78,7kg " += " Not having a comment today.
I slept quite good today. I dont remember any dreams. I also set up alarm bad nd woke up late. But on other side - its been some time since I felt slept out so good. Well, without any extra delays up for morning exercise.
I) Starting today with 5 warm up. 6x sun salutation, running and shadowboxing. Then 5 minutes of Burpees... yoy, those were hard, I stopped counting around 25, but I think at least 30 I did. I was v.surprised how hard it was on my legs, maybe yesterday exercises? I dont know, but I did it with honours I would say.
Then 10 minutes of ABS and core exercises, alternating yoga v-sits and situps, 30/1min/30/90secs/30/45secs when alarm rung. I though I will die, it was hard, I must've go over lots of painful feelings, but its good feeling to finish with honors. You know, with other muscle group I wouldnt be so hard, its not much worst then harmed muscle, but belly muscles are tough enough to endure almost anything.
Well, last about 20 minutes I was dancing, it was somewhere in the middle, in some moments fun, in some couldnt get outta routine. But it was definitely great to dance. That feeling of moving whole body is simply irreplaceable.
For the rest of day I did not more exercises. It was v.hard day, I had quite heavy argument about money where environment where I grow up collide with environment where my"opponent" grew up and this is hardest kind of arguments, because its not about "reason" but basically about opinion about life and living itself. Find consensus in this case requires lots of courage. Courage to apologize for deeds of my ego, to consciously stash horns and claws and look on situation from 3rd person point of view. Incredibly difficult. And of course, these arguments have no winner, both sides simply have to loose and pay with separation, low energy and distance. Only open heart can fix that in my opinion, being close with "opponent", feel into each other hearts, use no words, just feel that the person is still there and let be felt that Im still here for the other. Most difficult of that all. But beautiful band aid. It wont heal opened wound, not, but thats not band aid do, band aid also just help that would is not opened even more and not infected. Love is band aid and ultimately, universal cure, but I would be hypocrite to claim that Im able to control my ego so well to do it this way, but thats the way I see.
But there was also nice times, as it always is and when I bid my beloved farewell, it was deep, pure, true and powerful. How you deal with such a strong arguments?
Ohm mani padme hum.
EDIT:
I forgot, it was sooo beautiful day today, almost like end of summer, easy to be in t-shirt. We spend couple of hours in park with kids and such, having fun on swing and just being.I feel it important to mention, because it might sound, that this day brought only heavy stuff, but it would be pity, because some stuff was worth living for.
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