it without helping and in the end continued up to 3 and at 4 alarm rung. Its interesting, that its going from good to not so good with each day I do this pyramid. I feel like main cause is not my condition, but my mind demanding results.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS exercises, 30 situps/60secs yoga v-sit / 30 situps / 90 secs yoga v-sit and some more situps. After pyramid it was very hard today to do this set, I needed to rest a lot, but I dont felt like slacking, more opposite. After pyramid I felt it as great opportunity to practice going over my borders and into pain. Its v.important while working on muscles, muscles wont get stimulated by gentle stroking.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. At start it was hard and even painful, hole middle part was hurting and stiff, but it got danced out. I just enjoyed movement today, not real focus on anything, just to shake and move body after previous hard exercises.
II) Then I went to city, it was quite coincidence when I met at one office guy who was in v.similar situation as I am and told me about opportunity to work for one massage salon. Its just that I dont believe in coincidences... :) Im curious how it will develop. Else I was also walking a bit, it was good to leave the house too.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Again quite interesting treatment, also for me exercise in not being attached to what I would like but what client needs. And successful one I would say :)
IV) In the evening I went to tantra course. There was v.few of us today, but it was good, because we got materials about shirshasana and we also practiced it. I was happy I spend last almost year preparing for doing Shirshasana, I could not do it without it today. Its v.important asana for me and in my development, because I had to overcome lots of fears and assimilate new abilities to do it.
Whuh, what a full day, but great one! Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept good and well and not v.long and in the morning, even I had quite a resistance, because I had to leave soon, I did morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 6x Sun Salutation, running with stretches and shadowboxing. Today I made it quite intense and as warm up it was pretty good I must say, rich. Then I continued with 10 minutes of pyramid from 14, it went not so smooth, had quite a struggle at times, but made it without helping and in the end continued up to 3 and at 4 alarm rung. Its interesting, that its going from good to not so good with each day I do this pyramid. I feel like main cause is not my condition, but my mind demanding results.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS exercises, 30 situps/60secs yoga v-sit / 30 situps / 90 secs yoga v-sit and some more situps. After pyramid it was very hard today to do this set, I needed to rest a lot, but I dont felt like slacking, more opposite. After pyramid I felt it as great opportunity to practice going over my borders and into pain. Its v.important while working on muscles, muscles wont get stimulated by gentle stroking.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. At start it was hard and even painful, hole middle part was hurting and stiff, but it got danced out. I just enjoyed movement today, not real focus on anything, just to shake and move body after previous hard exercises.
II) Then I went to city, it was quite coincidence when I met at one office guy who was in v.similar situation as I am and told me about opportunity to work for one massage salon. Its just that I dont believe in coincidences... :) Im curious how it will develop. Else I was also walking a bit, it was good to leave the house too.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Again quite interesting treatment, also for me exercise in not being attached to what I would like but what client needs. And successful one I would say :)
IV) In the evening I went to tantra course. There was v.few of us today, but it was good, because we got materials about shirshasana and we also practiced it. I was happy I spend last almost year preparing for doing Shirshasana, I could not do it without it today. Its v.important asana for me and in my development, because I had to overcome lots of fears and assimilate new abilities to do it.
Whuh, what a full day, but great one! Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 13. listopadu 2013
13.11.2013 - active and pasive relaxation
81kg " = " again on s"same weight" track :P ?
Else I slept well and deep and woke up naturally at 6 refreshed and awaken. I felt happy about it. Dont remember any dreams again and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 6x dynamic Sun Salutations, running with stretches and today I was fast so about 2 minutes of shadowboxing combined with a bit of strike practice. Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mainly 5 rounds of TM core WO and for the rest of time mixed static exercises and reverse situps. I felt my core quite good today I must say, I mean.. strong.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. Since almost start I could dance quite relaxed and free in creative flow. Enjoyed it a lot. And that even I again tried to focus on leg and pelvis movements.
II) Later in the morning I had friend visiting me for exchange massage, but I was giving this time. Nice treatment, friend needed a lot of this care and I felt happy to provide it. Looking forward to get massage from her as well :)
For the rest of the day I took relax and space for myself. Its been a while since I had free time like this and I used it. I was happy about it - to make loose all I want to do no matter if its right or wrong and just do pointless stuff on internet whole afternoon. I felt I needed it :)
So great day! Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well and deep and woke up naturally at 6 refreshed and awaken. I felt happy about it. Dont remember any dreams again and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 6x dynamic Sun Salutations, running with stretches and today I was fast so about 2 minutes of shadowboxing combined with a bit of strike practice. Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices. Mainly 5 rounds of TM core WO and for the rest of time mixed static exercises and reverse situps. I felt my core quite good today I must say, I mean.. strong.
Then I was dancing for about 30 minutes. Since almost start I could dance quite relaxed and free in creative flow. Enjoyed it a lot. And that even I again tried to focus on leg and pelvis movements.
II) Later in the morning I had friend visiting me for exchange massage, but I was giving this time. Nice treatment, friend needed a lot of this care and I felt happy to provide it. Looking forward to get massage from her as well :)
For the rest of the day I took relax and space for myself. Its been a while since I had free time like this and I used it. I was happy about it - to make loose all I want to do no matter if its right or wrong and just do pointless stuff on internet whole afternoon. I felt I needed it :)
So great day! Ohm mani padme hum.
úterý 12. listopadu 2013
12.11.2013 - harmony in giving and receiving
81kg - expected after feasting on workshop :P
Else I slept like 6 hours but quite good and well. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds from 5-1 seconds in positions. I had almost no pains as I feel in last weeks. It felt great. Maybe I need to give more rest to body to recuperate... its never ending question for me - balance between rest and exercises. Anyway, great warm up.
I continued with 5 minutes of Burpees, contrary to my believe I did over 30 reps in the end. Seems Im getting better :) After so many days of not doing really anything its good count.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises. Combination of dynamic and Barstarz exercises. It felt good and rich. Nothing special to report today.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I tried to focus on legs again, I feel like dancing 80% with hands and it dosnt made me happy panda. So Im focusing a bit more on it, its also good because of more pelvis movement to move legs more. I feel like my legs are in honey..... but I had fun anyway.
II) Later in the morning friend come to visit me. Some interesting talk and I also got very nice healing. My friend is learning new methods so I do model for her, because my conscious about my body is quite good so I can give feedback without jumping into mind too much to disconnect from myself. Non the less it was v. interesting to observe how are my left and right side disconnected and how this healing activated different meridians on each side. Seems I need to work a lot on me.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Great treatment again. Interesting client as well, lots of things to work on, but also willingness from client to work on it. Lovely combination :)
IV) In the evening another model friend come for tantra massage practice. I just have to mention here how happy and grateful I am for so many awesome friends.... everyone of them different, him/herself and v.interesting and worth to talk to. Very grateful. Well, I practiced and felt it quite great, I feel myself more back on track of how I was in past, at least 1 massage a month is enough to go deeper in this. It would not if I wouldnt do anything else, but with Shiatsu I need to practice just some aspects. In this case I practiced closeness to client in energetic way, lately I felt like Im keeping way too much distance with clients. I think it worked out. Also thanks to great feedback from my friend.
Quite full day, with visitors from dusk till dawn. And also I felt great, that I was receiving, giving and having client, its very nice balance in giving and receiving. Wonderful day! Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept like 6 hours but quite good and well. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds from 5-1 seconds in positions. I had almost no pains as I feel in last weeks. It felt great. Maybe I need to give more rest to body to recuperate... its never ending question for me - balance between rest and exercises. Anyway, great warm up.
I continued with 5 minutes of Burpees, contrary to my believe I did over 30 reps in the end. Seems Im getting better :) After so many days of not doing really anything its good count.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises. Combination of dynamic and Barstarz exercises. It felt good and rich. Nothing special to report today.
Last block I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I tried to focus on legs again, I feel like dancing 80% with hands and it dosnt made me happy panda. So Im focusing a bit more on it, its also good because of more pelvis movement to move legs more. I feel like my legs are in honey..... but I had fun anyway.
II) Later in the morning friend come to visit me. Some interesting talk and I also got very nice healing. My friend is learning new methods so I do model for her, because my conscious about my body is quite good so I can give feedback without jumping into mind too much to disconnect from myself. Non the less it was v. interesting to observe how are my left and right side disconnected and how this healing activated different meridians on each side. Seems I need to work a lot on me.
III) Afternoon I had a client. Great treatment again. Interesting client as well, lots of things to work on, but also willingness from client to work on it. Lovely combination :)
IV) In the evening another model friend come for tantra massage practice. I just have to mention here how happy and grateful I am for so many awesome friends.... everyone of them different, him/herself and v.interesting and worth to talk to. Very grateful. Well, I practiced and felt it quite great, I feel myself more back on track of how I was in past, at least 1 massage a month is enough to go deeper in this. It would not if I wouldnt do anything else, but with Shiatsu I need to practice just some aspects. In this case I practiced closeness to client in energetic way, lately I felt like Im keeping way too much distance with clients. I think it worked out. Also thanks to great feedback from my friend.
Quite full day, with visitors from dusk till dawn. And also I felt great, that I was receiving, giving and having client, its very nice balance in giving and receiving. Wonderful day! Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 11. listopadu 2013
11.11.2013 - lots of small things
?? Weight.
I dumped morning exercise again today... I feel like in winter slumber, strange feeling. I could put out excuse that it was because of my beloved left soon, but even I WAS happy to spend those last couple of hours together, I also know it could be done. Else I slept good and was happy to could sleep without sb coming in and out of room all the time :P
After nice morning and goodbyes I had full day of small things. It accumulated quite and so that was for today.
I) At least afternoon some good distraction in a form of Shiatsu client. Great treatment, its always charging when is energy flowing nicely.
I dont remember anymore is something interesting happen today. Well, it was first day after workshop so I wasnt really looking for some specials anyway. But I felt today as good day non the less. Ohm mani padme hum.
I dumped morning exercise again today... I feel like in winter slumber, strange feeling. I could put out excuse that it was because of my beloved left soon, but even I WAS happy to spend those last couple of hours together, I also know it could be done. Else I slept good and was happy to could sleep without sb coming in and out of room all the time :P
After nice morning and goodbyes I had full day of small things. It accumulated quite and so that was for today.
I) At least afternoon some good distraction in a form of Shiatsu client. Great treatment, its always charging when is energy flowing nicely.
I dont remember anymore is something interesting happen today. Well, it was first day after workshop so I wasnt really looking for some specials anyway. But I felt today as good day non the less. Ohm mani padme hum.
10.11.2013 - ending of workshop and travel
?? Weight.
I did not morning exercises today, my body was all so painful, that dumped it... I did not slept so well, again v.short and disturbed sleep.
Today workshop was ending. We did last circles and practices and then goodbye circle. Some goodbyes were v.nice and even I know I probably not meet any of these people, it was mostly v.beautiful meetings.
I must say I felt this workshop good, I cant even say why, its somehow my general feeling. I felt like it was worthy to do it and I was happy I could attend with my beloved.
After workshop ended in a whole during afternoon, we went home and spend nice evening together. I must say it made me feel very good to be home again where is room and space to be as I want in our direction.
Nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
I did not morning exercises today, my body was all so painful, that dumped it... I did not slept so well, again v.short and disturbed sleep.
Today workshop was ending. We did last circles and practices and then goodbye circle. Some goodbyes were v.nice and even I know I probably not meet any of these people, it was mostly v.beautiful meetings.
I must say I felt this workshop good, I cant even say why, its somehow my general feeling. I felt like it was worthy to do it and I was happy I could attend with my beloved.
After workshop ended in a whole during afternoon, we went home and spend nice evening together. I must say it made me feel very good to be home again where is room and space to be as I want in our direction.
Nice day. Ohm mani padme hum.
9.11.2013 - 3rd day of workshop - cooking
?? Weight.
I slept again well, even v.short and with lots of waking up. I did not morning exercise, because sb was sleeping on only place it could be done...
Workshop continued today and I cant write much details of course. But I could experience situation where I found, that Im still attached a lot to things sometimes. We were given imaginary choice and other choice then I wanted was chosen. And we immediately did other choice. Well, I was so pissed off in that moment that my choice wasnt the one picked up, that I could not relax into that technique at all, my mind stuck, closed to accept anything. Shit feeling, no matter that I was conscious about it, I was so much in resistance that I couldnt simply do it. But I know it was because it was right after choice was made, I had no time to process it, but on other side - if I would have time to process it I could not see how strong is my attachment and expectations active.
In the evening we did v.nice practice in our couples and it was nice ending of the day of workshop for couples. V.nice, one of my big wishes got fulfilled.
Other than that, we went through lots of processes today with my beloved and lots of buttons were pushed, also because of my resistance yesterday and some old shit which was brought on the surface. But its all v.necessary.
Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept again well, even v.short and with lots of waking up. I did not morning exercise, because sb was sleeping on only place it could be done...
Workshop continued today and I cant write much details of course. But I could experience situation where I found, that Im still attached a lot to things sometimes. We were given imaginary choice and other choice then I wanted was chosen. And we immediately did other choice. Well, I was so pissed off in that moment that my choice wasnt the one picked up, that I could not relax into that technique at all, my mind stuck, closed to accept anything. Shit feeling, no matter that I was conscious about it, I was so much in resistance that I couldnt simply do it. But I know it was because it was right after choice was made, I had no time to process it, but on other side - if I would have time to process it I could not see how strong is my attachment and expectations active.
In the evening we did v.nice practice in our couples and it was nice ending of the day of workshop for couples. V.nice, one of my big wishes got fulfilled.
Other than that, we went through lots of processes today with my beloved and lots of buttons were pushed, also because of my resistance yesterday and some old shit which was brought on the surface. But its all v.necessary.
Ohm mani padme hum.
pátek 8. listopadu 2013
8.11.2013 - second day of workshop
?? weight.
I slept good, even there have been a lot of disturbances in the night, in the morning I felt good and refreshed. Dont remember any dreams tho. And in the morning straight for morning exercises. Fortunately, its possible to exercise here on good, heated and fitting place, hurray :)
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, new way with holdings from 5-1 second, as usually on a new place it was a bit shy workout, finding good way how to do it with music and place, but I worked it out, it was a good start of the day.
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1, first 10 reps on each side in dynamic way - this went half half - it has been better but also much worst, I had enough time to do 2 more reps on each side with 5 seconds holds in difficult positions so in the end I would say it was good.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mainly Barstarz exercises with some extra stuff what I could do. It was quite rich I must say and it wasnt easy to find something I could do. I felt it great.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, I felt it more important to do than having really joy, somehow could not flow into it, but maybe it was also my inability to adapt fast to new place what distracted me so.
II) rest of the day the workshop took place, I dont feel ok to share techniques or something. I just feel ok to share that I had couple of nice meetings and I received v.nice appreciations, my ego rocketed skyhigh and I felt Im lacking a bit of humbleness. Because I dont feel it was my achievement, it was just me how I am and I wont get stuck somewhere just because its appreciated. Quite mixed feelings.
III) In the evening we did very nice group exercises where I could explore more about me being in contact with other woman and dynamics while its happening.
Interesting day, definitely worth it.
I slept good, even there have been a lot of disturbances in the night, in the morning I felt good and refreshed. Dont remember any dreams tho. And in the morning straight for morning exercises. Fortunately, its possible to exercise here on good, heated and fitting place, hurray :)
I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, new way with holdings from 5-1 second, as usually on a new place it was a bit shy workout, finding good way how to do it with music and place, but I worked it out, it was a good start of the day.
I continued with 10 minutes of Kata1, first 10 reps on each side in dynamic way - this went half half - it has been better but also much worst, I had enough time to do 2 more reps on each side with 5 seconds holds in difficult positions so in the end I would say it was good.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, mainly Barstarz exercises with some extra stuff what I could do. It was quite rich I must say and it wasnt easy to find something I could do. I felt it great.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, I felt it more important to do than having really joy, somehow could not flow into it, but maybe it was also my inability to adapt fast to new place what distracted me so.
II) rest of the day the workshop took place, I dont feel ok to share techniques or something. I just feel ok to share that I had couple of nice meetings and I received v.nice appreciations, my ego rocketed skyhigh and I felt Im lacking a bit of humbleness. Because I dont feel it was my achievement, it was just me how I am and I wont get stuck somewhere just because its appreciated. Quite mixed feelings.
III) In the evening we did very nice group exercises where I could explore more about me being in contact with other woman and dynamics while its happening.
Interesting day, definitely worth it.
čtvrtek 7. listopadu 2013
7.11.2013 - great day and start of a workshop
80,8kg " ++ " wow, it was quite a surprise, I dont know why I have so much again.
I slept well, short but well and I woke up fresh and ready. Dont remember any dreams tho.
I did no morning exercise today. Just short, 20 minute version.
I) First 10 minutes I did old way sun salutations in dynamic way, not as fast as possible, more as fluent as possible and precisely. I felt it great. Really enjoyed it I must say. Other 10 minutes I was dancing, since I did nothing more then SS before it was very easy and fluent to dance and I enjoyed it a lot.
II) Later in the morning I had a client, challenging one. Pity I cant write more. I feel that work with this client can give me, and to him too of course, very much.
Afternoon I went to workshop along with my beloved. Its workshop for couples and I had absolutely no expectations. I just felt like it could be really great to do this kind of couple workshop and Im happy I could go there with my beloved together. Now its after first session and quite late. So good night everybody and sleep well! Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well, short but well and I woke up fresh and ready. Dont remember any dreams tho.
I did no morning exercise today. Just short, 20 minute version.
I) First 10 minutes I did old way sun salutations in dynamic way, not as fast as possible, more as fluent as possible and precisely. I felt it great. Really enjoyed it I must say. Other 10 minutes I was dancing, since I did nothing more then SS before it was very easy and fluent to dance and I enjoyed it a lot.
II) Later in the morning I had a client, challenging one. Pity I cant write more. I feel that work with this client can give me, and to him too of course, very much.
Afternoon I went to workshop along with my beloved. Its workshop for couples and I had absolutely no expectations. I just felt like it could be really great to do this kind of couple workshop and Im happy I could go there with my beloved together. Now its after first session and quite late. So good night everybody and sleep well! Ohm mani padme hum.
středa 6. listopadu 2013
6.11.2013 - good day with amazing ending
79,2kg " - " not much, but I have no clue anyway how my weight works atm
I slept well and v.good tonight, dont remember any dreams even. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds from 5-1 second and dynamic rep in the end, I felt it different today, much less painful and helpful. I also realized, that if I focus on absorbing solar energy while doing this (as it should be normally part of Sun Salutations) its much better feeling, but I think its not about certain imaginations, but about imagining absorbing, accepting something. Instead of giving out energy as its in sport. And I realized that its maybe key element in yoga as well and why its so rich - because while focusing on something what is coming into body and healing I dont loose energy, but gain energy. Interesting revelation for one morning, I will try to explore it more.
Then 10 minutes of mixed dynamic power exercises. First pyramid from 10 and then Burpees as much as possible, to my delight I did 32 reps today, which is more then last time. Its really quite difficult his combination in 10 minutes block without rest, I feel it v.rich and helpful to what I need to support in me atm.
3rd block was ABS and core practice: 30 situps/ 60 seconds yoga v-sit / 30 situps / 90 v-sit / 30 situps / 100 sec v-sit. Alarm rung so could not make 2 minutes v-sit in the end. But I couldnt anyway, my muscles were too weak for it. But I felt it as v.good today, because I could hold better and longer and stable then in past. V.rich, but I think I dont have to add this.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, it was great, I really enjoyed it, despite what I did before, I could dance v.freely and creatively and had lots of fun and was lot in a flow.
II) Later in the morning client, new one again and it was nice meeting. Its great to work again in relaxed, fresh, full of energy feelings.
Rest of the day was all right, but in the evening I made, thanks to friend of mine, finally find movie Stranger than fiction, which I was looking for for years. And it was mind-blowing. Amazing plot, made, acted, everything. So deep story, I felt like - wow, its so great movies like this are made. I just wonder why I could not find it sooner - wasnt I ready for it before?
Anyway, great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well and v.good tonight, dont remember any dreams even. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds from 5-1 second and dynamic rep in the end, I felt it different today, much less painful and helpful. I also realized, that if I focus on absorbing solar energy while doing this (as it should be normally part of Sun Salutations) its much better feeling, but I think its not about certain imaginations, but about imagining absorbing, accepting something. Instead of giving out energy as its in sport. And I realized that its maybe key element in yoga as well and why its so rich - because while focusing on something what is coming into body and healing I dont loose energy, but gain energy. Interesting revelation for one morning, I will try to explore it more.
Then 10 minutes of mixed dynamic power exercises. First pyramid from 10 and then Burpees as much as possible, to my delight I did 32 reps today, which is more then last time. Its really quite difficult his combination in 10 minutes block without rest, I feel it v.rich and helpful to what I need to support in me atm.
3rd block was ABS and core practice: 30 situps/ 60 seconds yoga v-sit / 30 situps / 90 v-sit / 30 situps / 100 sec v-sit. Alarm rung so could not make 2 minutes v-sit in the end. But I couldnt anyway, my muscles were too weak for it. But I felt it as v.good today, because I could hold better and longer and stable then in past. V.rich, but I think I dont have to add this.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing, it was great, I really enjoyed it, despite what I did before, I could dance v.freely and creatively and had lots of fun and was lot in a flow.
II) Later in the morning client, new one again and it was nice meeting. Its great to work again in relaxed, fresh, full of energy feelings.
Rest of the day was all right, but in the evening I made, thanks to friend of mine, finally find movie Stranger than fiction, which I was looking for for years. And it was mind-blowing. Amazing plot, made, acted, everything. So deep story, I felt like - wow, its so great movies like this are made. I just wonder why I could not find it sooner - wasnt I ready for it before?
Anyway, great day today! Ohm mani padme hum.
5.11.2013 - goodbyes and travels
79,5kg " ++ " not a clue to be honest, still no sweets tho, 5 days today :)
Else I slept well and rich, in the meaning that I felt I slept out in v.short time, which is always great. I did no morning exercise today, I could, of course, but I wanted to be with my beloved in the last morning as much as possible.
Then I was traveling several hours and in the evening, after some rest, I had a client. New client and I was so happy to see that my bluntness from last week is gone and I can talk and treat client fresh and with joy - so great. Loved it.
In the evening I did dancing meditation. Its something I created from other dancing meditation and its made to fit my needs. Its going like this - 4 rounds consisted of 15 minutes of dancing and then pushups as much as I can and after this hour 20 minutes of meditation. It was good for more reasons, first of all - I feel I need to dance longer and do more pushups, so its great combination and I also feel I need to meditate more so its also great :) I felt I really need to do this, it felt good to get up my ass and actually do it.
Today was good day, I felt my mind much more coherent and able to find most effective solutions and not being lazy. Ohm mani padme hum.
Else I slept well and rich, in the meaning that I felt I slept out in v.short time, which is always great. I did no morning exercise today, I could, of course, but I wanted to be with my beloved in the last morning as much as possible.
Then I was traveling several hours and in the evening, after some rest, I had a client. New client and I was so happy to see that my bluntness from last week is gone and I can talk and treat client fresh and with joy - so great. Loved it.
In the evening I did dancing meditation. Its something I created from other dancing meditation and its made to fit my needs. Its going like this - 4 rounds consisted of 15 minutes of dancing and then pushups as much as I can and after this hour 20 minutes of meditation. It was good for more reasons, first of all - I feel I need to dance longer and do more pushups, so its great combination and I also feel I need to meditate more so its also great :) I felt I really need to do this, it felt good to get up my ass and actually do it.
Today was good day, I felt my mind much more coherent and able to find most effective solutions and not being lazy. Ohm mani padme hum.
pondělí 4. listopadu 2013
4.11.2013 - family day
78,1kg " - " again quite less then yesterday, its interesting, maybe its only because I finally made to not eat sweets for 3 days?! Thanks to my beloved, I have to add. Dont know if its because of sweets, but since friday its over 3,5kg less.
I slept well and cozy and deep tonight, very refreshing sleep. I dont remember any dreams tho. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with old-way sun salutations on speed, alarm rung during 50th rep and after 10 minutes. I was alternating sides each rep, its very rich for my brain in this speed and it was quite a start of exercises today. V.rich. I fluently continued with 5 minutes of new-way SS and I did 4 reps with holds for 5 seconds in each position. Great stretching after this speed phase.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises. First I did 5 rounds of TM core WO - Im not sure if I developed so or if I do it somehow bad, but it went quite nice and easy, but of course, it might be simply because Im more used to it. Well, it was quite rich really, as I realized when I finished 5th round and started to do random exercises, I could not find what I could do for the rest of the time and in the end I found situps, it was v.rich block as well.
Then I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I had hard times to escape my dancing patterns at first, but then I overcome it and second half of dancing was v.nice, natural, fluent and creative. It was great :)
II) I was also biking a bit throughout the city, its again cold outside, but it was great to bike some anyway.
III) Afternoon again a bit biking and being in a park on a fresh air, its good for energy
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved, in talking and loving, we had v.nice day together. Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well and cozy and deep tonight, very refreshing sleep. I dont remember any dreams tho. And in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with old-way sun salutations on speed, alarm rung during 50th rep and after 10 minutes. I was alternating sides each rep, its very rich for my brain in this speed and it was quite a start of exercises today. V.rich. I fluently continued with 5 minutes of new-way SS and I did 4 reps with holds for 5 seconds in each position. Great stretching after this speed phase.
I continued with 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises. First I did 5 rounds of TM core WO - Im not sure if I developed so or if I do it somehow bad, but it went quite nice and easy, but of course, it might be simply because Im more used to it. Well, it was quite rich really, as I realized when I finished 5th round and started to do random exercises, I could not find what I could do for the rest of the time and in the end I found situps, it was v.rich block as well.
Then I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I had hard times to escape my dancing patterns at first, but then I overcome it and second half of dancing was v.nice, natural, fluent and creative. It was great :)
II) I was also biking a bit throughout the city, its again cold outside, but it was great to bike some anyway.
III) Afternoon again a bit biking and being in a park on a fresh air, its good for energy
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved, in talking and loving, we had v.nice day together. Ohm mani padme hum.
3.11.2013 - liquidity, things are moving
78,8kg " -- " I was again v.surprised, cant explain really, only what comes to my mind is that things which was held for long time released and went away.
I slept well tonight and woke up even quite early. I had a dream where I was a university girl student, I dont remember any story, just that I was there, studying and having normal girl student thoughts and problems... I have no idea what it was supposed to mean. But its true I feel I want v.much to study again. But I have to start doing something about it! And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation. Today I did holds from 5-1 second with dynamic rep at the end. It was somehow not pleasant, my neck spine is hurting and I dont know why. Im trying to change my perception of spine all the time, but it dosnt seem to help really.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practice. I did barstarz set and in the rest of the time random exercises "what come". I felt my ABS good, but its always after couple of days without proper exercise. I just realized it today, but I dont know if its more effective to have break for my ABS from time to time or not. Anyway, I made it on the edge and it felt good.
3rd block I was biking on stationary bike. I made 7 minutes on 2nd level and 3 minutes on 3rd. I tried today very conscious approach and bike on the edge - to not jump into routine. Enough said - it was nasty and I was v.exhausted afterwards.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing. I was v.stiff after previous exercises and it took me quite some time to dance this stiff off. But in the end it was good and I felt it v.healthy for me.
II) Later in the morning we went to swimming pool. After long time I decided to not just had fun in the water but also swim as training. I took it softly, just 10 lengths and later after long, nice whirlpool again couple of lengths. It was lot for 1 morning and me and I felt very pleasantly tired afterwards.
For the rest of the day I did no more exercises, I was just painting a bit afternoon which was also nice. I felt that its somehow easy to leave my old "painting patterns" and try lots of new things, to even play with light and perspective. Of course final picture wasnt work of art, but I felt great I could even start something new and that it come so naturally.
I had also quite heavy argument in the evening and it took lot of my energy, but its normal as I feel it... when problem get resolved, or at least its talked over, its, from my experience, always valuable and healthy.
Well, full, rich day today, a bit of everything as life offer. Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well tonight and woke up even quite early. I had a dream where I was a university girl student, I dont remember any story, just that I was there, studying and having normal girl student thoughts and problems... I have no idea what it was supposed to mean. But its true I feel I want v.much to study again. But I have to start doing something about it! And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutation. Today I did holds from 5-1 second with dynamic rep at the end. It was somehow not pleasant, my neck spine is hurting and I dont know why. Im trying to change my perception of spine all the time, but it dosnt seem to help really.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practice. I did barstarz set and in the rest of the time random exercises "what come". I felt my ABS good, but its always after couple of days without proper exercise. I just realized it today, but I dont know if its more effective to have break for my ABS from time to time or not. Anyway, I made it on the edge and it felt good.
3rd block I was biking on stationary bike. I made 7 minutes on 2nd level and 3 minutes on 3rd. I tried today very conscious approach and bike on the edge - to not jump into routine. Enough said - it was nasty and I was v.exhausted afterwards.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing. I was v.stiff after previous exercises and it took me quite some time to dance this stiff off. But in the end it was good and I felt it v.healthy for me.
II) Later in the morning we went to swimming pool. After long time I decided to not just had fun in the water but also swim as training. I took it softly, just 10 lengths and later after long, nice whirlpool again couple of lengths. It was lot for 1 morning and me and I felt very pleasantly tired afterwards.
For the rest of the day I did no more exercises, I was just painting a bit afternoon which was also nice. I felt that its somehow easy to leave my old "painting patterns" and try lots of new things, to even play with light and perspective. Of course final picture wasnt work of art, but I felt great I could even start something new and that it come so naturally.
I had also quite heavy argument in the evening and it took lot of my energy, but its normal as I feel it... when problem get resolved, or at least its talked over, its, from my experience, always valuable and healthy.
Well, full, rich day today, a bit of everything as life offer. Ohm mani padme hum.
sobota 2. listopadu 2013
2.11.2013 - sometimes " to be" is enough
80kg " -- " most unexpected, but ok, means I had inside lot of shit which was waiting to be flushed away, thats good
I slept well tonight, and long for my standards, but I felt it good for a change to sleep out. I did no morning exercise today morning, but it was planed (by me). I did all days in last 2 weeks in order to take break today morning. But I must say that Im not so sure if its fine to take these days of, maybe to do only short exercise like yesterday would be fine. Because I sometimes feel like starting again after this 1 day off. Its something I will look at.
I) I had a client today, it was interesting treatment, because I felt like doing techniques and approach to client in new way, in special way. And I felt it good, because every treatment is special in many aspects, its just sometimes not so easy to free mind and make treatment like first treatment ever. I do it like this (like first treatment) almost every time, because I feel it v.important, but sometimes its not easy to free my mind for this approach. And its not getting easier with more years of practice. I think its natural tho, its one of reasons why is so important to keep learning new things - to make this part of my work easier - keep in touch with presence and clients instead of jumping into routine.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved, so important time to spend it together without "doing" something together. V.important. Its important to sometimes just be and feel, without mind constructs. V.important.
I could not do anything today so in the evening I did at least 20 minutes of exercises.
I) First 10 minutes I did sun salutations in a dynamic way, it was nice, but towards last quarter I felt I need more stretching, this new way seems to not be really fit for dynamic enterprise. But as combination its fine.
Then I did something about 10 minutes of dancing, it was nice and went v.smooth and joyful, I though its maybe because I wasnt so "used" like normally when I dance after much more exercises. Anyway, I enjoyed it very much.
Rest of the day I spent in company of my beloved. It was nice day whatsoever. Ohm mani padme hum.
I slept well tonight, and long for my standards, but I felt it good for a change to sleep out. I did no morning exercise today morning, but it was planed (by me). I did all days in last 2 weeks in order to take break today morning. But I must say that Im not so sure if its fine to take these days of, maybe to do only short exercise like yesterday would be fine. Because I sometimes feel like starting again after this 1 day off. Its something I will look at.
I) I had a client today, it was interesting treatment, because I felt like doing techniques and approach to client in new way, in special way. And I felt it good, because every treatment is special in many aspects, its just sometimes not so easy to free mind and make treatment like first treatment ever. I do it like this (like first treatment) almost every time, because I feel it v.important, but sometimes its not easy to free my mind for this approach. And its not getting easier with more years of practice. I think its natural tho, its one of reasons why is so important to keep learning new things - to make this part of my work easier - keep in touch with presence and clients instead of jumping into routine.
Rest of the day I spend with my beloved, so important time to spend it together without "doing" something together. V.important. Its important to sometimes just be and feel, without mind constructs. V.important.
I could not do anything today so in the evening I did at least 20 minutes of exercises.
I) First 10 minutes I did sun salutations in a dynamic way, it was nice, but towards last quarter I felt I need more stretching, this new way seems to not be really fit for dynamic enterprise. But as combination its fine.
Then I did something about 10 minutes of dancing, it was nice and went v.smooth and joyful, I though its maybe because I wasnt so "used" like normally when I dance after much more exercises. Anyway, I enjoyed it very much.
Rest of the day I spent in company of my beloved. It was nice day whatsoever. Ohm mani padme hum.
1.11.2013 - traveling and meeting
81,6kg " ++ " Yeah... lots of crap I ate yesterday, could not help myself...
I remember I slept well tonight, but since I did not had much time in the morning I did just short morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds in position from 5-1 seconds. Good start of the day as ever. And then 10 minutes of dancing, Even it was just 10 minutes I enjoyed it v.much.
Then some travelling and meeting my beloved and for a rest of day it was mainly about being together, to welcome each other on all levels we are able to, cooking and in general simply being together. I did no more exercises or practices today. But it was good day, Im reading Mustard seed from Osho again and it always gave me so much stuff to process - even short read.... Ohm mani padme hum.
I remember I slept well tonight, but since I did not had much time in the morning I did just short morning exercise.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations with holds in position from 5-1 seconds. Good start of the day as ever. And then 10 minutes of dancing, Even it was just 10 minutes I enjoyed it v.much.
Then some travelling and meeting my beloved and for a rest of day it was mainly about being together, to welcome each other on all levels we are able to, cooking and in general simply being together. I did no more exercises or practices today. But it was good day, Im reading Mustard seed from Osho again and it always gave me so much stuff to process - even short read.... Ohm mani padme hum.
31.10.2013 - minor cleanings and major working
80,5kg " + " no comment
Im writing this entry 2.11. so I dont remember so much...
I know I did morning exercise and it went like this:
I) Starting with dynamic warm up - 6 reps of sun salutations, running and shadowboxing, I remember it worked out well as warm up :)
Then I did pyramid from 14, today it was interesting, because I forgot if I did part with 9 reps so I did it again after 8 and in the end - because I know how long approx it takes dependant on how I perform - I found out that I did not missed it so I made it a bit harder for me, but at the same time I felt it v.good. Because I finished whole set with 1 minute to spare and made it again up to 4 and alarm rung at start of 5 part. So in total it was 123 pushups/situps/squats. Not bad at all.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, its v.hard to do this after pyramid for 10 minutes, but I do it in order to improve my endurance, so Im often v.exhausted couple of minutes before end and its not easy to find exercises to do. But whats most important for me is to do it as good and intensive as I can and that I did.
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, I dont remember how it was.
II) Afternoon I had a client, very intensive treatment. It was good to feel again on regular level of Shiatsu without being totally exhausted. good job.
III) And in the evening I did not went to tantra course, because I simply did not felt it and felt more important to talk with flatmate about something what happened. And we did and it felt really v.good we did. Because there was some things not clear between us and this clearing in circle way is very helpful in clearing this kind of things.
I felt this day as v.good, I did everything I wanted to and it always feels good to sort small things which can poison life v.easily. Ohm mani padme hum.
Im writing this entry 2.11. so I dont remember so much...
I know I did morning exercise and it went like this:
I) Starting with dynamic warm up - 6 reps of sun salutations, running and shadowboxing, I remember it worked out well as warm up :)
Then I did pyramid from 14, today it was interesting, because I forgot if I did part with 9 reps so I did it again after 8 and in the end - because I know how long approx it takes dependant on how I perform - I found out that I did not missed it so I made it a bit harder for me, but at the same time I felt it v.good. Because I finished whole set with 1 minute to spare and made it again up to 4 and alarm rung at start of 5 part. So in total it was 123 pushups/situps/squats. Not bad at all.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, its v.hard to do this after pyramid for 10 minutes, but I do it in order to improve my endurance, so Im often v.exhausted couple of minutes before end and its not easy to find exercises to do. But whats most important for me is to do it as good and intensive as I can and that I did.
Last about 20 minutes I was dancing, I dont remember how it was.
II) Afternoon I had a client, very intensive treatment. It was good to feel again on regular level of Shiatsu without being totally exhausted. good job.
III) And in the evening I did not went to tantra course, because I simply did not felt it and felt more important to talk with flatmate about something what happened. And we did and it felt really v.good we did. Because there was some things not clear between us and this clearing in circle way is very helpful in clearing this kind of things.
I felt this day as v.good, I did everything I wanted to and it always feels good to sort small things which can poison life v.easily. Ohm mani padme hum.
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