18.3.2013 - 77,3kg " - " thats a huge drop, seems my boy really needed a lot of resources to do what it needed. Considering that I did almost nothing demanding yesterday.
 Else I slept well and nice tonight. I KNOW I had a dreams tonight and I also remember that I wanted to remember them but all is gone. Have to put notebook and pen to my bed really.... In the mornig after some waking up straight for morning exercise.
 I) Starting today with Sun Salutation in dynamic, precise way, I tried to be as present and conscious as possible, I felt a bit numb, but I really wanted to do proper exercises today so I slowed down when I felt like and sped up when I felt like.
 Next 10 minutes I spend with Kata1, very carefully and very consciously exercised, I was in the beginning very not powerful but I slowly found my power and in the end I could exercise Kata1 in more interesting dynamic way. It was actually very interesting, I felt like focus inside me and on my body after each rep helped a lot. I mean - I did it in this way: rep on each side, then stand and felt inside me, looking whats happening, how I really feel and when I felt like I know I did another reps on each side and so on. In the end I could exercise flawless. No pushing involved.
 3rd 10 minute block I was taking care of my ABS, today I chose hard way, mix of bit of Brastarz exercises and lot of my exercises, it was very rich, in the end I could not do anything anymore. it felt great :)
 Last about 10-12 minutes I was dancing, it wasnt easy at all today. But I could have fun, even my body did not felt so fine. I tried to be careful to myself, but not lazy out :)
 I would like to also mention, that today on pushup/chinups I made record and it was 6 pushups/5 full chinups. Its in total 11 reps and my long-time dream milestone. Next one is 20 (10x pushup /10x chinup). Ultimately my dream is to be able to do 50 reps of either.
 II) Afternoon I did 2hrs yoga. I felt and still feeling it very special today and I decided to write my setup:
 1. 10x Sun Salutations
 2. yoga warm up exercises
 3. Udianabandha for 10 minutes - was very strong today, Im slowly getting used to this exercise and for couple of seconds I felt today very new space for me, its hard to describe, but it felt like I see universe inside me... dont know what to think about it, if it was just some mental construction or just visualization of my feeling... it was beautiful non the less.
 4. Padahastasana - today was very special and nice, I could not go so much into position, but I felt my legs and first chakra so nice, I mean... I felt my legs so present, "real" I felt them so strong as part of me, it felt great.
 5. Ardha-chandrasana - still feeling like there is universe to explore with this asana, even its going much better, I value this asana as best spine shaper for me :)
 6. Trigonasana - its going very well lately, I can both keep my arm up and wide stand and relax in it, Im even prolonging holds from next exercise, I feel I need to have something to aim for - especialy because its 3rd chakra asana. I feel so mega strong after this one, it really makes Manipura spin.
 7. Stitha-prathanasana - today I got into such a beautiful sensation in the end, I felt hard to continue, I believe I got a gift to experience not commonly experienced aspect of Anahata... very nice <3
 8. Sethu Bandha Sarvangasana - I feel this asana nicer and nicer, its still hard, but way not so much as in the beginning. I feel soon I could do it for whole duration, I think reason that I cant now is more in my mind then real physical reason - my mind blabering that I cant stay in such a pose for so long time.... pfffr... but I will overcome it I believe, just relax and breath, dont push it anywhere, just enjoy.
 9. Badrasana - this asana is my favorite atm, I felt today so strong sensation in the end, in my crutch and legs, I also felt I can relax into this pose very much today and I feel even those 4 minutes are not enough to get into this pose so I prolong it for 5 minutes from next set. Amazing asana.
 10. Shalabhasana - another fascinating asana, I feel this asana as one of best indicators of state of my second chakra. Today I felt there is something stuck in there...
 11. Supta Vajrasana - still difficult one, but its working much better each attempt, today I felt again a bit better. This asana activates third chakra for me so strong, that its crazy - I found out Im so afraid of this energy... its good to do this asana so my system gets used to this energy.
 12. Bhujangasana - today I could do proper position for whole time, even belly was almost on the ground. Love this asana - it teach me so much about my back and heart at the same time. And relax of course. Its one of asanas where I feel extremely strong how important is to relax... in very "practical" obvious way.
 13. Ardha Marciandrasana - very rich pose, very strongly activates 5th chakra for me and is golden for my hip joint and all atached tendons and muscles. I can turn more every attempt.
 14. Sarvangasana - today it was a bit painful on my back, I even had to stop shortly before 3 minutes limit. But truth is, that Im still correcting this pose and finding way how to position in Sarvangasana, since I know its for 5th chakra it changed the way I feel is important to do this asana.
 15. Yoga mudra - still very challenging since I know better how to do it, new way is getting less painful and Im able to feel more 4th chakra and focus on Anahata during exercise and its indeed very powerful asana... its always very strong afterwards.
 16. hand stand practice - I do this exercise where I stand only on hands and my legs are on my arms. Its quite interesting to do it, I feel it very yoga-like and I even thing I saw asana similar to what I do, but Im still not able to unglue legs from hands. but I feel much more stable and sure in this position by now.
 17. Arm stand practice exercise - I do this exercise to learn full hand stand, crawling on the wall high as much as possible with foots and in lower position (as high as I can manage) to do pushups for shoulders. very demanding exercise, very hard, very effective, very helpful, bringing lot of fears from being upside down on my arms. Big challenge for me.
 18. Shavasana - slowly getting better with disciplining my mind, but Vipasana could help me , if I could kick my butt to do it! :)
 It was very strong exercise today, I was shaking hours after exercises and I still feel it. Powerful, very powerful. Very helpful, yoga activates for me very strong transformation processes.

 I realized today important thing - yoga gives me answers on situations in my life, first I realized this and then I started to think - how can exercise give me answers on questions in my life. And then I understood what happen - I feel like I could live, thanks to yoga, what I read many times in books - that my "reality" is but a reflection of me. Thats why sensations and feelings during asanas can give me answers - because questions and situations in my life are but reflections of my deep states and feelings and, from my point of view, thats what yoga do for me - yoga allows me to feel feelings and emotions and see processes which are else hidden beyond my personality and/or ego or whatever. I again feel a bit closer to realization, that all I need I already have... very rich and fruifull day today :)
 Love to you all, guys <3