91kg same like yesterday. Just noting. Else I slept well and good tonight. I slept a bit more in the morning, could not get up at 5, but 5:15 worked well. Dont remember any dreams and in the morning hurray for morning exercises.
Notes: 30x pushups (27+3), 4:40 headtsand.
I) I started with Sun Salutations, felt quite clear to do 4 reps with 5 second holds and continue with dynamic reps. It was great, good ration between stretching and warm up and I like dynamic reps as well. I can feel that I need more stretching since Im running.
Next I did Burpees for 5 minutes. Today I pushed a bit more and did 43 full reps before alarm rung. I saw lot of space in faster pushups, but it did not stopped good feeling from today performance! It felt great.
I continued then with 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, first did 40 situps then yoga v-sit 60 seconds then 40 situps and 1:30 v-sit, then just 6 situps, could not do more simply. So I did what I could in rest of the time. It was very rich, but I felt how much helped me to hear one quote from 4 Mile movie. Nothing new for me, but it was great reminder in very good way - that progress is possible only outside comfortable zone and pain is here to be conquered, not be controlled by it. Those v-sits were very painful , but I did them without breaks, I was fine to ignore pain and make pause only if muscles fail naturally.
Last I was dancing for about 25 minutes. It was fun, I enjoyed dancing itself very much.
II) Later I was practising on flute for about 45 minutes. Again more advanced songs and I felt even more then yesterday how deep going are these practises. I felt effect of practices made years ago. But anyway, Im so much looking forward for every next song, swallowing music. I felt today so strong how air is whirling under my fingers tips which are cowering flute holes. I never felt it so strong, it was such fascinating feeling. I felt very in tune with my record today. Im surprised by this, because I must've feel it before as well, but I did only today.
III) Later in the morning I did yoga session. I would like to mention at this point that, I think yesterday, I realized that doing yoga gives me energy to be more active. I always thought, that I have period where Im more active so I do yoga, but it seems that yoga give me energy and willpower to be more active in natural way. Else I did 2x1,2,3 1x4,5,6,7 (Shirshasana). Very strong session, I had moments where I wanted to scream (Manipura) and while doing Cobra pose my heart was so open and so much pain come out that I had to stop. Its second time I felt so much pain in my heart, I need to heal this or it will harm me. Once again, great respect to the gifts of yoga and to the great mystery of universe which yoga is path to unveil.
IV) After lunch I did also half of hour Brahmacharia, today I felt some improvement, I felt I an better control my excitement and I felt slightly difference between ebergies of pleasure and those leading to ejaculation. I believe if I continue exploring this I could control those two and not allow myself to ejaculate but be able to receive all pleasure.
V) Afternoon I had a client. Very strong treatment, client who works consciously on herself. I felt we did lot of work today.
After work I had to deal with heart issues. Being in open relationship is not at all always about pleasure and joy, sometimes its harder then closed relationship, because there is more people for whom heart may pain. Its not theyr fault of course, its always my issues and wounds which pains, but heal it! Its not as easy as said. There is lot we inherit and lot to recognize, understand and respectfully let go.
Very rich day today. Be well all. Ohm mani padme hum.
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