? W. Today I slept well and long. I was dead tired in the evening so went sleep early and woke up easily before alarm at 5:30. Refreshed and nourished, great feeling... hmm :) And in the morning hurray for morning exercise.
I) Staring today with Sun Salutations with 4 reps with 5 second holds and couple of dynamic reps. Felt great, ATM I feel these reps with 5 second holds are great middle way between stretch and warm up, I feel always awesome afterwards and very nicely woken up.
Then I did 5 minutes pushup session, 10x some kind of pushups and then 20 sec pause. It was so difficult! I dont understand it. But definitely great that I did it because I see where I need to work more - upper part.
Third block I was giving some love to my core and ABS for 10 minutes. Barstarz set today. Was hard as hell, but I did whole set. Felt very good, even my muscles pained a lot.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. I wanted to dance a bit more today and to my great delight I could enjoy very nice creative and free weave. Enjoyed dancing today very much.
II) Later in the morning I went to a client. I think it was my first home-visit in my hometown since I started my carrier. But not because I would try to avoid it, simply because nobody was interested. But its better to work in salon, it takes less time for me and for client its good to leave his/her environment. Treatment itself was nice, I could not do much physical techniques because of circumstances of a client, but I wish to client it will work well for her.
III) Afternoon other client, very nice and song treatment. I was very happy to feel client so well and could copy with the needs. Its not always so easily possible and its always great gift if it is like this.
IV) In the evening I went on a date with a friend. It was for me v.important and v.difficult thing to do. I have great desire for this friend and I needed to clear things between us and inside me. So I asked to meet her earlier and on this date I told her what I feel to her and my desires about her. As a matter of confidence I cant share about her, but for me it was very strong thing to do. I never met woman to tell her that I want her sexually (when I feel love to a woman its much easier). And that feeling before I told her was overwhelming... But I had to tell her, because it was matter of a health of my soul. After we parted, still as a friends, I felt like something in me is healing and releasing and it was very nice feeling of freedom.
It make life so much easier to be honest about feelings to people.... there is nothing what can go wrong. Even if that person decides to not meet ever again - its how it should be. But this feelings of not expressing what I feel and what drives me I feel very destructive for me. And I also want to have clear relationships with friends so its very important to say how things are and not pretending something because what I feel is "not appropriate".
Very long and intense day today. But at the days like this I grow and learn a lot. Ohm mani padme hum.
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