80kg " - " In the end I didnt made full day of fasting, in one moment I had feverish taste for some crap food and I did, but it allowed me to see something new - I found out what it gives me to eat this crap - it gives me reason to blame myself for not being strong and not having strong will. Why I do that? Because its nice excuse to not develop and to be lazy - I ate crap, so its fine to feel bad and not work on my life. Its sometimes so funny how crazy constructions Im able to make to throw sticks under my own feet...
Else I slept good, long, but in the morning I felt like i could sleep even more. I think this deadening continues, I really wish to find out what it is... I even did no morning exercises, but I was half counting with it even before. Originally I wanted to make free day tomorrow, but I will just hopefully swap days, lets see tomorrow morning :) If any morning will be for me of course, one never know.
Well, this day lasted in the name of being with my beloved. We spend lots of time making love, very beautiful and loving. I did nothing more really today. But on other side - its lots of physical and energetic work as well! Interesting day today I must say, it wasnt all about love and sunshine and rainbows, but v.nice day indeed. Ohm mani padme hum.
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