20.6.2013 - 78,3kg " + " Since I keep my diet clear (3rd day out of sweets) I believe my body know what its doing with sources I give myself. I feel like eating good atm.
 Tonight I know I had a dream, but even I really tried to keep it in mind I do not remember anything now, but Im happy Im getting more conscious about my dreams, its really long process. In the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting with 5 minutes of warm up 10x SUn Salutations and in rest of time some neck stretches combined with shadowboxing. Then I did pyramid from 14, I did all precisely, but I was slow, didnt finished it to 1 in 10 minutes, only 14-2 so I did that 1 in pause before next phase.
 Next phase was tough 5 minutes of ABS training, I chose holds in many positions today, its always very juicy... for 5 minutes I had really enough.
 Rest of the time, about 20-25 minutes I was dancing, today it was great, I even experienced something very special during dancing. I was a bit in pain in my sides from previous exercises, nothing major, but I felt it but I felt it good, not a harming pain or something and I was giving attention to these feelings and was dancing and dancing and all the sudden from this pain come incredibly pleasant feeling, it was like making love with that pain, it still felt pain, but at the same time pleasure, it was very nice and interesting. I have strong connection to pain for some time, but I felt it like I really fell in love with pain today, I felt like pain is my teacher, guide, advisory and, after today experience, even lover... feeling pain gives me energy, juice, motivation (its even preverb - if you cant any further, push the gas), brings life to me. I understood lots of things today thanks to this experience.
 I also realized something a bit later - Im normally, during dancing, slapping my ass in order to strengthen skin and to give love and energy to my ass - it was for years part of my body which I didnt loved at all and was very mean in my thoughts so Im corecting this now during dancing. Well, today I felt something coming out from area of my sacrum and ass, energetically. It was very unpleasant when it went out of me, but then it was oposite very nice. I got feeling, that this started my closer connection to experience of pain and its understanding. It also work, as I just realized right now, for my theory, that experience of pain belongs to energetic level of Svaristana chakra together with pleasure, that these two are simply like brother and sister OR lovers, not even 2 sides of same coin.
 Today dancing was also rich in one other thing - I was so deep in flow today, my limbs were numb, but my being danced alone, totally surrendered and enjoying whats happening atm, beautiful.
 II) I have had clients afternoon, but the called off (2 out of 3) so I did something for me instead and did yoga. Fair 2 hrs one, just I replaced 2 last hand standing practices with Yamishirshasana, I didnt wanted to get totally done before last client today. I dont have much to say today, I feel somehow what happened as my own and that I want to let it work before framing it in words, maybe I will write something later - maybe not. But it was again very strong, very strong, lots of buckets of filth and fears come out today, its incredible how much of this shit can fit in me. So much fears, so much fears inside me....
 III) I was happy that those clients could not come today, Im sure I would make it, but even one client was enough really... 31°C in room no matter how I let the air flow through the flat. Intensive for both of us.

 Im so grateful for today, I feel like I got so much precious gifts today and Im happy to share them here, it would be shame to not share.

 What gifts brought .life to you today?