78,4kg " + " I did not made fasting yesterday, had wolf hunger in the evening... O:)
I slept well and even remembered mildly a dream. But it evaporated so quick, that I made to note only few things, It was about guy who was like agent smith from Matrix and this guy manipulated other guy in that dream (which was me) to do stuff. Smith had lots of fun doing so, even it did not worked out later, he wasnt atached to manipulate me "right", it was simply fun for him. And this me in the dream slowly become wolf and started to fight with this smith. I know there was some very great plan in the dream, but it evaporated before I made to note it. I just remember it was interesting dream. I also realized other thing. It feels like when I wake up from dream, that my system wants to keep that dream for itself, it dont want me to remember it or share it! its cleaning all up from memory immediately after wake up. Interesting. I would like to remember those dreams, those are amazing stories v.often!
Anyhow, in the morning up for morning exercises.
I) Starting today with 5 minutes warm up - 6x SS, running with stretches and shadowboxing, again I was surprised how demanding this can be in just 5 minutes, great. Then I did pyramid from 14, today I had about 1m20sec left when finished and did again up to 3, while alarm rung at 4. I had quite a crisis at 9-6, but made it without loosing a flower. I felt like Im slow again, I mean, my explosive power is slower, seems I need to adjust my plan again to have more Burpees and stuff like this, but at the same time I feel good to not alternate daily fast/strong exercises. Lets see.
Then I did 10 minutes of ABS practices. It was crazy... but in the name of endurance I went through it. I did combination of Barstarz exercises and both dynamic and static ones. Long time before alarm I was finished, but I continued anyway. I found, that if I do stretching exercises I can continue a bit longer afterwards (y). It was rich and great.
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. After previous exercises it took me quite a while to dance off stiffness, but in the end it worked out and I had also fun and joy.
II) Later in the morning I went to healing to one friend. Shes studying v.prestigious healing school and I have experience with other students from this school. It was v.different then other healings of this type and I felt it v.good what she told me and what she did. It gave me some new points of view on my, yet still, supressed sexuality and how my being is working with that. I felt that session v.precious.
III) Well, for rest of the day, I was quite in deadened, frozen, rigid state. Just resting, playing games, watching movies, this wasting time of stuff... I must say, I feel fraightened by this state, I dont know how to escape it. Its crazy. I dont want to do anything. Just be in my hole. I dont know whats happening. Its been ages since I felt like this.
But anyway, despite my feelings, I felt today as good day, I did only what I wanted. Strange period in my life. Ohm mani padme hum
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