6.5.2013 - 79,5kg " - " Under 80kg again, not so fused about weight anymore as long as its not growing too fast, its challenge for my mind, because I have fixed in me, that I should loose weight, but this time I want to get mass in muscles so I cant really keep loosing weight, ideally I should keep gaining slowly as body grows. I feel that I have to process this in order to advance in my path.
 Else I slept very well tonight, dont remember any dreams. In the morning after waking up at computer straight for morning exercise!
I) Today starting with classic 5 minutes heat up followed by belly muscle exercises, today I did 5 fair rounds of TM core WO, it was very vital. At the end I did long hold in V-Sit with stretches in the end, its my enhance of V-sit, because I feel its more effective then just hold in position without movement. However I feel its important to first hold for at least half of minute in order to connect to this position and find good balance. Today I also felt how effective this exercise is, it really works with everything in core area - legs, multiple belly muscles, even back. I understood why its so vital pose today.
 Next I did 5 minutes of pushups, this is new thing I added into my exercises, I was always a bit afraid of doing pushups in time frame, that I wont make it, but I feel I grow into point, where Im fine with just breathing for minute if my body is not able to continue. It went better then I though tho, did 58 pushups in this frame, looking forward for repeating it in the future :) After pushups I did 5 minutes of squats and did 85 of them, I feel lot of reserves to do more in those 5 minutes, but for today I felt it great.
 Last about 20 minutes I spend dancing, even my body was exhausted in core area, I could dance quite well and joyful and I enjoyed it very much :)
 I have to also mention my experience from post-morning exercise. I did as usualy pushup and backside pushups and I again experienced this animal energy rising in me and I had to scream again, it was so strong, that I could not stop it and took pillow to scream into pillow, I felt like something melted in me and had to go out. Afterwards I did new record in pull/chin ups, did 5x Pullup followed by 4 chinups, which makes 9 and its my new life-record, my last was 5pull/3chinups from about 2 years ago. Good feeling, my friends! It was psychical border for me.
  II) Later this morning I did yoga, I have lately strong resistance to do yoga. I think it may also be just an image, but I feel like its bringing me so much, that my personality resist to  such changes yoga brings. Especially because Im doing more asanas on Anahata. My current setup is:
Heat up exercises: 10x Sun Salutation followed by 5 exercises to move neck, spine and stimulate energy in body.
1) Padahastasana(1) - slowly progressing, I feel Padahastasana as one of most vital asanas for me, I feel amazing heal and help it gives to my bladder meridian and legs.
2) Andra-chandra asana(2) - love this asana, because there is so much to explore and work and its one of best asanas which learns me to form my body as it needs and as I want to.
3) Trigonasana (3) - today I enjoyed it so much, its hard for me to keep upper hand up, but this hardship gives me amazing opportunity to play with healing energy (visualization of white stream of light healing painful places) but keep focus on chakras I should keep focus on and also after doing this I feel like side I just exercised is double in size, powerful, strong, able to do anything, not to mention how beautifully this asana stretches gal bladder meridian.
4) "standing pose with hands together on heart" (4) - dont know name of this asana sadly, its new one Im doing and I feel its too early to share something about doing this asana.
5) Badhrasana (1) - love this asana so much, it brings me so much lessons in relaxation and pleasure as well, motivates me to work with my back as well. Still lots of work anyway, but I dont care so much about it, its working anyway..
6) Shalabhasana (2) - very powerful asana as well, challenging for my back but also very helpful and strengthening one. I feel this asana as one of most healing for my second chakra.
7) Vadrjasana (3) - today I noticed big progress in this asana, my knees and thighs are more flexible and stronger and I didnt felt any hurting kind of pain.
8) Bhujangasana (4) - lovely asana, very difficult for me, but it opens my chest so great and I feel it so healthy for my spine and back muscles. Alsoeffect on opening of Anahata is amazing. Realy great asana.
9) Halasana (1) - after long time I chose this asana and it was good bet, I checked some images on internet and I do it a bit wrong and looking forward to correct it in next exercises :)
10) Bekhasana (4) - new asana, very nice to exercise arms in work behind the back and also I feel it very very effective on my 4th chakra, I feel it as it activates Anahata on many levels and allows to heal what needs to be healed and power up what needs some juice.
11) Sarvangasana (?) - another bottomless source of evolution of feeling my body and explore myself in positioning in this asana
12) Yoga mudra (4) - I discovered tha I did it wrong for long time on last tantra course so I started to do it properly today, main fail was in siting, I though I have to sit betwean my legs, but I should sit in diamond position, it makes this asana completely different and bringing much more then I ever though.
13) Shirshasana (?) - And another big challenge, this asana is another level then most of others on execution level, but I like to work on this asana very much, its great for my neck, balance and I feel it enormously vital for changing patterns in my brain, because this upside down pose combined with need to balance creates whole universe of new feelings and sensations which are evoking panic and dizziness if I let it, but if I focus on it, then all these fears and panics are gone and Im slowly getting more sure in this pose and Im able to hold unsupported balance for longer and longer, second by second.
 14) Shawasana (?) - today it was better, I could handle my thoughts betetr then other days and relax my body well.
 I felt very nice after this set and I hope my resistance to do it will be weaker then my will to take those gifts which are hidden in practicing yoga.
 III) Afternoon I had clients, today I enjoyed my work again very much, Im getting back into this playful, creative (and also... most effective) way of massaging like in the beginning of my practice and I love i.

 Great day today again, yoga helped me a lot and I felt really great for most of the day.