84,5kg " ++ " - sure, gaining so much muscles... no, gaining fat, eating a lot and eating crap and cant stop it. Having money is great, it just make it so much harder to not buy junk food. Is that reason why I have resistance to have money? If so, I start TODAY to fix this, simply eat healthy and junk less AND gain more money. Big challenge - ACCEPTED.
Else I slept well, but woke up shortly before alarm and had to go to toilet, you know that feeling when you return from toilet in the night, fold into bed and in 1 second alarm ring? &@!#!!! In the morning straight for morning exercise.... wait, I had a dream! And big one! What was it?! Oh gosh, putting pen to bed again, I though there is no way to forget this one, it was so strong in the morning....
Notes: pushups: 0th day - maximum is today 25reps (22 last cycle), headstand - could not do stable headstand I would risk injury to try today, my core was too exhausted.
I) Starting with 5 minutes warm up. 10x old way sun salutations, running with neck stretches, shadowboxing. I made maximum to warm me up, even my body was protesting VERY loudly. Afterwards I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, 4 rounds of TM core WO with couple of extra random exercises. I tried also to be hard, but frankly, I feel so exhausted. Im working out to gather all motivations in me to break through this crisis. I want to, stronger than ever, not let things let me down, ignore pains which drag me down over and over again, break through or die. This time I wont drop of course. I was never so far and I feel if I break through this I will finally reach new level of my life.
So starting now, no shit food, iron-solid training. Only harming pain is excuse I accept, no other pain or exhaustion. And no poor me shit.
I continued with 30 minutes of dancing. Enjoying it a lot. Come through all sorts of stages and feelings, but general feeling is - I enjoyed it, and thats what counts in dancing :)
II) I spend most of the day on Valentine even in one huge bookstore. I was there as part of st.Valentine program, selling my bracelets and giving free Shiatsu mini treatments to whoever asked for it. Most of the time I was just bored because there wasnt many people and I sold only 1 bracelet... But I tried to get what I could from this event, so I browsed books and made propagation of Shiatsu whenever possible. Spend 7 hours there. But it was nice to have a contact with people.
III) While I was writing this, especially part about dancing, I decided to make dancing session. I was tired as hell even for thinking, but it was just stronger than any excuse my system draw. I was dancing for about 1 hour and had lots of fun and joy doing it. It felt so great. I know it wont make me loose weight or anything, it was simply joy :)
Worthy day today again, I think I learned few lessons again. Ohm mani padme hum.
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