29.5.2014 - lets see

? W. I slept very shortly today, like 5 hours or something. But I felt fine in the morning and hurray for morning exercise.
 Notes: 23x pushups, 1:40 headstand.
 I) I went running today, new route, or well... half old route and half new route. I went a big deal today, a lot up and down and heavy upward parts. It was with additional bonus, because it was raining just shortly before I went to run so ground was wet and since Im running from big part in forest I had to be extra careful with steps. But all went good and I did intense run today. Looking forward to see it somewhere one day. I felt like sweating 5 litters today. Back at home I did also headstand, but after this intense run I did not dared longer stand than 1:40. I was happy to be able to get up and hold this long to be honest.
...tbc!

 II) Later in the morning I had a client. It was nice to see progress with this client which is nicely solving his problems. and treatment was also interesting, had to use some new moves.
 III) afternoon I went to my beloved again. This time it was very annoying travel, because we had 1h40m delay on departure.... so I was crazy tired and annoyed when I arrived to my beloved.

 This delay totally screwed up my schedule and I could see that Im not really detached from this kind of happenings because it annoyed me a lot all this situation. At least I can see where I need to look.
 Ohm mani padme hum. 

28.5.2014 - randes vous

? W. Today I slept well and long. I was dead tired in the evening so went sleep early and woke up easily before alarm at 5:30. Refreshed and nourished, great feeling... hmm :) And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
 I) Staring today with Sun Salutations with 4 reps with 5 second holds and couple of dynamic reps. Felt great, ATM I feel these reps with 5 second holds are great middle way between stretch and warm up, I feel always awesome afterwards and very nicely woken up.
 Then I did 5 minutes pushup session, 10x some kind of pushups and then 20 sec pause. It was so difficult! I dont understand it. But definitely great that I did it because I see where I need to work more - upper part.
 Third block I was giving some love to my core and ABS for 10 minutes. Barstarz set today. Was hard as hell, but I did whole set. Felt very good, even my muscles pained a lot.
 Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I wanted to dance a bit more today and to my great delight I could enjoy very nice creative and free weave. Enjoyed dancing today very much.
 II) Later in the morning I went to a client. I think it was my first home-visit in my hometown since I started my carrier. But not because I would try to avoid it, simply because nobody was interested. But its better to work in salon, it takes less time for me and for client its good to leave his/her environment. Treatment itself was nice, I could not do much physical techniques because of circumstances of a client, but I wish to client it will work well for her.
 III) Afternoon other client, very nice and song treatment. I was very happy to feel client so well and could copy with the needs. Its not always so easily possible and its always great gift if it is like this.
 IV) In the evening I went on a date with a friend. It was for me v.important and v.difficult thing to do. I have great desire for this friend and I needed to clear things between us and inside me. So I asked to meet her earlier and on this date I told her what I feel to her and my desires about her. As a matter of confidence I cant share about her, but for me it was very strong thing to do. I never met woman to tell her that I want her sexually (when I feel love to a woman its much easier). And that feeling before I told her was overwhelming... But I had to tell her, because it was matter of a health of my soul. After we parted, still as a friends, I felt like something in me is healing and releasing and it was very nice feeling of freedom.
 It make life so much easier to be honest about feelings to people.... there is nothing what can go wrong. Even if that person decides to not meet ever again - its how it should be. But this feelings of not expressing  what I feel and what drives me I feel very destructive for me. And I also want to have clear relationships with friends so its very important to say how things are and not pretending something because what I feel is "not appropriate".

 Very long and intense day today. But at the days like this I grow and learn a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.

27.5.2014 - way back

87,7kg still almost the same weight. It feels like I need to start my metabolism again. Is it possible that eating so much milk shit as I did in last weeks slow down metabolism so much? Anyway, I did not slept well tonight, but woke up anyway on time and went for morning exercises.
 Notes: 23x pushups.
 I) I went running today. Same route like last time, but in other direction. It was hell of a difference. I felt like I can push myself more then ever, yet still I did this round slower, I would say because this direction is more steep in upwards parts, but had to say. I felt nice how I an run fast in upwards-going parts and also be faster in downward-going places and flat places. And it was nice and enjoyable run. Back at the house I did pushups and bit of stretching.
...tbc!

 Afternoon I travelled back to my hometown for couple of days. I want to to work... :) Eventless travel and rest of the day I spend more or less resting. I was quite exhausted after this weekend. Im not sure what takes me energy... would love to find out. Meanwhile Im trying to eat less crap food and drink properly. Lets see.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

26.5.2014 - exercise and sexercise

88,1kg not dropping in weight really. Its also interesting. I had 10kg less, but I dont remember feeling so good physically as I am ATM. Else I slept well tonight and had bizarre dream where I was travelling with a friend in gargantuous space shuttle made of concrete. Total nonsence, but tell it to the dream... was fun anyway. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
 Notes: 23x pushups, 3:30 headstand.
 I) Starting with Sun Salutations, 4 reps with 5 second holds and then couple of dynamic resps. Wonderful warm up and great stretching, today I felt it very pleasant and great, nice feeling.
 Then I did 10 minutes of alternating 10 Burpees, 30 mountain climbers and 20 squats, I made it to squats in 3rd round. It felt fine, I enjoyed that after struggling in first minutes I kind of started working harder, but without pressure and could work very well.
 3rd 10 minute block I did ABS and core practices, combination of all I know, just as I felt it good. I made id nicely rich and I was happy for my ABS considering that I did not gave too much love to them in last weeks.
 Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. Nothing special today, it felt just like important stretching and movement after strength exercises before.

 I did no other exercises today, just enjoyed few sexercises with my beloved. Else we spend nice day together, I felt today very important for our relationship, because last week I felt a bit disconnected and today I could find again way to this amazing woman which Im honored to call womanfriend and soon my wife <3
 Ohm mani padme hum.

25.5.2014 - rest day

W ? I did not slept well tonight. Its interesting, sometimes I sleep v.well in this bed and sometimes its like if I would not sleep at all. Anyway, today I have rest day so I did no morning exercise.
 I spent nice day with my beloved, biking outside and enjoying beginning of summer and in general being with my beloved.
 I felt also v.exhausted almost whole day, it was quite annoying. I dont know what caused this exhaustion, but I felt I need good rest all the time. Would love to find out pattern in this tiredness, its limiting me in life sometimes a lot.
 I) Afternoon I had a client. It was strong treatment, very deep going and I believe it started v.strong process in a client.

 Ohm mani padme hum. 

24.5.2014 - familly day

88,1kg - blab, not good to see. Its incredible how fast is my weight starting up when I broke my program for just 1 or 2 days... Its a bit stressful that my organism is working like that I must say. Anyway, in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
 Notes: 22 pushups.
 I) I went running as morning exercise. Was running for about 50 minutes in the hills, up and down in the forest. Was very nice and to my delight I felt easier in running both uphill and downhill. Also in breathing.

 Else today I spend whole day with my beloved, both inside and outside. my allergy started to be active. Later than in other years, which was nice because I could enjoy more being outside. But Im still working on my allergy and I strongly believe I can overcome it once.
 It was nice day, nothing special happen, but its not always what makes the day special. Ohm mani padme hum.

23.5.2014 - together again

? W. I slept well tonight and woke up with alarm, but fine. And in the morning went for morning exercise.
 Notes: 22x pushups, 3:20 headstand.
 I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, did holds 5-3 seconds with a bit overlap of 10 minutes. Been some time I did this. Its interesting this feeling of time. On one side its been over a week I did this, but it feels like Im doing it all the time. Anyway, good warm up and stretch.
 Then I did Burpees for 5 minutes. Alarm rung on 29th rep. Not all bad, but nothing to be proud of either. On other side - its hardly a surprise. But anyway... was fun.
 Third I did ABS and core exercises, youtube set, did not finished it, but I felt I did great... best I was able to do today. It was rich.
 Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes and there I had lot of fun. I was in very creative, joyful energy while dancing and felt quite happy about it.
 II) Later in the morning I went to travel to my beloved. Today was first truly summer-like day. Just not so many insects yet :) 

 Rest of the day I spend with my beloved. In love, love making and resting pace. Its nice to be together again <3
 Ohm mani padme hum.

22.5.2014 - bit more motivation

? W. Today I slept well and long and woke up by myself at perfect time for morning exercise. I was dreaming a lot tonight, but dont remember anything anymore.
 Notes: 22x pushups.
 I) I went running today, different route like last time, same hills. I run for about 40 minutes. But it was v.rich I must say, I could not run longer and I felt that I gave it all I could. I like how I can change routes on these hills. Its very up-and-down and all connected. I made also couple of pushups breaks during the run.
 II) Afternoon I had a client. Very good treatment in my opinion. Enjoyed it a lot, kind of more physical treatment in the sense, that I was working mainly with physical body, but I felt it very well.

 Else I was working here and there during the day on wedding preparations a lot. Managed lot of things today. Its slowly getting solid frame. What bothers me most ATM is wedding dress, but going to try my jo-do kimono and see if it fits :)
 Good day today, productive. Ohm mani padme hum.

21.5.2014 - strange day

? W. I woke up around 7 and fortunately made it to leave city early so I could be back in hometown soon to take relaxed lunch and rest before client. I did no exercises in the morning, did not felt space for it really.
 I) Afternoon, back in hometown, I had client. Very interesting treatment, I also felt how Im missing to work more. Would really love to have more clients. But even this treatment gave both to client and me a lot. Interesting work with this client I must say.
 In the evening I wanted to do some exercises, but I could not do anything, started 1st rep of Sun Salutations and had to stop because of how I felt... but at least I got pissed of and did daily pushups: 22x.

 It was so strange day today, I could not connect to anything, work on anything (except Shiatsu). I dont know if its still recuperation after Beltain. But in any case, this Beltain, even it was very nourishing for my soul, for my body it was very demanding... And today I went sleep v.early.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

20.5.2014 - London Feary

? W. I think I slept quite well tonight, nothing to report. In the morning morning exercise!
Notes: 22 pushups
I) In the morning I went to run. I did shorter session then usually, because I did not felt recuperated enough amd I felt it and still feel as good decision. It was intensive anyway, I made short breaks for pushups and reversed pushups during the run as well and also went on this new route with big level changes. It was rich indeed. I enjoyed it very much as well. I like how running is forming my legs ATM. It might change, but right now its nice :)

 I should have had client in the morning, but he postponed in last moment, I was basically just on the way to leave flat.... its sad sometimes. But I used this time to do some minor stuff and finish movie I was watching (Redbelt). Then, after short rest, went to Capital to attend evenign salon about open relationships.
 I) Salon was lead by London Feary, interesting guy, with v.young energy in eyes and I felt like I met myself in some way. Cant describe it, it was like look into the mirror, even I did not saw my own face. Interesting feeling, never had this before.
 Salon was interesting, mainly to hear face to face experiences of other people living in open relationships of some kind, to hear differences between us in how we live our relationships. Traps we fell into and so on. I felt it valuable. It lasted very fast and it felt like its ending very soon. There was so much to talk and share about... nice evening.

 Good day today, Shiatsu did not happened, but at least I could prepare and rest a bit better. Ohm mani padme hum.

19.5.2014 - recuperation

? W. I could not do morning exercise today. I feel physically very bad, more inside then muscles or such. I will see if it gets better during the day and I would do some exercises afternoon. I felt like I dont want to punish myself for not being nice to me in last 3 days. I wasnt, but on other side it was my free and voluntary decision and I dont want to punish myself for that. Its bad enough to imagine how long it takes again to get back into shape before Beltain. Better to be rested and cleared before start again then to be even more not-loving now.
 I also took today clearing diet, just rice and carrots or apple. Need to sweep things up a bit, there is lot to clear ATM. I feel shit coming out through my skin, its a bit disgusting to smell it, but thats the way its going away...
 ...tbc!

I) In the morning I took short walk through city, together with some minor office visit. It was nice walk I must say, enjoyed it. Its interesting how this change in my life - I like walking through city so much lately, it makes me feel connected more with people.

 Else I was working here and there most of the day on wedding, lots of minor things, some translation, some communications and so on. I was doing this stuff with breaks till almost 22... was quite exhausting I must say.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

18.5.2014 - heavy arrival

? W. I slept out again, like till 9 or something. then people started to wake up and helping themselves with breakfast. Also slowly packing and clearing the place. It was nice morning, it was great that we all worked together without any problems, very naturally, like 1 good-working team, it felt really nice. None was moaning about something and such. Then we bid goodbyes to each other and I moved with one friend back to hometown. I was exhausted like never or something.... like being under drugs.
 It was very heavy 2 days for my organism, I wasnt drunk at any point, but I drunk some beers during the weekend and even I wasnt drunk, it works like a poison in other ways too it seems... I was also eating meat there. All this together I felt like my organism got some serious hits. And even then I could not force myself to eat proper food at home and ate even more junk. Seems this train of junk takes some time to stop...
 But besides of this part I dont really mind whole event, it was great fun and joy like every year so far, I was really happy there with friends and Im looking forward for next year again. <3
 Ohm mani padme hum.

17.5.2014 - Beltain

? W. I woke up early, but since there was nothing to do and raining - only thing what made sence to me was to return to the lair and sleep out a bi.
 I did no exercises today, just was helping here and there with preps for a event. Sawing wood, move furniture etc.. afternoon was main event. It was rather simple this year, because constant rain. But we played few games which were very fun and entertaining :)
 Also more friends come and it was also easy going day with friends. No stress, no worries, in the middle of the woods. In the evening we made wonderful feast and Beltain fire... it was great. We kept up till 3 a.m. or something.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

16.5.2014 - departure to Beltain

? W. In the morning hurray for morning exercise!
 Notes: 21x pushups, 4:10 headstand.
 I) Today I started with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations on speed. Did 45 reps if I remember right, was alright, I did not expected to do 40 so I was happy. Then I did 5 minutes of Shadowboxing, to my delight it was very easy to do freeform 1 minute longer than before without major struggle. Else I did some running with neck stretches and some punch practice.
 I continued then with 10 minutes of alternating 10 Burpees, 30 Mountain Climbers and 20 squats. Great set, love how it uses whole body. Did almost 3 full rounds, alarm rung during squats in 3rd round. Felt it great.
 Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Dont remember how it went, but I remember that it was fun.
 II) Later in the morning friend visited me. It was nice visit, we talk for about 3 hours. Its great to meet with friends like this from time to time :)
 III) Afternoon I packed things for Beltain celebration Im attending this weekend and departed shortly afterwards. It was good travel, first train and then from one village I had to walk 5km with total full and heavy backpack, first 3 km constantly uphill and then 2 km through nice path. It was great in some way those 3km, I felt very good my legs, that they are much stronger then I remember last time I had similar test. It felt good. And I also enjoyed this walk I must say, was nice air after rain.

 Rest of the day I spend in company of my friends in the shack in woods where the event took place, today event did not started yet, just people started gathering. It was easy evening and night with lot of jokes and story telling.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

15.5.2014 - a bit out of energy

? W- I slept v.well tonight, went sleep early, because I was v.exhausted in the evening. And woke up again 5:30, but I feel it fine. And hurray for morning exercises!
 Notes: 21x pushups, 4:00 headstand. Btw. it may seem that Im not progressing in headstand, but in fact I dod a lot. Im working a lot on perfection of position and its so much to work on... shoulders, legs, body, neck, balance and harmonize it all together. Its very exhausting and demanding to stay in this full focus and working in micro-movements, so I cant stay so long. But I do more work.
 I) Starting with Sun Salutations, made 3 reps with 10 second holds. I realized, that even I tried really keep practise position, I felt not activated enough, seems I either have to change positions faster or do much longer holds. But afterwards I felt very good started and warmed up, will explore this further.
 Next 10 minutes I spend giving love to my legs, 50 normal squats, 50 half-way squats with short hold in low position and then 17 tight squats. Want to do more next time. But I felt this very necessary to do.
 3rd block I was practising ABS and core. Did youtube set, but could not finish it. Was so rich, uff.... I feel my ABS very good in last days, I feel like these big changes in exercises are giving strong messages to muscles.
 Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. It was lot of fun, I felt dancing very smooth this morning, felt nice.
...tbc!

 II) Later in the morning I had a client. Decent treatment. I was just so crazy tired afterwards, it was crazy.

 I dont know what I was doing for the rest of the day. Writing this 19.5. Some mild memory is telling me, that I was very exhausted today and needed rest. Im sure I did something more, just dont remember....
 Ohm mani padme hum.

14.5.2014 - loong day!

? W. I slept like 5 hours only tonight, but good 5 hours at least :) Woke up 5:30 and could not sleep more so hurray for morning exercise.
 Notes: 21x pushups, 3:16 headstand.
 I) I went running this morning, new route, steeply up and down around nearby hill. I really want to run like this, I enjoy v.much this working out. But I also feel it could be nice sometimes switch to more flat route to practice speed. But even in this upside pace I practice speed. Upwards practising explosive power and downwards stability and other muscles. I run full 50 minutes and in the end did a bit of extra pushups and such, just very little, more to test how body reacts after such strong running. At home I did also headstand. To my delight it was easier than I thought.
 II) I had also lot things to do in the morning, went to city, walking a lot around, dealing with things and offices. Was nice walk through city I must say. It amazed me how many things I can manage if I plan my route good.
 III) Afternoon I had couple of clients. 2 man and 1 of them new client. I must say I enjoyed working with them a lot, and I also felt I could help them. I was still a bit tired from last days, but I feel I could give them my 100%.
 Besides of this stuff I did lot of small things at home, communicated around wedding and with friends. Im realising lately that I have really tons of these short communications. I must say I dont feel so comfy in it. A bit burdening, need to look whats in this.
 But very nice day, felt like week long, very full, but in good way. Ohm mani padme hum.

13.5.2014 - goodbye

85,6kg - seems its my new weight. Else I slept well tonight, which was really a blessing. In the morning hurray for morning exercise.
 Notes: 21x pushups, 4:40 headstand.
 I) Starting today with Sun Salutations, 4 reps with 5 sec holds and then few dynamic reps. To my delight I wasnt so shortened as I was afraid and whole 10 minutes was great warm up and stretch as usual.
 I continued then with 5 minutes of Burpees, alarm rung on 37th rep. I though I will make more, but anyway I felt it good. Love this exercise.
 Then I did 10 minute ABS and core exercises, mainly Barstarz exercises. It was v.rich, but I was faster than few days ago, which felt great. Very rich set.... uff.
 Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Was in not-so-usual energy when I was dancing very unstilish and weird, but I did not cared, was fun and I enjoyed it really.
...tbc!

 Rest of the day I spend in this goodbye mood, where I wanted to enjoy my beloved as much as possible. We spend v.nice day, talking, cuddling up and being together in our love.
 In the evening I bid farewell and went back to my hometown. Travel was nice and without incidents. I was just so tired in the evening, but could not fall asleep for a long time anyway...
 Ohm mani padme hum.

12.5.2014 - spring is back

85,6kg. Tonight I slept well and good, even I was a bit dizzy in the morning. And since early hours of today there was beautiful outside I went running for morning exercise.
 Notes: 21x pushups.
 I) I went running again into nearby forest, but very different route and very nice one I must say, its big circle around ruins on this hill, where forest grows. Route full of wonderful views and since sun was shining also impressive light effects :) It was big gift to could combine beauty and running together. I also explored couple of new ways and slowly this forest starts creating map in my memory. looking forward to run again there.
 II) Afternoon I went to clients, charming elderly couple. I really enjoy treating these 2. And I also feel I can really help them.

 Else It was rather calm, restful day today. I felt mostly somehow without energy, but not down, this beautiful sun and day was rather charging. Maybe I need just simply more rest, who knows. Anyway, very nice day today. Ohm mani padme hum.

11.5.2014 - day together

? W. I slept v.long and well tonight, I needed it. Also, today I have day off from exercise, but we spend very nice few hours with my beloved, making love like in the beginning of our relationship. So wonderful, so full of love and pleasure.... beautiful.
 I) Afternoon I had a client, very nice treatment, very strong and I felt like this will really  work wonders for a client if he let it a space. I really like this new energy Im working in since last BHS workshop. Its both more joyful and less serious-feeling while I feel it serves clients more than before.

 Else I spend most of the day with my beloved, enjoying our love and being together. Cooking, cuddling up, resting together, enjoying the life, very nice day. World would be better place if most people could spend days with people theyr love like this, or I believe so. We are very gifted, here in Europe, having so much to enjoy life like in paradise. Ohm mani padme hum.

10.5.2014 - Bruder von Bruderndorf :)

85,6kg. Almost 1,5kg less, very nice :) I slept well tonight, I needed to sleep good really, last 2 weeks were so intensive... and in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
 Notes: 20x pushups
 I) Today I went running and I mean really running. I run for 50 minutes today, quite uphill and downhill. I chose route in nearby forest and tried to make it intensive. It worked out and I felt like "job done" in the end. I also again experienced having this smooth, silky skin in a shower. Its very pleasant to touch myself on the body after this running. Im not sure if its because of blood flowing well or lot of sweating. But its nice in any case :)
 II) Else we spend together again in family circle. Visiting bit distant-living member in small village. We spend lot of time outside there and it was v.nice. I realized, that this year I enjoy being outside more than ever in my life. I dont know if its because my allergy on pollen and stuff is better this year again or something, but I enjoy it very much.
 In the evening I was crazy tired and went sleep quite early. Very nice day today I must say. Ohm mani padme hum.

9.5.2014 - love in all its forms

87kg on different scale, but I would say its less than yesterday again. Else I slept very well and woke up quite early, refreshed. Dont remember any dreams. And in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
 Notes: 20x pushups, 4:30 headstand.
 I) Starting with Sun Salutations, 4 reps with 5 seconds holds and then few dynamic ones. I recognized, that my leg muscles are shortened, probably from running. It tells me to definitely not skip leg stretch exercises. Else it was great warm up and stretching.
 Then I did Kata1 for 10 minutes, 10x on each side in dynamic way and then couple of reps with 5 second holds. It was v.rich, its been some time since I did this. But I felt it very good today, in the way that I felt it helping a lot.
 3rd block I did ABS and core practices for 10 minutes, mainly Barstarz set. I felt like my ABS is not so good anymore, I had lot of troubles and could not finish the set, had to replace with other exercises and in the end I had problems to stand up, was very rich and I felt it great.
 Last I was dancing for about 15 minutes. It was lots of fun again today, still on creative way and enjoyed dancing a lot.
 ...tbc!

 Today I did only lot of sexercise, but very beautiful and intesive so I felt like it was great wedding of exercise and love and joy and fun. Else I also enjoyed just being with my beloved in familly atmosphere.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

8.5.2014 - always on the move

88,3kg. Tonight I slept very well, I remember feeling from a dream, that it was interesting story, but dont remember anything specific. In the morning hurray for morning exercises.
 Notes: 20x pushups.
 I) Went running today, even start was very strugly, I could run so much more than first time... must find some interesting, long route, because I finished to a place where I though I will need to work to get there.... :) 15 minutes running there, then 5 minutes jump rope fun and 10 minutes kickbox practice and 20 minutes running back. Good set, but I think I will find something to make it a hour, either more running or more exercises in middle part, lets see.
...tbc!

II) Afternoon I had couple of clients, 2 males, good to balance yesterday with 2 woman. Good treatments, I must say I enjoy a bit more working since workshop and since I got Shiatsu last time. It feels great to find this joy part in work.
 III) Later I went on the travel. It was nice, because sun is much longer up by now I can enjoy travelling much more, looking outside and observing the world. I enjoyed it this time. And all went smooth.
 After arrival I enjoyed short evening with my beloved, which was v.beautiful and loving <3 Was great to feel her again, on my skin and in my heart <3 Ohm mani padme hum.

7.5.2014 - and back to work :)

88,6kg - eeeeeeeeeeek. Was shock. I woke up feeling slim, my pants were loose more then few weeks before and I was like "great, thats good time to go on scale" and BUM 3kg more than 2 weeks ago. Good wake up call. Else I slept well and woke up quite early and hurray for morning exercise!
 Notes: 20x pushups, 4:00 headstand
 I) Starting with Sun Salutations with holds 5-3 and 1x2 seconds. Felt good, great warm up and stretch. I continued then with Burpees for 5 minutes, after a week of not doing any I wasnt expecting much, but did around 33 reps, which felt very nice. Last I did ABS and core practices, mainly this new set I found on youtube, felt also great. I feel this set very nice to my back. I felt great doing it.
 Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, was lot of fun, I was a lot in creative wave and enjoyed dancing very much.
 II) Today I had 2 clients, both nice treatments. Fortunately no hard cases, just clients needing, VERY NECESSARY care. Its nothing less then common treatments of course, people need care much more then they think. I enjoyed those very much.
 III) Afternoon I went on a short walk to post, was nice to get outside, when Im in my hometown, I feel like imprisoned sometimes. Having no wish to go outside then because of work or duties.
 IV) In the evening I was dancing for about 1:10. Was surprisingly easy and I could play and have fun whole time. Yeah, had lot of fun :)

 Full, nice day today! Ohm mani padme hum.

6.5.2014 - slow return

? W. Today I slept out, I needed it a lot. I felt Im unable to make morning exercises today.... Im feeling a bit not fine about it, but this feeling of importance to take a rest today feels so right, that I have no problem with resting today, I mean, inside.
 Even I wanted to really take a good rest today, I had work with vinil packing and sorting stuff after workshop. I feel like I would really love to have 1 day to just rest, it was so intensive week.... I have lots of things to integrate, lot of things.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

5.5.2014 - document star :)

W ?. Tonight I slept well, even went sleep very late. And I spend in the bed good time extra. Was v.beautiful morning. I did no morning exercises, because I went from bed around 10 and then was in one round till the late evening...
 I) Today was filming day and I was part of a crew today, along with other participants and assistants. I felt it like new workshop really.... to do such deep practices we did in last days but while being filmed and under special circumstances for good shot. But was also good experience to experience filming itself and how its going during filming. I did scenes for document to "fill the gaps" from actual workshop and also made interview.
 I had also duties as workshop assistant, like collect money from people so all together with packing stuff I had no time to rest and almost not even time to eat, very busy day. Combined with saying goodbye to people I get very close and parting, which was emotionally intensive.... was intense.
 Way home was smooth, but quite long, over 4 hours and I arrived home very late and v.tired.
 Today was one of most intensive, beautiful days in a long time, this shooting and atmosphere after workshop was very special and very new for me. Its very interesting experience.
 Ohm mani padme hum.

4.5.2014 – Last day of workshop already!

? W. I went sleep quite late again, but we ought to start later today so it was fine, I could sleep out and went in the moring for morning exercise just fine.

 I) Went running again. Got about as far as last time. But enjoyed it a lot, even could sprint in the end, which fetl really fantastic :) Its just pity I got blister on my heel, so I think I will skip running to morrow to let it heal. Anyway, was great! And afterwards made 20x pushups.

 II) So today was last day of a workshop, I did not expected anything, maybe sharing and goodbye session, but it was absolutely most beautiful ending of a workshop I ever experienced, last meditation was so powerful and beautiful.... maybe only ending of BHS1 was stronger, I still remember hearing music of the spheres 2 and half of year ago.... but anyway, life brought me another of my wishes while I was in contact with very physically v.beautiful woman, I have issues with v.beautiful woman, because I had quite bad experiences with them (in the way of openness, sensitivity and being true). Thanks to this last day I felt like breaking old pattern and outlived opinions.

 After this morning session we had expected sharing and goodbye session, which felt very nice as well. Rest of the day went in chillout atmosphere, filming team and few participants stood on the place (including myself) and evening I spend in very nice company of these people. Ohm mani padme hum.

3.5.2014 – third day of workshop

? W. I went sleep v.late yesterday, because poeple got caught in energies again. I felt almost like some landlord swearing on people, but just inside myself. I knew its just my shit so I did not bothered anyone directly, just had to switch ligh and turn off music, because nobody seemed to care. But I feel it fine, I kind of understand it.

 Today is Saturday, so I did not exercises today. And also took whole day easy.

 I) 3^rd day of workshop. Today was quite a mix of energies, sharing, physical practices,more intimate sessions. Again very intensive with beautiful session in the evening. People prepared room so beautifully, creating incredibly soft and caring energy in this way. Sometimes is interesting how little is necessary to completely change energy in the room. I got quite into processes in the night after the session, some old crap showed up, personality looking for reasons why to be unhappy and feel miserable. I tied to not get controlled by it and I think it worked somehow, because I could go sleep better.

 Strong day today, with mix of lot of emotions and feelings. I got couple of good reminders and lessons. Ohm mani padme hum.

2.5.2014 – second day of workshop

? W. Tonight I slept moderatelly, classic tendency of people to go sleep late, because they dont know how it is working in the morning. But Im not annoyed about it, it would keep annoying me for whole life, better have fun with it. And in the morning up for morning execise!

Notes: 19x pushups, 4:20 headstand.

 I)Again running! 3^rd day in the row. My legs are not crazy stiff or anything, but I feel them alright. I got again a bit further on the way. Was listening to Ministry – Psalm 69, good music for running! Still enjoying it a lot :)

 II) Today took place first full day of workshop, we went already quite deep. Was very intensive day, connections between people deepened very much. On personal note I realized that I really love assisting, I dont know if its OK how I do it, but I enjoy it immensely. This care about place and stuff helps me to get more connected with space and energy of the workshop just like when I lead my own workshop. So its really amazing to be here.

  Wonderful day, in very loving, close atmosphere. I had wonderful session with few great woman and it was both loving, pleasant and felt authentic. Ohm mani padme hum

1.5.2014 – second day of workshop

I was sleeping tonight at other place, but could sleel well I must say. In the morning I went for morning exerise.

 Notes: 19x pushups, 4:20 headstand.

 I) Again went running today. Could get more far away today, it was again amazing. I run alone and I tried to be a bit faster, it worked out and I felt it quite intensive, but in  great way.

 Morning was in the name of registrations, showing people around and such. I was involved in giving tour to people and in general helping around.

 Afternoon and evening was program. I would love to share concrete things but I cant so I will just say, that after last session I was boiling very much, I got nourished and felt so much energized....

 Was intensive first day indeed! Ohm mani padme hum.