84,4kg " ++ " yeah, Im simply there right now and I will spend at least 2 months getting back where I was 2 weeks ago, I have to simply swallow this bitter pill and start working again. AAAARGGGG makes me crazy, 2 bloody weeks and half of year of work is gone.
I slept out today again and it was nice. And in the morning straight for morning exercises.
I) Starting with 10 minutes of Sun Salutations, precise execution of new way SS,this having biceps on ears is quite crazy I must say. My body have lots to learn in this way. It makes whole exercise longer, but its fine, precision is very important. I also realized, that it dosnt only helps body, but more precise I try to be, more present I am during exercise. Its helping.
Then 5 minutes of Burpees, was nasty, but I think I did about 27 of em. Not much, but I was happy I could do it those 5 minutes, its anyway most important, that I did this whole exercise then performance. But anyway I try to do as much on edge as possible.
After Burpees I did 10 minutes of ABS and core practices, random mix. Both dynamic and static exercises, it was very rich, I felt my BAS real good for the rest of the day, means I did what I could, its always good feeling :)
Last I was dancing for about 20 minutes. Today it was fun, enjoyed it quite, seems Im slowly starting to work again properly. Lets see in next days.
II) Afternoon I was at healer for therapy. It was good, even I felt like I need more deeper therapy, because I see and realize lots of things myself, but some things are so deep and hidden, that I dont see them. But this guy is really good and he helped me to realize very important thing. My injury and pain in back maybe originates from inner conflict between me wanting to be alive and other part which tries to be common and grey. And more I want to be alive, more that other part want to make me just surviving. I have to explore this part which makes me dead, understand that part and heal this. Maybe one of the ways will be to be more sensitive to my needs and stand for them. I would like to thank my friend who gave me this therapy, it was v.helpful. Thank you, my friend.
For the rest of day I did no other exercises, I have had a client, but she postponed so I spend whole day being on comp listening to motivation speeches on youtube. It wasnt so easy to listen to it, because of my state which dosnt want to be disturbed and start working on me again, but I did continued for several hours and I felt like it did something. Maybe it dosnt seems so, but I feel today way important day for me. Ohm mani padme hum.
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