23.5.2013 - 78,3kg " - " what a surprise, seems all crap is out of me already, in only 2 days, thats great.
 I slept very hard and deep again today, dont remember any dreams. And in the morning straight for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes heatup, it went better today, had more time for shadowboxing, good start. After heat up I gav love to my ABS, doing mostly Barstarz exercises mixed with my own stuff (situps, frozen V-sit etc...) Again I gave all I could today, in the end I felt my ABS real good and used.
 Then I did 5 minutes Burpees, it went good on breath department, but I could do only 38 reps in 5 minutes, really want to work more on doing more of them, work on using strength in faster pace. After Burpees I did squats, first 60 normal squats (shoulder-wide stand) and then about 15 with knees together, its fun those, especially on balance, it took 5 minutes.
 Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes, first it was very uneasy with body feeling all previous exercises, but with time I could dance stiffness out and enjoy creative dancing.
 II) Later before noon I did yoga. I felt so unusual during exercises today, Im still a bit in that energy. I did Udianabandha before asanas and had VERY strong sensations (waves through spine, that I had to stop and do whatever body has to do in order to process that energy) and during asanas I felt like performing very sacred ritual and it felt like energies are flying around very fast and wide. It was one of most interesting yoga exercises I ever did. I feel that It wasnt good at all to stop doing yoga since Body, heart and Soul training week 4 weeks ago, I feel how important it is for me to recuperate fast enough from exercises, to keep my energy up and flowing. To not get stiff. And also - it brings to me so much knowledge about me. I felt extremely important this yoga set today. And Udianabandha definitely stays in my setup, afetr today experience I have no doubts that its very important to do it. I still have too much erotic energy flying around, but its for sure less then without Udianabndha and I made to not masturbate too for lots of days so without Udianabandha I would probably have to or I would have wet dreams. I dont want either.
 III) Afternoon I went on adult playground. Starting with couple of rounds then rounds with shadowboxing parts, then some more running... way to hard for my taste, good I started running a bit, obviously its something where Im too week to let it be. Then dragonwalking, I think I did a bit more then last time. Then 50x Burpee, went hard again, NO FUCKING SMOKING ANYMORE (screaming on my unconsciousness). Then some mixed exercises on bars, I could not do much, heat up exhausted me quite and I had in my mind so strong, that I have to work on my flyers for Shiatsu instead of exercising, that it took my energy away. But you know, its fine, I did some fair exercise and it costs me just time, but its good time-spent on this playground. Even if I would be there 15 minutes it would be worthy.
 IV) In the evening I went to tantra course. Today it was quite a challenge, we had craaaazyyyy long heat up exercises, it pissed me off so much, we never have time to do stuff planed for a class, but when this lector is there alone, like yesterday, he do so long heat up with so much blabla that it makes me crazy and yesterday it was extreme. I dont understand this guy, its totally great for me to do practice in course, but I would rather want to spend the time with practicing new stuff or talking about our experiences or do meditations, but when we spend that time doing heat-up exercises which we all should do normally often before yoga, I feel it as wasting of time. Anyway, I would love to be able to surrender to it and explore what is giving me to do focused super-long heat up exercises, I tried to do it, but felt from certain point, that there is no changing in effected areas after certain time. Anyway, we did new asana and talk about 5th chakra. I have lots of resistance with 5th chakra, its also maybe why its pissing me off :)

 Great day today, long, demanding, difficult, challenging, pleasant. I taught a lot about myself.