17.5.2013 - 79,3kg " - " as expected... :)
 Tonight I slept well and deep, dont remember any dreams and woke up at 5:20. After sp,e waking up at computer straight for morning exercises.
I) Today I made new setup, much longer and very different in philosophy:
 1) starting with joga heat up exercises, 10x Sun Salutation, head rotations and other spine, neck and chakra exercises, at the end 2 minutes of Padahastasana, this takes 20 minutes and its unpredictable how exactly long this lasts so Padahastasana is extra in rest of time after heat up exercises.
 2) next 10 minutes of Udianabandha , amazing exercise, it was boring for long time for me to practice Udianabandha, but after some time, it starts working very strong, spine is heating up, today I felt so strong grounding like not for a long time, my legs were shaking no matter what I thought or felt, just as energy flew through. Very powerful technique.
 3) then I did 10 minutes ABS, long version of 1 round of TM core WO, over a minute in plank and over a minute doing 1arm/1hand part, then 90 seconds of frozen V-sit (it was probably longer, but hey). But truth to be said, I felt doing 3 or 4 rounds with shorter periods more effective, this changing probably use more muscles, just making mental note. I felt lately, that it seems vital to make supersets. Joga approach is good, but with different exercises, or I dont know, Im exploring this.
 4) then I did shawasana for 10 minutes. On start it went well, I could relax my body very well and was focused, then something happen and I totally flew away into mind and planing, it took me good couple of minutes to return and it was so strong return, that I wasnt sure if I fell asleep or not. I felt this difference between being in body and escaping in mind so strong. I think I might was too harsh in bringing me focus back to present, I should be nice to mi mind, not enslave it, just integrate my mind as valuable and useful servant.
 5) Last part I was dancing for about 15 minutes, at first it wasnt so good, but then I got into it and could dance from heart and not from mind at least a bit.

 In total, this exercise took about 70 minutes, very good start of the day, not much strengthening in physical way, but I feel vital to sometimes do morning exercise also in more spiritual way, I dont always have time during the day for spiritual practices or joga (lately very little).

 I feel lately Im starting to get to the point, where is frightening though where my way bring me and I feel like my personality is resisting and backing up. Its great challenge, its not easy at all, I know Im coming to change in my life, to big change, important change. Point where nothing will be same again. I dont know what it will be, if my planed workshops, my work or something totally new.

 < TO BE CONTINUED > Leaving to Beltain today with friends for couple of days so wont add more entries before Sunday at least. Enjoy weekend and lots of love to you all <3

19.5: Travel to Beltain and all went well, we had nice, relaxing evening in nature in old surface sand mine.