28.3.2013 - 81,1kg  " - " I want to start to slow down with loosing weight, I dont want to be skinny, I want to have muscle mass and cultivate my body to be able to do Calisthenics and other crazy stuff :) But I still have lots of fat arounc my belly, ass and thights, so its still fine, till 78 its ok.
 I had problems to fall asleep, my mind radio was so fetching stuff with climbing, that it took me quite some time to fell asleep. Then I slept well till 6. And straight for morning exercise!
 I) Starting with 5 minutes of 10x SS and shadowboxing as warm-up and then 10 minutes of Pyramide, today I started from 13 and it went better then I though! I had to help myself only on 9-7 parts and only for couple of pushups. In total it means I did 93 pushup, 93 situps and 93 squats (I did one 2serie extra). It was rich, truth to be said, but Im happy to make it so smooth. I had 1 minute to spare at the end. Im realy courious if its possible to drag it to pyramide from 15 in 10 minute limit. Challenge accepted, but not timely limited :)
 Next 5 minutes I did belly muscles, didnt wanted to overdoit, even then I felt at the end like it was on edge. I did classical mix of what-comes-on-my-mind. Its much more fun to listen to body what to do then go by some routine.
 Last 20 minutes I spend dancing... :3 What can I say, awesome, today it was easy to get into flow and shake my body properly, it was awesome.
 II) After breakfest I was painting a bit... well, no matetr how it sounds, it was about to correct one my painting on the wall, it as painted somehow badly and it falls apart so I have to sometimes corect some parts. Its very interesting to paint, even when only like this, it realy requires tons of practice and skills to paint, its like carving on a match with chainsaw, or thats my first impresion of what it takes to paint :)
 III) Later I was doing some Kumihimo. Its logn time since I did this, its good for fingers and focus and also final jewelry is quite nice and original. Its more then a year since I made something, it was nice to refresh this skill.
 IV) Afternoon I did Hathayoga. Today it was fantastic, I dedicated whole exercise not only to Shiva, but also to relaxing my body and exploring what it takes and gives. I come t oconclusion, that its imposible t odo yoga without relaxing, I know it might sound like "of course its like this, he needs to mention that?" but one thing is to "know" it and second is to realy understand and today I realy understood, its simply too demanding to hold everyhting or go to possition with strength, you would need to have superhuman powers and you would proabdly harm yourself at the end anyway. So I was focusing on relaxing ALL muscles possible, I think I discovered souple of muscles I never know I can feel and I also discovered how much muscles Im using unnecesarilly. I was exepriencing lots of plesant sensations as well today, it come with relaxation too... :) So result is: I want to feel even deeper into my body, take control over all those muscles and relax and shape them into possition I want to make, without strength, just focus and intention.

 I would liek to share one thing. Im doing pushups every day and Im lately geting to state which I was experiencing years ago as well - I feel like Im not using any muscles when doing pushups, I know it may sound weird and I cant explain it, just describe how I feel it. Its like I do all movement but dont activate muscles and in the moment I THINK Im geting tired, I start activate more and more muscles and starting to feel pain in them and then I have to stop. Its very fascinating, its interesting idea, that if I could stay relaxed and not activate mind and muscles how long I could do those pushups :)
 Im experiencing something similar on bike. When Im dificult place, I try to relax totaly legs and jsut do the movement of pedals. I experienced same sensation like with pushups, legs starts to numb and pain when my mind decide, that its about time to feel my legs like that.
 I realy want to explore this! Its of course possible, that reason is very simple and its that Im using my muscle system better so it dosnt feel like activating seperate muscles, but whole system where muscles suport each other in healthy way and when I start thinking this system broke up and stop working in harmony and therafor to pain.