7.10.2013 - last full day before goodbyes

80,5kg " -= " not worth to mention so no comment
 I slept v.good tonight, but anyway wasnt really refreshed in the morning, even I got up shortly before alarm rung. I didnt felt like sleeping more either tho, this strange "middle" feeling... Anyhow - after waking up I jumped into morning exercises.
 I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up, 6x new way SS and running with stretches + shadowboxing. Followed by ABS exercises, first 4 rounds of TM core WO. I still feel this low motivation, that it takes lot of energy to do stuff and overcome difficulties and tendencies to quit. But I made it in the end and with almost 80 seconds frozen v-sit, which felt good. And of course, this exercise is always rich. For the rest of time I was doing mixed exercises, mostly random, dynamic ones. I think I even did some stuff I did never before, but it felt good and rich. I felt I did maximum I could today.
 Today was dancing day so for rest of the time I was dancing, it means about 30 minutes. I felt like I cant really MOVE properly. Like, yes, I was dancing, but my pelvis and in general body felt stiff and not moving. It improved a bit when I focused on it, but it was a bit fight. I was also dancing a lot in patterns and it wasnt all so easy to escape them. But it dosnt mean I would feel it wasnt good to dance, contrary. I think it was best I could do today morning, to try to move everything in me.

 I did no more exercises today. But I spend whole day with my beloved, just simple joys of life, today was beautiful day so we went also outside and to play a bit outside as well :) Else we spend lots of lovely moments together in full intensity of our love. Its incredible, but I feel like our love is still going deeper and deeper. And also beauty of our love making have increasing tendency. Im sure this is possible only because our connection and love is so big and deep, our openness to each other. Simply beautiful. I feel it in my whole body even when Im writing this, its nothing I can really control. Nothing to be ashamed off, because its not achievement or matter of skill, its just openness and love without needs and craving for something. I hope you all have the same in your lives, dear readers. I wish to live this to everybody, because I know no better. Ohm mani padme hum.