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Afternoon was quite interesting, my cell phone set itself into radio-off mode and I was in this way cut from receiving calls or SMS and I did not knew. I found out 2 hours later and consequences led me into long walk trip to meet my friend. With this friend its often so unpredictable and I have to really relax into whatever comes to come by. Of course if its about my borders and my time-limits and such its something else, but in case Im free in this, its just a ride in the mystery of life. We spend together nice evening and also connected with my beloved on skype. It was for me new and interesting situation to skype with my wife and girlfriend together and feel no hatred or tension but love and mutual compassion. I felt so much love to my wife and my friend... so much gratitude that such event can be relaxed and in love. I love them both very much and deep so it means a lot to me. I would like to, et again, point out importance of honesty and need to show whats here without hiding potentially painful things. In the end, it makes whole thing much less painful and even uplifting. We went sleep rather early today.
18.7. - After some sleep we spend lots of time together in bed, speaking about things what burden us and interest us and what we dont understand. My friend needed to clear whats this situation all about and wanted to be clear about feelings of mine and my wife about meeting her. We had no sex till very late tonight, it was quite hard for me, because I felt quite horny and felt urge after deeper and closer connection with my friend. But I felt great, that my friend is not submissing to my needs, but honour herself and her feelings and borders. Its very important for me to feel OK in any relationship, that I can trust that the other wont do things he/she dont want to.
We also made some work with dogs of my friend and also went swimming to nearby lake with dogies, it was also quite challenging to bike in, literally, pack consisted from 2 humans on bike and 2 dogs. It was demanding, because of need to be on tip of the toes, alert all the time. Swimming was also great and I really enjoyed swimming naked in such clear water and wash away all sweat and stickiness of hot summer day.
In the evening something changed and we made sweet love together. It felt very different then last time we met. I can not say how still, but it felt somehow more closer, sweeter, more present then last time.
It was very long, rich, challenging, hot and lovely day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
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