80kg " = " same weight strikes back, no further comments
I slept well tonight, I think I again had a dreams, but could not grasp them. Hower in the mornign up for morning exercises.
I) Today starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, but I changed it today and made holds longer on the start and making them shorter with each new pair of reps. From 5 seconds in first pair of reps and 1 second in last pair of reps. And I must say, it was v.bright idea. I felt MUCH better then doing it other way around. I felt much better stretched and flexible and warmed up.
Next 5 minutes I spend with running with neck stretches and shadowboxing. As I was lazy in last week I felt like Im not so good in kicks - I did mainly kicks today. I need to do more kicks I realized.... but its how it is - you exercises not to prove how good you are, but to get better.
Another 5 minutes I spend doing Burpees. I still feel them even now, truth to be said... well, I did only 35 of them, but I did my max at least. I wish to work on not loosing my form so fast, but having no clues how so far. But I believe its possible to change this believe as is possible to change any other believe.
Next 10 minutes I dedicated to my ABS and core by doing alternating of situps and yoga v-sit. God, it was crazy today, Im not sure why, if I was stubborn on precision or my muscles got weak so much (which I dont believe, I needed my core and ABS a LOT in last days). However Im not afraid that I was chickening out or something, it was fair practice and I felt it good and rich.
Last about 15 minutes I was dancing. Despite stiffness and exhaustion from previous exercises - it was quite fun today. I tried to play a bit more with hips and surrounding areas and had fun while doing so :)
II) Afternoon I did yoga session. Something over 1 hour long. I felt it v.good for a fact of not doing yoga for almost a week. I could focus quite good and I felt how good it is to focus on what Im doing. I felt quite motivate, even I also felt a bit of tendency of running away from exercise, but this quitter feeling was quite soft only, easy to deal with. Whole exercise felt good, thanks to being able to focus a bit better then usually and afterward feeling was very empowering. Love yoga.
For rest of the day I did numerous small activities about my official papers and workshop and bit here and there. In the evening watching great movie - The Best Offer . Nice, relaxing day. I had strange mood where I felt like I wont meet anyone really. But I know its some kind of protection from feeling something I dont like, Im afraid its too deep and shadowed for me to see it, but I know that its lurking down there. I so wish to not need this slow/careful approach of my feelings, to be on level where I dont need this sort of protection, on a level that I can be so honest to myself, that I dont need such protection. But thats where where I am and this is valuable realization. Definitely worth day today. Ohm mani padme hum.
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